english: And I could have just put my hands in the water and rinsed them, but instead, I licked my hands clean, because I was so afraid of losing more than I had already lost, and I was so desperate to make sure that he would always be a part of me.
non_english: Mogla sam samo da stavim ruke u vodu i da ih isperem, ali umesto toga, oblizala sam šake, jer sam se toliko uplašila da ću izgubiti više nego što već jesam, i očajnički sam želela da budem sigurna da će uvek biti deo mene.