Hello everybody welcome back to esoteric Atlanta. My name is Bryce and of course here. I am With my awesome friend Emmy who is getting quite popular your rake. He's getting pretty popular, isn't it? Yeah, well, I don't I don't I don't want to be popular. I want to be helpful. So if it's helpful You're both you're I've gotten so many and I'm actually gonna pull up Her her page for you guys if you have not subscribed to Emmy yet for her actual YouTube channel But I have so many people have messaged me Emmy to let me know like how much you've helped them and You're healing modality of rakey and so I just wanted to give you that shout out But if you guys want to subscribe to any Emmy on YouTube, it's holistic genie with Emmy As you can see she's not quite a few episodes with Stephanie and myself and she's got all sorts of different Videos that especially if you're on this journey of healing yourself and going doing the inner work Which is the most important thing you can be doing right now and in fact in all time space continuum It's constantly working on yourself because that's what's going to change everything is if you fix yourself And so her platform is a great place to go if you're looking for that kind of those kind of aids and those tools And those tips to to help you on your journey of self-help. So I will also be putting obviously When this video is up on my channel I will be putting down the links to Emmy's YouTube page and I will be putting her email up for you guys who are interested in potentially having some rakey treatments Done it from Emmy and again as I've said to you Emmy.  It doesn't mean that your own work stops In fact, that's when your own work becomes even more important to work on yourself And that's kind of what we're going to talk about because you've been doing traditional yoga Yes, yes, I've been sore for two and a half weeks straight. I Told you before we started filming I say this to my students all the time with every course I teach which where I'm on pause now with my courses because of YouTube So I'll let you guys know when I finally available to teach a course again, but I always tell them like I have been sore I Kid you know, I've been sore for 15 years I've never not sore and like this morning I've really sore in my left like pectoral muscle and I don't know why but I'm really sore here this morning And our thighs get sore a lot and that is something I feel like as Westerners were We're kind of afraid to get uncomfortable hmm, but being uncomfortable is where the magic happens and so We we zoomed privately a few like how long I go to we zoom privately to talk about Ashtanga and some It's about a week ago Yeah, about a week ago and I I at that time I hadn't been doing any back bends So I tried I tried going down the wall and I was actually able to go down a lot farther than what I had anticipated that I could go and I think that that is because Lately, especially the last two three months. I've really been working on my hips and hip openers because you know through my trauma work I've been doing trauma work for about five years and and Going through and reading books and learning the exercises and how yoga ties in and the vagus nerve and everything that has to do with trauma your hips and your pelvis hold a lot of trauma and When you do hip openers you find just how tight You are and my hip flexors were Mess an absolute mess and it makes sense to me now because every time that I would throughout my life Go for a run or a walk or do any kind of other aerobic activity I would always get so incredibly sore especially in my my right side and it's interesting because now that I know about The masculine and feminine sides of the body. I'm able to identify Literally almost all of my problems are on my masculine side And so now I'm beginning to like make the connection there and it's like this is really interesting So I'm I want to pick your brain about masculine and feminine Energies and how that plays into yoga and injuries and different things that have plagued me have all been on my right side Yeah, hold on one second guys. I apologize. It is literally over a hundred degrees right now in Atlanta, Georgia And I need to go to my family hold on one second. I Hate doing this, but I was like, oh shoot my fans on y'all y'all are gonna start to see a southern girls glisten if I don't It's not cute. Yeah, this is what's super super super important and I think that Again the controllers if we're looking at what's happening at a mass global scale the controllers are not stupid and they've done a really good job of conditioning us to believe certain truths about our physical body that just strictly are not true and Soreness is a beautiful thing injuries are actually good things too like an ashtanga yoga. We say There are three teachers. There's the practice the teacher and the injury and even though We as as a teacher, I'm gonna do everything. I can to avoid that happening for my student. There's no way There's just no way that someone can have a full career of ashtanga yoga practicing every day without Hitting an injury at some point in there in their life and this is very Karmic because if you're looking at the postures of yoga the posture is not hurting you You're hurting yourself in the posture and what I mean by that is the body Our body is a living breathing organism that is an expression of our soul Now your soul and its finite Existence the ottoman the Brahman at the ottoman the deeper level of soul is perfect love unconditional love perfect energy However, the body is an expression of that soul to learn that about itself It's like the eye trying to see itself So the body becomes the Shakti or the the soul is the Shiva the body is the Shakti It's the expression of the soul. So when we look at it that way, we look at the soul as a living breathing Information highway of how we are as a as a person We hold all of our karma in our body and again, I'm gonna say this guy's karma is neither good nor bad It's just action and reaction. It's just cause and effect. It's your work It's your work. That's all it is. So it's not something to be afraid of it's just your work And I know that you guys we've talked a lot about the chakra system, which I know Emmys is very familiar with as a Reiki practitioner But just for people who are very new to this idea of the chakra system You can see how we have and we actually have about a hundred forty chakras in our body But we really only focus on seven of them that run up the spine because these are like the main vital like a vital organs will call them vital chakras that kind of extend out everywhere and Each one of these these energy points and I'm just going to clarify these are not Things that you can see in an x-ray or an MRI at least not in third density planets Maybe in fourth density will see them but not now They're only energetic points. All right If you go to your doctor and tell them that you think your chakras are broken They're probably going to send you to a psych ward. Okay, so this is definitely entered You go to people like Emmy for that not to your medical doctors And when you start to study the chakras we see how each one is connected to Not just necessarily one idea, but a plethora of different emotions like Molledara Which is the root chakra is your right to be here on this earth your right to exist And of course that gets even deeper deeper deeper and a lot of people have a very wounded root chakra And of course if the first chakra is wounded It's going to cause a domino effect for all of them to be out of place. All right, but I don't want anybody to feel like Discouraged by that. That's just part of being human. You're not going to be human and have perfectly balanced chakras That's just part of being as as Emmy says being in this master class called earth right called humane So when we start to understand how our our energetic or how our physical body responds to the energetic body We start to understand why certain things are happening in our physical body For example, a lot of times people will carry weight Where they're wounded right so people are really overweight in the lower belly area There's some wounds in the first second third chakra. It's the same thing with being underweight too You know a very basic basic basic level when the heart is broken when you had a lot of heart ache in your life You do this People do this It's the body closing in around that energy cycle Those are just basic examples because the details and the complexity of this can get very interesting But when we move so when we move our body and I believe the actual principle of yoga Any exercise you can incorporate the mind the yoga to divert in a row to have a mind practices But with the actual yoga asanas, we are going to be looking at patterning in the body Patterning in the body that's going to create different That is not enough strong a yoga pose. Neither is that Different by by use. All right, so different by use are different paths So if you look at for example, let's let's look at primary series of our stronger yoga We are six different series primary series yoga to keep so that which is what Emmy started with this takes about up to five years to learn Let's look at downward dog. For example now in A strong yoga or traditional yoga We bring the hands and the fans you can see her hands and her feet are a lot closer than you and maybe would see in a Contemporary class that is for a particular reason That's to get the serratus anterior muscle to start to activate and also get mullabunda and see how our belly is very sucked in That's getting her uriana bunda to activate. Well here in this posture of downward facing dog This is a variation of a handstand So with that being said when you're when you're in downward dog, you're not a this is not a resting posture This is not a posture You're just hanging out and you're actively pressing into the tips of your fingers into the palms of your hand So you activate a certain type of a chain reaction through the arm That is it coming in through the ribs into the bundas out through the heels of the feet And so there's all these pathways that are starting to open Well, what happens in the energetic body is if there is like a If there is damage in the hips, which is coming from the first to second chakra if there's some damage There's some trauma there.  And so you're gonna feel that tension So you're you're now starting to open these areas That where there is tension and so what happens is when you start to open those areas All those emotions start to come up to the surface because they have to be dealt with does that make sense? And so anyway, we'll go ahead. So so tell me how has the hip opener affected you when we talk about back then So what what kind of sensations? Are you feeling now any? well when I do a lot of hip work and I just want to say that Don't let starting yoga intimidate you like it has taken me years to get where I am and I'm nowhere near any Where near Bryce? You're you're exactly where you're supposed to be you're you're you're There is I have a friend her name's Holly and she has the same and it goes I am My gosh now it's escaping me darn it I'm always in the right place at the right time with the right people doing and saying the right things. I Love that wherever you are. I'm always in the right place at the right time with the right people doing and saying the right things So wherever you're at When I started my health journey, I weighed 270 pounds I've lost I've lost a hundred pounds and I've kept it off for three years, but I had to I Had to join a recovery program because I just could not Food addiction was my downfall. I I stayed away from alcohol Drugs, you know, I knew that addiction ran on both sides of my family and I wanted to stay away from it but I wasn't able to escape it food was my was my go-to and So I started my health journey about five years ago and I just wanted to let people know that I'm nowhere near the finish line.  I lose my balance all the time and To get back to Bryce's question with the hip openers Expect a lot of emotion. I had anxiety for the whole rest of the day Sometimes a couple days after doing a real deep hip session and The first few times that this was happening and I didn't know that that's what was happening I I thought it was crazy. Like I think so many people walking around with anxiety and depression and It goes away and comes back and goes away and comes back They think that they have an imbalance in their brain and really what is happening is that we just don't understand energy and how it works And how to allow it and how to process it when it comes up so now when I do hip openers, I expect to Have anxiety and and cry like there are stains on my yoga mat from Having an emotional release. It'll just come up and I'll just start bawling for I have no idea why you know And it could be that the trauma I'm releasing is from a pre-verbal or pre-conscious memory Phase in my life like perhaps in the womb when I was you know when my mom was pregnant with me or Like I said in the pre-verbal phase of our life if we experience any kind of trauma and we're not able to Conceptualize that or remember it or bring it to the forefront of our minds There's no way that you're going to be able to process through that with talk therapy Yeah, it's not it's it's in a part of your brain and in a part of your body that is inaccessible through verbal communication and Things like yoga and reiki and other healing modalities will get to the root of that and bring that stuff up So it's really important to to know that Emotions are going to be tied in that like yoga. It just isn't just an exercise routine No, not just forgetting into shape with which so many people I know who practice yoga Don't really practice yoga. They just know for stretching or for an exercise routine Proper yoga proper yoga practice you're gonna get a killer body. You're gonna have a really nice body I mean you go to the room and where I practice the mice or room in India where I practice and it's a room full of muscle It's a room full of people with six packs That's just the natural cause and effect of exercise But if you're not doing the work presented to you emotionally, then it's just gymnastics And I wanted to say something and when you're talking about start now so the first sutra of the yoga sutras Basically says one now the exposition of yoga is being made which is the translation from Sanskrit Which basically means now now we're starting yoga and you can read this when you first read the yoga sutras I think okay now I'm a beginner. I'm this is where I'm gonna start But no no no what Patanjali means in this first suit sutras every single day when I step on my yoga mat Now the practice of yoga is being made now. I start again now I start again. So every day for the last 15 years six days a week every day I step on my mat now the practice of yoga is now is a new day I'm and now I'm starting my yoga again because all we have is the present moment And I wanted to show you guys because I know there's a lot of intimidation when it comes to Going to yoga classes sometimes and I was just we were just talking off camera now The thing about it is I'm gonna make this very clear too when you see advertisements on Instagram which we can I mean you'll see some on my page as Yoga teachers who run a shala We have to market to get people into our businesses And so when you see these these demos of these postures usually teachers are only gonna put up pictures of Postures that they execute really well Instead of the ones that they don't but I guarantee you everybody has their weakness now in traditional yoga We practice I said the mice or in what we call my sore and this is basically what my sore is I'm gonna show this little this is this is that's my teacher. This is where I practice in India So this is so you notice nobody's there's no leader in the class, right? That's people waiting outside to be called in to take practice So I'm gonna explain this a little bit because Western yoga has taken a completely different Road it completely left traditional yoga what what we see in the Western world is just not at all what you see in India and How and the way they teach it in India is how we we teach it in traditional shalas here in America where we teach it my sore style Which this is a my sore class So in traditional yoga just you guys understand all these postures and awesome are posture means awesome It means posture which means a deeper definition is a seat for meditation All right, so it so you see this where she's catching here Which we you eventually do not on your first day, but eventually you learn how to catch when you open enough to catch It's not comfortable. It's not a comfortable place to be to be catching your so you have to find the meditation while in these Uncomfortable postures in fact the whole point of yoga This might rattle some feathers, but the whole point of yoga is to get uncomfortable If you're doing postures that are comfortable, you're not doing yoga. You're doing something else Right and Embracing it and I tell you what when I when I joined my recovery program I started telling myself just get comfortable with being uncomfortable Because everything you want is just outside your comfort zone, right everything and so I I completely look at my yoga practice differently now and I Embrace the discomfort and It's so liberating in a way and it's such a good teacher It pain is such a good teacher. Oh, well, that's what I mean I'll say so this posture right now is an old video This is the first posture of second series which is called Pashasana and you're on you're on your feet You have to wrap your arms all the way around your legs as you see and we made this video to demo the adjustment in Pashasana But this is literally one of my least favorite postures of all time but it is the posture that has probably done the most healing for me in my practice and Sometimes in a strong yoga a traditional yoga we have these adjustments that we call them crank So I'm getting cranked here. They're not in a traditional yoga class. The teacher doesn't come around and rub your shoulders You know, I used to laugh and say that I would be a downward-facing dog And I would see my teacher walking his feet walking towards me and I'd get the jaws theme song in my head I knew something I knew it was like, you know, there was gonna be an oh shit moment because it's uh, you know And am I so when you hear the air f-bomb all the time, you know, it's moving and that and what how it's happening Though is in every person's body We have these set patterns whether from your parents whether from you and so sometimes you can't Correct your own patterning to an extent, but we all have blind spots And so we need these these forces outside of ourself which a teacher and a good teacher will be able to adjust you in a way To start to open up more pathways within your body and Pasha So for me, especially got into my ribs where my ribs were really stuck together and to unstick them and to move that Move that energy, but with a strong yoga to with the my source So what what's happening in this video where you see all these people practicing different things? They're not doing their own stuff. All right You have their six different series that come from the yoga karanta, which is a papyrus that's been passed down for generations Primary series is yoga to pizza and you have second series nerve therapy and then a through the rest of them are advanced series Okay, so When you're working the same practice over and over and over again every day So if you're doing a different practice every day, I hate to break it to you, but nothing's happening Because you're not allowing your psyche You're not allowing your energetic body to move into the alchemy of the posture every posture has a certain alchemy to it And when you just do it one day, you're just skimming the surface It's like when you take medicine you wouldn't take medicine for one day You would take it for a repeated amount of days in order for it to take effect So with the primary series now, that's what I've started any is not primary. There are advanced postures in the primary series It's only called primary series because it's yoga to pizza or physical therapy You've got to get your physical body in shape first in order to them tackle nervous system therapy in second series now it's it's designed to make you stronger if Primary series if you are overweight, you will lose a lot of weight In fact, we have a joke with people when they start practicing after a few months They drop a ton of weight. We call that stonkerexic like all of a sudden people get real skinny, you know From the demands of the practice and in traditional yoga your teacher You cannot take postures without your teacher giving them to you first So if your teacher has you going up to have a half black mark of primary series You can't take the next posture until it's given to you because your teacher is someone who's been doing this a lot longer than you and Understands the implications if a posture is given to a student before the student is ready We're not just looking to see if the student is physically ready We're looking more importantly to see if the student is emotionally ready and mentally ready For the potency of the posture to come and so that's why I like a traditional yoga We don't do teacher trainings like if I were to be involved in a yoga line teacher training as an authorized teacher I would lose my authorization. That's how serious they take that They they take that as such an offense in India this this these these 200 ytt teacher trainings According to my teachers in India. These are scams. These are all scams This is why with traditional yoga not just a strong about the other other Traditional yoga is you have to go to India.  And so so that's what you're seeing in this room is that you come into the mice or room So we practice in Brahma morta, which is the Vata time of day So I I'm up at 2 a.m. When I'm in India not here in America America I'm up at four but at 2 a.m. In India and you're in the shala practicing and you start your practice And you do your practice on yourself and the teacher walks around and works with you one-on-one Because the patterns that you hold as a student are not going to be the same patterns as the person besides you and So giving a cue to the whole class is not really going to help Then there needs to be one-on-one attention and you should have one teacher one teacher not multiple people's classes You go to one teacher Because that teacher needs to invest in you and you need to invest in that teacher the teacher needs to know what you do for a Living they need to know what you're so they understand your patterning, right? and so and so that's kind of a huge difference between Between what we see a tradition. I mean here's an ashtanga yoga. We just put our legs behind our head That's the hip opener we work with and that is something people see people putting their heads their legs behind their head And they want it. It's a kappadis your shots into that's this posture right here is a kappadis your shots And it's the second series and everyone wants to but they they think it looks so beautiful They want to be able to put their their leg behind their head I don't know if they want to make it their match.com profile picture I don't know but they want to get that leg behind their head but But the minute you start putting your leg behind your head you talk about some shit coming up It is all the sudden these cuz that's a deep hip opener deep deep deep deep deep deep So the minute you start to put that leg behind the head all the sudden All the sudden not only is your body having to change Musculature to hold the leg back takes a lot of core strength to hold the leg back or else you're like this But all the sudden these emotions start to ride up and into your your awareness And you're right Emmy because I was saying this to somebody else. So So for example when a baby is conceived When the sperm hits the egg Wherever will use sperm as an example because I know men create sperm and women are born with their eggs But but a sperm hits that egg whatever vibrational frequency of the man at that time of conception that vibrational frequency is now given to the child Right and so we're born carrying Vibrational frequencies from our parents from the time of our conception now at this point though once that Sperm hits that egg and it becomes an autonomous human That is now that humans that child's responsibility to correct that karma. It's not the father's responsibility more It's the child at that point and we but but you're right You can't have any memories associated to where that came from you just have to work through the vibrational energy That is given to you so stuff is absolutely fascinating and With backbending you were talking about backbending to think about backbends and I've told this to my students before and all seriousness and all seriousness I When I have a student that comes into my shawl a new student and they're hypermobile That freaks me out I would rather have a student who is super tight and super strong Because hypermobility even though they seem to be kind of loosey-goosey and their muscles all are their Doys are all buttery. There is usually more issues there Than actually the person who is super tight And I was talking to this it with you and me about the strength portion of yoga because that's something that's super even though We have these crazy postures in a strong yoga or we're putting our legs behind our head We're doing boards and back hand springs. We're catching our ankles all that kind of stuff Even though we have that that's only coming through strength That's only coming through being able to hold so this is pinch my rosin up from second series That's only coming through strength Right to be able to hold that energy and to be able to move the energy through the body Have you expi?  So have you experienced that difference? In this practice versus what you're doing before Okay, so the soreness is not It's not debilitating or it doesn't interfere with my daily life like for example, I have done some crazy Workouts and injured my knees and my hips as a result like for example, um insanity I don't know if you've ever heard of the workout Um program called insanity Yeah, I have I was really overweight and I I was doing that and ended up hurting my knees and my hips because of all the jumping around and moving around and the soreness that you get from Over-exerting your muscles like that and and then you can like barely walk around the next day Is is completely different than the soreness I have from my yoga. It's like Yeah, who I explain this um like I said, it doesn't interfere with my daily life like maybe um Maybe like when I bend down and pick things up or bend over and pick things up. I definitely feel in my Um backside and down the backs of my legs from doing my downward dog properly now Um, you know, I'll feel that I'd be like oof, you know, it's it's it's just it's sore, but it's like It's a good sore. It's a good sore. It it it doesn't feel bad at all um, it feels good like Bryce was saying and it it I even just doing this two weeks and making the changes that I've done for two and a half weeks I feel much stronger.  He's like, yeah, I noticed a huge difference. I'm like, oh There is nothing that's going to get you stronger than having to lift your own body weight over and over and over and over again I feel I know I'm skinnier. I'm I'm more bought to in my body. I'm more lanky as my friend our friend Stephanie says I'm lanky. Um, but I feel like I'm pretty strong because even at my Skinny-ness in my sore. I'm able to drop back and stand up 200 pound men just fine You know, so that's from my own practice that I've developed that strength because you are on a very physical level You are lifting your own body weight And I'm trying to find a good back bending picture here so we can talk about back bending because back bending Is definitely a posture that people will there's many different back bends It's definitely something that people will avoid Doing is a back bank because back bends can be so freaking triggering for people and me too. I mean I I literally I actually think I have the picture somewhere from years ago I actually there's a deep back bend in second series. Let me just keep having a hard time following Finding it. It's called capo toss it up It's a deep deep back bend in second series. I'm going to share a screen I'll have to look for my pictures of it, but I actually punched a teacher coming out of capo toss it once So this is capo toss it up And so in order to be in this like horseshoe type of pose So you're coming into this from your knees So you're standing up on your knees and you reach back and you catch your Your your ankles so that means your legs have to be strong Your hip flexors have to be mobile and your stomach has to be open This is capo toss and a b so you do this five breaths and then you push up to capo toss and a b for five breaths Which I enjoy this a lot better than this Now for me when I first started doing caught so doing this every single day So this is why we do postures every day when I was giving capo toss it up And I smacked a teacher pulled me into it. I came out like smack the teacher coming out of it And he laughed and pulled me back into it again. So But uh, you know as no harm no foul, but um, but what's happening With back bending is people get so stressed out about the idea of bending your back Now the first thing we have to look at is even just in our biological body alone We have more nerve endings on the front of our body than we do on the back of our body That is because it's some at some point when our ancestors were were warring each other And you know spears were flying across to different tribes We had to instinctively know to cover our vital organs And so this already just a natural vulnerability when it comes to opening up your your torso Now with that being said just knowing that Just knowing that is enough for some people to relax into it because they know where that's coming from And they know that in my sole room in a yoga room. No spear is going to come and attack them, right? And something I had you to work with you on me And this is what I tell my students too because I hate back bending back bending was it and because I hated back bending so much I feel like now i'm a really good back bend teacher because I I've had to learn There's nothing as spiritual actually I was speaking with shanti about this in our last episode with uh with stephanie about the kundalini I now get this every time I do this posture which I do every single day now. Um And I have for years now. There's this burning sensation that I feel it's not like burning burning It's good. It comes up from the base of my torso and moves up my spine And I feel it and that's the baseline of sheshumna of that kundalini But what happens in a back bend and I told you and me I'm going to see if I could show on this video I I'm having you work against the wall instead of pushing up from the floor. So a basic back bend Is something called erdva danya rasana. Let me see what let me see if I can find that for you guys So you can see erdva danya rasana So this is a basic basic back bend that you see in the at the end of most of practices, right?  That's very much western, right? And coming to your tiptoes very much western unless you're doing a tick tock So we're looking at erdva danya rasana So and it's not wheel pose guide that does not translate to wheel pose wheel pose is a pose called chakrasana Which is you flipping backwards is erdva danya rock work Erdva danya rasana our upward facing bow pose Eventually what you're looking for if you think about a bow an archer and a bow Is actually creating that curve So eventually the hands are going to catch the ankles And then eventually catch the caps and then eventually catch the thighs That's the direction you're moving and erdva.  It's just something you're building up for two for years Now you also have drop backs So eventually you will come out of that you'll stand up from that back bend and then you'll drop back stand up So this is kind of what I had you do emmy and this is what I have a lot of students do I'm not super interested in you pushing up right now because the arms and the strength of the arms The arms are just really levers in a back bend.  Sorry to get tmi, but nothing's going to Help you regulate your colon like back bending This is great. This is great um Something that happens in reiki too that um I just kind of learned As I went I think it was mentioned in one of my classes, but you just don't remember everything right.   No brice. I have a question now I Because I had so many pregnancies. I've I've had seven babies and um, none of them are twins so with my My fifth baby when I was pregnant with excuse me my sixth when I was pregnant with my sixth um The two halves of my uh rectus abdominis were separated about six inches and my fascial tissue that connected them ended up tearing So I wasn't able to um bring them back together with The exercises that they they have out there a lot of them For diastasis recti you can like wrap a sheet around you and you know do crunches that way There's other exercises as well, but I I was not able to um get my muscles back to Where they were and then with my seventh pregnancy The smooth muscle That runs so your rectus abdominis run like this and your smooth muscle underneath your abdominals runs this way Well, I ended up getting a tear When I was pregnant with my seventh in the smooth muscle And it just opened up like a mouth and I had a hernia about this big And um, I ended up having to go to a plastic surgeon To have it repaired and pay out of pocket for it because the the insurance company was only going to pay a general surgeon to put mesh in and I went to see three Surgeons to get different opinions And none of them wanted to actually fix the problem, which was reconstruct my muscles They wanted to put a piece of mesh in there And they said it would have been the biggest piece of mesh that they ever put in and that I would probably have to have it Replaced every three to five years. So my insurance company was willing to pay for a surgery every three to five years To have this mesh replaced Instead of actually fixing the problem. I'm like, no so I Yeah, we're out of pocket What would you when you when someone especially a mom because I'm sure we have tons of moms watching us if you have issues with um Diastasis recti or you or you've had surgery like I have to have repair muscles What like what do you what advice do you have like should should I be wearing because I have um An abdominal brace that I I put on when I do abdominal Exercises just so that my muscles have something to push against because I'm sort of sewn up like a corset. Yeah so So this is actually a lot more common We have a few female students. Um at ashangyo Atlanta that have these issues that have this issue from childbirth And um, I would suggest to all of the women watching right now that have had this issue You're and you know this emi your body it has the does have the ability to heal itself However, it might not heal itself at the rate that you want it to heal itself Especially if there's any type of trino for women who have had cesarean sections And I'm not knocking you if you've had cesarean sections. Sometimes those are necessary Like I my best friend growing up her mother was tiny And she got stuck in the birth canal and her brother was a cesare So there I'm not saying that that's you know that if you had to have a cesarean section You had to have a cesarean section, right? However For women who who have cesarean sections a lot of times their body doesn't get to finish the Hormonal process of delivering a baby. It's who sometimes in some yoga poses labor will be triggered again Right, this is just an example that is Very much my last one was a cesarean section. He he had his arm Up next to his head and over and he couldn't come out.  So i'm not saying that that you should not have like I want I want to make that very clear If you would have a cesarean section like that's what you had to do But be be prepared because your body might still be holding on to those hormones Because it hasn't finished the process of childbirth. And so sometimes some postures might trigger labor and if that happens We have been advised and now I've never had a child so I've never but I have had some gnarly cramps. So On a very small level very small level Um You have to just let it finish so that your body can complete the process and you might find some other healing coming from that However with what you're speaking about first of all if any woman is dealing with that I would definitely suggest that you find a mysore style class where you're not following a group In practice we're working individually with a teacher individually find a good teacher Most of them are pretty well versed in this to work with you at your own pace You have to tell the teacher about this because we're not mind readers So you need to let with anything going on like that you definitely need to tell the teacher so that they know What they're working with right just because you have an injury or something's happened And you're trying to heal it doesn't mean you have to go full full force at it Right. We have to work with what we have. We can't open up. We're trying to create controlled Demolition we're trying to create controlled healing. We're not trying to open up pandora's box And just you know get into a shit show right because the body needs to go to certain Certain pace and some aspects of your healing as you probably know from I mean some aspects of what you're going through in your healing will happen really fast Some things you're healing from are going to hold on they're going to be so stubborn And you're going to think you work through it and then something's going to happen And it's going to come up again So I would first of all find a mysore program find a teacher to work with you and understand that just because you're having these issues Doesn't mean you should avoid doing these postures. You're just going to be doing them a little bit differently for a little while That's why I'm having you work against the wall Any and not necessarily worrying about coming from the floor yet It's because I want you to focus on actually strengthening that area yourself and not because what tends to happens too I talked about the artful Dodger What tends to happen in everybody, you know water runs downhill So wherever we're the weakest If there's an issue Coming from an area and the body doesn't want to work on it So the are the psyche doesn't because the body's only doing what the psyche tells it do So the the mind doesn't want to go there subconsciously or consciously Then the body will take that energy and push it Into another area And so for you part of the reason why i'm having you work against the wall is so you're forcing yourself to slowly Like I told emmy as she's working against the wall the biggest thing I want her to work on is pushing her hips forward to extend and contract So she can start to strengthen this particular area of her body. I don't care if her arms go all the way to the floor I don't care if she just touches the wall. It doesn't go any further than that right now That's not what matters. It doesn't matter. Listen. I'm telling you guys There are a lot of flexible assholes out there For all we know Ted Bundy could have got his leg behind his head Like it's not about all that movement and that mobility is giving you is ways to create new patterns for you and giving you friction Attention to work with so with that being said if you're at the wall and all you can do is just reach back and barely touch the wall Great, that's where we start. That's still a back bit. It's still a back bit And as I tell my students all the time and it's funny I have a lot of male students There's a lot of men that practice ashtonga yoga because it's very masculine practice and they're all straight They're all and they always come in at first. They're like trying to impress me or something. I'm like, listen Listen, I've seen it all I've done it all I've been farted on I've been spit on like there's nothing if you want to impress me be a nice person Like I don't give a shit what you're practicing I really don't care what your practice looks like what I'm interested in Is figuring out what's going on and you're and you're a psyche my original teacher david greeg used to say that all the time He would have I would go up to philadelphia and practice with him He would have these 22 year old girls who were ex cheerleaders Coming in and they could do everything and he was never really that interested But he would get a 60 year old man in the room who was overweight to couldn't touch his toes Oh, he was excited because now we have something to work with Now there's some so where you feel like there's an issue like with your stomach Or if someone's feeling like oh, I've got issues with this Perfect now we have something to work with This is what makes it interesting. This is what makes this is where the juice is this is where the potency is Is where is where is that tension whereas it's like I told you guys backfitting has always been a struggle for me I smack the teacher coming out of a back bent, but that's where I knew I had I could find the golden egg Because that's where there was the most resistance Right, it is I'm going to be honest with you the way my body is the way my pattern is Forward folding is super easy for me putting my leg behind my head I could sit like that all day. That was never a challenge. But again back bending Huge challenge for me, but that's where I found the most healing and those clarity That's where I've had the most experiences within my own internal work on my mat Is through the different variations of back vents? Strengthening wasn't hard for me You know, but that might be different for someone else someone else might be really good at back bending But struggle with like behind the head. So that's where they find their juice So just because something is a struggle just because there's an obstacle doesn't mean you should run from it in fact Because there's an obstacle that should be where you are the most excited to work Because that's where you're going to find the real real juicy stuff, right? It's like ganache The the ganesha Of the hinduism. He's the remover of obstacles. People always say oh ganache is the remover of obstacles, but he's also the bringer of obstacles He also brings obstacles Because their obstacles are necessary They're necessary for growth Right and um, and so like when again, I found I went back to my instagram to use me as an example So I'm not just pulling up random people on the internet.  I've catched. So my hips are coming forward here in that posture, right? You can I don't know if you guys can see that this was an advertising picture But my hips are coming forward in this posture. They're coming forward Um, See if I get okay, you know, here's a video of my friend teaching somebody a back bend This is a one thing we do a lot with students and having them hold my friend mark up in ohio Hey mark if you're watching he rescues dogs with me in india So you see how he's walking even getting closer to try to sharpen. He's pushing him sits forward And walking his feet closer to sharpen the back bend here But his hips are going to come forward more see And then he's probably going to stand up if I can remember correctly So that's something you can do with your teacher is walk up their legs I do this with students all the time. I have them walk up my legs. This is why I shave my legs every day It's because people are often easy my legs as they're as their prop. That's his wife, by the way He's holding his wife's legs right now Um Right and so now he's learning how to stand up Right, so you can do that with students. That's a way to help them work on that Um, it's it's uh, see if I have any more stuff here So here's david gree. You know, that's my working with me. He's taking pictures for A workshop demonstration or I'm on blocks and see he's pushing my hips forward holding my knees down So that my hips push forward So that the momentum is coming from this area And let's talk about this area for a moment Because in a lot of cultures A lot of cultures this area is very taboo We've been conditioned to think that that is taboo Right, and so then we come into a yoga program and now we're told to not only work with that But actually live in that area But that lower base almost if you have any more from miami if we if we have any more If have any more of the pictures from a backbiting. So, uh, oh, here's uh, this is from second series. This is, uh A back bend that is actually a counter pose and you can kind of see here You always have to have help with this post. You have to wait for the teacher to come help you The way that the posture is going to open A soup to padrasana is going to open up the back Waiting for a teacher to come here Because the stomach. Yeah, and that release it's funny. We always laugh and say an ashtanga yoga Only people we can only hang out with other ashtanga people because we always talk about periods and we always take about talk about your colon So other people He's using my arms crossed behind my back Is a way to open the chest up and that yes, that is sweat guys. You're supposed to sweat sweat is a very important part Yeah, that's another thing. That's another thing since I've been made those changes and doing yoga Correctly or started to do yoga correctly. I am absolutely breathless and sweaty Good. That's top us. It's heat Yeah, like within minutes Yeah, oh, yeah, uh, same with me. I sweat like a 300 print Well, actually the fitter you are the more in touch with your the more your body Is is in touch with that, uh, the more you sweat Um, and I sweat like a 300 pound man with gland problems Um, and this is something I gave you to do too. I do this every morning I stretch open my hip flexors before I start my practice which is right here I push forward to get that sizzling sensation in my hip Just to start to open it Because that's where a lot of that low momentum is so your hips aren't just that joy It's also the front of your hip at the back of your hip, which is your your gluteus as well So it's that whole and that's the biggest joy you have in your body. It's kind of like that junk drawer, right?  That's one thing for women that they struggle with and guys If you are new to yoga, especially if you're a lady ladies Ladies summoned to ladies our body is a panic. We are the moon men are chronic They're the sun. What does that mean biologically? It means that our upper body is weaker than our lower body women are have really strong legs So we again have the propensity. This is what I was having you work with With with doing when women try to do chaturanga. They're not strong enough for chaturanga They do this thing with their shoulders with a roll forward. So my shoulders are in their socket right here That's a pretty strong chaturanga.  And so that that weight is running downhill It's running into the joint socket All right, and that's going to push the joint out of joints, right? Thousand times. Okay thousand one times not okay.  Dropping to your knees and chaturanga means that you are releasing your hamstrings If you release your hamstrings, you're going to start to release your core bad news bears You're not going to get stronger. What you need to do is stay in a plank position. So stay in a plank position Until you're slowly able to lower You build up that strength and what we're doing is we're looking at pro traction And retraction and I had I talked to any about this and I actually brought so I have I have one lowly block here because we don't use a lot of props in ashanga yoga Which my dog has chewed up so you can use a block or you can use a ball I have a little recess ball here and you can just hold an object sit in front of your mirror and you can look at pro traction retraction pro traction Retraction when you're retracted that means you're weak that means you're you're sinking down right when you're protracted You're protracted that means you're active. So in like downward facing dog. You should be protracted Because you're controlling that energy you should never and that's the same thing in the in the postures too So like if you're in a forward fold If you're in poshima tanasan or something in your forward folded your feet Should not just be hanging out They should be actively pressing the heel should be active because that's what's moving the energy guys Your muscles is what I was what's moving the energy. So if you passively stretch and relax into a posture Nothing's happening You got to activate. That's why sweat is important. That's why you're sweating It's because you're actively stretching you're actively taking so here. I don't know if I can Right, so if you're if you're in poshima tanasana Your your heel should be totally extended out like that because that's keeping all the muscles active up the leg If you're in this posture and you're like kind of relaxed like that Like nothing's happening, right? That's also going to probably bring you to a place of injury as well You're you're less likely to injure yourself when you're actively in that posture, right? So um, that's another thing but again, but most importantly, that's what's moving energy yes Yeah, the the the muscle activation especially with downward dog downward dog is probably one of my favorite poses and when I See the funny thing is brace gave me those exercises with the protraction and retraction and my chiropractor had given me the same exercises And I just didn't put the two and two together. I just But once I started doing that with my yoga um Immediately breathless and immediately sweaty like I I was definitely Retracted in my shoulders and almost every single pose And and that's the thing a thousand you'll do that a thousand times and you won't notice anything You do it a thousand one times and you're injured and you're injured. I mean even in like other postures like this is uh Like how much not like when you're just doing a fourth fold like I'm still active here. This is in india I'm still active. My legs are still active Right. They're still activation even in maritas and indeed. They're still activation You have to be active in order to why are you gonna listen a strong yoga is super hard Why are you gonna do traditional yoga and then not activate yourself not and now do something to to make it worth it because There are other exercises you can do if you're just looking, you know to have a good body This is actually working your energetic body. This is actually Presenting things to you that need to be clean cleared out cleaned Whatever, you know, so um So yeah, you you you must be active. You must be sweaty if you're not sweating You're not moving energy Right that heat that that detoxification That boiling of the blood in order to move all the toxins out of your system That's what you're doing You know, you you should not you should your body should be changing You should see the changes in your body from your practice. You should see muscle development You should see that kind of stuff as a result of what's happening because you are actively using your body And so that is that is something that is super important super super super important I know that uh emmy has has found a lot of benefit from that um Let's see here. There's something else here Yeah, so you should absolutely be sweating. Absolutely. Absolutely. Yeah, that's uh, that was when we were in england one time And that's when that's when people first started taking selfies and I tried to take a selfie and it just So um, so anyway, yeah, it's it's all about making the body As pliable and as mobile as possible for you In order to get your energy to start to move in order for you to clear out your own Karma. Oh, here's the picture. It was right after this that I smacked the teacher and the face That's Tim Feldman and I literally came out and smacked him in the face. That was so many years ago, but um But yeah, you know, you should be a little bit sore your your body should be um Have I talked to you about you guys do oil baths and uh and reiki emmy Um, no, I do I do oil baths on my on myself But it wasn't part of my the classes that I have taken for reiki So this is oil bathing. Those are those are my legs and I'm much younger many years ago. Oh, well 2015 Oh, yes, seven years ago. Um, so oil bathing is super is super Good for people who do ashtang yoga or do a lot of um work on their own bodies You you cover your body in castor oil I usually do it the night before my rest day because that you sleep really hard after you do it And you I sit for like 90 minutes with castor oil in my body But I've been doing it for a really long time if you're new to castor oil bathing I would only do it for like 10 minutes you sit with it on your body and then you wash it off And it pulls out a lot of the inflammation from the body Because you will you will still have some you know, you're you're exercising So there is still going to be some inflammation that's happening Um within your body When you're when you're doing uh any type of exercise whether it's for spirituality or just basic exercise So um, so yeah And you can see so if you incorporate something like ashtang yoga and reiki Like how much more beneficial would a reiki session be to someone if they're already doing something That's that they are moving their energy for themselves and they come to a reiki practitioner Would that be more beneficial for that that's that client? I I would think so because you're you're already um Someone in tune with your trauma and your karma and you're already working with your energy and moving it One thing that I notice with um a lot of my clients is The lower chakras are just a hot mess There are so many people who hang out up here Because there's so much trauma and toxicity in the body that your soul can't completely descend Down into your lower chakras. You're just kind of hanging out up here and it it's just I lived I know this because I lived up in my upper chakras my entire life I was constantly I'd have people telling me Thank you, honey Um, I'll have I'll have people telling me when I was growing up Earth to Emmy space cadet like I just was constantly Somewhere else Just completely somewhere else and I didn't realize that was because I had So much trauma and toxicity in my body that it was just not an environment for my spirit to enter Okay, william wants to show everybody this Piece of bark that he found at the park today and he thought it smelled really really nice He's super connected to mother earth. So he wanted he wanted to show that is awesome william. Thank you for showing us That's awesome Yeah, I've noticed that too a lot especially with people in this great Which is great that in this great awakening people are discovering spirituality But they leap up into this idea of it being so like So like in the in the sky like in the sky and true and that's why I keep saying like guys terra card reading Channeling all that kind of stuff. That's actually not spirituality. It's just channeling. We all have the Claire's with all the ability to channel It's just a communication True spirituality is getting into yourself As magdalene says it's descending into yourself. It's looking at the hue.  It's just like if you want to get through a forest If the forest is your trauma You can't get to the other side by going around the forest. You have to go through it Yeah, this way the lotus flower is is huge in the yoga world because the lotus flower grows on top of the muck in the mud It has to come through It has to come through the mud to blossom in and And you know, it's amazing the lotus flower does not get any mud on any of its petals It's completely and totally closed off as it's coming through the muck. Yeah, and it opens. Yeah I saw one the other day. It was so beautiful That's why it's used in yoga is like the symbol of yoga. It's like but that's you You're the lotus flower and you have to go through that mud But your soul is beautiful and so it's going to go through it and it's going to bloom And I struggled a lot when I first started like I had a real hard time getting down into my second and My first and second chakra I like had a real hard time because I had grown up in the deep south In this not necessarily purity culture coming through my parents because yes, the deep south south is the bible belt My parents were conservative christian, but they were more southern than anything and so a lady sat with her legs crossed You know all that pressure around women about You getting pregnant all that kind of stuff and so I realized that I had a lot of I also had some other stuff going on which we won't talk about on youtube But there was some trauma there that I had absolutely had to work through I absolutely had to get in touch with in order to Find a deeper layer of myself and since doing that I am I'm actually one of the benefits is I'm so much more confident about my own sexuality I'm so much more confident because I worked through all that trauma I work through and I'm going to show you guys this I'll put a link down in the description box below for those who are Starting to understand the chakra system eastern body western mind. This is A great book to start with Uh where she goes through every chakra the traumas the imbalances balances your chakras never shut down It's either spinning too fast or too slow depending on so much chakras are overactive and I will say too like with the with the Backbends like caputasana the deep heart opening with that particular posture I went through a period of time with where every day after every day in practice when I got to that that deep back bend Something would pop In my in my chest. Do I make this loud popping sound? And I would get in my car and I would sob after practice I would just sob and sob and sob and sob and there was nothing ever wrong There was nothing wrong with my chest and I'm again I'm feeling a little bit of pain here today But what I think was happening was something in that on a hatha that heart chakra region was healing itself It was healing itself not just for me, but for this time now on a twin flame journey. That's that had to be healed And I'm gonna show I don't have anybody home to watch him. You're totally fine. He's being so good so well, I'm gonna tell I sent you this as well To I'm just gonna show our viewers one more time another good Good thing to work on to help you work on your bunda action and pulling in in that lower area Which the bundas are just a pulling in so like if you're in practice, you should not be belly breathing Right, you should have your stomach contracted and pulled in because that's controlling that energy The breathing for your asana practice is actually just like you're breathing when you go for a run It is not ujjayi breathing guys Do stop that nonsense right now It is if your teacher tells you to ujjayi breathe in asana practice do not go back to that class All right That is not ujjayi breathing is sitting a seated pranama where it walked in it's deep breathing that's seated on the floor You actually can't ujjayi breathe. It's impossible to ujjayi breathe in asana practice So the good news is you probably aren't doing it anyway All right, it's just free breathing with sound through the nose because the mouth is stress breathing the nose is a clear breath um, and so when we have our bundas our stomach pulled in That's part of that breathing is keeping that control with the breath and something you can do to help with I know I said this to you emi is bar. I love bar classes. I'm arnie alton I think is fantastic and she does a lot of the pelvic tilts Which is what's helping control that lower belly area. You can even take a Like something they do in bar to help get into is take a ball This might be a little rude, but That's okay stick it in between your legs You can't really see anyway and squeeze the ball in between your legs Right, that's something you guys couldn't see that anyway You can stick it in between your legs and just start squeezing the ball in between your legs That's getting your inner thighs to work Which is surprisingly where we carry a lot of anger so people don't want to work the inner thighs But it's also connecting into the root of the perineum, which is Your mulla bunda That's where you're locking off that energy and so I will put a link to this down in the description box as well guys For you guys to start looking at this stuff But physical exercise if you're trying to emotionally heal yourself physical exercise, especially with yoga Is something that's that's necessary in order to continue to heal yourself. It's compulsory as my teacher in india Says and and if you're not into if yoga's not right, you're not ready for that yet Start taking walks every day. Just start doing something to get that energy moving in the body You know, it's it's necessary Yeah, another another thing that's really important about physical movement is our lymph system You know our circulatory system. We have the heart pumps the blood around we have nothing to pump our lymph And we're not taught about the lymph system Like it is so important to squeeze those lymph nodes and get it to move because if we have Stuff built up in our lymph nodes, you know, it can it can end up cancerous Yep, and it is just walking is excellent. Yoga is excellent There's another type of exercise that I did that that moves lymph but lymph moving lymph is so incredibly important And I just wanted to mention that on top of I'm glad you did I'm glad you did and I was telling somebody this the other day That's why so we do all these awesome isn't at the end of our practice. We do sure shasana We're supposed to do it for 15 minutes. I only do it for like five to 10 minutes It's a headstand and that is because What it's a lot of that has to do the lymphatic system It's draining it once you've boiled it moved it gotten it around and then you start to to drain it And so you're up and then a headstand takes strength to hold it. That's me right here With my best friend another friend in india To drain that lymphatic system now I would tell people like don't you dare Don't you dare get a chair or equipment to help you hang upside down? That's not why god gave you muscles, right? If you can't if I I'll do a video soon I was supposed to do it a few weeks ago then I got a fever and I haven't done it yet Maybe tomorrow morning. I'll fill a headstand video for you guys, but If you can't hold yourself up into a full headstand yet Don't use the wall to do a headstand because that's going to enable you It's going to call some neck issues if you're not strong enough to lift your legs up yet That's because your core it's because your core is strong Okay, so you got to get your core strong first and then your legs will come up Okay, so I I can show I can do a video on how to how to handle that if you're not strong enough But if you're not ready to go up or upside down all the way yet, you could just put your your legs up the wall For 10 minutes So when I'm all my if you're on your period, you're not going to do a headstand anyway Because it's going to float on your period So I just put my legs at the wall for 10 minutes and that's helped draining that lymphatic system because emmy is completely Right now so glad she brought that up because that is that is so important for uh for the body is to to do stuff to get the lymphatic system moving as well So and that's and then you get the that's where I got my nose pierced in india. No gloves. They just stuck it right on through My fur is right there and take a picture I love india so much. That's why I love india and uh there was if I could find the picture there was a baby Where's the baby? There was like a newborn baby in the room with me right there. She is right Right beside me Bless this child's heart. That's the first thing she saw in the world with some white girl and they're getting her nose pierced Oh my heavens Had to work through that shit at some point so So anyway, that was that yeah, so there was there was a weird picture of obama outside of the india hospital so So anyway, but uh, but yeah that that uh, that that's that's india for you But um, but yeah guys, so I'm I'm hoping and I'm so glad because emmy you text me into the urethra you're feeling such such a Filling the effects of this and I hope that's really helping people I do feel like even though I started my channel is something different from From yoga from what I do did professionally still do from time to time It has become a part of my channel now and I feel like um, you know, I've had the opportunity I obviously I don't have children. There's a lot that I haven't had the opportunity Haven't had the opportunity to do because of my going back and forth to india But because I've had the opportunity to go back and forth to india and to learn from some of the top Gurus upon gurus of india I do feel like I have a responsibility to share the information and whether someone chooses to take it or not Is up to them but the our guide people in in the right direction to find the information for themselves And I would say, you know, emmy and I are friends off-camera so I could help emmy I've been helping stephanie but for people watching I would definitely recommend first of all try to find your own teacher Someone that can actually Physically see you and touch your body and physically that sounded bad But feel your patterning in your body Um, and that could actually you can actually be accountable to and the second thing too is is with teachers too True teachers are not going to be the nicest people in the world sometimes You know a true teacher is going to call you on your shit And it's going to be tough on you when it's they're not going to read you poetry in the room and play Indian music And the reason why they're tough on you is because they know you can do it And sometimes they have to be the one to kind of put you in that position to actually show show you that you can do it You know, they're not mean they're not abusive, but they're just tough Because they they then they've done it themselves and they continue to do it themselves every day to to themselves I have my own teacher your teacher should always have a teacher as well So so So yes, I would definitely say first and foremost for everybody watching find someone to help you in your real life But also these are some I will put all the links down in the description box. I'll put a strong nurses links up I'll put marty alton's links up I'll put emmy's links up and I will put any other resources. We've talked about this episode I will put down in the description box for you guys to help you on your journey And it's a journey that never ends. So don't feel like You know, I always when I uh, when I finished everyone I first finished primary series I was like, where are the balloons? Where are the balloons? No balloons fall from the sky. You just start the second series when I finished second series I was like, where are the balloons? Nope, nope, you just start third series. So it's never ending It's and you're always going back and be learning you're always going back and be exploring You know, it's it's a yo-yo you're you're ebbing and flowing ebbing and flowing just because I have practiced primary and second series Doesn't mean that I don't practice them anymore I always go back and there's always things to learn I actually think primary series of ashana yoga is the best of all the series. It's it's the most grounding It's the most healthy in my opinion. It makes the most sense and so um So that's super super important that people understand that there is no finish line There's just no finish line And so sent you have to practice that santosha, which is inner contentment being okay with where you are and I promise you I promise you there are a lot of flexible psychopaths out there. It's not about Okay, it's not about that at all. So I've dated a few of them.  That's what's impressive to me. So Um, so yeah, so so don't even worry about that guys And if you're in a yoga studio or yoga shallow where you do feel intimidated where you do feel like there is a pressure To perform then that's not the right shallow for you Yeah, it's not a race It's not a race Nope Nope, and if you are struggling in the foundational stuff then good your karma came up early And again see those that those obstacles as something interesting That's something that you have to work with And thank god you have something to work with Yes you know There was there was one thing what there was a shift in my mindset when I was working through my trauma and I I had this feeling of dread Towards it And I read something and I don't know where it was and I don't know who wrote it But it said to look at your issues with Ah and curiosity And so I started doing that Here buddy Yeah, yes, so I just started looking at things with curiosity and with awe and It's just been so amazing the the more stuff that comes up The more I try to tie it to like today.   I mean I had some freaking horrible anxiety this morning horrible and I'm just like Okay, it's all right, and I just let it I just allowed it and and when you can take that kind of approach Working through your trauma is not scary at all Absolutely because you that's that's it's a gift. It's a gift and I will say too sometimes that that To remind people I sometimes the practice the practice isn't designed to give you the answers The practice is designed to show you where there are issues. It's up to you to do the inner work To find the answers Right, and I will give you guys an example. So when I was deep in a second series many years ago Um, the second series is nerve therapy. There's a lot of really deep obviously back in there Something sort of happened to me physically where I would start to shake uncontrollably And I didn't know what was going on And it was my teacher at the time that said what's happening to you is the same he's like go look at videos Of military men and women with PTSD They're shaking just like you are There's something going on with your you have a trauma There's something that's that this practice is triggering in your nervous system that you need to explore And the only way I could explore that deep trauma was to go into trauma therapy for and I got diagnosed with complex post-traumatic stress disorder I found a trauma therapist who is really well versed at eastern philosophy So she worked with me through past life stuff. She worked with me through the unsaid the stuff that's unsaid And then we did EMDR therapy. Oh EMDR is amazing.  Oh, yeah, I have I have experience with cp Cpt sd and the shaking I've been there from that My five girl like not a club I want anybody to know but Actually, you know, it's funny though. I always say that like going through trauma So doing my practice every day going to my trauma therapy Doing EMDR rapid eye movement, which we could talk about because that comes into the trinistana method of astana yoga as well Which we'll get into next time It it awarded me and gave me the opportunity to do so much work on myself I wouldn't be here where I am today sitting on youtube if I had not gone through that And so if you look at these issues that you have and that's the thing about trauma and anxiety Especially if some of us have Are so used to living with trauma and anxiety that we don't even know that's what that is Like I just thought everyone had nightmares every night I thought that's what I thought everyone had to lock their bedroom door at night because they sleepwalk And they had night terrors. I didn't realize that that's not what other people did Yeah, I mean I have I kid you not guys when I lived in my my place in buckhead There was one right Before I moved here. There was one warning. I woke up and I had rearranged my whole bedroom I had taken all the clothes out of my closet dump them on the floor I had moved furniture around it looked like a freaking poltergeist had been in my room But I I'm I'm good with spirits. I know what spirits are. I knew that was I had done that I knew I had done that in my sleep Wow And I just thought that people I just thought it was a funny story that people do that said I didn't realize that that was a sign that there was a trauma Because I lived with it for so long that it became normal And it wasn't until I started to address the issue and started to heal the issue That I was like, oh There's actual peace that people have that I didn't realize I didn't have And so that is another thing and I love you bringing that up like embracing these things because that's what those these are these This is your body your sweet bodies Your holy sacred bodies way of saying hey Yeah Something's wrong Hey, we need to look at this because it I need you to Pay attention right here because I I want to be I want to be living in peace with you So but let's do that. So I I'll ask the viewers right now So if we talk about the vagus nerve next time emdr cptsd All that kind of stuff if there are any other questions or things you want us to bring up in the next video regarding nerve therapy regarding Trauma just let us know down in the comment section below Yeah, yeah, awesome. Yay. Yay. We we can go for a long time girl This was so fun and just so you guys know Stephanie did not join us today because she's got something going on right now She'll be back on the channel next week. I just wanted to go ahead. She's very she's she's very well aware We're on right now. I just wanted to things get a little crazy in the youtube world sometime So I just want to put that out there. She has got something going on I know it's she'll be back next week guys. So um, so so don't worry about that But all right emmy i'm gonna let you go off and be that rock star mama that you are with your seven babies and um And i'm so proud of you emmy I I could see a glow in your face and that is one thing that this practice does is you start to see people They're the light and people's eyes start to shine even brighter When they start to Embrace this practice so and the magic of who you are as a human Thank you very much brice. I appreciate all of your help and advice. It's fun and awesome And you guys go go go contact emmy for reiki I've got like I said, I've got so many people have messaged me about how amazing you are emmy And so once again all of her contact information will be done in the description box below. It's a wonderful way reiki I I recommend reiki people all the time because it's just such an incredible way to start filtering that energy through and You know and you can be your own superhero I mean that's your that's your super powers that you have the ability to heal yourself And there are modalities out there to help you along the way. So So put that cape on Start doing to it. So all right guys Well, I hope you guys have a wonderful weekend ahead and we will talk to you all very soon. Bye guys. Bye


well hello there beautiful you're looking stunning today as always welcome back to my channel where we do things to hair that make no sense I guess they make a little bit of sense but to me they make no sense but today is another day and another video I'm filming back in the day back in my day I made a video about drip color here's a little something in that video this is kind of what happened in the video the thing was a look this would be the look oh my gosh I'm confused make it stop if you want to see the real video it's linked down below I didn't really like it and that was kind of where I left it and then I saw a bunch of acrylic pour videos that were quite mesmerizing to me I mean look at that color the color it's gorgeous so I thought why not take it one step further because this is the YouTube's so I am gonna do an acrylic pour on a head also known as drip color sort of but I'm gonna do the entire head the video that I watched a while back they just did like the top layer of the hair and it was just like not quite a look for me so I thought why not do an entire head of drip color and make it really just fun and friend and fun so because I couldn't get anybody on my channel to actually let me do drip color on them I decided to hire the help of my friend do you know who it is do you know who it is come on come on there she is this is my guest today you may have seen her in previous videos such as my most recent video which was Ariana Grande's hair transformation so she's back and she's ready for more are you ready for it no I'm sorry if you don't want your hair colored but we can't all have what we want in life you know what I mean some of us have to get drip color done and no I've never done this before will it come out bad probably but listen you're made out of plastic okay so shut up so she's my client today and is that how I treat all my clients pretty much this yellow head of hair is gonna get the most sickening drip color you've ever seen in your life and mainly because you've probably never seen it before so it has to be the sickest one because you never seen anything like it before so I'm gonna get a lot of colors I want to make this the most vibrant rainbow drip color and it's gonna be drippy and fun so if you want to see satisfying hair coloring tear for you and then let's do it let's acrylic pour but with the hair color instead of the acrylic all right let's do it bam all right I got a lot of colors here I got yellow I got vibrateel I got yellow purple I got green rose gold and I got pink oh I got multiple camera angles too cuz I'm a youtuber and I have multiple camera angles that's what you know you've made it okay I have a plastic bag that I'm gonna suffocate my mannequin with playing just playing I won't do that I'm gonna cut a whole sticker head through we don't get color everywhere I'm probably gonna anyways we got clips we gotta comb with some big teeth on one side because that's important cuz we're gonna be combing the color through we got a nice pair of gloves that don't fit me because I am alright let's turn your face around nobody wants to see that face nobody let's do this section by section starting at the bottom and working where our way up and then dripping the color down and through the ends and all around and it's gonna be very satisfying and I hope you're ready for it so separate this out comb her comb her I can't see the damn head but I'm gonna try and make a clean part for back here I'm gonna first take rose gold and just start pouring it on the hair this feels really wrong what I like it so after that first failed attempt I realized that I need to mix this color with a lot of water which is what I just did and now I think we're gonna get the real drip effect we're looking for so let's let's start tripping man this time I had success in this entire day with anything okay we have our first trip we're gonna now go in with a little bit of a teal let me get this mixed up with some water it okay ready blue time let's see what happens yeah we can mix the blue and pink together to wow I love wasting color okay let's do maybe a little bit of green over here I feel like it needs a little bit of green let's do that next all right we're going for green now I wish actually how colorist did hair because I would love my job even more because this is incredibly satisfying alright let's do green being so fun to watch as if I've never seen something drip before okay now take my comb and hopefully these colors will mix nicely and not ugly okay oh wait what oh my god that's so pretty oh my god okay so like only to the surface but it's like kind of like tie-dye okay I don't think I'm gonna be able to do the entire head like I said I was going to because like if I keep working this into the hair it's not gonna look as cool as if I just let it sit on top wait this is kind of magical do one more okay like one more like one more wait I'm so mad I did this over here oh wish I didn't get that oh I hope that place I really wasn't expecting this to be this cool what do I do now I don't even know because now I didn't color the underneath layer but I can't go back now cuz I already I'm already here but we're gonna work with it she's gonna have a little bit of blonde mixed into this like rainbow situation and maybe it'll look cool I doubt it but like maybe we're gonna keep going though I'm gonna put some surround wrap over this just so that it stays perfect like this all right let's let's add more hair and let's do another layer this time I'm not gonna mess it up like this don't call me out for it it's not the greatest we're gonna do like every two inches up these are gonna be like peek-a-boo highlight moments in between her hair of like a rainbow that just sounds like what she wants right that looks clean enough for me I hope it looks clean enough for you let's came through dripping drip drip we're gonna start off with pink okay and we're gonna go purple now okay this is a lot a little green splash over here too and then we'll finish off with a little over here please thank you I want the satisfying drip moment oh shoot oh no I'm good okay and why I put a little bit of pink over here too cuz need a little bit of like color on this side came through dripping oh perfect wow this is actually so fun like the more I say it's fun the more like you won't believe me it's actually fun but it actually is fun all right is that good give me a yeah okay let's start over here and let's do the fun part where you guys have to shoot I'm really not doing the best of this no stop this is so ugly oh I hate it oh this one's a little bit better no work and not the good kind the actual like work like why aren't you working this is so ugly I'm so mad right now what the hell who made me do this I'm so upset oh my god the first layer was so pretty and now this one's so ugly I'm so upset I mean I guess we'll see when I rinse it out like this is not like going at all according to plan I'm so sorry for what I'm doing to your head right now okay I guess I'll move on from this layer perfect hideous I love it we're gonna keep working our way up the head I guess like just no purple because I think the purple just made it look pooping and gross I think this will be the last layer until I do the top moment where you can like actually port on their scalp and just like goes down the head and it's like the satisfying part let's do blue first chippy-do-chip-chip-chip-chip-chip-pink a little bit of overlap okay I'm gonna do purple again but purple next to pink is gonna be I think it's gonna be way better than what I did last time which I don't know what that was but it was ugly so I want a truth again let's let's start coming through okay okay see it looks better still can't comb through the hair but it looks better so I'm green I hate every second of this this is actually like color torture right now it's ugly and it's not even fun to do who made me do this I blame every single one of you making me do this even though none of you suggested it okay great hideous not as bad as the last layer I think this one came out a little better and there goes the plastic you know what we're just gonna leave it down there there goes the head there goes my dignity and there goes my career because this is disgusting okay great last layer can you stop having tangles in your hair it's rude it's honestly rude okay now that my entire house is covered in color I'm ready to give the last layer a shot I'm over it I hate this this is awful please don't ever do this at home or in a slum this is so bad with that said let's keep going purple in the middle just to you know myself over and then a little green on the side just to you know myself over and then a little pink on the other side to myself over wow cool but also ugly as hell okay why don't we put a little bit more green over here and a little more pink over here and let's keep wasting color wow ugly again a little more purple over here wow ugly again okay I think that's enough waste of color on that head we're gonna comb this through it's still a little bit satisfying but still hideous who knows you guys maybe I'm being too critical right now maybe when we washed all out it's gonna be like the coolest thing ever I highly doubt it but I feel like something could happen you gotta just hope for the best sometimes but expect the worst wait this that looks kind of cool thing is this where it's gonna all come together like right on the top layer okay this is actually starting to look cool like we're on a roller coaster together right now and it's like a scary roller coaster and it's like horrifying for me um but I hope it's like sort of fun for you the more I work it through it's like kind of getting pretty except the ends are like way too purple okay okay and I think it might actually be kind of cool can we look at all these color variations going through that like didn't quite blend together in a cool way they're also very like visible like there's green there's purple there's pink all right let's wait 20 minutes Ritz is out blow dry okay I just rinsed her hair do you want to see what it looks like should we just end the video here so I can save my career I realize I got her face a little bit colored and for that I'm so sorry and why don't we just get started blow drying and see what happens it's actually not that that that bad but it could definitely be way better so let's just start blow drying and see what we get out of it okay you never know it could be kind of cool or it could be terrible like it looks now all right so disgusting okay like some of it looks kind of cool close up like this section is the best of all this is terrible the back looks disgusting the green really was nice maybe if I didn't blend it as much as I did it would have looked cooler but like it's like really ugly ignore her face let's keep that hair on top of her face got a little bit of color on it that's okay that went just as bad as I thought it would go and even the people that were doing this on Instagram or whatever the videos that I watched before doing it like it didn't look good either I mean this concept just really doesn't make a lot of sense I wasted so much color to do this ugliness like five six bottles of whole bottles of color to do this and it looks bad really really bad on my entire house is covered in color there's drips everywhere and um I'm over it man what a fail a little bit worse than I thought it was gonna be and I will never ever drip color any real person's hair ever mark my words this is horrifying nobody should ever do this to their hair it's awful no bad no bueno ever never so um I hope you guys enjoyed watching me have a mental breakdown and yeah so I'll see you for the next video don't forget to uh give this video a like if you if you enjoyed it and subscribe if you're not already and that is all ladies and gents thank you so much for watching don't forget to live your extra life I will see you all next time peace yo I need a nap