english: I know it's best for me to never call him and never see him again...trying to be a friend to him hurts me too much because it only makes me want to spend more time with him and talk to him more....and that's when he pushes me away for a few weeks and then as soon as I feel like I can go a day without wanting to just call him just to hear his voice, he'll call me and I loose all pride again and just want to see him and make him happy....
non_english: うぐぅうぐぅうぐぅうぐぅうぐぅうぐぅうぐぅうぐぅうぐぅうぐぅうぐぅうぐぅうぐぅうぐぅうぐぅうぐぅうぐぅうぐぅうぐぅうぐぅうぐぅうぐぅうぐぅうぐぅうぐぅうぐぅうぐぅうぐぅうぐぅうぐぅうぐぅうぐぅうぐぅうぐぅうぐぅうぐぅうぐぅうぐぅうぐぅうぐぅうぐぅうぐぅぅうぐぅうぐぅぐ～ぐ～ぐ～。。。。