me and my wife, we both have decided to have a baby. So to plan for baby, we went to that hospital for counseling, like, you know, the guy into the hospital, like, we are planning to have a baby and just please suggest what are the things like, you know, we should be consider and things we should be careful about and what to eat and what not to eat. And that doctor has given us a very good counseling at the earlier phase. And during the whole process, like, you know, my wife got conceived in, like, one to two months after consulting with the doctors and there was no problem during the whole process. And there was a regular monthly follow-up and all the USG, all the animal scan, all the, you know, whatever they have access to do, the all the reports showing was good. The thing, the one complicated thing in my wife case is like in Nepal, most of the females, they are having a high thyroid. So, and she had also had a high thyroid. And, and just like when my baby was around 32, 33 weeks, and she had a, like, high liver function test also. And, and then then doctor consulted us, like, when you have a high LFT, then it will, it will be very difficult to have a normal delivery. So we might have to plan for the shears and, and like, during the whole 32 weeks of stays, there was no complication. There was my wife doesn't have to suffer a lot. Nothing has happened. Everything was going smoothly. And then even like, and her consolation, like, we took it as a positive mood and we followed what whatever they have suggested us. And, and like on 36 weeks, like around 35 weeks, what happened is like, you know, my wife again had a high itching and she was, like, you know, very worried, like, again, she might be having a higher LFT or not. And then next day we went to our doctor and she, she did the USC and she also did the the movement of baby inside the inside her stomach and then everything looks normal. And what our doctor had consulted that time is like, you know, it's now like his age was going through the USG was around 3 kg and she was telling us, like, you know, during the USG, there might be chances of having 5 to 10% of margin of error. So his weight must be 2.5 kg. So, and she was telling us, now it's good to have a, you know, the CS you can you can come anytime from today onwards, then you can have a shears. You don't have to worry about anything. Just just have a just have a shears. And in my family, we didn't have ours. My family was very small, me, my wife and my but my dad is very oldest, like he was around 84 years old and we didn't have a joint family. So we decided, okay, now doctor is asking us to have a shears and it's good to go anytime after this day. Then then we decided, okay, let's plan for the tomorrow or day after tomorrow. And next day we plan for a shears and we had a she had a shears delivery. And and he his weight during the birth was around 2.85 kg. And even there was a one score. I forget that terminology. There was a score like his score was nine out of 10 when the baby was one. Like, I just forget that terminated that score. There was one score something like that. And after 30 minutes, he started having fast breathing and his his face becoming blue. And the team suggested me like, you know, he's having a fast breathing, we should he should be admitted to NIHV and we should be giving oxy. He should be put under oxygen box and we said, okay, and then after like, putting oxygen box, even his breathing was not on control and they were telling me is like, okay, his his breathing is out of control. We he need to be under that ventilator, like he should be supported with the ventilator support. And that's okay. It's fine. If if the medical things are suggesting us to have a ventilator, then please have it him in a ventilator. And what is happening like after four to five days, he's out of ventilator. And he he's now breathing on his own. And and after when he was out of the ventilator, then the blood report came is like, you know, he had some infection from the ventilator, he had a hospital infection. And so he should be like around 14 days of cycle of antibiotic and after that he he he will be discharged. So so till 14 days, there won't be any problem like he had his vitals and everything was very good. He was on the NIHU department. And after 20 days, he got discharged. So after discharge, like his weight, your three, three kg plus, I think, and everything was good. So we took him home. And after three days, again, he had a high fever. And just before the fever, he had a 120 ml of milk. And he had a fever. And I we me and my wife, both was through already. And we took him to the hospital within hours, like in the evening. So when we we asked the doctor, he had a very high fever. And even we even before taking to him hospital, we consult with the doctor through the phone call and we give him a sit-up and even that sit-up his his fever was not getting down. So we were both ordered and we took him to the same hospital. And the doctor, the doctor was telling us like, you know, he need to be okay. So you guys are very worried. So we'll observe him for 24 hours, do the notice. So you you admit him and we'll we'll we'll look after him. So and even during the admission, they did a quick quick some test kind of sodium potassium. I forgot that name. And they said it's normal. So the latest observe him for 24 hours. Okay, it's fine.  He we found him he he's having some seizure kind of activities under the NSU observation. So we might have to do the lumbar function test. So they have to take the fluid from his backbone. And we said, okay, this is the protocol, please take the lumbar function test. And what is happening that time was, you know, when they took the water from the lumbar function test at that time, he he there was a pause, like, you know, there was no clean water. There was a clear pause and which the doctor has not wait for the also report, like, you know, either there's the meningitis or not. And it is clearly showing is the severe meningitis. So they started giving the meningitis antibiotic. And they were telling me is like, you know, now he looks like he's suffering from meningitis. Now, again, we have to have him for 21 days of meningitis, antibiotic cycle. And after that, he he he will recover and he'll get discharged. So so on his 25th update, like he was discharged on 20, 20, 20, 21st day after three days, he again readmitted. So on 24 to 25th day, he he his meningitis antibiotic started. So technically on on the 46th day, he he'll he will be discharged. So every day on the next day on the morning, they did the counseling on an issue. And every day morning counseling was like, you know, his vital is work, his vital is good, he's feeding, everything is good. So he's under control. So from 25 to 40 days of day, every morning, they, they were giving up as the same counseling, there wasn't any fluctuate of any vital nothing, there was nothing to worry about during the footage there. So in the evening, my wife, me and my wife, again, visited the hospital and in the evening, like, you know, all the senior doctors, they, they go to house and the junior doctors work in the in the nighttime. So and in the evening, like my wife went to see the baby and she she bring one report, like, you know, the report was saying, like, you know, while doing the ultrasound of his head, they were showing the huge amount of pause. So they might have to do MRI for confirmation.   So we don't have any option. And, okay, we decided to do less to MRI. And MRI report clearly says that, you know, there was a too many of pause in his head and they have to do his neurosurgery to drain out those pause. And, and then the he's he's under the neuro neuro team that now the neuro team is looking after him and they were. So the MRI suggested, there's a good there's a pause and we have to do his head surgery for the first thing. And the the the objective of that surgery is to drain out all the pause. So first surgery happened. And, and after surgery, he he looks active. And after seven days, again, the ultrasound is saying showing that there is still a pause is there the amount of pause which is shown in the MRI is not drained in a collector. So they again suggested us to have another operation to drain out the pause from his brain. So I said, Okay, would it I didn't have any option. So if medically is saying the saying to have a hair surgery, let's do hair surgery. So on he had a second surgery after seven days. And again, after two weeks, again, the same team were saying the swing saying like, still there's a pause and we have to again do the another surgery, there is no any option. And even I didn't have any option to, you know, to say yes or no. And if this operation will going to save him, then please do. Then he had a third surgery. And after at the age of his 80 days of birth, and what they were saying, like, you know, now all the pause is drained out. Now he did he did has to the permanent solution is to put the son in his head. And so that the all drain water will go through the sun and and so that after that he can he will be discharged from the hospital. And on the on the day of eight teeth, like he had a son operation. And after staying 10 days around after 90 days, he got discharged having for surgery in his head.   And that technique in in that is not a permanent solution. So there might be have there might be chances of having son tribulation in the future.  So the even he will understand what is son and son as such thing. And the same team and now he was discharged after three months. And the same team what they have suggested also, like, you know, now we have to measure his head on a weekly basis. And also we have to do his ultrasound on a monthly basis. And on the same ultrasound report and the head measurement will be concerned with the neuro doctor. So that that neuro doctor told us, like, I should be follow up him for at least for two years on every month regarding his all the all the milestone deployment and his activities as so on a good faith, like, you know, we we me and my wife, we both knew that like, he was going to have a very challenge life ahead. And he his life is not going to normal like other babies.  Let's try our best to, you know, whatever we can. So on every month. So we, we, we go to same hospital, we do USC from the same radiologist, and we, we take a print out that report to same new the new doctor from the same hospital. And based on the USG and the head measurement and the his activity, new doctor is giving us counseling. So after four months, after five months, after six months, there was a his or his hair size and the USC report, everything was looking normal on seventh of on the seventh month, the, the USC guy told us like, you know, there is some sound is not working properly and there is some water pressure on his head. So you are you must be like, if the if there is a water pressure, if the sound is not working, then he, he, he must go through the sound division operation that that water you really was told us and we are going to the report to you and he was saying is the, we didn't have to worry about it. So he told us one medical term, it was just an X vacuum. It's very common for in this case. So you would have to worry and you can go home and now on eighth month, the same drill is told us like, you know, now he's in the left side of his brain, there was 8.8 centimeter of water pressure. And so it looks like sound is not working. So you must do sound division operation that water already was told us.  And I told Dr. Dr. So this is quite big. So this suggesting us it's 8.8 centimeter. I'm really over again that what Dr. told us is like, you know, this should not be 8.8 centimeter. This should be 8.8 mm. So 8.8 mm becomes like this, this size. And I was, I was okay. If it is mm, then I didn't have to worry. It's fine. And he told us, okay, you can come next month. On the next month, the same drill is so nice. Like now he's that the pressure side is now 9.8 centimeter the left side and 2.8 at the right side. And I told this is like last month, the new doctor was suggesting this shouldn't be at CM. It should be mm. And that the little is told us like, you know, this is this cannot be M. This is CM is clear shown in the ultrasound report. And we both were worried. And then the new doctor came and we told him like, you know, even the last time it was CM now again, that this size is going to 9.8 centimeter. I'm really worried. And here at that time, that new doctor was also, you know, he was shocked to, you know, have a confirm of CM. His observation was mm, but it came to CM. And he told us on a very dark face, like saying, okay, let's do the MRI and just let's come from the MRI. So next day, he had MRI. And and MRI reports suggest that there is a huge amount of pressure in his head. And that ultrasound really was reports was came true. And and now we have, we have only one option to do sound revision operation. Okay. And we said, okay, let's do the sound revision operation. And this then the sound revision operation happened. And after operation, he, he was under observation on the NSU that the PSU department. And the next day, when he came back to our cabin, and the North came and he she started giving him a Sita Moldos, right. And my wife asked her, how much ML you are trying to give him the Sita Moldos. And she was saying it is around 66 ML like, and we my wife was shocked, like, usually when he had a fever, we give him 2 to 3 ML, the 66 ML is quite big. I think I think this shouldn't be given to him. Please confirm. And the North told us it's written in the card, the doctor has also suggested 66 ML Sita Moldos to him. And we will my wife RQ can see confirm. And later the North came, oh, just the 3 ML, it was mistaken. And at that time, my baby already had a two dose of 66 ML Sita Moldos earlier after the OT, right. And then after the Sita Moldos, my faith with the whole hospital, my faith with the whole team has like, completely broken. I, I trusted them so, I trusted them a lot. And the whole team whole, I have a good faith on them during the whole process. And I was very, you know, my baby had already four hair surgery. And that's its fifth operation. And this should be very careful about it.  And what is happening the next day, or the whole team also realized, like, realized, like, they had a mistake. And they also now they started giving him distilled water to, you know, to control, to remove the Sita Moldos thing ourselves. And whole, even though the management, even though the medical director came to us, they came, sorry, we had a mistake. And we'll try to, you know, do something for him. We try our best from a hospital and you don't have to worry. And we told them, like, look, his, his life is still challenging. He's like not, not a normal baby.  But please try to give him a good care. And we, we are very, you know, worried to take him home as soon as possible. Please give your best to think about this thing. And we didn't do anything in the hospital during that time. And what happened is, like, you know, after four to five days, like, he had a fever, and he already have a already had a high dose of Sita Mold. And they told us, like, you know, they didn't have any medicine as such. So we just, we just give him the cold water. And I forgot this terminology, the cold water during the fever, like with the cloth and the cotton, cotton, cotton cloth and the cold water in his pocket. We didn't have any medicine to try to give this thing. So and, and we both were so tired and we requested the hospital, look, we both are very tired. Please take care of him from your side and we'll take a rest. Once his fever is down, we'll, we'll, we'll take him home. And during that period, please take care of him from your end. We requested the whole management and they said, okay, we'll take care of him and we'll, we'll try to recover his fever as soon as possible. So around, I think around after 14 days, his fever was on control and management team, okay, now his vitals are fine. His fever is controlled. Now you can discharge him. So I, and then what I did was like, you know, I want to have a meeting with the whole team regarding the thing like how the neuro doctor have mistakenly did 8.8 cm and mm things, how the, the CITAMOL things happen in front of me, right? And I, what I asked them is like, you know, look, my, my baby will be having very tougher life ahead and he had already a five-year surgery.  If I argue, if I, you know, argue with you guys, if I argue with the management, then I don't have any option to take him to another hospital because you guys know him from the day one. So I request you guys to accept like, you know, you guys had some mistake during his caring and, and please suggest me a way forward like how we can go ahead and what, what treatment you will, you will going to offer him in the future if, if he had some problem with his health. And that time what management told us like, you know, you are not a doctor and you can't point us any mistakes. There is no mistakes from outside. And they were saying, we can't take any action to the divo doctor. We can't take any action to those sitamal overdose team. And, you know, the, the whole management is like, they took the 180 Utah and they were saying, we haven't made any mistake as such. If you, if you see any mistake, then go to court, go to Nepal Medical Council and show us, like we did a mistake. And I was completely helpless at that time. And okay, like, okay, then I take my baby, he was discharged from the hospital. And then I started reading all the, his medical report during his like, you know, birth to be very honest with you, I had no idea about those medical terminologies.  I didn't have any idea about this neuro thing, this, this song thing. And then after discharge from his, I started reading all the medical journal, I started consulting all the doctors. And what I came to conclusion is like, you know, look, this is not just a minor error, this is a gross negligence error. And I have to submit a case file and I, I write the case file myself and submit it to the Nepal Medical Council. And they did a investigation. So I'll say that English, the investigative report with you guys as well. So what, and from their finding what they have given is like, you know, the sitamal overdose is a mistake. And then the neuro doctors are also not a mistake.  And we must hear the hospital, the doctor they must do MRI to confirm on 25th day that the really was also suggested that he should go do MRI, but they, they didn't tell us about those things.  So these three findings were found from the NMC in the initial investigation. And they gave me this report. And from the NMC, like they, they, they have pointed the hospital management, there was a miscommunication, even the minor, minor, minor mistakes has been shown in the report. And after that, the hospital didn't do anything. And even they were not initiated to accept any mistake. And then the NMC told me it's like, I have to go to court to, you know, to, to give, to fight against the hospital to punish the doctor. And what NMC did is like, you know, they had just one doctor, the, the, those doctor who put, who gave 66 ml, that doctor was out of duty for seven days. And all the other team, they, they just gave a warning only they haven't took any action, they haven't suspended, not of not for one day, the one doctor was suspended for seven days. And that's it. And then I, and after like, and then I went to court, high court, we have a, like high court and the high court had predicted or almost after two years, like, you know, okay, should have made a mistake. And you have to give him compensation assets. So that was the, like the, the, the, that report came like last month. So I'm still waiting for the full court report. So the, which was from the high court. So that's it. So the condition of my baby's name is Rihan. So condition of Rihan is like, you know, he has no brain. He has no sin. He's fully bedridden. And we have to feed him. He can't do anything. He don't cry anything as such. He always stay in the bed. We feed him. And he had a, his vitals are always good. And he suffer mostly from a fever and a cough. That's it. So, so he's just breathing like at the moment. And if like, as per my, my observation is like, you know, when he, when he had to go through the ventilator on the day one, and he had an infection at that time, he already had a meningitis. And the whole doctor team was just looking after the, the blood, blood infection only at that time, I'm sure he had already had a head meningitis and they missed that part. And after my baby incident, they, they had changed the NSU protocol, like if the infant is having a fever from the ventilator, they must go through the blood report as well as the number function test. So from the NMC side, they told us like, you know, on 25th of the, the USC doctor told us to have MRI, but they didn't told us about anything about MRI. And they didn't, you know, they haven't, on 25th, their finding was very crucial. If, if we managed to had a sparse drain out on 25th, they, they, they, they might be good signs. Like, you know, he'll have a very good condition at the moment. But unfortunately, he had a soldier in the 48th day. So that just too late, I think he's my first baby. And like, I think seeing your baby in front of you, I'll have a very different experience. Even like that, that happiness you feel when you see your baby, you can't explain like that was my first experience. And I was really happy while seeing him in the NSU. And like you said, regarding hospital, it was one of the very renowned hospital. It's an international hospital. And all the doctors, they are, are very professional.  They follow the good protocol and I have to trust them, you know, the only thing that, you know, that hit me very hard is like, you know, if I just cross-seq the, cross-seq the report with another doctors, then I don't think he, he will have to go through this suffering at a lot. So the only mistake I did was like, you know, I just follow their counseling. I just, you know, I said to whatever they have told to me. So regarding denial, like, you know, look, they are also the human. I am also human. I also make a mistake.  Everyone who's going to make a mistake. The thing here is like, you know, it was just not a mistake. It was like, you know, what is happening to him and you are not setting the whole process to me. And that's why he has to suffer. He has to suffer from a day one to, you know, his four years till his age. So it's a, I'm still shocked why they, they are not accepting the facts. And I'm still wondering how they will sleep on this gift. Like, you know, what they had did to him during the his treatment. So to the new parents, like, like when till his age of two years, I couldn't sleep properly. I have to lift my job. I have to give up my project. And financially in Nepal, we didn't have insurance as such. It will go through your whole hard money. Financially, I was almost zero. Mentally, I was almost zero.  In my case, I just, you know, I take it very normal. I take it as a very on a good fit from those experts. But sometimes you have to cross-check with other as well. So I suggest just cross-check your finding with other doctor. That's it.  And after counseling with the other doctor after this incident, they were telling me is like, you know, there is no point of doing surgery as so many times. There is no point of, you know, trying to save his life.  So in that case, you have to, you know, accept the facts and put it as natural. So, but in terms of in private hospital, when they do surgery, when they give me a test report, they are earning very good money. But this thing will not happen in a government hospital, but in Nepal, the government hospital services, in terms of treatment, it's amazing. But in terms of getting the cue, like, you know, everyone will go to government hospital. And it's very difficult to have a, you know, all of you to get the surgery on time, to get the cue. So those who have a very good link, good network, they will get it on time. But that's why the in Nepal, all the private hospital, they are giving me good services. And my only concern is like, you know, I'm paying a good amount, but still they are not giving me the right treatment, they are still not giving me a right counseling. So that's the only disappointing thing from my side to hospital at the moment. I didn't have any, like, you know, the revenge kind of thing with those doctors and even the hospital, whatever had happened, there was a very bad thing. And it was a very unfortunate thing happened with me. The only concern is like, you know, if they accepted their mistakes, and if they, you know, if they are ready to, you know, take care of him in the future, like, I won't be sad, but then I can't do anything. And from the family side, you know, like, no one will try to, you know, everyone will try to save your family member from the any diseases and but in my in his treatment, he has already gone through five head surgery in the age of nine months.  And why I'm trying so much to save him through those treatment in Nepal, like, what will happen? The family, they calculate the money. And if they don't have the money, they stop doing treatment to their babies. In my case, he already he has no brain. I know that. But I have to save him in any case.  But that's the, you know, saying in the back of when I was not there, they were saying I tried too much to, you know, save him. And that's the feedback from the family. And luckily, in terms of my me, my wife, we both have the same understanding. He, he, he has already had a birth here. Now we have to give our best to give him, you know, whatever we have. So there is no any if else we have to give our best to, you know, support his life. So this is between me and my wife, but my family has a different position. And even the, I didn't have any hard, any enemy, any revenge with my doctors and anything. I have a very good pet with them. So, so I don't have any bad thing with the doctors and the hospital as of now. The only thing like in my case, there was no transparency and even the accountability was not there. So whatever is the report, if they tell told me on a very on if they told me in front of me and they have shown if they have explained me, you know, pros and cons of what is his condition, if they clearly mention everything about his future and everything, then the situation would be different. And in terms of accountability, like, look, when he had a overdose of sitamal, whole management came and they say sorry, and they were saying like, you know, we'll do anything to save, save him. And after when he's, when he was discharged, and then they were saying, we haven't made any mistakes. We can't do anything. We can't take any action with those doctors and nurses. And they were telling me, you can go to the court and NMC. So in terms of accountability, I haven't seen any accountability from them. And also transparency, if they have said his real condition to me, then there would, there will be a different condition history, if they have clearly said me the real report and assets. I'm going to put some improvement because I think this is the, I think this is the second case where like, you know, someone from Patentside who put a file against the private hospital regarding medical negligence and Patentside at the own. This won't happen in Nepal. So when in the from the legal side, if someone went the case and it could, it will be easier for other other parties in the future, you know, they, they, they can, they can take the, take the example of my case. And even there was a terminology in legal, like, you know, this is the example said has been through from the, those charges and, and everything. So next time, some, if someone has issue with the hospital, they can give my reference to the charges and the court and they can, there's a high chance that the same patient party will get a good favor because the favor has been already given to me. So based on those legal clause, they might have a chance to, you know, get party from the court in their favor. This thing I always told to my wife, like, you know, those doctors, they are, they are working in one organization. My, my God's feeling is saying is like, you know, they are, they are not allowed to speak portionally in position. They are not allowed to speak outside the hospital because that's their cake. This is the, that hospital is the way they are working. So if they start speaking against the hospital, then they will gonna lose the job.  So I'm just assuming. So hope this, this will come true, but they all knew it's a gross negligence. But because of the hospital and organization, they are not allowed to speak, I think people go to hospital for the treatment. They have a very good faith. Like, look, this, my case has been viral all over Nepal. Like, if someone had a neuro thing, they must have read my, my story. So in the hospital, I'm still wondering why they are accepting even that after an MC decision, they should accept like, you know, we had made a mistakes and we'll try to, you know, improvise our system or try to improvise our protocol. But as of date, they haven't done anything. So this is very from my personal observation, this is not a right approach.  So organization like hospital, who whose main, main motive is to save life to give a good care and they are still not speaking, they are still not accepting is like very wrong thing they are doing as of now. It will be very good for them if they accepted and they have, you know, and try to come in front of me and, you know, take care of the ring, but I don't think that will gonna happen. Regarding in Nepal though, like look, the Nepalese health system is very, very poor. Like, like, luckily, we live in city, we have an SS to a good hospital, but the people living in their villages, they don't have any SS to a good healthcare and they don't understand those protocols. So if I have to talk of the cities, if I have to talk about the hospital, then what I believe is like, you know, there has to be very good documented counseling, documented, you know, what to do, what not to do, you know, the hospital side, they always try to focus on taking the consent sign only, but they are not, you know, they are not taking initiative on giving a recorded counseling, you know, documented counseling, what they have counseled to the patient party. In my case, if you, if I have to, if the doctor have to speak, they will have another story, you know, I don't know, I have told Sanjeev this, this, this and he's exaggerating the whole thing, this might be the version of their doctor, even in, when they, they, they, they distribute between patient side and the hospital, the hospital side answers always the same. Like, you know, we have explained him properly, but he's not listening. If this thing just came in the documented form, then the 50 to 60 percent problem won't happen onwards. This is what, this is achievable and this is possible. At first, there has to be a very written counseling from the hospital side, then it, this is going to improve a lot. After this incident, like, you know, I started talking about the neuro neurologist issue, the hydrocephalus thing. I've started advocating through social media, through news, through article. So, when my baby story came in the news, I hardly, like, I, I got around 100 plus messages from the mothers and going to be parents very soon. And they have so many questions, like, you know, okay, I'm, I have also have a high thyroid. I have also with high LFT. My son also had a one surgery. They have so many questions.  So, in my case, I go through all the journals and all the medical thing. But if you, if you are a patient side and you want to have a second opinion, export second opinion, there is, there is no any export second opinion here in Nepal.  So, this is, this is very common here in Nepal. So, if they, if there's a very good I don't know, the free second opinion thing, free doctors, you know, who advocate, who counsel, who address the questions of the parents, then then that we're going to help a lot. But if you have to, if you again go through good with other private hospital doctors, then you'll, you'll not get a good counseling, I think. Look, the damage has already been happened. So, there is like only miracle, like, you know, only miracle can change the thing. And the, the, why I'm fighting as a daddy is like, you know, no other parent has to go through what I'm going through at the moment, because honestly, he was born in 2018. During his, that time, I have, mummy and my wife career was on top. We both were doing so good in terms of our job, in terms of our professional. And in two years, my wife left the job. I have also left the job. And we both started carrying him for two years, we expense, we expense so much of money. And then COVID happened. And what I decided is like, you know, okay, now COVID happened, I have to stay in the home with him. So I sold my car. I sold my car and told my wife, look, this COVID is not going to stop in one to two months. This is going to happen at least for two to three years here in Nepal. So we'll just take rest. We try, we'll try to, you know, mentally strong and have a good quality of life. And then from COVID-19, luckily, I got good job from working from home. I started working like, you know, morning to midnight till 11 to 12 every day. Like I work 14 hours per day from 2022. And luckily, like everything is happening good. And we also had a second baby during the lockdown. With the re-hand, we have already accepted what has happened to him. And we both are feeling proud, you know, our life is now back to normal. And we try to give him whatever we have as of now.


Well, I know that the Lord has anointed you for such a time as this. I believe you're called. I believe you're called to win souls. I believe you're called to heal the sick. I believe you're called to make prophetic declarations. I believe you're called to drive out demonic spirits. But as we grow in ministry, as we grow in the anointing, God will test us in order that he may promote us.  I've been talking about the seven trials of the called. Now these are seven ways that God will test you before he can promote you. Last week I talked about the test of hiddenness, which is being hidden before you're exposed. The week before that I talked about the test of service. In other words, if God can trust you with a little, he can trust you with much. This week I'm talking about the test of discouragement. This is where that weight comes on you and you don't know if you can make it and you feel like quitting. I want to talk to those today who feel like quitting. That's today on this edition of Spirit Church here on EncounterTV. First, Stephen Mock, the Zoomer, is here with me as usual. He's going to lead you in worship and then we're going to get right into this. This is going to be a changing day for you. I believe it. God is going to transform things in you. This is going to uplift you and you're going to the next level in ministry in Jesus' name. Here is Stephen Mock, the Zoomer. So the seven trials of the called. Now on week one, I talked about the test of service. Can you do the little things and if so, God will promote you. I talked about the test of hiddenness. This is where you feel overlooked under use like nobody understands what you're called to do, but that's where God purifies the motives because in that season you're either doing it because you love God or you're not doing it at all. This week on this edition of Spirit Church, I'm talking about number three, the test of discouragement. This is where you're so weighed down.  When you say, Lord, I've been at this for so long. I've been trying this in so many different ways, but nothing seems to be breaking at this point. There doesn't seem to be any breakthrough. I feel like I'm up against that wall and I've peaked. There's this cap and I can't get over this certain place. I'm going to show you today how to pass the test of discouragement. Now let's go to Genesis chapter 37. We're paralleling this lesson with the life of Joseph and with my testimony. I've been sharing with you about how I felt called to the media ministry. I shared with you about how I served in my youth group flipping songs on an overhead projector. I talked to you about number three, the test of hiddenness, all the failures I experienced in ministry, all the times I did something that really didn't work at all. Now I want to continue this story of Joseph and my story at the same time. So Genesis chapter 37, I'm going to read three simple verses to you, verses 25 through 28. The scripture says this, and just as they were sitting down to eat, they looked up and saw caravan of camels in the distance coming toward them. It was a group of Ishmaelite traders taking a load of gum, balm, and aromatic resin from Gilead down to Egypt. Judah said to his brothers, what will be gained by killing our brother? We have to cover up the crime. Instead of hurting him, let's sell him to those Ishmaelite traders. After all, he is our brother, our own flesh and blood. And his brothers agreed. And when the Ishmaelites who were Midianite traders came by, Joseph's brothers pulled him out of the cistern and sold him for 20 pieces of silver, and the traders took him to Egypt. Now this is the portion of the story where Joseph's brothers sell him into slavery. Now put this in the context of what I talked about last week, about how God will hide you before he can first use you, and he hides you for your own protection. Why? Because as soon as Joseph came out of the hiding of the cistern, he went into the discouragement of slavery. His brothers betrayed him. This is why betrayal in ministry hurts so much, because it's never the people we expect to betray us that betray us. It only hurts when we're betrayed by the ones we least expected. In discouragement, there is betrayal. There is heartbreak. There is discomfort. There is disconnection and isolation. Sometimes you feel even disconnected from God because of the heaviness that's on you. Now it's amazing that we talk about people rising. We encourage people to rise. We say we need more kingdom workers. But the moment people begin to rise, we begin to talk bad about them. This is what happened to me. When I was wanting to go into the TV ministry, the media ministry, I was accused of being arrogant. I was accused of being self-seeking. I was accused of being egocentric. I was accused of being hungry for popularity, all of those things. And it discouraged me because I knew in my heart why I wanted to do it. I wanted to win souls. And I knew that media was a better platform to do it. I had people who were my heroes in the faith, pastors. You got to keep in mind I was in my early teens. Going from my, actually my mid-teens to my later teens, so about 16, 17, 18, 19, around those years is where I was really pushing through in the media ministry or trying to push through at least. And it was during that time that pastors, some of them 40, 50 years old, were intentionally discouraging me because they were threatened by what I was doing. They didn't like the idea that this young guy didn't pay his dues or however they saw it in their mind. So I was discouraged. I was uncomfortable. I felt that way. I felt like quitting. In the season of discouragement, it's very difficult, very difficult to continue to keep your mind on the things of God. It's very difficult to pursue the dreams that he's given to you. Perhaps even now you feel like quitting. Perhaps even now you feel discouraged. Maybe your family's against what you do. Maybe your friends are against what you do. I like to say that when you get saved, you lose your unsaved friends. But when you get anointed, you lose your lukewarm friends. It's discouraging in the ministry especially because we say, Lord, I thought you told me to do this. This is not at all what I expected it to be. But I want to tell you something about the anointing that will encourage you. The anointing oil has multiple different ingredients and you can go look this up in the book of Exodus. There is myrrh, there is cinnamon, there's casea, there's calamus, and there's also a fifth ingredient, probably the base ingredient, is the oil itself. Now the oil is olive oil and the way they get the olive oil for the anointing is they get an olive and quite simply, they crush that olive. Now many of you probably know that it's an anecdote that's used quite often. The crushing of the olive produces the oil. But have you ever really thought about that? There would be no point in crushing the olive. I want you to hear this. There would be no point in crushing the olive if there was no oil in that olive. When you are crushed, when you are pressed, when you are tried, what is in you will come out.  I'm not saying they never shape you, but in this instance what we're talking about, trials don't shape you. They reveal what's there. They tear away at what shouldn't be there. And the oil that comes from the olive was there to begin with. Within you is the Holy Spirit. Within you is the power of God. Within you is the presence of Almighty, abiding with you constantly. The scripture says your body is the temple of the Holy Ghost. The scripture says that the Holy Spirit dwells in you. The scripture says that out of your belly, your inner man shall flow rivers of living water. The Holy Spirit fellowships with you, spirit to spirit, deep calling unto deep. And that which is in you when you are pressed flows out of you. The anointing is yielded when you are crushed. The oil is released when you are crushed. But that's not all that happens to the olive. You see, before the olive can be crushed, it has to be taken from the olive branch. And the way they take the olive from the tree is they shake the olive oil or the olive off of the branches. The olive is shaken from the tree. So first the olive is shaken and then it is crushed. What does it mean to be shaken? Well, when that olive is on that tree, it's receiving its sustenance. It's hanging on its source. It's depending on that tree. If I was an olive, I'd be quite comfortable on a tree. But when that olive is shaken from that tree, it loses its source. It loses its comfort. It loses its familiarity. You've been hanging onto things that you think support you. You know why God will take you through the season of discouragement? You know why God will disconnect you seemingly from the blessings, seemingly from people, seemingly from those things upon which you depend? God in this season of crushing, God in this season where you are discouraged will take you from those things so that you can learn that he and he alone is your source. God will shake things up because he loves you. If you depend too much on your finances, if you depend too much on a relationship, if you depend too much on your own ability, if you depend too much on a system, or a church, or an organization, or a gift, God will shake things up in that area. God will remove you from what you trust so that you learn to lean on him. He will crush, he will break the source. He will tear you from the source of your sustenance. He will tear you from the source that you're relying upon.  We like it where we are. And God will shake you from that place so he can say, you don't need that more than you need me.   God loves you too much to leave you hanging on the branch in comfort and in familiarity. So God will shake you from familiarity. Maybe you're in that season now where God is just shaking everything around you and you're being disconnected and you feel disconnected from people and you may even feel disconnected from God. Do you know why God will allow you to feel disconnected from people and even from him? It's so that you'll seek him. Only the desperate seek water. Only the thirsty look for the springs. Only the hungry search for bread. Only those who are discouraged. Only those who are being crushed are desperate for the presence. I'm not saying you don't search for God, we all search for God, but you have to admit, if you're being honest with yourself, that you don't seek God quite like you seek him when you're being shaken, when you're being crushed. And God does this intentionally. I'm not saying he causes the problems, I'm saying he uses them.  Why? So that the oil can be yielded. And you may say, well, I'm reaching out to people and they're not reaching back. I'm reaching up to God and it doesn't seem like anything's coming back. You're reaching out to people and they're rejecting you. But is it possible that the rejection of people is an invitation from God? To draw closer into the depths of his presence, to seek him in prayer, to begin to move deeper into the places of devotion, to understand more deeply the word. Is he drawing you into a closer fellowship with himself? I think so. God will allow you to go through these things so that you can depend on him. This is the work of God. Disconnection and isolation is not healthy long-term, but there are seasons where God will use it. And God shakes you. It crushes you so that he can use you. Don't be discouraged. Look, the scripture says in Galatians chapter six, verse nine, so let's not get tired of doing what is good. Just the right time we will reap the harvest of blessing if we don't give up. With discouragement, there's pain. There's heaviness. There's this desire to quit. Don't be discouraged. Don't quit. Keep going. You will reap a harvest. There are no exceptions to this rule. You are not an exception to the promises of God. God promised it, it will come to pass. Don't be discouraged. Pass this test and keep going. Well, that's it for the lesson. I wanna pray with you now. I wanna pray that God would begin to heal your heart and he would begin to strengthen you, give you this inner grace to carry out the work that he's given to you that despite the discouragement, you'll stay strong. Come on, let's pray. This is something I believe God has for you. Some of you watching this right now, you're saying this was just in time. So Lord, I pray in Jesus' name, for that one receiving this prayer. I ask, Father, in the name of Jesus, that you would begin to reveal yourself to them like never before. Lord, in this season where they're discouraged, in this season where they feel disconnected, I pray, Father, that you would reveal what you really like. Lord, if that's the reward, we'll take it. If the reward for this season, for passing this test is just to know you more, we'll take it. But Lord, a hundred years of trials is worth an hour in your presence. So we surrender all, we yield to you. In Jesus' name, we pray. I want you to say it if you agree. It say, amen, I really do, since the Lord encouraging many people. Don't quit, don't quit, keep going. Well, I wanna welcome now the new members of Spirit Church. There you are up on the screen. We love you, we are praying for you. I always say that because I always mean it. If you like information on how you can join the Spirit family, then use the information on the bottom of the screen. You sign up, it's 100% free. I send you an email every week, every Sunday. You'll get an email from me with a brand new teaching in it and you'll also be able to reply to that email for prayer support from our staff. And also the benefit of joining Spirit Church, we call it the Spirit family, is that you'll be joining believers from all around the world. In fact, over 2,000 believers from all around the world, many different nations are now members of Spirit Church. Now, on this part of the video, this is usually where I read your comments, but because of some scheduling, my traveling schedule and television schedules don't always mix. So on this edition of Spirit Church, I won't be able to read any comments, but I do want you to comment on this video here. Let me know what you're thinking of the series. I want to hear from you. Talk to me about how you're enjoying the series, the seven trials of the call, and let me know how the Holy Spirit spoke to you on this edition of Spirit Church. But I do want to talk to you about something. Don't turn off this video. Maybe you've never watched this far into the video. Maybe you kind of always log off during the comments, but this is the part you never see, or maybe you've seen it many times and you know what I'm gonna talk about. I want to win souls. That is the cry of my heart. The cry of this ministry is to build the believer and win the lost. We want to win souls. We want to win people to Jesus. That is a heart's cry. That's what we're called to do. And I want you to help me do that. We've been doing a fundraiser now for the past few months, and we should be wrapping up in the next couple of months. We've been trying to gain new monthly support from our partners. That's 1,000 new $30 a month supporters. Here's where we are on that campaign. Look at how close we are. I think we could wrap this up in just a couple months. We're almost there. And I need your help. That monthly support is going to go toward the monthly costs of a new level of expansion of ministry. So let me tell you where that's going. First of all, why we're doing it, souls. And so we can continue to build the church. Two, I want to tell you what we're doing. So the why is souls and building the believer. The what is a brand new television studio. Now where we are now, the space where we have set here, we have some office space where our ministry staff work. Well, we're running out of room. We're running out of room scheduling-wise. We're running out of room space-wise. We need to take this thing to the next level. The new facility is going to enable us to put out more content, higher quality content. We're going to be able to go live from set. We're going to be able to accommodate studio audiences. We want to build the space for you to come and sit in on the tapings. And in fact, we'll do regular services. I want to do regular, possibly weekly. In fact, that's the plan is to do weekly services in our studio so we can come down and be a part of the service. We want to open a 24-7 prayer room. We want to be able to have a place where we can house our new television network, which is basically all the content you're seeing on YouTube, spread across multiple different platforms. So there's a lot we're going to do in the media department. The second thing we're doing with these funds that are coming on a monthly basis is we're going to do more miracle services more often in more places. And that is equal to more souls being won. So to simplify again, why are we doing this? We want to win some souls. We want to win more souls than ever before. What are we doing? We're building a new ministry TV facility and we're doing more events. So why souls? What media and events? It's just that simple. Look, all the things that you can support, there are many different causes and they're all wonderful. But there is no greater humanitarian movement. There is no greater thing you can do to change the world than support the gospel of Jesus Christ. 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Here at First Time Watching, welcome. Today we review the action-packed 2022 film RIPD2 with a lot of movie reactions. When Sheriff Roy Pulsifer passes away the night before his daughter's wedding, he learns that a long-forgotten demon is plotting to rule the entire globe. Now that Roy is a member of the RIPD, a celestial organization that specializes in destroying demons, he must learn how to use weapons and cooperate with others in this new phase of his existence. Before we begin, we kindly ask that you like and comment on the video since this will allow us to expand our niche. The movie opens with the first appearance of Otis, a mysterious man working in an unspecified place. He keeps digging, seemingly requesting anything other than avarice. Otis believes he has found a priceless artifact in an old vein, but what he really finds is a passage to hell. A portal appears, and a dreadful shadow steps out of it and into Otis' body. It soon becomes apparent that Otis was under the control of a demon, a very deadly one at that, and that the guy who formerly stood there is no longer there. Sheriff Roy Pulsifer, our main character, is later introduced. The man is obstinate, conceited, and more. However, it is evident that he adores his daughter dearly and the residents of his town hold him in high regard. A group called the Samuels attacks the train as he gets his daughter and the man who will become his husband and a firefight occurs. Despite Roy's skill with the weapon, for some unexplained reason, none of the attackers are injured. Roy is shot behind the back in the middle of the gunfight and as a result, he is taken to paradise. In paradise, he is welcomed by an angel from the RIPD, also known as the Rest and Peace Department. Their aim is to keep peace on earth by returning the demons to their terrifying prison in hell. The angel reveals that they only accept the best soldiers into the group. However, Roy is eager to come back an exact revenge on the Samuels for having him killed. When he returns to earth, he is given a job and introduced to Jean, his new coworker. She has a sharp sword and doesn't give along with Roy very well. Roy is unable to return to his former life, according to Jean. They won't comprehend him if he tries to talk to a close friend or family member. She also demonstrates to him how they have switched places with other people's bodies. They are housed in the bodies of two black female bounty hunters. Roy acknowledges that although he is not prejudiced towards black people, they will have a tougher time adjusting to life in this body. After learning that Angus, his daughter's fiance, has been abducted, Roy makes the decision to go rescue him. What is Otis doing with all the people he has kidnapped? Otis' involvement in the Samuels assault is clear, as we can see. He's been gathering a legion of demons and now he's prepared to carry out a ritual that will let loose even more of them onto earth. He desires for the demons that are coming from hell to use the human bodies as their vehicles. We observe Angus attempting to assist others, proving that he is not the coward Roy believed him to be. In the meantime, Slim is captured by Roy and Jean after they engage in a shooting match with demons.  Naturally, Roy does not believe him, and they continue to torment him until they reach Red Creek, where Otis and the abducted individuals are reportedly hiding. A violent gunfight starts when Roy and Jean attack the mine where the kidnappers are holed up. The demons are instantly killed by Roy and Jean's unique weaponry. Even Jean, a seasoned combatant, is finding the fight difficult. The identity of Jean as the fabled Joan of Arc is made public. Even though she uses the strength of her relic, magic tears, to exterminate all the demons, Otis manages to survive and confront them, exposing himself as Asteroth. Roy utilizes his final tool, his tears, as Joan and he battle the devil, delivering Asteroth to hell once more. The abducted victims are freed, and Slim even provided evidence that some demons genuinely desire to do good and advance their own lives. In spite of his desire to see paradise and reunite with his deceased wife, Roy admits that he is content to have Joan as a companion. Joan tells Roy that, in order to enter the hereafter, he must have completed at least 100 years of service in the RIPD. As the film comes to an end, Roy curses the deities.


everybody it is Monday morning July 2nd I don't know what date I said it was yesterday I have no idea anyway I'm still in my pajamas on the couch I'm trying to finish up my coffee and wake up it's 7 52 a.m. I've got to go out and go get some more packing tape and stuff so I can finish packing up my office today so that we can get the shelving that's up on the wall off the wall so that the drywall repair and painting can happen in that room so I'm almost done not quite anyway my sister's coming in Wednesday to help out so yeah that'll be good anyway that's it for right now I'll be back all righty so as usual my hair is wet I'm finally out of my pajamas we're gonna head out this morning and run a couple errands before we go home and do more packing it gets me out of the house at least but it is not quite 9 a.m. so that means we're gonna hit morning traffic at least a little bit you know just I need to just go out and get this over with and like get out of the chaos that is the house right now so that's what we're gonna do I'll be back hey that's more my office packed up we're nearly ready for the workmen to come do the drywall repair and repaint and I got some more stuff so we're gonna go to Goodwill we're gonna get the mail you know stuff like that I'll be back hey guys it is Tuesday morning time is it 937 July 3rd I only know that because tomorrow is 4th of July and I only sort of know it I did have to peek at the computer as you can see my art room is pretty empty we're gonna be starting interior work on this room drywall repair repainting and also my husband's office next week so I have to finish getting this emptied except for some a few essentials that can be wheeled out of the way the day the work starts you know that sort of thing or wheeled into the dining room so I can do something that will keep me calm maybe sort of so anyway that's been my focus has been packing up stuff so yeah joy I'm going to go out today and get my hair done because yeah the roots are showing again and it's been obnoxiously hot here in most of California so the air conditioner has been on a lot for the last week I don't think today's gonna be any different it's windy outside but it's still warm and I have a bunch of lights on in here so that makes this little teeny room which is only 10 by 10 a lot warmer as I'm packing I've been finding more things to get rid of and to donate and so I've been making trips to Goodwill I think every day the last bit that I have to do I'll turn you hopefully a little slowly besides the little altar space which I have to do is the ephemeral wall and the ephemeral wall of course is mostly paper and stickers and stationary and that sort of thing I have over the years cleaned out a lot of it and I don't anticipate there being anything for me to clear out from here and honestly it took me way too long to build up the collection of things that I can pull of when I'm feeling creative for me to get rid of a lot so this is like the one part that I can just you know slap into a box and I don't have to like sort through anything that being said I need a break from packing boxes just yeah my sister is actually coming out from Utah tomorrow for something else she loves packing and purging so guess what she's gonna help me with once she's here yay for Elizabeth anyway that's it for the moment I will pop back in and check in if and when something interesting happens and okay that's it my hair is all done and colored and fixed up dye on my skin to prove it happens like every time I get my hair done anyway it's all done I got some groceries for dinner tonight I think I'm gonna make stroganoff and yeah I'm gonna go get the mail and eat some lunch and then I guess after that try to get the rest of my ephemeral wall packed up yeah cuz that's a thing if I don't just decide to leave the packing until tomorrow we'll see because you know it's a 50-50 shot whether I finish doing it tonight we'll find out I think I just ran over a squirrel pancake happy 4th of July everybody it is Wednesday July 4th it is what time is it 955 a.m. and I've already been up for a while restacking attacking the boxes I had to get out of my office of stuff finding some more stuff to purge which is at the curb and now I got to go to the grocery store to get 4th of July food cuz you know I forgot to do it yesterday hopefully they're open otherwise we're in deep doo doo what else I have of course the kids are coming over today we're gonna have a late lunch early dinner because they have to go somewhere tonight to pick up family at the airport so we're gonna do that watching fireworks isn't really our jam most of us have dogs so watching fireworks is not something we normally do scares a crap out of the dogs my daughter doesn't know it but her aunt just flaunt my sister is flying in today so I'm gonna go be going to pick her up in a couple of hours at the airport and she's gonna help me with some of the packing and rearranging of boxes that I've been doing around the house to get ready for the workman to come in next week and just be here for a visit the kids as I've already said are moving so they're having a going away party on Saturday and they don't know that Aunt Elizabeth is gonna be here so that's a surprise to them anyway my sister said you know while I'm there I like packing and moving stuff so I'll help you I said good you're hired because we have to sort of make the house look presentable for the party I don't really want stacks of boxes everywhere which is what I normally do when we're having renovation work done but we're having a party so I'm not okay with that so we've got to try to squeeze it all into the garage at least anyway that's what's going on at the moment I am gonna go head to the store we're gonna grill some chicken and asparagus have some french fries that sort of stuff maybe some baked beans you know that sort of barbecue stuff just have a good a good time so if I can I'll film some things for you all you know I will and that's it for the moment I'll be back good morning everybody it is Thursday morning July 5th it's 954 a.m. and I had it out to make yet another Goodwill donation and I need to get some propane for the barbecue because we are having a barbecue on Saturday and it turns out we're at a propane and I go home my sister is in town with her husband visiting and she's gonna help me get ready for the work to be done on the inside of the house on Monday and so she's gonna help me do some more packing they already helped me restack the boxes in the garage so that we have a lot more room which is fabulous they're so great at that that's pretty much my day okay that light was green it's never green anyway so yeah that's my day running errands getting some more things packed getting ready for Monday and getting ready for the barbecue on Saturday that's happening at our house as a going away party for our daughter and her boyfriend so I need to do the packing I need to do and have the house be presentable enough for the barbecue so that's a challenge so that's a little bit stressful so we're working on that and I need to go through some artwork that has been listed in Etsy that hasn't sold and I'm gonna start removing some canvases from the stretcher frames the wood frames and bundling them up into packages to sell to you all for you know inexpensive and you can cut them up and use them for journal covers you can remount them on some artboard or whatever so I'm gonna do that I think today too anyway I'll be back yeah yeah I'm putting the seatbelt on okay yay they took the artboard whoo all right next stop propane tank hey everybody it is Friday afternoon it's 147 and it just turned 147 I was gonna say 146 in the afternoon Friday July I think July 6th yeah I think the 6th because 4th of July was Wednesday anyway for those that don't know right now in case I haven't said and I've lost track of when I'm vlogging and when I'm not I have like no idea I have a bunch of people at my house we're having a going away party for my daughter her boyfriend tomorrow my sister is here she's been helping me get some of my stuff packed up so we can have the interior work done on the art room and helping me clean and get ready for the party stuff it's been great visiting with her and her husband Philip anyway and then today it is really hot in my car okay wait we need air conditioning blasting it's 97 degrees outside right now which is cool because it was hotter than that yesterday anyway everybody in my house is working their day jobs at home so my husband's working from home today the daughter came over to hang out at my house with her dog and she's working she's actually in my office with the door closed so I can't get in there Philip and Elizabeth are both working on their computers at the dining room table it's a good thing I don't need to like film anything or do a YouTube live or I don't think there's enough bandwidth so I've been just doing some cleaning and going through my magazine stash and stuff like that so now I'm gonna go out and get the mail I have unmounted a few canvases off of the stretcher frames that they're on when you buy a stretch canvas at the store and decided to sell them off the frames because honestly they've been around a while and they're not selling any other way I didn't do it to everything but I did do it to some and I've sold a few I have a few left at the time of filming this and if there are any left I'll insert the pictures of them here and I'll try to remember to number them and then if you're all interested in a particular one send me the number of the one and then I will get back to you first come first served I'm not asking much but we can dude really you don't have the right away anyway not asking much but they do need to make them go away enough is enough already you can remount them of course you can cut the you know ragged the edges off and put them onto some mat board and frame them that way you could cut them up and make them into other art or journal covers or something they are all signed so they have it some of them I did on YouTube so you'll recognize some of them anyway they're all for sale I sold some right away last night so I have to go mail them just how I got started on this conversation and pick up any mail that we have so I'm gonna go do that right now I don't have to do another Goodwill run because I did have another one for today but my daughter was very sweet and in between basically visits to my house she had to run home and get something that she forgot she said do you want me to take the Goodwill stuff on my way out the door I'll make the donation for you and I'll be right back I said sure and we're gonna go out to dinner later probably for sushi or something and I think we need to go to Costco for the party so anyway I'll film whatever is interesting and let y'all know that's it for now I'll be back okay all the artworks mailed and it didn't cost that much to send so that was a good thing no mail for me to get up get pick up because it was all junk so I threw it away before I left my husband will be happy no windows for those who don't understand what I mean by that bills bills always have envelopes those windows in them so he likes them we don't get windows anyway I'm gonna go home now and I'm going to just have some water and sit in the corner maybe read my Kindle or something since I can't get to my office or my computer or anything all right that's it right now I'll see you later I'll be back yeah who thought this was a good idea I almost said Friday it's Saturday July 7th I actually thought it was Sunday when I woke up so yeah doing really well today according to Krispy Kreme donuts it's National Chocolate Day anyway we're having a big party here for my daughter and her boyfriend for their going away party for their moving and I guess in honor of their party and National Chocolate Day we have you see that in there it's a seven pound chocolate cake from Costco anyway of course my hair is wet I just got out of the shower and we're getting ready for the party we're gonna be setting up here and I will get what footage I can when I can and I will be back we need more ice it is 98 degrees outside going to the store to get another bag of ice this time I think I might just let's go get the ice morning everybody it is Sunday morning June something 8th I think I forgot to film the outro yesterday we had a going away party for my daughter and her boyfriend because they're moving to Oregon as you can see by the fact that we didn't get everything cleaned up yesterday so I forgot to film the outro so anyway it was a fun party went well into the evening there's Mr. Bandit yeah he didn't like the fact that he couldn't come out of his run-in like play with all the kids but you know it is what it is anyway I hope you had it all had a great week we certainly did there's a lot going on here this week I'll film what I can when I can and yeah go out and have a great day do something nice for yourself because you deserve it I'll put any relevant links in the comments below in the description below don't forget to like share and subscribe and hit that little bell icon if you want notifications about new videos when they come out that's it for today I'll see you later


Hi and welcome back it's Vicky here with a new art journal project. Today I'm going to play with my new Pebio paints. These paints are really amazing to work with and you will see what I mean later on today. Now I have to say that this is not a sponsored video, I don't do sponsored videos, I just happened to see the products while I was on creativity and loved them. Now I will be using three different paints, the Vitrae, the Prism and the Moon. Now all three of them have different properties and I'm going to explain each and every one of them separately. So the Vitrae is a paint that is made for painting on top of glass which means that this paint is transparent and of course it comes in a huge range of colors but you will see that you can use it for the technique that I'm going for today. This paint is really concentrated. If I open up the bottle it looks as if it is black but this is good because actually you can thin it down and this bottle can take you for a long long time. I am going to show you how to do it later on. And now let's move on to the next two paints. These are from the Pebio fantasy line. There are two actual collections here. The one is called Prism that you can see here and this creates a beautiful honeycomb effect. You don't have to add silicone or any other mixative to create this effect. This is a high-end paint that includes all the good stuff inside so when you use it it's going to create the effect for you without you having to do anything else. And of course it comes in a huge range of colors as well and the second collection of fantasy paints that they have is called Moon. Again it comes in a huge range of colors and this one when you apply it it creates a beautiful hammered effect. Now I will be using all of these paints today and you will see how everything works out. Now normally you can use these paints to do some pouring which is very trendy these days and you can work on a canvas or a hardcore surface like these art panels by Ranger. They work beautifully on top of those. However I want to try today something different and I want to play with them on top of paper. This is watercolor paper and I want to create a page for my art channel. But again you can do what I'm doing today on top of a canvas and here's a fun thing there are canvases by Pebeo these are called art panels and they have this raised frame all around which means that if you pull paint on top of it you're not going to make a mess all over your craft area. So for today I'm going to work on a watercolor page from my 6x6 discbound journal and since I want to use these paints I need to make sure that I cover it up completely with Gesso. So that's what I'm going to do now I'm going to prime my surface with Gesso which means that it's going to turn into a non-porous surface and all those paints that I'm going to apply are not going to just soak inside. Now first of all I want to apply a coat of the Vitae this is turquoise and you can see how concentrated it is and how dark it looks as if it is black. So I'm going to thin it down so that I get a lovely color and at the same time just with one drop I can have lots and lots of color. So this is just a thinner that I'm using and you can make it as concentrated as you want. I don't use a lot just a couple of drops here and I'm using a pipette which makes my life easy and I avoid any mess. Now in my page here I have applied Gesso just like I said before making sure that everything is nice and dry and now I'm going to use the paint that I have prepared and thinned down and apply a very thin coat. Now you will probably see some texture coming out that's just because when I applied Gesso I did that with a spatula because I didn't want to have a completely smooth background. Here I'm using a spatula to help the paint spread out and I avoid using brushes with these paints just because I don't want to have to do a lot of cleaning later on. Remember these are not water soluble paints. This means that they have a little bit of odor but it's already spring in Greece so I have my windows open and I'm good to go. Now I will move on and use two shades of gold one of them is fantasy the other one is moon. You don't have to use both of them you can you are good to go if you want to create a similar look just with one gold. So in the end you will see that you can create the same look just by buying three paints only. A shade of blue some gold and some white which means that it makes it easy for you to try them out and see if you like these techniques. I apply my paint with a popsicle stick so again I'm not using any brushes so I don't have to do any cleaning at all at the end. I am applying now the lighter shade of gold and remember that before you use those fantasy paints you need to give it a good steer because when you store them all the good stuff are quite heavy and they go and sink at the bottom so just give it a good steer but don't shake the bottles before you use the paint because this way you will create bubbles inside the paint bottle that you don't really want to use on your project. I'm moving my page up and down helping those colors to blend together they have already started to react the fantasy paints which are the two gold ones at the bottom and they are creating all kinds of beautiful effects and now I'm going to go and add some white I'm going for an ocean themed today so this is going to end up looking as an abstract ocean and I'm adding the waves now. The paint that I'm using here is moon fantasy moon and the color is pearl again I apply everything with a popsicle stick and I'm also going to add some abstract lines on my sea as well these are not going to look like that those paints react on their own they have a mind of their own they are really difficult to control so don't go for the perfect look just go for an abstract look and you will be really happy with the outcome. This was the first time I used those paints I find them really easy to work with since you are going for an abstract look and I had so much fun working with them I'm definitely going to use them again and you will see more videos of me using those for lots of beautiful backgrounds for my art journal. When you give your page a little bit of an angle you will see that all those paints move and blend together and create beautiful effects however at some point you want to stop that happening but since I'm working on a page it was quite difficult since it is a little bit warped that's not the case when you work on a canvas of course but I had to make it work so here is my work around I'm just using a printer paper underneath and I have applied some double-sided tape and now I'm pressing my work on top of it so you can see now it's nice and flat and of course you can add as many layers as you like on top of it and then you have to leave it on its own to dry now in my case it took about 24 hours to dry so I went back the next morning and it was completely dry but I guess it depends on how much paint you add on top of your project as well as the climate so here we are about an hour later now I have transferred it on a hard cardstock which is nice and clean so that it's not too messy for you guys and you can see exactly what I'm doing and I'm going to add a little bit of glitter in different areas the paint is not dry at all yet which means that this glitter is going to soak into the paint and it's going to stick nicely there I'm using some paint glass glitter and this is by Stampendous I'm going to link all the products that I'm using down below just like always into different shops so you can check the prices and I think that the Pebio paints are on sale at the moment 15 percent off at Jogles but you will find all the links that you need down below and just because I want some touches of white I'm also going to sprinkle this chunky white embossing powder I'm not going to melt it I just want to add it and it's going to stick nicely where the wave is just like I did with the glitter and here is my beautiful background 24 hours later everything is nice and dry and I love that it has a beautiful shine the glitter and the embossing powder is nicely stuck there nothing falls out so I'm just going to finish it off I don't want to cover it up completely to turn it into a journal page for my art journal I want to add just a few touches here and there but I want to keep that background to be the focal point of my page so I'm just going to stick down a little fishing net this anchor that I had in my stash forever enter a cheap quote from Tim Holtz collection for sticking everything down I'm going with a little bit of a new water looks glue I'm also going to use my hot glue gun to secure down the metal anchor just to make sure that this is not going to fall out and since I had my glue gun on my table I used that to stick down the cheap quote as well so all I have to do now is to just use my scissors and cut out all the fishing net that sticks out of the page and here is my finished page that I absolutely love I think that I am going to recreate that into the big canvas that I showed you earlier so now I'm going to use some metal rings and turn this into a new art journal where I can add even more pages as I go now I like to use metal rings just because I like the feel of them I will link the ones that I'm using right now down below and they come in many different colors and sizes but you can also get the plastic rings which are way cheaper and they come in many different colors and sizes as well so that was the project for today don't forget you will find all the links of the products that I used down below in the description area I hope that you had fun today and that you got inspired to give those paints a go and by grabbing just three colors you can create this beautiful background here are some close-up photos thank you all so much for joining me today and I'll see you all next time