bazanji
free
let me take it back to my first time when i started doing this thing i had visions of my future self i never thought i'd see them i had no money no following so no one helping me then just recording all on my own no one listened when i would send just left on read damn i still remember that day checked my latest song on my soundcloud saw a couple thousand new plays i saw my homie and let him know he said you came a long way and we kept talking til he finally said that all the streams were fake i said no way but it was true he paid 20 for a thousand views cut him off right then and there never wanted that type of move only wanted the real thing no shortcuts in my avenue we never spoke since then but it's something that i just had to do i know i made friends and i lost friends in my life some were my fault some were their fault but i'm never gonna think twice cuz i'm better now than i once was only really had one love gave it all to the music now i see the shit that my mind does my old dreams came real now crazy how this shit feel now finally got what i always wanted but somehow i still feel down life these days got many waves sometimes think i'm gonna drown sometimes i just feel amazed i hope one day i'll make it out to my true self i never found believed in friends who let me down couldn't ever just see it then but looking back i see it now too scared to go open up cuz people wanna just leave my dry or maybe i'm just scared myself but don't believe that's the reason why lotta people on the internet look real happy on their instagram finally met em in real life and i found out that it's all pretend crazy cuz that image was the shit that i was just chasing then thank god that i realized now i been focused on bigger plans do a lot for my people now a lotta shit i don't speak about i don't need to show everyone just to try to make me feel real now i'm doing fine on my dopamine don't need that life it's make believe you falling for their narrative it's a lifestyle that u can't achieve cuz nobody really be perfect but they making you feel worthless gotta go find what your worth is then u gotta put your work in i built this all from the ground up 16 i got no love father moved to a new city knew then i had to man up got no time for that bullshit had to find what my truth is i put my thoughts into my words now people everywhere use it cuz people been looking up to me can't control but i gotta lead never post bout drugs or money cuz that's not what i'm supposed to be always post my true self hope somebody can find help getting thousands of messages say my music saved em from mental health or suicide man what a life the reason why i stay up at night cuz more fans means more pressure one wrong step it's do or die but this the life that i chose i can't turn back anymore i came so far it's been insane i'm thankful for every little thing got a long road that's ahead of me but everything was meant to be i finally gotta just let it out and with that i'm finally free