english: Ruth, I’ve gone through a grieving process every time we go back and forth between the two countries, even if only for a few weeks or months – I think maybe because the two places are so far removed from each other and exclude each other almost completely, maybe because being with one is a separation from another…not sure, maybe I need to do some tuning in and feeling and naming – because I don’t really feel grief if we go to a third country for a few weeks…or maybe I do, but it’s not the same.
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