Let's shift now.  Umikuwa nerobi sato mingi high school. Mjazi, maisha nerelea, munguwa namu sa idea. Amanza kupata riski ya ke, amanza kujuskulisha na maisha. Musha pata maisha lulukuwa nataka, ilikuwa vipe. Ako kuja nerobi, kwa hanzi ilikuwa na kachashok. Nili kuja nerobi, mz. 206, December apo. Apondo nili kuwa nimi, make decision ya kukuja nerobi. Pelikuwa shule mzuri kuburu-buru. Elikuwa naito 1 gen kem. Nia aposizun na radyu wa tani enyewa nika hanzaku onakweli, watuwa na nerobi wa nabidi isana. Then ilikuwa nana nerobi is too fast for mi, kusumikuwa nikuwa nisha zoya, nadyuwa mombasa watu ni wavibu. Sii wote lakini, mombasa maisha ni slow. So hatadara sana ilikuwa na strago leta kufika top 10, but it was a strago sa I would sing that real competition and it made me now be aggressive and made me crave for more to have a better life. Kisha kukuja nerobi apondo nisa sata apia mzazibaba, ilikuwa mihanzaku jipanga vizuri. So ni kanzaku ona enyewa. No man is limited to just where you come from because alikuwa ametsia bidi isana kwa maisha na, amesa kutupati ya heo maisha sasa enye, alikuwa na taka kutuwa na tukiishi. So I really realised now the sky is the limit. You just envision something and you put your heart to it, everything is possible. And he made me learn from, he made me, he became a role model from now upon. Everything is possible. It's just where you come from does not determine who will be in future. So you have to just know everything is possible if you put your mind to it and put God first. Yeah. I just want to understand you. Why are you in a position maybe to understand the nature of the sacrifice your dad is making maybe to get you the best? Yes, I was in that position because ni kikompera maisha ilikuwa ona ishiki tamu na sayi kuishi asha kwenyumba ikuna kelamtu na rumiake, uno yosana kuna rumiake. So I would see that change, at first ilikuwa so overwhelming kwa sababunga pata kutuka kuishi kwa single room too, now having your room, having now getting access to things like I didn't even have your time na ilikuwa ngumu to afford those things. It was a bit overwhelming but because of going through that humble beginning it made me have principles too now how to live in that environment. Yeah. Because that time now okona freedom you have everything you want in your life good education of course, a good environment nerobi kuna lot of things kuna new friends kuna kuna mziki kuna funkies you still had your dreams of becoming now a journalist? Ah, we get high school ni kansaku, ni kansaku omititom toro kedogo sababu now I'm getting friends so you are kutuka wenebaba sisa li kudya kapa pata wongozik ni kansaku ona marafiki lakini most of my friends sisa oni ilikuwa na kwa karibuna ni kwa mombasa kusibaba ilikuwa friends just from a humble beginning lakini na nerobi some people will just love you for now what you people have not who you are so oni ilikuwa na marafiki wange ni proteja wange ni gizako mambo tori ni kansaku omitotom wakusumbu wa kedogo lakini at some point and then I just got a momentum ni kadyo wenebaba I will lose my focus I will be driven away from my dreams nikiende lena maisha kamaeina oni opi apresha ikianza kwanza sa dili muntua mengi adolescence you can tend to do a lot of crazy things kwanza shule ni likuwa na sumbasa na mara ni kako wa listia punishment sisa and those are not the things nilikuwa na fanya kitambu lakini ni kunaile grupi amarafiki wange fanya wenebaba sia unafura kichwa and that was now one of the things that I was going through piya ni kikuwa high school you have any regret any crazy thing you did in high school you should have told yourself that it's not a problem and maybe it brought you trouble haa if I go to the village if you go to the village mme tumbea ni namaza he he he he mya m syumasa nili kuja nilikuwa nili kuja nilikuwa nili kuja nilikuwa ni nami kuja ni metslewa na nili kuwa nili kuwa I think fom 3 affiliate tulipite tuliko tumenda tulikowa na function kama wanafunzi na marafiki zangu kisha ya nziki gakuya tohilipeqchi a town tu ka ndaku chaza zile ma video gaming sian mi nili kuja around etat na nili kwa na kafi una justizim tukaw gere babiously kwa mga li kwa overprotective na mimi sana kwa mne kwa amtitu twa kwan setenam solo nakisuchana alkwa na ugo pa sana so kukuhia li kwa kuniyagwa nyumba aya li ni wonder lakin di appreciate it kwa nili kwa sa y�m kafi u ya campus i likwa by eight in apa We had to go to school in 6 kwa kwa jumbani. We didn't have the right to come home. We were hoping for the right to come home. But I appreciate that. It was a little bit of a time. But I appreciate that. I was hoping for the right to come home. I think from that now you really learned the hard ways. You try to change your ways. Did you try to change your ways? I tried to change my ways. Kwa kwa mga singe nyoroshu, piya mga mongol kwa nyoroshu asana. Saka mga kwa singe nyoroshu aibo, ningiona it's really okay to do what you really want, you know? Sometimes it's really good to follow rules and to adhere to them. Ya, ya. Uriza pwa wali, maybe, kama kuna senyari ambas incidents amba uli, uli jutiasana kwa panya high school pale, amba uli onama rafiki uli kumusili, dima uli ruka shule, uli kua wendo notorious kwa hi. Ili kuja nega kwa notorious kumoja, because I, nikiwa, nikiwa, kida chuchapili, nili, nili lid, on, I did like a peaceful demonstration. Tu katoa, nikiwa toa kila ambu. Ikwa doa na sume ni. Sasa, uli kua na sume ni, ili kua uko bara, ili kua uko embu. Sasa nili kua na atu, atu alawi uko na snacks. So kila wakati tu kienda, kumpeti na snacks ni. Kila wakati tu kienda, fanki na una watu na kubalua, wana beba, fitu wana beba, pesa sasa si tuli kua tu mepua rules megi sana. Sasa ni kwa ambi wa atu shule ne, we should not do this, na jutsu za laf sayo nili kua prefect. Nikiwa ambi wa atu na watu, tuta fanya ebi. Tutatoka wote shule, tutembe yem baka ugo bara baranin, diwa wali mua fanya kitutuna ataka. So that's one of the things I regret, because ili nifanya baka nika, nika e patiwa, like, it wasn't expulsion, but nili patiwa, I was warning, lakini ni kafkuzo for a while, then kuruudi wa ka nemebe, nene na kuruudi wa ka nemebe ni tajimba mashimu for the next three months, nika kata. Sisa na kumuka ni, marafizangul kwa nebe, tuta chimba shimu na wani, tuto wana irobi, na jubo bara na, watu wana irobi ni wali advance. Wana irobi usi chimba, usi chimba fadalu kata, na waju sayo ni, tuli kua na kuna exams mecheleo. So that peer pressure, peer ili nifanya, I lost my way at some point. Tutu wana irobi ukiwa high school, shulea machinani wana sama bara, ili kua VP, muli kua na, grupi enyu flani yani, nene wana jubo na playlist, nene wana juku vana.  Sasa. Na paba ruwa kuwanza. Kulikuna katendansi flani yana, wana skia ni kama, wana yu wana skia yani, ya different. Laki ni there's no difference. So always the same, ya. Kukuniya miwa kwa the favorite game miwa kule koga, nema ulu kutubo ruka kutribu? Mili kuna pendana nene Tennis, ama Tibotennis, I mean sorry, Tibotennis. Tutu umi irobi, wana kulkitu nachizam, to soft? Vitu soft kabisa, vitu soft, ya. Alafu mili kuna pendana, all i was mostly in all the clubs, kusu likuwa napenda kutuka, Mostl in klub Kwa k twakashule wa kwa warakida kwa kwa mwakali kwa muwa Iwa na club ngekuwa So much taking parts in activities Because I just felt like I just need to be out there Yo wakarcha Laha upiani lukwana penda tukwanda kwa zoorura Zorura nilisikaida rasani So ni, kwa na sikiya ni komen Yani kuna kituna mis What was your favorite subject in high school? My favorite was history and math Na uwa ni si ni maazb묌 kwa hote heziki ni mozandana naihi kakawehia? Achana ili na fumoni na kua ga uwa, wakili na qutenti? Nลuwe ya hiziri naihi kwa hiziri naihi kakawehia? K walkika si mimi kuwa m making infomu na kwaesiki ni hiziri maisha kuwa mpadi indi ya kwa hiziri kwa hiziri kwa hiziri imaji kuwita wadini. We'll be living in very informed environment because the history has a lot of hidden secrets. Kbuti kстиki, me niwi kuwa hatu Westi wake, ya manwa, niwa wadidi mwa iboi wa kwa wana kutubi na kuwa katibika ud tofu unai. Kutubi na kutubi na kuwa katibika wama kutubi na kuwa kutubi na kuwa kutubi na lu. Ya na na na na na na. One more? Kutubi na. Nend Guwun kwa wazazi piwa li kwa nangali e fichia kwa kuna mebi kufazation murkachi ni aspiring ota kwa nanin fichia stil ba ru drimyaku e kwa jona li stil ikwa ba ru because you know kwa wazazi my parents are not so they won't put you in a cage that you have to do what they say you just have to choose what you want to do then follow that passion kwa sababu kama i think from now zazi kujia Nairobi nda kawana ndia wa you can't limit yourself to one thing ali he just opened up and empowered you to just ali kwa na to empower to just do what follow your heart and do what you're passionate about kwa sababu hakuwa na elez you have to do this na this is kwa kuchagua subject I was free to choose what I'm passionate about not what my parents wants me to do and that is one thing I'd really encourage so many parents to do with their children not to put their children in a cage and it can mentally drain the children kuna kitu na mii south high school maybe kuna mali muda kungule shaka mali mua matz mali mua matz ali kwa rafkia hongu zuri ali neben tene dambali wango aki mali mua chemistry ali nebi al aki mali mua chemistry mali mua chem tene uko na kupenda sana I'm spreading all love ali ni hatsana ali ni hatsana ali mua kiesa kutua mani na kama hai o kwambia onafunzi wewe hauna future wewe babakwa ta kusahidia wewe twin mua zaza me kwa eka apa wewe tunaku supportu tunaku skuma wewe zi survive bila mua Kenya do you think in affect the future because I believe mua na muntuki kwa that young age maybe we're not all in the same level kuna witu tene zale mii mii for example maybe mii mii nene zale o kitu for the first time but kuna muntua mbawa aki eza kuele misho bada yama fanya revision apatizoma side training aneza kwa perfect do you think wali mua na fanya right when they curse I don't know if the right word to use kukas muntua mua kutua yama tamisha mbawa hai ridishi because I believe everyone ali embo na mali mua ke flani wewe akuna mua ali utena una future ya you know actually that thing is really bad konza mentally you know you're putting a lot of negative thoughts in that child so with that you're actually triggering that child to be always negative and no a tanzasaka build most of the things cause our conscious mind in a kuangatuni what we see but if you keep on telling that child not you how to end on mali those things in absorb in your subconscious mind that in a way that is what you think and that is what you feel you're made of you're made of failure you're made this is just where you can be you know so it's actually mentally draining for a child and not only even parre not only teachers even parents do that kama mimi na kumbuka nikiwa nikiwa burugals most of the times when we get an inocent on something but because it's a mzazia me kuwa leader li kuwa sasa me kuwa area MP the only thing that I'm just spoiled no child intentionally but sometimes I'm just trying to communicate saku na wali mwangi na li kuwa so unfair they just feel like maybe I'm doing it purposely but I was just trying to communicate and then mtu ana ku judge just for where either you come from or just what they see and they're not even I don't like when I say I don't like when people play God in people's lives you tell them how to end on mali and you're not the destiny decider of people because nobody can actually come against that ya nobody can come against that so I feel like teachers should also try ndoma na nikiwa na even these children not perform well kusaba mushanzaku preach outer end on mali no you don't even put you're supposed to the only way we can help each other is just to create a better environment and just give people hopes just empower them tell them you can be better you can do better and sometimes you know some people can be good look at someone like Marathonas those are people are so skilled in that they've mastered their skill so kunawatu yes they're good in education but there are people who are skilled that's why we should actually I'm happy that the government is putting it all on to hella so that we can empower this young generation we can come up and just push this children kunawatu ako so skilled wa nataka kuhimba ya ni anashaya kakua kilia he or she has a very good voice some can drop and if you just keep on bashing negative words to these people then we're killing their dreams at a very young age and then they became they come here and now become drug abusers they come here and just feel like they are hopeless in life and that is one thing that we should actually try and cut off did you reach a point remember you thought of now quitting high school because people were misjudging you people across all of your cases anytime your parents haupatkani I believe sayu mzaza shako mo shimia mama ko busy your siblings are coming up you have your life you're still figuring out your life not really I've never thought of actually dropping out of school but I've always for me I love challenges I love proving people wrong what you say about me is not who I am so that's why uta ni liku wa ni kijaju wa sana I wanted just to prove them wrong I'll do something just to make sure you don't see me as what you think I am I will show you who I really am because whatever perception you have of me is not me yes I really hate the fact that somebody will just call me a spoilt brat kusababu hata uju ma changawuton me piti ya tangu uta utoni ii pesa ni meku liya kuyo nasazili meku wa so that is not I was born I was raised with a lot of principle and I have a lot of integrity thanks to that passage of life that I went through and now it makes me even aspire to do more and aim for a better life also and just create a better life even for the people around me and the community because I want to go back to every place I was and just sell people it is possible to achieve whatever goal you envision to have in life ya being a prominent family did it affect your life in high school it did affect my life because everybody had a certain perception you know, atasai maybe ni ken na mahali some people just have a certain perception uju uju ambe reizu avibaya uju maybe akona madara kusababu you know what she comes from a well of family and not everybody that ata onyokona pesa ata kunawatu akona pesa sana lakini they are very very humble they are very loving and caring and they just want to see people do better and just your diminishing factor that everybody will just create I hate the fact that people can just create a certain perception from where you come from and you don't want to get to know the person uh on um personal base level ya get a chance maybe some as we finish up about your high school life to go back to high school is there something you will change how you misdoing I will change a lot of things even by actually making sure those demonstration can I can take them maybe to parliament and make sure that the government tries to to to actually do mental health awareness even on these teachers on students so that we can come out and have a healed generation kus we are just wounded people around here out here we are just I say we are we are we are a sad generation with happy pictures and bitter generation kusabu kunawatu zingina ni wa limu wa lifanya kuna ingina ni wa zazi wa lifanya to be to have these people out here you know you are making people to have to kill their dreams to just feel hopeless wa limu mumi I feel like they should go through a certain training so that they know what to spread and to tell the students their pupils and even parents I think also they should create a good environment for the students or for their children so that they can have at least a peaceful environment to do what they want to do in life you can't kill someone's dreams because you have already achieved them


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so today we're gonna go on a magical journey up my road so this is that's my place over there show you guys something so this pile of dirt they've tried to fix this multiple times now they finally they finally dug everything out looks like it's a tractor not tractor the lift yeah they completely dug out far down it goes look at that they're putting down all that new pipe all the tools and whatnot look at that yeah so somebody lives up there they haven't been able I can't imagine they've been able to get around well I know they haven't been able to get past here and there's no other way around it's all trees and woods and then that's the way out so yeah it's a mess man anyways I'm about to go on my walking I want to share that with you guys alright so I'm gonna take you guys the last video you saw that thing down there they didn't use all that pipe I just realized that but walking down show you guys the aftermath of what all they did so I mean you guys can pretty much see it but while we're walking currently reading the the Hobbit just started I cheated a little bit we're supposed to start on August 1st I actually started on the on July 31st so there's that but uh yeah so this is what they did they filled it all in with the dirt there's the yeah see where the pipe comes out now so they filled it all in cleared out a bunch of trees over here used to be trees all through here looks like they wanted to tear that tree down but they didn't get to it and they have a smaller pipe going into the bigger pipe still got some other tools out there but yeah so that's the it's a creek or I don't know what I guess it's a creek that runs behind through the middle of my property so anyways so that's the update on that I'm about to go for a walk out to the church where I normally film at I'm not sure if all video that or not if I do I'll see you then before we go out to the to I'm gonna be walking what you guys to get a look at this Joker oh oh yeah he's big for reference there's my hand you see him still he's huge about the half size of my hand I know Sarah out in Australia won't be impressed but I am let's try to get this away from my face a little bit all right so I'm on lap seven or eight somebody but I haven't really been keeping track I got the app on my phone so I'll check that in a minute but trying to finish up a clockwork orange by Anthony Burgess I'm also just started the load of the rereads with the Hobbit started that one and I forgot how entertaining that first chapter is it's probably the only thing that the movie version got right the Peter Jackson version how chaotic and everything it is but there's also the bit about how golf was invented I thought that that part that's one of my favorite parts but yeah so I'm only only finished the first chapter today on to the second chapter tomorrow what a load of horseshit okay so it is August 3rd I believe it is a gray day out here August 3rd in central Alabama and it is only like 65 degrees we're gonna have a cold winter y'all cold winter maybe I'll be out here walking in the snow like I did used to do that when I was living up in Maine walk back and forth to work because my leg didn't work I didn't it worked it just I didn't trust it enough to drive so I'd walk back and forth to work where we up there anyways so somebody's out here and grill in hamburgers I can smell it and the struggle is real I'm listening to the shining right now I'm also reading what I'm reading five books right now let's see here floating dragon which I'm struggling with but I'm gonna make it through it because I want to see what all this inspiration for it rumors are about and then see here what else am I reading the phantom toll booth with shop probably be done with tonight or tomorrow and the Hobbit during the for the Lord of the rereads and then the Frederick Bachman book things that he needs to tell his son or whatever yeah so that's what I'm reading but I got about ten more laps to go so I'm gonna let you guys go for now so I'm uh I'm wrapping up my walk it's dropped at least another maybe five degrees out here it's actually kind of cool the anytime the breeze picks up it's me kind of shiver I was listening to the shining they just got to I just got to part two which is closing time I think it is anyways so it kind of fit this the scenario you know going into going into I guess fall winters and whatever anyways also there's a there's a part that I just listened to where Danny's talking to Wendy and he asks her what flattery is she explains it to him and he goes so it's like lying for fun I was like that's one of those simple truths that Stephen King gets right all the time and I'm out on my my road today so I'll look at it so I'm hoping I get home before I get dumped on I'm hoping but we'll see it's actually really nice out here it's a I'm sweating my ass off today because it's humid but it's about 72 73 again this is August August 4th you're that thunder yeah it's August man it's so cool for August in central Alabama huh I don't know what's going on this poor planet so alright so I'm not supposed to be over here but it's just an empty lot and I want to take you over to show you that the lake this is about I don't know about eighth of a mile from my place my property and come down here sometimes just hang out by the water I'm not going to go all the way down there because I don't want to walk through all these weeds I see the ducks out there man I don't know if you guys can see it or not and I'm already hitting the weeds yeah it's pretty that's where the rich people live but all this from the other side of those trees back for a while is my property I'll show you guys around at some point in time I don't know if you can hear that but this is still August 5th and yeah I made it home just in time it's a busy office is my mom's place in our place yeah it's a mess out here now good luck so here we are this is my road again you go down here you guys notice it's not as dreary as the last episode but it's the same road I want to show you guys this and go over it's hot out here today gone are the days of 65 and 72 it's about 83 out here today it's been fluctuating between 81 and 83 but this is a tree reserve I can't actually see my screen so I hope you guys can see it but there's a tree farm certified family forest you'll see it like I said I can't see my screens because it's over right out here but anyways I guess I'll see it in editing looks like it anyways and that goes back there yeah they literally grow trees out here to oak and treasure forest I like this little area but this is if any of you are reading cruelty and joy or if you plan on reading it it mentions in the first episode about a tree farm that a bean calls doctor land it's actually a retired doctor that owns the tree farm so that's where I got the idea from most of my stuff is a let's stay up here most of my stuff is based on a you know experience the experiences I've had or locations I've been to that kind of thing okay so today is August 6th we just looked at the tree farm I got something in my shoe it's annoying the hell out of me we just looked at the tree farm I finished the Phantom Toe booth this morning fantastic fantastic book children's book or not fantastic read one of my favorite reads from this year 2019 easily probably gonna look up some more like I know Marianne Liengle that how you pronounce it some other stuff my buddy Jim mentioned role doll you know those people fantastic book I forgot how much I loved it I'll do my review in the next couple days in fact that might be up before this but um so I'm also really loving the reread of the Hobbit I'm listening to that while I do my strength exercises I'm using a dumbbell app and my weightlifting strength training is about 15 minutes a day and then I walk for another 15 to 30 minutes a day depending on you know how much I can do that's what I've been doing this is day six of that started all this this new routine on the first no it's the fifth fifth day of that sorry so yeah also I'm reading Floating Dragon with my buddy Brandon and it's by Peter Straub I mean it's starting to get good but the first 200 pages man I just don't see much point but then I remember how ghost story and Shadowland was like one to 200 pages pages of build-up and puzzle pieces before finally he sets everything into motion the balls it takes to do that or the ovaries if you're lady hey so I'm uh I'm out here at the church track again you guys know this place by now I would assume but I just got word before I got out here that my limited edition of Joe Hills horns will be here this week so expect an unboxing video for that it's the Sunup press edition I've been looking forward to it forever you guys go over to the Sunup presses website and look at the pictures or you can just wait for my it is it looks like a fantastic addiction edition I am pissed off because I missed their edition of misery which look fantastic also but anyways yeah you're gonna have an unboxing this week I'm super excited alright so it's way way too hot out here so I'm only walking half my distance today you see how bright the Sun is there's clouds everywhere and see but uh it's just too hot so this is my last lap I think it's lap 7 I usually do 14 to 18 laps but yeah so I wanted to I just want to explain some of the clips you've seen so far that have absolutely no context we went to go see Spider-Man far from home yesterday today is the seventh I believe so it's the sixth and I enjoyed the hell out of it I liked it much more than homecoming and Chris was sitting there grinning like a fool the whole time these earbuds and I'm not even listening to anything anymore but it was really good said I liked it more than homecoming and I liked homecoming was pretty good but one thing of note is both of the after-credits scenes for this one were better than like all the rest of the MCU put together I think it just they didn't feel superfluous they felt like they had a purpose other than you know just Easter eggs so anyways I think this is gonna be the last video I shoot before I peace all this stuff together Wayne and Sarah said they didn't care what I talked about as long as I just talked so that's what you're getting this time we'll see if people actually like it and also if I keep them shorter it doesn't take as long to edit so until next time I have any you've been you it's been another walkie-talkie talk to you guys later bye bonus footage all right so we're heading to maybe Montgomery to trading books or Birmingham to to second and Charles got a load of books to either trade-in or giveaway donate whatever probably about a hundred books here by my babies you'll be missed I'm kidding I probably would never read any of these books so we just spent two and a half hours at at second and Charles because they were behind they only have one person checking in books and hauled about a hundred and I got maybe six or seven some of that I got stranded by Bracken McLeod I got Mason Dixon by Thomas pension bunch of other stuff you'll see in next month's book haul but so we had to stop at the rest area and that's where we're at now I can't I'm not good with the camera stuff but anyways so I'm walking around because I can't stand sitting for too much longer but anyways so look squirrel squirrel friend squirrel learning how to post he's gonna let me get my squirrel look at him off in the distance slow and family do-do-do-do-do-do-do-do-do-do-do-do-do-do definitely get out and walk around well it's an hour and no it's about an hour and 20 minutes or back and forth so three-hour round trip but then we were there for two and a half hours it's good walk around say hi everybody dance it say hi Chris hi vending


What's up everybody? It's Chris from The Reward Soul and yeah, not gonna jump into the intro and all that. I just want to sit here and chat with all of you. I would like your advice. And before I move forward, this video is for my audience, my people, the ride or die people who have been around, stuck around and everything. I'm looking for your advice.  Oh, he's not taking accountability. Oh, why are your likes and dislikes off? But it's something that you get used to for a while. So anyways, like I mentioned in the title of this, a drama channel by the name of Cody Rantz reached out to me, said, Hey Chris, you want to do an interview on my channel, share your site and everything like that. So I'm looking for your advice. Alright, so a little backstory about me like, and before I jump into that too, like all I ask in this video is just to put yourself in my shoes.  And I don't have a problem with that. I'm going to be talking a little bit about the psychology of reciprocity. But anyways, just put yourself in my shoes for this video. So for almost a decade, I was a drug addict and alcoholic.  And I started turning to drugs and alcohol. Seven years ago, I wanted to die. I was going to sleep every single night, hoping that I wouldn't wake up in the morning. I wasn't allowed to see my son. I lost all of my friends, all of my family members, and everything else. Alright, and with tens of thousands of people dying each year from addiction, I was one of the few people who was not only able to get sober, but stay sober. Alright, and it was thanks to 12 step programs, my support group, and people like my mother, who is celebrating 14 years sober in about a month. And just a lot of people who saved my life. So my first couple of years of sobriety, I didn't really know what I was doing. I didn't work my first year. I started working at a little website company and everything. And, you know, I found this kind of meaning and purpose in life when I got sober. Like, I wanted to help people. I wanted to help people who were as hopeless as I was, who were in pain, who were suffering. I wanted to help those people any way I could. And it started out just talking to other addicts and alcoholics in 12 step programs. But then I was presented with the opportunity to work at a drug and alcohol treatment center. And I went there and I loved it.  I loved working with clients and the one-on-ones I would have, the groups I got to teach, just seeing that thing click in their mind and they get some hope that maybe they can live a better life and they don't have to turn to drugs or alcohol. That meant everything to me. And the treatment center I was working at was extremely expensive. Like, inpatient treatment without insurance was about $30,000 and you tack on another $10,000 or so for outpatient. Alright? And I was like, why am I only doing this here in this treatment center? Why don't I offer free content out there? So let's talk about the psychology of reciprocity. As much as we want to believe that altruism, like true altruism exists, it doesn't. Alright? Based on what we know about evolution, it doesn't. Alright? We kind of play this tit for tat. And in 12-step programs, I was taught to quit doing things with a motive, right? Motive behind them. Not motive. A motive behind them. Quit being self-seeking. Don't do things expecting something in return. And this is a great way to live, ideally, but it's really hard. See, even in 12-step programs, when we're taught to help others and not ask for anything in return, we're guaranteed our sobriety. One of the promises is if we help other alcoholics and addicts, we will stay sober. So as you can see, even with the most selfless act, we get something in return. You look at doing good things for other people. We get a good feeling from it.  So even if you're not asking, like, oh, hey, help me move my house or anything, we still get something in return. So, again, I found this meaning and purpose in life to just help others, to help as many people as possible. I didn't care how many people I helped. I just wanted to help as many people as possible. I wanted to give people hope. But I'm letting you know right now, the last six months of what I've been through, it's had me reevaluating my life, what my purpose is. I felt pretty lost and not sure what I want to do because it's really hard when you grow and you do this thing, trying to help as many people as possible. And then you get thousands and thousands of strangers saying like, no, you're not a good person. You're not doing this to help others. And it's not even really based on anything objective.  It's all based on differences of opinion. And since about six months ago, people have painted me as this type of person. So anyways, Cody Rantz reached out to me and I let Cody know. And Cody, whenever we talk, whenever we talk, I got to go into this a little bit weary because those of you who don't know, my whole controversy started with a bunch of drama channels leaking a DM that I sent to them. So every time I chat with somebody in DM now, I have to go in with the idea that this is going to be put out there publicly. All right. So again, I just want you to put yourself in my shoes. So I told Cody that.  Screw it. Cody Rantz, I love her. All right. She is very sassy and everything like that. It just sucks when I'm on the receiving end of that. All right. We've had conversations, you know, in DMs and everything. But anyways, I let Cody know. I said, Cody, I was like, you've been, you've been trashing me publicly for weeks now. Like, why would I do this? Right. But anyways, I decided to share my story with Cody and I want to share it with all of you. Because again, I want your advice and I just want you to put yourself in my shoes and tell me what you would do if you were me. So I'm about to talk about some other YouTubers and channels and some of my experience. If you know me, I'm very much against cancel culture because it's happened to me. You can form your own opinions about the other YouTubers I mentioned. But if you try to go attack them or anything like that, I don't condone it and I don't want you in my community. But, you know, I just want to be open and honest with all of you. So starting my YouTube channel, I brought in my same idea of trying to help people, right?  I remember when I was trying to build this channel up, people didn't want to collab or anything like that. And I was like, I want to change that, right?  So I don't get anything in return from that, right? But it was difficult when a lot of those smaller creators that I helped out, I had nothing, I was getting in return. I helped them out and they turned on me.  All right? But again, I just want you to put yourself in my shoes. Well, anyways, after my whole controversy happened, like, so Cody was trying to sell me on the idea of like, I'm giving you an opportunity to share your side. All right? And I don't know if Cody just hasn't seen the other interviews with me and stuff like that, but this, excuse me. Sorry, and I'm not going to be editing this video. So you got to deal with my coughs. So anyways, I don't know if she hasn't seen the other interviews with me, but this is the selling point people have had for me, right? So some of the other first creators that I helped out at the time, I was bigger than Todd Grande. There was another guy who showed up called named Nate Smith and there were smaller channels than mine. I was like, okay, you know, I can use my larger audience to try to send you more viewers and everything like that. And these were both licensed professionals who completely turned their back on me. And I'm like, okay, like it's one thing to do something without expecting anything in return. Like if I was just like hitting like zero, like that'd be fine. But as you're going to see as I go on, every time I do something like this to help others, I end up worse. All right, so Todd and Nate, they turned, they didn't back me up. All right, they tried to save their own skin. They didn't back me up. And by the way, I talk about all this in my book, which is free until the first I re-released it for free. So Todd and Nate tried to help them out. Nate just disappeared off YouTube. Todd's channel is still growing. He doesn't really talk about me anymore. That's cool. All right, after my controversy happened, a small creator by the name of Paul grows close. And I love Paul grows close. Go subscribe to him. He reached out to me. He was a small channel. I think he had around the time about 5,000 subscribers. And he said, hey, Chris, I see what's been going on. I want to give you an opportunity to share your side, much like Cody is. And Paul had done a little short series on me, which he was playing into the narrative of, you know, that was being spread about me. But he said, here's your opportunity to share your side. And that sounded enticing. I'm like, okay, I'll share my side. And Paul interviewed me and it's up over on his channel and everything like that. And I thought it would be cool. Like, sure, like use the animosity towards me to build your channel up. And Paul got to sit down and interview me and Paul got to know me and Paul is a great dude. He's going to be huge. Like, I guarantee Paul grows close is going to be a huge creator. He's so smart for his age. He's like, I'm sorry, Paul, if you see this, he's 16, 15, 16, I don't know. Anyways, he's going to be awesome. But anyways, I did that for Paul, not expecting anything returned. It's like, there you go. And I shared my side of the story. I don't think he got too many views on that. Then there was Ryan from Crimson Studios. He actually drove out to Las Vegas to interview me. Same thing. And again, like I didn't mind doing it for him.  He's kind of a friend. We haven't talked much recently, but I was like, whatever, you know, you'll get some views off this and you're going to share the story. And he sold me too because he said another creator by the name of John Swan was going to also collaborate with him on it. And John Swan is very objective and he doesn't know anything about my situation. So he's going to come into it. Well, that's not what happened. All right. So again, like if nothing happened, if I just stayed the same, that'd be fine. But I actually ended up worse because what John Swan did was he sold through ignorance and poor research that, you know, some stuff that was being spread about my mom. And I wasn't happy about that.  I love my mom and I tried to defend her. And then Ella did was just perpetuate this narrative that me and my mom were in cahoots trying to scam people and stuff like that. So I ended up worse doing that video with Crimson Studios. And aside from that, you know, I helped him by being part of his video that he was doing on me. But it was hurtful because Ryan would like and reply to tweets that were talking shit about me on Twitter. And I'm like, hmm, okay. Well, then there was Donna from Psych IRL and we collabed earlier this year. I love Donna and, you know, we just don't agree on everything. And anyways, I met up with her. I've loved her channel for a long time and I met up with her and we ended up doing a collaboration. Well, when everything happened to me, you know, her fans were asking her a lot of questions. So she felt obligated to her fans to cover the story and do an update, right? And she asked me if I would be a part of it. Sure, Donna, whatever, right? And we did a little interview thing and everything like that. So I helped her out. She's a larger channel, but she wanted to clear things up with her audience. So I was like, sure, I'll do it, right? She did that. I ended up looking even worse doing that as well.  So anyways, I do that with her. But yeah, I reached out to Donna recently. It's been about six months.  And she doesn't, she doesn't want to and not going to lie. It upset me quite a bit. But again, like just put yourself in my shoes. This is a pattern like where I keep helping and helping and helping. And it sounds like a real selfish thing, but like I just want you to be honest with yourself. Would you continue helping other creators to either clear their name or promote their smaller channel or whatever it is?  So a couple of months ago, a month or two ago, I was feeling just kind of froggy and a creator by the name of Nicholas Diorio. He made a video about me, you know, not a good video about me. And people are like, you guys should debate, right? And another creator, Augie, who does a live stream, he said, hey, you want to debate with Nick? And I was just feeling froggy. I knew going into that. I'm like, this isn't a debate. I'm walking in to the lion's den, all right?  So I was like, whatever, I'll do it. I'll help out these smaller creators. And I think it'll be an interesting conversation. So I did that. Augie, before the stream, he gained a ton of subscribers. I went into that stream.  Like, again, I was like, you know, I was the away team. And I got thrashed, Bo Blacks jumped in. And in the meantime, Augie was making bank in super chats. All right? So I went into that situation. Not only did I not gain anything, I lost something. And Augie, I think he made over $1,000 in super chat that night. All right? So I just hope you guys see my point of view, because now Cody's reaching out to me and she's like, hey, I want to interview you and give you an opportunity to share your side. And I'm like, Cody, like, if I go into that situation, there's already a bias. Your audience does not like me. All right? Not only that, but I know how this thing works. Me going into that situation, I'm then creating another opportunity for people to take clips of me and spread even more narratives about me, right?  There's going to be fair and unbiased and everything like that. And that's cool. I believe her. I'm 10000% believe her that it would be. But like I said, I would be going into hostile territory, if you will. So I, I've been doing this just trying to give and give and give and give and give and give and give. And it, it hasn't, not only hasn't not helped my reputation, it doesn't even make me feel good anymore. like I hate even talking about this because this is something I talk with my you know therapist about but my again my whole my whole worldview and purpose has been shifting like I love helping people and don't get me wrong I still get a bunch of messages people thanking me I just got one the other day like thanks Chris you encouraged me to go to therapy and everything like that but yeah it's just I don't know like it's it's difficult and I've been you know working a lot on some other projects that I can't really tell you guys about now and stuff like that but like yeah the YouTube community has not been fun for me and I don't know if you guys were in my position what would you want me to do so I'm gonna take a couple things into consideration leave comments let me know what you think should I do an interview with Cody Rance but here's what I'm thinking all right here's the other thing all right so a lot of people have been lying to you a lot of people have been lying to you and saying they read my book and they didn't they've read they've read specific chapters and everything like that here's how I know all right here's how I know that there are things in that book that people would definitely make a video about that they haven't so I know for a fact that most people including primink did not read the book all right like primink said something like oh he mentioned me 60 times like you can just control f in a PDF and see how many times it is that's no evidence that he read the book so most of these people haven't read the book so anyways here's what I was thinking for Cody I was thinking about presenting her with a deal Cody you might be watching this Cody if you read my book and you make a list of questions from my book that you want to send to me we could talk but you sending those questions to me will prove to me that you actually read the book and you didn't just read chapters that you feel pertain to you or pertain to the drama community all right because that is what most people have done who have made videos and interviewed about my book sharing my experience all right because like I said there are some Easter eggs in there if you will where you know people would definitely make some videos about some stuff I talked in there anyways yeah thanks for letting me chat with you guys and just sit down and be open and honest and I meant to mention this at the beginning because most of you are probably gone by now but um this isn't gonna be an ongoing thing like I have a bunch of content like many of you know I've been really diving into psychology lately I've been getting some really good feedback from you guys too like it this is something that makes me really happy because not only have I found purpose in helping people and that's the thing I'm struggling with I love teaching people I love teaching people I come from a family of teachers my grandma who passed away a few years ago she was a teacher her whole life my mom has been a professor of psychology and I don't know it just runs in our DNA I guess but I love teaching so I love reading all of these books and consuming all this knowledge and just trying to pass it on to other people and you know I like finding my group of people who are into this kind of stuff and learning about psychology and human behavior and philosophy and all that kind of stuff so I appreciate everybody who's been reaching out and saying like you've really liked the new videos because I've been going into them just like I don't know if anybody else will like these but I'm I'm having a lot of fun you know just talking about these subjects and like encouraging you know critical thinking and stuff like that so anyways like I said don't worry I'm not gonna just keep like hopping on here and doing like sobby things and going back to my own BS I I know every time I sit down and turn this camera on I got to give you something of value and I want to do that all right but every once in a while I want to hop on here talk a little bit a little bit about me what's going on you know but anyways leave your comments down below if you see people being hateful in the comments down below just ignore them like I do or I'll just remove them to get toxic people off the channel last thing I'll say to any creators I mentioned in this video don't don't go attack them or anything like that you have the right to form your own opinions about them and everything like that but if you join in any kind of hate mob like I don't want you part of my community but let's leave on a happy note I love all of you so much alright but yeah stay tuned I will be covering the Shane Dawson and Jeffrey star series I got a million notes on different psychological studies so I'm hoping I can intertwine them but anyways yeah stay tuned alright I'll see you next time


Mornings can be tough. I totally feel you on that one. If you're someone who needs a little or big boost to get up and get energized for the day, this video has six simple exercises you can do while still lying in bed to help get your day started so you can have the best morning ever. Let's start with exercise number one. Neck shaking.  So we need to wake up that brain so that you can get up and get your day started.  Breathe out gently to release any fatigue that's still remaining in your body. Exercise number two. Toe tapping.  The best way to do this is to move your legs from your hips and tap your toes so you don't strain yourself. Tap at a pace, speed and pressure that is comfortable and helps you wake up. You will feel your legs start to tingle and energy will travel up to your legs. Do this for at least one minute or 50 reps depending on which one comes first. You can stop tapping when you notice slight vibration or tingling moving throughout your body. Exercise number three. Spinal twist.  Then take your right leg and cross it over to the left side. Let the legs fall to the left side of your body. As you do this position your arms like a cactus and turn your head to the opposite direction of your legs. Hold this side for about 30 to 45 seconds while breathing out gently. Then switch. Bring your left leg to the right side and turn your head to the left side.  Exercise number four. Fish exercise.   When you move side to side it should feel like you're a fish out of water flapping side to side. Shake your whole body for about 20 seconds.  Exercise number five. Palm rubbing.  This will increase your energy level and increase the flow of warm blood to the body. Now last exercise. Exercise number six. Eye cup and arm swipe. Take your warm palms and cup them over your open eyes to release energy from your hands to your sleepy eyes. Hold them there for 30 seconds and feel the power of your own energy flow. This is very soothing so try not to fall back asleep. This exercise has incredible benefits including healthier eyesight, stimulation to the liver meridian and a gentle energy release.  You can also sweep down your chest, your arms, your hips, your abdomen, your legs, your whole body. You might feel tingling and a warm sensation on your arms as your body awakens. Now as a bonus exercise slowly turn your body and sit up into a half lotus posture. Before you jolt up out of bed take some time to take deep abdominal breaths into your body to let fresh energy in and out of all of your cells. As you focus on your breathing your awareness will go back into your body which will become the foundation for having a great day ahead. Now your body is fully energized and ready for the day. Even if you're not a morning person these simple exercises can help you feel like you can take on anything and all before you even step out of bed. Try these exercises and let us know how you did in the comments below. See you in another video. Bye!


on everyone Sam here with late in sports cards and I am doing a five box mixer for Chris Z that includes one twenty one twenty two court Kings basketball um one twenty twenty one contenders optic one twenty twenty one or twenty twenty one Bowman's best baseball one twenty twenty Bowman Sterling and one twenty one punini one football so pretty much kind of all over the place which is cool so I think we'll start with court Kings for sure I gotta see the prices of everything else after really quick just to know what to do next but I'm assuming court Kings will be the first box here we go good luck a whole short print here gonna roar or something and we've got a base mellow uh Deontay Murray Christian Wood got level one that's Zaire Williams level two Jonathan Kaminga there you go nice one there got pink Jimmy Butler to 49 or purple excuse me there you go got Moses Moody rookie expression jersey not numbered got one to 199 rookie autograph that is Usman Garuba for the Rockets on the era parent rookie auto nice hit there then we've got Maestro's Donovan Mitchell and graffiti greats is Nicola Jokic both of those not numbered all right one second guys I want to see what's open next based on pricing assuming it'll probably be this I will do Bowman's best and then we'll do Sterling and then we'll do contenders optic and then we'll end it with punini one I think that's kind of how we're going to do this that's probably the best way here is Bowman's best to get the two mini boxes in this which is pretty cool go that away these are together for some reason and that's why I'm not open this yet so if I look like an idiot trying to open it that is why the box in there here we go so we're looking for two autographs I believe per box so that's probably one per mini box uh Jose Berrio Meryl J rod got Fernando Tatis on the heat wave cool insert there Chase Petty yeah Sterling is a cool product we did a um uh four box mixer 2021 today Kyle Lewis got Nick Madrigal rookie on the atomic I don't believe that is numbered but still a nice little hit right there Cubbies got Future Variants has some Kirstad and he also on Kim on the rookie pull like a super that would be cool I'm not pulled a super yet out of anything Miguel Cabrera got green to 99 uh Ryan Mountcastle on the rookie nice nice hit there grads on that one uh Chris and then we've got Debbie Garcia Bowman's best rookie autograph for the Yankees in a very nice pack and then we got a Jazz Chisholm rookie on the back that was solid there you go got Chase Petty Lays Jordan uh Ronald Acuna yes on Kim on the uh refractor rookie the rookie uh craftsmanship not numbered Padres and one Soto on the silver another Jazz Chisholm rookie there you go you like Jazz uh he also on Kim got masterpieces that's Alex Bohn on the rookie there refractor nice solid hit uh Future Variants Alex Kirolov and Harry Ford on the back as well and the last pack of the first mini box Austin Martin Harry Ford Soto got rookie autograph that's Alexander Ramirez for the Angels nice one there congrats Chris so I guess we get four autos per box nice Austin Martin MP box here we go got Blaise Jordan Acuna Jerman Mercedes rookie got South Freilich and Akhil Badu sorry about that I'm just reading something okay that makes sense we're good perfect Jazz Chisholm rookie again for the Marlins he also on Kim Chase Petty Future Variants Pedro Leone and South Freilich on the back Harry Ford one Soto got blue Akhil Badu to 150 on the rookie for the Tigers and we've got first autograph is going to be Eduardo Garcia for the brew crew the on-card autograph nice hit there and Marcelo Meyer on the refractor trout Matt Chapman Austin Martin rookie Ryan Mountcastle and Randy Rosarena on the back Trevor Story Ryan Mountcastle rookie masterpieces that's Dylan Carlson Benny Montgomery Future Variants and Whitmerefield and last pack of the box good luck Chris see what we got in here Austin Hendrick Christian Yelich Nick Madrigal got nice Maximo Acosta that is to 150 on the blue color match nice hit there for you Chris that's solid very solid hit and Katel Marte once again I'm just gonna grab a little basket hold some of the cards we'll go on to Sterling now some Sterling baseball oh boy the best configuration in cards for boxes here appreciate that nick went with the vintage blue jays today all right mini box one here we go sharp man please empty box all right so one auto per mini box here which is pretty nice god demerit Zach Collins rookie hunter green autograph is going to be Joe Ryan going to the rays nice hit there nice Joe Ryan Royce Lewis Joe Adele this is definitely not the most efficient way to open this but whatever we're already we're already in too deep so doesn't matter Seth Brown rookie uh Adrienne Marijan rookie Herze Erichidi autograph nice nice one there for the A's Robert Poisson that's very very sweet auto right there one of the top prospects for the A's Robert Poisson uh Ian Anderson Andrew Vaughn Ayas Matthew Libertor Dustin May we got Sparkle Auto Jaren Duran very nice let's go that's so sick the white sparkle Jaren Duran autograph for the socks they like the beard coming in Mark Kyle Lewis and Sheldon Noisy might be uh might be going soon though it's getting a little too hot in Florida to continue rocking the beard so might might just go with the mustache for a little bit gotta get a haircut still too so kind of see how that one goes we got the Shea Joey Bart Nolan Gorman autograph is Will Wilson on the uh wave autograph I believe that is also not numbered going to the Giants very uh original name there Will Wilson got Aaron Savalle and Jalen Davis rookies and last a box of Sterling still like how it looks kind of got oh we got a red okay well that that was very anti-climactic Bobby Bradley AJ Puck got Bobby Bradley to the Guardians that is the 75 uh got Ruben Cardenas or Cardenas or Cardenas for the Rays even though I showed that like right away and then Yu Chang and Tariq Skubal on the back that'll do it for Sterling we'll go into uh Contender's Optic now I don't think I could rock a mullet there Nick I really don't don't think I could do a mullet it was 115 when I went to the Mojave Desert oh my god JB I don't know dude I will I would be sweating like gallons basically I went through that with this beard see something big come out of here you've got red delvin cook to 175 for the bikes you've got not numbered MVP Contender's of Tyler Murray got Lamar season ticket base Ravens got a Kyle Pitts rookie going to the Falcons grads on that one Chris got Tyson Campbell on the not numbered base autograph for the Jaguars Tyson Campbell and last hit of the break is going to be uh Talanoa Hufanga going to the Niners all right wish that was a little bit better that box but is what it is I guess and last box of the break we got some Panini one football let's do it come on big QB oh that's sick six of ten RPA of Najee Harris nice hit there to end your break Chris that's so sick that's part of the K I'm assuming from the rookie premiere that's so nice that's a sweet hit even though it's a stealer still a sweet hit congrats on that one there Chris nice way to end the break that is going to do it for all of your boxes again Chris thank you as always get those cards right out to you thanks man