english: Because I was afraid if I said everything that she meant to me -- that I owed perhaps the best parts of who I became to her care, and that the words "I'm sorry" were like a thimble to bail out all the guilt and shame and rage I felt over everything she had endured to care for me for as long as she had -- I thought if I said those words to her, I would never stop crying again.
non_english: jer sam se plašila da, ako kažem šta mi je značila da je možda njena briga zaslužna za najbolje delove onoga što sam postala i da su reči "žao mi je" bile kao okovi koji bi izvukli na površinu svu krivicu, stid i bes koje sam osećala zbog svega što je pretrpela da bi brinula o meni dokle god je morala - mislila sam da, ako izgovorim ove reči, nikada neću prestati da plačem,