Yeah, so thanks for taking the time to come on the show today as well. I know you're super busy moving back and forth as well Oh, no, it's an honor. Thank you. When when you're splitting time between those two things Do you have to fly from Hawaii a bunch on business or do you try to set it up so that you're in the US? When you have to do all the US stuff and then when you're in Hawaii, you can actually have a life You know, you you would think that After 22 years of doing it that I would but the reality is because you know, you know This is being a self-employed freelance person that Things arise so what we do is we just base out of each place and then travel accordingly I mean, there've been times where and again, you know, it's all how you look at it So I always go well, this is an opportunity But I've gone to New York from Hawaii sort of three times in five weeks because they were spontaneous great jobs that you go Yeah So it's it's the nature of the beast and and I always kind of looked at it like Well, you set it up this way and this is part of why you're not doing a nine-to-five job And so this is the other side of that just and it's a great thing. Yeah, I suppose it's it comes with the territory It's it's a bummer to fly from Hawaii to New York, which what is that like in 14 hours or something It just seems so far. Yeah, well going when you have the tailwind from Hawaii to New York It's it's probably only about 10 10 or 11 and then coming back. It's a little bit longer but again, I just sort of look at the opposite which is for me personally, I like being self-employed and being an independent contractor and You just have to be willing to do what it takes to do that Yeah, and it sure beats going to an office and sitting in air conditioning and and all that stuff for the for every day That would probably that seems like the opposite of what you would be able to do I mean looking knowing What what I do about you and stuff like that knowing how active you guys are sitting all day and at a desk would literally kill you I think Yeah, I think it would be you know, there's people who sort of say hey listen. I love to have it I love the window of okay. I work from this hour to this hour. I leave it at the office I go home and then that's it I mean, you know this from the job that you do The job is sort of all the time because it's also part of who you are but I like the movement and the freedom and the a little bit of the Unpredictability of what we do certainly more than that sort of locked and loaded Monday through Friday deal. What is it with about unpredictability that you actually like because I've I've heard that a lot from people and similar active kind of Gigs pro athletes and things like that. They love the routine of training in some way But there's also this element of excitement that comes from oh, we're gonna do this city and we're gonna do that And they don't seem to outgrow it I mean you're you're a mom now. You're married now. You still like that Yeah, I think you know for me it's a good point of I need a certain amount of linear activity a Consistency in my training and my food to kind of keep me tethered to something But then beyond that you sort of feel like it's maybe what you liked about competition and training is it's a little bit unknown And so to put yourself in an unknown situation on a regular basis feels good because you feel like you're sort of testing yourself You're having an opportunity to rise to an occasion Maybe it's a little bit Uncomfortable or scary so that that feels good because it I think I feel like that's how you continue to get to know who you are And so I like it and it's it's an adventure and and quite frankly You don't want things to always be the same because then you never grow You're not learning new stuff. You're not challenging yourself in a new way And I think that that sort of is an essence of life It's something I read in your book was life has lived outside your comfort zone and that's a very popular I hate the word meme because it sounds degrading but I guess it is kind of a mean or motto of people and especially in your position just constant improvement constantly trying to make yourself uncomfortable and grow and I think that's admirable I think that's what separates a lot of people who are successful in areas like you are versus people who just kind of are dreamers or wannabes and I also read that you only feel like working out or training 50% of the time which is really I was surprised by that being a pro athlete and You know your model or you still are Only feel like training half the time that sounds like me Well, listen, I think so let's be honest. I think that's most people every once in a while. I've met athletes or people Now let's be clear about something. First of all, I believe in all of us. Most of us were athletes, right? There's some who kind of express it more and others But every once in a while you meet a person and they can be an attorney, but they're an athlete and they are You know, they wake up and they're driven and it's a loop. You know, they sort of that's what they are doing But I believe that most of us probably feel like training if you're lucky 50% of the time So I I always don't want to sell a bill of goods to people like. Oh, I'm just so inspired every day and you know to go and and Do it and be tormented I'd rather be sitting down or I'd rather lay in bed for an extra, you know 30 minutes or whatever that is and Because I think that's the important part of the message is it's just about creating that system and that infrastructure for success It's not about feeling like you want to all the time That's important to realize I think for a lot of people who are not even just with working out or athletics I think a lot of people think well, this isn't the job or career for me because I'm not 100% of the time I'm not waking up motivated to attack the day or oh, this isn't the sport for me or this workout's not gonna work for me because I often don't feel like going and when we read articles in Maxim or self magazine or side of the glosses you fall on the articles that have a lot of times people that That have careers similar to yours It's always like they're sitting on the beach in the sun and the sunrise and it's just like every day is in Inspiration and you just think oh crap I can never be like Gabby Reese because I don't feel like that at all. I wake up with oatmeal stuck to my chin You know, this is not how am I my life is I'll share something with you like my I had a knee replacement last year And my knee has probably been hurting me for upwards to 14 or 15 years prior to the surgery, right? And even now to this day, it's not functioning really the way I would like it to I mean it's great It was a great surgery and it's great and there is frustration and insecurity and All kinds of emotions around this and I deal with it every day But then so I guess what I'm saying is we all have these kind of self whether they're Self-inflicted obstacles or ones brought on by life that we are contending with and It's kind of like how you look at it So I can go I could dive deep down that hole and be poor me and my knees not bending And it's not straightening the way I wanted to and if steps are too high I'm weird and feel awkward and all these things or I can say but I'm not I don't have a major illness the rest of my body is working very well And so I'm gonna work around it And I'm gonna acknowledge that some days I feel crappy and I feel Vulnerable and not my best self But I'm gonna work around it and I and I really believe that that is life, you know You know like I guess maybe like I was a Buddhist that the pain and the good and the bad It's all part of the same story Yeah, I think it's important to realize that because a lot of times we're bombarded with this inspirational material that says You should feel good all the time. You should feel motivated all the time You should feel even though you have this setback it now. It's your strength and it's like no It's not a strength. It's a broken knee and it sucks, but it's I'm still able to persevere and push through that Yeah, and I think everybody has that because you know, sometimes people say to me wow I you know, I can't believe all that you you know You juggle and you get done and and I say, okay, let's be really clear about something first of all I'm wildly incentivized right like I if I work I I probably get paid very well for what I do There's there's rewards. There's attention. There's all these things, right? I say you want to talk to me about somebody who's juggling a lot How about somebody who let's take a single parent, for example, who's working three jobs just to keep the lights on? Like that's the real stuff and for me. I think it's about keeping perspective on What we're reacting to so oh, you know, when you know, Larry calls it the wambulance.   I have got nothing. I'm not do like I'm not doing anything. I haven't done anything So I think it's for me. I kind of look at it that way and I've said this many times, you know We have low cards and high cards. It's like which cards do you want to play in your hand? Do you want to cry that you have low cards? You want to play your high cards and get on with it by low cards and high cards You just mean that everyone gets dealt the hands and it just depends on which choices you're going to make that day Especially when it comes to the mood that you're in or how you react to events Well, that's it and you know, it's like when I was younger. I had my mom left for a few years My dad died. I had some pretty wonky stuff happening But yet I was six foot three at 15 and had a certain look that those were some high cards That if I navigated those correctly, they helped me Overcome the low cards and and I think people a lot of times are always Retelling an old story. I have to be mindful of that too and going well, this happened to me and that happened to me It's like it did but is there not something else in your story that that could feasibly help you move on from that and even Appreciate some of that stuff and granted listen I'm not suggesting there aren't things that people go through that it's it's almost virtually impossible to get over I'm not saying that but I'm saying most of us walking around. It's like low cards and high cards, you know, like there's all these beauty Jingles, you know accentuate the positive eliminate the negative, you know, it's all this stuff It's kind of that silliness, but it's very true Yeah, I think it's it's I'm not a huge fan of Instagram memes that make people feel inferior or you know Attempts of being inspiring, but it there is some truth to the fact that you can make choices With whatever you've got and that a lot of times those same situations do make you stronger in one way even if they are Objectively not positive things. Well, I'll again. I use my knee I have tried more exercises and therapies and turmeric drinks than you can imagine and it's why because I have an obstacle if everything was cool, I just go on as usual and Because of this this is a teacher that's making me stretch and learn more and understand about other things that I probably wouldn't have because I'm Inherently would be lazy and it wasn't necessary. So I I agree with you and and I think My hope is like I'm always want to talk about it in a very blue-collar matter of fact way like I don't want to have my head in the clouds I want to be Positive but still and sort of in that like, you know, very everyday way because When people talk to me like that that I can I can connect with that when they go Oh, you know, the spirit above and the sun is shining. I just go. Yeah, I don't I don't know about that So it's like trying to find that real Matter of fact communication, but yes being positive. Yeah, where did you learn a lot of it the matter of facts?  Where did you grow up? You grew up? Trinidad No, my father's from Trinidad. So that's very good. But close I mean, I grew up in the in the West Indies, but I did live in Long Island, New York for five years When I lived with friends of my mother I was raised by my aunt or uncle Joe and and let me tell you my uncle Joe was like a construction worker work for the sanitation department in New York and and You know, my aunt or I used to say like kid, you know Go away. Don't go angry. But just go away. Like they're very direct New York People and then in the in the Caribbean when you grow up on an island, it's it is different than the mainland us. It's um, I Don't know. It's it's kind of like I see it when I live in Hawaii there is a sort of a directness and a shorthand and and And I'm glad but I think I learned it definitely from from those two places and and it was also something that maybe Because that's the way I could hear things maybe that that's the way I tried to communicate more sure sure and sports and sports Listen, let's call it for what it is starting at 15.  Let's go. So I think that also That shorthand got developed. Did you I read that you didn't begin sports until 11th grade and you said age 15 So that kind of checks out. How come you didn't get into sports sooner? I mean, I weren't used six foot something when you were like 12 Yeah, I was six feet at 12 and six three at 15 But I again because I grew up in the Caribbean. I dabbled a little bit in volleyball My 10th grade year But organized sports back then You know on st. Thomas it wasn't like, oh, you know, you could do something with this I think I was already dealing with some of my Frustrations as a as already that tumultuous time in my life, but also some of my history Was kind of aggravated So I started a little bit and then when I moved to Florida my junior year of high school Which things were more organized athletics was sort of a real part of the The culture and the school and things like that And I walked in at 15 at six three. They were like, oh, you're playing volleyball basketball So that's kind of how it happened. You said you were aggravated when you were a kid What was going on on the island at that point? You know, I I just had I didn't have a lot of stability and I think I was truly hurt From my Situation with my mother. I was I was hurt my feelings were probably hurt and I probably hadn't gotten over it yet You know, she she did the best she could and at you know, two and a half years old She needed to take a she worked and left me with these people who raised me as their own child till I was seven And then the problem was is that then she decided she was ready So then I got the extraction from that stable environment and that was very difficult And I think I I carried that with me for For a while, but it was the best thing that ever happened Because first of all, I I I understood Like fast forward in a weird way my husband. I have a stepdaughter She was a very small baby when I met my husband and I never thought for one second like Hey, I can be her mom because she has a great mom But I knew I could be impactful Because I had experienced it with my aunt like if I just love her That can be powerful. Um, so I got that gift. I got um being very resourceful independent organized Because a lot of the people around me were not so there was a lot of great stuff that came out of it But at that time I was and then I was pissed because we moved from my home In the Caribbean To florida, which was really a very significant and important move that really changed the trajectory trajectory of my whole life But at the 15 years of age, you know, I'm leaving my boyfriend and my friends, right? Right. Yeah, and that's what that was of primary concern at that point for sure Yeah, were there any special social skills that are required growing up on an island? And then how did those change when you got to the mainland us and you're like Not only do I have to move and make new friends. I've got to figure out how people do things here again Yeah, well, and I'll take it a notch up from there. So I came from a really loosey goosey west indian culture you know, I always say that if A lot of the parents if they weren't from there, why were they there? It's like all of our parents were in some level kind of lunatics They were all, you know, it was carnival your parents would kind of disappear for two three days So, you know, you had that element too I'm when I moved to florida my mother put me in a very very conservative christian school So not only was I switching cultures Then I was switching an entire kind of Way of living and what is what was you know, I was never taught about what how important it was what people thought You know when you that wasn't the thinking where I grew up And then when you go to a very conservative christian environment the length of your skirt also is part of the conversation, right? So, I mean it was radically different and again Really, it was important. I needed sort of another part of the Scale I needed to balance it out a little bit more and I got that but the adjustment was brutal I mean one the principal let me in the school and I had no formal religious kind of You know training or part of my life was it just wasn't a part of how I grew up and then He he actually ended up being a really important person Mr. Greener But he let me in the school But the joke was I was the only quote unsaved person in the high school Wow try that. Yeah, and I'm six and I'm six three. I have Blonde hair. I probably swear like a sailor at a christian school. So it was It was really funny but then there I met very good people and I understood that people could live a sort of a You know, there's all elements of religion for me but then you go and certain people that have faith and It makes them more loving and less judgmental And they they have great families and all the sort of the great parts of that And I got to witness that and understand that oh that you know, that's out there too So it was great and I had incredible coaches that took time and invested in me as a person and Again, it really changed I went from there to getting scholarships and going to college and playing ball and going on from there And I think clearly if I hadn't gone there and had those people impact to me I I wouldn't I would have never pulled it You think you would have gone downhill just staying in that other environment? Yeah, I probably would have had a kid by 19, you know if You know working a gift shop because you don't understand what a big world It is sometimes when you live on an island and what is possible and how do you express yourself In those other ways you don't you're not really taught that and I I think It's important to have some of that but then conversely I think it's dangerous to have kids be too stacked up and too scheduled and too Performance oriented when they're young. So it's like just finding that middle ground saying it's like with my kids I'm like listen be grounded. That's why I love living in Hawaii And come from that grounded place and that place of respect, you know anti and uncle culture But you know what you can be anything you want. It's a big world So I think it for me that that I would have definitely probably stayed in st. Thomas and And just kind of lived that life How do you pass these skills down to your kids besides just living in Hawaii? I mean, are you passing down athletic skills as well work ethic because you work really hard? Yeah, I mean my husband and I both are by nature. I think we you know, we're sort of grinders But I it's an interesting thing man when it's your own kids. They I always say they don't They don't really listen to you. They really watch you And you can't really tell them you can try to instill the values Um and and tell them to what's important to you so honesty and hard work and and respecting others and respecting yourself But then the communication is Now we want to encourage you to figure out what does turn you on and what excites you and what do you think you want to do But you still have to hit those fundamentals, but I have no manual Ultimately my kids probably listen to me, you know, seven percent of the time. I'm not sure and Then, you know, you surround them with other people that can have these influences because we're limited, right? We're we we only know so much But then maybe you've got these other people that they give them a little bit of this and a little bit of that And you hope that the impact You know helps them navigate their own life and I tell my girls all the time.  What has it done to you? I mean, how have you grown up as a result of of having kids? Well, it's a deconstruction first of all I was much smarter and knew a lot more about what was going on at 21 now at 47 I'm like, holy, I don't know anything and it brings you to your knees in a way that nothing else does and you surrender and at times like for example, you want to React how you feel you really it's important to react To what is right and those things can be sometimes conflicted So sometimes maybe I want an impulse and I just want to tell everyone to f off and throw shit and like freak out and and Or whatever it is But in that moment, you've got to really be disciplined and go What is the right thing to do right here and right now and sometimes You can be honest with yourself and say I have no clue. So I'm going to do the best I can um, but it really it deconstructs you in a way that You know, nothing else I've ever done has not even sports and um, it makes you also have to really confront the fact that You're going to get it wrong a lot of the time and that is a hard pill to swallow because You it's so important and you're so passionate about doing it, right? And there's just no chance. It just isn't Do you still take your younger kids on the road with you for work? I know you used to do that Yeah, I do if it's you know, especially if it's a little bit longer like more than two or three days And it's it it makes sense. Um, I'll take them But Larry and I kind of have a thing where if one of us has to go the other one's usually at home And if it's something where he and I are going together then we really try to make sure that they come with us because for me I that is my most important job and being away from them for an extended period of time doesn't feel natural and And I will say this we have the luxury to say, okay, we're going to take the girls But you know, there's days where I'm like, oh my god, I just should have left them, you know because they because it's You know kids don't do what you want them to do. So, you know, but that's the great thing It's because it's it's more honest. It's like listen, you're not in control really. I'm here in my life. I'm all scheduled up It's all written down. It's all perfect. I'm not really in control. I like to pretend I'm in control So the kids are they remind you every single day like zero control I laugh I said this one time I was paddling on the river. I go I realize I have power Like I can say no to things I can move them from one side to the next But I have no control and that is a really interesting thing But yeah, we bring them because it's my family and you know, they're going to move out our 21 year old is in college and You know, they get on with their life. So this is the time Yeah, you can't just you can't pause their life while you're busy doing your thing That's right. This is my time.  I mean can somebody not pick? I mean and it's the same conversations over and over right?   Hopefully you're looking above yourself and watching yourself and going Whoa, how are you navigating that and then sometimes you're in it and you're just freaking out But it's it's doing that rack focusing and and trying to go this is this is that that important No, it's not that important No, this is really important and also laughing at yourself because sometimes you're just running around like a Almost like a lunatic and you go look at you. You're kind of a lunatic. Yeah Yeah, it must be hard to separate yourself from that and mention it It sounds like you've got some skills from sports business that are helping you with your family life you mentioned Looking at different externally looking at your situation Yeah, I think that's listen if I could if I could say to people Sometimes the biggest gift is to back up and or go up and look over Because then it gives you that perspective, you know, uh, neal and I were just talking about this like it's not about us You know, like sometimes like you're going through the day and especially women, right? We hitting we're taking everything personal and sometimes if you just back up a little and go, you know what? Yo, that's not about me and and even like my problems like whatever problems I think I really have if I just back up a little And and go it's not really a problem. It's fine. You know, it's it's not that big of a deal So I'm very thankful for that trait. I think it is definitely probably helped my marriage a great deal We're staying married It's helped me keep my sense of humor and And I and hopefully helps me save a lot of time on, you know wasting energy and time on things that it ultimately it's like Who cares how often do you do things for yourself that are not wife slash mother related? You know, my training has always been for me, you know, obviously it was part of my job but now I look at my training is like the biggest gift and selfish thing I do for myself and and um And again, not in a corny way, but it's like, yo, this is just for me The person not even the woman like just this human that's like getting to express This part and and doing something that I know no matter what whether I do it for 10 minutes or 90 minutes It's something really good for me And and so what used to be my job is also now become the thing that when I get that done, I'm like, okay I'm good Well, I heard that when you are giving birth oan wilson called and wanted some chili and wanted to hang out with layered and so Oh, no, no, no, no, it's better than that so So I was uh, it was my third daughter and and uh, it was january 1st And so, you know, you think I'm like nobody goes into labor on january 1st It's probably not real but whatever so layered went we were still living on mali at the time and so oan This is the premise of it though His brother luke who's quite lovely had been maybe a couple months prior had done some activities with layered So I think in brotherly competition. He kind of bragged to oan. So when oan came to mali, he spends a lot of time there He calls the house. He's like, hey abby, it's oan wilson Is layered there and I was like, no, actually he's in the you know at the beach at hukipa Whatever and he goes, I want to get into it. And what are y'all doing later? And I was like, well, I think I'm actually having a Baby, I'm in labor right now, but it was still mellow. You know, it hadn't kicked up yet So I said, but you're welcome to go try and find him.  Now my contractions are getting closer together. The chili's cooked They come in and I say to layered, okay, you know, I think it's happening and Then and oh, it's like I'm starving and I go, well, I have chili here And so then he's like asking me about sour cream and my friend had flown in gen to take care of my daughter and layered When I was in having the baby and she's a volleyball player and a strong girl and she was getting she's like I'm gonna punch him out and I was like take it easy And you know, I'm literally in labor like if you've ever seen a girl in labor It's like, okay one second and then you sort of have your little mini shock and then you're like, okay What was that question? You know, and so yeah, so Owen was there.  Do you have sour cream? Where's the fridge? If I could if I was exaggerating it wouldn't be as funny, but actually I'm I'm dead serious um That's probably why he's good at his job, you know, why what do you mean? Because I'm like these actors man. They're it's they're clueless And I'm joking, but it's like they sort of live in their mind and in their world And I have a few friends that do that craft and they're not quite like that But part of them that's what's sort of magical about them But you're like, how is it over there? You know as I'm like bent over in the kitchen And I yeah, it was pretty funny. It was actually uh, I mean Listen at least on the way of the hospital. I'm like, wow, okay Yeah, no I mean, you're obviously really tough, especially when it comes to that sort of thing You're the first female athlete to have her own shoe Which I try to look at online But when I when I go with gabriel reich nike shoe all I found was like 8 000 pictures of you and a sports bra Or playing volleyball or something like that I was really fortunate, you know, but I always say that's like timing, you know and uh And the other side of that that was really cool Was they tinker hatfield was the designer of my shoe and so for anyone who's a sort of sneaker head if you will Tinker was really the responsible person for the air jordan's and that brand for a really long time and He's just a very talented guy. So, you know That's the success of that shoe was really also the fact that tinker designed the shoe Obviously, so we did a few seasons and the shoe did very very well and I was signed for for cross training for training That was like when bow knows that whole thing was going on And so it was kind of better for me because volleyball is so small But to cross over and really be signed for training That gave me a little bit more room and extension inside of nike that I wouldn't have had if I was signed only for volleyball How do you deal with that that whole business seems like it's just loaded with ego and testosterone Even in your personal life, you got athlete friends. Are you how do you turn it off? Or do you or just deal with it? And that's a fact of life with those people Well, you know, it's interesting. I'll be honest with you At this time in our lives and and I'll use lair to sort of a partner in this You know, generally we don't spend a lot of time with people that they are alphas but They have it's like they've got weird balance or at least they balance it when they're around us because you know, my husband is pretty Alphish and we always say everybody leaves it at the door because at the end of the day What we're trying to do is get together. Enjoy each other. Maybe learn from each other push each other Those other types. They kind of don't survive in our environment because both of us We can we have different gears, you know, if you will but because you start to realize like hey the essence of life is Um, you don't actually want to be the best or the smartest or the strongest in the room You want to be around those kind of people because then they're going to make you better Um, but if you want to compete, okay. Well, we can do that too, but that's not as productive Um, but you know, it's it's sometimes it's almost a sign of youth When you see a lot of that you go, oh, they haven't they haven't dialed it in yet And they're still a little afraid and they're unsure of their place And so you you kind of understand it also a little bit I think that makes sense Yeah, it seems like you got to know when to bring in the competition when it's making you better and when it's actually not That's right because the competition when you're competing against somebody who can actually help you You're losing an opportunity To learn from them and connect and tap into their power So I think it's also it's a yielding that has to occur where each person can acknowledge and go Hey, you know what? I did what you do or I respect you and then you can really get some stuff done versus I'm so great. I'm a badass and you want to compete because then all of a sudden now you're going to rub against them versus Learn from them and hook in with them. I think it's interesting that you take that stuff into your marriage as well I know I know you're big on spending time with happily married good communicators And you credit that with this in part with the success of your marriage as well It sounds a lot like That jim ronkode like you only go as high as your five closest friends or the people you spend time around or who you become And things like that. How does that apply in your relationships? How are you? How did you set that up and how does it help you? Like i'll just use laird and i as an example people go gosh You guys seem to really like each other so much and I said, you know the thing I know about each of us individually is Why bother like I'm not going to do it and be in this relationship and be with him if one i'm not coming at it With the attitude of how can I make his life better? How can I help him out and also I want to enjoy it? I want to respect him and Otherwise I'd rather be alone. I'd rather not be married and and I know he's even more intense about it than I am Is sort of saying if we're going to do this whatever this is so everybody has a many this is in their in their Life right it's work. It's relationships. It's self-care. Whatever Why not make it great if you can if you can sometimes you can't like if I if laird and I got to a point where I was like This just probably isn't working and we've tried a lot of stuff. Okay, there's that's a different thing But like wow if I can participate in this and try to make this great Why would I not do that if I if I walk up to a counter? Um and at the ticket counter or something and I'm going to interact with the person Why would I not come out at it with like hey good afternoon? How are you today? Okay, I need some help like why so I think for me it's it's it's like you're always trying to operate In that place because then all of a sudden your world You're living on that frequency versus everywhere you go. You've got conflict You can't stand your partner.   It's like, okay I get it. So what can you do to sort of say what how can I try to make it great? And it's an amazing thing when people are personally accountable And say well, I'll do my part and then see what happens your career is I think a lot larger than his if you're going to compare the two and I don't I I'm doing that only because I know that you mentioned in your book that you kept making your personality a little bit smaller In order to kind of manage your relationship. What was that like and what did that do for your relationship or to your relationship? You know, I was young I was 25 when I met laire, but because of the nature of my job I I got to kind of jump on things a little bit and I think it's really typical of females and I will say this and I've talked about this a little bit I was not groomed for success the way I grew up And so I don't know if you can relate to this But as things start to open up for you and things start to happen You it feels uncomfortable and you feel weird and guilty and you feel all this stuff that you got to figure out How to manage success, right? So then I get partnered with somebody who I knew intuitively laire does better at what he does than at what I do Do I do a lot more? I do a variety of things pretty well Maybe more than him, but what at what he does He's so much better like it's surfing than I ever was at volleyball, right? So I was dealing with that And I was the female and there was all this so there was this kind of natural thing where I was like Well, I don't want to make him feel bad. And so I'll be less than And and really what it came down to is once layered sort of had his own footing And a couple of pats on the back if you will It really and also maturity, you know, he grew up too. And I think once men become A little more developed There's room like oh, yeah, honey.  Awesome. Bravo But when you're younger, maybe it makes you feel threatened So we were dealing with all these dynamics when we first got together And then we worked through it, you know, we almost got divorced and then it was like You know, we really love each other. Let's try to work this out And then I think it's like we both kind of grew up a little bit And and and it took time.  And I think a lot of people Feel like they can't do that as well And I know that you also even more recently you've talked about how Women being submissive in relationships is actually a sign of strength and not weakness depending on how it's done And one interesting quote that I pulled was we don't worry about men having it all So I don't know where we got this idea that to have it all And you talk a lot about how women need to take care of themselves and their their man Have you taken flak for that from the sort of ultra feminist camp? But you I would imagine Oh my gosh.  How about this?  So I think it's we're also in a time where people are very combative And it's all like well, no, you're not going to get up on me and if you want this Then or I'll give you this if you do that That doesn't work and by the way if you're with an alpha male that will blow up in your face in about seven minutes You don't tell an alpha male do this What you do is you hold your line you live the way you want to live And what I have seen is you can inspire someone They can look at you and go wow, she's really like on her game. I I'm going to get on my game not you better That doesn't work. And so people I think they misunderstood and oversimplified what I was saying Um, and I'm okay with that You know katie currick. He was like, you know in my house everything was equal And I was like really there's no such thing as equal in a house and then you you add some kids And it's definitely not equal and and even if it means that the the woman is the alpha There's no two male energies even in a in a straighter gay couple There's one masculine energy and one feminine and I was saying in my house I took the role of feminine because lord lord definitely takes the role of masculine And just finding that having that conversation afloat because then I walk out the door and then I'm back to alpha So how does that work and also once or twice a year layered nose? That's it Like here's a line you want to cross the line. Let's go. I'm down So it's not about being a doormat, but it's also talking about There's I think great strength in yielding. I always use the analogy the grocery store. You're coming down The aisle I'm going down the aisle the other way if I see you guess what? Even if you're younger or whatever, it's like I'll move to the side to let you go. It'll take me three seconds and it's a nice gesture Could I go through you over you? I could but why And so I guess I think You know, we read this book and it talks about it's called natural born heroes and it says hey listen to be a true warrior You have to be compassionate. So we're in a culture right now where everyone's forgetting about Service and kindness and all these things that really are powerful Yeah, I think there's something to that and it seems like coming from a place of power is More effective in the end than coming at it from a place of Well, the the opposite or some sort of mishmash of the two And especially when you're dealing with somebody like laird I know you mentioned in the book you call him the weatherman because he's super moody And yeah, you can't take responsibility for someone else's happiness like that And I know earlier in your marriage one of the things that was causing the problems was you had this mindset that Well, if he really loved me, he'd be happy with me most of the time I'm responsible for making him happy. You just can't do that to yourself Well, you can't you can't do that. It's it's um, it's a kind of a ridiculous notion to think that You you can make someone else happy and that someone else can make you happy You can improve someone else's life. You can inspire people. You can have that back at you But we all sort of have to work out our own stuff if you will And what's been interesting is to watch laird over the years like His moods are and I don't know if it's the tenderizing of our children But you know, he's really leveled out and it's a very I think it's an interesting thing to watch men grow up Because then all of a sudden it's like young guys come they train. He's like, yeah, go ahead. You go You know, it's like an interesting thing where I think you learn to back up and I believe this as an adult It's like my kids tell me stuff that of course I know And I'm like, oh, that's interesting But I don't need to for them to know I'm right or that I knew that already.  I got stuff to do and whether you get it or not or you know and and I and a big thing as a woman was not taking it personal and And and understanding that that intensity in laird was also attached to about 50 other things that I loved about them and so Cool. Okay. Yeah. Well, great. I mean, it's I'm glad that it's Worked out so well so far. I'm glad that we met recently and became friends because I think you're an awesome person I'm glad you took your time here to be on the show with us. I really appreciate it Well, I I really appreciate the work that you do and and I'm happy, you know for you and and for the messes that you're putting out with the show So thank you so much for having me Obviously, it's there's a lot of stuff going on in the world at the moment And I actually think that I always say to laird, you know, we really have to fortify ourselves More and and what I mean by that is, you know, just to encourage people to try to keep taking care of themselves and and also to be I know it's so corny like oh be positive, but I think the world needs sort of some kind of like love positivity And and and also remind them that like it's short So if you got something you want to do and you haven't taken that risk If you can do it in a calculated and smart way without ruining your life, you got to go for it Great message. Thank you very much Aloha


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Beretta APX carry, hey there friends thanks for checking in today we're looking at the Beretta APX carry these were my first shots with it and I'm not too far away probably eight or nine yards I will back it up a little bit but it does have a three inch barrel all right does it come with three mags mine came with three mags two six rounders and an eight round mag with an extended base plate you get two finger contact on the grip maybe the third barely touches it trigger weight just under six pounds it does have a blacked out rear sight front dot and a modular frame okay the serial number is right there and you they offer Beretta offers OD green gray and I believe a flat dark earth it does have the APX slide serrations that we are we're used to and some people like that you can you can charge it just from anywhere I think it's kind of cool and overall not a bad little package here it's very squared off there I mentioned that my tabletop review and it has a decent weight to it's another single stack 9 millimeter on the market that the APX series is expanding with this single stack 9 millimeter polymer frame striker fire single stack 9 millimeter called the Beretta APX carry let's go ahead and load it up and we'll turn the camera around and see how I do here we have the eight round mag with three finger contact let's see how it goes all right not bad pretty impressed with it here we have Barno steel case ammo with the sixth round mag that's six rounds of this let's see how it does with the steel case ammo APX carry shooting really well with the first range session it does have a full double action trigger pull and what I mean by that is the reset is almost the full position so we take the initial pull I hope I'm in frame here yep and then it resets right there so overall not too bad it fed the steel case ammo no problem and I'm not sure if I mentioned this but it weighs as the identical weight to the NMP shield let's go ahead and fire it some more here we are again same distance eight round mag let's see how it goes some of these are coming right back at me not sure if you're able to see but one hit me in the head I'm not too worried about that with a new gun because what I have learned within the first couple hundred rounds that happens but eventually the ejection is a little better and it's not just with this but many new guns so I don't worry too much about it just like that last one and I could just feel it though the case just went right over my hat but what I have now is Barno and then federal brass so I alternated them trying to come up with something a little different and that way if we see a malfunction we'll know if it's with the steel case or the brass case maybe I'm on to something here doubt it but we'll see here we go all right so they all they all worked let's do a limp wrist test all right so we're gonna bring back the limp wrist test with the APX carry if I end up hitting the target it's by accident here we go wow and the APX carried the first three were brass and the second three were steel case from Barno well there it is guys my first range session with the APX carry it performed really well actually a little better than I thought it would and every round fed fire and ejected just fine so here we go bread of APX carry you'll be seeing more of this especially with some comparisons that I'm really looking forward to if you like videos like this please subscribe and share I always appreciate thumbs up button thanks for watching and you guys be safe


Thank you very much, Mr. Speaker. Mr. Speaker, I believe the member from Kassri's East Prime Minister in presenting the motion clearly articulated the intent and purposes of the Tourism Development Fund. Mr. Speaker, on February 20th when we met in this honorable house and we debated the new Tourism Development Bill, which has now been enacted, I presented to this honorable house the necessity for us to have the Tourism Development Fund and I went into some detail as to the role that it would play and the purposes for which it would have been created. So Mr. Speaker, I will not take a very long time. But before I proceed Mr. Speaker, I really have to say something I did not contribute on the earlier debate. But just for the information of this honorable house, once I listened to the member from Miku South speak about the IMF article for consultation report and he presented it as if the government had withheld the information and it had taken so long for the report to be made public that the consultation took place in August but it was only just released in March. And something just spiked my interest, you know the curiosity that one can have sometimes. And I said let me just find out in the past what happened under his watch because I was wondering is it unusual for it to be such a long period before which reports are released. And I decided let me just speak the 2019 report. You know, and I did a little research online. When was the 2019 report released? February 24th, 2020. February 24th, 2020. So I then researched when did the consultation take place. February 7th, 2019. One year after. Why would the consultation have taken place on February the 7th, 2019 but the report only made public February 2020. And you cannot say COVID. You cannot use COVID as an excuse. So why under you it took more than a year for the report to be made public. But in this instance you are presenting to St. Lucia and the world that something is untold. Something is unusual because it took a certain period of time for it to be released. So probably Mr. Speaker that he knows something that we don't know. This honesty you call it. And you know speaking on that subject again we have to come back Mr. Speaker to the conduct of the leader of the opposition. There he was writing all over the world. All over St. Lucia is writing letters to the Attorney General that we are going to bridge the Constitution. He wrote to the bar and said to the bar can you work with me? Can you work with me because they have no respect for the Constitution. They are going to bridge the Constitution and he threatened to go to court and all and have injunction against Parliament because we are going to bridge the Constitution. And I sat there wondering in which reality does he exist? Is this a case of Alice in Wonderland? Or Alan in Wonderland? What is this about? And then he decides and somebody told me he wrote to United Nations. He writes to everybody even write to former ambassadors or to ambassadors in St. Lucia. He wrote to ambassadors in St. Lucia that we are going to bridge the Constitution. Which Constitution? We don't bridge Constitution on this side of the house. Yeah, he wrote the script. For someone who spent five years never pointing at the Deputy Speaker. I think he has kind of post-traumatic stress syndrome. Why would you believe that every action somebody would take would be as nefarious as yours? Why? And he comes in this morning and he witnesses democracy in action. The member from View for South accepts to be the Deputy Speaker. Now he can say he anticipated that. So let's assume if you had anticipated that, why did you write all the letters? Why did you announce to the world? Is it a mind that is so warped? Why? Tell me. So you could not have anticipated that. But even if you had anticipated it, it reveals the worst side of you as a politician, as a former leader of this country. The worst side. But I heard the word rejoicing saying Kenyantini will never accept it. Does anybody believe that the member from View for South, the grandfather of the Labour Party right now, would act in a manner to undermine the St. Lucia Labour Party? They are taking joy, they say, when he stands up and he lectures us. He can lecture me any day. He has earned the right to do that. He's earned the right to do that. Just like Julian Hunt. So Julian Hunt can lecture me. So colleagues Georgetown lecture me. They have earned the right in our party. We respect our party leaders and the others in our party. That's the difference between us and them. So Dr. Antony, Dr. Antony is a man of integrity, a man of character. And he loves this Labour Party. Don't get involved in our business when he's lecturing us. If he ever stands up there. Many of us on his side have never had a better teacher than him. So if he took joy believing that we would be left, you know, we won't have a deputy speaker. He's going to go on. I heard they had injunction papers already prepared, ready to fight. You're going to take your documents and shred it. And shred it. Because you came here anticipating that there would be no deputy speaker and you'd be chaos. And you'd run to the courts and find an injunction. According to the Memo from Cassius, it's put the papers in your pipe and smoke it. So Mr. Speaker, the Tourism Development Fund is based on a fundamental principle in the Tourism Development Bill. And that is of billing resilience. The fund by its very nature will accumulate monies that can be used for the future development of the tourism industry. It will be used to ensure that the operations of the tourism department are met. It will be used as well, Mr. Speaker, to deal with issues that will arise, especially when we have challenges from natural disaster and other challenges in the industry. Look at what we just went through with COVID. We actually had no reserves to go to in this country to deal with some of the sectors that were affected. We believe in the building resilience in the industry. And by having a fund that has monies in it, when we do face a challenge, and God forbid we never have another COVID, but it may be some other challenge we face, we would have some resources available somewhere that the industry can use it for it to rebound. It will also assist us in maintaining infrastructure for the tourism industry. It will assist us in many other aspects in the operations of the tourism industry. So for us, it's a critical tool in achieving the principles and the dreams and the goals, the vision that we had when we passed the tourism development bill. It will take some time for the resources to build, but we now have the basis upon which we can build. And we must, Mr. Speaker, in all that we see, still credit the last government for having gotten the tourism levy going, and at least starting to create that dedicated stream of financing that we can use for marketing in this instance. And we're going to broaden that concept of having resources available to assist in the tourism industry. For us on this side, we want to transform the tourism industry. Some people said I should not continue spreading this narrative about more solutions owning the tourism industry. But we believe it on this side of the house. We believe that more solutions should be operating, more solutions should be owning the tourism industry. And during the estimates next week and in the policy debate, I will be seeing a lot more about what we are doing to ensure that the tourism industry, for us, it is an indigenization of the tourism industry, making sure indigenous initiative, indigenous effort can benefit from the tourism industry. And in many ways, you know, is ensuring that the political economy of the tourism industry is such that as many solutions as possible can benefit from the industry and can prosper within the tourism industry. So today, Mr. Speaker, it's a simple motion to start putting in place many of the elements of the tourism development bill to achieve that vision that we have of a more inclusive, a more resilient, and a more sustainable industry. And again, like I said, next week in the estimates, a lot more would be said on that. So I support the motion as presented by the member from Cassry's East. Thank you very much.


I think I am a pretty sensible person and I can tell what's real and what's not. People have a hard time fooling me. The reason that the temple is great is not just because Jim Jones can make people cough up cancers, but because there is the largest group of people I have ever seen who are concerned about the world and are fighting for truth and justice for the world. And all the people have come from such different backgrounds, every color, every age, every income group, and they have turned into constructive people from being dopers and thieves and being greedy, wanting lots of money, and having things. So anyway, it's the only place I have seen real true Christianity being practiced. Well, I can't explain all of why I want to go there. I guess I kind of want to be a follower because I sure can't try to change the world all by myself. And Elizabeth Moore, September 3, 1972.


So first we will wrap up our unfinished agenda in limits. So we were doing zero to the power zero form though it is written as zero to the power zero. It is to be read as it is to be read as tending to zero to the power tending to zero. I know that I know that you have a monthly test tomorrow. Okay. And we'll also talk about infinity to the power tending to zero. Okay. So it is to be read as infinity to the power. Tending to zero. Tending to zero. Last class we actually could not solve any question on this because of the paucity of time. So we'll take a few questions on it, probably not more than half an hour to 25 minutes of discussion on this topic. So as we had discussed in the previous class, let's say if you have any limit, okay, whose nature is either of zero to the power zero or infinity to the power zero form, it will always be a function raised to another function. Correct. Okay. And depending upon your function and depending upon what X is tending to, this could be a zero to the power zero or infinity to the power zero form. Right. So the approach is very simple. We call this expression as L, we take log to the base e on both the sides. Okay, we take log to the base e on both the sides. So when we take log to the base e on both the sides, we know that on taking log g will come down and we have ln of f of X. Okay. Now what do we do? We convert this. We convert this. Let us say you had a zero to the power zero form. I'm just taking an example. When you take a log, you would realize that it has got converted into zero into infinity form. Correct. But remember Lopital rule cannot be applied till your expression is either of zero by zero form or infinity by infinity form. Correct. So what do we do next is we convert this expression like this log of f of X by one by g of X. And when you do this, you basically are able to convert it to infinity by infinity form. Now this will become infinity by infinity form. Correct. Now you can apply Lopital. Apply Lopital. Okay. And proceed. Okay. Remember when you solve it by Lopital, you get log of L as your left hand side. Make sure you anti log it and make L the subject of the formula. Okay. So this is something which we had discussed the last class. Let us take some quick examples on this and try to understand how it is implemented. Exactly zero by zero is undefined in maths. Exactly zero by zero is undefined in maths. Okay. So we are dealing with tending to zero by tending to zero form, which is an indeterminate form in maths. And only indeterminate forms can be evaluated by the use of our limit concept. Okay. Let's take some example. Let me take this question. A limit of extending to zero mod sine X to the power of sine X. Would you like to try it? Would you like to try this question? Mod sine X to the power of sine X. So it is actually zero to the power of zero form. Again, though I'm writing it zero to the power of zero, in your mind, you need to read it as tending to zero to the power tending to zero. So let us do this question. Everybody please give it a try. Yes. Any success anybody? Okay. Since there's a mod of X, basically you need to be very careful because mod of X is going to change its definition. If you're up to approaching towards zero from left side and if you're approaching towards zero from right side, right? So let us first evaluate left hand limit. Left hand limit is when you are evaluating this limit as X sends to zero minus. Isn't it? When X sends to zero minus, this X will become negative X. So it will become negative X to the power of sine X. So let us call this as L1 for the time being. Let's not call it as a limit because limit is the value that both LHL and RHL take and they should be equal. So let us first call it as L1. Let me take log to the base E on both the sides. When I do that, I end up getting something like this sine X times ln of ln means log to the base E natural log ln of negative X. Okay. Now in the present state, basically your expression is of the form zero into minus infinity. But remember minus sign is not a very serious thing for us. We just see whether it is zero into infinity or which indeterminate form is it right now. So it is zero into infinity form right now. So let me write it over here. This is zero into infinity form right now.  I'll bring the sine X as cosec X. Okay. Why have I done so? Why have I done so is because this will become infinity by infinity form. This will become infinity by infinity form. Now we can take, we can apply LH rule on this. In LH rule, we all know that we need to differentiate the numerator separately and denominator also separately guys. This is very important. Okay. Why is it not possible for ln of minus X? Okay. Pranav is saying log of minus X is not possible. Can somebody tell why is it possible? Just because there's a minus sign in front of X, does it make it a negative quantity Pranav? X can be, it is negative here actually Abhinav. Very good. So Abhinav has rightly answered X is a negative quantity my dear. Negative X is a positive quantity. So why can't I find log of a positive quantity? Okay. Let's not make any kind of a judgment looking at an external negative sign. Negative X may be a positive quantity if X itself is a negative quantity. Right? Okay. Anyways. So let's differentiate the numerator separately. Derivative of ln minus X. Who will tell me the derivative of ln minus X? It's 1 by negative X into negative 1. I hope you all remember. Very good Aditya. 1 by X itself. Derivative of cosec X. Derivative of cosec X is minus cosec X cortex. Correct? No problem with this. All fine. Okay. Having said so, if you write it in a sign and tan term, you will have something like this. You will have sine X, tan X by X. Okay. Unfortunately, there is only one X which can neutralize any one of them. That depends upon what you want to take. Let's say I neutralize sine. This will become one. But this fellow unfortunately will remain a zero. Thereby giving me complete zero as our left hand limit. No, not left hand limit exactly. Left hand limit will be when I take antilog. So L1 will become e to the power zero which is one. This is half the problem solved. This is just half the problem solved. Now, in a similar way, I would request you to give me the right hand limit. Okay, so I am waiting. I am giving you one minute. Everybody please give me the right hand limit. Let's say I call L2. Limit X sending to zero plus. Mod X when X sends to zero plus will remain an X. So now, please proceed in a similar way. Tell me whether you are getting one or something else. If something else is coming, limit will not exist. If one is coming, one will be a limit. Very good, Aditya. Nice. Nice. Very good. Yes. Absolutely, Pranav. Very good. So, some of you are saying it will be one only. Let's check. Again, let me take log to the base e on both the sides. So, this will become sine X, ln X. Okay. Not much change. So, I think when you take the sine X in the denominator, it would become a cosecx. Okay. So, now in the present shape, it is of infinity by infinity form. This is infinity by infinity form. Right. So, you can apply LH rule. Okay. That's a short form of Lopital rule. So, LH rule will give you limit X sending to zero plus. ln X derivative is one by X and cosecic derivative will be minus cosecic x cortex. Minus cosecic x cortex. By the way, there was a minus here, but it did not make a difference to us. So, this will be minus cosecic x cortex. If you see, we are back to the same situation and this answer will again be a zero. That means L2 will be e to the power zero, which is one. So, the limit for this function is one. Absolutely. The limit of this function as X sends to zero will be one. So, this answer will be one. Is that clear to everyone? Yes. Sorry. Yeah. Thank you, Bruno. Yeah. Okay. Good. Yes, Abhinav. Thank you. Okay. Let's take a few more questions. Guys, we will not take a lot of questions on this because the rule or the process is well defined for these type of questions. So, there's no point wasting a lot of time doing it. Let's do this question. Let's do this question. Limit X sending to infinity, pi X to the power of 2 by X. First of all, which form of indeterminacy is it exhibiting? Which indeterminacy is this problem showing? I would like everybody to put it on the chat box. Infinity to the power zero. Absolutely. Awesome. Awesome. You guys are awesome. Infinity to the power zero form. Yes. Yeah. Tending to it should be used. So, when you're speaking out, you should definitely use the word tending to. Yes. Everybody, please proceed. Please solve this. I want to see your answer. Same procedure, mother. Take it as L. This time we don't have to find left-hand limit, right-hand limit. See, left-hand limit, right-hand limit. Many people ask me, sir, there are some occasions when you don't find left-hand limit and right-hand limit, you directly jump to finding the limit. And there are some occasions when you go for left-hand limit separately, right-hand limit separately. Why is that so? See, it is basically more of the dependent on the function given to you. If you realize that there is a function which may change its definition about zero. For example, mod X was there, right? So that element of doubt is always there in the mind of a solver. Whether this change of definition can create an issue for me. When that is happening, you should always evaluate left-hand limit and right-hand limit separately. Okay. So, this is a question which I get year after year, sir. Sometimes you take, sometimes you don't take. How do I know that I have to take left-hand limit separately? It is all dependent on the question at hand. It is all dependent on what is the function given to us. Okay. So here, Madhav, not the same procedure. But I would say you can directly jump for the limit. No need to find out left-hand limit, right-hand limit. Because none of the functions are changing, is going to change definition. And what is left-hand limit for infinity minus? Can you all hear me? Am I audible? Can you see my screen as well? So sorry, there was a power outage here. Outage here? Yeah. Yes. Is anybody ready with the answer? Very good, Aditya. That's absolutely correct. Pranav, absolutely correct. Awesome. Come on, guys. No, Madhav. That's not correct. Hariharan. This is something which I have been telling people since the last class. If your limit is applied to X, your answer will never be in terms of X. Okay. So, it will be some value. Let's solve this. Let me call this limit as L. Let me take log to the base E on both the sides. When I do so, this will become 2 by X ln of pi X. Okay. Thankfully, as X sends to infinity, 2 you can take outside. ln pi X will tend to infinity, X will also tend to infinity. Correct. So, now you can apply a Lopital rule. So, when you apply Lopital rule, if you differentiate the numerator, it will become 1 by pi X into pi. Okay. Divided by X derivative is 1. Okay. Now, this is a very simple expression to evaluate. This is nothing but limit of 1 by X as X sends to infinity. We know that 1 by X as X sends to infinity will tend to 0. So, 2 into 0 will be 0. So, ultimately, your ln of L is giving you 0. That means E will become E to the power 0, which is 1. Is this fine? Any questions here? Okay. Now, it may give a feeling that, okay, every time we're getting a 1 as the answer, it is not necessarily true. Sometimes, you may get a different answer just because I had taken two such cases where you were getting 1 as the answer.  No, not like that. By coincidence, it is giving me 1. So, let me take one more question. Let's take one more question. Any questions here, by the way? Can I move on to the next slide? Do you want to ask something? All are happy? Everybody's happy? Yes, Anurag. Why? I can see your message, Anurag. I can't message you. I can see that. Oh, I got it. It's because I went out of the call because of the power cut. So, when somebody joins back, you cannot reply back to him immediately, currently. Okay, but I can get your message now. Okay. Sorry for the inconvenience. No, no, no. I can see your message. No need to rejoin. I went out of the call, actually. There was a power cut, no? Okay. Okay. So, we'll take one more question. Limit extending to infinity e to the power x by pi whole to the power 1 by x. Okay. First of all, which indeterminate form is it exhibiting? What is the indeterminate form over here? Right. Absolutely. Yes. Please proceed with this. Tell me the answer. Let me take the attendance also. Take your time. No worries. Two minutes, two and a half minutes is a good enough time to solve such kind of problems. Absolutely, Aditya. Awesome. Good. Aditya has got it. Nice. Absolutely, Pranav. Wow. Hariharan also. Good. Guys, you are awesome. Everybody is getting the answer. Wow. Absolutely, mother. Okay. Can you proceed? Okay. Let's call this limit as L. Let's call this limit as L. Okay. Let's take log to the base e on both the sides. When I take log to the base e on both the sides, I'll get 1 by x ln of e to the power x by pi. Okay. So, let us use our little bit of log properties. This will be ln of e to the power x minus ln of pi by x. Okay. So, this will become x ln e. ln e will be 1 minus ln pi by x. Okay. So, when you divide by x, finally, you will end up getting 1 minus ln pi by x. Now, we all know that as x tends to infinity, any constant by x or any constant by x to the power k, k being a positive quantity will always be 0. So, this quantity will vanish. This quantity will vanish off and I'll end up getting only 1. Okay. So, now, this is actually ln of L or log of L to the base e, which is 1. So, L becomes e to the power 1, which is e. Okay. So, answer is e. Okay. Is this fine? So, I think we have done enough number of questions and this will give you a lot of idea about how to apply, you know, Lopital rule to solve 0 to the power 0 and infinity to the power 0 type of questions. Now, we'll spend few minutes solving, we'll spend few minutes solving questions based on Lopital's rule. Okay. So, let's talk about some Lopital rule question. Lopital also, we could not do a lot of questions. So, I wanted to do some questions on Lopital. Where is my limit gone? Okay. Anyways, I'll give you a question from my side. Okay. Let's take this question. Limit of x ending to 0. Okay. A x e to the power x minus B ln 1 plus x plus C x e to the power minus x. by x square sin x. This is given to us as a 2. Okay. So, again, I would like to repeat. It has been given to us that the limit of A x e to the power x minus B ln 1 plus x plus C x e to the power minus x by x square sin x is equal to 2. Okay. Find the value of A B C. Find the value of A B C. Oh, was it? Okay. This was an advanced question. Okay, Pranav. So, these kind of questions are either solved by use of expansions or by the use of Lopital. But I would suggest here use expansions as far as possible. Oh, sorry. Use Lopital as far as possible. Not expansions. Okay. This question is not that easy to solve in the first go. Many people would be applying Lopital directly to the question. Okay. Oh, Arithra has got the answer. Let's check Arithra whether it was correct. Awesome. She got it. Oh, my God. Very good, Arithra. Shashvat also got it. Awesome. Awesome. Awesome. You guys are rocking. Nice. Then I think I should wait for a few more minutes because I'm sure a few more people will answer now. Very good. Seriously guys, I was not expecting you to give the answer but you guys are phenomenal. Very good. Very good. Very good, Shashvat, Arithra. Anybody else who would like to contribute? Okay. See, before you start doing anything, you realize that your denominator was actually becoming zero as x tends to zero. Undoubtedly. Undoubtedly it would be zero. And numerator will also become zero as your x tends to zero. Undoubtedly. Correct. This will also become zero as x tends to zero. So it is a zero by zero form. It is a zero by zero form to begin with. So if it is a zero by zero form, we can apply Lopital rule. Please, please, please do not start applying Lopital rule till you are convinced it is a zero by zero or infinity by infinity form. If it is not, you need to first convert it just like we did it in the last few problems. Now, one small problem here before we apply Lopital, x square sine x, we have to use product rule in order to differentiate it. Correct. Don't be. And when we use product rule, that will become increasingly more ugly. Correct. It will become x square cos x plus 2x sine x. Okay. And then I'll start getting bigger and bigger and bigger expressions. Right. So what do we do is remember our last class I had told you before you apply Lopital rule. If you can make some cosmetic changes, please do that because it will make your life easy when you are differentiating it. So what I'll do, I will act smart over here. I will divide this by x, multiply this by x. Multiply this by x. Right. Why did I do that is because sine x by x will get neutralized and will become a one. Correct. And I will be left with an x cube in the denominator. Now, let me tell you x cube is much easier to deal with. Right. Because you can use your power rule of differentiation, you know, to differentiate it. So no product rule will be required to differentiate that. So these are some changes that if you do, it'll make really make your life super easy, super easy. Correct. Now, many people ask me, sir, are we allowed to do it? Yes, why not? Why not? If you have a factor which you can evaluate, you can definitely evaluate it. Okay. So that factor sine x by x, I can evaluate it as a one and keep it. Okay. So now when I apply Lopital, let me differentiate the numerator first. So when you differentiate the numerator first, it'll become a e to the power x plus x e to the power x minus b by one plus x plus c x minus e to the power minus x plus e to the power minus x. Okay. Denominator will give me three x square. Denominator will give me three x square. Okay. Now, as x sends to, as x sends to zero, you'll realize that your denominator is becoming zero. Your denominator is becoming zero. But your numerator, if you realize it is actually becoming a minus b plus c. It is becoming a minus b plus c. Right. What does it mean guys? Does it mean this is my answer? Of course not. Because I can't have a zero in the denominator. Never give me a two. So it gives me an indication that if this is supposed to happen, it can only happen when your numerator is also zero. When this term is also zero. This is a very critical step. See, unless it is a zero by zero form, your limit cannot be applied to it.  So denominator is zero. And let's say if your numerator is not zero, then your limit will be undefined. Your limit will be non-existent. But that is not the case with us. We have two as our answer. Correct. So if such a situation is arising, it indicates to the fact that a minus b plus c will have to be zero. That's your first equation. So this gives me the first equation. Are you getting my point here? Is this clear? Is this first step clear to everybody? This is very critical. Okay. So now again, if it is a zero by zero form, you can again apply L'Hôpital. Right? So if you apply L'Hôpital, what will it become? So it will become limit extending to zero. So it will become a e to the power x derivative remains e to the power x. This will become x e to the power x plus e to the power x. This will become plus b by one plus x the whole square. I hope you all know your differentiations well. Okay. Right. The prerequisite is you should know your basic differentiation very well. Okay. The derivative of this will be minus e to the power minus x plus x e to the power minus x minus e to the power minus x. Okay. Denominator would become a 6x. Denominator would become a 6x. Correct. Any doubt, any concern so far? Any question that how did you write the derivative of this like this? Any question like that? Do ask. Okay. Have a good look at it. Now denominator again is becoming a zero. Let us see what happens to the numerator. Numerator will become a 1 plus 0 plus 1 which is 2a. This will become a b. This will become a minus 2c. Correct me if I'm wrong. Okay. Now again, if this limit is to be evaluated, your numerator should also be a zero. This should also be a zero. Correct. Any questions here? Okay. So this gives me the second equation, my dear. This gives me the second equation. Getting the point? Okay. Now again, applying Lopital. Again, applying Lopital. Go up a little. Okay. Sure. Yeah, mother. I think this is what you wanted to see. Sorry. If I'm too fast, do let me know. I'll slow down. Okay. Could you explain how you got the second equation? Sure. However, see, if you put a zero here, what happens to the numerator? Just put a zero. So it'll become a, sorry, I like it in yellow. A 1 plus 0 plus 1. This will become b by 1 plus 0 whole square. This will become C minus 1 plus 0 minus 1. Correct. And denominator is a zero. So it will actually become 2a plus b. 2a plus b minus 2c. Okay. This will give me a zero. Oh, sorry. This, this is the, this divided by zero will be your outcome. But is this the answer right now? No. Correct. My answer is not this. So it must be of a zero by zero form. Are you getting my point? See, the only one form is there where you have a zero in the denominator, which is zero by zero form. No other indeterminate has a zero in the denominator. You look at all the seven forms. Only one form is a, is that form where you have a zero in the denominator. So numerator should also be zero. If it is to be evaluated, then denominator will never come out to be zero. Getting my point here. So two equations I have so far with me. I need a third one because three unknowns, three variables I need. Okay. Now let me first sanitize the data a little bit before I start applying L'Hôpital once again. So I'll group up some terms. For example, I can see two e to the power x over here. It doesn't look good, no? Writing the same term again and again. This will become c x e to the power minus x minus two e to the power minus x by six x. Okay. Let us apply L'Hôpital once again to this, but I will do it in the next page. I'll just take a snapshot of this. Yeah, there you go. So again, let us apply L'Hôpital. Let us apply L'Hôpital. So it'll become limit h tending to zero a two e to the power x. This will be e to the power x plus x e to the power x. This will become minus two b one plus x to the power three. This will become e to the power minus x minus x e to the power minus x plus two e to the power minus x by six. Is that fine? Okay. Now this is a stage where I think you will finally get your answer because the denominator has stopped becoming zero. So it is like an indication to you that boss, this is the last step of your problem. You don't have to go, you know, any further. Are you getting my point? Now when you put x to zero, it will become three a minus two b and and and and here I'll get a three c by six. This will become a two. Any mistake anywhere? Please do highlight. Please do highlight. Let's evaluate. Okay. So now we have three a minus two b plus three c is equal to 12 as our third equation. So let us call it what all equations we got? What all equations we got? We first got three a minus two b plus three c is equal to 12. What was the other equation that we got from the previous page? Can somebody tell me what are the equations that you got? I have to go to the previous page for that a minus b plus c is equal to zero. Thank you, Aditya. What is the second one? I forgot two a plus b minus two c. Okay. Very good. Two a plus b minus two c is equal to zero. Okay. Let's do one thing. Let us let us let us do one thing. Let us do one thing. Let's try to add these two. Okay. Let's write. Let's write. Yeah. Multiply this with a two and subtract it. Multiply this with a two and a subtract it with this. So that will give me a plus c is equal to 12. Correct. Let's add these two. You will get three a minus c is equal to zero. Correct. So from here, we can say for a is equal to 12 a becomes three. If a becomes three, c will become a nine. Correct. If c and c are nine, then b will become a 12. My goodness. This was a big problem and Arithra solved it like within one minute. How was that possible? Did you do this problem before Arithra or something like that? Oh, okay. Because this took this took us almost five minutes. I think more than that five to six minutes today morning. Okay. Right. But I think the idea is well set in, right? Would you like to do one more question of this time? Just one more, but not a bigger one. I'll give you a smaller one. The one which you can manage very easily. Okay. Let's do this one. A very small version of this. Anybody who is. Yeah. Sure mother will do one more. Anybody who wants to copy something from this page. Please do so because I'll be switching my board. This is a typical Lopital rule question. I mean, it's very difficult to solve it. Either you have to use expansion or your Lopital rule by any other method will become almost impossible to solve this question. Okay. One more question and then we'll move on to our new chapter. Our new chapter today is straight lines. Okay. Try this out. Very simple question. Very simple one. Find this limit limit extending to zero. Sign to X. Plus a sign X. By. X cube. Okay. If this is equal to. A finite value. Okay. Which is let's say L. Find a. And L. So. Neither they have given you the limit value. Nor they have given you the value of A. So they're asking. They just told you that this limit is a finite value. Of course, that means the limit exists. What is that value? And what should be the A value for that? Try it out. Right here. And if we had not done that, oh my God, I've been double triple the amount of time it would take. So that was a very smart move from us. So wherever you can, you know, do those minor changes so that you're differentiation becomes very easy. Go for those changes. Okay. What do you decided to change that answer? Aditya, because it was not correct. A value is, but not the L value. I think L you should reconsider. The limit is correct. A value is yes. There's a sign mistake in a value. Absolutely Aditya. Now you got it. Correct Abhinav. Correct Aditya. Correct Abhinav. Correct Aditya. Your A value is correct. Abhinav and Aditya. Go for L. L is also correct Aditya. Very good. Guys, all of you please participate. Let it be wrong here. What big deal in giving wrong answers? Right? But at least we'll learn, right? Correct Hariharan. Awesome. I want to name people over here. Please. Come on Aditya. What happened to you today? Come on. Anurag, Arjun. Come on guys. Bharat, Charan. Himanshu. Namrata. Nikhil. Advik. No problem. At least make an attempt to solve it. Max to max what? Wrong will happen. No. Not a big deal. Ryaan. Rishabh. Shreyas S. Shreyas K. Swaraj. Vaibhav. Very good Advik. That's absolutely correct. Okay. One more minute and then we'll start solving it. Correct front of. A is correct. L is also correct. See you got it. Almost everybody is getting it. So it's not difficult. Okay. Chalo guys. We'll solve this because we have a lot of grounds to cover. Correct now we know. That's absolutely correct. Now see, first of all if you see when x tends to 0, denominator and numerator both are 0. Right? Because you know sine 0 multiplied to A or not multiplied to A. Both of them will give you a 0 0. So you can apply a lot of details. This is a clear cut case where you can apply your LH rule. Correct. So when you apply your LH rule it will become limit.  Okay. Now if it is evaluated form then 0 will never come in the denominator. If 0 is coming in the denominator means numerator must also be 0. Correct? It can never happen that numerator is non-zero and denominator is 0. If that case will arise, no guys limit will not exist. Limit will not be a finite value. Getting your point. So limit, if limit is existing for this that is what the question is claiming. Then your numerator must also become a 0 as x tends to 0.  Means A plus 2 is 0. So A has to be minus 2. Well done. I think everybody got this correct? Okay. Now once you have got your value of A you can put it back in the question. Okay. So I will put it back in this question. By the way, since I have already done till this step I can put it in the second step only. So A is minus 2. So this becomes minus 2x by 3x squared. Okay. Let us say I decide to continue with the Lopita rule. So now if I apply Lopita rule once again it will become minus 4 sin 2x plus 2 sin x by 6x. Okay. Now many people say sir can I apply my standard trig limits over here? I don't want to do Lopita anymore. Yes. So now I will show you some mixed approach. Remember last class I told you that if you start with a Lopita, it is not mandatory that you need to end with a Lopita. Okay. Right now if I see this is a case where I can use my standard trig limits. So what I will do this 6x I will write it like this. Oh sorry. My bad. Yeah. Sorry. Like this. Yeah. One. One. One. One. Okay. So my answer will be minus 4 by 3 plus 2 by 6 which is clearly a minus 1. That's my answer. Okay. So L becomes minus 1. Correct Adrija. Correct. Correct Kartik. Very good. Right. Awesome. Thank you. So we will close this topic of limits. I think you have done enough limits. Thank you.


My name is Dennis Jennings. I'm here at the Predict Conference, the Fourth Predict Conference, as an attendee, and to learn a little bit more about artificial intelligence. So I'm here today to find out a little bit more about artificial intelligence. And one of my particular interests is how does, what is the impact of artificial intelligence from systems on the risks associated with online systems and the impact of bad actors? We're all aware, somewhat to my surprise, given my early involvement in the Internet, that all online systems, indeed all digital systems, are vulnerable. And we've discovered that bad actors globally are extremely powerful. As the old adage goes, the defenders of systems have to get lucky all the time, the bad actors have only got to get lucky once. So my interest in being here, apart from learning more about artificial intelligence, is what additional vulnerabilities do data-driven artificial intelligence systems create with bad actors for connected systems? Do they add to the risk? I'm particularly interested in the idea that artificial intelligence systems will drive systems that control our environment. So what happens when the bad actors corrupt the data, not just the algorithm, but the data? And what's the impact? What's the risk? The thing that worries me is the power of the bad actors. If we look at the enormous investments that the states and companies are investing in protecting online systems, what additional risks does AI create for AI-driven systems, and obviously for society and for the consumers? That's why I'm here.


What's up guys, this is Theron, and tonight we're taking another dive into the Parawatch wiki. Tonight's service started by user Cthulhuop on April 12th, 2012. It's called Straight to VHS, Sunday Dinner. Let's begin. The premise of a real commercial snuff film is by which filmgoers and filmmakers over the years. From urban legends regarding a suicide in the background of the Wizard of Oz, to the campaign of misinformation surrounding the Blair Witch project, audiences and directors have indirectly conspired to achieve the appearance of an authentic death on tape for decades. The irony is palpable. Records of genuine deaths can be obtained near effortlessly. News outlets provide endless footage of war. Meanwhile, one needs only crack open a history book to find countless images of execution, mass murder, and senseless violence. But these deaths are presented as informative rather than titillating, detached from the camera's hungry lens. They didn't die for our viewing pleasure. The snuff film is more intimate, more voyeuristic. Though it may frame itself as merely instructive, such as the seminal 1978 classic Faces of Death. This contrivance is merely to placate our sense of guilt long enough to watch someone die for our enjoyment. Isn't that the whole point? When Hadeshi Hino drugs, kidnaps, and dismembers of beautiful women over several hours in the 1985 Japanese horror film Guinea Pig 2, Flowers of Flesh and Blood, is it not clear this is for our own gratification? From the framing of the film, footage taken by the murder himself, presumed the murderer wants us to watch, even participate? The harder it is to distinguish from an authentic murder, the more tantalizing it becomes. We soothe our conscious by telling ourselves it's just a movie, all while a tiny voice teases us and thrills us with just a whisper. But what if it's not? This zealous dedication to versimilitude often has a cost. Hadeshi Hino has had to demonstrate his special effects to skeptical authorities on multiple occasions, even going so far as explaining them in another film, The Making of Guinea Pig. The director of Cannibal Holocaust in 1980 famously appeared in court with his cast to prove they were not actually dead.  The monkey was not harmed, the mouths were foam, and the brains were cauliflower. In 1983, Goldhouse Distributors released Sunday Dinner. The most well-known version is two and a half hours long. It consists of cuts between six different cameras hidden throughout a home. Over the first 45 minutes, we watch a family, a father, mother, two sons and a daughter, having an ordinary Sunday dinner. The grainy low-quality footage and lack of sound design help sell it as genuine. Then the footage cuts to the attic, messy but seemingly uninhabited. Back to the family heads bowed, the daughter is saying grace. Back to the attic. Everything lurches past the camera. There are no musical cues, no shocking sounds, merely the silent intrusion of something that does not belong. The effect of this is stunning on account of how it doesn't try to be. Back to the family enjoying dinner and chatting about each other's day. We learn one of the boys is having trouble at school, something about a bully. The mother disapproves of violence, but the father wants him to stand up for himself. The other son, desperate to avoid what is likely a recurring marital spat, interrupts by offering his latest scholastic achievement. He got a B-plus on his math exam. The father and mother put their dispute on hold long enough to express their pride. Meanwhile, the daughter complains of a tummy ache. Back to the attic. The figure now paces. We cannot make out his face, it's covered in a cruelly stitched burlap sack. It's only now that astute viewers start to identify clues that indicate his prolonged presence, empty tin cans, a filth-incristened bucket filled with presumably excrement, piles of clothes used as a bed. The shot lingers. For eight minutes, we watch him pace side to side. When he abruptly stops, it almost looks like he's staring up the camera. Cut back to the family dinner. All of them are now slumped in their chairs or over the table, paralyzed and whimpering. At this point, the film proceeds much as you would expect. The figure descends then methodically murders each paralyzed family member. The mother is crushed, bones snapping, when she is forced into the oven then roasted alive. The father is eviscerated, his intestines forced down his throat. Both sons are placed inside the refrigerator left to experience the agony of asphyxiation via carbon dioxide. The killer notably takes the time to carefully empty the refrigerator's contents before removing the shelves. The daughter is the last and most disturbing. This is on account of the paralytic, presumably placed on their food, partially wearing off. The audience is subjected to an excruciatingly extended scene where she crawls out to the porch sobbing and screaming for help, only to be dragged back inside by her ankle. Forty-five minutes later, the film ends. Unsurprisingly, this movie, made available on VHS through Goldhouse Distributors mail order catalog, caught the attention of law enforcement. The video was uncredited and the effects combined with the grainy low quality of the footage were good enough to make it seem too authentic. Compounding this problem was that Goldhouse Distributors, operated entirely by a married couple out of their living room, received the film from an anonymous seller. They couldn't prove it wasn't real. Was it, though? There were several clues, not the least of which that no murder like this had been recently reported. The positions of the cameras implied that they were not hidden at all. The timing of the killer's movements in that brief glance at the audience suggested the director's hand. The daughter's complaint of a tummy ache sounded like foreshadowing. The mother's death, while shockingly graphic, had the killer obstructing our view at several key points, points where she could have swapped places with the dummy. The porch camera was used only once at the end. Its placement was extremely convenient. How could the killer have known the daughter would crawl out the back door? But the most compelling argument of all was the simplest. Why? Why would someone go through the trouble of hiding several cameras in a family's house, secretly living in their attic, only to drug them, murder them, and then send the footage to a film distributor for public consumption? Despite these points, Goldhouse distributors removed Sunday dinner from their catalog and handed all extant copies over to the FBI. The intuiting investigation is still ongoing. The movie itself became a footnote in the history of exploitative shock horror. Then, during an interview in 2010 on TromaVision, a podcast for horror movies from various genres, Brian Holdinger, an independent filmmaker, professed his fascination with Sunday dinner. One of the hosts, an actress named Susan White, confessed a similar fascination. During the following discussion, they realized they had drastically different recollections of what happened in the film. To settle the debate, they agreed to bring in their copies and wash them together. They soon discovered that both owned completely different copies.  All three are drugged, butchered, then boiled alive. In White's, it's an elderly couple living alone. They're buried in a pit in their basement as they scream. It wasn't until January this year that they started finding bodies. What do you guys think? Is this real or is it too unbelievable? 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