allison crowe
now
As I walk this hall alone I wonder exactly why it is I'm leaving when there's nothing there for me to return to other than blind faith with a lack of believing and not to say that I have nothing I have everything and I am grateful but my head is trying to tell me something in this state of mind I feel so hateful and I don't understand and I'm not going to try to because now that I've seen it I couldn't walk away no even if I wanted to, yes now that I've seen it even though I'm leaving now every bit of me is still there well I am filled with a quiet resolution and questions posed without solution and in my realm of indecision finally I feel as though I can see something and though this beacons ever flashing Ii can't revisit without rehashing when I'm stuck in where I created fear I can not fix myself from here and I'm starting to understand at least in this state I believe something because now that I've seen it I couldn't walk away no even if I wanted to, yes now that I've seen it even though I'm leaving now every bit of me is still there the amount of times I've seen the edge of my own head is unrelenting the floor falls out and I am left with thoughts that move without consenting when all I want is peace and all I want to believe in is knowing without seeing and wanting without fear now that I've seen it I couldn't walk away no even if I wanted to, yes now that I've seen it even though I'm leaving now every bit of me is still there