Hello everybody. I'm super super excited. I've got the beautiful magnetic Magical shanti back with me today. How are you shanti? I'm really good actually. Thank you so much for having me back with you so often this week I'm having such fun with you brice. This is so cool. I know I know I know I know I always have fun with you Shanti, you're like the coolest ever like you're just so freakin cool And you're so wise and I know our last episode we did you shared more about your personal life Which we were just saying before we hit record like such a positive response We've gotten from people from your story and and and who you are and how you fell into what you do the magic of Who you are and one of your one of your many gifts in this world, which is the healing I'm so grateful honestly, and I must say I'm overwhelmed by the response as well you know I was saying on The australia channel the other day, you know and when we have so many of these these these Overcomers from australia and one lady in particular speaking. It's so beautiful for me to see the support That these people get from the general public, you know, and there's only nice things to say I mean I must I was overwhelmed by the kindness and Really the beautiful comments I've been receiving from your viewers as well. So thank you so much everybody It really is so wonderful when you're sitting up. Yeah, bury your soul I know this is gonna be a well This is one that I actually have wanted to talk about for a really really long time And I couldn't think about a person do this better than with Sean team Catherine was gonna join us But she yes, she doesn't have a whole lot of I guess experience with the body Of Also for her so I and I want to put this out here, too I'm not a therapist This is just gonna be me talking about stuff that I've worked through with my own self Of course Shanti is a healer so she can come she also can talk about her experiences With body morphic dysmorphia dysmorphia disorder I mean it's it's a well, let's lay layman's terms what is body dysmorphia disorder? What would that be for the layman's watching right now? What what is that? Well, let me just start by saying a Collage student I a number of months ago on my channel actually spoke about this as well This is one very young sassy gorgeous lady. I want to just say as well.  But we really have a distorted Vision or an opinion of the way we look physically So we therefore then go to great lengths to try and change the way we look I mean all we have to do is look at how rich plastic surgeons are right and we look at how many women Have gone for one surgery after the other and you look at the way they look after five or ten or twelve surgeries Compared to the way they looked when they before they even went. I mean I'm amazed that they even think they needed surgery to begin with, you know, and I mean that sort of stuff So it really is a distorted Opinion or view of the way you look so you would generally seem to think that you are a hell of a lot uglier or Malformed or disformed whichever way whichever the word is In your opinion of yourself than what you actually are so that's what it is And I've struggled with this guys and there are different extremes of this disorder and I have it I know I was doing a little bit of reading before we signed on about it And there are people that literally can't leave their house because they're so horrified by how they perceive themselves to look I was never that bad, but I did I struggled I have struggled a lot with what I would see in the mirror wasn't what other people Would see and it's a psychological thing and I know for me. I could probably trace it back to my childhood You know, I know that my mother's mother was Gorgeous and so I know that there I remember my mother saying once and I hope my mother doesn't want me saying this that when she Was growing up it was hard Because her mother was so gorgeous and so there was always that lingering my grandmother was awesome Like I wasn't she wasn't like this bitchy gorgeous person. She was a beautiful human being but she was known for her beauty and Even she died when I was eight so she's been dead for 21 years now But even before she was very young she's 61 when she passed away of cancer But even in my 20s when I would go back to their town people would stop me and one of the things they would say Was oh your grandmother Maxine was so beautiful. They were people would talk about it. And so there's that lingering Understanding of value and beauty, which I don't think that's what they meant. I think it was just a compliment and then of course In my 20s I when I lived in my 20s I got to the point when I lived in Los Angeles that I would weigh myself every single morning I would weigh myself and if I got over like a hundred ten pounds I would freak out and then on my 27th birthday I realized that this was becoming a problem and I've never been a really overweight like I've never it just it Psychologically, there was such a me beating myself up That at 27 I threw my scales away and I have not weighed myself since and I'm 39 now And so that was part of cutting that chain and another thing I I you know for me I've struggled with and I'll be very vulnerable here with my breast I'm I'm again I'm not that big of a person But I have my breast or like a D a D cup and I've wanted to have a breast reduction For a long time and I don't really need one and it wasn't until recently I was telling you off of camera Shanti We were talking about exercises we do and just recently I've been doing the exercise of sitting in front of the mirror and just looking at myself naked and actually complimenting myself and Going you know what women pay good money to have breast my size and Look at that. You're 39 years old and you've got a flat stomach Like look at you know And it's and just really starting to to correct the language that I use around my own self because you said something yesterday in our episode like The way we speak to ourselves Yeah, that would be considered abuse absolutely absolutely we We're our own greatest narcissist, aren't we and that's why I said if The man ever spoke to me in the way that I spoke some of my thoughts To myself I Would be mortified I would I would never forgive it honestly But at the end of the day that really is a lesson for us because you know You also spoke just going back a little bit about your grandma and at the same thing I mean my grandmother was 36 years old and my grandpa Came back from the Second World War and he passed away. So she was this young beautiful Jackie O. Nasa's kind of lookalike 36 years old and we lived of course in a small community and driving around in a little Sports car type thing and of course then suddenly all her friends turned on her because now all their husbands were interested now We're going back a number of years. We're interested in my grandma You know, which was a big problem My mother was Extremely beautiful and still is I mean she's 82 you would never even think that and she's always taken care of herself But I remember one of the things For me as a child the one time that I love being with my mom she she had a Very she had a morning and evening skin routine and Nice to watch her every morning and every well not so much the evenings, but the mornings I have to stand there and ask to watch her Do whatever she was doing on her face, you know, and she always said to me it's as important to be beautiful As beautiful on the inside as what you are on the outside So for me that was something very important, but she was I mean she was a miss queen this and a miss queen that when she was young You know and and she was very well known in our areas to be the most Beautiful woman in the community and I always said my father was the six foot six gentle giant He was the biggest most handsome guy. My mother was the most beautiful. I had my life made So yes, and I remember as teenagers as well Four girls we were and I was the youngest of the four and my mother was always Deemed one of the sisters. She you know, she's just had a natural youthful demeanor about herself still does and she was looked as you know looked like one of the sisters however My father being of Dutch descent much taller and obviously very very big burned Um Well, I did my other sisters. Yes and no, you know, but I certainly took after that with a larger frame And prone to pick up weight So when I was in my teenage years deaf and I was a tennis player So I was always on the tennis court wearing short skirts and things like that, you know, and I was a tennis player and I just remember starting to pick up weight when I was probably about 16 17 years old I hated it I hate and you know, I was at a co-ed school with boys And then they started teasing me and they started calling me names, you know to do with my weight and stuff like that I want to tell you I still I still think about those days and it still burns the Pit of my belly.  I don't care how old you are Just don't Just don't because it is such an impactful thing to do and especially when the person is young and impressionable, you know um But then I I you know, um when I felt pregnant with my son and I had huge boobs.  And I didn't try and I wasn't wasn't like I was going on a diet or anything I didn't I was eating but I then decided I wasn't going to gain 20 or 30 kilos while I was pregnant But I was going to just eat more healthy and I must say that's when my healthier life thought lifestyle Definitely came into play for me. Well, what was while I was pregnant? I remember eating a lot of fruit, but I craved fruit and I craved veggies and I craved lemons Lemons and and vinegar was like I just couldn't get enough of that so um by the time I had him when I had him I'd actually lost Six or seven kilos now I gained four and a half kilos at full term And when I had him I lost I think six or seven kilos when I put myself on the scale And my breasts just shrunk. It was the craziest thing So I was kind of like going in the reverse of everyone else And since then I must say I I wasn't I I wasn't as Round full-figured As what I was then But I always carried extra weight and definitely went through stages where I was more overweight Um, and I never liked my body Ever ever ever ever I want to tell you never people would tell me I I look good and especially in that I've good legs and what have you you just Compliment me and I would just lash out at you like what do you want from me? I mean if someone gave me a compliment if a man gave me a compliment I thought well, what do you want?  Okay There you you couldn't be thin enough. You couldn't be brown enough Your bikini couldn't be small enough and you couldn't be wearing enough sun sun sun sun tan lotion a shiny one The one that made me shadow And smell like coconuts or cocoa pita colada You it's so funny you say that because I I have the same real well So it's weird because I don't know if this is culturally for me. I have this memory So my dad's family kind of like your dad's family They're all really tall like uh, my grandfather was six five. My dad's like six three six four. I have a great aunt who was six feet Um really tall and I remember I have this memory I was probably eight nine ten years old And we would have this babysitter that would come babysit us and my parents would go out for the night And this memory is like ingrained in my head and I'll tell you guys why How this has to do with body dysmorphia for me in a minute But every time it got close to the time of my parents coming home This babysitter would go put a bunch of makeup on and one time I remember sitting on the uh The edge of the bathtub in the bathroom while she was putting her makeup on I remember asking her like Why are you always putting makeup on before my parents come home?  There's such this like set for wives type of um Culture where like my mother would have been horrified if she was horrified once when I went to the grocery store I'm running clothes, you know always were lipstick and mascara But what started to happen to me as I got into my teenage years and into my 20s Was anytime anyone gave me a compliment about my physical appearance, especially a man It would put a lot of pressure on me I felt like I then had to live up to this expectation every single time or I would not be enough It was like the way I looked was the most in in my mind Now when I say this it's silly because I don't look at other people that way And with partners like I've never looked at a man and been like, oh you have a little bit of a belly or Oh, no, this is wrong. No, never. It's the essence of the person I you know, it's it's not I've never had that type level of scrutiny on a man But I always put it on myself And again, yes any time I would get these compliments about anything physical It would like really stress me out because all of a sudden there was an expectation To always look a certain way to always be a certain way And and and it's it's it's took a lot of or taken a lot for me a lot of like Self study and really sitting with that In order to even try to process it And I think the thing with this dysmorphic disorder is that it never really goes away It's always kind of there, but it's learning to like you were talking about yesterday with the healing learning to use it to kind of Right above it Absolutely, you know definitely and I think also, you know in my teenage years we were I was a boarding school so um Obviously having a bunch of girls together in the hostel Um, I remember we were always on diet. Yeah, we were always weighing ourselves We were always I remember buying pants that were a size too small for me So that I could particularly diet and fit into them come the time of the school social Or dance or whatever it was and to me. I remember thinking so clearly if only I was thin My life would be perfect And my mind thin girls were happy girls You know, I remember that thought was so stuck in my head that I To this day I remember it like it was yesterday And it certainly took me a while to get through that and as I I must say when I met hannis who is my my austrian fiancee um I was 24 And I remember him Just looking at me thinking I was amazing And I I would say I would say no don't look at my big hands It's a you don't have big hands. You've got the most beautiful strong hands I'd say don't look at my big feet you go There's a beautiful feet.  He said I've never seen toes like that And wow your your feet are in such good condition like he's never seen a woman with such nice feet He said you are strong. He said you are strong and suddenly That shifted so much for me From me to suddenly because I'm 5 9 I'm 1.75 which is not abnormally tall at all I've also got a six foot sister and a 5 11 sister, you know Um and definitely but my father I remember when we were teenagers he would he would say to us um You are beautiful. No daughter of mine will walk with her shoulders hunched He would insist we walked with us.  He did not enjoy Anything that was fat. I remember that completely although he never ever body shamed us I just felt it in my being and when I picked up weight There was a critical eye on me when I'm right or wrong to this day I don't know but that was my perception of it You know, so there was never a physical Talk around it, but I also remember my remember my mom always Watching her weight. So there was just this whole emphasis on the way you looked And then I definitely believed that was very much an 80s thing And I think anyone who was a teenager or sort of grew up in that era will probably Conquer with me there, but honestly when I then when I was with hannis My perception of myself changed a lot I felt more confident. I felt loved. I felt appreciated And that's when my confidence in myself grew as well as a person Just to be valued and appreciated by another human being The way that he valued and appreciated me did a lot for my confidence and then I I definitely wasn't skinny then if we're talking weight or whatever like that, but I still Liked just feeling better about myself And you know as I went along on my healing journey and as I understood more about What my body truly is And how to appreciate Why I chose my body To look the way I do because you know I truly believe we choose the way we look as well, you know Our spirit is what it is before we incarnate onto this beautiful planet We choose to look the way we do Definitely we choose to have the issues that we do And it didn't take me long into my healing journey to understand and realize That I chose exactly this I chose to be this and then I could start looking at myself differently And I know I'm certainly not one of those people who's going to appear on a vogue cover. No, I don't want to appear on a vogue cover My beauty comes from a very very different place. It's an essence within me And it took me a long time to come to terms with Who I've been in past lives? Okay, because I had to come to terms with that and not want to hide that anymore because I was scared of Jealousy, you know, I mean if I look at my astrology chart it explained a lot So then when I made peace with all of that and it wasn't about even who I was in past lives because I really don't even Agree was looking at that because it's who I am now, but I understand that there were past life stuff That came That was playing itself out in this lifetime And I had to make peace with those aspects of myself before I could fully enjoy the experience of being shantel And now I love being me. Honestly, I wouldn't want to be anywhere to anything else I don't say I don't have a bad day and what have you but I've lost all the excess weight that I've needed to want or I was out being on diet. I never go on diet. I don't know when last I weighed myself Um, I started doing stuff like yoga and pole pole fitness Um that for me, I've got to say as well when you start doing stuff like that It gives you a certain level of confidence within yourself as well So for me just to wear my booty shorts Go to yoga Hop on the pole with other three or four girls in the studio No one really cares what you look like. We're all just enjoying the experience of doing You know pole fitness, which was quite challenging and that was a beautiful experience, you know, I didn't also taught it for a while I don't anymore, but it was just stuff like that, you know That really got me to appreciate who I am and yes, I'm way into my 50s I've got a flat belly. I've got strong legs I've got strong arms. I've got a strong back I'm who I am. I've got wrinkles on my face. I don't go for jabs and I'm very happy I definitely don't want to go for the Well, it's so funny because we've talked about this So in my journey I because I was born in 1983 So I came rolling into this world in the jazz or size in the low fat in that world And I do believe that greatly affected my perception of things because my mother would do the Richard Simmons videos And the jane fondas and she had the firm and she was constantly exercising and there is a positive I think my sister and I were very much influenced that exercise was a necessary part of life for help purposes But I saw my mother going to the weight watchers meetings In fact, I my favorite thing from a memory Of going to a weight watchers meeting with my mom as a kid like sitting against the wall coloring Was it was right before Thanksgiving here in america And I remember the leader said now remember if you gobble gobble gobble you wobble wobble wobble And I still remember that to this day if you gobble gobble gobble you wobble wobble wobble I was I was a kid. I was like sitting in the back That's like my memory for weight watchers So I still and everything's giving I'll say that to my mom I'll be like remember if you gobble gobble gobble you wobble wobble wobble It was always such a part of our life and my mother came from a family of four girls My sister and I were two girls My dad had two sisters and so there was a hell of a lot of girls around us You know and uh, and it wasn't until my cousin will was born that there was actually a boy That was born. I don't think anybody knew what to do with him because all of a sudden here's a boy, but um So it was a lot of like estrogen everybody's always on diets everybody's you know down here We have the sphanks, which is like a girdle you can wear to keep your tummy in and all that kind of stuff But I I in my early well in kai school I ran cross country and then I was running up all through my 20s And I over did it. I got to the point where I over exercised because I was punishing myself There was a punishment there and looking back There was no need for that because it wasn't like I had done anything wrong or like I was overweight or anything like that But it was like this indoctrinated need that exercise was punishment You had to fit into a certain size Exercise meant this you were not a good person unless you actually went through this And when I lived in Los Angeles, I was running and I and I found yoga around that time too So it was kind of this like both happening But I was running out in Los Angeles and I I felt something in my foot And I just kept running. I had to keep running and it ended up fracturing a bone in my foot In Los Angeles and I remember going to the doctor and the doctor was like you were overdoing it You were overdoing it your body is breaking and that was the first time I'd ever had that realization that you could actually Overdo it on your body And that's when it actually prepared me more into yoga at that point But now and I really hope as we move into this new timeline that things like because exercise is such a magical thing to do If you do it right If you're doing it to learn your body to learn feel the energy flow to learn where all these Magical places are inside of you that are activated by heat and sweat and contraction of muscle Not because you're punishing yourself to fit into a skinny gene or to be loved by a man You know and I know for me the men I've been with in my life.  I mean I never got kicked out of the bed. Let's just put it that way Exactly It was all me to myself and now as a teacher, you know, especially I'm sure you see this shanti with with students and clients I see that in people especially women. I know men I know men do struggle with as well But for especially women, I see that sorrow of self self-hatred Yeah, and it's absolutely it's heartbreaking to see that You know a brice you're mentioning and I think we've spoken about that before but you know in part of my our mentorship programs and Really and and this this is all of the all of this stuff that I teach has never been taught to me by someone This is knowledge that I've had from within and has also been part of my Journey and because I've had such issues with my body um In my younger years Part of the assignment is that they have to take time and look at themselves naked in the mirror Spend time with that. Do you know and especially? Okay, let me start by saying that I'm surprised how many men because I've quite a few men going through my programs as well Have we had also have body issues with themselves? It's amazing, you know I also kind of had the perception that men don't have issues with their bodies. It's just women but definitely especially women and women for example would would would have After having three kids and now their breasts aren't the same as what they were when they were 16 And I mean I've constantly heard. Well, I don't look the same as what I did 10 years ago And my belly this and that and the whole thing is is not, you know, you're looking at that So you got to shift your perception So instead of seeing your boobs is now being these I don't know whatever you see them as I don't want to Say those nasty things that people say about their breasts.  I'm going that scar saved your life You know So instead of looking at your thighs and thinking well, there's way too much hail damage or whatever on there No, those thighs those legs carry you forward So instead of looking at it in a critical way, we start appreciating the function of the body because without this body You could not express who you are on this planet. This is a third dimensional planet We come here in our beautiful meat suits. Yes, we need to we can't be little flouncy Puffs of golden spirit on this earth. No one would see you right you get very frustrated I see I see I see deceased ones that are hovering. Yeah, and they get very frustrated because they can't be seen anymore Trust me. You need a body and even though. Yes, is your body a temporary vehicle? Of course it is but by gosh, it's the most beautiful intelligent vehicle you could ever possess so instead of seeing it as this horrible ugly thing That doesn't deserve anything nice You got to start learning how to appreciate appreciate your 10 flexible fingers Appreciate your elbows that I have movement Appreciate your legs that carry you forward And even if you have a missing limb or something appreciate The experience and the gift that this Experience of having a missing limb Is giving you what is it teaching you? Yeah, so there, you know, there's always a flip side to this coin And when we start appreciating our body for what it truly is And the purpose it fulfills and that it is the manifestation of your spirit Your body is your spirit in physical form And without this body you could not express and you could not fulfill the purpose of your soul That is it in a nutshell And when that sinks in You will start looking at your body in a very different way Appreciate your eyes that see your ears that hear your nose that smells you know instead of wanting to run off to the plastic surgeon and have your Whatever, I don't know what people do. I mean look I can appreciate if you've got a Definite malfunction and and it's really holy for sure then go and have it sorted out if that makes you feel better Yeah, but just for cosmetic reasons, I would think twice I would it's such a beautiful way of coming into self-acceptance And I'll tell you my body is so not perfect because in this life I've so needed to learn self-acceptance without the help of a knife or a slice or a Liposuction whatever your body will naturally when you love and appreciate who you are Your body naturally Finds its form and in the way that it is but it occurs within the Mind and the spirit first you've got to find that alignment in your spirit first And then the body follows you So I when I was in the shower this morning Thinking about this show we were going to do today and I looked down I was watching the water run over my body and I was looking down at my stomach and You know I have lines for abduct like my core is strong And but I have a scar going across my stomach from my appendicitis I had when I was 12, but you're right that scar shows that I survived I have a scar on my back from surgery. I had when I was 17 that scar shows I survived I have a scar on my left butt cheek that we talked about from a brown That's I have two scars on these fingers I'm a scar going across this finger these two fingers right here because when I was a little kid I was getting out We were going to get a Christmas tree and I was getting out of my dad's truck And I was holding on to the railing and my sister slammed the door not knowing my hand was there And I have two scars there But when I see that now it kind of makes me laugh because it brings me back to a very happy time of childhood And those scars remind me of of that time of childhood. I was lucky to have your fingers And I can hold this over my sister's head for the rest of our lives now I have a scar on my ear. It's you can kind of see it right here I had a hunk on my ear that had to be cut out when I was in high school because it was precancerous And but they caught it and they took it out and that little scar reminds me that I survived You know and I was and I was looking at the muscle marks of and I was thinking about at 39 like The life I've lived I've traveled the world. I've been everywhere and this body is what brought me through that The the mounted even though I've abused it. I've run it to the ground. I've I've broken bones I've done all that stuff. It still is here with me and it's functioning and and it's it also carries all the molecular information And like so does our ancestors Our ancestors were survivors and we carry that with that magic within us Do you know and I mean our bodies are so forgiving I mean our souls are constantly renewing and reproducing themselves You know if you for example I mean if we just look at the liver within the body and the levers is the solar plexus It forms it's one of the organs that belong to the solar plexus, which is all about your personal power or not okay, and the liver is If we look at for example In the western world one of the one of the poisons that we tend to abuse the most is alcohol Right because it numbs something and in the liver Is where we store our anger, right? So when we keep drinking it's not the addiction that we should be looking at It's the source of the addiction So that would and and if we look at the the alcohol often mostly and not only but i'm just Just pinpointing something here now The the organ most affected would be the liver And yet when we decide to say, okay, I no longer choose to drink I'm not choosing To to take responsibility for my emotions or for the things that are causing me pain And that are making me angry because angry And sad Are good friends. They're best friends So what is making me and I always say anger is a mask for fear or pain So when we start looking at that anger We take away that mask.  I mean it can look all nice and shiny on the outside So we can do all the makeup in that Dead at a put in foe. I mean I saw that I was mortified these little influences all of 21 or 22 having these Fake teeth put in it's like oh my goodness. What's going to happen when you 14?  Do you know without that your car wouldn't go no matter how shiny the outside, right? So that's the same with our internal organs and our insides So we when we start understanding Whatever we put in is what we're going to get out Yeah, at some point At a some point show I'm sorry my laptop is um Okay, there we go No, I and it's so funny like I I eat very healthy And it's not because it's anything to do with some stereotype of being a yoga practice or anything like that It's because when I eat healthy when I eat plant-based and for my dosha It's like magic. I feel better my body responds in a very magical way And I my colon works better, you know if you want yeah if you've ever Constipated people are typically not happy people, you know, like that stomach to have it functioning not that women do that but Yoga people only talk about our, you know, colons and periods Yeah, that's all it's a normal it's a normal functioning part of the body And let's think about that because that's all about letting go, right? Your colon your bowel all of that and when people have the IBS and bowel issues and what have you What Shit, have you not let go of and I'm sorry. I don't need to be the need to be graphic and gross But that is exactly what it is your body will constantly be talking to you and if you start listening You're gonna have a very different Body experience really really really it's just a beautiful thing when you start appreciating your body and no longer looking at The external yes, of course. I like to wear makeup. Okay. I like to do my hair. I'm a girly girl Believe it or not. I'm a real girly girl But at the end of the day it means nothing right when I'm not feeling good about who I am So it's just it's something I like to I like to take care of myself I like to take a shower twice a day.  I like to go for a massage. I like all these things, you know But at the end of the day, it's really about how I'm feeling about myself because if the internal organs are not functioning properly There's nothing that that that is going to change I mean, we all know what it feels like to be in pain when you're in pain You can't meditate when you're feeling uncomfortable.  I people who drink every day I'm amazed at how Normal it becomes for them and our normal it becomes to wake up with a hangover Or or it becomes part of their life and the minute they stop doing that. It's like their whole life changes and if we just look at also How the beauty industry caches in on our vanity external vanity that is Yeah Wow Yeah, and that's really because the beauty industry predominantly is about our insecurities Yeah, they play on that and like your life's going to be so much better But you're right and so funny. So my grandmother who was this beauty queen Would often tell my mother when my mother would be frustrated. Well, if you can't change your looks change your personality Because at the end of the day the personality the essence of who you are we spoke about this I think before like I think on when we were talking about the affair of the poisons about You know when you're initially attracted someone yes, there is I have a type There's a type of man that I'm attracted to but at the end of the day It's the essence of that person that really attracts me Um, and it's not it has nothing to do at that point with whether they have a little bit of a beer belly or You know Whatever, you know, it's it's and it because in body is always changing as well But it's we were talking about this 10 flexible toes when I was a little girl My mom's family is from the coast of South Carolina So we would always go in the summer times with my mom's sisters and we would stay there and And we'd stay on the beach and we would have like this Living babysitter that was with us, you know, so our parents could you know not have to worry about the kids but um Miss linda one of our babysitters used to always do this little rhyme with us She would say I have 10 little fingers 10 little toes two eyes a mouth and a nose Put it all together and what do you got? You got me babe And that's a lot and she would have us say that every single morning We all ate all eight of us would sit in the stairs and we would do the the rhyme with her Every single morning I think you've got to write that out for us bros and then you're going to make a little picket and put it on the I'll see if I can find a picture of all of us sitting on the stairs We have so many pictures of us most of times We got little baby butts because we just run around naked all eight of us But um, but um, yeah, she would do that and I guarantee you all of my cousins and my sister So the seven other kids involved in that I guarantee you they all remember that 10 little fingers 10 little toes two eyes And mouth and a nose but it all together. What do you got? You got me babe?  And if you are one of these people Who have constant pain in your body? Then I want to say this to you Pain is not there to crush you or to kill you It is there to take you to a deeper level of awareness So what I mean when I say that is that Which part of your body is the pain in if it's in your back What does your back mean? Let's think about the back It's the support in your body Right your spine supports your back is all about supporting you So where do you feel unsupported?  Well, then I want to say to you the minute we blaming someone it's very very very unproductive And to blame someone is probably the most One of the most harmful things you can do to yourself So then I'm going to say to you the all comes back to me So bring it back to myself and say where am I not supporting me now it might you might you know If you're not getting child support for four of your children, it doesn't mean that you It's not that literal what I'm saying is maybe you unsupporting you're being unsupported with yourself in the thoughts you're thinking In the thoughts you've always thought Where do you think god or your creator or your source is not supporting you? Are you having quiet time? Are you praying? Are you meditating? Are you asking yourself within what the solutions are? There's a solution for everything If you have any form of cancer Cancer is always trauma-based always always always always and if you're a child Well, that's a different thing but we can talk about that in another day because that's very often generational and that could be a different type of but i'm talking about a Grown person i'm not expecting a child to be watching although you Maybe one of your children does have something like that, but if that's the case i'd rather speak to Off-air not not this Not on this platform But cancer is something that is trauma-based in my situation. I had in my right breast Right is the masculine side left is the feminine side breasts are nurturing your breasts are all about nurturing Okay, you nurtured the children your your babies drink whether you had kids or not as immaterial They're about nurturing So I was very angry because I felt unnurtured by males in my life When I had that And when I clicked in do you know that within 24 hours the lump went to half its size? Wow, I believe it I believe it. Yeah, and every single time And then what happened it would come and go for somewhere between four to six months And every time it came up. I knew there was going to be an issue around masculinity Or my own masculinity within my life because I was a felt, you know I was a single mom My my the father of my son never supported financially, emotionally or anything. So I felt I had to be mom and dad.  I mean he was 10 days old and he was laughing. Okay laughing So he was one of these that was a very quick developer and what have you so he kept me on my toes So unfortunately what I did if I was giving him instruction. I immediately went into man mode You better do this if you don't do that then that's you know, instead of dealing with him differently That brought out a different aspect of his personality So in hindsight, I can see many things that I went wrong for example But that's what I'm saying. That was one of the reasons Why I had this. I was very angry about that. I felt Betrayed I felt like I had to do it all on my own and it made me not trust men It it was just a whole big And of course when you don't trust the man, what happens you attract men that can't be trusted Yes, yes That becomes that self-fulfilling prophecy, right? Right. Oh You know, eventually I got it So what I'm saying is everything in your life There's a there's a there's a core Issue around that now you need to support your body on four levels spiritually Emotionally mentally and physically So that's the four legs of the table. So you would definitely then want to look at Making sure all four legs of your table are equally balanced that one leg is not taking 50 percent of the weight The other one nothing, you know, and then you wobbling around you've got to have 25 25 25 25 That's the first thing you want to be doing So the first thing is to acknowledge and take responsibility For whatever's wrong in your life or in your body Take responsibility that you have created this Am I saying you need to blame yourself? Hell, no, there's no blame. Yeah There's no blame. We don't blame ourselves. We don't blame each other We just take responsibility for the fact that my choices in my life have taken me to this point Now how can I change it? What can I do to make it different or easier? How? That's the first thing and when you do that boom That's when your first leg the spiritual leg connects. You connect to source And then you start getting answers. It's amazing what starts happening Then you get up in the morning and you start journaling and you start praying and you start meditating You start meditating and you start connecting with nature and you start realizing the power of the healing power that nature has You start giving yourself one hour a day Where you start honoring yourself How many times don't I hear from people that they don't have time they don't have time they don't I would like a I've done if you tell me if you want to come to me for healing and you say you don't have time for yourself Then don't come to me Simple as that you make the time Exactly because you are that important So then with if I can I can work with you very easily and we'll have results like this very very quickly um If you choose to invest in yourself because you are the most important investment you'll ever make Yes Yeah, absolutely and guys I'm going to put again. I know I put in the last video I'm going to put all of shanti's links website links down in the description box below because I really feel like that's a lot of what Catherine I've been talking about with you shanti and other people like moving into this new earth this new timeline This is what it comes down to you fixing you And having people like shanti to show you the modality keep you accountable But you be willing to work on you and then when you work on you Everything changes. I mean my after I went through my trauma therapy and then I went spend a long time in India That trip was really long and and I did it on purpose Because there was nowhere for me to run I had to sit literally in sometimes cow shit My own shit, you know, like just depends on what Catherine David etchie but in india it's everywhere too And it literally had to have like a total like dark night of the soul Come to jesus moment come to christian moment come to you know And it was the most when I left after being that that trip was so long when I left India that time I came back to the United States a different person I was the calmest I had ever been at that point my life started to shift in very very positive ways I started attracting very very positive people into my life. I noticed the changes of of friends um It was and it was because nothing there was no magical pill I took it just wasn't like the universe just decided to change things up for me No, the universe changed things up for me because I changed myself Because I fix the work for myself and it's a constant thing isn't it shanti It's like you don't just do the work and then all of a sudden that's done You don't have to do the work anymore. It's like a constant revisiting constantly It's beautiful and it's a constant process of expansion You know as human beings we are yet to expand in other words shine our light brighter and become more confident within our abilities to be our own Bus driver. We're no longer a passenger in someone else's bus. We are now driving this bus so to speak So we become confident more confident. We become more healthy We become nicer to be around we become more joyful. We become more solution orientated You see the more In my life I see so many people that have so many problems and they just love to talk about The problems I sit with yang I mean, I'll be going somewhere for example and they're young beautiful women in their 20s and 30s and these this they talk about their health and how many operations and I'm going You know It's let's it's the more we focus on something The more you're going to get it When you constantly talking about the health issues you have and how many operations you've had now how many people that cancer in your family and You better believe you are talking yourself into that situation so reverse Choose differently And then focus in the direction of where you want to be and what you want in your life It's really not that difficult But it does take a mind shift and yes, we do tend to default back to what we know because obviously We are products of our environment, right, you know, and many families are you know, are God fearing And I didn't come from a God fearing family.  You can start thinking differently You can start creating differently and I see that every day. I've got beautiful students And I don't even like calling them that but you know clients friends over the years You know and for me Bryce the greatest most beautiful moment is when I sit with someone And we'll be talking and it's the first time I've seen them for example And they've got this horror story that that has happened and I'll tell you I've heard some horror stories in my life Definitely as a healer And then I'll simply take that and I'll show them An alternative and they go I never thought about it like that before and I go, uh-huh And then they'll go Now I get it and you literally see the light in the eyes go on and that for me Is the moment that is priceless no amount of money could ever buy That moment that I see when someone Makes that turn and it takes that moment of switching on or switching off whichever way you choose to look at it And then yes, do we do they immediately zoom into their new direction? No It takes strategies. They've got to sometimes make major life changing decisions, you know sometimes it means ending a relationship or Whatever it might be but When that moment of truth Occurs that aha moment in the cells They know they have the tools And I'm there and I'll say well these are the tools and I'm not gonna do it for you As a good healer, I'll never tell you where to look. I mean, I sorry. I'll never tell you what to see But I'll tell you where to go look and what you see Is up to each individual And then I'll say, okay, what did you find there? That's how fun. I said, okay, let's work with that And then, you know, we we will take it from those moments then And it's just and that's why I say I've had people who've been in therapy for 15 years And they'll come to me and within three to six sessions They've made that shift completely because I don't just work here. I work here and I work here And I'll show you how to take that Lead and transmute it into gold and you can't do this without loving yourself Which means you love your body. You love this vehicle that you have chosen In this life You have chosen it and that's a beautiful thing. No matter what it looks like You can have one arm a leg a leg. You can be in a wheelchair You can doesn't matter. You've chosen this experience and I will show you Where to go and look for the the gift in that experience no matter what it is You will always find the gift And how can you not we're all we're all made by the same source, you know the same the same source that made the Rocky Mountains made you You're beautiful You and and you think about I think about all my friends the people I know in my life And I think they're all gorgeous, you know, you see the the light behind their eyes And I see how funny they are a lot of I have my best friend is hysterical Absolutely hysterical and I see that humor and how you know, he makes people smile And you know, I see how kind some of my friends are and they're not trying to be kind They just are and so you see that Light just shine from people and then it hurts me when I hear them talk bad about themselves because that's not It's not who they are and so for everybody watching I really wanted to bring shot down and talk about this because again I think both of us have struggled with this I think there's a lot of people watching who have struggled with this And I think we both want you to know that you're not alone.  You know start thinking nicer thoughts start appreciating the little things about yourself It is it is every single life and every single person watching you have purpose You're here for a reason if you aren't here, this would all fall apart Like we all have a very important role to play in in whatever timeline we're in and so yeah, absolutely You're all badasses.  Like I saw a man today It was like I'm really tired of living through historical events It doesn't mean but I'm like I'm like no because you're here because this time because you're a badass Like you're you're a warrior and you're strong and your light is powerful And um and so so yeah, so start treating yourself like that badass warrior that um has purpose But again guys, I'm gonna leave all of shanti's links down below. Please. Please. Please She's amazing if you if you need some guidance if you feel like you really need someone to talk to and help you work through this stuff Absolutely. Uh shanti has worked miracles on me. She's so freaking talented and um and really really helps you in a very loving You're like you're able to give tough love in a very loving way You know and that takes that takes That takes a very talented person to do that And so you guys I I'm dead serious all the links to shanti are going to be down in the description box below Everything she does she did for me over zoom. So it is possible wherever you are in the world To work that out with shanti because we have the magical magical Zoom here that that can uh can be used by any Just zoom in and zoom out.  So All right. Well, I know it's getting late for you shanti. Thank you It's middle of the day But uh, I told shanti. I don't know if I said this on air I might have said this off of air to you in mornay when this is over I want you guys to come to america and do a tour and just do like a healing tour Just bring it. I'd love to And I love because my son was at university in uh in at life university Here in georgia in georgia. Yeah. Yeah. Oh, so you've been to Atlanta I haven't no He was there because it was either he wants to come home or I was gonna go there and he always chose to come home Instead. So whatever air ticket was available. He chose to come home, which was fun But I I've always but somehow I've always said I will go back there and it's amazing with you there Listen, I'm going Atlanta, I mean the deep south.  We'll do the whole southeast. Yeah And I was telling you a morning about the haunted places being going Oh, I just lost her guys I just lost her. Let's see if she's gonna come back in anyway guys I think her internet just went down So that was about it for our episode But if you go in the description box below and find all of shanti's links you can get in touch with her Please make sure to subscribe to both of her youtube channels One is aquarius rising africa and the other is solutions by aquarius rising africa again The aquarius rising africa is the more dramatic channel Where they go into deep dives and talk to survivors and all that kind of stuff where the solutions Channel is more of the solutions and finding a healthier approach into our new timeline. All right guys I hope you're all having a wonderful day and I'll talk to you soon. Bye Thank you


Why do narcissists treat you this way? The narcissist depended on you. They needed you for support. They relied on you, but they always find a way to mess it up because they have trouble controlling their emotions and behaviors, which causes them to become very unstable and unpredictable, where they will do anything to regain their emotional stability because they're completely out of control. They're disorderly and disruptive. They're unmanageable. They're not amenable to discipline or control, but they're trying to give the appearance that they are in control. They're trying to give the appearance that they can behave appropriately, but you cannot reason with them because they have poor cognitive reasoning skills. So there's no way to stop them from damaging the very source that they depend on because they also hate and resent anyone that they are depended on because deep down they understand that they need you, but they want to entertain their delusions of grandiosity where they are superior and greater than other people. So even though you may be doing everything they want you to do, their delusional state triggers a sudden and unreflective urge or desire to act, and it's very difficult for them to control, but it leads them to lie, cheat or steal from you because they're not strong enough to suppress the development action or expression of a feeling impulse idea. They cannot delay gratification. So they expect their wants, needs and desires to be considered as being more important than someone else or something. They expect to have priority in a pawn's order or rank. They expect to prevail over any moral or ethical agreements that you may have had with them because they don't know how to stop. They can't control their impulses. So they try to control the world around them by engaging in acts that may be considered inappropriate or unfair. They lie to you. They stole from you. They cheated on you. They did all of these things to you because they were never loyal to you. It was all about them, but they even broke their own rules and regulations. They couldn't even be committed to themselves. Everything that they said they valued and believed in, they went against that. So if they couldn't even be loyal or committed to themselves, you should know that you don't have anything coming because a person must first have their own values and beliefs before they can value and believe in you. They must first be committed to themselves before they can commit to you, but sometimes there is no logical explanation or reason for why they do what they do. It's just their inherent and unchangeable character. They operate within their disorder, which eventually destroys them as well because they're heedless of danger from the consequences of their own actions. They're out of control just so they can try to maintain their supply so that they're not exposed and so that they don't lose their supply. Why do narcissists treat you this way? They treat you this way because they're out of control. They're very dangerous, but they managed to convince you that they were normal and sane when in reality they are not normal at all. They were at war with themselves and you got caught in the crossfire. They did everything they could to make it seem like it was safe, but then you soon discovered that they are not normal and they are actually very dangerous. Thank you for watching. I hope this video resonates with you. Please like, comment, share and subscribe. If you would like to donate, my PayPal link is in the video description. Coaching inquiries. You can email me at coaching.org survivor at the Co-UK. Thank you for watching and I'll talk to you soon.


Yn ymddi'r gweithio, Ywan LaPassar, yw'r cyfnodau cyfnodau, fel y cyfnodau ar y cyfnodau cyfnodau yng nghymru, Andrews Ansep. Ywan yw'r cyfnodau ar y cyfnodau ar y cyfnodau cyfnodau yn y EU. Yn ymddi'r cyfnodau yn ystoniol i'r eu fferfau Europea, ac mae'n eu gweithio i'r Prifysgol i'r Prifysgol yw'r 5 ymddi. Yw'r cyfnodau yn ymddi'r cyfnodau yn Gwyllgor Europea i'r prifysgol, i'r prifysgol yw'r prifysgol i gweithio i'r prifysgol yn ymddangos cyfnodau i'r prifysgol i'r prifysgol i'r prifysgol. Ywan, yna'n ei bod yn rhywbethu'n rhoi. pubrwy'n ei drwsio'n ddod? E werthin, yn ddod? Yn gweithio rywbeth rydyn ni, yw'r cyffnodau yn y cyfnodau yw'r cyfnodau ar y gyffnodau.  Mae'n ffordd yn y dyfodol i ddweud, ac mae roedd y bwysig fwy respau i gaelol yma. Rwy'n meddwl am ddechrau dweud y maen nhog iddyn nhw, ond sydd wedi gweithio atrath i'r hubanc.Roedd hynny i ni'n gweld. Roedd y maen nhw yn oed yn ysgolion beth hon i ysgolwch gael o'r maen nhog hwn. Ysgolwch gydaír maen nhog hwn sefydlu yn gyfynnig o atlanticosion, a dyna'r rhaid i gael drwsio beth o hollu yna, have to travel far away etc in the digital world this should not be the case but unfortunately it is so that the 16 initiatives that received service are outlined the main aim is to make sure the barriers they have emerged that we managed to demolish them but we do that ac ydych chi'n bwysig i'ch gweithio am ymlaen nhw, ond ydych chi'n ffordd yma yw wneud os yw rym ni'n bwysig i gweithio i'r mawr a'r cyfeiriau. Mae'n meddwl y gallwn yn ei ddweud yn fawr. Felly, yn ffordd am yma fyddwch i'ch gweithio i'ch cynnig ym mlynedd o'r unrhyw gwirioneddau, rydyn ni'n mynd i ddweud i'ch gweithio i'ch gweithio i'r y three issues that we still haven't tackled, but we will do that in this autumn. So I will spill the beans a bit with you. Firstly, it's the issue of data. Now, as with goods, capital and services, data within the context of the single market should move freely and securely. Actually, in reality, data is sometimes also connected with the free flow of goods and services and capital. So if we don't have the free flow of data, the free flow of capital goods and services is also hampered. And that is one of the reasons why we look into this. Next year, Europe will have a new general data protection regulation. It's a great piece which deals with the fragmentation issue. I mean, how to make sure that there is a clear uniform standard of protecting private data throughout Europe, wherever your data is located, it doesn't matter, it's protected in the same manner. But the GDPR only deals with personal data. It does not deal with non-personal data like business data or data generated by machines, for example. So what happens with this? And there is what we've seen in Europe is that there is an emergence of data localisation measures that have been taken by national or local governments. And these measures, though they are mainly designed to protect personal data, they actually affect non-personal data as well. And by this, they also fragmentise the single market. Now, we need to tackle this. And this autumn, the Commission will propose a measure which will make sure that data, in most cases, when it comes to non-personal data, should be able to flow freely. There should not be mandatory restrictions of data in any given member states territory unless there is good national security grounds to do so. Of course, there are other issues that are concerned with this as well. I mean, for example, cloud switch. I mean, there are very many cloud service providers, how it's possible to switch services. And there, of course, the issue of whether we should give a, let's say, a switching right or whether we should make sure that the conditions that everybody signs up to are transparent enough so that people in the end of the day can choose themselves how to better manage their data. These issues we will tackle probably in a manner that does not affect too much the contractual freedoms of the different parties because that is also very important. Or there is an issue of, OK, if the taxation data of a German company that makes business in Ireland is actually located in France, how then the Irish tax authority, for example, can have access to this data. I mean, this is also important in the context of the free flow so that there is an access right of public authorities in case they have legitimate interest to go after this data. Or security of data as well. I mean, OK, I told that personal data, the security of personal data is guaranteed throughout Europe starting from May next year. What about non-person data? Again, the taxation data, for example. We need to make sure that the basic infrastructure is secure enough so that the data can flow freely. But it is important to tackle it. Not only because it will open up opportunities for businesses. The data, the size of the data economy in Europe last year was 60 billion. And it's predicted that if we tackle these measures, it can go to 739 billion by 2020. So there is an enormous potential which we should grasp. The other issue which I would like to mention is the cyber security. I think when the free flow of data deals with the freedom side of the internal market, the cyber security aspect deals with more how to make sure that the general environment is secure just worthy. It is a very important one. Firstly, how to protect our critical infrastructure. There is a nice directive already in Europe which is called the Network Information Security Directive. It should be implemented again quite soon. But that's not nearly enough. There is an emergence of Internet of Things. How can we make sure that these products that are placed in the market or the services that are promoted in the market, that they are cyber secure? So what we will do is that we will put a European certification framework that will rely on national certification frameworks so that in the future, if a product is placed in the market, we can be assured that it's also a cyber secure product. There is also, I think it was just last spring, there were two waves of major cross-border cyber attacks. They were global in nature of course. But the issue arises, how does Europe respond to these attacks? Clearly, cyber security in reality is a national domain. Member states should protect it. But there is a clear scope for corporations as well because as I told in the beginning, digital domain is in essence a global domain and it cannot be contained within national borders. So member states need to cooperate on these matters and there is scope for improving the operational cooperation between member states in terms of response to crisis. The third dimension I want to highlight is the platform economy. Again, quite a new economic phenomenon, a bit more than a decade old, a very vibrant and very dynamic one. So it's clear that one must tread very carefully in terms of whether to put any rigid rules in place. But there are issues already that we have seen which have emerged like the issue of harmful or illegal content and the profiliation of this content in internet platforms. How to deal with it? Platforms themselves have been also quite proactive on some of these issues. But again, within the context of the single market, we need to make sure that there are general frameworks in place so that in all different jurisdictions in the single market, platforms can operate uniformly. That does not mean that in Europe we should start to harmonise what are sensitive issues or what are delicate issues in different societies. Europe is still a combination of 28 sovereign member states, more than 28 different, very vibrant and very diverse societies. And it is up to these societies themselves to find the right balance of what is harmful, what is not harmful, but that doesn't mean that there shouldn't be rules in place that platforms should tackle with harmful content once it's notified that there is a counter-notice procedure that if I, for example, feel that something that has been removed by the platform that I have posted and that is not actually in my mind harmful, that I have right to complain somewhere and this complaint is taken seriously up, et cetera. And then there is the other side of it, which is the issue of business practices in the platform economy, in business-to-business relationships, big platforms and little players. And whether we should look at the contractual terms and whether there are issues of imbalances that have emerged in this, we launched a public consultation early this year and the first results of this public consultation indicate that indeed there might be issues that needs to be tackled. So these are the three areas that we still haven't yet completed and where the Commission will early autumn propose measures. But the majority of the actions have already put on the table of the co-legislators and it's really up to the Member States and the European Parliament to agree upon them. And it's important that they do it so rapidly because in the end of the day it's the issue of whether if an Irishman goes and has a vacation in Spain, that he or she can port the Netflix and that he or she is used to watch it in Ireland to Spain or to watch the Mayfair and Conor match in a nice Spanish speech. So I mean these little things that give people more freedoms in the digital era I think that they are very important and they should not be neglected. But we rely on the Australian Presidency of course to push this agenda forward together with the forthcoming Hungarian presidency and we are quite optimistic that by the end of the mandate of this Commission all the measures that are necessary for this rapid development of the digital single market are in place and they can be implemented and then of course enjoyed by the general public. Thank you.


When it came to stuff like movies, TV shows and cartoons getting video games, there was a certain resentment there because as we saw in the Atari 2600 and the NES eras, all you had to do was throw together a bunch of crap, throw a license on it, and people would buy it just based on the name alone. The thing is though part of the reason that was the case is because studios and publishers and the like demanded that games be made for content that didn't necessarily lend itself all that well to a game. Meanwhile overseas in Japan, they had tons and tons of content in manga and anime that did lend itself well to games. Well, I guess that's just how it goes when so much of your popular culture revolves around mechs and robots and giant monsters and stuff. But unfortunately, sometimes that just isn't enough. Yup, Japan has their fair share of licensed stuff that disappoints. Like here we have Kiko Keisatsu Metaljack, or Armored Police Metaljack, a Super Famicom game made in 1992 by Atlas. Yes, THAT Atlas, and it's based on the TV series of the same name. It's your run of the mill, side-scrolling beat em up, and there's three different characters you can choose from. The red guy, the silver guy, and the blue guy. And yes, that says Jack on. I guess that's a thing from the show. Really, the only differences between the three characters are the weapons. Redjack has a gun, Silverjack has a lightsaber thing, and Bluejack just has extra armor, I guess. You're gonna want to pick redjack, like 10 times out of 10 in this one because of the way the enemy design is laid out here. These guys just slide their way onto the screen, stop abruptly to lure at you, then do a throat chop. Get too close, and you take damage every time. Yup, this is one of those games. So in other words, if you're stuck with a melee weapon, this one's not gonna be fun at all. At least with the red character, you can collect ammo here and there that helps you take some of these guys out. But when you inevitably run out, you just want to keep moving forward and do a jumping attack as often as you can. At least the blue guy here gets extra hit points so you can afford to get hit if you go this method. But yeah, each character has a health meter and three lives to get through six levels on zero continues. I will say one thing that kinda makes this game stand out a bit are the boss fights because your character is able to utilize its full mech form, complete with a short little scene here. You can hold the Y button to charge for a special attack, and to be fair, some of the bosses in this game do look pretty cool. It's just getting to the bosses that's not only boring and tedious, but poorly designed. These knife guys here are twice as fast as I am. I'm completely out of ammo, so I don't have much choice here, but to take damage and keep moving, that's pretty dumb. You also get these mini bosses that you can't even get close to, like shirtless Johnny Bravo, and then a few minutes later you face the exact same character, only after he laid in a tanning bed for like three hours. There's really only about 10 or 12 enemy types in this entire game, not including the bosses, and they all have really simple patterns, which are all much quicker than you can react. From a visual standpoint, this game does at least have some highlights, like some of the backgrounds look pretty cool, but then there's levels like this. I mean, come on, what is this? An Atari 5200 game? This looks downright ugly. One interesting factoid about Armored Police Metal Jack is that it was all set for a US release in late 1992. Magazines like GamePro and EGM wrote about it, and there was even a front and back cover designed. The localized ROM can be found if you search for it on SNESCentral.com, but it's pretty much the exact same game. They only changed the settings from Tokyo to Los Angeles, they changed the character's names to super cool names like Ken Stryker and Billy Crash, and they also changed the Jack-on soundbite to... Oh no! What, did they get Andre the Giant for that line read? The US release ended up getting canceled without the publisher Atlus listing a reason why, but I think it's pretty clear why. This game is dull as dishwater. It's slow, the gameplay doesn't do anything new or unique, the enemy design is terrible.  And hey, I'm sorry, not every one of these forgotten games are gonna be great, or even good, or even halfway decent. I just wanted to show off that even Japan and the Super Famicom had its fair share of lousy licensed games. All right, I wanna thank you for watching and I hope you have a great rest of your day.


Yeah, so put this in your pocket I'm going to eat this I'm sorry about that Hmm Okay, then I'll start eating An excel? We're going to continue later We're going to do the talk now No, that should be fine It's okay Okay, so I have the very hard task to keep you awake for the next 10 minutes So just to introduce a bit myself, I'm Nicolas Peru I work at Sunarsos, which is a company behind SunarCube I don't know if some of you know or use it I'm a developer in the language team So I work mainly on analyzers and mainly the Java analyzer And you can find me cycling around the limo or at the Geneva jug So the Java user group Okay, what I'm going to talk about is a bit the backstory of how we came up We've actually been developing some analyzers at Sunarsos And what we did to develop them So just to understand a bit the context At Sunarsos we have this product called SunarCube Which helps you to track issues over time on your project So which bugs, how do you fix them and everything And track metrics as well And the project started somehow as an aggregator of all intors And at one point in time there was the decision And the fact that, okay, we need to develop our own analyzers Because it was not so easy to contribute back And the technology, there was some limitation in existing intors That we at least thought we were trying to be able to fix Or to overcome So we said, okay, cool No, we want to have a static analyzer in Java How do we do that? So I'm going to explain and work you through How do we develop a static analyzer There's quite some stuff that we already explained In previous presentations So that's going to be quick on some parts So the main challenge here is to get the language So guess what the first thing is? We start to do some parsing So that's a recurring thing here in this room, right? So as we do exactly as Federico described In his presentation before So we have this lexical analysis Then we have the syntax analysis We end up with a syntax tree We describe the language on which we can work We have a bunch of tools already We can implement with that, mainly Rules about formatting, kind of what we call somehow code smells So problems That's what we call them So many problems around like Is this if on the right line? Is this token on the wrong line? Is this commented enough? Everything, the syntactic equivalence That was described also by those other guys this afternoon Like do we have the same operands on both sides of an operator? Is that probably an issue? So we can already work with that and have some rules Then we have another layer We go for semantic analysis So we resolve all the symbols So this is not always easy in Java This is the easy part Then we enter the realm of generics And type inference which is just so nice So much fun And the good thing is that All what I've said, all what I've mentioned You can use that to actually write your own checks For SonarCube and to have your own Java checks Available to analyze for your project So please use And please let us know how bad is our IAPI So we can improve it But that's not all That's the nice part We can do all code smell Pretty advanced code smell We can start to try to take some bug with this But we implemented also symbolic execution To be able to detect some bugs And you might wonder What actually is symbolic execution And that's going to be the main part Of this very short talk To explain a bit to you What we are doing with that So the main goal is to try to detect This very complicated hidden new pointer exception here And to be sure that it's a new pointer We want to be really accurate We don't want to raise too many issues When we raise an issue We want to be sure it's an issue We don't want to raise false positives So that's really why we are using symbolic execution To reduce the amount of false positives So how do we do that? So we start by having this project This source file, sorry It's all works within the method And so we start by saying Okay, we have a state of the program Where we know that here by definition We assign something So this my object is not null Then we go along the execution We simulate somehow the execution And when we reach a condition We actually have two possible outcomes We don't know about the condition a So either a is false And so my object is still not null As we started Or a is true And then my object is null So we now have two possible states Of the program And so we continue the exploration So continuing the exploration We reach the second condition So it's not a So then we start with the first state And we say, okay, a is false So there is one state that is possible The true We can actually go into that condition It's not really interesting Let's move on And the second part We can't reach it a is false That's not possible Okay, cool Nothing interesting No more to see here Let's look at the other state The other state We have my object which is null a is true So the first The true part of the if is actually not feasible So we don't explore anything And on the second part We actually have my object which is null a is true And hold on With the reference my object It's null We have an issue here And so we're able to detect The new pointer exception like that And we are context sensitive We follow those paths as well And that helps us to Find those issues This is really an interesting technique It gives a lot of It gives a lot of very nice results It has some drawbacks of course Drawbacks many are when you have Really really complex condition Because obviously as you have all computed In your head right now This is always true And so you end up in the realm Of satisfiability Solvers and everything And so this is really a challenge We have to face at one point Right now we don't handle ints And so that's one thing We didn't address yet Who knows maybe soon Another problem is also Explosion of states Here we had only one if So that's already two states You can imagine that if you nest A lot of conditions A lot of loops and everything The number of states to actually Keep track of can quickly grow And so then you have the problem Of how many computation You will have to do So you have a lot of techniques To try to optimize this To reduce the number of states Find some equivalence Between some states of the program So that's a challenge And another challenge as well Is that this is only Intraprocedural So it's only within a method So how do you actually try To find some bugs that can be Between methods And so this is actually We started a bit with this On cross-procedural And it's not actually We're still working on that And what we have For some plan in the future Oh okay, sorry I forgot about that one So just a small example Of what we can detect That is interesting So this is taken from Apache Visper So it's an open source project I actually have no idea What it does But we found this nice bug So basically we have This subject here This condition here Is such that We know that if we don't Reach it If we don't reach it If we don't enter this part here We know that The variable 2 Is not equal to server entity So which means here This assignment This value here Is always false So that condition Is basically useless So there's probably Something wrong here So it's actually Quite nice finding And we can find Some stuff like that And for the future We want to try to address State analysis So trying to find some Vulnerability issues Between files A bit, a lot Like what Jules described In fair talk previously This afternoon I'm not going into details Here So Narsos is recruiting So send your CVs And if you have questions It's time now I think I'm on time Ten minutes is awfully short Please Did you use Java parser for that Or did you write your own? No, we have our own We have our own Oh, sorry Did we use Java parser Or Java or anything No, we have our own stack Of parsing It's all open source All available on GitHub There's the link on the Talk That's a very good question So the example I showed Was it Did something happen to it On this very specific case I don't know But we reported it as well We reported also We have the same kind of technology Also applied on .NET On C-sharp code But for that They use actually a front-end Which is Roslin Which is open source And actually find bugs in Roslin Using Roslin And they report it back to Roslin Which is fun


Initially, I was unsure of whether or not I would pick up items from the Luxe Legacy Collection from Jacqueline Cosmetics. Nothing really stood out to me other than the fact that she came out with her very first eyeshadow palette. And I did like the look of the eyeshadow palettes, but it's a neutral palette. I didn't need it, but you know I like neutral palettes. So I asked you guys if you wanted me to review it, and this is the most from Jacqueline Cosmetics that you guys actually said yes. A lot of you even said you normally aren't interested in the collections that she comes out with, but this one was a first. And I think it's because we didn't know she collaborated with her mom for this collection, and I can definitely see her mom's influence in this collection. This collection seems to be a lot more mature skin friendly. Even from the mothers of the brides that I've worked with, I feel like they would really enjoy this collection. Of course, a number of you said that you weren't interested in this collection, which normally that's the overwhelming majority from you guys. But yeah, this is the first collection that you guys were like, no, I'm actually kind of curious about this collection. So I did pick this up from Ulta so I could get my points, but everything is available on the Jacqueline Cosmetics website and Ulta's. Well, I didn't pick up everything. Her collections tend to be quite large and it kind of hurts my wallet. So I just picked up the eyeshadow palette, the eyeshadow primer, and the powder, nothing else. But I'm going to review what I have for you today. Let's get started. I want to begin by swatching the eyeshadow palette because it's going to take some time. It is a large palette. It is $49, which I think given Jacqueline's price point for her products, I think this is a good price point because you are getting a lot of color options here. I did get the packaging from Ulta, so I got kind of the standard packaging. There is like a special limited edition mom packaging with all different moms on there. Maybe it's because I'm not a mom, but I was like, I don't really want moms and faces of people I don't know on the packaging. I just wanted the traditional packaging, so that's another reason why I went to Ulta. But this is the box right here. You can see this is the Luxe Legacy Eyeshadow Palette. You need to take a look at the back. The ingredients are towards the bottom. So just a normal cardboard box, and then this is what the packaging looks like. This has a 12-month shelf life, and the palette is made in USA with imported and domestic parts. And then we open it. No mirror. I wish there was a mirror for $50 for a palette, but look at all of these colors. I'm interested to see if this reminds me of a Morphe palette. You know, the brand is under the Morphe umbrella, and Jacqueline has collaborated with multiple eyeshadow palettes with Morphe. So we'll see the packaging. Honestly, it's reminding me a little bit of Morphe because it is cardboard. There isn't even a mirror. I consider Jacqueline to be more high-end than Morphe. So we'll see. It's definitely heavier. But looking at the overall color story here, it's definitely looks like mature, skin-friendly. There aren't too many shimmers, and the shimmers that are there aren't too metallic. They aren't going to emphasize fine lines or anything on the eyes. That's just something that they teach in makeup school. Wear whatever you want, but they teach you that shimmers aren't the most flattering. Yeah, and it's just, it's a really neutral palette. You have a good mix of warm and cool tone. I love that there's so many cool toned options. So this is a very pretty palette. I'm into it even though, you know, I would say it's not the most unique. There still aren't many palettes out there that touch so gray. Let's just get to swatching. Excuse this finger. It's, I don't, it's going through something. So we're going to do meat and potatoes, biscuit and honey right here. Oh, let me just, we got a lot of colors. So we'll do pinty butter. And if you watch her video, which I did watch, it will explain the meaning of all these colors and why they were put into this palette. Quite buttery. These two shades seem similar. They have a different undertone according to Jacqueline, but they swatched quite close on my hand. But there's a lot of colors here. So I'm sure some might end up being a little close to each other. So now we're getting into the shimmers. These look pretty. They feel pretty too. They feel nice and buttery. I like how they feel. And they do have a nice metallicness to them. The silver has a little bit more oomph to it than I was expecting. These look fine. They feel really nice. Just as I was saying that. There we go. That's better. Grays are hard. Hmm. These really cool tone mattes aren't swatching great. I'm going to have to see how they do on the eyes. They should do fine on the eyes, but we'll see. They don't swatch like how she swatched them. Let's get into putting, girl. Now we're getting into the darker colors. So I like how there's a light to dark gradient here. Ooh, nice.  Okay, and then we'll get into the final four shades. Here are the swatches of every shade in the palette. I'm not impressed by the swatches so far, but that's fine. That doesn't mean anything because it's how the performance is on the eyes. So I'm not that worried. I feel like even though some of the swatches were a little patchier or softer, I feel like they should be fine on the eyelid, but we'll see. But here's how it looks. I mean, it just looks like a really great neutral palette, right? Okay, let's get it on the eyes. You can see there are a lot of shades in this palette. I'm not going to get to every single one on the eyelid. So I'm going to play around with the ones that I'm worried about and I want to see them in action.  All right, so you can see this is the look that we created I definitely played in terms of the matte colors with the cooler tones. I have some thoughts, but first, before we do that, I bought the eyeshadow primer. I'm kind of rethinking why I decided to buy it because I'm going to be honest with you guys, longevity is not something that I struggle with with eyeshadow primers. This is supposed to be great for mature lids. I can get away with just using concealer. I don't really get creasing, but we're going to try it anyways. This is the first base eyeshadow primer. I believe this is going to be permanent from what I can tell. It doesn't say limited edition on the website. It is $20 and I don't see why this would be limited edition. It's such a staple. Let's see, only a six month shelf life. It's made in Canada. This is not supposed to have a pigmented base, which could be a good or bad thing. Personally, I like mine to cover the veins on my eyelid, but sometimes when you're wearing no makeup makeup, it looks dumb when you use concealer because it's too much coverage on the eyelid. So this is great like Jacqueline said for like the clean girl look because it creates a base for your eyeshadow without you having to like go with the full coverage. And you can see it blends out to be pretty sheer. It's not a grippy primer at all. It honestly feels kind of hydrating on the eyelid. Like I said, I'm not the best judge of an eyeshadow primer, but I like how hydrating it feels on the eyelid. It's not tacky. I didn't have too much difficulty blending over top. There is a very, very minimal tack that it leaves behind once it sets in. So the colors are going to grab the slightest bit, but I think it's perfect. It doesn't disrupt any blending. It just feels really skin like with a little extra tack. I like this. I really think I do. For me, I did put a little bit of concealer underneath my brow and right in here where the darkness is. And it looks good now that I've blended it out. Okay, I think I like it, but we'll see. So the first shade, I wanted to see how different and or similar these two would be. You can kind of see the tone difference a little bit more in person. They just look the exact same on camera, I'm aware, but Jacqueline swore up and down that you need both of these. I'm going to tell you that you don't need both of these. And this is the main point that I want to get across here. I'm going to start off with the biscuit really quickly. Using a Sonia G worker brush, and I'm just using this to set the underbrow. If you have lighter skin, you will notice for the most part the differences in tone. There's a lot of shades in here. Some of these only have slight differences in tones. If you are medium or deeper, a lot of the shades are going to be redundant on you because you're not going to notice those tone differences. Jacqueline's mom is quite fair. I see where she was going with the colors that she chose, because I'm not saying I'm fair. I do have a lighter complexion. I like the subtle differences in tone, but I just know if you have a medium or deep skin tone, a lot of these shades are going to look similar on you, making this palette probably not as worth it. You're not going to get as much out of it. I'm going to take a little bit of honey now. It's slightly brighter, but again, if I was just a smidgen, a smidgen deeper, they would look the same. So there's a few redundant shades, I would say, in this palette. So just keep that in mind. That's kind of one of the flaws, I think. So these shades, all in this corner, I felt like swatched a little funky, so I just wanted to go straight into it. I'm going to start off with so lucky, using a MAC 217 brush, and I am going to blend this in the inner half of the crease. One thing I'm impressed by is, I always have my eye primers kind of creasing already, especially if I'm using concealer. I blend it out and put powder on, and it's fine. But this primer is not creasing with an unsat eye, so that's a good sign.  It's the perfect neutral base to a cool-toned look. Like, it is cool-toned, but you can go warm with this with other shades after, but you can also go really cool with the shade you use after. And it's softer. It looks a little deeper in the pan, I feel like. But it looks fine. I'm not mad. Taking a Kaleidos S1. I really had to test this one, because this one, I think, had the weirdest swatch. And this is what I mean. You can see the very subtle tone differences, but you don't need both of these shades in the palette. And they're right next to each other, so that makes it even more obvious. I was worried about the swatch. I struggled to get a soft blend on this side as well. It's doable, but can you see? There's a little bit of patchiness going on. So the cooler-toned shades are going to need a little extra work. You can get it to be soft. I'm not saying that you can't, but just notice it's not perfect. It's not super smooth, but it's not bad. I'm not mad at it. Am I, though? I look in my monitor and I'm like, that looks kind of eh. Then I look in my mirror and it doesn't look as bad. So let's just keep building, and then I'll let you guys know. Because it doesn't look that bad, I feel like. Now we're going into TC right here with a Wengos 20. So this is a little deeper. It has a hint of green in here, I feel like. And I'm going to put this right here and blend it out, outer corner. Just doing a very basic, simple look today. This is blending really beautifully. I actually really like this shade. Again, this one swatched terribly, but it's working out really, really nice. I was going to come on and talk about the positive things I had to say about this palette because I had a good experience with this eye. I don't know what is happening right here. Why that did not happen on the other eye. I'm going to think it's my eye? I don't know. Now I'm confused because I liked it on the other eye. I'm going to keep going, though. We're going to go into this shade right here, Mama Sita, which has a slight satin finish to it. And this one I'm going to carry even over my lid right here. And I really like this shade. I feel like it has its place in this palette. It's certainly more gray than the other shadows. It has a little bit of blue in it, honestly. I think that shade is really pretty. And you can see it just came in and held its own with the other shadows. Okay, I took a closer look in the mirror. I think it's my eyelid. Why this is happening? Because my eyelid right here is dry for some reason. So it didn't happen on this eye. This eyelid I don't think is dry. So I think this is on me. I will continue to test this palette after today's video, and I will certainly update you guys. But I think it's me because I did have that good experience on this eye. And then, of course, we had to use the black. So I'm going to use because I said so. And I'm going to put this on the outer corner. I really like this black.  It's not too intimidating. It's working out pretty easily. Right? That's a good black. That's nice. Okay, let me blend that out. And then now we're going to go into the shimmers. I love that Tootsies in this palette. I can't wait to play with Moo. These two are going to be incredible. But the shimmers, by touch, are a little drier. However, I think they're really nice. They're not too shimmery. Well, at least this shade, the silver shade in here is quite metallic. But this shade I think is so pretty. It's not too metallic, but you can tell it's not a flat shade. It applies really evenly. I like this one. See, I think that's gorgeous right here. With an elf brush, I'm going into Apple Pie. This one has a little bit more metallic to it, as you can see, but it's still really pretty. And it's a great way to finish off the inner corner of this look. And then inner corner, I'm mixing French silk and meat and potatoes. I'm just going to use that to highlight. I think this look is so pretty, right? Okay, I'm going to clean up the under eye. I had pretty minimal fallout. There was a little bit of fallout, but nothing crazy considering how much blending and layering that I was doing. So not to fall out of you before me, love. I will be back to finish the lower lash line, but I want to test the powder on camera with you guys. So I'm using the Too Faced Born This Way concealer. All right, let's test out the Zang powder, because a lot of you guys said this is probably the number one thing you were interested in, because Jacqueline said pretty much, like this is the product that should go viral. It's that good. So this is the Power Move Loose Face Powder. And again, this is supposed to be really great for a mature skin. It's not supposed to set a one to fine lines. It's supposed to be quite hydrating. It's supposed to be sheer and just set the makeup. So I got the shade Sheer Light. I think that the shade range on this looked really great. There was a lot of options for deeper skin tones. And considering it's a sheer product, I was happy with what I saw in terms of that. Honestly, it looked like the range randomly ran quite deep. So hopefully this works. Let's see, let's get nice and close. Okay, this is a good shade for me. It looked a little deep in the pan, but you can see it looks nice. Ooh, there is a very subtle sheen, but it's not glittery or anything. Let me finish the rest of the face. Now, a few of Jacqueline's other powders, because I feel like she's come out with so many face powders. I haven't liked as much because I felt like they were too shimmery or they emphasized texture. I kind of like this. Like this is everything that I wanted Jacqueline's powder to be, where you can see that very, very subtle glow, right? But it's not too much. It's not glittery or anything. I don't feel it really emphasizing any texture, but I feel like it's still blurring at the same time. I mean, this is the unset side. This is the set side. I like this powder. This is definitely, at the very least, my favorite powder that Jacqueline has launched. It seems to do everything that her and her mother claimed it would do. I would love to test this on somebody with mature skin to see how it does. I'm keeping an eye out to see any reviews. Wow, I think this powder looks fantastic. I see what she meant when she said she thinks this should go viral. I will say this. I do think it made the makeup look ever so slightly, and this is because I'm looking into a magnified mirror, a little bit heavier. But I am not bothered at all because even though maybe the makeup looks a little heavier on my skin, it looks more perfected. Okay, I like this powder. I really, really do. Let me finish the lower lash line. I'm just going to do it real fast for you guys. We're going to mix these two dark gray shades. It's going to go in the outer corner like so. Actually, I just decided let's just blend it all the way in. Let's get a touch of the black. Like just a touch. Didn't realize we were going so dark and smoky. I'm wearing this light pink thing. And then I want to use the green in the center of the lower lash line. And then finally apple pie right in here. Interesting. I'm going to finish the rest of my makeup and I'll be back to give you my final thoughts. Okay, I'm excited to talk about this collection. I really enjoyed this collection. Let's start off with the eye primer here. I think this is a nice eye primer. Like I said, I'm probably not the best to judge. I don't struggle with longevity, but I feel like it was the perfect consistency for eyeshadows. You could still blend eyeshadows over top and it also felt hydrating. So if it performs in terms of longevity, I think they achieved exactly what Jacqueline's mom said she wanted from an eye primer. So if that sounds great for you, I think you will enjoy this. So I'm thinking mature skin girls. You might really like this. The eyeshadow palette. So I don't think this eyeshadow palette is going to be for everybody as a neutral lover. I like this palette a lot. Now keep in mind the formula is not full of pigment. It's a very user-friendly formulation. The shades are not sheer, but they're definitely not super opaque either. So they lean a little closer to the sheer side, but I think that makes it very user-friendly. And just from working with a lot of mature clients, grandmothers, mothers of the brides, I think this palette is going to work really beautifully over mature skin. I mean, I like it. I think it's nice. Is it the most beautiful blini glam palette in my collection? No, but I think it's a solid, solid neutral palette. So if you like the idea that these are a little bit more sheer, you like the colors that you see, then I think you will enjoy this. I think it's a well-curated neutral palette, but if you like color and you like a lot of pigment, this won't be the palette for you. But performance-wise, I think everything was great. And then probably my favorite thing from this collection is the Powder Move loose setting powder, just exactly what Jacqueline said. Again, I feel like it did everything that she said it was going to do. I think my skin looks phenomenal right now. You guys saw this side by side and what this did. So I'm really into this as well. As you guys know, this was the first impressions. I'm going to continue to use these products, and I will certainly be updating you in a couple of weeks. Have a date night tonight. I'm already thinking of taking my makeup off and redoing my makeup with these products again to see if anything on my thoughts changes. And if that's the case, I will let you know. Stay tuned on Instagram, because I definitely want to use some of the other colors in the eyeshadow palettes and see how the powder works, the different foundation, because I have really great, reliable base products on right now. So my skin was going to look good no matter what. So I'm excited to test everything out. But if you are hesitant on whether or not you want to pick this up, I think all of these items did exactly what Jacqueline and her mother set out to do. And I think they did a really great job with this collection. So I hope you guys enjoyed my review and found it helpful. Let me know your thoughts on this collection down below. I'm actually pretty excited. Excited enough to take my makeup off and do it again in a few hours using these products. Thank you guys so much for liking this video and being subscribed to my channel. And I will catch you in the next one. Bye, guys. Have a good one.


Live and direct from the cabin. I'm gonna give you guys a quick video to show you a nice exercise that I've been doing lately So we all know the glutes are important of course as runners.  It's on the side hair It's a it's a side butt basically and that's involved in you know keeping our Legs out and rotating out so that we're not collapsing inwards with our knees when we're running Which is very common for a lot of people myself included a little bit So being strong in the glute med ensures us good running form. It can be good To prevent against knee issues and all kinds of issues actually further down the kinetic chain So we have a dog here with us helping us today ball and Yeah, fetch likes to fetch balls. So the exercise I'm gonna show you is to target the glute medius and Just give it a good little workout So I have two resistance bands here. They're just normal resistant bands like this But I just put two of them together because I need a little bit more resistance and Then you basically just lie down and you could have an extra weight on top here I usually do that, but I'm gonna show it without the weight.  Just down Up align the pelvis down Align the pelvis you just want to get a nice alignment right down here squeeze the butts and down again controlled and nice and that's That is that is all So nice of the exercise some people do it before they run as a glute activation exercise. I like to do it after and Yeah, good idea for runners to throw in there with other pre-hab rather than rehab after an injury Do pre-hab so that you avoid injury in the first place Thanks for watching if you're interested in coaching I do offer coaching the link is in the description. Check it out online running coaching and Please subscribe of course as well Let me know in the comments if you do exercises like this if you use resistant bands and if you like the glute bridge That I just did