welcome back everyone we will continue we've been talking about features that we can look at in the present times and identify an apostolic ministry or an apostle so there are some more features I'll go over this particular chapter and then as we look at the section ahead we have about 60 trends that are set to emerge right the apostolic within the church and this has been compiled by someone known as John Eckart so he repeats some of the features that I've already spoken of what I'm going to do is I'll take us through the current set that I'm discussing and then when we come to these 60 trends there I will only touch on the newer ones which I've not mentioned so far that way I'll go with it I don't know it might take 15 minutes 20 minutes or something but if we finish we'll just stop with that and then next class I'll come back and talk about the apostolic in the church and the apostolic church and all and we can wrap up our study of the apostolic so continuing in chapter 4 here I said that even the apostolic is pioneering causes us to have a lasting foundation it comes up with good plans and then new plans and also execute those plans well guard doctrine very careful to establish people in the word of God activate an equip believers for spiritual ministry those who are in the calling of apostles generally end up as fathers and mothers to the body of Christ then establish order in churches so this much we saw a few more things that we would notice in apostolic ministries is they have the capability of influencing leadership governmental you know authorities so people who are in positions of leadership authority they would reach out to them so if we consider the life of Apostle Paul we know Sergius Paul is right that was one person whom he reached out to in Acts chapter 13 so in this manner we noticed that they speak to leaders and even towards the end of his journey he went and he was minister though he was in trial it was actually a ministry because different governors came you know different people came to question Paul and each time he gave the testimony of his life each time he spoke about the transforming power of our Lord Jesus Christ so he's speaking to people in authority so in that sense what we notice is that the apostolic has great influence you can look at it that way in those ministries that apostolic or people who are apostolic or leaders who are apostles God gives them influence they can you know have a say in what's going on in the in the region okay now this doesn't mean that they have some political weight and or a political sway that's not what we are talking about spiritually there is an influence which God gives them that's how we look at it okay now what else do we see about Apostles Apostles have a godly independence okay so when we study the life of Apostle Paul he states in Galatians chapter 1 he says look I did not have much time like to spend with the Apostles in Jerusalem okay he did not have in fact he went I think he writes in only 15 days I went and I spent time with Peter that's about it and in those silent years he did not go and get groomed under the Apostles so in a way God shaped him by himself also but that was fine he never felt that something was wrong or that you know he really needed to be a part of a leadership group and that's how he would gain his affirmation and validation he was okay to be independent so sometimes we find that Apostles are like that they don't mind now if they are part of a group well and good but if they are not it's like they can can boldly rise up even if they are alone and get the work done that's the kind of people they tend to be the Apostles so there is a godly independence it's not like an arrogant independence or a proud independence but it's a godly independence they don't mind they can go alone they can get the job done so that form of confidence and boldness also comes with the apostolic anointing then what else supernatural manifestation of science wonders miracles could somebody please read 2nd Corinthians 12 and verse 12 2nd Corinthians chapter 12 verse 12 when I was with you I certainly gave you proof that I am an opposite for I patiently did many signs and wonder so we noticed that that you know he is saying it's part of the evidence of being an Apostle also mighty signs and wonders when you consider all the things that happened through the life of Apostle Paul I'm just taking example of Paul for you know understanding sake the supernatural blindness on LMS you know by Jesus it happened how we don't know but then when he was hindering the preaching of the gospel through Paul's life it happened then you find that a man who has never walked in Lister suddenly he begins to walk okay so these are all like mighty signs and wonders he's never walked it's very similar to what Peter and John saw happen at the gate beautiful in Acts 3 so there are amazing amazing miracles signs that take place you remember acts for the people pray and they say Lord you do more science through the Apostles because they also understood that the apostolic carries that anointing with itself you know supernatural happens to every believer that we know but there is a connectedness to mighty signs and wonders and the apostolic so that's why the people recognize that and they prayed Lord you do more signs and wonders through the hands of the Apostles so that's another feature so when we have somebody in that apostolic ministry we would notice mighty signs and wonders and these signs and wonders obviously will lead to an impact at the time of the book of Acts many people were coming to know God and thousands of people got saved on the first day through Peter's sermon and then you have you read that daily right people were being added to the church so there is an impact on Jerusalem something changed in the city of Jerusalem through the work of the Apostles so there is an impact there is you know different things that are going on so that is part of the apostolic and regarding persecution we've already talked about it so now in these features which have been listed I told you 60 trends that we expect to see emerge among us what are the ones which are somewhat different right now we've discussed many things what's going to happen so we will see the common things such as there will be an importance on signs wonders miracles there'll be an importance on revelation right and insights on the mysteries of God so when apostolic ministries are there they will be prophetic also like they'll try to find out what is God saying the present truth and then Enrich refreshed the people with that truth and the moves of God they'll steward the moves of God okay in a powerful way so that's that is something that we are seeing happen and we will see happen even in the days to come then extension of the ministry new territories that we've already discussed right and spiritual warfare I think spiritual warfare is your next point here where you would find that the apostolic because it's about entering new territories so whenever we are talking about establishing a church or establishing the kingdom of God in a new territory Satan will not be happy about it so then a feature of entering in has to be accompanied with spiritual warfare without spiritual warfare pioneering is very difficult so in the apostolic there will be an emphasis on prayer prayer believers authority spiritual warfare so when all these things are together with your pioneering getting ideas from God implementing the ideas it works okay because it's a spiritual task that we are undertaking so part of the apostolic anointing is also spiritual warfare understanding of how to battle our adversary the devil so that also is another feature of the apostolic okay here's the next different thing what this person John Eckard is is writing is for kingdom advancement the apostolic will also experience he says a supernatural provision so there will be resources finances people coming in or human resources you will find that these things are adding up or increasing through the apostolic anointing only then you can send out missionaries right you need them you need money you need people train people and so in an apostolic setup you will find that these things will increase and that's how the ministry will be able to develop so that's another it's a different thing different feature that we can expect and he writes here a spirit of faith so in general when we consider apostolic anointing we know that it is associated with boldness because it's about doing new things but a spirit of faith among the believers also so because the ministry is apostolic because they anointing of the leader is apostolic you would find that even the believers come up with new things they have faith to step out and do kingdom exploits because that's how they see things being done in their midst so you know you find that the people are also bold and they overcome unbelief they step out and do great things for God the next different feature would be the fellowship of leaders in a given region so part of the apostolic is unity okay while we study the apostolic it seems like you know there is godly independence and thereby the apostolic leader or the apostle will stand out you know among all the other leaders and receive all the prominence receive all the fame but a true apostolic ministry or anointing is such that it actually brings about humility and unity of leaders think about again people like Paul think about the apostles of that time they may have had their own issues you know disagreement on how ministry should be done disagreement on you know certain doctrinal truths but in general they all work together they all came together they all serve together they they honored one another so when even that acts 15 later in 16 they send out a decree they make a clear decree on you know circumcision the matter of circumcision Paul did not do it on his own there was a Barnabas you know and as you read that chapter you find that there were the Apostles of Jerusalem you find that there were other elders also in this particular meeting there were other elders also that's why it's called as the Jerusalem Council so a unity among pastors leaders ministry heads okay so that will also begin to take place under the apostolic anointing so for us to think that because the apostolic sounds so bold and pioneering all these strong leaders are going to start fighting with one another right because they all wanted to exploits for God through apostolic anointing actually brings a sense of humility a sense of unity among leaders in the city so kingdom work if you want to call it that you have that book right Kingdom Builders ABC publication and a course Kingdom Builders Kingdom mindset is a part of the apostolic anointing so when you find an apostolic leader you will see that their efforts are in bringing togetherness among pastors leaders so they may have these conferences so apostolic ministries have these conferences uniting pastors helping them work together encouraging them developing a kingdom mindset so that is all part of the apostolic ministry upgradation of churches in the present truth we already talked about how revelation is a key part of what the apostolic does but it's possible that some churches can be dry some churches could have gone you know spiritually bankrupt but the apostolic anointing brings refreshing so even as the ministry or the leader reaches out to churches what happens maybe they don't know the present truth they have not felt the outpouring of the Holy Spirit but this ministry will bring it into dry churches as well so you can see what we are calling as an upgrade or a revival or a reviving of churches you know that are connected to the ministry so refreshing and reviving then reformation reformation and change because the apostolic is connected with newness right newness boldness creative ideas you would find that changes or impact is what actually happens through the models of ministry that come out of it reformation is transformation so you can expect a city transformation I'll just give you one example we think of working among youth and some of the normal ideas are let's have a youth meeting let's invite people on a Saturday that's a normal way of thinking but when you think in an apostolic way you think how about we go to the college campuses how about we get permission you know maybe if it's legally permitted why don't we go there how about we impact hundreds and thousands of students at the same time so creative ideas how can we impact them how can we bring in you know Godly principles to them maybe we can create an app maybe we can you know publish something or we get into nowadays you have new media right you have AI you have gaming so we are thinking of impacting tens of thousands of young people not just a Saturday meeting but you see that's an apostolic mindset because what are we looking at we're looking at reformation we're looking at you know a large impact we're looking at transformation city transformation national global impact okay so the apostolic things very big the apostolic things very you know impact oriented thoughts so that's the difference that's the difference between just a pastoral kind of an anointing and an apostolic anointing reformation change new models new ways how can we do this in a new way right so like even I think APC Bible College it's it's very apostolic because here we are people from different countries connecting so through each one of you where in whichever region you come from some part of India or some part of the world you are becoming a carrier of that of the fire of God the revival you impact your nation you impact your region so what is this it's actually a new model otherwise how would we think in a standard way we would think yes we want to equip people let's bring 20 people let's teach them the word of God over three years but the new way is now technology is available people also to some extent you know connecting to a class it's basic most people know why not go online why not take it globally right so the apostolic way of thinking change impact reformation transformation that's very different compared to a pastoral way of thinking okay moving on what else do we see we would okay he puts one statement here the point 27 he says changing and shifting spiritual climates over regions and territories causing a new receptivity to the gospel and things of the Holy Spirit so some shift happens in the spiritual realm as this anointing is released I think all other points here we have already covered I will just give it to you for your you know study and understanding so these ones are not so different from what we have learned so far does talk about social justice new ways of doing outreach street ministry and making an impact of for the church in the city as well okay so I will just stop with that for today any thoughts any questions any practical discussions we can have let's do that and then we will move on next class we'll just touch a little bit about yeah apostolic impact and stop the next class so yes jeffina you had something to ask yeah so we talked about a person's going to new places and extending the kingdom so I just want to know so we we know that missionaries go on new places mostly as far as I have heard missionary work is very different they go into the complete new place it's something they go into complete new language they learn the language and then something very different so it doesn't mean that every every missionaries and opposite and I have one more question like can we desire to be an opposite like I mean I know it's a very very very big thing but can we have the desire and can we pray like that like that I want to be an opposite or else developed me in a way of an opposite or something like that can we have that desire and these are my two questions yeah okay thank you jeffina thank you for that so you see every apostle is a missionary but every missionary is not an apostle okay because missionary is going out and entering new territory but they may not have the other features of the apostolic so you can be a missionary but you need not be a apostolic for that you can just go to a place to share the gospel you can just go to a place to teach the word of God that makes you a missionary now an apostle is much more than that that is why I said every apostle is a missionary but then every missionary is not an apostle does that help okay fine so we've answered the first question second question can you come again okay so the answer is we can't because these are these are these are not grace gifts these are offices so when we read Ephesians chapter 4 verses 11 through 13 we see here that Christ Jesus he gave gifts to the church the apostle the prophet the pastor the teacher the evangelist so for the equipping of the saints for you know the work of the ministry so it very clearly tells us that it is by appointment unless we are appointed or handpicked by God for example if you take Paul on the road to Damascus Ananias God speaks to Ananias and he says this man he is going to stand before kings he's going to so in God's mind God has already decided this is an apostle that is a but can I be apostolic I can that's what in the next class I told you we can be apostolic but we cannot be apostles unless we are called by God so that is how it is sure thank you good questions so yeah any other questions would having a couple of churches make somebody an apostle let's imagine that okay I have planted five churches am I an apostle okay Jeffina says no so yeah see being an apostle it has a complex set of features associated with it as I've been describing so one has to be like you know that that spiritual energy is very different so just having multiple churches also would not make somebody an apostle you can be a you know great pastor and you have a good number of churches but maybe time can tell if you see that consistently leaders are being raised up they are being well equipped in the word the doctrine well instructed and the churches are multiplying over time yes we could we could look at all this and say oh wow it's very apostolic seems like this person is an apostle so the apostolic generally has a very large impact very large impact so here in India I have heard it said that people like you know the DGS then occur and people like them in their times when they started out there was really like a move of God because people were not you know yes evangelism people were coming to know the Lord and all but it was almost like a move of God that took place through somebody like the DGS in those times and I'm talking about the early days so that's very apostolic touching different parts of the nation and then also you know parts of the globe he did not have multiple churches but the ministry cut across regions and impacted nations so you may call it as apostolic ministry and then yeah do you can you think of any examples of people whose ministries are apostolic I think now there are a lot of preachers calling themselves as a possible I don't even know if it is right to call ourselves as apostles any thoughts on that possible again also we see that lot of people it becomes like I'm sorry to say but like a fan following and as we said in the beginning like more like father father kind of a thing and it makes a big deal out of it so my question kind of is like in case if we come across with some people so because I personally had met some people who considers few others as their father and father's so do we say anything or do we just keep quiet so the thing is John see it's an excess there is a spiritual truth here that you know when when a mature personal leader is grooming others and they are growing in the Lord whether we like to say it or not this whole father something is going on but the excess is that you know they've made a doctrine out of it that okay I'm your father you are my son and this is like an you know covenant relationship it can never be broken so the error comes in there when that this extra extra things are added to the father son apostolic relationship so what do we do about it see we have to as pastor always says he says amplify the truth and you know the the lie will disappear so we have to amplify the truth I remember I don't know if you were there in those meetings when we were hearing about this concept of father son globally globally it was going on you know a spiritual father son you have to be connected to me for the anointing to flow through your life and all but there's no biblical basis for that because anointing flows through God not through some man so pastor did a series called spiritual fathers I think that's the name given to it I don't remember the exact name but it is in our APCWO sermon resources you can go and you can listen to those sermons at least two sermons if I'm not wrong about this concept of spiritual fathers and he he's gone through the scriptures properly and he has you know analyzed it is it right or wrong to to make such a big deal about somebody being my spiritual father or spiritual son see people sometimes use it to control others when I keep saying I'm your spiritual mother spiritual mother it's like you're obligated to me now to whether help me financially or help me in some other way or show up for me when I'm in need so it's actually spiritual manipulation okay so I mean that's the reality if somebody is overdoing this truth so what we can do is we can quietly direct them to some of these resources you go through it first and not in a you know if required in an outright way you can refer them to these resources or in a subtle way also you can just say hey we have all this would you like to go over it go through it because we are demystifying this you know like this very fascinating concept of being a spiritual father so give them some resources John that's what I would say and whether we can call ourselves apostles see Paul said that I am an apostle appointed by God he introduced himself like that sometimes when I think there was an issue of acceptance because they people accepted Peter better than Paul I don't know I think it's it should be a very rare thing John and hopefully I mean we are talking about Paul mighty Paul and all but in today's times I think this is my way of looking at it I it might take a lifetime to figure out whether somebody is an apostle so you might have to wait for 30 35 years of ministry for you to understand that you're doing an apostolic work and for people to understand that you're doing an apostolic work so after 30 years if you want to say oh apostle but the nicest thing will be if others affirm you with that title and you don't put it you know doctor apostle prophet reverend so-and-so it's very what can I say it's not at all a humble thing to do to name myself an apostle so yeah my thoughts it's possible yeah thank you for the insight yeah sure sure yeah thank you thank you yeah but I think now there's a lot of people are called apostles I don't know how what do you know oh okay she's saying there are many Instagram Instagram accounts which have names apostle so-and-so see again another thing is this understanding of what is apostolic also people don't have like I myself I learned it when I you know began to study all these things and I'm sure even all of you have been enlightened in the last couple of weeks so that's another problem we don't have enough teaching on the apostolic so obviously people don't understand what it means they just use that word apostle and put it against their name okay so jeffina is when I ask the question do you know any apostolic ministries or apostles she wrote here Billy Graham Billy Graham yeah I could consider I think you can consider his ministry apostolic but I think Billy Graham is more evangelist from what I can see I feel he's more evangelist because I don't have they raised up churches it was more about getting people saved okay okay he was apostolic and he was an evangelist and he was apostolic yeah correct we can be correct right so people can be apostolic in what they do but they need not be apostles any any other questions thoughts brother Lubega anything that you wanted to ask because I remember you were saying you want to learn more about the apostolic first what is confusing these days is that everybody who has a say a local church I'm talking on my local context here anybody who has a local church and it has maybe one or two branches he declares himself an apostle if not if not an apostle he calls himself a bishop now you find bishops of 21 years you find bishops of so but I think just as you've said a person to should be called an apostle maybe through the laying of hands when professor comes and they declare him say an apostle all through the characteristics when you look through what an apostle does and you see that you are you are in that line it can't take a lifetime it is not easy if you just wake up one day and you add something on your name that you say that I'm now a post of columns it is he so hard these days yeah that's that's true but also as I was saying I think the understanding of this term apostle is not enough so that's a problem among God's people they don't understand what it is they just know that many churches I'm an apostle and others also encourage them so they go ahead and need themselves apostles and even education is a problem a person these days gets three four five lines in the end in the Bible and then he calls himself an apostle but now like a PC is hoping a great deal to train people now it's not easy for one of our members here to call himself an apostle tomorrow yeah I'm glad you know that there's some impact right through all this teaching in your part of the globe yeah so thank you thank you so much for sharing brother Lupeka yeah understanding the apostle so nowadays if you go and you look up there are many networks in ministries which have networks of churches that is very apostolic so back when like I was a kid I have not heard of multiple churches multi-site churches and all that but nowadays that concept is very common one ministry has multiple branches they live stream the services across you know they have campus pastors so it's you sort of see that there is that apostolic way of doing things which is touching a lot of ministries and if you look carefully there are some ministries which have a lot of churches like vignard you know vignard is one ministry where you have so many churches then what else do you have certain names new frontiers I've heard they have many churches so network of churches that is very apostolic to have network of churches okay so this way I'm sure across in your nation in your region you would be aware of some such ministries that have that have pioneered many churches that are overseeing churches that have raised up many leaders and they're continuing to equip them with with good doctrine and good structure so there are lots of such churches coming up ministries coming up and this is only going to increase so the apostolic is only going to increase the prophetic is only going to increase so that is a given because we are living in those times where God is strengthening the five-fold ministry offices you will see while we are feeling sad that people are not recognizing the apostolic office we will also see true Apostle Apostles and begin to thank God for them so all this is expected okay so let me just stop here very good questions practical questions I'll also try to bring you some you know names and all that in the next class when we close off but you come back to me with some more questions I think that will really help alright so we'll close now let's pray could somebody please lead us in prayer I know we prayed for brother Isaac's family but I just feel like we need to pray some more so please pray for brother Isaac's family we've all heard the sad news that he went to be with the Lord so yeah please somebody lead in prayer let's pray for Isaac's family too let's pray father we come under the name of Jesus thank you for this day thank you for everything that we learn today God God I pray that whatever we have learned we will put it into practice in our life we thank you for calling us Jesus help us to understand more about our calling help us to walk in your ways help us to not to dilute the doctrine in any way then we go out and teach and preach Lord fill us with your wisdom and knowledge whatever we have learned help us to put it into practice and help us to understand more about the Apostle ministry Jesus and God right now I pray for brother Isaac's family we thank you for his life we thank you that he was an amazing student he was an amazing slave of Christ he worked for you we thank you for his life Jesus right now we pray for his family Lord strengthen them Jesus in the times of trouble you are an everlasting help Lord God we believe that you will be there everlasting help right now we don't know what are the struggles we understand their pain we take part in their pain Jesus but we just pray that you will comfort them you will strengthen them we pray for the ministry that they are doing Jesus that it won't stop but they will be strengthened and much more to do more for you Jesus you comfort them Lord you bring back the joy in them Jesus you bring back the peace in their home whatever they are struggling with Jesus we know that you are more than enough God I pray that they will understand this truth that you're more than enough be with them Jesus you are the God who heals the broken hearted we declare your name over then we declare your healing over them right now Jesus heal their broken heart with Jesus bring back things that will bring joy into their life fill them with your blood wrap them in your arms Jesus so that they can stand against so that they can preach your gospel again so that they will be strengthened they will keep moving forward in this life knowing that you are enough knowing that your love will cover everything knowing that greater days are on the way knowing the joys of the way knowing that Jesus is enough be with them and guide them Jesus we pray for them we ask you to heal them right now Jesus what else we can do as we are partaking in this prayer God we thank you that you are touching them right now you're healing them right now and you are bringing back the joy we know God you're the God who never leaves never for six we know God you're a God who never leaves us during the times of trouble we believe that you are with them we know that you are guiding them right now we just pray that you heal them you heal them Jesus you strengthen them and you come for them we love you and we honor you Jesus we pray amen amen amen thank you thank you jeffina thank you everyone God bless you let's connect for next week sessions which will be your last class and yeah looking forward to that thank you so much have a blessed day bye for now


The only reasonable course of action at this particular moment in time is to start growing your own food. Now I'm obviously not the first one to say this in this day and age, but I got inspired to start my permaculture initiative after reading Piero San Giorgio's book that he kindly gifted to me after I did my interview at his channel, I can link that below if you haven't already watched it. Very good book, I can definitely recommend you all to read it and I will make a separate review of it of some very important points when it comes to the rampant capitalist economic system which is based upon unlimited growth with limited resources and you can hear by that very sentence that is unsustainable. But anyway that would be for a later video, this is just showing off my new leveling at the skill tree of gardening, so I'm trying to get some green hands here getting better at least at the permaculture and growing my own food. Now at this particular moment in time I know absolutely nothing about it, so I'm just starting and I look forward to leveling in this particular skill tree. Now obviously there are plenty of reasons to participate in permaculture and growing your own food, first and foremost I usually say that you should eat as much local produce as possible and the most local produce is obviously the things you grow yourself. Now the second thing is that you get a good overview of your own food intake, if you grow your own food you kind of know the way it's been treated so you don't buy any blasphemous things that has been drenched in pesticides or whatever. Now the third thing is also very important that is to become more self-sufficient, more reliable on yourself and if you are of the more survivalist inclination this is a must for you. So that is another good reason indeed and now personally I think it feels quite fresh, quite glorious indeed to participate in this sort of endeavor. It doesn't have to be the most advanced garden ever but you can grow some things and get a good understanding of it. I think this is a good quality to have. So anyway this is just some footage from a few plantations we did a few weeks back and I'll probably check back in a few weeks to see how much has grown and yet again since this is just us trying around a bit no idea really what we're doing but I had to try my new beautiful Fiskars instrument here high quality products from a high quality nation of Finland. So yeah that was just a check in and I hope you all have a lovely week. If you liked the video smash the like button with the force of a thousand suns. XOXO BOOM!


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What if the purpose of procrastination is to stop self-expression? That's the concept we're going to look at in today's video. So I've got a really interesting question here and this question is from Mika and I want you to listen to this question and see if anything Mika is going through resonates with you too. So as I said we're going to talk about procrastination here. There's a few very common issues you'll see in Mika's question but it starts off it says I've noticed that I keep putting off the things I don't want to do and my day job is quite tedious and entails a long list of things I'd rather not deal with. I think we've all been there. So there's emails, proposals, writing reports etc. While I'm hanging in there barely my tendency to put these things off and avoid them is bringing so much stress to my life. I delay and delay. I know if I just did the work I'd have less stress but another issue is that because of the stress I don't feel able to spend time on the things I really care about things like being creative, quality time with family, doing regular exercise, things like this. So I've heard you talk about guilt a lot with procrastination but I don't really get how guilt is causing this. It just seems like an inability to do these tasks consistently. Any ideas? Okay great question Mika. So it just seems like an inability to do these tasks consistently. Therefore our solution is just do the tasks consistently. It doesn't quite work like that does it? You see we're looking a little bit deeper to get to the the issue here and I mentioned obviously and as Mika says there in previous videos that the real reason we procrastinate is to do with guilt. It's a sort of a self-punishing activity that we engage in. Well what is guilt you could say? Well guilt when we think about it is guilt is anything that keeps you away from self-expression. Guilt another word for it is the defective story or something wrong with me. I'm not good enough etc etc. Because this self-concept is deemed unworthy it has to be rejected and put away. The real self that lies underneath is never allowed space to be expressive. Now we will have a lot of responsibilities in life that's part of life. We do these responsibilities mainly for purposes of survival not self-expression necessarily. So on one hand we have all these things we're dealing with all these you know these chores, these emails, proposals that Mika talks about.  So the really interesting thing about this question is it seems like the creative things the more enjoyable things in my life I just can't get around to them unfortunately because of all the stress of procrastination. But what if that's the entire point of the procrastination? We're always bewildered by why we procrastinate, why we keep doing it again and again. But if you look a little bit deeper you'll see that the real thing it's serving is to keep you away from self-expression, creativity, passion, anything that isn't about basic survival needs. So the purpose is to keep you away from that. That's why we procrastinate and it's because of this underlying guilt the real authentic self it's not going to cut it therefore we can't really allow too much of that self-expression that creativity that purpose that passion to come out because that's real that's the real deal. Now there's nothing wrong with responsibility but here's the thing what's a really great way I could keep you away from self-expression if I could from the purpose and the creativity and the passion in life. If I wanted to keep you away from that at all costs well what I'd do is I'd give you a whole bunch of responsibilities but even still you could just go and do the responsibility. What I'd do is I'd give you the responsibilities and I'd do everything I could to make you do them badly so you're always stressed about it you're always preoccupied with the difficulties and problems around taking care of these responsibilities and it'll seem like the other aspect of life the creative, the purposeful, meaningful part of life, self-expressive part of life something you just never get a chance to engage with. It's not because of busyness it's not because of laziness it's not because of any of these things it's an underlying metaphysical dynamic that's taking place so we want to kind of switch from always being in survival mode being preoccupied with these responsibilities all the time because really what's happening is survival mode has become hide myself mode right so the best thing Mika for this is to realize that well the tool you bring to this is why am I procrastinating? Bring self-awareness to the whole thing it's like isn't it interesting for the last three months for instance I haven't done anything on those creative projects that I keep telling myself I'd like to do and while I've been rationalizing that avoidance saying I'm too busy and I've got all this stress and I know that that feels very very real and of course there are responsibilities and stress but why is it that it always for so long and predictably and consistently keeps me away from anything creative isn't that interesting creativity self-expression this is authenticity this is the real self and that can't be put down unless there's this guilt that sort of is there to control it and keep it suppressed all the time so the awareness is what we bring to it first it's not these simplistic reasons why we procrastinate it's actually a way to unfortunately to live with guilt as opposed to looking at the guilt questioning it correcting it letting it go that's really what we want to do with this defective story this thing that there's something wrong with me life is not about survival it's certainly a part of life responsibilities are absolutely fine they're actually in a important emotional need we have but if we're constantly in survival mode and we're constantly delaying and thinking it's okay to put off creative passion projects or things that I really care about or time with family or regular exercise anything that isn't immediately about survival or firefighting or dealing with some kind of stress which is you know when the nervous system is in that fight fight or freeze response we really need to get back in touch with that aspect of who we are and that's a choice that we can make it's a choice we can make when we become aware of actually why am I doing this why has this happened so it's really it is due to the underlying guilt that we talked about the defective story so I've made other videos about that it's about questioning that narrative it's also about changing your story changing yourself perception changing the way you think and see yourself and to see yourself as someone who deserves the space to be self-expressive yes to take care of responsibilities but life is not all about responsibility it's a balance between our own emotional needs another book make it you might find helpful is my other book on emotional needs it's called forget happiness it's kind of more how to find a balance between our different emotional needs the model I use has five emotional needs in it responsibility is one emotional need but meaning purpose creativity is another one and we often think that we we have the luxury of well I just take care of the responsibility part and I'll put my head down and keep going with that but we kind of have an obligation to meet meaning purpose and creativity in life too certainly if our own emotional well being is certain there's something that we value we don't really have the option of delaying that indefinitely so Mika I hope that's helpful really what I'm calling for here is greater self-awareness and questioning that narrative that says responsibility responsibility but also avoid it why would it want you to do that why would it hold up these problems and these stresses and these responsibilities and then do everything it can to keep you away from it it's actually designed to keep you away from self-expression I know I'm repeating myself but I hope there's some some food for thought and maybe some insights into that and I don't know maybe you resonate with some of Mika's issues as well and if so I hope this was a useful video and as always guys thank you for being with me today and I'll see you again very soon in the next video bye for now


Before we look at hydrogen bonds and free energy, there's something else I just need to share with you because it's important. An important side goal of this class is to get you to think. I think there are too many things we learn by heart and too little we think, and most problems in the world can actually be solved by thinking a little bit. So you are young, and even this was even before I was born, but in 1962 there was an amazing discovery by Fidjakin and Deryagin. They claimed to have discovered something called polywater. That is, under some very special condition, in particular we push waters to very small capillaries, so where the surface tension and everything has special physical states, they argued that under some conditions they cut it up with a strange extra phase of water that was polymerized, and thus the name polywater. They argued that this system had very special properties. It had a freezing point between 243 to 213 Kelvin, so significantly lower than the 273 Kelvin of normal water, and it had a boiling point that was much higher, so 523 to 573, it's as in my notes. So it has a much wider span than normal water where this would be liquid, but it would have quite different states and properties. This led to a, I wouldn't say outward, but this led to a frenzy in the scientific world. Remember this was during the Cold War and everything. Some research in the West couldn't really reproduce this, and there was talk in the US about the fear of Russia developing a polywater gap, because they were far ahead of, people feared that Russia was far ahead of them in terms of the science here. People even tried to reproduce this, and there were some attempts where they could they claimed to reproduce it, and then there was a surprising amount of time that actually passed before it was eventually Feynman that debunked this completely. There are a few papers in Canvas that are worth reading, not because this is important in terms of the polywater sense, but I, there are many things happening around COVID and everything, and I do think that we should think more about being skeptic and everything. And in terms of being skeptic, I would argue that aren't with what you know, you should have been able to debunk this a long time ago. It should just have taken anybody who's smart, such as Feynman, a few minutes. And you can do that with our f equals e minus ts or free energy curves. So let's draw it. Here is a plot where I, on the x-axis I have temperature, and on the y-axis I will plot free energy. Let's be chemists today, so let's use Gibbs free energy. And then we have a few different curves here, because I have different faces, right? So let's see here. So I get this right. At very low temperature, I'm going to have ice, and you will just have to trust me that the shape of the curves will look something like this. At intermediate temperatures, I'm going to have a some sort of liquid face, and at even higher temperatures, I'm going to have some sort of gas face. So this would be gas, this would be normal liquid water, and this would be ice. You can also draw something else here, right? We know that this is 273 Kelvin, because what happens is 273 Kelvin. Here it's better to be ice, because it has the lowest free energy, and suddenly at 273 Kelvin, it's better to be liquid. So from a phase transition, because this free energy is lower, and here at 373 Kelvin, the gas face will be better. So we will always stick at the lowest free energy. If we believe every single word they were saying about poly water, it should have a freezing point that was say 230 or 40. So we'd have a freezing point here, and then it would have a boiling point up here somewhere, whatever that is. So you should have the poly water should be here. What does this mean? Remember the fundamental stuff about the laws of thermodynamics. What this is saying, that poly water always has a lower free energy than liquid water. Anytime you start having a reaction, any water molecule that has a chance to choose would prefer to be poly water. Now some reactions won't happen instantly, but the world is 4.3 billion years old. If this were true, we would hardly be able to find a single water molecule in the normal liquid phase. Every single water molecule should have turned to poly water. Now this does not describe what went wrong in the experiment, but the whole point we don't have to explain what went wrong in the experiment.  There is no way these results can be true. And yet this went all the way up to fairly high government officials' worries about poly water yet because people didn't think until Feynman, of course, the amazing theoretical physicist, pretty much did this reasoning and sorry, it's crap. There is no way that this can be true. So what was it? Well, eventually Dennis Rousseau showed that they had contaminants, sweat, and in some cases they might, if you push a lot of water through these very thin capillars, in some cases it might even have been parts of the glass walls that teared off and ended up in the poly water. And if you just have some few nanoleters or something, that will, of course, change the properties. And if you're then measuring the properties, you're going to end up with something that is not pure water. And that's why they got completely ridiculous results. So a few years later, nobody remembered these results anymore. But history has a tendency, if not to repeat itself, it rhymes. So think hard about things and make sure that unless, until we have proven things, we should be skeptical. Grant claims require grand evidence and support.


So, hi I am Ashwit and I am Pratik and in this video we are going to talk about some basic signals that we will see very frequently in the course and first we look at the sinusoid. You can see in the plot that we have a sinusoidal signal and symbolically it is written as sin of omega t plus phi and in these we see various quantities. So, the first quantity we look at is omega and omega is called the angular frequency it is measured in radiance per second and in this particular case the angular frequency is 125.66 radiance per second. So, you probably not familiar with this some of you the quantity you are probably familiar with is the frequency which you studied in high school physics. The frequency is measured in hertz or cycles per second and it talks about how many cycles of the periodic waveform we have in one second. So, this plot has a frequency of 20 hertz of course, it is also important to talk about the fact that the sinusoid is periodic. So, it repeats with time and at every time period in which in this case is 0.05 seconds we know that the cycle repeats the waveform keeps repeating and it gets back to where it was. So, this is the sinusoid all right of course, the time period is distance between peaks and I am sure you know this from earlier classes. So, the next signal we look at is the growing exponential the growing exponential is written as exponential of e raised to the power of alpha times t where alpha is a constant which tells you how much the exponential grows or decays. In this case we have taken alpha is 0.9 and when alpha is positive as you can see over here the exponential keeps rising and grows over time. Very simple signal and of course, if alpha is made negative we get the decaying exponential and in this case we take alpha is negative 0.4 both signals are actually quite simple, but we will see it several times during the course all right. So, we studied two types of signals we studied an exponential signal we studied a sinusoidal signal we can also combine signals. So, we can take the exponential we can take the sinusoid multiply the two and we can get what is called as the exponentially growing sinusoid and you can see it is represented as e raised to alpha times t into sin of omega t plus 5 and you can see that we have the envelope of the function which is which actually is e raised to the power of alpha t and of course, on the negative side it is negative e raised to the power of alpha t and between that envelope you see the sin which is growing over time and this is the exponentially growing sinusoid all right. So, Pratik you seen the case where alpha is greater than 0 it is 0.8 in this case what if I keep alpha negative what will I see well if you keep alpha negative the exponential will decay and as a result the amplitude of sin will also decay and you will just get the same graph just flipped about the y axis that is perfect mirror image of this that is perfect. So, here you can see what is called as the exponentially decaying sinusoid of course, it is important to mention exponentially because it can decay in other ways and yeah it is quite simple enough in this case we have taken alpha is negative 0.4 and Pratik can you think of some application where we can use this signal to represent something well there are many physical phenomena which will give rise to sinusoidal waves. So, if the sinusoidal wave decays over time say because sound attenuates. So, if the sound is from far away from the source the sound you the amplitude of the sound is less. That is perfectly right. So, speaking of sound we can talk about music that is my favorite application of signals and systems and as you can see in the graph the graph reduces over time just like you pluck a string if you hear the string it will be loud in the beginning and as time progresses the amplitude of or rather the loudness of the string reduces over time. Of course, a string is not just a simple sinusoid, but that is the story we will see later on in the course. So, now that we studied exponentially decaying and growing sinusoid I would like to talk about another notation for complex exponentials and we get that from Euler's formula and those of you studied complex analysis would have seen this before it is e raised to the power of j omega t and according to Euler's formula that is cos of omega t plus j times sin of omega t. Those of you are mathematicians and not electrical engineers would probably wonder what j is in electrical engineering we use j which is the same as i that is the square root of minus 1. We do not use i very often because i is also used for current and we do not want to confuse notation. So, this is the complex exponential this is Euler's formula and very simple formula and of course we can add phase as well. So, you can see in the second case we put e raised to the power of j times omega t plus phi and that looks like cos of omega t plus phi plus j times sin omega t plus phi alright. So, this is the complex exponential we can of course plot each part the real part in the imaginary part. So, the imaginary part is on top the real part is at the bottom right. So, we have the complex exponential we can take it further and I like you the students of this course to tell me what this plot would look like. So, I have e raised to the power of sigma plus j times omega t plus phi and I want you to tell me what this plot would look like what would the real part look like what is the imaginary plot look like plot some graphs show it in the forums and I have some more questions for you. So, we have discussed one application. So, we discussed the application of the decaying exponential I would like you to tell me applications of every other signal we have discussed. So, take a physical phenomenon and tell me how we can apply one of these signals to model those physical phenomena. So, that is another question for you the third question I would like you to solve is you have seen complex exponential and Euler's formula this can be plotted really nicely using a 3D graph and you get a really nice figure. So, I would like you to do that. So, those of you who can plot 3D figures I would like you to plot a 3D figure for e raised to the power of j omega t and show us in the forums what it looks like and from this 3D figure you can also see which part is the cosine part which is the sine part that is the real and imaginary part and if you can do that as well in the forums it will be interesting. So, three questions for you the first question would be what would this signal look like and the second question is give me examples of physical phenomena where you use the other signals to model them. So, the last question would be to plot e raised to the power of j omega t on a 3D graph right. So, I will see you in another video. Thank you.


Screen Directors Playhouse star Norma Shearer production Waterloo Bridge director Mervyn Leroy This is the Screen Directors Playhouse one of the weekly features on NBC's all-star festival of comedy music mystery and drama Tonight the screen directors are honored to present the very beloved and distinguished star Miss Norma Shearer in Metro Golden Mayer screenplay of Robert Sherwood's drama Waterloo Bridge Now ladies and gentlemen transcribed the first act of Waterloo Bridge starring Miss Norma Shearer in the role of Myra The year was 1939 a regrettable year miserable dark maniacal War crowds long gathered and able to carry their swollen burden and come apart the seams The Nazi vouchos in the throes of spreading his vicious tentacles to entrap the world On Waterloo Bridge hair street gray Colonel Roy Cronin stood staring at an object in his hand Tenderly he looked at the good luck charm and caressingly he held it In his eyes, there was a look of loneliness It was as if he was searching into the past Groping desperately for the happiness and heartbreak that began here on Waterloo Bridge in another war the first world war Oh Never mind your bag now miss throughout the straightest bridge. We better get in a shelter. Come on Not till I pick up my good luck charm captain.  Are you tired of life? I've had it for years. It brings me luck such as air raids. Oh thank heavens. I've found it now captain You think it'd be unmilitary if we were were to run. Let's go Come along That one was close. I was safe here. There may be some space over there for the wall shall we wriggle through all right? Excuse us, please I'm sorry. Yeah, here we are better, huh? Oh, yeah, thanks much better Were you out walking alone? No, I lost my friends in the crush. I hope I'm not late for the theater Are you an actress? I know I'm a dancer Madame Olga Kirov is international ballet you a pirouette and all that sort of stuff. Oh, certainly I can do an entrechasse I beg your pardon. I can cross my feet six times in mid-air. Wow The jet skater do a ten but that only happens once in a lifetime. It must be good for the muscles of the Must be good for the muscles. I Should think of dancers muscles would be like a strongman. Oh, not quite that would be dreadful We try to combine slenderness with strength. I've been dancing since I was 12 and I don't think the muscles are overdeveloped Oh, no, no not in your case, of course We have to train like athlete Madame believes in rigid discipline. I wish I could go to the theater tonight. Oh, why don't you come? Unfortunately, I have a colonel's dinner and it takes a lot of nerve to miss a colonel's dinner Are you home on leave? I have been my home's in Scotland and now you have to go back to to France I mean tomorrow Oh, I'm so sorry I suppose it is yet around the corner of every second. There's the fascination of the unknown We're both facing at this instant. Oh, we face the unknown in peacetime too. You're rather a matter of fact, aren't you? Yes, you're rather romantic, aren't you? Well, I never enjoyed an air raid more Shall we go now wait for the next one? Oh, it's very tempting that I think we'd better go shall I carry your purse? No, no, I I only drop it in emergencies. Well, I hope I'm around the next time it happens You go back to France and I and you we may go to America. Oh, that does sound unlikely I'm sorry So am I So later I'm afraid I have to take a taxi if I can if I can get one I wish I could What were you going to say? I wish I could have seen your ballet. I'm sure it would have been a pleasant memory in the trenches What were you going to say? Oh, just that I I don't know anyone at the front And I'm afraid it'll bring it home to me now knowing you not that I really know you of course, but oh here's a cab Oh, thank you very much captain. I hope you get back safe and sound. Thank you here Take this you're you're good luck charm. Perhaps it'll bring you luck. I Hope it does. Oh now look here. I can't take it. It means so much to you You'd better have it. I was beginning to rely on it too much. Oh, that's wonderfully kind of you. Olympic theater, please caddy Goodbye Like you're talking on stage during a performer kitty is here in the audience who the captain in the underground I don't understand it. He said he couldn't come. Oh, I suppose he just came to see the show You don't suppose anything of a kind What you said he had to go to a colonel's dinner. That's not what I said You can stop dancing Hurry up with the wings kitty. I want to point him out to you there He's a bit of all right must have ditched the colonel You don't think you come backstage to you. Oh, what would Madame say? Well, we must watch and pray girls Kitty Mara Madame Mara, what is a part of a ray a Part of your a is a progression on points by a sequence very small even steps If you know it, why do you not do it during the performance and kitty? Yes, you're our best for a jumpy They were positively a pal of the the doorman calling. Oh, I'll see what he wants The performance tonight was his graceful, but I Kitty that note. I will just hand it to you bring it to me. Oh, it's nothing Handed to me Well, it's just an old friend of a man. I used to know in a show I do not need to be reminded that you were an American chorus girl in a review your behavior madam Keep out of it. Myra. No kitty it is for me, madam Then you may read it allowed, please But madam I read it, please as you see I cannot bear to spend my last evening with my colonel after all Please have supper with me your friend of the shelter PS I'm sure you will because I have a good luck charm, which has already changed signature There isn't one and if there were one what would it be? I don't know. I only know he's an officer, madam Indeed, I must emphasize again that if you want supper parties officers and delights You should not be here with me, but in other occupations Today a parent papierre, please. Yes, madam War is no excuse for intercorum. I got you do not honor the ballet with your presence in it The ballet honors you the pen and paper madam Set it on the table. All right, please myra. Yes, madam. Kiroa dear sir What is this around a captain? Dear captain, I am greatly honored by your kind invitation Wait a minute. I beg your pardon. I'm kitty. Myra's friend Where do you want to meet her Myra? Oh, well, how do you do? I do very well. Thank you, but where do you want to meet her? Well, I Refuse I'll take no notice the old dragon made her right that you mean she'll come after all name the place. Yes Well, I did does she know the candlelight club? No, but I do. Well good then. I'll be there in an hour say an hour Look here. I hope I'm doing the right thing Myra's the finest girl in the world You can see that can't you I can see that Bye-bye captain Hello captain. Hello. I'm delighted you're here. I'm afraid I made it difficult for you with madame corova. Haven't I well? You you gave up the Colonel so I expect I made it difficult for you to yes You did but I have my reward was wonderful of you to come Now nice you look. Thank you, and you look pretty too. Thank you By the way, what are dancers eat? Oh? Dull things mostly nutritious yet non-fattening all or not tonight supper for a queen and champagne But isn't it against the rules for a dancer to drink a bit of champagne is it well tonight good? It's icing in the bucket Tell me are you glad to see me again? Yes? I sense a reservation What why What's the good of it?  What's the good of anything? What's the good of living? That's the question to oh now wait a minute I'm not gonna let you get away with that The wonderful thing about living is that this sort of thing can happen in the shadow of a death raid I can meet you and feel more intensely alive than walking around in peacetime taking my life for granted Oh, it's a high price to pay for it. I don't think so I do Do people have to kill each other to to give them a heightened sense of life? But that's got nothing to do with people killing each other either you're excited about life or you're not You know, I've never been able to wait for the future when I was very young I climbed to the top branch of a high tree stood like a diver announced to my horrified governess now I shall leap into the future and spent three months in the hospital You should let the future catch up with you more slowly. Oh, no never temperament I can't open look here if we'd met in ordinary times in an ordinary way We just about be telling each other what schools we went to We're much further along don't you think are we you know, we are Let's open the champagne to you Thank you To us. I I still don't get it. Not quite. What?  Oh, but what is it? You'd still don't get You know when I left you after the air raid I I couldn't remember what you looked like not for the life of me I thought was she pretty was she ugly? What was she like? I couldn't remember I simply had to get to the theater tonight to see what you looked like and you think you'll remember me now. I think so I Think so for the rest of my life Right to you Will you answer? Of course Wonderful evening wasn't it? Yes Thank you very much when I come back. We'll we'll go to the candlelight club again Yes That'll be our place. That's where we'll always recapture this evening. Do you think we'll ever see each other again? I think it's doubtful, don't you? Yes, I suppose it is What was it you started to tell me in the restaurant that you didn't understand about me? Oh? There's no use going into it now. No, but tell me please I'd like to know well it Struck me as curious ever since I met you You know from that very early moment ages ago that you're so young so lovely and so defeatist. I mean you You just don't seem to expect much from life. Well, aren't I right? For instance, I met you. I liked you and now so soon we have to part and Perhaps we'll never see each other again You can conceive that then are never seeing each other again Yes, I can this where you live Yes, nothing to do about it is there Nothing except except to say goodbye. I suppose so Goodbye Goodbye, my little deer. Goodbye. Oh darling darling. Oh, no, no, no, Roy Can't happen keep well Thinkin happen to me. You're you're lucky charm will see to that. Oh, I hope it will I Pray it will goodbye Goodbye Please leave me first. All right All right Captain Oh half past 11 Good morning. Good morning, madam. I came to congratulate you Mara I'm working on being up Considering that you did not go to bed until four It's remarkable. I had a feeling your performance tonight will give the effect of sleepwalking Well, it's the first time I was been out madame Mara, but I made you send the note to the gentleman last night. It was you I was trying to protect Yes, I know I am fond of my girls who work for me. I do not want them to be a Camp follower. Oh, you don't know him or you wouldn't say that. Can't we have any private lives at all? Not when he touched your public life in the theater My roof. I'm happy. He did not stay here a week. Otherwise, he would have ruined six performances instead of one He's a wonderful man, madam. That is unimportant If such a thing should happen again with you or any of the others it means instant dismissal I will see you at the day out tonight if he is not too much trouble Why is he so cruel and hateful? Oh the old broomstick. No, never mind. This was everything rubbish.  There's no rehearsal today and now come away from that window. No, I'm not tired Horrible morning for the channel crossing Well, I suppose he's gone now. Hmm. I suppose so Kitty What? Kitty! He's downstairs! Oh, pacing back and forth. Oh, I don't believe it. Oh, good heavens. Why, he's deserted. Kitty, he's here. He hasn't gone. He's here. She'll be cord-martialed for this. Oh, Kitty. Oh, you see him too, don't you? All of that is ghost. I could use one like him.  You'll see you. I can't help it. Out of my way. Oh, I've got to go. Where's my hat? Oh, why wasn't I... Where is my hat? This is your hat. I can't wear my handbag on my head. Not very well. Kitty, is he still there? Has he gone? Will he wait? Do I look all right? Yes. Yes, you look all right. You look better with the dress on. Oh, dress, dress. The thing I'm holding is the dress. Yes, yes, of course. Oh, he'll help me. Sorry, a little... Oh, Mar, will you stop it? Oh, Kitty. Oh, goodness. I don't know what I'm doing. Are you done? Oh, dear, these stupid... Oh, here, let me help you. Kitty, stop driving around. Oh, I wonder if he's gone. Kitty, Kitty, he's gone. He's gone. Then that thing by the tree must be a mirage. He's back. I'm going down the stairs first. You don't want to run into Madame on the way down. And for pity's sakes, please tell him no more false alarms. I can't stand the excitement. Darling, darling. Night of you to come and see me. Don't talk. Just let me kiss you. How did it go? Couldn't. Mine's in the channel. Forty-eight hours leave. Oh, isn't that one... Oh, darling, darling, darling. Let me hold you in my arms. What would we write out in the street? Everybody understands. Oh, forty-eight hours. Two whole days. Oh.  I couldn't sleep a wink. Oh, you managed to remember me at last then? Yes, barely managed. Myra, what do you think we're going to do today? Well, I... Oh, you won't have time for that. What? For hesitating. No more hesitating for you. No? No. Well, what am I going to do instead? You're going to get married. Oh, Roy. Roy, you must be mad. I know it. It's a marvelous sensation.  Not me. Oh, but you don't know me. Then I'll discover you. Spend the rest of my life doing it. Oh, Roy, this is wartime. It's because you're leaving so soon. Because you feel that you must spend the whole of your life in forty-eight hours. We're going to be married. It's you. It'll never be anyone else. But how can you tell that? Now, listen, darling. None of you are quibbling. None of you are questioning. None of you are doubts. This is positive, you see? Roy! This is affirmative, you see? This is final, you see?  Come on, hurry. Cab! This is Miss Lester, Vicar. How do you do, Miss Lester? How do you do? I'm sorry to disappoint you, Miss Lester. But I'm afraid it's impossible for me to marry you now. Oh. No doubt you forget that according to the law, no marriages can take place after three o'clock. I explained to the vicar, Myra, that this is an emergency that we thought during wartime something could be managed. Oh, isn't there something we can do, sir? We'd be most awfully grateful. Oh, I'd like to help you, but unfortunately, that is the law. However, if you come tomorrow to live no clock, I shall be most happy to perform the ceremony for you. But we have so little time. Well, it's only a few hours. It just means we'll have to be engaged for a whole day. Yes, darling. I never did build even long engagements. The performance Madame will give her the sack.  Oh, you're always trembling, Marine. Hello, Kitty. Well, where have you been? I've been worried to death. I thought you were with a boyfriend, but he phoned a couple of times. Oh, did he? I wonder why. He had to go back to the barracks and I went shopping. Here. What's in those packages? Open them up. Myra, who's dressed as that? It's mine. It's yours. Yes. I spent my last penny on it.  Oh, quite, quite. And I bought a hat, a lovely hat, and the shoes, and the bag, and then gloves. Oh, isn't it a dream, Kitty? It's my wedding dress. Myra. Yes, I'm going to be married. Oh, darling, darling, come here and let me have it. Oh, it's so wonderful. Oh, well, tell me where I went. I'll quick. Oh, tomorrow morning. Tomorrow morning, it's in Matthew's church. Oh, Kitty, I'm so madly in love, so madly happy. Oh, darling, I can't believe this. Neither can I. I've been crying all day. It's unbelievable. Things like this just don't happen. Oh, it is wonderful.  I'll get it. Hello? Miss Lester? One moment, please. A gentleman, Myra. That must be Roy. Hello? Hello, darling. Yes? What? Oh, no. When? Oh, that's terrible. Can't they give you one more day? You have to. Oh, of course I'll come at once. I love you. What is it? What happened? Oh, the order's been changed. He's going tonight. The train leaves in 10 minutes. Where are you going?  Going where? To the police station. But you can't. You won't be back in time. But the showman won't be off. Oh, I don't care. Myra, please. She'll never forgive you. Never. I may never see him again. What's wrong? He's gone. You talked to him? No, Kitty. I was too late. Didn't you see him at all? Oh, just a glimpse.  I knew it would happen. I knew it from the start. Oh, he'll be back. The war can't last forever. No. He won't be back. Good evening, Myra. It is very condescending of you to come here at all. She's very unhappy, Madame. Her fiancé was called to the front. I'm not interested in tube movement. She was to be married in the morning. Lore and social events. Well, the whole world doesn't begin and end with a ballet. My world does. And while you are with me, so must yours. That prescription no longer applies to Myra. Oh, don't sack her, Madame. I warn you, Myra. You are dismissed. I've never heard of anything so unreasonable. Be careful. No, I won't be careful. Oh, don't, Kitty. Don't you worry, Myra. I'm fed up with her. I've been wanting to tell her for two years. And now I'm going to tell you, Madame. And if you don't like it, you can lump it.  You treat us like a lot of slaves and call it discipline. Well, it isn't bad. Well, it's just that you enjoy bullying us. Maureen. Yes, Madame? Rehearsal tomorrow at 11 with two understudies. Yes, Madame. Good night. Kitty. Kitty, you shouldn't have. You shouldn't have. Oh, it's all my fault. Forget it.   You and I, Ducky, are going to get into a review. All we've got to do is get some manager to put one on. That ought to be simple. Kitty. Yes? Do you think... Occasionally. What? Do you think you're right? Honey, answer one question for me. Yes.  Miss Norma Shearer will continue in just a moment after a brief pause for station identification. This is the Screen Director's Playhouse brought to you by extra mild Fatima, the best of all king-sized cigarettes. In Fatima, the difference is quality. 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And now we continue transcribed with the second act of Waterloo Bridge, starring Miss Norma Shearer in the role of Myra, with Carlton Young as Roy. History tells of the condition of the world, and particularly London in 1917 was perilous. Chaos and disorder replaced normalcy. Jobs were at a premium, money was scarce, and show business was at a standstill. People like Myra and Kitty were faced with a desperate situation. How could survive in their third-rate hotel room? Well, Myra, I didn't get the job. Oh, Kitty. How about you? No luck. We're a couple of harling successes. Sitting right on top of the world, aren't we? Well, you're in a nice mood, aren't you? And no wonder sitting here in the dark feeling sorry for yourself. Well, if I don't feel sorry for myself, who will? Trouble with you is you're hungry. You'll feel better when you have something to eat. Myra. Yes, Kitty?  But honestly, why don't you let Roy know? That we're out of work. That we're broke, flat broke, down to our last bouillon cube. Oh, he'd worry. I don't want him to worry. Better for him to worry than for us to starve. Oh, Kitty, we're not starving. Nobody's starving. You mean people who starve don't live to tell about it? I don't know what we're going to do. We can't get jobs in the show. We can't get them anywhere else. Oh, Madame, we're still here. I go to a pride or no pride. As it is, there's nobody. Oh, Myra, I'm frightened. I've never been frightened before. Oh, Kitty. I don't like it. Oh, Kitty. Perhaps it's selfish of me not to let Roy know, but I've got a stupid sort of pride about it. Just let me wait a little while, just a little while longer. Something must turn up, and if it doesn't, well, it's Mrs. Clark for the rent. Oh, now remember, you were rehearsing. Oh, yes. Yeah, that's right. Miss Lester, for you, Myra. Oh, thank you. Seems like them, as gets flowers, could pay their rent. Oh, here. Here, let them. I can't imagine. Oh. Oh, they're lovely. Now, who do you suppose? Kitty. Oh, it's Roy. It's Roy at the time. Oh, they're beautiful. Oh, there's such a lovely old gentleman. Oh, not to buy us food for a whole week. Oh, listen to what he wrote on the card. One of my men got leave, and you'll be receiving these through him. And with them, I send you all my love. We, uh... We could sell them to the florist at the corner by ourselves a real meal. Eh, but I don't think you'd favor the idea. No. Oh, Kitty. His mother's coming here. To London? Yes, yes, listen. My mother is snatching a few days from her Red Cross work and is coming to town to especially see you. I know you'll get on well with her. She's very nice. In fact, she's quite like me. Kitty, what'll I do? I can't have her here in this hovel. Why not? Let's give her a little party and boil the bouillon cubes. Well, I can suggest meeting her somewhere. For tea, perhaps. Oh, but Kitty, imagine his mother. I'm awfully nervous at meeting her. I wonder... What, you funny love-struck instance. Oh, I wonder if she'll like me. Well, she'd better. We won't invite her at all. Tomorrow. Darling, you're trembling. Oh, Kitty, don't you see that? Meeting her will be like... like seeing Roy again. Oh. Oh, you've been such a darling to me. And now perhaps I'll be able to repay you. You know, I... Oh, I have the feeling that from now on everything's going to take a turn for the better. I'm just sure it is. Would you care to order? Not yet, thank you. I'll wait for my friend. She's Lady Margaret Cronin. And I'm Miss Lester. If she should ask for me, will you direct her to me here? Certainly. What time is it, please? It's, uh, ten minutes to five. Thank you. Would you care to look at the evening paper? No, thanks. Well, in that case, one... one moment. What does that headline say? At latest war casualties. Would you like to read them? No, no. Oh, yes. There you are, Miss. Killed in action. Fallen officers. Ashley. Abernathy. Barbara. Bern. Blair. Bull. Busy. Brothers. Vinnie. Cronin. Captain Roy Cronin. No. Oh, God, no. Cronin. Cronin. Cronin. Cronin. Easy, Miss. Here. You take another sip of brandy. Cronin. You don't give us a price. Would you like to go to the restroom and lie down a bit? No. No. I'd rather stay here. Take another sip of the brandy it held. Thank you. Better? Yes. Sure. I'll be all right. Sit quiet and rest. If your friend doesn't turn up, we'll call a cab. Blair. Bull. Busy. Brothers. Vinnie. Cronin. I beg your pardon. Cronin. Are you with Lester? Yes. Yes. I'm Margaret Cronin. Roy's mother. And may I sit down? Yes. Yes, of course. I'm afraid I've kept you waiting. I'm terribly sorry. No. But you we have. Tea and some little cake? No. No. No, thank you. I can't stay very long. Oh. I do hope you're not going to run off at once. Incidentally, I telephoned you from Scotland to the hotel where Roy told me. You were staying, but they said you'd gone away. I have my mail forwarded. There are reasons. Oh, my dear. I didn't mean to pry. Forgive me, my dear, but you're not afraid of me, are you? I know we're going to be friends. I feel that I know you already through Roy's letters. And I want to write him and tell him that you and I have met and that we like each other very much. May I write him that? Yes. Yes, of course. I suppose there are lots of things you want to know about Roy that I could tell you. And I'm sure there are things about him you could tell me. Oh, stop it. Oh. Oh. I'm sorry. Quite all right, my dear. Why don't they bring your tea there? They're very slow, aren't they?  No, no. Don't bother. I mean, no, hurry. Would you rather that I didn't know you? No, hurry. Would you rather that I didn't speak about Roy? Oh, no, no. Why should you think that? But what is there to say? Forgive me, my dear. Have you been drinking? Oh, I had a drink that's all. It made me feel funny, sort of queer. Oh, what's it like in Scotland? I've never been there. It always sounds so quaint, you know. The heather and the peat. Oh, but peat comes from Ireland, doesn't it? I've never been there. Why do you stare at me like that? I'm trying to see you as Roy sees you. Mara, I want you to remember that I tried to be your friend. I've come because Roy wanted me to come. Because I wished to. Perhaps we'll try again someday. Perhaps on Roy's next leave, he'll bring you to the country. Goodbye, Mara. For the next three months, the physical condition of Mara fitted in with the hysteria of the world. A complete nervous breakdown accompanied by the bread influenza. As she slowly recovered, doubt assailed us to how the room rent was paid, where the money for food came from, the doctor's bills, and medicine. Hello, Kitty. Those wet things off double quick time, too. I'll fix you a hot water bottle. Oh, why did you go out? Kitty! How'd the show go tonight? Same as usual. Was it a good house? So-so. Why? I went to the theatre. Thought I'd surprise you by calling for you. Oh, well, you see, Mara, I didn't want to worry you. You see, I'm in a different sort of show than when I said I was in. It's a cheaper sort of show, so I... Kitty, you haven't got a job at all. You never did have one. How have we been living? What difference does it make as long as we live? Where's the money coming from? Where are you getting it? Where do you think I've been getting it? Try to keep it from you, but... Well, now you know. Did it for me? I don't know. I didn't ever have done it anyhow. C'est la guerre. No job. No boys who want to marry. Only men who want to kill a few hours. Because... Because they know it may be their last. No. You did it for me to get me food and medicine. I'd sooner have died. No, you wouldn't.  I thought of that, but I wasn't brave enough. I wanted to go on living. Heaven knows why. But I did, and so would you. Oh, we're young, and it's good to live. Even the life I'm living... Oh, God knows it. I've heard them call it the easiest way. Wonder who ever thought up that little phrase. I know one thing. It couldn't have been a woman. Kitty. Oh, darling, darling. I suppose you think I'm dirt. Oh, no, no, Kitty. I guess it was just... Just no other way. No other way. Now, here's a word from RCA Victor. Have you ever looked in the back of your television set? If you have, you've probably noticed the complicated arrangement of tubes, wires, and parts which help produce the picture on the screen of your picture tube. But when you think about it, the picture is only as good as the picture tube itself. That's why your picture tube is really the heart of your television set. And that's why it pays to insist on the best tube available, an RCA tube, when your present picture tube wears out. You see, every RCA picture tube is manufactured with precise quality controls at every stage of production, assuring you a clearer, brighter, sharper picture for a longer period of time. And now every RCA renewal picture tube carries a factory warranty that guarantees you against any defect in workmanship or material for six months from the date of installation. So regardless of the make of your set, ask your local repairman to install a genuine RCA picture tube. Then you're sure of enjoying the very best that your television set has to offer. Now the third act of Waterloo Bridge, starring Miss Norma Shearer. Hello, my babe. Hello. Care for a bit of a stroll, huh? What are we waiting for, dearie? Hello, Martin. Oh, look. Well, I'm not exactly prepared to retire yet. I'm holding it waterly with power. Oh, some of them soldiers are still on their feet, eh, Martin? Hope so, Clarky. Cheerio. Cheerio. Oh, baby. See you around wherever I go. Care for a bit of a stroll, huh? Myra. Oh, look. The buns I've waited for this moment. Oh, darling. Right. Oh, right. I told my darling it's all over. This time we're together for always. Why? You're... Feeling better, darling. Right. You're... you're alive. Of course I'm alive. Didn't you know I was indestructible? How could I die when we're engaged? Oh, but the papers... We're wrong. I was in a German prison for the better part of a year and then escaped. I came home to you. Did my mother get in touch with you? Tell you to meet me at the train? No. Then you didn't know I was coming? No. Then what were you doing at the station? Were you looking for a friend? Yes, a... a girlfriend. I got a thousand questions. What have you been up to? Have you got a job? Worries or what does it pay? I... I... I don't have a job. Oh, it doesn't matter. I'm not going to let you out of my sight this time. Not till we're married. You understand that? Oh, darling, you've... You've been through a lot, haven't you? It's been, uh... Pretty tough, huh? And I wasn't there to help you. But that's all over now. I never want to see you cry again except with happiness. If only I had known you were alive, that you were in the world. I'll never leave you again, darling. You're coming home with me to my mother's in Scotland. We're leaving right away just as soon as I arrange the tickets. I... I can't go with you. It's... it's out of the question. Why? Please don't ask me, but I... I simply can't. But I've got to ask you and you've got to tell me. Why? I... I look terrible for one thing. I... I... I haven't got any clothes. Well, Madam, calling to be, we'll see what we can do. How would you like to be the most smartly dressed woman in London? Oh, no, Roy. I... I can't. There's someone else, isn't there, Myra? After all, you've thought me dead. There is someone else, isn't there? Don't be afraid. Tell me. Oh, Roy. Of course there isn't anybody else. There couldn't be. I loved you. I've never loved anyone else. I never shall. That's the truth, Roy. That's all I wanted to know. Darling, smile for a change. I'll... I'll try. Have you forgotten how? Come on. That's a good girl. Oh, darling. I... I can't believe that I... that I'm with you again. But you are. Happy? Oh, yes. Personally, I'm delirious. Come on. We're going shopping. What's all about? What are all these packages? Have you taken to shoplifting? Oh, Kitty, darling. Roy's back. He's alive. Roy? Kitty wants to marry me. Oh, no. Such things don't happen. It's true. Oh, Kitty, it's going to be so wonderful. And for you, too. Oh, nothing will be too good for you when I'm Roy's wife. Oh, I know what you're thinking. I've been thinking, too. You think that'll be dreadful of me, don't you? Does he know? No. Well, do you think you can get away with it? You mean deceiving him? Yes. Oh, I... I'm going to tell him. There are two sorts of people, Myra. Those who get the breaks and those who don't. Well, I'm getting the breaks now. And I'm not good to think. You remember? You wanted so that you wanted to live. Oh, well, I want to live. This is my chance for life. And I won't let him go. I guess there are no rules, Myra, for what you feel and what he feels. Kitty. Oh, Kitty. After all, if he's mad enough about you, he may make up for everything. It must. It must. He's so kind, Kitty. So sweet and so clean and wonderful. I'm going to vote myself to him. After all, it's his happiness, too, Kitty. He loves me. He's waited for me and my... and in my soul. In my soul, I've waited for him. That's what really counts, isn't it? The soul? He is. Yes, Myra. That's all that counts. Roy. Oh, it's beautiful. This has been our home for generations. We're awfully good together, don't you think? RSVP, that was a question that requires an answer. Yes or no? Yes. Your answer is correct.  Big day ahead tomorrow. Good night, darling. Good night, my love. Myra, forgive me for waiting for you in your room. That's quite all right, Lady Margaret. I couldn't go to sleep without getting something off my chest. It's about our last meeting in London. You know that has preyed on my mind ever since. Myra, do you bear a grudge against me? Oh, no, Lady Margaret. Frankly, I came with a prejudice. And when I saw you, you seemed strange to me. I thought you couldn't be... well, what I wanted Roy's wife to be. I have no excuse except a mother's excuse for wanting an impossible idea for her son. Can you forgive me? No, but there's nothing to forgive. When I got home the next day, I found the telegram telling me the dreadful news about Roy. And when I could think again, it suddenly struck me that you'd known all the time. That you'd just seen his name in the newspaper and you hardly knew what you were saying. Is that true? Yes.  If I'd only known. I did my best to find you, but you disappeared. And now I want to make it up to you in the future. I'm very happy about this marriage, Myra. And I know we're going to be wonderful friends. Forgive me for being sentimental. Good night, my daughter. Don't go, Lady Margaret. I must speak to you. Of course, my dear. I can't marry Roy. Sit down quietly, dear, and tell me. I must go away. I never should have come here. I knew it is impossible that I... I kept on seething myself. I've got to go away. I must never see him again. Well, perhaps if you'd hated me, if you'd fought me, I could have done it. But, well, you've all been so kind. My dear, why don't you tell me what it is? I'm sure I can help you. No, no one can help me. But, my dear, what can it be that's so terrible? Has there been someone else? Lady Margaret, you're naive. My dear, Roy loves you. He's happy with you. That's enough for me. If there are indiscretions in your life, forget them. Face the future. There's no future for me. Myra, look at me. Look at me. Can't you see? Can't you see the truth? Don't make me tell you this thought in your mind, which for telling yourself can't be true. It is true. Oh, I can give you plenty of excuses. I was poor, I was hungry, I thought Roy was dead. I might make you understand, but it couldn't save me. I'll never see him again. But I, well, I just can't tell him the truth myself. I can't hurt him like that. Promise me you'll never tell him. Promise me I'll leave early in the morning. You've been so kind. I wish I could have been, well, all that you'd hoped. Roy. What are you doing prowling around at this hour? You been with Mother? Yes. Isn't she wonderful? Oh, yes she is. I know I wouldn't sleep, so I've been walking in the garden and fighting my good luck to the stars. Oh, were they pleased? They seemed indifferent. They went on glittering the little exhibitions. Oh, um, have you ever seen this good luck charm before? Oh, I think so. Oh, here. But I, I gave it to you. It's yours. I think it'll be safer with you, just as I'll be. I dropped it in the garden a moment ago and I was frantic until I found it again. I think you'd better have it from now on because now that we're both, as they say, one, it really doesn't matter which one of us keeps it, does it? Brought me luck. I'll let her bring you luck. I'll keep it for you, Roy. Oh, I'm tired, darling. Yes, you're locked tired. It's been a strenuous day for you. Yes. Good night, darling. Goodbye, darling. Why goodbye when it's only till morning? Oh, because, because every parting from you is, well, a little eternity. That's the way I feel too. Goodbye. Goodbye, little sentimentalist. Tomorrow, all day to ourselves. Yes, my love. Now, is it, you mother? What? Oh, hello, Clarke. What did they wear on water, little bridge? How'd you was married, Ducky? No. No, I'm not married.  I knew it was too good to be true. Yes, just too good to be true. Oh, well, cheer up. Things can't get worse. Coming down to the station, dearie. Who plans do I give? No, I... No. Oh, well. Clarke, do me a favor. Would you see that this good luck charm is delivered to this address? Sure, Ducky. Hello, baby. Care for a bit of it? Well, I'd say you for a long time. No. Oh, no. Oh, no. Oh, no. They never last. Likewise, those we truly love are never forgotten. And while the ears tend to cover all wounds, the scars remain, though invisible. And the heart remembers. As he stood at the parapet of Waterloo Bridge in the year of 1939, tenderly holding a very small charm in the palm of his hand, Colonel Roy Cronin lifted it to his lips. And with this gesture, all else, all the world except one voice was silent. And this voice he heard with exquisite clarity. Oh, here's a message from the makers of Annison. If you would like to know a quick, easy way to ease the pain of a headache, neuritis or neuralgia, then by all means try Annison. Your own dentist or physician may at one time or another have handed you an envelope containing Annison tablets. Then you already know how incredibly fast and defectively Annison brings relief. Annison is like a doctor's prescription. That is, Annison contains not just one, but a combination of medically proven active ingredients. For your own sake, try Annison. Annison is sold to you on this guarantee. If the first few tablets do not give you all the relief you want as fast as you want it, you may return the unused portion and your money will be refunded. You can get Annison tablets at any drug counter. Annison comes in handy boxes of 12 and 30 tablets and economical family size bottles of 50 and 100. Now here again is tonight's star, Ms. Norma Shearer. Thank you. Now, may I say a few words about a very near and dear friend, the director of Waterloo Bridge, Mr. Mervon Lee Roy. To tell of his accomplishments as a picture maker is needless. For his outstanding and brilliant record speaks for itself. More important as a man, his intense loyalty and graciousness and wonderful sense of humor have never changed through the years. May I present Mr. Mervon Lee Roy. Thank you, Norma, for the vast radio warnings that heard you tonight and myself. We have been greatly honored with your magnificent performance. It will long be remembered in our hearts and in our memories. We adore you, Norma, always. Oh, those are very kind words and so deeply appreciated, Mervon. And it's so good to be back home again. And we're certainly glad to have you back. Norma, you've been traveling all over the world having a wonderful time all over Europe, Switzerland, Paris and American and Paris. Say, that's an MGM hit starring Jean Kelly, Leslie Caron and Oscar Levant. Oh, so I've heard. And speaking of hits, I understand your great spectacle, Covatis, which you directed for MGM in Rome, is definitely an Academy Award contender for this year's honors. Norma, the only thing I can say is I've got my fingers crossed. Speaking for the Screen Directors Playhouse and your millions of fans throughout the world, thanks. And I can't tell you how much we look forward to seeing you again real soon. Good night, Norma. Good night, everyone. The series of the Screen Directors Playhouse brought to you by extra miles Fatima, best of all king-sized cigarettes. In Fatima, the difference is quality. By RCA Victor, world leader in radio, first in recorded music, first in television. And by the makers of Anison for fast relief from the pain of headache, neuritis and neuralgia. Now we bring to a close this series of Screen Directors Playhouse presentations. Next week, during this hour on most NBC stations, you will hear two new shows. The Roy Rogers show, starring Roy himself at Lovely Day Elevens. And during the last half hour, Dean Martin and Jerry Lewis return to the air. Waterloo Bridge was adapted for radio by Jack Rubin. Screen Directors Playhouse is under the production supervision of Howard Wiley and is directed by Bill Karn. Portions of tonight's broadcast were transcribed. This is Jimmy Wallington speaking. For People in the Know, Sunday means the big show on NBC.