But this is why the beauty of the new notebook is also the horror What if you write a terrible sentence? What if you have to cross things out  make spelling mistakes  use a pen that bleeds? What if you do all the usual horrible things you do when you write because you are imperfect  and a learner  and you can’t craft a beautiful sentence at all? Why bother when you are not Chekhov? Why write when you can’t be brilliant?