english: 3 years 11 months, 2 weeks and 1 day, I don't know why this date has had such a hold on me, maybe because after today you have been gone longer than you were here with us, and maybe because I know that to mourn something for longer than you had it must seem excessive - and yet I cannot just flick the switch and say enough is enough, it will never be enough.
non_english: うぐぅうぐぅうぐぅうぐぅうぐぅうぐぅうぐぅうぐぅうぐぅうぐぅうぐぅうぐぅうぐぅうぐぅうぐぅうぐぅうぐぅうぐぅうぐぅうぐぅうぐぅうぐぅうぐぅうぐぅうぐぅうぐぅうぐぅうぐぅうぐぅうぐぅうぐぅうぐぅうぐぅうぐぅうぐぅうぐぅうぐぅうぐぅうぐぅうぐぅうぐぅうぐぅぅうぐぅうぐぅぐ～ぐ～ぐ～。。。。