Hello my YouTube family. Welcome again to another Narc Survivor Live video. In this one we do have a very interesting topic and I will be going very deep into this. This will make the narcissist go crazy. As you may have noticed it's very easy to get them to react, to make them go crazy. And in fact all you really have to do in an argument or disagreement with a narcissist is just say this one word. Yes this one word will really set them off. It will really make them go insane. And this one word is whatever. If you're arguing with the narcissist they're constantly just trying to prove some point to you. When really it's just word salad and gas lighting it really makes no sense. Just say this one word to the narcissist. Say whatever. And watch how they react. And here's another one. Another three words that you can say. Say I don't care. And watch the frustration build up inside of them. Watch how it drives them mad. Watch how they just can't stand it. And then examine how confused it makes you feel. Because everything they do it's like they're always trying to act indifferent. They're very dismissive. They act like they're above you. They're greater than you. They're superior to you. They're more intelligent. They know more than you. And you're bad. You're crazy. You've done all of this stuff. So why would they care about what you think? If you're the one who is wrong. If you're the one who is crazy. Because we know what we're dealing with.  That's why we come on here to communities like this with people who actually do understand. So why does the narcissist act so indifferent and dismissive? But then when you say whatever or you say I don't care.  Then they lose their minds. They go crazy. Then they want to take you down. They want to punish you.  Are these really the acts of someone who does not care? Clearly not. These are the acts of someone who does care a lot. They care a lot more than what they've led you to believe. And in fact narcissists care far more than the average person. They are hypersensitive, paranoid and hypervigilant. They're like loose cannons. It doesn't take much to set them off. But what do they care about? Do they care about other people? Clearly they don't. Because if they did, then they would be focusing on those other people. Instead of engaging in these pointless arguments with you. They wouldn't even waste their time doing that. And instead their time would be spent on other things. That they say are more important than you.  Bringing you down, devaluing you. What is the purpose of that? If you're really so worthless and insignificant, why would they devalue you to begin with? You see when we look at this tactic devaluation, the whole point of it is that it's taking value away from you. How can you take value away from someone who has no value? That doesn't make any sense. And another thing, why would someone who has more value than you look to you to take value away from you? That also does not make any logical sense. Because if you're seeking value or to take value away from someone, you could do that with someone who has value. And not only that, but someone who has more value than you. So that is why they devalue you. And yet they act like you're beneath them. And as though they don't care about you. But when you argue with them, it's clearly obvious that they are heavily dependent on you. They're heavily dependent on what you think, feel and believe. That's why they manipulate and gaslight you.  They care a lot about what you think. But even then, they manipulate and gaslight you into seeing situations differently than you normally would. So in essence, they want you to be like a puppet on a string and they're the puppet master. To where they're getting you to think, feel and believe, whatever they want you to think, feel and believe. So they're creating a false reality. And they're imposing a false character on you so that they can medicate and regulate themselves. When that character isn't even you. You are manipulated and gaslighted into being that way. And yet they're so heavily dependent on this character that they have imposed upon you. So that they can use it to regulate their emotions. Because yes, they care a lot more than you might think. But they don't care about other people. They don't care about you. What they care about is themselves.   Again, they are still seeking your validation. And it reveals that they are trauma bonded to you. And why are they trauma bonded to you? What is the trauma? What created this bond? The trauma and what created this bond, it's the fact that you disapproved of them.  This reality that they've constructed, this character, it's not meant to have any flaws. There's not meant to be anything wrong with it. It's meant to be perfect. It's meant to be safe, stable and secure until you came along. And you revealed that there most definitely is not just one flaw, but many flaws. There are many things wrong with it. Many things that they fail to recognize, that they fail to understand. But that's not something that they're going to accept. Because do you know how difficult it would be for them to go back on everything that they stood for? Everything that they constructed in this false reality. It would take far more work than them simply manipulating and brainwashing, gaslighting you into submission and making you validate the false reality. It would take far more work than that. Because the reality is that they have been manipulating people for a very long time. It's not just you. They have been brainwashing a lot of people. They have ruined a lot of people's lives. People who just like you lacked awareness, knowledge and experience. People who didn't even know what was going on. And yet the narcissist who has done this many times before you or before those other people, they knew exactly what was going on and what they were about to do. So essentially it's like a predator and their prey. And why is it a predator and their prey? Well it's because their prey lacks the wisdom and experience. They don't realise what is actually happening. Their prey is possibly seeking understanding, a resolution or maybe trying to escape. And the predator which is the narcissist is seeking power and control over their prey. They're trying to exploit them for their own personal gain. And this is why they focus so heavily on the revelation and the gaslighting to keep this process, this cycle running.  To reveal that it really is nothing more than an endless cycle that doesn't lead anywhere good. The last thing that they want is for you to do that because they are quite comfortable with how things are and they want to continue in this direction. You don't. That's why you confronted them and at times you even threatened to expose them. The last thing that they want is to be exposed. They don't want anything to be revealed about them. That's the whole point. Because you've got to think why would they manipulate you? Why would they brainwash you? Why would they gaslight you?  You're meant to be the one who is all messed up in the mind. If anything you should be doing that to them. You should be the one who has constructed this false reality. That should be you. So why aren't you doing that? Why are they the ones who are manipulating and brainwashing you? Not only that but why do they do all of these things where it's like they constantly try to make you feel uncomfortable to where you're always walking on eggshells. They deprive you of sleep. They got you up late at night arguing with them in the middle of the night. First thing in the morning. Waking you up at 3am. What is the purpose of all of that? What is the point in it? I mean if they are someone who stands for truth. The true reality. Facts. If they are someone who stands for that. Then their greatest standpoint and where they should be firing from. Is from a place of logic. Truth. Reality. I mean that would make a lot more sense if what they are saying is true. But they don't do that. They go straight to the manipulation. The lies. The deception. The brainwashing. All of these deceptive, underhanded tactics. Like something that criminals do. I mean if you look at any psychopath. Any serial killer. Rapist. Wherever it may be. They all do exactly the same things. They all love bomb, devalue, discard, hoover. They manipulate, lie, future fake, deceive, brainwash. And they engage in these exploitative, underhanded tactics.  It's like they like to leave these riddles. These puzzles for you to figure out. And at the same time they are wearing a mask. They are not showing you who they really are. That's their false character. And they hide behind it. They hide behind this mask. Because they believe that it protects them. They believe that it absorbs them of any duty or responsibility. As though as long as they are wearing that mask they can just do whatever they want. It's like that movie, The Texas Chainsaw Massacre. I can't remember the name or the character. But I remember that guy with the chainsaw. He murders people. He soars off their face.   And this is often what criminals do. They wear a mask. They hide their face. They don't show you who they really are. But the narcissist sees exactly who you are from the very beginning.  But what they do is they project an idealized image onto you. In that moment you are perfect. Until later on you begin to threaten them. Because they have this blackaway mentality where it's like if you're perfect then they must be flawed. They must be inferior to you. They must be inadequate in comparison to you. And that's when they then have to devalue you. They have to take value away from you.  Because all they really do is seek in validation from you. They want to keep you down so that you're looking up at them. And you're seeing them as an authority. As someone who is superior to you. Because like I said, they don't really care about anything. They don't care about you. They don't care about the relationship. All they care about is validating their false self. And in the beginning this false self may be attractive and desirable. As long as you're susceptible to their manipulation.  They're not perfect. Then that's when they begin to devalue you. That's when the abuse starts. And then instead they use you to make themselves feel powerful and in control. Because they're actually very weak and insecure.  I mean when you think of an arsonist it's like they're all knowing, they're all seeing. They know everything. They know everything that they need to know about you. They've got you all figured out. And in their minds you're so predictable they already know what you're going to do next. And yet at the same time they're so insecure and hyper vigilant to where they've always got to be two steps ahead of you. They've always got to be in control. And they will even try to isolate you and start to be a campaign against you. Which really doesn't match up with this image of them knowing everything. And being so confident and self assured. It doesn't really line up with that at all. So it's very contradictory. It doesn't make any sense. I mean the only possible conclusion, especially if you're able to observe their previous targets, is that they do recognise that there's something very different about you. Of course as I've mentioned in previous videos, those of you who make it onto my channel, especially those of you who regularly watch my videos, it is likely that you may be a chosen one and an empath. And their previous sources may not have been that. So that's one thing. But then of course they don't recognise that. They don't see that. Because to see that they would have to know it. And they don't know it because they're not that. But in the beginning they saw you as ideal. And there was time they had to devalue you because it was either you or them. And then when they devalue you, all they're really doing, and pay close attention to this, all they're really doing is disowning parts of themselves that they don't like. And assigning them to you. Because remember they don't see you, they don't know you. They don't know who you actually are. And that's why they're often very surprised when you reveal certain things about yourself that they never even knew to exist to begin with. They never even knew that about you. They never even predicted it, they never expected it. So all they're really doing is disowning these parts of themselves that they don't like and assigning them to you. And that's why they're often getting you to carry the blame, you to carry the responsibility, often of their own actions. Things that they are guilty of. In many ways they scapegoat you. They hold you accountable for all of their wrongdoing. Because the truth is that they actually have no identity of their own. I mean how could a person have an identity of their own if they're disowning parts of themselves that they disapprove of and then just putting it on to you instead of them owning up to that and taking accountability for it. Does that sound like someone who likes or accepts themselves? Of course not. And if you've watched until up to this point in the video, you should have connected certain things by now. You should have concluded upon what I'm speaking about. And why it bothers them so much when you say whatever. Or when you say I don't care. Because yes this false character, this false reality, it is heavily dependent on you. They disown these parts of themselves that they don't like and assign them to you. And then they have to get you to accept it, to agree with it. Even if they have to manipulate you, even if they have to gaslight you into submission. Even if they have to destroy you, if that's what they have to do to get you to agree. So that they can then continue in this path to exist as this false character. Who doesn't have the flaws that they would otherwise possess. Because they've already dumped that on to you. And many of them don't see this, they're not even conscious of it. They don't even realize what they're doing a lot of times. But this is exactly what is going on. Now that's why with time, I mean you take on all of these extra unnecessary duties and responsibilities. You take on far more accountability than you need to. And that's why with time you begin to surpass them. Because they're dumping all of this baggage onto you. All of these parts of themselves that they don't like. And you're taking that and you're turning it into gold. You're turning it into something greater. Because they're essentially handing you the power. The power over them. When they're doing that. Because that is the whole point. Is these negative or undeveloped parts of ourselves. If we take accountability for those things. It can be turned into something great. And that's something that they have failed to realize. Because remember a lot of these behaviors are unconscious. They don't even realize what they're doing. They don't even know that they're disowning parts of themselves and assigning them to you. But that's exactly what they're doing when they are unjustifiably blaming you and scapegoating you. And that's why things then pan out in the way that they do. And this is why it bothers them so much. And this is why every action, every behavior. Everything they do. It's designed to get you to care. It's designed to get you to think of them. To ruminate over them. To worry about them. To worry about what they're going to do next. This is why. Because by doing that you're acting in accordance. You're agreeing with what they're saying or what they're putting out.  When you disagree. When you act indifferent. You say whatever.  Then you're triggering them. You're pulling them into reality. Because they've got to get you to agree. Because it's dependent on you. It's dependent on what you think. Because they're actually very insecure about it. And not only that but they're actually very insecure about what they're doing. Yes of course they know that what they're doing is wrong. Deep down. They know that they're bad. They know that they're evil. They know that they're crazy. They know all of that. And that's why they rely on the manipulation and the gaslighting so heavily. To distort your perception. And to get you to accept it and agree to it. Because this is how an abuser's mind thinks. If you accept it. If you choose to stay. You agree with it. Then I'm not doing anything wrong. Because if I was doing something wrong. Then you would say something about it. But that's the crazy thing because even when you do. They just manipulate and gaslight you even more. So there is nothing that you can say or do. Either way this process still goes on in their mind. Where it's like. You're here. You're right in front of me right now. While I'm saying or doing this to you. You're still present. And even if you're not I can just try to pull you back. The point is you're still here. So that must mean that you're okay with it. You agree to it. Because otherwise you wouldn't be here. And this process. This mentality this way of thinking goes on in their minds. Despite what you do to fight it. It doesn't matter if you try to run away. It doesn't matter if you say no. If you set boundaries. What do they do? They'll stalk and harass you. They'll try to track you down. They'll isolate you. They'll start smear campaigns against you. While acting as though you're comfortable with it. You agree to it.  They're in denial. They're telling themselves that what they're doing is okay. And that you're okay with that. As long as they can get you to care. If they can get you to care. And this is why they sensitize you as well. Because then you're still reacting. If you're reacting that tells them that you care. That tells them that they can keep going. What they're doing is okay. But when you stop reacting. When you gray rock then suddenly there's a problem. Because then that triggers them to reflect. And then it's like okay so what I'm doing is not okay. Because why am I not getting a response? That's when they will typically ramp up the abuse. To get that response out of you. Because they need that response. That's what tells them to keep going. Even if you're resisting it. Even if you're opposing it. Even if you're fighting it. That reaction is all they need. That's validation. It's telling them that what they're doing is okay. As crazy as that sounds. And their disordered mind is set up in a way. Where it's like they're constantly scanning you. And you may see it. The way they're scanning your facial expressions. Body language and tone and voice. To where you could just outwardly say no. You could decline. You could refuse. You could say no I'm not interested. And yet they're so. They're so just scanning you. Insignificant things. Responses. Signs of agreeance. Just any little thing they can find. And they will twist and distort it. Which then in their minds give them. Some permission to continue doing what they're doing. Yes this is how predators think. This is exactly how murderers and rapists think. This is how they justify it. And this is why they need you to care.  Whether it's something bad or something good. As long as they get that reaction out of you. Even if that reaction is you telling them. That you don't care. Even then they can still twist that around in their minds. But when you say I don't care and. Your body language. Your energy everything.  Then that kills them. That invalidates the false character. It destroys the illusion. It all falls apart. And in that moment you need to be very careful. Because in their minds it's like okay. If you don't care right now. If you don't care about what I'm saying. What I'm doing in my efforts to provoke. Or to entice you. If you don't care that doesn't mean I've got to stop. If I stop then the false character dies. The illusion falls apart. I lose my supply. So if you don't care. That means I have to make you care. That means I have to do something to provoke you. To get a response. To make you react. So that you do care. And then that gives me permission to continue doing what I'm doing to you. And then I can continue getting that validation. I can continue getting supply. Yes. This is exactly how they think. This is exactly what is going on in their minds. And quite possibly it is the result of extreme abuse and neglect in their childhood. I mean not quite possibly. I'm pretty much 100% sure that that's what it is. Because from all of that abuse and neglect. They had to develop this mentality, this way of thinking. To where they have to twist and distort anything and everything. To where they then see it as a sign of response. As an act of agreeance. So that they can then continue what they're doing. Because with any person, even a psychopath. When they know that someone doesn't agree to something. They can't continue. If a person does not agree with something they have to stop. This is why they objectify you. They dehumanize you. They infantilize you. This is why they do all of those things.  To get you to react, to respond. To validate. So that they can twist it in their minds. If though it's some form of agreeance. Then gives them permission in their minds to continue. With their behavior. Because otherwise it's not possible. Otherwise if someone says no. If someone says this is the line do not cross. This is a boundary. This is me and this is you. If someone says that. They can't continue. So they have to distort it in their minds. So that they can continue with their behavior. They have to blur the lines. They have to extend themselves. And have power over you. To where it's like. You can't tell where they end and you begin. Or where you end and they begin. There is no boundary. There is no dividing line. Everything's just enmeshed. And this is why narcissists like enmeshment. So that they can do whatever they want to do. Whether you like it or not. As I said we were going to go deep on this one. And yeah I think we've gone pretty deep. This is how a narcissist mind works. This is how any abuser's mind works. Every abuser has an excuse. They have a justification. Otherwise they could not do what they do. Our minds. This system. This world is not set up in that way. Because this world was created by God. We were created by God. And God quite possibly did not design things to work in this way. So these narcissists, these abusers have found ways to go around it. By distorting things in their mind. By having these justification, these excuses. And viewing people as objects or as extensions of themselves. So that they are then able to bypass this natural order. This natural way of how things are supposed to be. And how it was ordained by God. Because yes this is a perfect system. It was set up in a perfect way. To where we would all live in harmony and in accordance with each other. But these narcissists, these abusers, they found a way to go around it. To where they could force themselves upon people. And do things to people who didn't want those things done to them. Which in my opinion rather is the worst thing that you can do. There's nothing worse that you can do than that. I mean if someone says no, if they say they don't appreciate something. They don't like your behaviour, they don't like how you're treating them. Then you should stop. You should walk away, you should leave them alone. If not then what you're doing is evil. And you will be penalised for that, you will face justice. Because you have gone against the natural order. You have gone against this system that God has created. And it's no coincidence why things are set up in this way. And why narcissists have to behave in the way that they do. In order to get their needs met. Because a long time ago, as I've said in previous videos, they have sold their souls. And I do believe that they had an option, they still do have an option to reclaim their soul. But they chose not to. They chose to go on this path. They chose to do things this way. That is why they are the way that they are. That's why they're always so miserable. Because they're ego-tistical, they're not connected to a soul. 245 live viewers, if you're finding this video helpful please give it a thumbs up down below. It will help to get this message out there so that other survivors will see it as well. And I do believe that this is a very important message. I haven't gone this deep on this topic until now. But also I'd love to hear from you, let me know what you think about this. Do you agree with it or not? What are your thoughts? Let me know in the comment section below. Hit subscribe, click on notifications so that you will be notified when I upload new videos. And if you would like to donate, you can leave a super thanks in the comment section or a super chat in the live chat. Or you can go to my paypal, it is paypal.me. And if you would like to book a one-on-one coaching session with me, you can go to my website at snarksurvivor.co.uk. And you can also follow me on Instagram. It's snarksurvivor YouTube. Thank you all for watching. 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And welcome to the 2 p.m. Update with me Dave White right now the S&P's off almost nine tenths of a percent one and a half percent on the Nasdaq Dow's down it was called a third of percent Russell's off almost eight tenths crude down in front of a big OPEC meeting this week down one point eight percent and gold off about was called a third of percent. So we've got a big week in the making. I had been thinking that when the money came or when China reopened some of that money would go back to China. I thought maybe a whole lot more than we're seeing so far mostly in the Nasdaq. I think it's more of an issue where they're going back into more speculative stocks in the Asian markets. But as I said we've got a ton of stuff going we've got some earnings this week. The feds meeting at 2 p.m. on Wednesday then on Thursday I think about 745 we've got the ECB coming out with their statement and a discussion through 9 a.m. the OPEC meeting not exactly sure they haven't set a timeline but maybe late Thursday early Friday then of course after those the ECB and the Fed come out we'll probably see some fun buying come in this question just how much few other things going on in the markets that you should know about. We have hedge funds that are incredibly short. Many of the big names in the market as Tesla had its big run last week on the backs of many of those shorts. We also have some very troubling economic news and that is the link went to car loans or those that are out past 30 days is the largest it's been since 2009 the first quarter of 2009. So there's a lot of things saying the economy is kind of weak and everybody on Wall Street is saying we can only go to the moon. We'll be back in just a few minutes and do the full show. The reality is that navigating financial markets can be risky. Markets can be chaotic and difficult to understand.


Hello, and welcome back to Esmeralda Conf 2023. This is the first presentation session on planning, collaboration, and review management. As always, you can ask questions via Twitter by following at ES Hackathon or by using the Slack channel if you registered for the conference. Presenters will be answering those questions after this session as well. So keep an eye out. First up today is Gerard Wagner and Julian Presta and they're going to be introducing Kohlrev, a pipeline for collaborative and Git-based literature reviews. Welcome to Kohlrev, a pipeline for collaborative and Git-based literature reviews. I'm Gerard Wagner. And I'm Julian Presta. Today, we're excited to present Kohlrev. Kohlrev is a standard for data and collaboration management that supports the entire literature review process. In literature reviews, we still have to waste a lot of time with data wrangling, operating complex interfaces, dealing with unreferenced managers and converting proprietary data formats back and forth. We're not prepared to complete the process efficiently with updates and multiple search and review iterations. Our inspiration to address this challenge are the tidy rows and statistical data analysis packages. In these cases, we've seen the benefits of shared data structures which allow users to select and combine different packages with ease. Our work also builds on Git with its transparency, reproducibility and scalability built in. With Git as a basis, we could really scale collaboration within review teams and beyond by involving the broader research community. Git also makes it much easier to undo changes or test different extensions. We believe that the design of data structures really matters in order to create an ecosystem of review tools and forget we need to think beyond tabulated data structures. These data structures would differ from conventional ones in reproducible research. For literature reviews, we need to regularly feed updates and new records into the process. And the process itself combines manual and automated steps. That's very different from the typical reproducible research analysis where we really manipulate the raw data and all the changes are purely computational but simply dumping everything into Git version control would create a huge mess. If we combine shared data structures, standardized operations and a Git workflow, everything becomes much more efficient and we can cycle through the review process with ease. We believe that just proposing a data structure and management system would not be enough. To show the benefits and to get this idea to fly, CallRef is now available as a first prototype and Garrett is now walking you through the live demo that covers the entire process end to end. So welcome to the demo. This is the three step workflow of CallRef and all you need to know is CallRef status. This command shows you the current state of the project and also tells you what the next operations are. So you run CallRef status, then run the next operation and then you can also validate the changes. So you basically repeat these cycles. This will take you through the whole review project from initializing the project to retrieving the metadata and PDFs, screening activities, as well as different forms of data analysis and synthesis. So CallRef status. Now tells us that we should initialize the CallRef repository. We can take any review type from that list. Let's just go for a scoping review as an example and you can read up on the details in the documentation. So now everything's set up. You see the different directories and files were created. Okay, so upon CallRef init, the status now tells us that there are zero records in the process and the next operation is CallRef retrieve. And this tells us how to add search results. So it could simply copy files on BIB, RIS, XLSX to the data search directory. We could provide PDF documents or you could run an API space in search. So let's try that. So here we are in the documentation where things described. You see the different options for API searches and we just go for the example. So I run it and the example is the CrossRef database, two additional databases from our discipline and we searched for our microsourcing as the keyword. So we run these commands and it fetches all the results and then we run CallRef status where we see 33 records in the process. We should run CallRef retrieve. Which now tells us that retrieve is a high-level operation consisting of the search, load, prep, and to be. So let's run that and explain to you what happens in the background. So the search results are stored in the data search directory. The settings are in the settings, Jason. That's where the search parameters or the API calls are stored. Now the load operation brings everything into the same BipTech format and it adds a few fields. For example, the CallRef status which keeps track of the state of each record throughout the process. This could be MD imported and it changes to MD prepared, perhaps pre-screen excluded or synthesized in the end. Now the CallRef origin points to the original record in the search source. So it's important to keep track of that. Now the prep operation also uses province data describing where each field comes from and whether there are any quality defect. For example, the title comes from this source and it has a quality defect because everything's in capital letters. Now the prep operation results all of those quality defects based on high quality data sets like CallRef curations or Crossref. In this case, you see that everything's fixed. No remaining quality defects and it's even connected to a CallRef curation. So coming back to our example, we see that everything is completed. We repeated the search with no additional records that were retrieved. The load was completed for the different search sources. In the preparation, we see several records that are quality curated as well as two records that are excluded automatically. And in the pre-screen, there are a couple of duplicates that were identified and merged. So the next step, according to CallRef status is pre-screen. Where we provide a short explanation at the beginning and then we check each paper whether it's relevant to our objectives. So in that case, it's microsourcing, it says relevant, same here. So in the end, we get a short overview of our coding and the next step is to run CallRef PDFs. So that retrieves the PDFs from our local hard drive from other projects, as well as online from the Open Access PDF collection of Unpayable. So now there are a couple of PDFs that would need to be retrieved manually, but I'd like to continue with the process. Just skip the screen, which is pretty similar to the pre-screen. So we include all in that step. And now in the CallRef status, it suggests the immediate next operation, the manual retrieval, but we can also go for the verbose mode, which gives us more options. So here we see more operations and additional information on versioning and collaboration. We see that in the data operation section, there's Prisma, FloatChart, an obsidian vault for data analysis, as well as a manuscript that we can find here. There's information on how to build the manuscript and how to create versions. So let's just have a look at the output. You can see the Word document with the Prisma, FloatChart, all the details, the figures added based on the pipeline. There's a to-do list of the relevant records that would need to be synthesized and the full reference section with all the details. So basically we've completed a whole literature review in just five minutes. And we can also go online to see the example repository. So you can use Git to collaborate in small teams and private, or also in larger teams and public projects. So there's no limitation here. You also see that there's full transparency of the changes. You have one commit for each operation that we completed. You can go into the individual commits, have a short record at the beginning, and also see the detailed changes that were applied throughout the project. So now I'm sure you're all wondering, how can I try this and how can I get involved? But there's a variety of ways in which you can get involved and they somewhat also reflect our vision for how Colorado Build developed going forward. By the way, all the different links here on the slide will be available in the video description.  Use it for your literature review projects and let us know what you think. The more and more people will use Colorado, the more we will be able to refine the best practices. And for example, tailored to the nuances of particular review types that you're working with. As you've seen in the demo, Colorado is built with extensibility in mind from the start. So we are looking forward to many, many contributions and extensions that integrate Colorado with your most favorite review tools. We have only briefly touched on the possibility of curated repositories in the demo, but we envision community level curations to play an important role for the reuse of review projects. And you can read more about what we mean by that following the link to our Colorado curations. And so ultimately, we hope that Colorado will become the data management standard for literature reviews. But to make that happen, we need you. So please download Colorado today and start using it. We are looking forward to your feedback. Thanks very much, Garrett and Julian. Up next, we have Thodoris Diaconidis, who's going to be introducing ScreenMed R, a package for automizing the screening of publications for meta-analysis or systematic reviews using PubMed database. Hi there. My name is Thodoris Diaconidis, and I would like to present you my package, a package called ScreenMed R, which is a package for automating the screening of publications for systematic reviews and meta-analysis. To start, I would like to thank the organizing committee for giving me that opportunity to present my program. So let me start with the idea behind the ScreenMed R package. Its task is actually to find all the relevant publications that are needed for a meta-analysis study as quickly as possible and as accurate as possible by using the program instead of showing instead of someone reading all the abstracts one by one or the publications one by one to end up with the more relevant ones. So this is the task of the program. And the program actually to accomplish this task runs in algorithm and unsupervised machine learning algorithm. And in conjunction with the cosine similarity, it can provide the user with the more relevant publications, abstracts in our case, for his study. The program runs through PubMed. So PubMed is actually the database, the output of the database that it's the input for the program. The output of PubMed is the input for the program. And at the end of the day, the user ends up with a small number of publications, about 30% of the initial publications for manual inspection. But the user can also lessen this number by using some extra functions that they are already in this script-medar package that I'm just going to show you just after. So how the program works. The input of the program is actually, as I said before, the output of a PubMed database search. It's usually a CSV or a TXT file, which includes the PMID numbers. The PMID numbers are actually what the program needs for as an input. I will provide also with a video vignette that I implemented a specific case in order for somebody to be more acquainted with the program. So this is the rest input. And the other input of the program are four or five publications, actually the PMID numbers of these publications, that the user is quite sure that these belong to his or her study. So with these two and actually the number of groups that the user would like at the beginning to divide a total number of publications is the input for the program. What the program does, it actually divides the abstracts of all publications in groups that the user defined in terms of text similarity. The measure for this text similarity is actually the cosine similarity. Cosine similarity is more or less a number between 0 and 1. If the number is very close to 1, it means 1. Let's say it means that the two texts are identical. If it is 0, it means that there is no connection of one text with another text. So more or less, you end up with some number between 0 and 1 for these specific groups. So what is actually doing, what's going to make the function is doing, the output, as I said, it is a cosine similarity. If you have, for example, two or three groups, you have three numbers between 0 and 1. And the group with the biggest cosine similarity is the winner, is actually the most relevant group of publications. Is it safe to discard all the other groups and keep the publications of the one with the biggest cosine similarity? Well, it is safe in the case where the cosine similarity, the difference of cosine similarity between the first, the winning, let's say, and the second, let's say, the less, it is greater than 0.2. In that case, you can discard the second or the third or all the rest and keep only the first one. This is a round of a screen method function. You can apply this screen method function again in a second round, taking this time as an input the output of the first run, and keep going until you cannot find the cosine similarity greater than 0.2. This is the idea. It takes a couple of minutes to, in case, for example, a modern computer for, let's say, 1,000 abstracts, you can run the whole thing in less than a minute and end up with a smaller group of publications, and you keep running it, and you can end up with, let's say, 30% or 20% of the initial ones. After that, it will be quite difficult to have such a difference, such a cosine similarity difference, and it's not working, more or less. It's not safe to work. Extra functions that are included in the packets is this mesclin BQ function. So what it actually does, let's say that you have a group of publications, and you want actually to have in common D descriptors and Q qualifiers, more than D descriptors and more than Q qualifiers with the publications of a comparing group. Let's say that the comparing group is this four or five publications that we had, and you end up as an input, another bigger group, and you want to see which publications of the bigger group have these numbers in common. So in this way, you filter even more your publications in terms of the very relative comparing group. Another function is the mess by name. This is more specific. Let's say it has to do with the name of the mess term. If someone is familiar with mess terms, there are two parts, the descriptor and qualifier of a mess term. We'll show everything also in the video vignette. So you define the exact name of the descriptor and the qualifier that you want your publication to include. And the program actually filters all the publications that you enter to the ones that have these specific descriptors and qualifiers. So this is the whole idea of the program. And these are the functions that are included. And someone can find everything in this web page. It's actually in GitHub. You can download it and install it from here. And there is also a vignette, a PDF vignette, that is more analytical. And you can find a case study here. And the program actually was implemented to this meta analysis here. And you can find more information for this specific program in the appendix of this publication. That is more or less what I would like to say. If somebody has anything more, if you want to learn more about the program, I would be very glad to help you. Thank you very much for your time. Goodbye. Thanks very much, the Doris. Our final speaker in this session this morning is Clarice Neville, who's going to speak about meta impact, designing future studies whilst considering the totality of current evidence. Hello, everybody. I'm Clarice Neville, and I'm based at the University of Leicester here in the UK. Now, the Complex Review Support Unit, the CSU, have a suite of web apps for evidence since this. And this short presentation will be introducing one that is currently being developed by myself and colleagues Terry, Nicola, and Alex. This is meta impact, and it aims to enable researchers to design future studies whilst considering the totality of current evidence. As with the other CSU apps, many people work on these projects, and their contributions are always appreciated. Here, I'd like to give extra thanks to Alex for providing some of the content for this presentation. So in research as a designing new studies, a balancing act is going on when considering how many people to recruit. If there are too few people, then it may be that the study is unable to detect and affect, even if there is one, due to a lack of power in the study. If there are too many people recruited, in other words, the study could have detected and affect with less people, then some participants would have undergone treatment unnecessarily. Obviously, this is even worse when the treatment assigned was inferior. Both scenarios are wasteful and unethical and should be avoided where possible. In the UK, before a treatment is offered to the public, governing bodies must approve them. To aid decision-making parties, it's common practice for systematic reviews to be presented where all the relevant evidence has been found and combined to give an overall picture. When there is a quantitative outcome of interest, a meta-analysis is also often considered to review the evidence. With this in mind, there exists an ideology that instead of powering new trials in isolation, researchers should anticipate their new study being added to the current body of evidence and therefore power it to influence an updated meta-analysis with said study included. Let's go through what this looks like statistically. Firstly, we need to conduct a standard meta-analysis of the current evidence in question. In this example, we have a meta-analysis of six studies with a pooled odds ratio of 0.8. Then using parameters from the meta-analysis, a new study is simulated. This involves sampling a new study effect from a distribution defined by the meta-analysis. Here, this is minus 0.15 on the log odd scale. Then by setting the probability of an event in the control arm at an estimated value, the probability of an event in the treatment arm can be derived. Here, this is 0.18. Finally, using the binomial distribution here as we're using binary data combined with the probability parameters we've derived, we can simulate the number of events in each arm for a set sample size. Here, the sample size is 200 in each arm. And so we get 38 events in the control arm and 35 events in the treatment arm. The next step is to simply redo the meta-analysis but with the newly simulated study included and then noting down whether the resulting meta-analysis gave the desired effect or not. To then estimate the power of the set sample size, 400 here, one simply repeats steps two and three, i.e. simulating a new study and updating the meta-analysis a large number of times. The power is then calculated as the proportion of meta-analyses that gave the desired effect. In this example, we were looking for updated meta-analyses that gave a traditionally significant p-value of which there were 304 out of the 1,000 iterations, giving a power of 30.4%. The final step is to then simply adjust the sample size to achieve the desired level of power. Right, so as you can tell, this method that I've just gone through can be quite complex to understand and follow, and furthermore, it can be computationally difficult to do. Therefore, it was our aim to build a user-friendly web app to allow researchers to easily utilize these methods. As with our other web apps, we worked with the statistical software R and the Shiny package, and as a result, meta-impact was born. As some elements of the app are hard to comprehend, particularly the sample size calculator, additional features were added. Small features included information pop-ups and help wizards to take the user through each part of the calculator, but bigger, more educational features are set to be incorporated to teach the user how the method works and gives the results that are being presented. One such feature will be to incorporate the langen plot. The setup of the langen plot is similar to a funnel plot. Along the x-axis, we have the outcome, and along the y-axis is the standard error. The diamond represents the pooled effect from the meta-analysis, with lines extending to represent the 95% predictive interval. That's the interval for where we'd expect new study effects to be. For every possible position on that plot, i.e. for any new study with a certain odds ratio and standard error, that respective area is shaded according to how that new study would affect the updated meta-analysis. So here, the darker shaded area shows where new studies would cause the meta-analysis to give a significant pooled effect and the white areas otherwise. Now let's consider all these tiny individual points that you can see on this plot. They each represent a simulated study of the set sample size being tested, according to the method we've been describing. Therefore, one can visually see how the power has been calculated. It's simply the proportion of those dots that are in the shaded area. Now at the time of recording, this app is still in development. Currently, it can run a frequentist meta-analysis and calculate the power of a new study of a certain sample size from that meta-analysis. Furthermore, the app can produce power plots for multiple sample sizes and for fixed or random effects meta-analysis. Further features that we are aiming to complete before releasing the first version of Meta Impact include adding functionality to run the meta-analysis within a Bayesian framework and to incorporate an interactive version of the Langham plot described previously. Looking further towards the future, a later version may consider how these methods can be extended to network meta-analysis. Once a first version is ready to roll, we also plan to assess the potential benefit of Meta Impact by utilizing past reviews. Specifically, this will involve taking all the studies in that past review but excluding the most recent study added and then plugging that all into Meta Impact. As described, Meta Impact will then simulate new studies based on the edited review. We do meta-analyses with the simulated studies included and obtain new results. An optimal sample size of a new study can then be estimated, such that it influences the meta-analysis. This new sample size along with the new pooled effect will then be compared with the original review and the study that was removed to assess whether using Meta Impact would have been more beneficial. Once released, we believe that Meta Impact has the potential to benefit patients and research by encouraging ethical sample sizes and reducing wasteful trials. So please do keep an eye out for when it's released. You should be able to find out when by following our Twitter or GitHub. Thank you. And thanks very much, Clarice. That's it for this session. We hope that you've enjoyed it as much as we have. Our presenters should be online for the next couple of hours and days to answer your questions. So do please keep them coming in by Twitter. Thanks very much. Bye.


What's good Josh boros back again with another video so I'm gonna check out loudest WWE crowd reactions of all time Now there's been a lot of instances where the crowd pops for maybe a certain someone returning or someone winning a championship or you know, someone maybe Turning baby face or whatever the case may be or in certain situations When it comes to the money in the bank a particular person cashing in one of the greatest money in the bank cash-ins In my opinion is Dolph Ziggler the crowd reaction He got on that Monday night raw after mania was probably the biggest reaction Dolph Ziggler has ever gotten in his career And one of the biggest reactions someone's ever gotten for a money in a bank cash-in It's always good to get those crowd pops crowd reactions because you know, it lets the Wrestlers know that the fans are into it. It lets us at home, you know, kind of be into it as well It makes for the overall segment whatever segment it may be that much better when the crowd is lit in there They're going crazy. So we're gonna check out some of these reactions, man from the crowd. This is by wrestling Royale Subscribe to them recently. We're gonna link the original video down below so you guys can give them a subscription and let's get right into this one We is big on creating moments, but great moments are always defined by the crowd's response It's the resounding crowd reactions that etch these big moments into our memories forever Whether it's a surprise return a shocking Something more unique here are the 10 loudest WWE crowd reactions of all time starting with number 10 Sammy Zane That crowd was crazy The bloodline saga has been WWE's wildest ride in years and while it was all centered around the head of the table Roman Reigns the secret ingredient was bearded goofy-faced Sammy Zane it culminated in a battle between Sammy and Roman at the 2023 Elimination Chamber and in Sammy's hometown of Montreal, Canada That crowd was so electric were in vain and it was the tribal chief who left victorious One thing we'll remember is the thunderous ovation that Sammy received when he came to the ring Hey, that's Smackdown because they were in Montreal and Smackdown Before the pay-per-view was just he stood out there for like almost 10 minutes at the end of the show the crowd just went crazy Went crazy and then at the show crowd went crazy. It was it was beautiful, man Sammy deserves those type of moments. It was good to see that being able to witness that live man It was a perfect storm of circumstances a hometown hero a beloved baby face versus the final boss heel and a personal Blood feud that had been months in the making Number nine the Dudley boys surprised In 2015 WWE's tag team division was at an all-time low WWE tried to remedy this stale environment by injecting a dose of violence into the division and that Violence came in the form of the legendary tag team the Dudley boys The Dudley's left the WWE on bad terms in 2005 and given their success in other promotions It seemed we'd seen the last of the Dudley's in a WWE ring But on an episode of raw in 2015 while the time celebrating a victory in the ring an explosion of fireworks Punctuated the return Devine who arrived and laid waste to the new day to a deafening response from the crowd Listen to that it all ended with a sing-a-long The tables are perfect return made better by the crowd reaction for sure Number eight the rock and Hulk Hogan stamp deaf definitely has to be on this list as well that that crowd was electric Oh, man, that crowd was electric Look at that man Inducing it takes a special kind of magic to elicit a vocal response for minutes on end WrestleMania 18 that was exactly what the rock and Hulk Hogan And they do it without saying a word or lifting a finger the match was a genuine once-in-a-lifetime Showcase the biggest wrestling star of all time versus the modern-day face of the company Visual of these two megastars squaring up has remained one of WWE's most iconic shots ever And it's still used in video packages to this day Yeah, what's yours can't show is the roaring crowd reaction that accompanied rock and hogan sizing each other up Listen to that Listen to that man Look at that The crowd reaction lasted several minutes just that clip alone. I got goose bumps I may not be the the biggest fan of Hulk Hogan as a late but once again, I can respect what he's brought to the wrestling business and how he was able to really Take it to that next level to you know get it to mainstream audiences, you know, so gotta give him respect for that It's just goose bump inducing birth like If you don't feel nothing from this clip alone, I don't know. I guess you're just not a wrestling fan. I don't know Remains a testament to the magical abilities of both rock and hogan to top things off They both held the crowd for the entire 16-minute duration of the legendary match that followed Number seven Rob Van Damme beats John Cena. There's no crowd this crowd Wasn't the biggest but it was the rowdiest because of the intimate setting It wasn't a big venue, but it didn't need to be They're just the intimate setting and how Visceral this crowd was it still stands to test the time is one of the wildest rowdiest crowds of all time And it wasn't even that big, you know, it wasn't you know, it wasn't like a you know Arena-sized stadium, you know I'm saying so it just shows the testament to how devoted the ECW fans were man Crowd like an ECW crowd from burying wrestlers in chairs and bringing their own weapons to shows ECW faithfuls were a different breed of wrestling fans. Yeah They were loud and bloodthirsty and nothing proved this like the infamous one night stand pay-per-view back in 2006 The main event saw ECW legend Rob Van Damme take on John Cena for the WWE Championship and to say fans weren't kind to Cena. Oh, no It was all RVD The culmination of the match saw RVD lay out Cena with a five-star frog splash But he couldn't pick up the win because the referee was unconscious Q Paul Heyman ECW's mastermind coming to the ring and counting the pinfall himself This resulted in an arena shaking pop that put even So great to see man, let's go for six Kevin Owens and Elias's nuclear. This was good too This is really good Back in October 2018 the team of Elias and Kevin Owens drew the most Deafening chorus of booze ever heard on a wrestling show when they dropped a bomb on the rowdy seattle crowd on him In 2008 seattle's basketball team the supersonic's relocated to oklahoma city And it's remained something of a sore subject for seattle sports fans ever since Elias went straight for the throat and took a jab at the incident and the crowd did not take it lightly What followed was four minutes of relentless booing that was so loud It drowned out Elias's and kevin owens promo Team left! Turn the lights back down! Keep the spotlight on man! That's some good like cheap heel heat Because that that crowd was not having it They they took that so hard. That's some really good cheap heel heat, man Listen to that this rare moment of nuclear heat was completely unplanned and unexpected which is what made it so glorious In true wwe fashion. They tried to recreate the moment the following week on raw, but the magic had all but vanished Wwe should know by now that you can't engineer lightning in a bottle. Yeah number five Triple H at madison square garden. Make sense. This is on the list Make sense. This is on the list Just ridiculous back in may of 2001 a career threatening quadricep injury put triple h on the shelf for nine months At the time he'd been a part of the two-man power trip The older old steve austin, but vignettes leading up to triple h's return painted him as a heroic baby face Overcoming injury to return to the sport. He loved and that's the thing like as soon as he came back he was like a a baby face for a little bit because I mean it's hard when you put a vignette of someone overcoming the injury I don't and he even said it himself. He doesn't even think he didn't think it was gonna be Like that Like I think he said he ended up once he got to the back He started the the emotions overcame and he started breaking down in tears Which I get it the reaction he got It's probably one of the best reactions triple h has ever gotten in his entire career Coming out to to that ring after nine months of rehabilitation To have the fans go Insane for you after you were a bad guy Nine months prior for them to love you adoringly And he kept a straight face and when he got back behind the curtain the tears start from I was well I would have broke down because that's that's beautiful, bro. That's that lets the wrestler know. Hey, man We're glad you're back in the you know back in the square of circle You know the show is the appreciation his return date was set for june 2002 in madison square garden And until the day came no one really knew exactly how fans would react to the game's first face turn as a singles competitor But when triple h's music hit the deafening response shook the That's crazy where garden the game was given a hero's welcome by the energetic crowd on hand Finalizing his face turn in the most explosive way possible triple h might have left the company as the number one bad guy But it proved that the hotter the heal the better the face Yep, he's spoken at length about the moment in the past claiming that it was the first crowd reaction that ever moved him to tears said it Carlito Bro backlash alone that I don't I don't care what nobody say Backlash this year is probably one of the best backlashes. We've had in a long long time Without a doubt and that crowd you guys out there Y'all showed up Y'all showed up is still probably one of the best crowds so far for wwe. Oh my god, y'all were electric Take me back listen to that It's been a weird few years for wrestling vince mcman no longer runs the show There's a genuine competitor to wwe's monopoly Dominic mysterio is one of the best characters on tv And perhaps most shockingly of all ruthless aggression star Carlito is making appearances on lists of the biggest crowd reactions in wwe Yeah, flash 2023 saw damian priest take on music mega star bad bunny in a street fight And since the show took place in portorico fantastic We brought back a number of caribbean based legends for the hometown pop saviol vega came out to a pretty big reaction But when Carlito came out to save bad bunny from a judgment day beat down the whole place erupted into a frenzy of screens It was certainly one of the most surprising appearances And judging by the reaction he got carlito is something of a superhero amongst or to reek in wrestling fans number three The hardy boys This is good Honestly, that was the best part of this WrestleMania. I don't think anyone can debate me on that You may like some other parts, but I think the general consensus for this particular WrestleMania This was the best part of the show When they came out, I lost my shit. I was like, oh WrestleMania 33 saw a tag team ladder match for the raw tag team belts between the good brothers Enzo and big cast and shamus and cesaro before the match began The hosts of that year's WrestleMania the new day came out in the ring here and declared that the match would now be a fatal Four way, but then the iconic hardy boys music hit and the crowd exploded into a frenzy It made for a genuine unexpected moment Not only had the hardys been away from wwe for eight years But the night before they'd faced the young bucks in a ladder match at ring of honor to date They remained the only wrestlers to have worked WrestleMania and one of the peripheral shows over WrestleMania weekend and in true hardy style both were ladder matches number two Chris Jericho's arrival This was a good one too Her hairstyle was wild back then During episodes of rhyme in the ring and what followed was one of the greatest debuts and the loudest crowd reactions of all time The lights dimmed a silhouette of a dancing woman appeared on the titan tron Then the word Jericho flashed up to a roaring ovation Jericho had already made a name for himself as a great in-ring worker and promo guy in wcw and wwe Clearly had high hopes for him since they thrust him right into a verbal battle with the greatest Mic worker and biggest star they had Jericho held his own against the rock and despite the rock getting the better of the exchange by the end Jericho went on to become a legend in his own right and it all started with an explosive Crowd response that helped propel him right into superstardom for sure stone cold saves man I If stone cold wasn't at the top of the list, I would have been sadly disappointed There's there's a few clips you could have put for stone cold being at the top of the list Just his returns and reactions. He got when that glass broke But this This was this was definitely a Just Ridiculous moment, bro Very hard to definitively say what might have been the loudest crowd reaction of all time But every conceivable metric points to a particularly ear popping moment back in january 1999 On an episode of raw mankind took on the rock for the wwf championship in a no disqualification match The culmination saw an all out war between the corporation and degeneration x given the corporation's big numbers The good guys remained outnumbered here to a thunderous roar that was so loud You could barely hear jerry luller screams on commentary If that wasn't enough the deafening ovation could and helped him capture the ww You probably had to cut some clips. Yeah What made this crowd reaction so special wasn't just stone cold surprise return or mankind's unexpected victory Things were at a wcw week after week, but this night marked the first time wwf drew higher ratings than its competitor in 83 weeks It signaled the rise of the federation to the top of the pile and it was punctuated by the biggest crowd reaction That's why it takes the number one spot That concludes your list of the loudest ww Yeah, he probably had to cut some stuff for wwe purposes. Unfortunately. Sometimes they can be a little a little iffy with their Uh, their copyright How they do that copyright system go ahead and like this video. Hopefully you guys do the same Uh, but that's a legendary moment. It's a legendary moment. I am okay with that being number one But there's plenty of just crazy crowd reactions loudest pops Uh, you know over wwe's many many years So if it wasn't on the list comment down below. Let me know. What's your favorite Loudest crowd reaction loudest pop of all time for you. It wasn't on this list because there's Plenty of them you can choose from so comment down below. Let me know, but I appreciate all love and support You guys have shown on channel road to 150k now. I'm still getting speedy you to wrestling champion the world. Appreciate y'all kicking me. See y'all next one. Peace


Hi, beautiful. One of the first things I ever learned how to do the hair is braid. And I am fascinated by how these black men and women can do these braids so well. It is unbelievable. And people are very skilled. I am not quite there yet, though. I'm gonna watch some tutorials. Hopefully I don't make a fool out of myself. This is getting ugly. I'm definitely gonna get a little frustrated. I can already feel it brewing. So let's do it. So we're starting off basic, okay? We're starting off with just a regular cornrow for beginners. The most important thing I want to learn here is how to place my fingers. I always do it like this, and I'm supposed to be doing it like this. Like, the pro braiders braid on top. This is by Kaleichi McBemina. Let's see how it's done. For this entire cornrowing process, you're going to be needing three fingers from each hand.  These fingers are gonna be the one doing the entire work. What? Now we're going to be looping each hair strand across each other. And while we're doing that, we're making sure to kick the hair from the back so that way it cornrows and is not a braid, basically. I don't know if I can do this. Guys, I feel like I'm gonna be so embarrassed today. I would really like to not be embarrassed and have this come out good, but you know, sometimes you just gotta bite the bullet and just hope for the best. Oh my God. I hope to one day be as talented as she is. So we're gonna take a really thin section at the front because that is what I was told to do. Oh, okay, so here's the issue. I don't know how to like maneuver so that I can get my fingers on top like she does. I really wanna like do it like this where my hands are underneath, but I'm supposed to be doing it like this. All right, let's try it. Come on, we can do this. And record myself at the same time. It's fine, right? Nope, it's not fine. Hold on. Let's get it started because I can't do this on camera right now. Am I getting it debatable? Am I struggling? Yeah. All right, hold on. I'm starting to get somewhere with this. Wait a damn second. This is so much easier this way. I don't even know if I'm doing it right with the hand placement, but it's working. Nope, there I lost again. I'm really struggling trying to show you guys this while I do it. This is getting ugly. Oh no, no, no, no, no, no, no. So my parting is the thing that I honestly was not even thinking that was gonna be bad. I was like the least of my worries. And as you can see, that looks bad. But I'm telling you guys, you can't really make good parts when there's no hair at the scalp. Okay, I mean, I'm kind of happy with the way this came out, especially with like the new overhand like sort of pinching technique that I just learned and we're gonna go with it. That was honestly really helpful though to learn how to like do this kind of overhand. It makes it much easier to pick up the hair as you go. This thing is on her scalp. It's like hard as a rock. So we're taking the one in front, putting it at the back, I'm picking up the hair at the back, taking the one in front, putting it at the back and taking another hair at the back. Mine's ugly. I am gonna keep it at just this one because I got lucky. It looks decent. I'm a little annoyed. We're gonna go with that. Yeah, okay, great. Okay, it's time to step it up a notch. We learned how to do our regular cornrow and now I'm getting very scared because not only could I only accomplish one to my own standards, I have to now do a zigzag cornrow. We're really gonna test me today. And this video is by Aida Kireya. So what she's first doing is sectioning out a pretty large section. What is going on now? What is this? Put it in a hair band or whatever you can to not get them confused with each other. Whoa, I would have never thought about doing it this way. Okay, so these are the sections. So I'm just parting off like a half an inch section at a time and putting one up and one down. I can section hair. Take a small segment from it. It doesn't have to be a lot or neat. Where are we going with this? Put that on the sides. So the idea is I'm gonna go down here and then continue it. Oh. So I'm just gonna take off the excess braid. How is she doing this to her own head? This is a leet braiding.  And then feeling for where that hair is. Oh, this is magic. Then turn it in the direction that I'm going in. Look at the sea she has. Now we're gonna go zigzag, zigzag. And she could probably do this in five minutes. Turn my hand around. So rotate my hands from this position. Okay, I can try. I've seen enough. This is gonna be the easy part, right? Braiding just this one section downward. Nope, not the easy. Oh, okay. All right, don't combine the two sections. Let's keep these separate. Okay, I lost my section. Okay. Go over there. Go over there and stay there. Oh, my braid looks twisted and awful. I'm having a hard time picking up from one of the sides because there's no hair on it. But whatever happens here, we're keeping it. This looks good. It's not very close to her scalp, but I'll take it. Now she kind of braided a few times down. Ew, mine's so loose. Wait, so you expect me now to go upwards and braid that way? Got it. Okay. This is where I get really confused. I'm gonna have to put her head down because otherwise I can't do this.  No, Brad. You were doing kind of good. I got so ugly. Okay, I'm gonna take that. I'm not gonna be picky today. We're gonna go back down the other way. Oh, my God. I'm definitely a dramatic person, but right now I feel like I'm not being dramatic. I'm embarrassed to show you what I'm doing. It's not going well. I do probably have to start over and I'm going to have to cheat. I'm going to have to because this is just not gonna happen the way I want it to. I'm going to have to put her head in my lap in a non-suggestive way, okay? Don't be weird.  I'm not this good at this, okay? Sorry. I didn't mean to get mad. I'm just a little frustrated. Shit on me. Do it. What is this? I'm gonna blame the hair. I feel like if I had a good scalp and I was able to make good partings, I could make this look neat. I'm blaming the head because I have nothing else left. I could try to do it again and I'm sure I would get better as I keep going, obviously, but that's where I'm gonna leave it today. Okay, let's move on to something even harder because that sounds like a great idea. There's actually two things that are harder and it keeps getting harder as we go. Up next, we have the zigzag cross. I'm sorry, what? This video is also by Ida. So my first section I want is here and the next part I want is here. So now I'm just gonna twist the middle one to keep it out of the way. Yeah, yeah, yeah. Got it. What? That's not right. It's not even like a little bit right. Oh! So we're just gonna twist these sections we're currently not using to get them out of the way. So here is my sectioning. That's it. If that looks confusing, I would have to very much agree with you. And we're now just gonna braid up and down. Again, I don't know. I'm just gonna do it. So I'm putting her in my lap over it. I feel like no matter which way I turn her, I still can't do it. All right, let's do the baby section to start and then fingers over like that, Brad. Not like that. That's the way. We're doing underhand, right? Because that's what we've been doing the entire time. And that's what you should keep doing. Ooh. How do you guys see what you're doing? I'm just grabbing at random, hoping that it's the right section. Okay, now we're crossing over. We're getting our sort of like zigzag formation in. This braid looks terrible. Great, okay, awesome. I lost my overhand grip. I'm trying to work it back up. Mm, mm. That ain't it, love. So that is like the first part. And now I have to cross them. Okay, let's see how my girl did it here. Then that one's done. So I'm just gonna apply it down a bit because I'm leaving it halfway. So I'm just in the front of her hair right now. Pat that down and then remove your twists. And you do exactly the same thing with the other. That the other came in. Oh no, you made that look way too simple. Do you see it crossing? Oh my God, I'm so excited. Yes, yes, yes, yes. Why is this braid coming out so much better? Oh my God, I'm like happy but annoyed. Oh God, I still can't seem to do those like that like overhand thing. Or maybe I'm just not trying. That's probably it. Okay, there we go. We're doing the overhand now. Nope, we're not. We're lost it again. Okay, listen. I know that this isn't great but I did crisscross apple sauce braid and it's staying. Whoa, I feel like I'm actually progressing and I'm very excited about it because I know if I just practiced this a little bit more I could actually do some really beautiful braids. And thank you, Ida. What would I do without you? I'm ditching the tripod. I can't handle this. If I ever braid somebody's hair like I'm gonna have to have them lay in my lap. That's the only way it can work. We have one more braid to go. Yes, I'm sorry. You still have to be my client for another like 30 minutes. If you thought, Brad, what could you possibly do now? Let me show you what I can possibly do and what I'm going to do. It's a heart braid. This is by Glam Fam Hair and Beauty. Teach me how to do a heart braid. This part doesn't have to be perfect because you are gonna clean it up quite a bit as you work. So I'm gonna go in there and just kind of create a dip in the middle so that I can kind of visualize where that heart's gonna start. And I realized I wanted a bit more of that arch to the heart. I like to work at it in increments like this because it allows me to more easily kind of see what I'm doing and visualize. Oh, I see it. After I've done that, I'm gonna pin the excess hair out of the way, part down the center and I'm gonna separate that into two and separate those into two subsections going horizontally. My mental health level has completely just integrated throughout this video and I am this close to calling it quits. I'm gonna go ahead and begin braiding upwards and we're just gonna do this entire little part line this way.  I just feel like it makes it easier for people to understand the patterns and then we're just gonna braid down a little ways and I will put a duckbill clip on there just to kind of hold that securely. I always start off with a very small triangle in the corners. It just makes the braids look a lot more neat.  I'll just lay one on top of the other and we'll duplicate those strands. Okay. Left strand, right strand, right strand, left strand, left strand and then just continue braiding right on down. I wish this was tequila instead of water, right about now. Let's attempt to form a heart. We're gonna like round out the heart, heart. I need your head attached to a body, ma'am. Can you please put your head back on a body? It's okay, part the hair. Okay, we're just gonna start off with a triangle. Okay, I have successfully sectioned a heart which honestly, if that's all I can do then I'm gonna be happy with that. That was impressive for me. It is way harder to section a heart on a head rather than just watch somebody do it. Try it yourself. It's really hard. Okay, I have successfully made my sections. Now it's time to braid. I did half of the heart braid. It's not great. I'm not surprised by that. But it's there. Let's finish it. I might have to somehow combine these two braids. Never gets easy, huh? I mean, I accomplished the task. So much worse than I thought it was gonna look. But it's a heart. I'm a colorist, so don't come for me. I'm not a braider. And I leave that up to the black community to be the most exquisite braiders in the world.  We're gonna forget that I did that one. I feel like that's all I really can handle today. I honestly had a plan to do the entire head. But let me tell you, after doing this, after doing this heart braid, I just feel like that wouldn't be a good idea for me. It's just all I have in me at this point. I hope you can accept this love, this heart that I made for you. I'm so sorry. I can't braid anymore today. That's all I got in me. I am so sorry to myself and to you guys. I'm embarrassed because I like to be good at everything. But sometimes you just gotta admit to yourself that you can't be good at everything. I know I'll get better with a lot more practice. And I clearly need more practice with braiding.  You're so amazing at braiding. It's incredible. You make it look so easy. If you'd like to check out any of their channels, they are linked below. I'm gonna keep going with this. And hopefully one day I can braid like you guys can. That is all for today. Make sure you guys check out my hair care, my hair color line. Here are all my social handles and everything is linked below for you. You can also head to our website to check out everything we offer linked below. Thank you so much for watching. And don't forget to live your extra life. And I'll see you next time. Bye.


My name is Sam Dachman and I am the author of Malignan Selklava, Narcissism Revisible. Narcissists often frustrate other people. Frustrating ones nearest and dearest has a double advantage. It has the dual advantage of simultaneously satisfying the narcissist's masochistic tendencies and his sadistic urges. So, two birds with one stone. Frustrate your nearest and dearest and you satisfy your masochism and your sadism. How is it possible? Well, by withholding love, withholding sex, avoiding intimacy, avoiding the fulfillment of other people's desires and needs, the narcissist torments these people, he taunts them, he tortures them, even as he obstructs his own gratification. Think about it.  When you frustrate your wife, you are a sadist. When you frustrate yourself, you're a masochist. Self-sabotage, self-defeat, self-denial and self-destruction, the martyred victim stance all these serve to prevent the forming of attachment and intimacy and the potential for ultimate hurt, ultimate pain as they dissolve. But self-denial, self-destruction, self-defeat, self-sabotage, all these also buttress the narcissist's sense of superiority, of uniqueness, of omnipotence. Why is that? Because only the strongest, only those with a method can overcome and vanquish strong desires, powerful urges, needs, emotions that easily overwhelm lesser mortals. So by overcoming and vanquishing these desires and urges and emotions, the narcissist proves to himself that he is the strongest, that he is unique. The narcissist adheres to his idiosyncratic brand of ascetic religion in which he is both God and the worshipper. The narcissist's inner monologue goes like this, I reject everything that matters to other people. Everything that is deemed valuable, worthwhile, meaningful and desirable is nothing to me. And I hold the weaklings who succumb to their emotions and drives, I hold these people in contempt. Nothing they have or anything they can possess or attain, none of it is of value to me. It is all meaningless and worthless. So the narcissist devalues the commoners, the hoipoloir, the great unwashed, the average joe, the pedestrian, the routine, the animalistic sex and the socially conformist. And so self-defeating, self-denying and self-destructive behaviors and choices actually engender narcissistic supply. Because when you're self-denying, when you're self-defeat, when you're self-destruct, you uphold and demonstrate and prove the superhuman nature of the narcissist. This proves that the narcissist is a superman above humanity and humanity's needs and humanity's emotions and humanity's drives and humanity's desires and humanity's preferences and wishes and priorities is above the fray, is above all that. He doesn't need sex, he doesn't need intimacy, he doesn't need other people, he doesn't need society, he doesn't need. He denies his needs, he denies his drives and urges and desires and wishes. This self-denying proves to him, demonstrates to him and to others a kind of utter and titanic independence of society, even of nature, because he doesn't need sex. It's a kind of independence of others in interpersonal relationships. It's a form of counter-dependence, it's a defiance of the world, of the universe, of God, of nature, of himself. This overcoming, this overcoming, this elevating oneself to a higher plateau, this is the essence of the narcissistic supply. When narcissistic supply is a short supply, embarking on the path of self-negation is actually an efficacious way, an efficacious shortcut to obtaining and securing narcissistic supply. At the very least, he draws astounded attention to the narcissist.  Look at him, he just turned down the best job imaginable. Look at him, he doesn't need other people, he uses, abuses and discards them. There is some shock and awe in observing the narcissist, especially the psychopathic narcissist. He inspires a kind of intimidation, not to say fear, in others that puts him over and above his audience, makes him a kind of malevolent entity. The type of alien that we all scream at in a good horror movie. The horror movie is the narcissist's life.