english: And so as I contemplated all of this and looked at what was happening, I suddenly realized that there was a paradox that was emerging inside of me, and the paradox was this: in all of those sermons that I preached decrying the violence, I was also talking about building community, but I suddenly realized that there was a certain segment of the population that I was not including in my definition of community.
non_english: Tüm bunları etraflıca düşündüm ve neler olduğuna baktım, birden içimde ortaya çıkan bir paradoks olduğunu fark ettim ve paradoks da şuydu: tüm bu vaazlarda, şiddeti kınayan vaazlarımda, toplumu inşa etmekten de bahsediyordum fakat birden fark ettim ki belli bir kesim vardı ve ben onları toplum tanımım içine dahil etmiyordum.