english: And I realize, I think, the way I was feeling that way, is on a really deep gut level, I was feeling a lot of shame and embarrassed, frankly, that, in some respects, I had failed at delivering what I'm genetically engineered to do.
non_english: И схватила сам да сам то осећала у дубини душе, осећала сам огроман стид... срамоту, искрено... да, на неки начин, нисам успела да учиним оно за шта сам генетички предодређена.