Dú llwyddon Gweithio. Mae'r fawr gweld o'r talydd o'r bydd, mae'n anod o gwych yn erbyr, mewn cyfcatlen cynghwyrnod, yn y gwirioneddol yng nghymru, fel y gallwn hynny, cael bod hynny'n defnyddio sy'n bwysigol. Why multi-core? The reason for worrying about all of this concurrency stuff quite so much is largely to do with the rise of multi-core. Probably most of you have phones in your pockets that have quad-core processes. And I'm sure I don't need to tell you about what Moore's Law is. That trend is going to continue and speed-ups in programmes will start to be gained by using more cores more efficiently rather than simply buying a faster processor. That's really important. What's also important is as hardware becomes cheaper and people do more interesting things with it, different sorts of platforms are becoming available. So this board that you can see on the slide is called the Parallella Board and it's by a company called Adaptiva. So this was a Kickstarter project. And I'm afraid I haven't bought one with me. But this board is about the size of a credit card. So it's the same sort of form factor as a Raspberry Pi. And the aim of this company is to do for supercomputing what the Raspberry Pi is doing for sort of general development. So to make it cheaper, to make it more readily available on the desktop to all sorts of people, whether they be hobbyists or scientists or whatever. So the interesting thing about this board is that it's kind of like the Raspberry Pi. It's got the sort of features you'd expect of a single-board computer. This is a dual-core syncs chip. But the really interesting thing is this chip that Adaptiva made themselves, which is a 16-core, many-core co-processor. And the idea is if you want to speed up your programs, then you use this co-processor to help you do that. So they've got a 16-core version of that chip and a 64-core version of that chip. So that makes multiprocessing very cheap, very fast and also very low energy. And that's really nice. But how would you program this board? So the default libraries are all in C. And if you want to be experimenting with a large amount of data or experimenting with making a difficult, complex scientific analysis a lot faster, probably going through the C workflow of writing very carefully crafted code that doesn't blow up as soon as you run it and compiling it and all those other things is not really much fun. People who use this sort of thing often want to explore and explore their data and explore their programs. And that's where dynamic languages really come in. So to use Python on a board like that would be really fantastic. But can we do it? Can we do it natively and really nicely? We don't know yet. So message passing concurrency is not a new idea it's a very, very old idea. And it came from two lines of work. One line of work was very practical. There's this old chip called the INMOS Transputer and the idea was that you would have many of these transputers there sort of like a CPU and you would put them in a grid and you would wire them all together. So this was like a sort of very early form of a multicore. The other line of work was very theoretical. So CSP, Communicating Sequential Processes are one way of mathematically formalising concurrent and parallel processing. There are many other ways and they're all sort of reasonably similar in terms of the ideas that are in them. And these two things went together but they never became popular because we have threads instead. So I'm not going to go through all of the sort of mathematical details of CSP but I want to give you a flavour of what it's all about and why it might be important. So in the process algebra view of the world computation is made up of imperative commands that run sequentially and you have lots of those but you have them in processes which run concurrently and can communicate with each other. So you have different processes which are all running their own imperative programs and they don't share any variables or any data. If they want to communicate with each other or synchronise with each other they need a special way of doing that and a common way of doing it but not the only way is to pass messages via channels. So the way to think of this as a sort of broad overview is to think about unix processes communicating by pipes. So you have different processes all running in parallel and if they want to communicate they do so by pipes because they don't share any memory with each other. But I'm sort of aligning a few details there because CSP is an abstract idea, it's a mathematical formalism. So when I talk about a CSP process that's not necessarily an operating system process and when CSP talks about events and synchronisation that's not necessarily like the sort of events that you would see when you were programming a GUI. But it might be, it might be and I'm going to talk about that in a bit more detail later on. So why would anyone care about all of this stuff? Well, if you've worked with threads and you've worked with LOX you know they're really tough to get right. Correctness is important and when you're dealing with really low level things like LOX and pointer arithmetic and all of this sort of stuff it's hard and locking is hard and deadlocks and starvation and race hazards and all those things are hard. And they don't sit well with our sort of very high level pythonic view of the world which is to use the abstractions of the language to make our life really simple and hide a lot of the really hard things which is a good way to do computing. It's what computer science is all about. So the good thing about message passing concurrency is that message passing removes some of these possible faults that you can have with locking. So you can't have race hazards with message passing concurrency but you could have deadlocks still so you know it's not perfect. And hopefully if you have a good message passing language or library then a lot of the difficult stuff is hidden away for you in a runtime system perhaps or in a library. So all the cool kids are doing message passing at the moment. It's an idea that's come back around because of multicore and other things. So the next few slides are some examples of message passing concurrency in different languages. So I've already mentioned unix and pipes and that's a sort of really simple idea of message passing and hopefully what most people are familiar with. So this is a simple sort of hello world in go and the syntax here is a little maybe a little unfamiliar to Python people. The idea is that here on this line we're creating a channel. So we're creating a new channel that we can pass messages around with like our pipe and that'll be bi-directional like a pipe is on the command line. This thing that looks like a function is a function but this special keyword go in front of it means that it's also a go routine.  It's a sort of lightweight kind of thread. It's not a thread that's created by the operating system so it's much cheaper to create a go routine or destroy a go routine than an operating system thread. And then what we're doing on this line with this sort of funny syntax is we're sending the string hello world down this channel, my channel and then we're going to run this go routine straight away so it's going to be running in the background of our program. So these sorts of funny bits of syntax I'm afraid really pervade these ideas in languages and you'll see a lot of weird syntax. The CSP syntax for doing this sort of thing is a pling, an exclamation mark or to receive something down a channel a question mark so it kind of hasn't got better through the ages in my view I'm afraid. So on this line here what we're doing is we're receiving something down this channel from this channel and whatever we receive we're just printing out. So this is a simple sort of hello world in that language. Rust is another new language does similar things so we've got a sort of idea here we've got a channel being created here we've got a background process running here where we're doing some sending then we're receiving this value and printing it out. What's slightly different with Rust is that if you are familiar with working with UNIX pipes in C you'll know that when you create a UNIX pipe in C what the operating system gives you is two ends of the pipe a sending end and a receiving end and that's what's happening here with Rust we've got a sending end of this channel and we've got a receiving end of this channel and the idea there is to prevent you from doing silly things like sending down the receiving end or receiving down the sending end so you the programmer in Rust have to decide ahead of time where in my programme am I going to want to send down this channel and where am I going to want to receive down this channel it's something you need to think about at compile time so Scala being a JVM language is taking up the whole screen with its verbose braces but this is exactly the same sort of thing so we have an actor which is similar to the sort of background processes that we were talking about and co-routines and so on and we've got this slightly backwards here so here we're sending so this is really using CSP syntax with the pling and in here we're receiving something and printing it out and Python CSP so Python CSP is my own library and some of you in this room have been really generous and contributing to it particularly Stefan over there in previous year of pythons so this is an attempt at doing something like this in a pythonic way for Python but built as on to the language as a library so here we've got two CSP processes so we're not saying in the code here how those processes are sort of reified whether they're co-routines or threads or operating system processes but we've got two processes here that can run in parallel with the decorators we've got channels that can be shared between them and we can read and write with those channels and again we're just sending hello world printing it out and then on this line so this is a much more sort of CSP-ish way of doing things than perhaps the other examples we're saying well we're going to take these two processes and run them in parallel and start them off and if we had a huge program with many processes we might decide well we'll run them all in parallel or we might run a few then run a few more in sequence whatever we wish we'll have flexibility there about how our program is sort of put together so this last example is by a student of mine Sam Giles and what he was looking at was really interesting which was can we build a language like this that has the sort of go or rust style channels and concurrences on the R-Python toolshane so can we use the technology that the PiPy team would develop to do this same hello world example there we've got channels here we're going to send down that channel a hello world and then we've got Sam's sort of unusual receive syntax there to receive something from the channel and print it out and this function here is being run in the background as a sort of asynchronous coroutine so that's a really nice project and it's a really nice way of working and I think actually Sam was a very very good student but I think it's a testament to the good engineering of the PiPy team that an undergraduate student can produce a working language like that in the small amount of time for a final year project so I'm not going to talk in great detail about optimisation and speed and efficiency and those sorts of issues but I just wanted to show you quickly one of Sam's benchmarks which shows quite nicely that with a jit with a tracing jit now I can perform well compared to other languages of this sort so go here an OCamPy which is a descendant of OCam both compiled languages and now I can compares pretty reasonably well to them this is only a small benchmark so we perhaps shouldn't take it as gospel but it's a good indication that this sort of way of working might be positive on the other hand I haven't got for you here the same benchmark with Python CSP but we looked at similar things with Python CSP and that was engineered very differently so I'll talk a little bit more about the sort of design decisions that message passing concurrency implementers might take in the next section of the talk but what we found with Python CSP is that our implementations of channels were very very slow so you wouldn't expect or I wouldn't expect a Python implementation of this to be as fast as something like go OCamPy that's compiled and has a lot of a lot of engineering going into these features but I perhaps wouldn't expect or I would hope that message passing would not be the bottleneck in any program and what we actually found was that OCamPy is incredibly fast, it's designed exactly for this but compared to other sorts of interpreted languages we looked at JCSP for the JVM thinking maybe because JCSP is built on Java threads are okay but you know they're operating system threads maybe we could get something like that performance and we actually got sort of a hundred or so times worse and didn't do very well at all so there are some lessons learnt there and there's some interesting stories but part of the take away of this is that actually it's very difficult to engineer that kind of performance if you're starting from an interpreted language that hasn't been built with this sort of concurrency in mind so this next section of the talk is all about the sorts of varieties of message passing concurrency that can be created and the different decisions that an implementer would have to make if they were going to implement something like this in Python so one choice is synchronous channels versus asynchronous channels so in the CSP way of thinking and in the sort of process algebra way of thinking and that sort of very mathematical formalism the idea is that all channels block on reading and writing and you don't move forward with the computation until your read or your write is finished and some people including me think that the nice thing about this is it's then very easy to understand what your program's doing and reason about it because you know exactly in what order everything's going to happen you know this piece of code will not move forward until it's finished this read and then it'll do this and then all the other things that are waiting on it will be able to move forward as well asynchronous channels though are quite common as well in different languages and some people suggest that they're a bit faster and sometimes that seems to be true and certainly the benchmark I showed you before showed that in that particular benchmark Sam's asynchronous channels for now were a little bit faster than his synchronous ones if you do have synchronous channels though you need to think a little bit about avoiding some of the common problems that people have with concurrency like starvation and you don't necessarily want a process to block for a very long time if it doesn't have to sometimes it might have to sometimes it might be waiting on a long computation but if you don't have to block you would probably prefer not to so a common feature of message passing languages and libraries is some way of selecting the next ready event to process so if we're thinking in terms of events being channels and message passing down channels if you have a lot of channels that you're waiting on and you want to read from a sort of map reduce type problem or a worker pharma type problem then you might say well give me the one that's ready first and that's called alternating in sort of OCam old fashioned language or selection more generally so you can say select for me the channel that's ready to read and usually if you're implementing that selection you do that rather carefully because although you might want to select the next most next ready channel to read from if you've got a channel that's always ready to read from and some that are taking a little while you don't want those other channels to not be processed so usually there's a little bit of work goes into that to avoid starvation and do some good load balancing so that's one issue synchronous or asynchronous channels or you might say buffered or unbuffed channels another issue is are your channels bi-directional or are they unidirectional so we saw in Rust you get what you get in Unix C which is a read end and a write end of a channel and that's quite a common way of working with channels to avoid miss avoid some mistakes in your code if you look at the JCSP library which is a very nice library because it's been engineered very well with a lot of thought going into its crackness the JCSP library is very Java like and Java people don't mind having thousands of classes to choose from and large amounts of documentation and they don't mind pressing control space in their ID and getting a long long, long list of things and so JCSP sort of works with that paradigm and it has lots of different channel types that are all classes I haven't listed them all because the slides are small but so you can have things like you can have a one to one channel that has one reader and one writer process attached to it at any one time you can have it any to any channel that has any number attached to them at any time and so on and then you always have the read end channel wherever you are and the idea here is to use the type checker to design out a lot of potential faults that might creep into your code so that's nice for Java because it fits well with the sort of Java way of doing things it's what Java people would expect so when I wrote Python CSP and designed that I made all the channels and I didn't give people the read end and the write end I let them shoot themselves in the foot because it seems to me to be a bit more of a sort of dynamic way of doing things and a bit more pythonic but not faultless not foolproof so those are a couple of different design choices another is mobile or immobile channels so this is something that wasn't built into CSP originally but it was built into a different process algebra called called the Py Calculus by Robin Milner and then the Kent the team at Kent University who sort of took over the development of Occam created Occam Py which sort of fused together the Py Calculus and the CSP way of doing things so a mobile channel is a channel that can be sent down another channel to a different process and the idea of doing that is that you can think of your message passing program as being like a graph where the nodes of the graph are your processes and the arcs between processes are your channels that link those processes together at runtime you may wish to change the topology of that graph and change its shape so two good reasons why you might do this one might be a bit to do with load balancing if you have a computation that's split among a lot of processes you might find some of them are more active than others and you might decide to change the load balance between them which might also mean changing the topology of the graph and who's reporting their data back to who and who's aggregating the data and so forth that's one reason might be that you might be running these processes across a network so you might not only be working with one machine you might have some processes farmed out to another machine on your network and then you might have issues like latency or you might have issues like network failure or whatever and that might make you think well during the running of my computation I'd like to change the topology to make the most efficient use of that network of machines so that's one reason so this this leads to two issues mobile channels can be great if you can use them really well and you've got a good use case for them if you're in a situation where you need to shut down this network and graph of running concurrent processes then you need to notify each node in your graph that it needs to shut down and so doing that safely is quite an important thing to do so in the sort of message passing world one way to do this is called poisoning which means that you tell a channel or the node that decides to shut everything down or shut a few things down tells a channel or all of its channels that it knows about that they need to start shutting down and they need to propagate the message that this program is going to halt and this is called poisoning so you poison a channel and the idea is that it poisons the well of the whole program and each process shuts itself down safely and that's something that takes a little bit of care and a little bit of good engineering because you need to think well if I'm a process and you're all processes and you need to all die and then I'm going to die then that needs to happen in the right order if I kill myself first you won't know what to do or not, who knows so the other we talked about channels we talked about mobility different sorts of channels the other thing is how to represent the processes and there are a lot of different choices there too so in some languages one CSP process is one co-routine and that makes sense in some paradigms so I think this is kind of how Node.js works and that leads to very fast message passing because in the run time system all those processes share memory they're all really in the same operating system thread so they can do a lot of things very very fast and they can pass messages down channels very very fast but then it's hard to take advantage of multiple if you're all in one thread you could have a one to one mapping where one CSP processes one OS thread that gives you much slower message passing because whoever implements that does have to deal with locking and all those low level issues but then you can start taking advantage of the features that your operating system has you could make one CSP process one OS process and that's a really good choice if you're thinking about migrating processes around a network and running your code on more than one computer at once so sort of MPI style if you're into MPI or you can have some sort of multiplexed version of all of those options so you can have some CSP process that are co-routines but live inside an OS thread and there are other CSP processes that live inside another OS thread but are really co-routines themselves and all sorts of combinations therein and this is really where why Python CSP was not as fast as we'd hoped because we were looking at taking advantage of multi-core in the network so we were using these sorts of one to one mappings which are not the best in terms of speed so I'm not going to talk for a huge amount longer because hopefully we can have a good discussion but I wanted to say a little bit about message passing in Python so there are lots of although Python is not a message passing language in the way that goers and rasters and all those other things Python does sort of have a lot of these ideas built into its ecosystem and sometimes in libraries sometimes in different implementations of the interpreter sometimes in all sorts of other ways so I was really pleased looking through the Europe Python schedule to find that actually there are a lot of different talks in this conference that in some way have quite a lot to do with the ideas that I've been talking about today so they're not necessarily straightforward implementations of message passing in the way that Python CSP was but they take on some of those ideas either by implementing co-routines or using co-routines or using channels and so on so in a sense message passing is already here in a sense and also of course in Python 3.4 we have co-routines built in so there's perhaps a big opportunity there to think about building these things in to the core of the language so if you're interested in this stuff then I'd certainly be interested in talking to you my next steps for this Python CSP has been sort of in abeyance for the last few years while my day job has taken me to do different things but Python for the Parallella board will be coming out this summer so I've got a project working on that this summer starting sort of mid-August and we'll be looking at nice and hopefully efficient ways of using Python for the Parallella that ideally would use message passing in some way but we'll see how that works out the jury's rather out on that one and Python CSP is certainly moving back into regular development Sam's language now will be continuing so I'll be at the Pi Pi Sprint this Saturday doing a little bit more on that and if you are interested in this stuff then please do come and catch me some time thank you very much can you please slide up on the mic on either side of the board hello I have seen that we are always relying on the operative system layer for the threads or the core routines etc has been any enhancement on how processors can pass from one to another information about besides the caches and all those things there was an interesting development in the open MPI library a few years ago when they found that their message passing was a little bit slower than they would like and open MPI people tend to work on Linux so the Linux kernel brought in a new way of doing that which is called cross memory attach and the idea of cross memory attach and I think it is only a Linux thing now but the idea of it is that you've got two different operating system processes and then rather than saying rather than doing what you would do in a pipe which is that you copy the memory you have you keep the memory in one place and then you pass around a sort of handle to that memory between processes so that's a much quicker way of doing it that was built specifically for MPI but would possibly be a really good way forward for for any other implementation like an implementation on Python so yeah there's definitely some interesting work there Hello I wanted to ask what the Python CSP library provides that Sagee event doesn't apart from the Simpler API well it's a good question it's a different API I don't know if it's simpler or not Python CSP started because I wanted something like this in Python but the only things that were available were direct ports of the Java JCSP language so the idea of this is that it's much more similar to a CSP way of doing things than anything else so what does it provide it provides processes which can be various sorts of processes it provides channels it provides selection or alternation it provides a small library of built-in processes that might be useful so the reason for that is that the way that CSP people tend to think about this is that the more concurrency you have the better so rather than saying well a nice sequential program how do I split it up to make it efficient or concurrent or sensible or whatever it is they say well you know make everything you possibly can concurrent so they tend to have libraries of processes that do things like have two channels read down those two numbers from those channels add them together and send them out down a third channel so a process that just does addition and then a process that just does all the other arithmetic things so there's support for that way of working if that way of working is something that's interesting to you I suspect though that that way of working is probably only interesting to people who are interested in CSP for its own sake because it's not a terribly pragmatic way of working so I mean the answer to your question really is it Python CSP implements all the sort of basic things that you expect of a message passing library it's just a matter of how it implements them and how well and I think we probably score about 5 out of 10 for that at the moment but hopefully it will get better So quick question on Python CSP and multiple processes is it currently implemented with multi does it use something like multiple processing multi processing how are you doing the message passing across processes is it difficult to serialise them so we've got two different ways of doing it one with threads and one with processes but I didn't use multi processing I just use os.fork and that sort of thing so windows is out of the question yeah so the idea of that was that multi processing is really built for a particular way of working and it has a lot of internal code that supports that way of working but isn't so useful if you want to do things the CSP way so for example I think when you spawn a process in multi processing that process also spawns a watchdog thread for that process but in a CSP library you don't need that so the idea was to be just a little tiny bit more efficient by not having those multi processing internals I think in reality that if you compared a version of python CSP using multi processing on one without you probably wouldn't find a vast amount of difference so you could easily do most of these things using multi processing because you've got pipes in the MP library so in that sense python has some of these things built in already and so you used the os.fork to do the memory copying to do the message passing no to do the processes and then pickle and so I think I might know why your message passing is the bottom yes I think that's a very good yeah absolutely I mean something like so shared memory is a problem for object passing because you still have the question of then who owns the reference count so some kind of library that could where you could have immutable data structures where and you have a convention that the receiving channel owns the message that's been passed so it's responsible for the the destruction and then you could do reliable message passing between between channels yeah I think that makes a lot of sense the version of python CSP that uses os process is sort of unique shared memory type things and that's still quite slow partly because I think shared memory is more efficient when you're copying a large amount of data or copying data many times through the shared memory it's not really intended for sort of one off sends and receives which is kind of what you're doing when you do a message pass in CSP so it's not really the right tool for the job so shared memory attach might be interesting so where do you see the future of message passing in python would it be something like Prypy STM or rather something like async IO or so async IO sort of does this kind of thing already but for IO processes that you want to run in the background for that particular use case which is great but for more general computation I think it would be interesting to see message passing used together with python 3.4 co-routines and see how that goes I think that would be a really interesting experiment to do and really interesting to benchmark that and see if it could get really fast and usable for the sort of as it were the ordinary programmer rather than someone who's got a particular use case like background IO so and the Prypy STM like would that be any hope so Prypy STM is a fantastic piece of work as I understand it the purpose of Prypy STM is to make the core interpreter concurrent in a sense which means that you can then build these high level sorts of concurrency that the programmer would see on top of that so I wouldn't expect that I hope Prypy STM is really successful I wouldn't expect that that would mean that ordinary Prypy programmers, ordinary python programmers rather use STM in their own applications I think that's kind of the wrong level of abstraction for the programmer so I think building message parsing on top of Prypy STM would be really interesting I have another question you already mentioned Staglars Python did you look into the co-routines Staglars Python are called tasklets and the channels provided by Staglars Python so I didn't quite catch that Staglars Python is an alternative implementation of the Python interpreter and it already provides co-routines and channels and message parsing over these channels and did you look into it? Yeah, yeah, so I think my understanding is that Staglars has a different implementation of the Python interpreter so it's not quite C Python which is why it's Staglars actually actually it is C Python with some additions Yeah, okay, with some changes So it's fully binary compatible with C Python Yeah, so yeah so that's also a really interesting piece of work Yeah


Hello everybody. Welcome back to Esoteric Atlanta. Of course, my name is Bryce. I'm very, very excited about our show today. We are going to be discussing the journey of the soul along with things like reincarnation and the friction the soul has with the natural world, with the natural body for the soul is not the body. I feel like this is a very, very important conversation to have as I've noticed so many people are getting very confused by this polarity of the eternal soul mixed with the mortal body and the mortal body is merely just an expression of that soul. So we're going to speak about that today. We're also going to talk about individual free will with both Angie and Nicole. But before we go any further, I just wanted to give a very, very special shout out to all of my patrons and my producers here on this channel. You guys are literally the only reason why this channel is still going forward. I thank you so, so, so, so much. 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You cannot be here. And as my friend Jesse's a voter told me, us of the light, I have the authority, as do all of you guys, to send you to the throne room of God if you break my rules. So, boundary is set, and I'm asking that all of the guides of the highest good be here to protect all of us in this process right now, because Lord have mercy, we are, I was talking to my friend Shanti on Aquarius Rising Africa Monday before we started filming about how desperate the other side is getting, and how much sorcery is going on right now, like intense sorcery is going on. And it just makes me giggle. I said, well, at least we look cute. At least we look cute, getting hit by these. They don't look cute. So, at least we look cute. And when does the rattlesnake rattle? When it's scared. So, let them keep trying to do what they're doing, they're terrified. We're not terrified. We're good, you know. And so, and so I'm very, very, with that being said, I'm very, very excited about this episode today with souls and reincarnation of course. I'm joined with my girls Angie and Nicole and all of our people watching right now to participate in this conversation. So, please leave us any of your thoughts down in the comment section below, because everybody watching right now is a huge part of our all. We're just talking about stuff, you know. We're just bouncing ideas around. Before we get into it though, I do, I know I had somebody leave a comment yesterday a little bit confused about the soul versus the body. They're asking about twin flames. And if Yashua and Magdalen were twin flames, how come they were different races? So, I just want to make this very clear. And this is, listen, the whole Yoga Sutras, which is a 5,000-year-old text, was written basically about this confusion. So, don't feel bad if you're confused by that. This is literally what the whole thing of yoga is. So, basically, when we talk about the body or any type of identity, so whether that's your dog, your cat, your tree, human, a horse, whatever, it's nature. That's nature. So, in ancient terms, that's the Shakti, the Shiva Shakti. So, the soul is not nature. The soul is the thing that creates, that expresses nature. And so, when we're looking at like twin flames, which are a split soul, or two souls, and one, they can absolutely be in different races, absolutely have different hair color, eye color, because the soul decides to express itself through the body. So, what the Yoga Sutra says that that is actually the whole crux of man's suffering is that man, mankind, human beings, we come to earth and we think who we are is our nature. When our nature is just an expression of our soul, who we really are is our eternal soul, which absolutely has nothing really to do with the identity you're in now. So, yes, everything evolving around nature, every life you live, you can have a different blood type, you can be a different race, you can be a different gender, you can come from different socioeconomic backgrounds. The law once says that when we come to earth, I love this, that they say we were coming to refine our soul. So, what does that mean? We create, we co-create with source an avatar, a life experience in order for us to refine what our soul needs to refine. And so, don't get too hung up on the race, on the gender, on the body, because the body is beautiful. It's a beautiful GPS system. We have that chakra system that's helping us get through our lessons, but that's not what's eternal. We know we're all going to die one day, whether that's 10 years from now or 400 years from now or a thousand years from now, whatever happens when the flip happens. We know we're all going to be able to change.  There is no death, really. Right. It's just changing outfits. Yeah, it's just changing outfits because your soul and its infinite wisdom understands that it is eternal. And that is the biggest opposing force you can have, the biggest friction you can have being in a mortal body with an immortal soul. Like that is number one friction right there. And then we talk about in yoga, finding the truth through the illusion. Well, the first truth through the illusion is understanding your own illusion. You know, the illusion I have that I am eternally brice. I'm not eternally brice. You know, you think about we're going to talk about reincarnation all the past lives you've lived. Well, you're not in those lives right now. You lift them, you express them.  Today I'm wearing this shirt. They're my shirts, but they're not who I am. It's like taking a Van Gogh painting. We call it a Van Gogh painting. Well, is that painting Van Gogh? No, it's just an expression of who Van Gogh was in that moment that he created that. So I hope that that makes sense. And again, I don't want anybody to feel bad if that's confusing because literally that's what this book is about because that is very confusing for human beings. And we've been stuck in a matrix system that really plays with that. It makes us clear. I mean, think about all, you know, the organization, I can't say it on YouTube that starts with a B and ends with an M. They brought us really low down to clinging to these nature-based creations that we created ourselves anyway, you know. And so I also want to talk about before we get into this, and you girls, we can speak about this as well. I put a call out on my channel for I'm going to be getting into the Mormon faith and talking about Joseph Smith. Now, I want to be very clear when we talk about other human beings dead or alive. I'm going off of actual research. I'm going off of actual documentation, actual journal entries, actual letters written. Now, Joseph Smith lived in the 1800s. So that's coming towards the end of the mud floods. So I take that documentation way more seriously than I would if it was the 1700s or 1600s. Okay. Now, I'm not, as we know, you cannot divine on somebody without their permission. That's not, you know, I'm not, I'm strictly looking at the evidence. Now, that being said, someone did mention that, you know, he couldn't be bad because he was Acturian. Y'all, we know the Acturians, the Palladian, the Lyrans, generally speaking are good. Generally, human beings generally speaking are good. However, every single soul, regardless of whether it's in a human body, a Palladian body, an Acturian body, a Drago body, has its own free will choices to make. So, saying that a being is good just because it's Palladian or Acturian or Lyran is just as bad as saying that somebody is a bad person strictly because of the color of their skin. Yep. I just made a post in my telegram group about that because some information has come in through one of the channelers of Metatron and we're going to have not just one Lightworker Gateway portal, but it's going to be every 22nd of the month, every month until February 22nd, 24. And it gave the 13 space races that were going to share their benevolent energy. And when I went to the list of it, Zeta and Orion are on there. And for me, I learned when I went through all this that I had been at A.L.I.N. abductees several times by Zetas because they harvest DNA. And that's like, as a species, that's generally what they do.  So it's an earth lesson. It's a human lesson, but it's a universal law. It's unity consciousness. It's not rubber stamping good or bad on any one race. And being open that each and every soul being has free will choice and they can decide to be of the light or not of the light.  If you take the organic, just take the organic portals out. We're going to talk about that deeper later on. But just the people who generally have souls, most of us want to do good. Most of us are good. 1% of us are not so good. And they do really bad things. How would you like it if you were judged by another species because of things that those families were doing on those islands? Wouldn't like it, would you? And with that being said, I've said this before, even if someone is born into one of these families, we have no right to judge them only by their actions, only by the evidence.  So I'm going to ask you guys to be very careful with that. That's a form of bigotry to say that one person just automatically has to be good because their octurion or their lyran or their palladian is very ignorant and very, very dangerous. It's very dangerous. What if, I don't know if this is true or not, this is just a speculation. We know 90% of the truthers are infiltrators. What if these people are conditioning you to believe a group of people are good so that you easily accept a takeover? So if Joseph Smith was octurion, I don't really give a shit, means nothing to me. Just like the fact that he was a white guy, means nothing to me. Let's look at the content of the character as Martin Luther King Jr. said, content of the character. And Joseph Smith, according to all the letters, he was not doing good things with young children. These were 14 year old girls, they were children and we have it all documented. And those girls were passed around like appetizer trays at Thanksgiving. I was years ago at the beach and there were these women sitting there, you know, in lounge chairs. And I think my husband had gone to play golf and stuff. And so I'm just there by myself all day and I get to talking with them and I find out they're all Mormon and they travel in groups like they go on vacation together, you know, whatever in them. And they were like, one of them was like, I wish I could wear a two piece.   And they're drinking beer and their wives aren't allowed to have a cocktail, you know, I don't know. That's all I know about Mormonism. Well, I grew up with a few Mormons. I love the people, but that doesn't, you know, and that's what I want to remind you guys is like, just because we come down hard on the Bible because let's, let's face it, it's a Luciferian book. Joseph Smith, big, big, big crumb young, bigger, I don't know, be you, the be you guy, the young guy. Right. That's it.  Like we have the documented evidence. I mean, if you guys look at the story of Xena Xena Xena, one of the wives, oh my God, I was reading through some of her stuff and I listened to someone talk about her. I got emotional.   And so, and yes, we know that Salt Lake City was not built by the Mormons. We know it was Tarterian. We get that. That's not what we're talking about. That's not what I'm talking about. I want to break down where we've been duped. All religions, there's not one religion out there that's not infiltrated. And to think yours is the only one again is heavy cognitive dissonance. And that's what we need to really focus on. If you grew up Mormon or if you grew up Christian or Catholic or Jehovah's Witness or whatever, there's nothing wrong with you. It's the indoctrination. It's the belief. It's just like anybody that grew up in a dangerous cult, destructive cult, it's not the people. The people are amazing. That's why we whistleblow is because we want people to realize good people, to realize what they've bought into. I remember years ago when I first heard this song by R.E.M. losing my religion and I thought it was like a bad, scary song. That is my song. That is my song. That's me in the corner right there losing my religion trying to keep up with you. I know Mormonism is it's Freemasonry. They all their endowments, all their, you know, it's all based off of Freemasonry. We know Joseph Smith was a master Mason. And so anyway, I just wanted to put that out there guys. So we have to be very, very careful not to just take and I want to say it to again with the with the YouTube world. I talked about this with J and April from Spiritually Raw yesterday. We went from watching the news, watching Good Morning America, watching Anderson Cooper, whether you're watching CNN or Fox doesn't matter. It doesn't matter. Turn that off and we went to YouTube and started doing the same thing with YouTube. So and I love it. I love you guys watch our stuff but I've said over and over again. I know Nicole and Angie feel the same way. Everything we say, research it. Don't just take somebody on YouTube's word for it. Just because someone says they're a truth or doesn't mean they're a truth or human beings know how to lie and they know how to deceive. So you you can listen to what people are saying, take notes on what they're saying and then go and research it for yourself. Don't just be here and be like, well, so and so said this or so and so said that.  Do your own research. What do you say? What do you think? That's taking your free will back because by just following what somebody else says, you're giving over your power. You're consenting to the cabal.  Take your power back. You're the storm. Take your power back. All right. With that being said, I'm going to get off my soap box. Who wants to start? Nicole, do you want to start? Sure, sure. So we were talking the other day about reincarnation and soul contracts. And there is a lot of perceived misinformation, misunderstanding. It's I myself didn't understand it, you know, as well as I do today. And I probably understand it better tomorrow than I do today. Like it's an it's an evolution, right?   You have to walk the line. You have to do the things. And if you don't, let me check this little checklist off, then your your your soul is not good enough, right? And so the biggest aha for me is that we are all when we're in choose to incarnate and we kind of have that sit down resource and say, you know, okay, so I know you've lived 12,000 lives, but this is what your soul really needs to learn this time. And we are soul being that energy being that light body gets to say, okay, well, I'm going to choose my family. That's going to provide me with all the lessons that I that my soul needs. And I'm going to choose the body. That's going to provide me the lessons that I didn't have in my other lifetimes. And I'm going to choose the place, you know, so we actually get a lot of stay in in the life that we end up living. And when speaking for myself only when I went through and learned about the prior lives that I've had, I learned that this life was the only life that I incarnated as a female.  And I'm divine masculine because of that. And it's because new Earth leaders by and large are going to be feminine, because we are done with masculine energy in the form of a man being in charge of the world, basically. And so source is like, okay, enough of that, that hasn't worked. See how many years we've done this? We're not doing that anymore. But this is my last life to incarnate unless I want to, because I've learned my lesson. My soul is checked off all the boxes, so to speak. And so that cumulative wisdom now gets to the surface. And I now get to understand a lot of things that I learned in those lives. I've had negative polarity existences, you know, where you have to appreciate and live in and experience a dark arc to understand the love of the light. And it is very naive of any of us to think that we're only ever good and we're only ever had good existences and, oh, I couldn't possibly have had a bad life because I'm such a good person now. Well, you get to be even balanced, unity conscious, Christ conscious, no ego and no judgment because you had bad lives.  And all of the negative karma that you get for that that lasts for 30 years or whatever it is, you then have to live another life to undo. And a soul doesn't appreciate that until it experiences that. And so it was a huge aha for me. And it took the weight off because growing up Catholic, you know, we were never good enough. You had to say, can Hail Mary's and go to confession and like do the thing. And still, it was the unobtainable carrot, you know, we could never get there. We could never get our hands on it because they want to keep you feeling like you're chasing something that you're just not good enough for. The truth is that your soul takes you into a life to provide lessons for you, not to you.  And whenever you get through that, then you are rewarded by source. Yeah, well, I believe that I am reincarnated as my grandmother. She died whenever my daddy was a baby. And I'm thinking what you were just saying, like, you know, lessons we have to learn because I always want to just see her as like being this perfect, you know, person that died at the age of 24 and, you know, like she was killed.  But, but now I see it like, well, you know, I always heard like, they're like, Oh, we don't talk about Margaret. She was one of three sisters. And they're like, she was such a free spirit. She was vain. She only cared about herself, those kind of things. And I think, Okay, you know, like, so maybe, maybe, yeah, me coming back, or her coming back as me. Those are some things I've got to work on, you know, I guess, I don't know, does that make sense? Well, you get so influences. And so we have, we have a lot of different soul influences that we get, right? So a soul can incarnate in a doing a rival through the portal, right through the birth portal. And so they come in as an infant into this family. And, and so then they experience everything from birth on. Then you also have walk ins. Yep. I wanted to talk about the walk ins. Yeah, you also have it to where it can also be a part of a full contract that that young soul only needs to experience like the first five, 10 years of life. And then that's what they contract it to do. And those that walk in will basically like, tap out and like, okay, the young soul now, they fill their commitment. The walk in comes in, the walk in is stronger. The walk in has the capacity and the wisdom to carry out that soul mission. And they it's one of two ways I had a walk in that makes sense. That makes that makes a lot of sense to me to a lot of walk ins occur during near death experiences, or times of crisis. And that original soul is weak. And a lot of times it's because they got involved with ego or the matrix or the trauma or the whatever. And they really kind of beat down. But that that soul has a mission. And so sometimes the walk in will come in and cohabitate with that weaker skull soul, but they are the leader, right?  And you do you do it together. And then and that was, you know, my case. But sometimes that young soul just agrees to only be there for a little time. And then they tap out and the walk in comes in and takes over. And the wisdom from the walk in helps guide you. So this is resonating with you big time. Big time. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. It's powerful. And I'll say Angie, like, and Nicole, my boyfriend thinks he was a lot. He's he believes that he's his only he has now came into his body at like 12 years old. His memories, his mind has memories of childhood. But the consciousness only he remembers a specific switch of consciousness. And what that means to for the soul that walks in is that they didn't need that soul did not need the lessons of early childhood. They only needed to walk in at a certain point. And so if you feel that way, obviously, it's resonating hardcore with Angie. There are a lot of people. So what that means is that your soul did not need to go through again. The birthing is actually being born. I remember studying this in my yoga studies, the process of being born for all of us is the most physically traumatic thing we will ever go through going from your mother's womb out through the birth canal or pulled out through a cesarean section into the world. The nervous system, everything goes through complete trauma at that moment. And that's why you see so many infant pictures with them giving the middle finger up to the guy. I love it.  So a lot so that that's resonating that could bring a lot of peace to people. Like if like my boyfriend says like I remember my childhood, but it felt very robotic until about the age of 12. And then at 12, all of a sudden I remember feeling empathy, feeling compassion, wanting to under like all of a sudden something. Yeah, because they're they're so engaged in that point and they get grounded, they ground themselves. And so obviously that I wanted before we go further guys. So Angie, I want to talk because obviously this is really hitting. So I want to go but before I wanted to just because I know we have a lot of people coming out of the Christian church. And I wanted to remind you guys before we go into this that the original teachings of Yeshua was reincarnation. That is in all the missing books of the Bible, which a loving God would never banish his children to hell. You know, we have Yahshua says you have many many just keep coming back until you figure it out. So I'm going to read you guys a little bit from just a couple paragraphs from the return of the Divine Sophia where she talks about the fifth municipal council where they got rid of reincarnation. And I'm actually doing some deep dives into it to do a deeper a deeper because this is very scandalous what happened. So she says a racing reincarnation from Christian theology began began with the splitting of the Orthodox Church into two major divisions. The Western church was won by the Roman Emperor and the Pope in Rome. While the Eastern church was run by the Emperor and Constantinople, modern-day Istanbul, each of these emperors had the power to dictate church policy as they pleased. And they came together about once every hundred years in a new municipal council to review and determine church doctrine. So you see no mention of Yahshua here. It's all about policy and politics. In the sixth century Emperor Justinian who ruled Rome for from 527 to 565 CE. I'm doing some deep dives.  That's saying it nicely. Like he was a total shithead. Let's just say it that way. Decided that he wanted to remove reincarnation from third church theology. But the Roman bishops opposed this. However, Justinian who was the most aggressive Roman emperor since Constantine in terms of meddling with theological doctrine tried to forcibly compel this change. He imprisoned the Western Pope for four long years. But eventually, Pope Vigilisius, I hope I'm saying that right, escaped. In retaliation, Justinian convened the Fifth Humanity Church Council held in Constantinople at the huge Haggis Sophia church. So they're doing this in a Sophia church.  Right? In May of 553 CE, the Emperor's intention was to force the church to adopt new policies. And to do this, he appointed his own bishops and issues edict telling them how to vote. Sounds familiar. Hello, our last competition here in America.  He then invited 159 of his own Eastern bishops to cut this conclave and only six of the Western ones pushing through 15 separate policies that were in opposition to Yahshua's that were in opposition to Yahshua's original teachings. He also declared that anybody who did not obey his edicts would be excommunicated. The first edict read, if anyone asserts the fabulous pre-existence of souls, he shall assert the monstrosity restoration which follows in it, let him be annihilated, basically is what the word means, annihilated. Here the word means damned while the word restoration refers to the spiritual restoration of the soul in its original union with God through reincarnation. So the soul's original union with God through reincarnation, a teaching of union that lay at the heart of Yahshua's message. Pope Vigilicius protested this council demanded equal representation between the East and the Western bishops, not only to Justin Titian ignore him, but he also persecuted the pope even trying to kill him. Today the Catholic Encyclopedia states that this municipal council was illegal. So the church council of Catholic says that this this council that happened where they took out reincarnation was actually illegal. So the church will admit that and thus its conclusions should be regarded, should not be regarded as church decree, but the damage has been done and today many Christians do not even realize that reincarnation was ever a part of Christian theology and thus the teachings of Yahshua became corrupted, defiled and hidden by men of no true mastery. The intended wisdom of Christ was silenced and a true path of enlightenment that Yahshua taught was forced to go underground. In time the rift between these two branches of the true grew even greater. In 1054 each branch excommunicated the other. The Western Church became the Roman Catholic Church while the Eastern Orthodox Church formulated its own approaches. Today the Eastern Orthodox branch does not even consider the pope to be its spiritual leader, which none of us should do anyway, but isn't that interesting? One thing I thought about that too is so many truths are like well the Western Catholic Church is fucked up, but the Eastern Orthodox Church they're great. No they're not honey. It's two sides of the same coin. They were the ones that enforced the taking away.  It's all over the missing books of the Bible guys. If you read the missing it's he's teaching it constantly in the missing it's there in the missing books of the Bible. Oh yeah reincarnation was a bad word. It's just a bad word you know. But of course I really yeah I grew up Protestant. I went to church with my grandparents but my parents never really took me to church because one kind of good thing about my dad is that he always said there was not a church good enough. So he just never you know now now he's very much into the primitive Baptist church. But you know growing up there was not a church good enough. So we never went. I only went whenever I was with my grandparents or with friends on Wednesday nights when you know stuff like that you know or church camp that kind of thing. So yeah but reincarnation I always thought that was a bad word you know and the funny thing is whenever I first started learning about reincarnation it was from what's the actress's name that she's been still magnolias. Oh Shirley McLean. Shirley McLean. I was listening to one of her books on Audible like just driving on a on a pickle delivery trip by myself and that's um you know it was I just believed it instantly. I mean you know because it resonated with me. I was like this makes way more sense than than anything else. Doesn't it make way more sense for a loving God and I was too like I told you guys before like I grew up in a conservative Christian home but my grandmother my dad's mom blessed her heart and freaking growing up in South Georgia at the time she did she was very much a believer in reincarnation and um and she hid books for my granddad under her bedroom table. My my dad's cousin my first cousin once removed he was between my dad's age and my age so he talked to me a lot and he would tell he told me the story of when my grandfather found those books. You know it was a scandal that that she had again in her later life she was very open about that and she I know grandparents and parents don't have favorite children but I do believe that my grandmother felt a kindred spirit in me as one of her six grandchildren. I had to think about how many kids because she was the I was the one she would talk to about these things even at like an eight-year-old kid she was trying to teach me to meditate. She would talk to me about these things so reincarnation was not in the church it was a bad word but in my house my my grandmother talked to me about it so I was not unfamiliar with this concept but then when I got to college that's when I started to read more like the more the Brian Weiss books more of uh Edgar Casey books really kind of diving into leaning into this idea and it just makes more more sense it just and of course getting into yoga studying the Hindu texts it's all over that as well so that's me just from a as a person myself who has the capacity to love that's what the soul is right the soul is is is unconditional love right you know so what about you Nicole like because you grew up Catholic you grew up you know what was yeah and it's weird because uh you know um I'm seven years from my closest sister and five from my closest brother but um I was always the like there are people in the family that didn't even know existed because you know the story was well you came along at a time where we were just busy and we weren't visiting and whatever I have no memory of them they have no memory of me it's very weird there's like one picture of me until I start like kindergarten and so um it's really weird right and so now knowing what I know I mean I remember it as a kid I thought how come there's not any more pictures of me whatever and I really believed for a while that's because my parents are so dang busy but then you know now I'm like I don't think I was a child that they really connected with and so I really I know now that I chose to incarnate in a very um a very service to self-family and uh even though I had siblings they were really more siblings to each other than me and um I was actually being parented by my soul in in print and I was some of my um alien abduction time was to uh my soul guides helping heal me and helping to guide me because I really wasn't getting parented I really wasn't getting guidance or or talk to things I should been taught as a little kid and so um I didn't I wasn't consciously aware of it until much much later but it makes so much sense now you know and I never felt um alone I never felt abandoned I never felt like I wasn't deserving of love really I just knew that I wasn't getting it from that core family and now I know my soul needed that experience to continue like the that child soul needed that experience that was a lesson that needed to be learned that was feelings that needed to be felt and that was experiences that needed needed to be had but um yeah when in the Catholic church you know and you hear people talk about if anyone ever mentioned reincarnation it usually came along with possession and demons right you know because people that were reincarnated they just weren't trusted you can't trust that that's that's the devil that's the demon that's this that that you know whatever exorcism yeah and you know of course it's the inverse of that from from my perspective the people that can't be trusted the ones that can't think outside of the box I think for themselves you know and so in seventh grade I removed myself from anything that had to do with that nonsense but now knowing what I know like I said it's an evolution and uh and and I learn more every day um but I know that that that soul influence and and guidance from higher realms is actually what saved me and actually kind of what formed me into being who I am my parents can't not take credit for that because I really have never fit in with them and I would never will because I'm really not of them you know I'm really not of them I'm with I was with them but I'm not of them yeah it's so funny you say that because I my grandmother the one Marianne that had that I was just saying like out of all of her grandchildren I she spent the most time with one of my cousins because my cousins had some disability so she needed her help but I always felt like she was kind of confiding in me like a friend even as a young child she would share these things with me that were very taboo and as you know y'all there were the three sisters from the south right with this shits taboo you know this is not something you talk about right around the dinner table no Sunday you know and so she and I remember the conversation she would have with me it was like our little secret you know and she really I give her a lot of credit because and even when I started going to India before she passed away when she was in her retirement home whenever I come back you know my grandfather would be all worried about terrorists over there like he had this idea that something was going to happen to me my grandmother would pull me in the kitchen be like I want you to tell me everything you learned what she wanted to know and I was like bless her heart like she came from a generation where that wasn't possible for her to go off to India and do these things but I found out through regression the life I'm living now mirrors the life that I lived with Magdalene when she was in body doesn't mean it's the same life I'm holy brice in this life however my grandmother in this life my grandmother Marianne the one the one that came up through no no lens um in that life she was my mother and she gave me and that and that was a I'm not going to say who I was to Magdalene in that life but it was a matrilineal line and so what I went through in that life was very awful and very difficult and my grandmother who was my mother then was the support system that got me through and so we look at the sole agreement now coming back now where I'm not that person I was then I'm brice now and my grandmother is not my mother but my grandmother my my paternal grandmother who has since passed away but she comes up in a lot of readings she's I feel her around me as well things start to make sense yeah right so it's not just the lessons it's the correcting of karma it's the finishing of cycles and it's not so much even though that can sound very much like a business transaction it's not it's because souls do this out of love for each other and out of putting the whole back together you know that takes a lot for a grandmother to pass away and have a sole contract that when they passed away they were going to hold out in the spirit world just to support their granddaughter and that my as as I said she was my father's mother and statistically speaking most time kids are closer to the maternal grandmother because of the what's that saying a daughter is a daughter for the rest of your life a son is a son until he takes a wife and so there's different relations that you have with your different sets of grandparents but for her and my dad was her only son so that my cousins all come through her daughters but I was the one that ended up having that very special bond with her and it was her it was my grandmother who recognized that in me when I was still a child and that's that's the magic that's the beauty of reincarnation and the beauty of that unconditional love that we all that our stories just inner inner are interwoven together yeah yeah whenever whenever I've encountered some of my soul family as they they've come in and just conversation with them will trigger memories or you know when you have a dream now dreams are either a memory of something that had happened in a past life or a vision of something that's happened in a parallel dimension it's usually one of the two and so it would trigger these these visions you know and things from then and and things that we had done in past lives and I learned that I you know that same soul that's within me now is had a relationship with them then and that's why immediately that's that soul recognition Nicole just met you know so-and-so for the first time in this dimension but our souls have spent life after life after life after life together you know and that's saying my twin flames we incarnated obviously together multiple multiple lives and he's always been the wife and always been the mom and until this life and then he was male and I was female and and he's also got fairy and it makes so much sense whenever it happened because I was always like you know just so irritated with his flightiness you know and and um you know just he wanted to like save the world and I was at the time that we were together young he crossed over in 1994 and but but at the time I knew that he was meant for a bigger purpose and I just thought I was like along the ride you know I didn't realize the role that I played at that time because I was younger I still had a lot of things I had to deal with and now knowing what I know I'm like okay now all that makes sense all that makes so much sense you know and that's with twin flames too again guys twin flames there's two big theories with twin flames and it really doesn't matter which one's correct because basically you're the same soul one theory is that your soul decided to split into two and one theory is that it's two complete souls of the same soul living two different carnations at the same time and again so if we go back to the Prakriti and the Purusha the Shiva the Shakti your twin flame it doesn't matter if they're a different race from you it doesn't matter if they have if you have blue eyes and they have green eyes or brown eyes it doesn't matter because at that moment of figuring out this incarnation of what your soul needed to learn including the experience that's being lived in that other person the yin and the yang the the colors the artwork the experience were picked individually for both and that is the twin flame journey because that is typically what happens a lot I know yours passed away early Nicole but you know I want to you know people I think people romanticize the twin flame journey and it's not it's tough it's hard because that is a mirror reflection of your soul so even though your your twin flame is not listen if your twin flame incarnates in your biological family you don't need to be having a romantic relationship most of the time they don't incarnate in your biological family because you will end up having asexual relationship which is the two putting yourself back together literally putting yourself back together that's why they call it making love right you're putting yourself back together but usually what happens when twin flames typically will like meet later on in life in this life even though their souls are the same soul right you'll experience the same emotion so if your twin is like upset about something all of a sudden you might feel really upset you don't know why so you're not crazy that might you might just be feeling that from your other half of your soul or your soul and typically you'll meet and then you'll be ripped apart from each other in a very dramatic way like very the separation period is rough and it's like it just rips you apart and then you'll typically come back together with a deeper understanding of each other but the thing about that is if you don't work on your shit that twin flame is going to piss you off more than anyone in this world because it's you it's you and you can probably speak more about that Nicole since you actually were in a relationship with your twin because that's and that's why we always say do your shadow work do your work because everything comes down to and there are times that we'll go ahead and answer this kind of people are going to ask this there are cases so once you come into your bodies your two separate bodies you still you both have free will so there are times where one twin will it's an ascend and the other gets stuck in a karmic loop yeah and it takes so many lifetimes for him that person to be able to release and come back right so it's not always just it's not listen soulmates are so much easier so I know when we were together for two and a half years before his accident and it's funny now but then it was literal fire and ice you know because from the moment we met we were inseparable but yet we were either fighting or making love like no lie and the people around us it's funny because uh we were a part of like 12 people that we were all coupled up and we skydive together we we went out together we always hang out together whatever well one couple got some fish and they named the fish after us because the female fish kept beating up the male fish because like literally like we would also in the front yard we would be wrestling and you know he was telling me how to drive he wouldn't stop telling me how to drive one time I put him out the car I made him walk home you know like it was just always like combustible right and then but we were young we were in our 20s you know we that was a time where we were going to be triggering each other right we had to learn how to go through all that well his little contract was you know to exit early he left at 23 and I was 21 and so it I had to deal with all of that but I I now know that I contract it to deal with all of that I mean I feel contracted you know breast cancer and uterine cancer all these things that are so um trying and traumatic and detrimental for a woman and it was my only female incarnation that is like I chose that and I I now feel like I did that because I had to fully embody the the pain and the trauma that that women are constantly being put through um and so now I have a little dog that I got about four years ago and when I when I got him at my daughter says well where do you gonna name him and I'm like I really feel like I need to name him Billy and she's like are you sure and Billy was my my husband and and I was like yeah I just fucking need another Billy to love on like it just intuitively felt right and now I I've verified his soul and friend is in my dog he chose to show affection to me through my dog because I'm not I just don't couple up with people you know I'm just a loner just I'm just happier that way and um in my soul I'm still in my union and um everything else was just lessons along the way right and so yeah my part a fractal of him is in my my dog Billy that that literally like looks into my soul and he just like follows my face and he's on me all the time and it sounds so weird you know and I'm like I just love you so much I'm a little sad listen I know my twin's still in flesh and bone and bone he's still on the earth like my dog there's just something about some some animals we bring into our homes we're like yeah yeah those souls can good I mean there's there's lots of stuff you know trees have souls crystals have souls dolphins have souls like your animal can be the vessel that a soul decides to come in and share space with you just like anything else one of my main incarnations where I really was very very positive and very um I did a lot of good for the world was as a dolphin and there's a constellation named after it and and that my soul being was um you know living its best life but it was as a dolphin it wasn't on two feet listen at this point after seeing the extent of what humans can do let's go look under the sea because they're having the last laugh well I want to I mean so and I'm gonna say because I think we're gonna have to do multiple parts on this because I was thinking that too I'm like this is this is that's a big and so I'm gonna I'm gonna say for people have questions about any of the twin flame stuff just ask it below and we'll answer the best of our abilities again you guys have to do your own research too but I wanted to go back again we talked about again the imprinting the stuff let's I want to go back to the walk-in thing because as Nicole mentioned Angie that really do you want to share a little bit about why that resonated so much with you are you willing to talk more about that yeah yeah um I immediately as Nicole was talking I saw I saw a vision of me at 15 and my dad walking in he had been gone for like two weeks on business and he he came in inside and I was working on a science project and I was excited to show him because I was always trying to get him to see that I was smart and he walked in and he said you sure are very pretty but I can't stand to look at you I just will never forget that and I think that's when yeah I think that's when I think of this daily that was your crisis event yeah um and uh yeah I tell the story all the time like because you know my best friend who I I consider my soulmate we we we saw each other at at the catholic school who were both of our boys were in kindergarten and we looked across the room at each other like we both just got each other instantly my crazy friend Debra she's so fun but we just looked at each other we'd never met before and we share so much of that is so common too like with her dad my dad like trying to get them to love us and um so yeah and I remember like telling her that story but um I tell that to my daughters um the same thing is sort of happening a little bit you know with um well it happened with my oldest daughter and my husband but now my youngest daughter well she's already there she's like I'm not trying to win anybody's love like she is like so she's like already like above where I am like higher I think we talked about this the other day too like you know her being 16 and and just um the the difference but I know I know that was like your crisis event it was your sole contract to do that with your father but as a human being you were beautiful and you were funny as hell and you were smart as hell and um and I I know that pain too because I you know and I I grew up when we talked about this offline I mean I don't have a relationship with my father um by my choice going through therapy that was the best decision for me was to remove myself from that toxic situation and and that's the one thing if I ever had a child especially a daughter I would want I would want to be the bad guy so that she could have a good relationship with her dad that was always my because I didn't have that I didn't have I have an incredible grandfather my dad dad was amazing but I don't know what happened to my dad something happened there um and so but I just you know that is is uh but those are that's the friction though right and Nicole do you want to explain more about like a crisis event like what that is so people and I will I'm saying this because I feel like once you understand these things so much liberation happens within your own mind the bond evaporates so we it is freeing it's very freeing for me I know it looks like I'm hurting but um I'm just gonna be crying all day after I saw that fairy I cried whatever but yeah I I think sharing the truth like my truth your truth Nicole's truth I mean it's going to be it's freeing for us but it's going to free up other people who yeah like I am not afraid I'm not trying to take away the idea of childhood abuse because we know that that is a very serious thing but when we can look at it from a different perspective it still doesn't mean it's not abuse it still doesn't mean it's not you know wrong but but looking at it from a different perspective is kind of like when they say like you forgive someone it liberates you not the other person when you can start to understand these things from a very abstract like bigger picture perspective you take your power back in a lot of ways so Nicole will you kind of talk the audience through a crisis event is yeah so it's different for everyone and in a common thread is a near-death experience or like a severe accident trauma like that but it can also be something where your physical form is perfectly fine but your soul is really hurting like what Angie described and it's where really your soul is saying it's either one of two things either your soul contracted to endure that or it didn't and someone else's freeable choice has been you know come in and really knock that soul down and as a all-knowing source creator the soul influences that we get those walk-ins they come to us when we need them they choose us and they're usually part of our support team that's always kind of there just waiting to get called in like they kind of all have a playbook and for for me I've had a couple of walk-ins but the the the main one that I'll speak about happened when I was in a really really dark place and and I overdosed and I I woke up the next morning feeling great and I was like okay well that was a clear message from store I found out later that my original soul didn't leave but that that original soul needed some TLC and it needed a support system and so that walk-in came in and basically took over and the walk-in comes in and they have all your memories and your personality or whatever but they're going to influence their wisdom over your life and it's like they take your beaten and battered and broken soul and they kind of just hold it on their lap so to speak and then you go you go forward and that that hurt soul can also choose to leave it can also be like okay I'm done with this life and I go and the walk-in comes in and I've talked to several people where like Bryce said like they noticed in them a change and they were like one day they were one kind of kid and the next day like they had a completely different personality and a completely different outlook and that's the thing you'll notice like a walk-in comes in and you'll see that they have this spiritual or esoteric knowledge that is way beyond what they could have possibly known or they just have a completely different perspective on things and you're like dang like when did you get so wise or you're an old soul or you know you hear all these things well now that's how that's how we can actually explain what happens is that number one we're never left out there to fend for ourselves you can hear a lot of like SRA survivors say you know in the in the worst abuses that they had their consciousness and their soul left that physical form because it may be whatever you contracted to endure but only to a certain point and then your soul is going to be protected we're never by ourselves we always have a team of angels guides archangels like we always have we're born in with a support system and and like I said when I I wasn't getting a whole lot of parenting I didn't get a whole lot of support from my my core family but again I never really felt alone I didn't know why but now I know why because at night I was getting my heart and my my soul was getting the healing that I needed I was getting nurtured I was getting the guiding guidance that I needed that was my head was on the pillow my body was resting and my consciousness was somewhere else yeah yeah I would have dreams of holding hands with Jesus yasha you know I would have dreams of that I remember I mean I know it felt like in the night like I would remember yeah I had several dreams like that every now and again I remember I can remember kind of feeling like I was lifting off my bed or coming back into my body and so a lot of people will say oh yeah I have that sensation now that you mentioned it but you know we're spared that memory because first of all you have to be able to comprehend what's happening and a lot of this is happening to children and they just really can't comprehend it and to know that there's a a more loving uh unified place that you can actually be besides the things you contracted to be through your lessons if given a choice that's where we would all be all the time right you gotta you gotta have amnesia to that to be able to still walk the path that you're supposed to walk in this life and navigate those lessons and complete your mission and so that's where um you know the amnesia like even at this moment in time source is not granted me all of my memories because I can't in this life I can't know them yet because it's just not my highest and best good and I just accept that you're talking about feeling that feeling of being lifted off your bed not even I mean just a couple of weeks ago I felt like I was being rocked like my bed was I get hugs a lot and I want to so I think this is actually a scenario listening to y'all's stories and I think this is going to open up to even bigger conversation and so I think maybe because we are coming up to an hour now wow so we can I know right doesn't feel like it we can start with these crises and really deep because I know I I've talked about there's one big one I had when I was a teenager which I will talk I've kind of mentioned it off and on but I'll go into deeper detail with you guys um next time we can kind of start there and go deeper into that exploration because for me when my big one happened it was like a year or maybe a few months is when I started to hear Magdalene and that would be a good spot for the start because there's a lot to tell to tell about about the the realization of that you know what they bring that you know the benefits of it and and all of that and a lot of people won't realize it until they hear it yeah and I and mine started I've laughed I mean I the day I was born before I was actually born I flatlined in my mother's womb and they got my heart back up again so that was one that started I don't know because I don't have any reference point to before you know before that was that why I could see spirits as a kid I don't know or maybe it's just because I was already negative who knows but there's all these different things that happened and you know for me luckily enough with my birth story I did not suffer any like brain damage or anything like that I was total I was underweight and jaundice but beyond that was totally fine and then certain things would happen and then when I was in high school a really big event happened a really big event that changed literally changed the trajectory of my life and it's why I'm sitting on YouTube with Nicole and Angie right now and when when you're going through these things especially when you're young and you're a teenager when I was going through it I didn't want to be going through it I wanted to be at school with my friends I wanted to be like giggling over boys I didn't want to be in the hospital fighting for my life you know like that that was not something um so we can start because I think this is the more I'm sitting here listening and I really feel like God and Source are like we need to really focus on this for a while I think we should make this a series ladies I think I'm going to actually create a playlist on my YouTube channel just for souls and reincarnation where we can continue to really talk about this and I just want to reiterate that we don't have all the answers and Nicole is right and my boyfriend sums it up perfectly he's like if we came to earth having all of our memories what's the fun in that yeah what's the if we were all levitating around like what's the fun in that like it's part of the scavenger hunt it's part of the soul because that's the whole point you know besides the macro the timelines all this kind of stuff it's also your soul is also knowing itself and so it has to go through fiction friction for it to know itself and so this is a part of a really huge conversation and um and so I'm gonna um before we sign off though guys I want to go ahead because I forgot to do this in the beginning I want to go ahead and remind you guys to make sure that you are subscribed to both Nicole's channel a healing disclosure and Angie's channel I have so many tabs pulled up I want to make sure I pulled up the right one Angie's channel because again um you know I think I can safely speak for both Nicole and Angie we're not trying to be Anderson Cooper we're not trying to be anything like the old system we're trying to just open up dialogue and and and and all walk each other home and all figure this out together um and so hopefully some things in this conversation is is healing for you guys as much as it is for us is healing for you guys and you're connecting the dots more on things and just know you're not crazy and we didn't even get to talk about fairies we'll have to bring that in there's so much to that video if you want to like add it on to me because I yeah because that was awesome so um so yeah so let's uh let's let's leave part one for there and then if you guys also have any questions about what we talked about that you want us to go into a deeper explanation for put it in the comment section below we can um refer you to books to read uh you know different stuff your own growth and your own um experience in this life because that is I mean at the end of the day it's what Alan Watts says like with the point of life the point of life is to be alive yeah yeah and uh definitely you know come over to my telegram channel we we have people get you know real time downloads um all the time and they then they have a community of support to say you know this just happened to me like what does it mean has it ever happened to you and it actually is uh you know it'll trigger someone else's download where or or that they had a dream and they didn't know what it meant but when someone else says something then all of a sudden they can put the pieces together it's just a beautiful place to have little victories to make sense of the synchronicities of our life it can I add to that so this morning I was on Nicole's telegram channel and you posted a video about um the tree it was a it was a a woman from Portland Oregon that does hypnosis hypnosis yes okay and I I'm terrified of being hypnotized I'm never going to do that but but I listened to the whole thing and um I won't go into too much detail here but I listened to the whole thing and it was and you said this is going to be especially good for the fairies here you know in which I learned a few days ago that I fairy energy and I was like whatever that means you know and then what 10 minutes after I watched it I walk outside to go like I was going to make a video and share that um you know like these are the trees that I take care of in my yard like I love my trees like I've got some that like they have names like I really like protected them I had the um surveyor that because we inherited this land so I had this surveyor that came out to divide our lots come back and redo it because there was a tree that wasn't my property I was like you gotta move you gotta move the line I'm sorry he's like that's going to be like three thousand dollars I'm like you gotta move the line I gotta have that tree that my father in law planted you know according to law one do you know so trees are first density and then animals are second density do you know who becomes what trees become in second density according to law one no dogs I'm like my Robbie must have been the sassiest Christmas tree I've ever I've got I mean y'all anyway I had started out that I was making a video like I was gonna after watching that that Nicole had posted I was gonna go walk around you know my paths my beautiful place here and show everybody my trees and introduce everybody to my trees that I care take and some girls were walking by and I've got embarrassed and so I shut off my phone and I was like I'll just walk over to my favorite tree and as I walked over to my favorite tree I saw a fairy we and I really want to talk about this like I think this is a bigger conversation so yeah so that's another thing I want you guys to put in the comment section below if you've had experiences with fairies we talk about ghosts we talk about angels we talk about demons let's talk about the fairies tinker bells the elemental energy is back and the elementals cover dragons giants fairies known like little people like there's a lot a lot a lot of elemental energy and a lot of people have experiences with them and they don't have any idea what it means right I think that's going to be a great show yeah I've covered fairies lemper cons before a long time ago I will put those down in the description box but we'll go back and we'll read dissect all of this stuff so um because it's a whole new world ladies boys and girls it's a whole new world a dazzling place I never knew and the next week we'll talk about flying carpets but uh you know I you know it's it's I was saying yesterday on a show like we we think you know christians are all freaked out about the apocalypse that already happened boo you lived through that was called the it's the drowning of alantis we're at the end of the book that means that it's uncharted territory so it's amazing every writing history actual history is going to be what we're doing right here right now yeah I can see what people learn for millions and millions and years going forward that's why kim tesla calls her channel the history of the future the history of the future all right you guys we love you all make sure you're subscribed to both nicole and angie and we'll do part two next week we'll start with the crisis encounters and situations people have we'll go but if you have any questions about that put that down in the comment section below because this is an open dialogue open discussion please be very very respectful 99.9 of people are it's just a shame we have to remind the 0.01 of people who are assholes and if you are abusive I'll just block you because you're probably blocked don't just get blocked because we can do that we can block so we love you guys make sure you're subscribed to angie and nicole and again follow nicole's telegram channel on anything that you questions you have just let us know we'll talk to y'all soon bye everybody if i look like i have been crying it is because of what just happened i was um coming out in my yard because i wanted to um to show y'all some of the trees that i love so much um and as i walked over to this one um i saw a little thing about the size of um a nicole of flitting all around in front of me and i was like what is that what is that and um it landed on one of the branches but up too too high for me to touch it i bagged it to come and landed my hand but it it didn't um as i got closer to it um no it was a fairy it was a fairy and um i know what i saw i have no doubt that it was a fairy and um um showed up just for me and um made me cry but it's like these are actually happy tears because um i mean i know i know i know what i saw i feel um i feel very special that it would um that it would come to me and say hello anyway just uh just sharing um um just um sharing a little uh light love y'all bye