Hello my YouTube family. Another live video. The second live video for today. This one talking about how Narcissus set you up to become their caretaker. Something I haven't spoken about in depth before but I'm looking forward to getting deep into it in this one. If it sounds good to you so far hit that thumbs up button. Let's get this message out there to other people who may need to see it as well. And remember if you would like to book a one-on-coaching session with myself you can go on my website. It is Narcseviver.co.uk. Now let's talk about how Narcissus set you up to become their caretaker because as we know they are very manipulative and in the beginning they give you this false character. They deceive you. They make you think that there's something when they are actually something else.  When in actuality they end up putting you at a disadvantage because in the beginning they give you breadcrumbs. They lead you on. They string you along. They mislead you deliberately over a certain amount of time about their intentions, agenda and motives and it's because they already know exactly what you want to see. You may have told them already or they studied you so in the beginning they reflect back to you what you want to see but that's not who they are. That's not what they're really about. They just know what they need to do to affect you psychologically where you then think that you've met the certain type of person that you're looking for when really they're just doing it to gain power over you for their own interest and advantage because the person that you're seeing that's not who they really are but they can present this to you from learning what you like and what you don't like from learning your desires once and needs and whatever affects you emotionally whether it's something that excites you and makes you happy or maybe it's something that makes you sad, angry or upset. They are learning all of these different things about you which then gives them the ability to create this illusion where they can then deceive you with this very misleading appearance and impression which then implants which then implants these false ideas and beliefs in your mind because when they first gained access to your life they seemed very excited full of joy, thrills to meet you. It's like they were really interested in you and in getting to know you. They're so happy, so glad to meet you and they ask you questions about yourself and your life and you assume this person is your friend they're someone you can trust so you answered all of their questions honestly and openly you told them everything about yourself because you didn't know that actually they weren't happy they weren't glad they weren't enthusiastic about meeting you at all all they were doing is collecting data information about you which they were planning to use against you at a later date and that's why they'd only took them a certain amount of time until they were then presenting your likes and interests to you to test the waters and see how you are going to react to them they were complimenting and praising you making you feel good about yourself but that's all they were really looking for because it's nothing but a game and it excites them it gives them a thrill makes them feel good makes them feel alive makes them feel special and important in the beginning they talk to you and such a way where it makes you feel like they actually care like you actually matter to them like they're actually interested in getting to know you and being with you in a real relationship but it's not real it's not genuine it's not sincere they're just doing it to get your attention to get your validation maybe to gain admiration respect or even sympathy that's why after a certain amount of time later on they start to give it out a bit more slowly while they're taking more and more from you until finally you are at their mercy they're completely within their clutches within their grasp because all this time you've been giving and giving and getting very little back in return that's how they have the advantage that's how they've got the upper hand over you because all that time that you were dealing with them you were being authentic you were being yourself while they were just being whoever they thought they needed to be needed to be to appeal to your desires interests and needs so you don't even judge their character you just accept you assume that this person is who they say they are and then you give them everything you have you give them your time money a place to stay your energy and resources and they move very skillfully and carefully through your mindset your feelings and emotions as they carefully guide and manipulate you so that they can achieve their desired end their desired result without ever bringing attention to who they really are they fly under the radar because they're showing you what you want in a partner they're not being themselves and naturally it causes you to become emotional and it makes you want to cooperate with them and do what they want you to do because you're not in a logical state so you're overlooking the red flags while they're feeding your ego you don't see who you're actually dealing with you don't see who they really are because you're having a good time you're having lots of fun the only problem is you're doing it with someone who doesn't who doesn't even exist because all they've done is construct a false character which is based on your likes and desires and they've done that because they know that you're going to accept and support it with all of your willingness and enthusiasm without judging or criticizing them and that's exactly what they want you to do it's what their false character was designed to do they created this false character so that they get all of the praise all of the admiration and it feeds their ego it gives them a narcissistic supply makes them feel good about themselves but this doesn't last for long because this false character has a very short shelf life which means that it's only a matter of time until it begins to expire and when that happens they become very greedy they become very selfish and arrogant because they are insatiable so they're always going to demand more than what they're giving to you and it's because they're only giving you a fake character and behind this fake character is something very evil and wicked because underneath this facade you are dealing with a narcissist and some people may think and believe that underneath this false self is something so so weak delicate and childlike but the reality is that underneath it underneath it all they're still dishonest and corrupt yes they may act vulnerable but that's still just an act at the core of it all is a very evil wicked predator who seeks to ruthlessly exploit people for their own personal gain and that's why they will give you just enough to lure you in and catch you in their trap and then once they've got you they will become excessively greedy they will reveal just how selfish they really are and it's because when they're giving you this false character it ties them out it's very draining for them and that's why they don't like to use the the false self for long periods of time but as soon as they manage to turn the tables on you they then reveal just how needy and desperate they really are while in the beginning they seem so self-sufficient it's like they didn't need any help from anyone else in satisfying their needs they were independent self-reliant self-supporting self-sustaining it's like they had it all together they had everything figured out they knew exactly how to take care of themselves but now it's like this character is nowhere to be found but what you do see is someone who needs excessive amounts of attention validation money energy and resources which is what they want all for themselves and this is the point where they fail to care or provide for you and instead they neglect and abandon you because they're unable to keep giving they lack the capacity to do that they can only love bomb you in the beginning for a short amount of time because otherwise of course they would burn out because that's not who they really are and that's why they have to change you into becoming their workhorse their slave whether you are then forced to work for and obey them and they see you as their possession you're considered to be their property so essentially you're their slave thank you for the donation zane shun i appreciate it essentially you are their slave and all you're going to get in return is this unenthusiastic fake gratitude but they actually pretend like they care they actually pretend like they appreciate what you're doing for them but you can feel it energetically they're not really grateful about it and then that then causes you to realize how much you're losing because you're trying to elevate them to a higher possession makes them feel hopeful and optimistic while normally they're depressed they're sad they're disinterested and that's why they're so needy so desperate where they're constantly taken from you because they can't sustain themselves they can't keep going at it on their own they've got to bring you into it but all they've got for you is breadcrumbs they've got nothing of value to bring to you and yet you're left feeling like you've got to do more and more because they gave this false character at the beginning and that's what you're left holding on to because you're hoping longing and yearning that they're going to bring back this character again and then they're going to begin to give it back to you thanks for the donation pkmn master 29 yeah you're just hoping they're going to give it back to you eventually or maybe they're just going through a difficult time in their lives but this is actually who they are this is the real them this is it for life what you saw in the beginning that was only designed to lure you in and to trap you they already know that they're cheating you they're treating you unfairly they know they're giving you less than what you deserve well at the beginning it's funny because they made it seem like you were getting into something that was going to benefit you they may have pretended to be empathic themselves as though they were there for you they were there to help you but they were so disorganized and unpleasant everything was so confusing until at some point you realized then nothing like what they said they were the false character has gone vanished because they can't sustain it for long periods of time and that is when you realize when you finally begin to wake up it's like the movies Cinderella you realize that you were just tricked into being their caretaker to take care of them and to support them but you thought you were doing the right thing you thought this was your ideal person this perfect character but then you feel dissatisfied disappointed defeated because you then realize that they're not as good as what they led you to believe because you're dealing with something that's very different to what they portrayed to you at the beginning so of course you end up being neglected because you were deceived you were tricked it was all a game but you weren't aware of it at the time but they knew exactly what they were doing while you were taking it seriously you were trying to cooperate with them and succeed because you thought there was something real you thought you were actually in a real relationship you thought you were in something for life thanks for the donation Steve Perisic I appreciate all donations no matter how small it helps it goes towards this community so then I can invest more into this channel into this work thanks for the donation Ray Justice but yeah you thought this was something real you were taking it seriously but they weren't they were just getting into this with you to improve their own circumstances and they came in came into that with all of this knowledge all of this wisdom as though they knew exactly what they're doing but their situation was unstable it wasn't consistent and those are two qualities that are needed to sustain a relationship the consistency and the stability and that's why everything began to fall apart and thank you for the donation they're she and a page I don't want to sound so superficial here but someone's got to get on you and tell it how it is when you are in a relationship you should be dealing with someone who is on your level and not just in their characteristics but also financially as well someone who's not so far off and I know I understand they typically lie about their financial situation as well they act like they are financially well off they they're doing as well as you are and yet at the same time they're leaching off you like a parasite but this is it we need to be involved with people who know how to take care of themselves because you've got to think about it like this if they can't take care of themselves how are they ever going to be able to take care of you so of course going to end up being neglected relationships are meant to be a partnership they can't just be one person doing all of the work so of course of course both partners need to be at a similar level if they're not one of them is going to get the short end of the stick which means that they're eventually going to have a lot less than what they came in with and there's no way they're going to be able to sustain the relationship on their own but many of you you get stuck into it you're running endlessly on this hamster wheel in an effort to try to please them but sometimes you just got to stop look at everything that you've put out already what did you get back in return and you never cheated them you never treated them unfairly you never gave them an unequal exchange of value from what they were giving to you so at this point you should expect something of equal value in return because our value it's not determined by what we keep for ourselves a person's value is determined by what they're giving out and yeah this is how they've been treating you they've been treating you all of this time giving you an insufficient amount of value and to return in return to what you're giving out they've been giving you less than what you deserve and why because at the at the beginning they give you a false character it was just a fabrication an invention something that they were enabled to live up to they could never live up to that and this is why now at this point you've got to reassess your situation you should be around people who pour into you just as much as you pour into them in every way people who spend time with you people who invest the time the energy the money and resources into you and that's not selfish because that's exactly what you were doing for them so of course you should expect the same in return and people who are wise people who fill you up with the wisdom and knowledge that they have to give just as you have to give to them but the idea of making it successful for both of you not just for them instead of just depleting you of everything you've got and as soon as you set that boundary and you demand and expect more not to wear your than our success and you're just like give me everything you've got all of your time all of your energy all of your money well i give you nothing back of course that type of relationship is never going to succeed it's got to be equal it's got to be 50 50 and as soon as you set that boundary and you demand reciprocation an equal exchange an equal amount of value in return no narcissist can survive in that type of environment because they're not about equilibrium they're not about balance stability or equality with them everything is unstable unbalanced unequal and it's because they're not calm or composed in their minds and that's why whenever you have a problem whenever you have a need of your own or your any difficult situation of course they're not going to be there for you they don't respect your boundaries and yet they have this sense of entitlement and they feel superior to you so for them limits and boundaries that's beneath them they lack empathy they're incapable of caring about another person so they see it as perfectly reasonable to violate your boundaries as long as they get some what they want you're not dealing with a normal person that's how they're capable of doing such horrific things and this is what makes them so dangerous they have unmet emotional needs from childhood your dealer is someone who is essentially a two-year-old child in an adult's body so this world is centered around themselves or they can ever think about is what I want what I need and that's why anytime you talk about your wants or needs it will cause a narcissistic injury and then they're going to rage and throw these temper tantrums like a two-year-old child they will yell and they will scream because they have a an arrested psychological development they don't understand boundaries they just see something that they want and all they can think about is how they are going to get it your feelings wants or needs never come into the picture that never even crosses their minds because their world centers around themselves so they're incapable of caring about you or considering you thank you for the donation Kieran Sir Jan I appreciate all the donations today I'm very grateful but yes you are just a tool for the narcissist to use as they please that's how it's so easy for them to step on you to step all over your boundaries and if they're not allowed to violate your boundaries they will feel attacked because if you don't let them violate your boundaries in their minds you're then violating their boundaries because in their minds you're their possession they own you they feel entitled to you to whatever you have whenever they want it however they want it so anything that you have or possess and this could be your time energy attention money resources qualities of characteristics all of that is up for grabs to a narcissist it's all interchangeable they can take it use it do whatever they want with it whenever they want because they view people as extensions of themselves and in fact they view the entire world and everything in it as extensions of themselves and that's why they regard other people's needs as less important they feel entitled to do whatever they want whatever they desire and from whoever they desire it from and why it's because in their childhood they didn't get what they wanted their emotional needs were left and met but as well as this and what I don't often talk about on this channel but what I would like to get into right now I mean let's just keep it real just from looking at them the way they are they're so grandiose so arrogant so entitled what are we dealing with we're dealing with a spoiled brat that's exactly what they are that's where they have these behavioral problems it's because as a child they were overindulged by their parents they're accustomed to always getting their demands and desires met without ever experiencing consequences for their actions so now you look at them and they display this entitled behavior and if they don't get what they want they throw tantrums and even when you give them exactly what they want they display a lack of gratitude a lack of appreciation for the things that you have willingly given to them why does this happen how can you give someone all of your time energy effort money and resources a place to stay trips around the world whatever they want how can you give them all of that and do in return forget about an equal exchange of value you don't even get a thank you you don't get anything back in return why why does this happen this happens because unlike us they have decreased gray matter of the brain and the gray matter of the brain is responsible for discerning interoceptive and associated effective information about ourselves and other people you hear me talk about effective empathy a lot on this channel something that only one to two percent of the world population possess so they lack that they don't have that so they don't wish to change or enter the world of boundaries separation these limits from where other people end and we begin they lack the appropriate neurology for them to then have the ability to compromise share and respect the needs of other people because they never developed it as a child narcissists are permanently brain damaged and that's why they now have this unstoppable compulsion to get what they want and it's why they have to be the boss not you never you they've always got to be the boss even if you're the one who's doing all of the work and without you they can't even survive without you they've still got to be in charge and that's what makes it so contradictory because while they want to be the boss they have to find an adult sorry about that the wi-fi just cut off for a moment on my data so i had to connect to the hotel's wi-fi but yeah the behavior the mentality is very contradictory because while they want to be the boss and they don't want you to be in charge they are forced to find an adult who is willing to pamper and spoil them and to enable them and let them get away with their abusive behavior and this is why they're never going to learn to respect boundaries they're never going to grow up and be an emotionally mature adult because they don't need to they just trap people like you in their web of lies and deception because they know you're not going to enforce boundaries you're not going to do that because you had the opposite experience in your childhood unlike them you weren't giving everything that you wanted instead you were taught to not have any boundaries for yourself and that's how people like this can come into your life walk all over you and leave you to rot they can do that because people let them get away with it but the truth is that they're no good for this world they set us back they impair the evolution of our species because they only care about themselves they're not concerned about the feelings once or needs of other people they run good-hearted people into the ground and that is actually self-destructive behavior because they need people like us in order for them to survive so as time goes by and as people become more and more aware of this disorder we will see more and more collapsed narcissists and for those of you who don't know a collapsed narcissist is a narcissist who has lost the ability to uphold their grandiose image and this will happen with time because as dr. Ramani stated in a recent video one in six people are narcissists so you can just go to a restaurant or a mall and just point out six people the odds are one of them could be a narcissist that's how common it is now and even then that's only talking about full-blown narcissistic personality disorder so that doesn't mean that the other five out of six people aren't covert narcissists or even just narcissistic and even then there's all of the other cluster b disorders there's there's cluster a cluster c there's just toxic people as well but then true empaths are very rare so there's far more of them than there are of us and that's why we're seeing so many smear campaigns so much gangstalking it's becoming more and more common because narcissists are left to share a single empath with all of their millions researchers from the university of york have discovered that prehistoric humans had a deep sense of compassion and they cared for each other but in the far in the past four decades researchers have concluded that empathy has eroded around us overall with the average person in 2009 being less empathic than 75 of individuals in 1979 so empathy is becoming very rare and although yes this may sound bad it may sound like we're in times but keep that in mind with empaths becoming rare this may now make it more difficult for narcissists to survive because according to a 2007 study on empathy which was published in nature neuroscience only one to two percent of the population consists of true empaths which is now making it very difficult for narcissists to get by and this is why if you look in society today you will see that narcissistic behavior is becoming more and more extreme it's like they're doing anything they can to survive and they get with people that they wouldn't normally get with these days it's not uncommon to see two narcissists together we see that a lot with celebrities two grandiose narcissists because empaths are rare even if a narcissist does find a single empath it's highly unlikely they will ever find that again and even when they do find an empath they typically screw it up very quickly they don't really desire to be around us for a long period of time they prefer to be around their own kind they gravitate towards each other they like to be around other fake people and that's why empaths are so rare because while they need us they don't really want to be around us so they don't reciprocate anything back to us which means that we're dying out i'm sure there's a lot of empaths who are homeless they've been running to the ground they can't take care of themselves they're not self-sustaining anymore maybe they're in prison they may be in mental institutions they've been driven insane and all of this it's self-destructive on narcissists it's going to come back to get them because what are they going to do when there's no empaths around and i never really thought about this before i mean i used to look at it like we're in end times things are taking a turn for the worse or could it be that with an end there is also a new beginning and i'd just like to finish on that note something more positive as i know a lot of these videos they can be quite depressing at times but then at the same time gotta give the truth but to end on a positive note for this one with an end comes a new beginning empaths becoming more rare means we will see more collapsed narcissists and with less narcissists that means potentially more empaths could come into this world especially with more awakened and aware empaths who will then breathe more selectively they may look for other empaths which of course it's what i advise you to do get in relationships with people who are empathic like yourself build a life with them anyway that's the message for today if you enjoyed it if you found it helpful hit the thumbs up button down below and if you would like to show your support to our community you could donate by leaving a super chat or a super 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Oh, your friend as we journey to take your health back. We are coming to you live from downtown Honolulu from the studios of Think Tech Hawaii in the Pioneer Plaza building. Today our universal discussion will be with or be on work life balance for the Martin Bahini in Hawaii. And what I would like you to take away from today's discussion is that we recommend you to ask for help and seek out networks of the minds, minded, like minded women to support you through your life's journey. Today we are very honored to welcome Brooklyn, Miss Hawaii USA 1997, Miss Hawaii USA 1997 and then Miss Universe 1997 all wrapped up in one beautiful and stunning young lady and also the host and producer of the Martin Bahini Hawaii. Welcome Brock. Hey. Hey, boy. Wow. What a title. You got so many accolades and titles according to, you know, all the history books. I just like what you said. I was young. Hey. Of all of those titles, young attracts you most and you are very young and stunning at this point. Thank you. We're so excited to have you here. I'm excited to be here. So, you know, you've been gone for a while here and there and I just want to take people back to your good roots of Pro City. Pacific Palisades, to be exact, the number 53 bus, born and raised in Pacific Palisades, the leeward side. I went to grade school out at our Savior Lutheran. I went to preschool at Children's House in Pearl City right there in Palisades and I got into Punahou, early acceptance in the fifth grade, went there to my sophomore year, then went to lab school for a year, loved it there and finally got into Kamehau. After trying since kindergarten, got in my senior year. Wow. So, I went and I graduated as a class of 1989 from Kamehau Schools, Palahou. Wow. Perseverance. Yeah. Perseverance. That's what it's all about, right girl? I guess. Yeah. It works. I guess. It works with you. And this is just the beginning. Yes. Yeah. So, Brooke, I've known you for a while. A while, yes. Let's not say how long. Yes. A while. Yes. And I was very taken back with you. Which is ironic because you were doing candies. I was doing chocolates. And we were training. Yes. But you'd be giving us candies all day long. My job was to see your resistance and your discipline. It was a test. Yes, it was. And you passed. I did. You did. You did. Until you got that other crown and then it all came out. That's true. But so, I knew you then. Yes. And then you won the title as Miss Hawaii USA. Yes. 1997. Yes. How do you feel for you? Well, the prehistory to that is I had been running in the other system, which is the Miss Hawaii America system for about three years. I was horrible at it. I ran in preliminaries, then went to the state title, lost. Ran in a preliminary another year, went to the state title, lost. Did it again, lost. I was like the Susan Luccio of the pageant system. And then I aged out as they say. And then I went to the Miss Hawaii USA system, which is a little older after you got the college. And I hit it the first time out the gate. So I became Miss Hawaii USA in December of 96. Wow. Went to Treeport, Louisiana for Miss USA in January of 97. Won that. And then moved on to Miss Universe in May of that year and won that. So it was a really good year. Wow. It was a great year. It was a really good year. Yes, 1997. It was a good year. A great year. You know, the whole story behind or the lesson learned from your beginning for Kamehameha schools for surveillance. Right. And then going for the title. Yeah. Working hard, knowing what you wanted to do and wanted to accomplish. Yes. And not giving up. Is there anything you all like to take, have a takeaway for the young women and the men, of course, of Hawaii, of not giving up? Yeah. I mean, for me, I think I tell a lot of contestants because I get it a lot. People want me to train them for pageants. I wasn't really ever trained. You can probably see that when I say I ate everything twice is my answer. But I tell girls, I want to scholarship my first year that I lost at Miss Hawaii, America, of $17,000 to Shamanad University. Yes. So I transferred from, I was at Leeward Community College just figuring it out and got to go to this, you know, next level kind of Shamanad private college. I graduated with a degree in English, debt free, which is a pretty big deal. All from running in a patch that I didn't even win.  If you win, you win great. If you don't, at least you got an education and you're debt free. Either way, it's a win-win. Right. You know, I've been on board with the Miss Hawaii and the Miss Hawaii USA system for about 22, 23 years now. And that is my full-time focus for me when I meet young ladies. And my first question to them would be, hey, what college are you going to? And they'll answer, some of them will answer, Auntie, I'm not going to college right now. Can't afford it. Can't afford it. Exactly. So then I would bring up the topic, hey, would you consider running in the Miss Hawaii or the Miss Hawaii USA scholarship pageants? And then they would say, well, I never thought about it. I says, well, here's my card. Think about it. Go check it out. And if it makes sense to you, it resonates with you, give it a shot. Because I also think, especially in today's society with Instagram, social media, all those things, I think there's a lot of people have an attitude towards pageants that they used to not have because there's so many reality shows and you can get famous in so many other ways. But for me, the pageant, I was a model my whole life. I started modeling when I was like five or six years old. No one ever asked me my opinion until I ran in a pageant. Up until that point, I got in the clothes, I got on the stage, I walked on a runway and I went home. Nobody asked me what I thought about gun control. Nobody asked me what I thought about the world. Nobody asked me anything.  So when people, when you're required to have an opinion about something, that was addicting to me. I ran in pageants because it forced me to have opinions about things. And then I got kind of good at it. And then the thing on stage where you had to answer questions, that just became like sport for me. Some girls, it's harder for them and they don't like that. For me, that was like, I would be like gloves off. I'd be like, bring the question. Bring it on. Yeah, interview. Bring it. But you know, that's so key because in general, a lot of the local girls, they're a little bit more introverted. They're not all going as much back in the day. And I will say that the pervading culture is, if you're a pretty girl, then that's all it's really required. And I think in pageants, it's the same way. There are a lot of girls that answer questions on stage. They say things like world peace, or they forget where I ran is. There's a lot of girls that flub, right? But there's also a lot of girls that when asked the question on stage in 90 seconds in a bikini, you have to like balance the Middle East and what's going on with the other world. And yeah, have an opinion. A lot of them come up with amazing things which nobody would be able to do, not even a senator, especially in a bikini and in heels in front of George Hamilton. The pressure, from the pressure, from the pressure. So I think pageants in a lot of ways gets a bad rap because people met me during my year and they'd be like, you're so smart.   Like that kind of stuff bummed me out. Because I was like, did you not see me say I'd eat everything twice? That's how you do it. And so that's the real reason why I get involved is because I want each bikini of Hawaii to max out who they were created to be and give them this opportunity to put that mic in front of their face and ask them those questions on world peace, on gun control and the wall and see what they have to say. And if they don't know the answer, by golly, they're going to go and research it and they will have an answer better. Because their feet are in the fire and they're required to have to do that. And sometimes in life you're just not required. When you're a pretty girl, especially in today's age with Instagram and all of this Instagram notification, you really just can get away with a lot. You know what I mean? And get the likes and get conditioned to feel like I don't need to be a certain way. Whereas when the pageants, you've got to fulfill these four things. You have to wear a swimsuit and evening gown, answer a question on stage and do an interview.  It is. It is a great boot camp. People sell it short. They really do. That's why I'm never going to give up. And I truly believe in trying to max out all of you to create you to be who you are in here. But you just didn't have that opportunity. And so by giving these girls that platform of a stage and a voice, I tell you, we are creating some amazing women of Hawaii. Absolutely. And giving them scholarships to boot. And giving them platforms, showing them a way to go on to other things. So they tell them one girl is going to win. Any other given night? Venezuela would have won that night at Miss Universe. Any other given night? If one judge had had indigestion, eggshell light, number five was off on my left side, some other girl would have won. And that would have been a different lifestyle for me. But so, you know, I got the opportunity. I won. I took it. If you don't win, you got scholarships. You got some opportunity. You were able to grow. Move on. The shiny thing lasts a year. But the education lasts forever. And the memories and the growth. Exactly. Right. You know, getting back to that one slide where you finally saw your name in print. Yeah. Brooklyn, you know, Miss Hawaii or Miss USA. How did that really feel when you saw your name in print and it was now being reality? Yeah. I honestly, those were being sent to my house. What happens when you win? Like you win Miss USA, like you say in Shreveport, Louisiana. You're whisked away. Like you don't ever go back home for like months later. Right.  So I was on the run. I didn't really like get to register thing. I just was like, this is my job now. Right. So I have to meet all these people. Live with a strange lady in an apartment in LA. You know, I just keep going. And so I didn't really register those things until much later. I was proud that I got with Shaka.  Like that to me was like, yes. Yes. Well that was our signature, right? Yeah. And they told me at Miss Universe, when I went to Miami as Miss USA, they were like, okay, CBS sponsors, I mean CBS censors are saying, if you get that far, do not flash the Shaka sign, because a lot of people think it's the sign of the devil. And I was like, you got to be joking. They're like, we're just warning you. We got a lot of mail after Miss USA. Just if you get that far, just tamp her down on the Shaka. But as soon as I want it, I was like, what's up? What's up? What's up? What's up? What's up? What's up? It's just part of your DNA. Get over it. Right. And so now let's go back now to the Miss Universe stage. Yes. And they're crowning you and they're going to ask you that one glorious question. No, this is a loaded question. Oh yeah. So sharing with the audience. So here's the backstory on that. So this is a two-part series. So Miss USA, at Miss USA pageant, similar questions were asked. Alicia Machado, who is the current Miss Universe from Venezuela. Let me back up. Trump bought the pageant as I was going to Shreveport, Louisiana. So he bought the pageant. He was now our boss. Right. He didn't like that she had been gaining a bunch of weight. So he started like putting her on treadmills on CNN and then calling her mass universe or Miss Piggy or whatever. Like just degrading stuff.   Like she's not here. That's rude. Whatever. So I answered that question. I said, you're Miss Universe.   Whatever. You're Miss Universe.  So I won Miss USA. And then I went to Universe. They continued to like harp her no matter what. They couldn't even let her go out. Right. So there was a 1-800 number. You had to call in. Should the new Miss Universe be held to a weight clause in her contract? Like it was like a whole thing. They couldn't even let her have her moment. So when it got to the end and I made it that far and they were like, if you had no rules in your life, what would you do? Like I had to take the shot. Right. Because I was like, I'll miss USA. I already want a car. I already want a boat. I don't need to win Universe. But I certainly need to make a statement. Right. So that's why I said I'd eat everything twice. And what did you say? I said I would eat everything in the world. You do not understand. I would eat everything twice. And if I could drop the mic, I would have. And then I walked stage left. Wow. I did not think I was going to win. I had too much of the imagination. Girl, but that's ironically. Ironically. I did not think I was going to win. Ironically. That was part of why you... That was like, I was just like, you know what? Because you had a voice, girl. You had a voice. I was just tired of them like harping on this girl's weight for all of these. It was like, okay, you did it once. That's fine. You tried to get your PR off it. Great. She's giving up her title. Like just let her go in peace, you know? Like send her with Aloha and go. Nope. Even on the way out. You got to be like, should the new Miss Universe be able to... I was like, if I get to the top three and there was even a chance to be able to work it into the sentence, I am taking my shot. Take your shot. And that you did. So now you've won. The crown is on your hand. Now you're the Miss Universe. 1997. Yes. So, you know, I work with a lot of girls. And when they come to me, I always ask them, do you know what you're getting into?  I just won the scholarship and then they win the title and then they win. And then did you realize what you were getting yourself into when you went that far? No. I had no idea. But see, here's the thing. USA is really where everything happened. Because universe, you just extend your tour duty for three more months. You're the same girl.  But you work for the same office. You live in the same apartments, one above the other. So I knew what it was like because I was Miss USA and I was either going to get myself a new roommate or someone to hang out with or I was going to become that girl. So universe was kind of like, it was just a continuation. USA, when I won, that was kind of like I never even thought in my wildest dreams that was going to happen. And then when it did and then the whole staff comes at you and you've got like car services and you don't ever know where a vacuum is. Like you've got people doing stuff for you. Vacuum? I never put gas in a car for a year. I didn't drive for a year. I mean, it was bizarre. It was bizarre at last, for sure.  And so now we've dealt into the life of Miss Hawaii, Miss USA, Miss Universe. And now I'm sure a lot of the girls out there are raring to go knowing that there is more than just a crown, but there's a massive responsibility until death do you part, I should say. That's a fine print. Nobody ever tells you about that part. And I tell the girls all the time. But right now, we're going to have to take a one minute break. And when we get back, we'll learn more about what is Brooke up to today. We'll see you right back. Hello. Hey, Aloha. My name is Andrew Lanning. I'm the host of Security Matters Hawaii airing every Wednesday here on Think Tech Hawaii, live from the studios. I'll bring you guests. I'll bring you information about the things in security that matter to keeping you safe, your co-workers safe, your family safe, to keep our community safe. We want to teach you about those things in our industry that may be a little outside of your experience. So please join me because Security Matters. Aloha. Aloha. This is Winston Welch. I am your host of Out and About where every other week, Mondays at 3, we explore a variety of topics in our city, state, nation, and world, and events, organizations, the people that fuel them. It's a really interesting show. We welcome you to tune in and we welcome your suggestions for shows. You got a lot of them out there. And we have an awesome studio here where we can get your ideas out as well. So I look forward to you tuning in every other week where we've got some great guests and great topics. You're going to learn a lot. You're going to come away inspired like I do. So I'll see you every other week here at 3 o'clock on Monday afternoon. Aloha. Aloha and welcome back to Think Tech Hawaii in downtown Honolulu, where we are very privileged to have the honor of Miss Universe, 1997, Brooklyn. In the first half of the show, we discussed her journey from being a Palisades, a city Palisades girl, winning the title of Miss Hawaii, USA, 1997, to Miss USA, 1997, and then on to being Miss Universe, 1997. Let's fast forward the clock a few years. So Brooke, after you won all those glorious titles, and then your year of reign has concluded, and then you find yourself living in the mainland for a few years, and then you meet the man of your dreams. Sometimes he's a dream. We're 13 years in, so yeah. Sounds like a dream to me. It's definitely a reality now. 13 years and still going, so. What do you do? What does he do? Well, at the time he was working in movies in LA, we had met through Mutual for a childhood friend of his. I had done a travel challenge show. She was a producer on it, and I was the host, and so she had introduced us, and we just sort of hit it off. And we started dating, got engaged, got married in about six months, and then eloped, and then had my son within a year. Very good. Yeah. And I was very privileged to meet him, and he came to my home, and you guys worked so lovely together. I'm very happy, happy for you. Good kid.  Getting to the school that you wanted to go to, getting a title, worldwide, internationally. Even kids, kids were perseverance. Yes, and then having a man of your dreams, and then now you have two children. Three, if you count my husband. Well, I know I was introduced to Bailey and Daphne again. So shout out to them. I know they're watching Mommy. They're so proud of you, as you are so proud of them. But in that one shot, I know I can see you being the mama. I am, yes.  And so I just want to know, Brooke, how does one balance all that you have on your plate? Again, from being a title holder, not just local or international, a national, universal title, then being married, a wife, being a woman that you are, mother and career woman, how do you balance all this? I will say it was easier on the mainland because when you live in Hollywood, there's like a totem pole of fame, and there wasn't as much pressure as there is here having moved home. I was a stay-at-home mom. I had the luxury of doing that because cost of living is different there. So I stayed home with the kids. I auditioned and did shows whenever I wanted to, not necessarily all the time. But then we moved here last July. And my kids started school. And Hawaii is a whole different beast. So I started dancing hula back in Waikiki like I did when I was growing up. And then I got a show on Keihei, modern Haini, Hawaii, and that's like a train that just keeps on trucking. So I've got like three jobs, like three jobs, which is the norm here. But it's a lot for someone who spent 20 years on the mainland, you know, living a different type of lifestyle to come here and do this. It's kind of like a little bit discombobulating. So I mean, I try to balance it. There's really no other way to do it. If you don't balance, everything crashes to the ground and that's not an option. Not an option with us. You just have to keep on keeping on. Keep moving or you sink. Right. And I know family is so important to you. Yeah. So that must have had a play on wanting to move back to Hawaii as well. Yeah.  And then he passed away. And that was kind of when we made the decision that since he had fulfilled those obligations, he really didn't have as much things tying to him to LA anymore. So that maybe it was a good transition for us to move to Hawaii so that I could spend time with my aging parents and have my parents be able to see their grandkids more often and have that experience with them. So that's kind of why we sort of matriculated towards moving back to Hawaii for family. Well, and you know, in the one slide here, I can see you with your mother. Yeah. And of course, we all know everyone in the world in Hawaii world knows Tony Lee.  At every event, I bump into your mom. It's really weird because people thought she was a pageant mom because I'd want all these things.  It's just like I didn't even know she was running in pageants at first. Like I was like the last to get the memo. She really was not hands on with that stuff at all. She could have cared less. And when we were at Miss Universe and other parents are like preening their daughters into whatever, like she was like, not nowhere to be found. She was like somewhere in the back like where's your mom? Why isn't she here holding all your things? She's like, ah, she's busy. Well, your mom is surely busy and she has a whole world of her own that she looks after. She does white music all of things. Yes. She's a real Hawaiian band. She does the little week parade. Civic clubs. Kamehameha school alumni. I mean, she makes me tired. Like since I've been home, I can't keep up. I can't keep up with her. I can't keep up. Well, what a good path to follow. Yeah. You know, so you've got to keep up or you've got to sing. I know. It's like a high mark though. It's a high marked. Yeah. But it's okay. You've got that mark and you're meeting her and she's so proud of you. Yeah. I see people like those icons. You see those emojis like just the eyeballs looking sideways. I feel like people are looking at me like that when they see me with her they're like, you're next. Just passing the torch. Exactly. Pass the torch. Pass the torch. And you know, exactly what she was involved with all the Hawaiian cultural events. Yes. And so for you, the woman of the times, now you jumped into this program of yours. Yeah. Which airs, I know I've already watched two Sundays on Sundays. Sundays on Sundays. Every broadcasts like throughout the week on KHN, but it's primarily fresh episodes every Sunday, 7 p.m. on Keahi for the next year. Seven and then if you miss it at 7, it goes on at 11. Yes. So we get to see you on Sunday. Yes. And so now my Sunday ritual is church, lunch, surf, and brook. And so that's what we're going to do. And that's how we encourage all because you're going to have some amazing guests on board. I hope so. And just premiering what women of Hawaii are doing. Yes. We're talking about everything from design in your home, space saving, makeup tips, health tips. But the part I love the most is interviewing women from here and from the mainland. Because we have we've had other women who have Hawaii hearts but are not necessarily from here. But I just like talking to the women and sharing their stories and holding them up and, you know, just giving them a little bit of light because there's a lot of women that do a lot in the community that really don't get the accolades I think they should and that people should know what they're doing like you. And so, you know, these are ways that I can use some of my light to shine on other people and let other women know that this is what's out there. Girls growing up through the ranks, if you're 20 years old, you don't know what you're supposed to do with your life. You're in college, you're flailing at HPU and you turn on my show and you see this woman who's like the first president of Adventist Health Castle started off as a thoracic nurse. You're like, she can do it. And they all say it. Every woman I've spoken to who's gone, wherever they've gone in their field, they're like, I never knew I could do it. People didn't tell me I could do it. I had to go make it happen and now I'm turning around to others saying, come on up, the water's fine. And so I'm really grateful to be able to be part of that. Just like this show, Think Tech Hawaii, we are a voice, not just you and I talking story and meeting some friends at the mall or at the restaurant, but we're able to reach so many more people. And so your show is so important, just as this show is very important. So the title of my talk is Take Your Health Back. And so my journey is to just make women and the people of Hawaii more aware of how simple it is to take your health back, whether it's marital health, whether it's professional health, whatever it may be. And so when people see you, you know, 21 years ago, I believe around there you had the title of Miss Universe. Yes. So you look just the same. People say that, but you have to be a moving target. As long as you keep moving, people can't zero in.    And so what I'm trying to get at is how important is it for you with health and nutrition? You know, you have children.  Yeah, that is true. That's a thing.  But how do you emphasize that? Obviously, you're doing something right. Well, I think a lot of it is because you work a lot here, so you don't have time to eat. But I mean, the nutrition thing I haven't quite figured out yet. Like, I'm not a big eater. I'll be very honest. People who know me know that when I said I'd eat everything I'd eat it twice on stage, they knew it was a political statement because I'm not an eater. Like, I don't, like, dream about food. My husband's an eater. Like, he's dreaming about food from the minute he steps up. I'm not that person. But like with my kids now, it's really important to kind of control what's happening with them. I like to be like a hands-off mom you figured out.   Like, the dentist is like, you're like, she, you've got to say no. You can't just let her mow through walkers like all day long. Like, she's five. Make a choice, you know. So I'm working on that part. Like, I really want to talk with some nutritionists on my show. And because my son, it's interesting, since I moved here, my son's cholesterol level has been slightly elevated since we moved here. When we lived on the main line, it was not. And I think what it is, is I'm working more now. So I'm not in control of what's going on the table as much because I'm off working at night or working the day. And I don't know what he's eating. And if I'm looking at my husband, well, let me just put it this way. I don't know what he's eating. You did come to my home. Right. And we will be on your show next Sunday. And we're very excited about that. And when you came to my home, I made you and your family kale smoothies. Fresh kale smoothies. Right. And you said, if my son would drink this, we're sold. We're good. Because he doesn't usually like that stuff. But we cut the kale. We blended it up. And he drank the whole thing. And he drank it. My husband's one as well. Exactly. And he actually loved it. Yeah. My daughter. Yeah. Not so much. She's a tough one. Right. But one out of two. You got her the gummies. Right. One out of two. Not bad. Yes. And so, and he's, there's hope for him.  And when you're, when she's sharing the message, you're actually going to be receiving all that knowledge. Right. Because I think moms need help. Oh, for sure. I mean, because there's so many choices and you just don't know what to feed them. Chicken nuggets. Out of the freezer. Out of the pan. No, mom, you just say no.  Bro, it's like, oh, our time is up and I wish we could continue on.  A real woman of Hawaii is really like, not, and you know, you're going to see the growth in yourself as well as what the message was. We'll come back and say congratulations, Bro. Thank you. You were a great representative.  Thank you. We love you very much. Thank you. So from now, aloha to everyone.


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Welcome to Emerging Languages Camp, 2010. Ioki and South by Ola Bini. Okay, hello. Yeah, my name is Ola Bini. I work for a consulting school in Hogwarts, and I'm an amateur language designer and language implementer by night, basically. I had 20 minutes to introduce two different languages here, so we'll see how that goes. I'm not sure if there will be much room for questions. I'll be around, so if you have any questions, just cast me out. Most of the talk is going to be about the first language, because the second language is kind of new, like three weeks of implementation or something like that. So I'll just get started. So Ioki is a language experiment. It's a language experiment specifically to investigate expressiveness. When I say expressiveness, people ask me to define it, and that's pretty tricky. So I've kind of given up on defining expressiveness, and instead talk about this from the angle of what I feel is expressive and what I feel gives you the right tools to communicate. For me, programming languages is about communication. It's about communication with your team members, with yourself, with the compiler, with your team in five years and so on. To me, expressiveness is about how can you make it possible to communicate as clearly as possible your intentions without actually embedding anything that is not about your intentions. My view of expressiveness comes quite a lot from the Lisp family, but also from Ruby, one of the German core developers. That's kind of where I am from a language standpoint. Ioki is a dynamically typed language, just like those. It's closest to parent is IO. It's actually really similar to IO in the basic syntax and the basic runtime model. If anyone is interested in major differences, I can talk about that later. But right now, I'm basically just going to talk about a few features of Ioki. Ioki is a very small language core that allow you to add quite a lot of stuff, which I've done. So this is a long section of stuff that I'm probably not going to cover at all whatsoever. Instead, I'm going to focus in on three different things that makes it possible to write expressive programs. A big part of that is the way the core language macros work and so on. But yeah, I mean, both of this stuff is implemented in language itself and it's just there. So going back to the basics. The language is dynamic, strongly typed. It's prototype based. When I designed language, I wanted to... For me, I wanted to have the core as small and simple as possible. To me, having instances in classes, the two different concepts, it's fine, but just having instances is much simpler than having two different kinds of things. So that means that language core is kind of halved in size just because of that decision. Everything is based around message passing in the manner of small talk, not in a manner of actor-based languages. It's also a very mutable language. It embraces mutability. Everything is mutable. Since it's a language experiment, I could get away with not doing anything about concurrency, for example. So you can't actually do anything when it comes to concurrency. That's not really what I wanted to explore. Which means that you can do totally unsafe things all over the place and there are no real problems with doing that because you can't share to a different thread anyway. So the JVM is the home of this language because I didn't want to write all the other stuff. I wanted to focus on the language, the language semantics themselves. And the garbage collector in the just-in-time-for-power-off Java just makes it very simple for me to do that. It turns out that it was really simple to port to the CLR. So the language also runs on the CLR. Actually, it runs on a Mono2. That was maybe two weeks of work because I have a fairly extensive test suite of the language. So I could just basically run the tests until the test passed and I knew that I had a working watch of the language. There are quite a few different features of the language that I like. One of my favorites is the condition system. The condition system is basically a protocol for reasoning about errors and problems that can happen during your program run. It's kind of high-level comparison to exceptions. You can implement the condition system using exceptions. I like it quite a lot because it makes it easier for people to talk about protocols. What should someone do when something goes wrong? How can I fix this? Can I do something about this? And if so, I want to specify a protocol for how people can actually fix this. Because in general, the exception system is something like Java. You throw an exception when something goes wrong and then the user of that library can catch that exception. But at that point, it's really too late to do anything about it. So what you do is you just put the whole thing to a log file and forget about it, because there's really not that much you can do about it. The condition system allowed the library authors to say, okay, this can go wrong here. I'm going to signal a condition, but I'm also going to give you three different ways of getting back from this condition and actually continue execution from that point on. And then you can choose. As the library user, you can choose, do I want to unwind the stack to this point or do I want to continue execution by fixing this problem this way? That's something I like a lot. It's got runtime macros. Those are not like Lisp macros. Lisp macros are load time or compile time. These are runtime macros. It's kind of an in-between between call by name and regular macros, because you actually get access to the messages that are sent in, so you can modify, transform them, and execute them and stuff like that. IOKA has more syntax than Lisp, but less syntax than most other languages. It's also part of the whole of making languages accessible and core small and simple. So this is a small example of the sugar syntax, because I wanted to have the core syntax be as small as possible. Operator precedents and things like that is actually something that I add on top of a canonical syntax. So this is a sugar syntax that kind of shows some of the examples. I got some math here using regular precedents, and I created a new list of stuff. I assigned something into that stuff. This looks very much like Ruby style. It's almost exactly like Ruby, actually. This one creates a new method and adds stats to add on a slot on text, and then you can call that method. So you can change everything. Everything is open. If you desugar that, you will see that the syntax is quite similar, but there are things here that are changed. So the canonical syntax, equal sign, is a method call. The same thing is true here. You can desugar enough the operators, equal sign down here. So square brackets is also a method call, and square brackets sign them and so on. So it takes the idea of assignment into places just like common list. Quite seriously, which means that you can do things like this, where you do an assignment into a place that is specified by the first argument. Yes, actually, I had that on my slides. Anyway. There is also an internal syntax that you generally don't see. The canonical syntax you will see, but the internal syntax you will not see and the reason it's ugly is specifically because literals is also a model that's message sending, which means that you can override it and do stuff like that. That's pretty horrible from a performance standpoint, but it'll allow you to do some pretty expressive things when you want to do DSLs, for example. Okay. So that's kind of the basic syntax. I have a typical example where I use the features of the macro system to kind of fold code into something that expresses the pieces that are necessary, but not the pieces that are not necessary. This is something that actually happened with the implementation itself of Ioki going from the first release to the second release. So I want to show you an innumerable method called find. The behavior find takes, comes in three different forms. One form where you don't have any arguments at all, one form where you have one argument that is a message send, one form where you have two arguments, where the first argument is the name of the argument and the second one is kind of a place that uses that name to do something. All of these kind of do the same thing. They find something that is where the thing in the argument list retires true and then retires the original value. So here 42 is the first true value, we'd have done that. Here we find the first square, the first doubled value in the list from 1 to 100, average on that value, which is 44. Here we apply a regular expression to each string and return the string, the first string that matches. And finally here we return the first cube that is larger than 100, which is 5. So this is find. Sum is a very similar method. The only difference in sum instead of find is that sum will actually return the result of the execution on the right-hand side instead of the original value. So here, when you do a regular expression match, the first regular expression match that matches will return a regular expression match, but the other ones will return nil, because that's how regular expression match works in IOC and Ruby also, if that matter. So the same thing is true with indexing into a string. If you index out of the bounds, it will return nil, otherwise it will return the numeric character of the place where it indexed. So this one will only work for full bar, which means that it will return the a lower case. So these methods are extremely similar. They all take the three different arguments. There are about 25 methods like this in the core of enumerable that all do almost exactly the same thing. Or rather, they do the same thing three different times, but they're almost the same. Now, the initial implementation of find, this is not the one you will find in the core, by the way, because I've removed everything in IOC that has a documentation string. So you associate documentation with everything in the system. I've removed that because that makes the code examples quite a bit longer, but everything else is exactly like it was in the first release of IOC. And what you can see here is that we get the arguments, we check the length, and then we go through using each, and then if cell n is true, then we return it. If length is one, we evaluate the code on the current ground, which is kind of a flexible context outside of the call, and then we return the n value if that is true. And finally, if we get two arguments, we get the block using the x name or the argument name, and then we evaluate that block and return n if it's true. Now, the other implementation is some. And if you look really carefully, you will see the difference now. Did anyone see it? It's very small. It's kind of spread, it's here, and it's here, and it's here, and the difference is that we return, in this case, we return the same. In this case, we return the evaluated value and the same thing here. We return the result of evaluating the block. So this code is almost the same thing, but there's all pieces of code that kind of change inside of it. The new implementation in IOK, the one that ships right now, excluding documentation string, looks like this. It's using a macro called innumerable default method. It takes three arguments. The first argument is what to do before iteration. The second argument is to what to do on each iteration. And the third argument is to what to actually do after iteration if nothing returns inside of here. So we return nil if we can't find anything, return false if we can't find anything. Otherwise, x is the value of the transformation and is the value before transformation in this case. So here we can see that the difference between fine is that we return n, the value before transformation in this case, but we return the value of the transformation here. And that's the whole difference. And these three things are the only pieces that you need to kind of parameterize most of the innumerable methods to do something. And notice that you couldn't really, in a good way, use lexical blocks or a closure or something like that because we actually want to return from the enclosing thing the generated method. So what this looks like in implementation is like this. This is mostly a common-wisp style code template except that it's not common-wisp because it's actually object-oriented. And you can see here that we have something called a desyntax. Desyntax just takes several arguments and destructures them. And returns a new template, which is in this case a demacro. You can see that this is almost exactly like the implementation originally a fine as-up except that we have these places where we insert the repetition code, we insert the return code and the init code. Same thing here. Init code, repetition code, return code. Init code, repetition code, return code. And this implementation is used in about 25 different innumerable methods. And I've been keeping adding to the innumerable methods and the benefit of this is it's really easy to add new stuff if I want to. On the other hand, the whole cell x, cell n thing is not a very good plot on the API, which is why I'm not showing this that obviously, but this is a latch bound macro. So it's only available for the implementation of the innumerable methods. It's kind of like an implementation detail. Okay. My final example in IOK is of course a combinator library. This is example usage. It looks kind of like BNF. This is executable code that will return a parser. And the way it's doing that is first taking kind of the, all of this, it takes as code, it transforms it into this, where it gets the precedence right and so on. And finally, when it's done that, it uses the fact that you can override literal creation inside of a specific context, obu.org of it to take any literal that you find like this and just return a parser for that literal instead of the literal itself. Same thing is true here.  The prime method will just return a parser parser that delegates parsing to the parser specified by the name letter here, for example. So this is what a parser context would find. In total, create text is the method that is used to create a new text element from a literal. So we get a raw argument, create a new text parser, set the text to be the super call so we actually get the real literal and we do the same thing with number. The hand down here is the implementation of the prime symbol that takes a name and then returns a new parser parser with the name of that name. And then you can combine these in a purely obituary way. So this is just an implementation of the dot dot method, returns a new range parser, returns a new raw parser and so on. And these are available in the sub-context because these go-ups are all obituary. Okay, so that was exactly 15 minutes, which I'm pretty impressed by myself. I didn't actually expect that to happen. So the new language I'm working on is called SEF. And you will see some code samples. Most of them don't run yet. I'm pretty close to some of them running, but most of them are at this point kind of goals instead of actual real running code. The goal with SEF is to take Ioki into the real world, and that means handling stuff like concurrency, performance and other details. Ioki is pretty slow, like 10 times slower than Ruby, maybe. Something like that. I haven't spent much time optimizing it, but it's pretty slow because that's not really what I've been interested in looking at. SEF, at this point, Ioki is about 18 months old, and at this point I felt that I'd learned enough from Ioki that I could start going away from Ioki and see what happens if I add some new things, mix around, stir and see if I can make something that really actually is useful for real programs. And it turns out that to do that I had to steal from lots of languages. I kind of have a differential feature list here that is the features that are different from Ioki. The first one, every object is immutable. The AST is immutable. In Ioki, you can change the AST that you're currently executing, which is horrible from a performance standpoint because it's really hard to do just entire population. For example, in SEF, everything, every object in the system is immutable. It's still a prototype based on Victorian system, but everything is immutable. But local variables are not immutable. They are mutable, so you kind of have the escape hatch of having local variables. And lexical poachers in a way that can mutate the original lexical scope. So you have a big gaping hole of mutability that you can use if you want to, but hopefully the other things that I steal from other languages will allow you to not do that. So, lightweight threads in the style of Killim are going to be added, so you should be able to do things in a similar manner to the way you work with message passing in our line. That includes doing proper TCO, which will be a performance hit, but I think it's worth it for the expressiveness. I'm also stealing closures, conclusive primitives, and also, I wonder, yeah, I have it on that slide. And also, full numeric tower. I didn't mention this, but IOK doesn't actually have floats at all in the language.  I've seen so much Java code that uses floats to represent money, for example. It's horrible. Okay, I decided to do away with that, but I'm probably going back to having floats in SEF because I do want to have real numeric tower with complex numbers and so on, and actually have that be reasonably fast. So, another way of looking at this is all the stolen features and ideas from different places. Most of it, as you can see, is from closure. I steal some ideas when it comes to the module system from IOK, the numerical tower is straight from Java. Mostly everything else is from IOK, basically. So, just some code samples. Paul Graham has this example of how expressive your language is based on how small you can make an accumulator. Now, this is kind of the SEF version of the accumulator. The hash symbol creates an abstraction that is both obi-scoped and lexical-scoped. That actually works when you have a beautiful audience because it's always easy to see which reference is what. A top-level name is kind of followed by a colon symbol. There is a reason for that. In IOK, the name followed by a colon is used for keyword arguments. And the top-level, as I mentioned a little bit while, a top-level in SEF is actually it's basically a method called to something that creates a module. So, anything that uses a keyword argument should be exported. This is the lightweight threads version. Kind of the Erlang style way of doing the same thing here. So, here I create a local method. This one is only accessible through lexical-scoping. So, it's not exported from the module. Yes. Tail recursive call to itself and also start a new process and saving the pit. This is extremely similar to Erlang. Finally, tail recursive sets kind of an implementation of the ideas from Guy Steele's paper about how important TCO is for object-oriented languages. The module system I would actually have time to talk about but the basic idea is that modules are just regular SEF objects and you have to specify what you import. It's not taking the new-speak idea of having a platform object, but basically everything else is similar. Some resources and that's it.