Okay. I want to welcome everybody to the safe software supplier getting started guide and balsa overview two part webinar series with today being part two where we'll be discussing balsa. This webinar will be recorded just like yesterday's was recorded. So if you need the recording at a later date that will be provided and I believe everybody who's registered for this webinar will get an email link to them after the meeting closes. I want to start by introducing myself. My name is Lauren Russo. I work for the open group and I'm the form coordinator for the future airborne capability environment consortium. I also have here with me Dave Launsbury, the chief technical officer of the open group. And I'd like to introduce our panelists we have today. We have Dr. Alicia Taylor project and planning analyst supporting us army, PO aviation, and she also serves as the chair of the integration workshop standing committee. And we have Chris crook. He is a senior software analyst supporting us army PO aviation and an active member of the integration workshop. For those of you who are not familiar with the face consortium for government and industry collaborative organization that operates under the open group umbrella, which is a global organization that focuses on achieving business objectives through the use of open standards. The face consortium approach is a government industry software standard and business strategy that we use to enable folks to acquire affordable software systems rapidly integrate portable capabilities across global defense programs and attract innovation and deploy it quickly and I mentioned earlier that we developed through industry and government collaboration and we now have 90 plus organizations and over 1100 participants on our roster, which has grown exponentially over the last six years. The benefits of the government for using open standards collaborative approach between industry and government is better buying power, you increase competition, achieve affordability and control life cycle costs of the multiple programs for the various aircraft that are out there. We want to incentivize productivity and innovation and industry and government, and then ultimately reduce the software develop time, saving time and money through modularity and portability. Also for cross platform decision making for uses the primary use of the face approach, not investing multiple time for the same capability and enabling integration of cross program requirements. The industry benefits as well. The face approach enables industry to create software center product line opportunities to develop capabilities wants and use it for multiple customers across multiple platforms. It also provides opportunity for software capability across multiple aircraft types, which may have not been available before when they were supplying for one customer. It enables them to get into a market where multiple customers can benefit from the capability. It also lowers the cost of doing business if it's developed once the quality assurance is done once, and if it's proven once it's proven to work in the multiple environments. Standardization allows for rapid development of capabilities and reuse of software application enabled integrators to optimize platform performance. If they tested it once and integrated it once, the learning curve goes down and folks can do things more rapidly. And the ultimate goal is getting high quality capability to the warfighter faster and in a more cost effective way. For more information about the approach, you can find that on the face consortium landing page, www.opengroup.org. This is our public site. We do have a collaboration site that's used for members only. And if you're interested in joining the consortium or want some more information, we can get that to you by sending an email to ogface-admin at opengroup.org. On the landing page, it will give you information on the current consortium activities, membership, published documents and tools that we use for developing the face software, recent procurements, and a link to the face registry as well as how to navigate the conformance program. On our landing page, you'll find a section called documents and tools. And under that section, you can find our newly published documents as well as the newly published software supplier getting started guide, which will give you a little bit more information about shortly. And then also on the main open group website, www.opengroup.org, under publications, you can search for the software supplier getting started guide in the bookstore and you can download a copy of it like it shows on the screen. With that, I'd like to introduce our next presenter, Alicia Taylor, who's going to give you a bit of background on the integration workshop standing committee and the software supplier getting started guide. Thank you, Lauren. The integration workshop standing committee has actually developed a software supplier getting started guide. And I put our charter up here and I wanted just to kind of touch on a couple of things. Notice the second bullet in our charter says that we are to discover, evaluate and produce face reference implementation examples, facilitate adoption and publication of those reference examples. So this is a perfect example of what we've done with the software supplier getting started guide and then also Balsa. I've also included a couple of things that the integration workshop is responsible for. We typically read and review the papers that are presented at the TIM meeting in conjunction with a technical working group. Notice that I've got some information about Balsa, which I'll talk about a little bit later and Chris will go into much more detail, but most of the exhibitors at the TIMs and the conferences actually are using Balsa as an example code. And then we do the bits event, which is also just an integration event which allows companies to integrate their product with Balsa just as a learning by doing approach. And then we've done a code challenge. The code challenge actually started with five college students or actually university students. Four were undergraduate and one was a graduate student. They developed the first kind of the initial code for Balsa. And they did that working with Joel Sherrill, who's been one of our primary developers of Balsa, and then also John Stow, who was a previous chair or co-chair of the integration workshop standing committee. If you would like to get involved in the face consortium and interested in the integration workshop, we would love to have you. So I just wanted to touch on a few things, and then I'm going to jump in. I'll provide just a little bit of overview on the kind of the table of contents and then the lead-in to what Chris is going to talk about. So just bear with me and let me share my screen. Looking at the table of contents, notice the software supplier getting started guide is relatively short. And I use that in terms of some of the other face consortium documents. The idea behind it was to reference something. If we can pull it down, show you a little bit of how to work it. That's what we want to do, and then kind of get you on to something else or have it reference additional documentation. So each one of these sections, notice there are about five pages or less. It starts out with just a background and scope, highlighting some of the primary documents to the face consortium, some of the publications that would benefit you as a software supplier. Setting up the environment, 2.2, 2.3, 2.4, those deal primarily with Balsa, and then there are additional appendices that go into more examples. So let's skip down to the background and scope. Software supplier getting started guide is designed to be a navigational quick start guide for software suppliers. The software supplier getting started guide is not an introduction to the overall face approach. There are other documents that we recommend that if you're looking for an introduction to the face approach, this is primarily for software suppliers, meaning anyone who's interested in finding out more information about our programming to the face approach or the face technical standard. I mentioned Balsa. Balsa is the basic avionics lightweight source archetype. It's an application being used as just an on-ramp example. The whole philosophy behind this was learning by doing, using a hands-on approach allows you to learn better. There are four primary goals to provide start-up guidance, direction to basic primary documents. I saw Lauren earlier reference the face landing page, and then she also showed the documents and tool page. All of these documents are available on that documents and tool link. They're available to download and free to you. It introduces you to an example face application. It provides the user to software to increase your knowledge. Again, I mentioned learning by doing, and then it allows you to gain understanding of the basic verification process. Hopefully, if you're developing software, you want to take it through the VA and the CA. Primary documents. As I mentioned, Lauren referenced the main web page. Under that, you can do documents and tools. We recommend that you use the most current additions available unless you are contractually required to do otherwise. I mentioned that you are able to download these. However, you will need to sign up with basic information and name and a valid email address. The face technical standard is basically our keystone document. With each technical standard, we have a corresponding rig, shared data model, data model and governance plan, conformance matrix verification, and conformance test suite. Just a quick information. The rig or the reference implementation guide supports the technical standard. It presents best practices. It also provides implementation scenarios. In other words, it provides you more of a guide on how to do some things with a lot more information. Conformance publication documents. It's very important that we have the business aspect, the technical aspect. We also want to make sure that software is conformant with a face technical standard. You do that by testing through the conformance test suite. Then there's basic information there as well. With that, I want to point out that it's very important if you're running the conformance test suite, you want to run it from the very beginning on. Then you also want to make sure that the conformance test suite aligns with the same face technical standard that you're working with. Third party website or third party tools are available on the face website as well. Those are just vendor provided products that are available. They have not been through or vetted through the open group for the face consortium. I just wanted to point that out. If you were on the website or if you were on the WebEx yesterday, we also looked a lot more in-depth at this PRCR process. We looked at a little bit at data modeling, but Steven Simi from TS Savvy actually pulled up a conformance test suite around the data model through there to show that it did conform. Any additional questions before I turn it over to Chris to talk a little bit more about Chapter 2 and Balsa? Then if not, Chris, I will pass the ball to you. Thank you. Thank you, Alicia. You ready here? So good afternoon, everyone. Today I'll be going through the Balsa overview, which is summarized in the chapter that Alicia left off on in the software supplier getting started guide. This overview is just a more in-depth dive than the chapter in the software supplier getting started guide. So I'll just, without further ado, we'll go ahead and jump in.  It's an acronym that stands for Basic Avionics Lightweight Source Archetype. It serves as a working example of a implemented face architecture, which includes backend implementations of a transport service segment, an input outputs service segment, and a partially implemented OSS. It also includes a PCS and four PEE-TRIPLE-S applications that run within it. And by right now what is known as Balsa, the name includes the reference implementation and those five applications. So it includes examples of an iOSS, TSS, one PCS, four PEE-TRIPLE-S UOCs, which all are aligned to the safety base OS profile, with the exception of the TSS. Those are currently aligned to safety extended. There is an HMFM API that is located in the OSS segment. And there's also a early adaptation of the 3.0-aligned configuration API, which since it's everything in Balsa right now is aligned to 2.1, it's just treated as a custom API. But it was a way for us to kind of get started and see and kind of realize what one aspect of what was soon to be 3.0. For the operating system segment, we assume the POSIX API. And for our applications that actually run in the reference architecture, we base it off of ADS-B as a real-world open example of a small avionics process that would effectively demonstrate all face segments. The goals of Balsa, the primary one, is just to kind of get people involved in face and kind of serve as something that technical people could put their hands on and really see how the face technical standard can be realized. It's not an end-all be-all of a face reference architecture. It is merely an example of what you could do. And for a lot of people, myself included, it's when you really start connecting the dots, you actually put your hands on a piece of code and see a realization of a TSS and IOSS and say, oh, I see what they did there. Okay. And then see how the APIs are an example of how the APIs are meant to be realized. One of the secondary goals is to provide a trading pattern and a code base that we can use for advancing the technical standard. The 2.1-aligned Balsa served as a area of back for the technical standard. We followed a great number of CRs to the technical standard by basically just going through Balsa, creating it, and adding capabilities to it. A secondary goal is also just to provide vendors an example that they can use to integrate their own components that basically say you have a vendor that is going to create a PCS and they need a TSS to test with it. This is a great way for them to have a baseline that they can use that way they don't have to go out on their own. And Balsa is a really good tool for that. I know there are a few companies that are using pieces of Balsa in that aspect already. So it's just a baseline out there for people to use. Target audience, primarily face application developers, but also consortium members and working groups evaluating potential changes is a good way for, like, say, the Transport Service segment subcommittee can advance it and use it to test out possible changes in future versions of the technical standard just as an example. Those evaluating, integrating face in other standard environments and for vendors to use as a baseline architecture for demonstrations. A lot of vendors use Balsa as their architecture when they demonstrate things at the technical interchange meetings and things of that nature. So what Balsa does, once again, is a simple version of a basic ambionics process. It has one PCS that combines logical inputs from two PCS components. I'm sorry, PSS components, sorry. To provide information to a third PSS component, which writes ADSB output using an ADSB encoding library. The two inputs the PCS gets from the two PSSs are position and altitude from one and from the other call sign and aircraft ID. And the system output is, that actually goes out of the PSS layer and into the iOSS and out to wherever it's going is two messages that are encoded using the ADSB library and they are position and call sign. I won't read through all of this, but this is the actual data flow complete with the connection names that the TSS uses. The TSS currently has three connections. One is EGI data, that is your position and altitude data that comes in. Your air config data or AIR CFG, which we call it for short data. That's your call sign and aircraft ID that comes up through the TSS to the PCS component. And then the combined message that the ATC manager PCS component creates based off of all that data is the ATC data connection, which goes back into the TSS and down back to the P3S where it is encoded using the ADSB library and then sent out over in iOS. Here is the face boundary diagram for Balsa. At the top in the segment you have your ATC manager.  That ADSB in basically just reads in the data that goes out over ADSB out and listens for other traffic out as well. In your iOS services segment you have your UDP reader and writer, which uses just an internet device driver at the OSS. You have an EGI input output adapter, which the default one uses just basic file IO device drivers. In your operating service segment you have your health monitoring fault management. And if this was 3.0 we would have our configuration services down there, but since it's not actually part of the OSS profile for 2.1, it's not on this diagram because it's considered a custom API. Over on the far right on your transport service segment we utilize the type abstraction API and that's where we store all of our capabilities in the TSS with the config UOC. And in the type abstraction we have transport, distribution, configuration, and marshaling capabilities all within that UOC. Here's just an example of the data flow in Balsa just as default, which currently the EGI controller reads its information from a comma separated value file, which has an IO adapter that reads directly from that. Aircraft config gets its call sign and tail number from just a hard coded file, which it reads in via configuration services. Both of those inputs go out to the TSS. ATC manager receives those from the TSS, creates its new message, sends that back out to the TSS, ADSB out, receives that message, encodes the ADSB call sign and position message, and sends those out using the UDP writer instance. Ethernet device driver sends it out, UDP reader at the iOSS receives in that data, and the ADSB in listens for any ADSB messages that are received. Okay, Balsa EGI details. Now what this basically means is the way we designed the EGI, and this is just another example of separation of concerns in face, we tried to leave the EGI controller and the P-TRIPLE-S as agnostic as it can be as far as how it gets its data. So basically it has no clue where it's getting its data, it just knows it's supposed to receive a position message, and that's it. So we abstracted the actual method for how it gets its data into an IO adapter. And right now we have as default just an IO adapter that reads from a comma separated value file. There was one that was developed in cohesion with AMRDEC that allows you to use a GPS device driver. And really all you need to do is if you bring in your own device driver, I'm sorry not device driver, IO adapter for the EGI to use, all you need to do is just recompile with that particular IO adapter, and it's ready to go. You don't actually have to touch the EGI whatsoever. There's also as an optional IO adapter, there's one that allows you to receive a position message from a disk stream. So that's in the source distribution as well. Current Balsa status is currently designed using shared data model version 2.1.34, which has been through PAO approval, and it's aligned to TechStandard 2.1.1. The UOP supplied model does pass the conformance test suite. There are artifacts available for the ATC manager PCS component. Those are complete. We sent them to the VA and we're having to make some modifications and we're currently awaiting some of those back. And that's about it for that. All 2.1 UOCs currently pass the conformance test suite. Here's pretty much the details on all of that, the HMFM. We have never tested because it's an OSS provided API, and the configuration services is a capability that's going to be realized in version 3.0 of the TechStandard, so there's not a method to test for it as of right now. And once again, it's considered an OSS provider. But as you can see, all except the TSS are aligned to safety base. With the exception of the type specific, it passes this type abstraction and the TSS combined UOC are aligned to and pass the safety extended OS profile. Here's just another expanded view of the conformance status for each UOC, whether or not they pass, and artifacts, and just notes on what the status is as of right now. One of the big ones is the TSS type abstraction. It'll pass TS 2.1, but it would notionally fail a 2.1.1 test. Just some expanded views on some of the components before I actually run the program itself. At the PEE-TRIPLE-S layer, you have the aircraft config. As stated before, reads intel number and aircraft ID via configuration services, sends data in the form of aircraft config message to the TSS. And there's an example window of the console window that it creates once you instantiate the software and just a diagram view of the components that it uses. Over at the EGI, PEE-TRIPLE-S component reads in position and time, which the time is realized as duration in seconds, and it reads those in via the iOSS, sends data in the form of an EGI data message to the TSS, and it currently uses an IO adapter which reads data from the CSV file. There's an example console window of it processing its inputs. There's an expanded view of it, of the APIs that it touches. ATC manager, PCS component, receives the aircraft config and EGI data messages from the TSS, combines the input messages into ATC data message, sends them to the TSS. And once again, there's the console window and expanded view of the APIs it touches. ADSB out, PEE-TRIPLE-S, that's the one that receives the ATC data message from the TSS and encodes data received, an ADSB call sign and position message using the ADSB library, and it sends ADSB messages to the iOSS, which in turn sends those out in its manner. ADSBN receives incoming ADSB message from the iOSS. It decodes the message using the ADSB library and updates known aircraft with new position and call sign. And here's just an expanded view of how the Balsa TSS is designed. It currently uses three UOCs. It's got a type specific, a type abstract, and then a combined library for every configured connection. It creates an instance of both a protocol and a transport that are managed by a connection class instance. And currently it's capable of using UDP multicast, TCP multicast, or a face multiplex connection, which relies on UDP protocol. Here's an expanded view of the iOSS design for Balsa. It's built into a single UOC that uses UDP multicast to read and write, and additional IO transports can be added with minimal impact to existing UOC, and the EGI uses an application-specific layer, meaning that the EGI IO adapter is compiled separately. That's considered a Balsa specific and not a part of the reference architecture, if that makes sense. And also, the way that we designed the iOSS and the TSS, we designed it to where it can be easily added onto. So you can add on your own connection types, like for instance, let me back up to Transport Service. You can add your own transport or protocol classes without actually having to touch anything else. And the same goes for the iOSS. You can add your own capabilities without impacting the rest of it. Here's just a breakout view of the file structure for Balsa. Pretty much anything that's Balsa specific. And what I mean by that is PCS, P3S components, your data structures, for the EGI, its IO adapter, pretty much anything that's specific to applications that will function in the reference architecture are located in the Balsa subdirectory. That way they're completely separate from all the reference architecture back-end services. Those are in a FACE subdirectory, which you can see has configuration HMFM, iOSS, TSS, and then there's a Helpers API, which helps the applications use certain services. And then there's the ADSB encoding and decoding library. This list is separate. So basically the three of these are three separate entities. You have your Balsa applications and application-specific code. You have your reference architecture directories and you have your ADSB library. Compiling and running Balsa. Balsa was designed to basically run on a Unix-like environment. Currently, it will operate on Red Hat, CentOS, 6N7, Raspbian, and Ubuntu. It's built, compiled using a simple make file. Just do a simple make, make clean to clean your build, and there's a launch script that launches everything. So it's meant to operate on open source operating systems, was not designed with anything proprietary in mind. However, from what we've heard, there's been some success with running it on different operating systems. And that's it. Let me demonstrate it actually working. Here is your ATC manager receiving its two inputs. Here's your aircraft ID, which once again reads in its information via configuration services. There's nothing for it to scroll through because it just reads it in once. There's your ADSB out, your ADSB in, and your EGI that is sending to your ATC manager. One main feature that usually people notice is if you notice the altitude for ADSB in and out, they are seemingly rounded. That is just a limitation of the ADSB library and the ADSB standard. It's specific to, I think, 25 feet, which is why it looks rounded to every 25 feet. But that's it. Just to stop it, just return, and that's it. Great. Thanks, Chris. For those of you who are attending this, if you have any questions, we have a Q&A feature where you can chat a question if you have any for Chris or Alicia in the box. And we'll give you a few minutes to see if anybody has any questions. What information is available related to Balsa if I'm someone new trying to get everything up and going? What do I have access to to help me get Balsa up and running? Well, there is a very detailed readme file that goes through setting up Balsa, running it, and also setting up a conformance test suite build to test Balsa with and how to compile for conformance versus compiling for operation. There's also a Balsa guide that is available to the consortium, and it's on the BITS Play Doh website, and it's got, it has detailed all the way down to the individual files in Balsa, and the reference architecture builds all the way down to what each file does. So it's detailed on how it's not only designed but built and how it runs. Okay, I see a couple of questions coming in. Mark wants to know, does the Balsa example require Corba tools to build? No. No, it does not. And Phil wants to know when and where can we get these updated slides? I can post these to the BITS website. This is just my, the slides I showed was just my personal copy, but there should be an updated slide deck on the BITS Play Doh website. If not, I can just post the ones that I did for this webinar to there. And just to follow up as well, everybody who did attend this session will get an email link to this recording. So you can go back that way as well, but they can be posted to the base consortium Play Doh site. And Chris, other people are creating questions. I noticed on the call yesterday there was some questions about Balsa migrating to Text Standard 3.0. I know that it's currently aligned with Text Standard 2.1. Can you kind of talk about the plans to align Balsa with 3.0? Good question. As of right now, we are doing a very minimal 3.0 implementation using, we've taken the HMFM and done a 3.0 realignment of that. We're working on configuration service right now. And all this is basically to reinforce testing out 3.0 and the new IDL bindings. Currently, we've built the new support classes aligned to the 3.0 Text Standard and checked those out. In the future, we'll add a minimum grade over the TSS, leave the IOSS, and create a new PCS and P3S instance design. And we'll see when and how long that will take to implement. At this time, I do not know. Great. So we haven't had any additional questions come in at this point. So if you do have questions after the fact, the webinar ends, you can send them over to ogface-admin at opengroup.org. And we'll definitely go ahead and get those questions answered for you. And with that, I'd like to thank Alicia and Chris for taking the time to present. Thank you, everybody, for joining. Thank you, Simon, for running this for us. And everybody keep an eye on your email and you'll have a copy of the recording later on today. Thanks, everyone.


Theater. Harry Grant and Gene Crane in People Will Talk. Ladies and gentlemen, your producer, Mr. Irving Cummings. Ladies and gentlemen, ladies and gentlemen. If you saw Twentieth Century Fox's fine drama, People Will Talk, I'm sure you continued to talk about it long after you left the theater. Above is unusual dramatic ingredients. The mysterious and romantic Dr. Praetorius. And a frightened and desperate girl who turned to him for help and understanding. And of course you recall the outstanding performances of the stars who portrayed these two central figures. The week we have invited Harry Grant and Gene Crane to recreate their exceptional roles in People Will Talk. Now act one of People Will Talk, starring Harry Grant as Dr. Noah Praetorius and Gene Crane as Deborah. Several years ago, a young and wealthy doctor came to the university. He came for two purposes. To teach medicine and to open his own hospital clinic near the counter. In both endeavors, Dr. Praetorius has attained remarkable success. But he remains very much a man of mystery. Well, it's early evening. At his clinic, Dr. Praetorius has just completed the rounds of his patients. And now in his office... I'll have the other reports from the lab in the morning, doctor. What about Mrs. Adams? She's running on the test. How was she when you made this one? Depressed? Excited also. Well, when you run it again, call me. We'll make a laugh through the next one. See what happens with a different set of emotional factors. Well, if you like. May I see you now, Dr. Praetorius? Well, nurse. It's Mrs. Fawcett. She's nearly ready to go home, but she wants to take her gallbladder with her in a bottle of alcohol. I think that's quite touching that I have it. But you know we don't keep gallbladders lying about once they've been removed. This peg whistle is highly unlikely that Mrs. Fawcett would recognize her own, so why don't you just give her any old gallbladder and make her happy? Oh, very well. If those are your orders. Oh, what about the girl in 204? Deborah Higgins? I've just been in to see her. I've left full instructions with the charge, nurse. I'll see her again first thing in the morning. Thank you, doctor. Now, may I see you, doctor? Come in, Miss Fillmore. Rebellion in the diet kitchen, I presume? Doctor, unless all the patients have served breakfast at the same time, I simply cannot run the kitchen without present personnel. Then hire more help. But it is common practice in hospitals. Miss Fillmore, in my clinic, no patient shall be awakened from a health-giving sleep and forced to eat breakfast at a time which happens to please a culinary union. But in the interest of good economy... Bad therapy is never good economy. Now, if you must economize, do it in the doctor's dining room. Oh, and while I think of it, Mrs. Fawcett. Yes, sir. I would not have all the patients bathed at the stroke of a gong for the convenience of the nurses.  Oh, of course, Dr. Petorius. All right. If anything comes up, you can reach me at the University Orchestra rehearsal till 10.30. I'll be home at 11. Good night, all. Thank you. You can get the car, Mr. Shundersfield. Orchestra rehearsal? Someday I'll discover something he can't do. He conducts the orchestra. Wouldn't miss it for the world. Thank you, gentlemen. Tonight, for the first time your attack was not pre-medical. The horns did not sound as if they'd been sterilized and our violins at long last indicate a realization that cat-cuts can create notes as well as sutures. Now, if it were not for the gentleman in back of the bull fiddle, well, Dr. Barger, now, is there any reason why you, who live so intimately with millions of neutrons and know them all by name, cannot maintain a simple beat on a bull fiddle? My only mistake is that I follow your beat religiously. I do not mean to impugn your academic standing, of course. My dear Dr. Petorius, I would willingly entrust my life to your skill as a surgeon, but I would not permit you to conduct my three-year-old nephew to the bathroom. The fact remains that I am the conductor and you pay no attention to me. I pay absolute attention. That's the trouble. Unfortunately, Dr. Barger, you are the only one in our group who possesses the bull fiddle. Now, let us hope that by next rehearsal the two of you will have become better acquainted. Well, that's all, gentlemen. Thank you very much. Shall I get the car? Drive it home, Mr. Shunderson. I'll ride with Dr. Barger. Oh, and, uh, don't wait up. You'll make me very unhappy unless you go straight to bed. Good night, Dr. Mr. Shunderson is not ill. No, just old. I keep forgetting he can't stand these long hours anymore. Noah, something I want to talk to you about. Here and now? Yes, while it's fresh in my mind, just for a minute. Well, sit down.  Now, first, I want you to know that I am your good and devoted friend. Now, I've been aware of that for some time, and I am yours. Then believe me, please, when I tell you there is trouble brewing. Professor Elwell and certain other members of the faculty, they've started to rummage about in your past. Noah, it's serious. Let them rummage. They're spitting into the wind. Noah, can Elwell dig up anything that conceivably would discredit you enough to justify a hearing before a faculty committee? How much discredit is enough? I have known you intimately for ten years, but I can't even guess at what you were up to the day before I met you. I suppose I told you all. Could it affect our friendship? Oh, of course not. Well, then? Well, tell me just this then. Shunderson, who is he, Noah? Why is he with you day and night, everywhere you go? I've got no right to tell even you anything about Mr. Shunderson. Well, can Elwell uncover something about his past, or yours, or both, that he can use to make trouble? That depends. Well, shall we go? You can be very exasperating, you know. Drop me by the clinic first, will you? I want to look in on a patient. At this hour? No, I know. You don't happen to have a student by the name of Deborah Higgins, do you? Higgins. No. No Higgins is. Well, she stopped by this afternoon for a checkup, and as she was leaving, she paused in the corridor, took out a small revolver, and shot herself.  Yeah. That's a good thing most people have in their foggiest notions, where the heart is actually located. She'll be all right, just a superficial wound. Why did she try to kill herself? You know, I imagine that when people need help the most, it must sometimes seem as if they were all alone in the world. Isn't that true? That's no answer. However, if she is still all alone, you know, if there is still no one to help her, she'll try again. Won't she? As I said before, drop me by the clinic first. Who is it? Dr. Pretoy. See, don't turn on the light. You've been crying again. Is that it, Deborah? Have I? That's a pretty good guess, when a woman wants the light kept off.  You know all about women, don't you? Not nearly enough. I don't mean just as a doctor. Not even as a doctor. Deborah, I've got something to tell you. And as a pompous know-it-all... I didn't mean to call you that this afternoon, really. Even when I said it. As a pompous know-it-all, it isn't going to be easy. Now, when you came to see me and I told you that you were going to have a baby, I also mentioned the remote possibility that the laboratory diagnosis could be wrong. Those fog tests, remember? Well... Well, the diagnosis wasn't wrong. The fog reacted perfectly. You merely got the wrong report. I... I what? You see, two tests were being run at the same time. Through unforgivable negligence, you were given a Mrs. Bixby's report. And you mean I'm... I'm not having a baby after all. You're not having a baby after all. You've got nothing to worry about. Oh, that's what you think. Well now, what are you crying about? This is just awful. What is? I just think I had to go and tell you all about myself. And now it turns out I didn't really have to. Now, as a matter of fact, you told me very little. Something about a young man who used to be a student here. You were going to be married when he came back, but he was killed in Korea.  Well, it's good to have someone to tell it to. But not to you. Well, why not? Oh, never mind. Oh, but at least now my father won't have to know. From what you said about your father, I've got to understand why you'd be afraid of him. Afraid of him? Oh, no. He's the most gentle and understanding man in all the world. But you see, I'm all you've got. And if this had happened, it would have killed him.  Oh, and now you tell me it was all just a mistake in the laboratory. Well, I am. I'll see you in the morning. Dr. Pretorius. Yes? Are all your patients women? Almost. I guess they all fall in love with you. Not all of them? Just most. Not even most. Good night, Deborah. Sleep well. What a mess. Oh, what a mess. Now, help yourself, Lionel. Not first, sauerkraut and beer. Mmm, smells delicious. Believe me, if it were not for your knock for after rehearsals, I would resign from your orchestra. Now, tell me, you're patient at the clinic. Maybe now you'll tell me why she shot herself. Because of an unpremeditated baby. Can I stop by to tell her she was not pregnant after all? Oh, lost the baby, huh? Was it shock or when she fell? She was pregnant now as she ever was. Well, then why in the name of good sense tell her that she isn't? You know, having a baby, my dear boy, that's not the state of mind part of the pickles. I have two reasons. One, to get her a good night's sleep. And the second, to keep her from trying suicide again until I can find her father and talk with him. What has her father got to do with it? She's got an unshakable conviction that the knowledge of what she has done will kill him. And you intend to talk him into clicking his heels with joy? I intend to convince him either to be compassionate about it or to convince her that her father will survive and her chief responsibility is to the baby.  What is my business, Lionel? Oh, to diagnose physical ailments and to alleviate them? No. My business is to make sick people well.  Wonderful sauerkraut. That tastes like sauerkraut used to taste. Ah, tell me this, Jonathan, you'll be pleased. Hello? When? Oh, I see. No, no, no. Don't do that. Don't notify the police or anyone else. I'll take care of it in the morning. Keep looking, of course. Let me know if you find her. Good night. Who floored the coop, that young lady? Yes. Why? I don't know, but I've got to find her. Yes, I should think so. It seems you've got some important information about her that she hasn't got. But, Noah, be careful. Whatever you do, remember, Professor Elwell is going to find out about it, if he possibly can, he will use it against you. Where would she go, Lionel? Where? Well, to her gentle and understanding father, of course. Yeah, yeah. You're right. We decided to take a Sunday morning drive out in the country, Mr. Shunderson and I. And, oddly enough, Mr. Higgins, we found ourselves. I can't tell you how delighted I am, Dr. I've heard so much about you from my daughter. Have you, Mr. Higgins? Well, won't you, Mr. Shunderson, come up on the porch and sit down? Thank you. Well, fortunate you and Deborah were such good friends when she had that ridiculous little accident. I still don't understand how a girl can accidentally burn a deep well on her side with a curling iron. Hmm? Well, it's not uncommon for women, female students in particular, to curl their hair, eat, read and telephone all at the same time. The results often are disastrous. Yes, I imagine it could have been worse. Much worse. I happen to be devoted to porch sitting here, but if you'd rather go inside... No, this is very pleasant. And I see that you're properly protected against too much fresh air. You don't believe in the benefits of fresh air? I do not. Nor do I believe that eating fish develops a brain. Oh, I could go on for days. You must tell that to Deborah. She's forever driving me out of the house. Father, I've been on time. Father, I see. Hello, Doctor. Hello, Mr. Shunderson. Good morning, Miss. I was wondering about that nasty little burn you got from the curling iron. Oh, it's, uh, fine. Well, it's been almost a week. And since we happen to be driving out this way... Surely you and Mr. Shunderson will join us for dinner. No, no, really. We couldn't impose upon you. Doctor Petorius must have more important matters. Nonsense! We can't let them drive miles to get here and come away on bed. We'll be happy to stay. Have you been here long? Your father and I have just been getting acquainted. Doctor Petorius has a way of knowing people very well, very quickly. After all, you've told me so much about him. Father, I'm not at all sure that it's good for you to be out of doors. There is nothing healthier than fresh air. Don't you have something to do in the kitchen? I haven't the slightest intention of leaving this porch. It also seems that Deborah's told me a great deal about you, Mr. Higgins. Well, there wasn't much to know, was there? The number of accomplishments in my life is one, Deborah. Quite an accomplishment. If you don't mind, I'd rather not be discussed this intimately on the front porch. On the front porch or in the test tube, it's obvious that you are going to be discussed. So why don't you insist on remaining where you're not wanted? Well, why should you want to discuss me? There's nothing to discuss. Is there? Deborah, it's quite apparent that Dr. Petorius has come to talk with me. Now go and tell Bella that there'll be two extra for dinner. Well, what about Uncle John? He's doing his books. I'll tell him later. I would like to help. Oh, no, no, please, Mr. Shunderson. It isn't necessary. Oh, let him. It's a good idea. He'd be of great help. May I ask, is Mr. Shunderson your servant? No, he's my friend. But he likes to help, I see. I referred to Deborah a moment ago as the only accomplishment of my life. I'm sure you were being modest. Well, he's more than my only accomplishment. If you'll permit a rather urethane allergy, Deborah is my heartbeat. Mr. Higgins, now, please don't feel, but you have to tell me anything. No, no, no, I want to tell you about myself for just a moment. Now, my brother John owns this farm. He owns the food I invited you to share and the beds we sleep in and the clothes we wear. Also, Deborah's tuition and the tobacco in my pipe. The pipe is mine. I have other possessions, some scrapbooks, a thin volume of poetry, mine, too. It was published, but it didn't sell, of course, and Deborah, the memory of my wife. I wondered about her. She died when Deborah was very little. And now, if you'll excuse me, I'll find brother John. Now, perhaps it would be better if we didn't fail. Oh, please, please, I'd consider it a favor. I won't be long. Now, Mr. Sanders, then, I thought you were helping in the kitchen. The woman didn't want me. It's not going to be easy what you came here for. I came here to...  Come on, let's go for a walk. Oh, now, that was a very fine meal, Mr. John. Then he ain't turning without chicken.  Only on Sundays.  Why not eat it more often? Because I only eat it on Sundays. Uncle John lives according to a very strict schedule. Two things I live by. The good book and the calendar. I get the day's work to do every day in the year. I take care of my work and the good book takes care of me. Then you do the same thing every day of the year. Is that it? Just like the cows and horses and vegetables. That's what the good lord and old mother nature put us here for. To do the job they set out for us. Well, I can't speak for the good lord, of course, but I know a little about old mother nature. If old mother nature had her way, there wouldn't be a human being alive. How do you mean that, John? I mean, among other things, that old mother nature tries to destroy us periodically by pestilence, disease and disaster. That's why the human race has been at war with old mother nature ever since it became the human race. What do you mean? Is that what you teach? That nearly happens to be my opinion. Well, I'm going back on working on my books, income tax. Ain't complaining at all, got more deductions than I thought. Doc, do you mind if I put you and your friend down as a couple of feed salesmen? Oh, no, Mr. Shunderson and I are flatter. Just don't call me Doc. That way I deduct the whole dinner. Just don't play the radio too loud while I'm working out there. No, John. Deborah, why don't you show Dr. Pretorius the farmer? I'm sure he'd be interesting. All right. I'll get a sweater and meet you outside. Tell me, Mr. Hagan, how old were you when you learned to walk? I did pretty well by the time I was four. When did you leave the farm? When I was sixteen. I couldn't have taken you twelve years to make up your mind. I'll wait for Deborah out on the floor. Do you enjoy music, Mr. Shunderson?  Good. I'll turn on the radio. Mr. Shunderson, Dr. Pretorius has come here to ask Deborah to marry him. Hasn't he? I wouldn't be surprised, Mr. Higgins. John, well, this is the dairy. The cows are out in the pasture. Doing the job, good old Mother Nature gave them, huh? Uncle John has eight cows. Of course, that's far more milk butter and cheese than we need, for we sell the rest in town. That makes it a commercial enterprise and he can ride off. The dairy and the equipment and the cows. Oh, my, all that book work. No, I think I like the dairy best of all. Now, down there is the room for the separator and things. Oh, I'd stay out of there if I were you. You might get caught in the room with a dead end. Now, why did you run away from the clinic? This, of course, is the separator where the cream gets separated from the milk. Why did you run away? It works by centrifugal action. The cream being lighter than the milk rises to the surface. Because I had to. Why? I had to, that's all. Why? Because... Why? I had reasons. What? They were private and personal. You know, I don't have to tell you everything. Why? I'm in love with you. What makes you think so? I can't give you symptoms. It's love, not measles. Hmm. Am I being pompous again? Well, there are some things you can't be scientific about. Even so. Now, why should that make you want to run away in the middle of the night and throw up in slippers? I didn't want to see you the next morning. I wanted to see you. Not if I knew about you, what you knew about me you wouldn't want to. Possibly. I don't know. A person just doesn't fall in love that fast for that often. I just couldn't lie there anymore and think about it. Oh, don't you see, if I do love you, then how could I have been in love with him? And if I didn't love him, then why? Oh, and anyway, I did. Why did I have to go and tell you about it? Turn around. Are you crying again? No. I just want to run away again. No, no more running away. You know you were right about your father. I couldn't have told him. You'd have understood but I couldn't have told him. Certainly you couldn't have.  Why did you come out here? Hmm? What do you mean? You couldn't have been to talk to my father. Well, as a matter of fact. There wasn't anything to tell him really, was there? Well, no, not really. Superficial flesh wound like mine. You certainly weren't worried about that, were you? Well, of course not. You're into all the trouble of finding me, searching the registrar's records and whatnot. Why did you come all the way out here? Oh, I don't know really. I think you do know. What's your first name? I can't go on calling you Dr. Pretoria. Uh, Noa. Oh, Noa's a cute name. Well, my real name is Ludwig. Cream is the oily part of the milk. It's not actually a separate product. Uh-huh, I prefer Noa.  I do not want to appear on media like about this, but I can't think. Cream becomes part of the general body of the milk. You're a wrong man. You couldn't have come out here because you wanted to talk to my father. And you couldn't have come out because you were worried about my health. And there comes a time when a patient asks the doctor questions. Come on. Why did you come all this way just to see me, Noa? I did have a reason, you know. I know. No, no, you don't. But it doesn't seem to matter much at this moment. You're being pompous again at the moment. Oh, you'd be surprised how un-pompous I am. Then what are you doing? Come here. Well, things do have a way of happening, don't they? Old Mother Nature. Old Mother Nature knows best. Producer, Mr. Cummings. Act two while people will talk. Kerry Grant is Dr. Noa Pretorius. And Gene Crane has Deborah. Deborah, her father, and Dr. Pretorius are upstairs in the farmhouse. I still say this is just plain silly. Probably my suitcase is out the window.  Come on. It's much more fun this way. When are you going to break the news to Uncle John? As soon as you've got. Uncle John is going to be awfully angry. I hope so. Of course he will. Much against everybody's better judgment, including my owner. I intend to live very happily with you. Golly, I'm scared. Well, if nothing John can do to any of us. No, she's not scared of John. She's scared of me. Pompous, no at all. It just so happens that what I'm afraid of is that you don't really want to marry me. But I won't make you a good enough wife. Well? Well, in the first place, I'm not in the habit of marrying women. I don't really want to marry. You know, Father, his first name isn't really no one. It's Ludwig. The woman has yet to be born who doesn't in her heart believe she'll make her husband a much better wife than he has any possible right to expect. I just don't want to get married tonight. I don't want a long engagement. But can't I even have one day? You'll be married in New York. That takes three days. I must say, you're the only man I ever heard of a wife. Well, exactly like some poor girl who's got to get married. Hmm. I imagine that as a man, I've come as close to it as any other man who ever lived. Now, let's get out of here. Professor Elwell? Yes, yes. This is Conan, Professor, from the detective agency. I got news about Dr. Pretoria. Well? Just stay in your office, Professor. I'll be right over. Professor Elwell? He just got married. Dr. Pretoria's and a girl named Higgins. They got married in New York this morning. I don't require a detective agency to tell me that. They posted that news on the faculty bulletin board. Oh. Well, here's something that ain't on the bulletin board. See this newspaper? Take a look at this picture. Now, whose picture would you say this is, Professor? Shunderson. You bet it is. Right on the front page. Shunderson. But this newspaper? What? Why, it stated March 12, 1921. That's right, Professor. Only there's no doubt about whose picture it is. Is there, now? No, I'm positive. This is Shunderson. But why is his picture in this newspaper? Start reading, Professor. It makes some very interesting reading, Madam. Very interesting indeed. Well, Mr. Shunderson, I thought rehearsal went very well tonight, didn't you? Yes, sir, very well. How is Deborah and her father's come along? Give them a chance to get settled in the house, sir. You didn't forget to invite Dr. Parker to dinner tomorrow night. He invited himself. Lionel never forgets my birthday. It will be a wonderful birthday for you, with a fine wife at the table. It's been quite a week, Mr. Shunderson, quite a week. Doctor, before we get home, there's something you should know. Someone's been following me today, a detective. How do you know? I have a gift for such things. Perhaps it would be better if I went away now. You've made a great career. You have your home, your wife. Responsibilities. No. What should I do, Doctor? Exactly what I shall do. Wait and see what happens. There's someone at the front door. Professor Elwell from the university. At this time of day? Professor Elwell? I told him you'd be sitting down to dinner soon, but he said it's very urgent that he see the doctor, ma'am. Shall I call him? What are they doing upstairs? The three of them, ma'am. Your father, Dr. Barker and Dr. Pretorius, they're playing with what you got him for his birthday. The electric trains, ma'am. Good. Then I'm not going to disturb him. I'll talk to Professor Elwell. I'm sorry that you insist, Mrs. Pretorius. Oh, believe me, I have no wish to upset you. But I want to know, Professor Elwell. I want to know why you're here. Very well then. Dean Brockwell has asked me to give Dr. Pretorius this envelope. It contains a list of charges that have been brought against him. Charges? By whom? What charges? I am not privileged to reveal them.  Unhappily, I do. Well, I must be going. I admire your courage, Mrs. Pretorius. Most women would be, shall we say, apprehensives. Most women are not married to my husband. That's true. Whatever he did, he did for good and sufficient reason. Even if it turns out that he murdered somebody. Your devotion moves me, Mrs. Pretorius. Mr. Shunderson? Yes, ma'am. Will you show the professor to the door, please? He's leaving. You see this envelope, Shunderson? Yes, sir. Give it to the miracle man. Let me have it, Mr. Shunderson. I'll take it up. He was very disappointed knowing that he couldn't hand you this in person, this envelope. Oh, anyway, he's gone now. Oh, well, um, envelope. Have you read this? No. Then why are you crying? That's just it. I don't know why I'm crying. And whatever it says, I don't believe it anyway. Well, nevertheless, according to this document, I am not the picture of innocence you imagine me to be. Do you want me to tell you about it? Not if you think you shouldn't. Not if you think you shouldn't.  Nothing could be less important to me than if whole business of rumors and charges against you. That's my girl. No, I knew you haven't done anything you shouldn't have. Have you? Many times. But not as a doctor. Now, don't ever worry about it. I won't. Noah? Hmm?   You never took it out. That's why you were so brave. Do you ever think that your mom doesn't know it all? I never used to cry at all, you know. But now, the least little thing, and I start shedding buckets. Why do you suppose it is? Why do you suppose it is? Well, I guess what sets easily these days, and I used to be, well, is that even sort of calm, even positive about things? What did you say the name of that frog was? Frog? What frog? The one you told me about when I first went to the clinic. The one who gets pregnant in two hours. The frog does know it's that thing now. I think it merely shows certain helpful indications. Well, I'm beginning to show certain indications. Anyway, I think I am. I feel so silly talking to you about it. I know just what you mean. It's the sort of thing you'd rather discuss with a doctor. What seems to be your trouble, Mrs. Victoria? Well, right now, I feel a little like Elsie did this morning. I'm all confused. Heaven knows after I've been through these past few weeks, I have a right to be, but not this confused. No, darling, forgive me for being little Mel from the country, but is it possible? Little Mel, Elsie Dinsmore, or Catherine the Great, it is entirely possible. Well, if it's possible, then you should be the first to know. It is also probable. Do you mind? Comes the dawn, I'll stand on that window sill and crow. Come the dawn next December, you'll be walking the floor with it. Uh, next September. December, dear. September. Now you're getting mixed up. December. September. My dear Dr. Pretoya, since they've changed the rules about how long it takes, I make it December. Well, the rules still hold. You're just not starting back far enough. But don't be silly. How can I possibly start any farther back then? No. Oh, no.  I never thought of myself as one particular... Oh, no, really. I mean, I've heard of doctors who were self-sacrificing and unselfish, but apparently there's no limit to yours. December, you couldn't be more wrong. Well, you're that afraid I'd kill myself. Now, how afraid is that afraid? Afraid enough to marry me to keep me from it? Is it conceivable to use the right word? Then why did you marry me? Because I'm in love with you. You fell in love all of a sudden, didn't you? All of a sudden I was still falling. Let me know when you hit bottom. Anytime within the next 30 or 40 years. You came out to the farm that day because you knew I was going to have a baby. Then you met my father and my uncle, and you understood why I tried to kill myself. Did I?   And so it's no possible way out for anybody. All of a sudden you fell in love with me, and that solved everything, and everybody lived happily ever after. For two weeks, that is. For two weeks and three days. Until I found out that my baby isn't going to be yours. Funny, this calls for tears, and I haven't thought about it. Now, what makes you think this isn't going to be my baby? Because it isn't, because it's... Yes, yes, I know. And however true, it has nothing to do with our baby. Now, his interest in this world will begin as it does with all babies, when suddenly, through no fault of his own, he's rudely deprived of a warm, secure, and well-fed existence, which he has every reason to believe will go on forever, and finds himself upside down in the air being smacked on the backside. Now, are you going to love him? Of course I am. Then we'll keep him warm, and we'll feed him, and make him feel secure again, and give him brothers to play with. Oh, boy, huh? Well, it's time you stopped thinking about yourself and started thinking about my baby. No, if you really suddenly fell in love with me... No, it's... Why? I couldn't say why. Haven't you ever wondered? Falling as fast as I am, I don't have time. A man has adapted you with a reason for everything? Then I'll find it. Any time in the next 30 or 40 years, I'll start wondering. I won't be doing much else, it looks like, except wondering, about you and me, about you and the baby, me and my fine character. Are you feeling sorry for yourself? I'm feeling sorry for you. Don't be. I love you. Be that. Forgive me.  Love me. Do the guests ever eat the world here? Oh, good heavens, dear, you're briefly dinnered. Right away, Lionel. Many happy returns now. I thank you. As with this, Professor Elwell's greeting, may I? You may indeed. What will they do? Call a meeting. You'll ignore it. Down the country, darling. There's very little I can tell, but get it over with. What can they do to you? Considerable. Will they? I wish I knew it. We'll talk. Starring Kerry Grant as Dr. Norah Pretorius and Jean Crane as Deborah. Two events are scheduled on the campus of the School of Medicine. In the crowded auditorium, a restless audience, and a group of bewildered musicians await the arrival of their conductor, Dr. Pretorius. But Dr. Pretorius suddenly has been summoned to a closed hearing in the office of the dean. My intention, Dr. Pretorius, to conduct this hearing informally, wouldn't you care to join us at the this end of the table? Thank you, Dean. I would prefer to remain as remote as possible. I suggested it merely to avoid having our discussion take on the appearance of a trial. I appreciate your profanities, but I have no intention of regarding an investigation in my methods as a cozy little chat among devoted friends. Here, here. Dr. Barker, no one speaks without being recognized by the chair. I am by nature a man who interrupts. However I shall try. Thank you. Dr. Pretorius, may I suggest that you give us a brief account of your activities prior to your arrival at this university? I prefer to be questioned. Why? Because I do not intend to tell things about myself and my own volition, which are nobody's business, but my own. They are the concern of the entire medical profession. I, I, I be recognized, Professor. Your objection is understandable, Dr. Pretorius. Professor Elwell, you may begin. Thank you. Dr. Pretorius, will you agree to abide by the verdict of this committee? I will do nothing of the kind. Why not? I don't know what the verdict will be. The verdict will affect you seriously, whether you agree to abide by it or not. Then why ask idiotic questions to which you already know the answers? Yeah, why not, Elwell? Will you admit that in 1939 you were a highly successful quack and miracle healer practicing in a remote little village in the southern part of the state? I will admit nothing of the kind. Very well. Where did you live in 1939? In Goose Creek. Would you describe Goose Creek as a thriving metropolis? It is a remote little village in the southern part of this state. Exactly. And what was your source of income in Goose Creek? My practice. You practiced openly? I was available to anyone at any time. I mean to say, did you set up a practice as doctor of medicine? When I came to Goose Creek, I had my degree. I did not, however, display it on my door. On your shop door? His shop door? Isn't it true, Dr. Pretorius, that in that remote village you opened a butcher shop? It was an honorable trade, if ever there was one. Well, in itself, unimpeachable. But what did you sell in your butcher shop? Beef, chops, and poultry at cost. Fish on Fridays. At cost? Then how did you make your living? I made sick people well.  I still do. Your practice flourished in Goose Creek because of the pathetic willingness of those poor people to rely upon a belief and miraculous cure because of the readiness with which so many people will prefer the glamorous quack to the licensed physician. Professor LL, despite your definition of a quack, as someone who does not practice medicine according to your rules, the fact remains that a quack is an unqualified person who pretends to be a doctor. I was a licensed practitioner and therefore not a quack. As for the willingness of those so-called backward people to rely upon the curative powers of faith, I consider faith properly injected into a patient as effective in maintaining life as adrenaline. And the belief in miracles has been the difference between the living and dying as often as any scalpel. Now, that is not the issue under discussion. It is precisely the issue. Whether the practice of medicine should become more and more intimately involved with the human beings it treats, or whether it is to go on in this present way of becoming more and more a thing of pills, serums, and knives until eventually we should produce no doubt an electronic doctor.  I could not have amassed that fortune unless I had made an enormous number of sick people well. Oh, all these folder-old. It has nothing to do with the ethics and honor of our profession, but it has everything to do with the envy of one man's genius for healing the sick. Corporatorious is a psychiatrist, high priest, voodoo, medicine man, witch doctor, anything you like. But don't investigate him, gentlemen. Learn from him. Professor Bach, it was understood that you would not interrupt. I'm sorry you can strike my remarks from the record. I'm sure you all agree with me anyway. So why don't we call off these monkey-shines and start the concert? It would interest me, Dr. Picorio, to know why you ever left this lucrative practice in Goose Creek and under what circumstances? I had always intended to leave when I had acquired enough money to start a clinic of my own. As it turned out, I departed the little settlement planned. I had a housekeeper, an inquisitive maiden lady who discovered my medical diploma in a bottom drawer of my desk. In a matter of hours, the entire village knew that I was not a butcher at all, but a licensed MD. I was confronted by a crowd of angry townspeople and forced to admit the truth. I narrowly escaped being run out of town on a rail. Any more questions, Professor Elvo? A great many more. Thank you. Dr. Petorius, who is Shunderson? I take it you mean Mr. Shunderson. Mr. Shunderson is a friend of mine. Is he associated with you professionally? No. He helped him whatever he can. Where and when he pleaded. Well, he's never very far from your side for long, it seems. Rarely. And what was Mr. Shunderson before you knew him?  I certainly refuse. You have always evidenced a remarkable tolerance for this strange and mysterious man. His blundering and slow wittiness, of course, constant complaint, and yet you persist in protecting him at all times. Now why? Perhaps because I know the reason for his so-called slow wittiness. And is the reason of so delicate a nature that you can't disclose it? I have no right to disclose it. Gentlemen, Mr. Shunderson is a convicted murderer. Who is it? Shunderson, sir. What are you doing here? I was listening through the door. I put test against his highly irregular and probably pre-arranged eavesdropping. Oh, Alva, you can use more words, more unpleasantly than any other tips Greek I have ever known. I want to tell my story, sir. Dr. Platorius will never tell it. Well, let us hear it by all means. Okay, doctor. It's up to you. I'm not a fancy talker. I don't know a lot of words. Now, that alone is a welcome relief. Well, now I don't start with well now. Where should I begin? Tell me when you were condemned to death for murder. The first time? Of course. Well, the first time was in 1921 in Canada. It was Christmas. It wasn't a very merry... I had a sweetheart, a friend. We were very close, the three of us. Well, this one time we were mountain climbing. My friend and I, we didn't get very far before we started to argue. I don't remember what about... We always argued, as friends do, but this time he hit me with a rock. So I hit him with one. Not too much detail. Anyway, we had a bloody fight and he ran away, so I went back to my sweetheart. She took one look at the blood on my clothes and saw that I was alone and started to scream, murderer, murderer. That was how I found out that my sweetheart and my friend were sweethearts. Who saw to it that you were arrested and charged with murder? My sweetheart, of course. I was found guilty of murdering my friend and I was condemned to death. But because nobody could produce the corpse of my friend, my sentence was commuted to 15 years of hard labor. And was the corpse of your friend never found, Mr. Sheldon? Oh, I found it myself, Dr. Barthel. After I served my 15 years, I went to Toronto. I happened to look into a window of a restaurant and there was the corpse of my friend sitting at the table eating a bowl of soup. I think it was pea soup. In material and irrelevant. Well, I went in and spoke to my friend in a very friendly fashion. I asked him very nicely where he had been for 15 years and why he never admitted that I had not killed him. His answer, gentlemen, was unsatisfactory.  Then I hit him with the chair. Then somebody called a policeman and I took the club away from the policeman and I used it to finish up on my friend. When they arrested me, I tried to explain that if I was committing a crime, it was a crime for which I had already paid the penalty. They arrested me anyway. You were released, of course. Oh, no. I was sentenced to death again. How could you be tried twice for the murder of the same man? Oh, the prosecutor was very fair about it. He was willing to admit that my first conviction was probably a miscarriage of justice. But he said I didn't have the right to commit a murder just to correct that mistake. And I was condemned to be hanged. But this time you were pardoned. Oh, no. You see, the fact that I had killed my friend with the policeman's club made it a very serious crime. Then will you tell us, please, how you managed to escape? I didn't escape. I was executed. Why, this is absurd. It was on the morning of February 29th, 1936. Alepia. It was a gray and rainy morning. The hangman's assistant held an umbrella over my head so I wouldn't get wet.  Then the floor went out from under me and that was that. Oh, I must protest against this childish assault upon our intelligence. You be quiet. Then what happened? The next thing I felt was a finger. It was in my mouth, pressing down on my tongue. I bit it and somebody yelled. I opened my eyes and that was the first time I saw Dr. Pretorius. I think I can make the next part of the story clear to you. At the time all this happened, I was just finishing my studies as a medical student. I was also keeping company, as they say, for the young lady who happened to be the hangman's daughter. Both the hangman and his daughter were generous and sympathetic. The hangman in particular was sympathetic to my desire as a student of anatomy to have a cadaver I could call my own. Well, knowing that Mr. Shunderson's body would go on clean, because certainly no one was ever more alone in this world than poor Mr. Shunderson was, the hangman managed to send it to me immediately after the ceremony, along with a sweet note from his daughter. I was delighted of course, but not for long. I soon found out that Mr. Shunderson was still alive. Oh, you must have been furious. He told me his story and we put some pig iron in the cheap wooden coffin that he'd arrived in and we had it buried in a charity graveyard. From that day on, Mr. Shunderson has never left me. And I think it's understandable that from time to time he may seem a little confused and perhaps even a little dull-witted. But to say that he was... Deborah, you're interrupting us there. Mrs. Pretorius, it's customary to at least knock before... I know and I don't mean to include too much gentlemen, but I'm sure that by now you must have made up your mind. A wife simply does not come barging into a room where her husband is being investigated. After all gentlemen, if he's innocent, he's late for the concert. And if he isn't, well, he'd better start conducting anyway because he may have to run his living method. I am of the opinion that the hearing is at an end. Do you agree, Professor Elwell? My opinion no longer seems to matter, does it?  Much less one that bit your finger. And as for this incredible evening, gentlemen, the sooner we forget it, the better for all concerned. I think we've held up the concert far too long. Come along, Mr. Shunderson. Yes, sir. I haven't said so many words in years. All in a bunch. You did very well. I'm proud of you. Professor Elwell, that little man. That poor little man. Are they? Yes, dear. He's a terrible conductor, isn't he? Yes, dear. But is he so happy of them? I honestly believe he's the happiest man I've ever known. He's glowing on a window sill. And what's that mean? Old Mother Nature. Old Mother Nature knows. The stars will return. Please step forward for your curtain call. Cary Grant and Gene Crave. What's the next week, Eddie? Well, next week we have another charming star who has just returned from abroad. Gene Tierney. Miss Tierney will co-star with one of the most handsome actors in Hollywood, Victor Matured. We will present them with one of plenty of Century Fox's all-time screen hits, The Unforgettable Laura. That's one of my favorites. Good night. Good night. Good night. And hurray back. Irving Cummings. Our orchestra directed by Rudy Shrager. This is Ken Carpenter inviting you to be with us again next week for another worldwide presentation of the Hollywood Radio Theater. Welcome to you through the facilities of the United States Armed Forces...


Hello friends, I am Sanjay Gupta. I welcome you all since you've been to Tech School. In this video, I'm going to explain the difference between signal input and W input. So I will be explaining the differences with the help of a diagram as well as I will be writing the C structure so that you can understand the difference like how the data actually works. So the first time I'm going to draw the diagram for a serious idea. So whenever we create a signal input, so first we need to create a start filter which contains null. Right now, if I want to add a load into this link just so this is no number one. It is in the middle divided into two parts. So first one is information and second is a pointer that we will address up next. And let's say its address is 1001 so it will just go into start. Right? So this way it is connected. Now if we have one unit, so it is also in two parts equal next and let's say base address is 2001. Then we have no number T and its base address is 3001. So 1000 that is stored here, value is 10 that is in both and no one next pointer which is going base address of node two. So it will be having value as 2001. Now let's say its information is 20 and its next part will be base address of next node. Now this is current node, its information is 30 and it is not having any further loop so its next will be value. So this is where it will not be getting this and if I create structure of C structure for this, so I need to write some limit list then in info. So this is for this possible value and then structure limit list pointer list. So this is the structure that you need to declare in sheet address if you are going to write a program for this. And this structure is basically has self definition structure. Why so? Because here you can see structure is using its own data type to create a pointer list. Why so? Because this pointer is holding address of this node and this node is type of struct limit list. So whenever we need a pointer, so pointer holds address of a memory location. So we need to declare pointer of that type similar to the type of memory location. So this memory location is having type as struct limit list. So we need to declare this pointer as same type. So here you can see this is a pointer and its name tag is struct limit list. So this may single list memory map is inside of you, which is internally connected with different address. And this may be created on a structure if you want to implement this on program in CL. Now I am coming to W limit list. So in case of similar interest, what we can do? We can try to smooth left to right only. If we are on healthy, so we cannot backtrack to what we work at. But that can be done with couple of examples. So now when this page is in W limit list, I am going to add. Initially it does not. Now right in this table first value. So I need to create a node. So now the node which will be created will be having three parts. This first part will be, sorry, second part will be input. It is pointed to, yes, it is pointed to point. And let's say this is node number one. It's base address is 1001. So it will be stored here. And now, if you want to store any information, so that's going to go here, or you can specify any one thing. You want to store information for that previous one. That totally depends on the statement that we are going to write in your structure. Now let me declare one more node. So this is node two. Let's say it's base address is 2001. This is node three. It's base address is 3001. And each node will be divided into three parts. Now let's assign the values. So let's assign value for 10, 20 and 20. Right. This is previous. So this node is the first one. So it's previous and not possible. So it will be now. This node is the last one. So it's forward into possible. So it will be now. Now this is first node. So it's base address is available in this part. It's forward will be having base address of node two. So 2100 is stored here. This is node two and its previous node is node one. So node one base address will be available in the previous point of this node two. So it will be having 1000. Then node two or what is node three? So it's base address 3001 will be stored here. And node three, previous is node two. So node two base address is 2001. So now if you are, if you are on node one, so you can move to node one. If you are on node three, so node three, we just pointed having its previous node address. So you can move from node three to node two to node one. So you can move in both the direction either left or right or right to left. That's why it is called as WS. Right? And now they are connected by direction and they are connected in the real direction. So this way you can create a couple of ideas. Now if you want to create a structure. So what you can do, you can write in more or if you want to look at memory in this way, it will be like first, previous, then it will go in that form. So this is an example before that you can write stuck, linked list, pointer, previous and here you can write pointer problem. So this way the logs will be created where you can create any variable or any problem. So this way we can create a structure for self-referencing structure for building this. So I hope now you understood what it is. And also you can consider it as advantages of WS like we can move in both the directions. Now we have one more thing that has two ways in this. Two ways in this. So we can have one more pointer. So this is start pointer. We can have one more pointer that will be hand pointer. And it will be having address of last name. So what happens? Now if you want to print the rivers of linked list. So you can use this last one address with the hand pointer and use it back then. So this type of linked list basically has two main address which has two pointers. One for start and pointer. So if you have a particular address, let's say if you have a start pointer and you have address one, two, one, two, one, two, one, two, one, two, one, two, one, two, one. If you have another pointer and that is having address of last name. So with this help, with the help of this pointer you can do start writing. So you can move in both directions. So these kind of linked list are linked list. So through this minor change you can convert your address into two main address. So these are more or less similar because we just need to create one more pointer so that we can implement two main linked list type of linked list. So whenever you will be implementing your programs based on the main list so that you can have end pointer as well so that you will be having two addresses. One pointer is having address of last name and another pointer is having address of last name. So that you can efficiently manage your company. So this way I hope you are responsible for this particular company linked list. And if you want to watch like how we can write algorithm for insertion and deletion, so you can go to description of this video. You will be having links of playlist related to data structure and algorithm. So follow that playlist and you will find all the videos related to data structures and algorithm on that playlist will watch the videos which are available here so that you can learn data structure and algorithm. Thank you for watching this video.


In a world where everyone takes wonders like magic spells and dragons for granted, Coco is a girl with a simple dream. She wants to be a witch. But everybody knows magicians are born, not made, and Coco was born with a gift for magic. Hey everybody, welcome back to another exciting episode, Gio here and today we are talking about the witch hat atelier and I know that I am so behind, this came out in 2019 and everybody talked about it and I'm probably one of the last people on YouTube talking about it.  So yeah, there's your Too Lazy Didn't Watch review right there, I love the book. But yeah, in all seriousness, Witch Hat Atelier is written by Kamome Shirahama and this is a very simple story but big in execution. Part of what makes this such a successful title aside from the art and we will get to the art because it is fantastic. But what makes this title such a fun great read for all ages and for everybody to enjoy is that you're able to take a simple concept that is magic that, you know, we've had countless manga in the past, we've had countless anime, comics, novels, light novels, talking about the subject matter, you're able to take this idea, flip it over and do something new with it by introducing new concepts and sort of reinventing the wheel but it doesn't stray too far from the basics that, you know, established the genre if you will. So like I read at the beginning, you follow the character of Coco, this sweet, funny wholesome young girl. Her dream is to be a witch and when she was young, she got a book or she thought it was sort of like a picture book that was sold to her with the promise that she would become a witch. That comes into play later on in the plot when you find out why or how magic is done in this world. But regardless, the story starts out with Coco wanting to be a witch and she gets this opportunity to a series of unfortunate events that really play to the trope of the hero going on this epic quest to save a loved one. I'm not necessarily going to spoil that fact. Why is it going that route? I'm not going to dwell too much on that but just know that it follows story beats that we've heard and read before but it doesn't in such a flawless, quick paced, beautiful matter. The story is very kinetic. As soon as you start reading, you're just entranced by the characters, by the beautiful scenery, by the way that these characters act and behave. You have such a wholesome protagonist yet at the same time, she's very comical in her reactions and then when she meets the character, and I am totally going to butcher this, key free? I don't know if I said that right so you'll have to excuse me on that. When she meets him, just the sheer delight on her face when she realizes who this character is, spoilers, it's a witch. She loses it and we've all had that situation at one point in our lives I guess. So Coco is a very relatable protagonist. She's very wholesome and endearing and you are rooting for her. She sets herself up for a tragedy and is seeking her own sense of redemption to right the wrongs that were committed by becoming the very thing that she's always wanted to be, which is a witch. I mean it's no secret if you look at the cover image for the manga, then you know she's a witch. So how that happens is very cinematic. I could easily see Witch Head Atelier be its own live action property. It translates so well that you could adapt it to a different medium and it would still work. And that is due to Kamome's skill as a writer which I think she has done a fantastic job. Very relatable characters even though the setting is more fantastical and you have these characters in this European like setting with the you know stuff like the cities at the marshes and the prairies and stuff. It looks very ancient and the world building in here is top notch. This is an excellent example that I will, from now on I will refer to of how to world build a manga series without too much effort. You're not introduced to a whole lot of elements from the get go, but as soon as they start giving you the trail of breadcrumbs it just opens up into something bigger and more bold and beautiful and daring. I love how the cityscapes look, I love how the characters behave and interact with each other. Coco you know when she is doing her internship, apprenticeship or whatever ship you want to call it. And she sees her peers and they are also distinct too. Not one character feels the same to me, they all have very distinct personalities just from the looks alone and when Coco meets them these characters behave in a very different matter to each other which I thought was great and really gives you a sense of this being a living breathing world teaming with exposition and it's done in a beautiful way. It's an easy method to introduce concepts to the reader via books and the main character learning about this stuff and reading it. You get to read it as well and you get to take all this info in about the sigils and how the magic in this world works which is, I don't want to spoil it but it is a very clever way of presenting magic and how society views it and how it is affecting the lives of others and its secrecy and all that stuff. I love that aspect so much, it intrigued me so much and I want to keep reading this series to find out more and more about this world. The antagonist, even though I know that later volumes will probably explain it a little bit better but I would say the only fault in it is that we don't have enough time to understand who the bad guy is going to be so it comes off a little generic for me, you know, don't hate me, just for me it comes off a little bit generic but that is to be expected on a story like this because as the story progresses you start learning about the villains and the world and all that stuff and everything becomes a little bit more complex and, you know, it's sort of an enriched reading experience when you have concepts like this being explored and the whole world building aspect, just overall a fantastic series, very quick to read, a very satisfying panel to panel, everything flows so well that you don't even realize that you're done with the first chapter until you see the second one, right, it flies by and you just have a great time, it's very cinematic in its approach and the art, like I mentioned earlier, is simply breathtaking, I love this so much, it is so rich in details for the human characters and even if there's a scene where you don't see a background, you just see the person, it looks rich in detail and flavor and it's gorgeous to look at, the attention to detail when it comes to the books, to the houses, to the attire, to the magical effects, to the cityscapes later on, to the villain and the wardrobes and everything just has such a good personality to it, it's fantastic, I was blown away, I'd loved every single second of this book while I was reading it, I cannot recommend it enough and I can see why so many people fell in love with this title and do recommend it, I'm late to the train, the first manga came out last spring 2019 so I'm a little behind but I do plan on collecting this series as soon as I can, I read the first volume digitally on comicsology so looking at it on your iPad or on your tablet, it looks even better, it's so gorgeous to look at, I cannot wait to read more volumes, I loved it, fantastic characters, a wholesome and daring protagonist that you want to root for, a wonderful side characters and supporting cast I should say, excellent world building, a rich tapestry of art in display and just everything, it oozes with confidence that when you turn to the next page you're greeted with more great art and that's very hard to do, that's very difficult to pull off and I think Shida Hama does it beautifully and with elegance and grace presenting an all-ages story that a lot of people can get into and enjoy so yeah if you like magic stories, excellent characters and epic world building which had Atelier is a fantastic manga that hey, even if you don't like manga, this is a great book to recommend for somebody that doesn't like manga so think about that, it's really freaking great guys so if you haven't read it, I do wholeheartedly recommend it, I think you'll have a good time with it, it's a very quick read even though there's quite a good amount of pages inside which surprised me so yeah overall fantastic A-plus material, I don't usually rate stuff on this channel, I just tell you if it's good or not, if I like it or not but yeah A-plus, 10 out of 10, whatever, I'm all in and I'm excited to continue with the adventure, have you read which had Atelier, let me know in the comments section down below and if not recommend me your favorite which themed manga or anime, that's pretty interesting, same with comics too, let me know in the comment section down below, guys as always thank you for liking, commenting, subscribing and being a part of a week in geek them, it truly does mean the world to me, thank you so very much, as always click the little bell icon so you know when new videos pop up, follow me on social media, sites like Facebook, Twitter, Instagram, all that fun stuff, I've got to go, I've got more stuff to read and review so I will catch all of you guys on our next episode


All the things about the hypnotic, the right to vote, and all the different things. And it's interesting, the ego, it's pure for it, it's to compensate and go the other way. And develop pride in your particular separate sense. Identity is if you can compensate and overcome the victimhood. But again, something that came good on the Holocaust, at least I think so, Dr. Frankel and how he saw that regardless of what people did to him and did to his body, they couldn't touch his mind. And he could maintain whatever he chose and he could choose his response regardless of what came on or added from the screen. And that's quite inspiring. And that's some of the stuff that leads you to see that there are other people that understand what this stuff's about. We do. We apply it. We apply it. This perception of the universe as God created it, it would be impossible to think of him as loving. Who has decreed that all things pass away, ending in dust, disappointment, and despair, can but be feared?  Who loves such a God that is not of love because he has denied that life is real? Death has become life's symbol. His world is now a battleground for contradiction reigns and purposes make endless war. Where there is death is peace impossible. It almost sounds funny when you read that language then again. The thing that people say, you know, God's not ready for me yet or God will take me when it's my time or that those are just said so casually is the way it is. Life is part of death and that's the thing I've been hearing a lot. Life is just part of death and that's the part of life is the natural way of nature.  So here's this thing that's guaranteed in the world's eyes and so our whole world is based on preventing it, avoiding it, delaying it, living one day at a time because if this is all I have, boy I am going to live it to the hilt, denying it, softening it, softening it. Eat, drink, and be married for a different day to die. That's great. Right, pass away.  And I said, no I didn't because Michael said, it's the whole day they were reading their Oreo cookies and milk, all these little kids are smiling and happy and Michael said, I'm going to die.     Over cookie time in nursery school, you know.  I thought I'd tell you guys. Both Mandy and Matthew went through stages where they talked about it a lot.  You know, but yeah, there's this feeling and people look at little kids talking about that. It's like weird. And of course the kids don't know what they're talking about. No. That's what's so neat about this is we're going to try to really lift it and pull it back now to see it in the mind because it just doesn't make any sense when you look at it out there on the screen. It is important though for children to realize that I work at a grief center for children and they, you know, have lost someone significant in their family. And here they are, you know, not knowing how to deal with that. And, you know. They put a heavy burden on us with death period. As we see right now, as we're talking about it, our culture has put that heavy burden on us so to speak as the concept of death. But does the concept of death come from the culture? Does it come from the concept of death? We have to go real deep because otherwise then we can get upset. Why can't I live in a more open culture? You see that? I'm back to affection again. You know, even the thing about the common thing that I hear a lot and I've said it myself is that I've lost, you know, that somebody has been lost. And that's something that, I mean, if it's even talked about in that way, I've seen that that's backwards too. But that is the experience for a child, you know, when they come in. It seems to be, but only if they see it that way and if they're being encouraged to continue to see it that way. Right. And that's the whole purpose of talking about it so that they can see it differently. It's to see the big death. Anything. But they feel that there is a lot. They perceive it. And adults too. Right. If you go around and look at the adult, is there lost? Yes. Is there grief? Yes. And is there death? You know, it's the learning of the world. What I'm hearing in this too, a little bit from you Linda, is that like you gotta help them understand. And see that's the point that like I as a person can't make David understand anything that I can't fix it. But I can have the Holy Spirit come through me and give him the picture and do whatever is necessary to do that. Right. And that's the point, you know. And I don't see it as a loss. Yeah. And I'm clear. Exactly. I don't have to say that to somebody else.  But I can just be coming through. Yeah. Yeah. And because of that clear space in where you're at, I think there's an understanding in that. Not maybe an understanding as we understand it, like fragment, like I understand it because, you know, this is true about the mind and all these other things, but it comes in that wholeness of right-minded perception. It's just, you know, it's a, uh-huh, I'm not a kind of understanding or linear type of thing. And what we've discussed before about not seeing children is any different. You know. And we've been thinking that the way you relate to them is any different. It gets back to it like you were saying right-mindedness coming to that. Because it's, you know, you can't teach something until you get clear on it yourself, no matter how you work with it. And you really don't want to even join with someone, so to speak, in a false concept and then try to say, well, I'll do that first. And then later on, I'll turn it right-side up. And that's the error of a lot of psychology where they teach, you know, let the children develop a healthy ego, learn how to function in this world, and then, at some point, turn it around. But it sounds like you're saying that this is not good for them. And that would be like saying 12-step programs are not good. You know, nothing where you come and share information or feelings is not good. And I don't see that as any different than this that we're doing. Yeah, that would be an interpretation of what I'm saying. I really have to take this in and be clear about it. Again, the way it really comes back to is that it's always my lesson. So in other words, to even break it out into parts and say 12-step groups or grief work or this or this or that, and to start judging which events and systems are more helpful or less helpful, or if they're not, that's not what I'm saying. But I am saying that it's always my own lesson and that I'm always teaching myself. And so it's pulling it away from the distracting kind of argument that tries to break it apart in terms of persons and groups and situations because that's a distraction in saying, oh gee, until I get clear about life, how can I teach life? We've had the discussion even with education. You know, it seems as if in this world that education is a very helpful thing. There's no doubt. There's a lot of money that's been put in. There's a lot of reforms that take place. Has education ever helped change anything? Is there less war because of education? No. Is there less disease because of education? No. Is there less conflict because of education? Is there more peace? Is there more peace because of education? And I was trained in education. I was trained as a teacher educator. I had student teachers that would come into my class and I was a teaching assistant and I was in graduate school before I got into psychology and teachers' education. And what I had to do was really come to see that education, as we call it education in this world, is not the solution. But there is an education that I call the Holy Spirit's curriculum that is the answer to the end of conflict, the end of war, the end of peace. And it's very different than the curriculum of education in this world. You know, there was poetry once for us, a book, everything I needed, really needed to know. I learned in kindergarten. And if you follow the basic thinking of that book, you know, treat each other with respect and clean up everything. You know, he was simplifying things, but there was something real that struck a chord when people read that because it was like all this learning that they learned, all this specialization and everything that they learned in their years. And for me, it's interesting to speak about this because somebody can say, well, you make me sounds like you're down on education. I said, hey, I was in education, formal education for 22 years, 22 and a half years. It's not like I haven't really tried it. I gave it a big shot, you know? And it was helpful. Some of the skills have been helpful. Yeah, it seems. I mean, even that, it's like that's where it is, but I really, the skill that I really want to learn is healing. And so all of those things... That can be done with an eighth grade education. Yeah, right. It doesn't have to do... Yeah, no education. You understood the concept.  I happen to have, you know, Matthew and Matthew who are, you know, in public schools and I'm seeing what it is they're learning and as I look more and more closely at that, I'm seeing that it's really not, doesn't have anything to do with anything. And yet, for me, it's not to get all worried about trying to fix the school system or yanking them out of school and putting them into an alternative school or any of that, or all things I thought of, but for me it's coming back and saying the healing has to take place in my mind. That's the only place for me to focus my attention. That's where the healing has to be. And then from that place, whatever happens out here on the screen with those two people will come from that. It'll just be a natural out-picturing of where I am with healing of my own mind. So it's like whenever I get worried about Mandy and Matthew learning or being taught to conform or buying into the game of the world or building up their egos or any of that, I just have to say pull it back. This is where the healing has to take place. And I am not of any help to them at all with an unhealed mind. It wouldn't matter if they were in the best school setting at all if I'm not at peace if there's conflict in my mind or confusion in my mind then I'm not going to be of any help. So that's how I look at anything that I'm doing like anything I'm involved in or anywhere I'm seeing to others it's like oh bring it back to my mind this is where the healing has to take place. Then if I feel guided to go and be with this group or that group or another group then great but it will be from a whole different place. Does that make sense? Because then it's like there's nothing right or wrong or good or bad about any of these groups they're helpful, great. If somebody finds them of value great, go with 12 staff or group counseling or whatever it is but for me I have to really focus on my own healing. It's also the purpose too in the sense that I've always had a real positive connotation of talking about feeling because from experience of keeping things in and repressing and everything you can see there's a lot of destructive things that seem to come from those defense mechanisms. However the positive connotation I have in talking about feelings has to be questioned as well because a lot of times even in a little I would always in teacher observation