english: And they feel that discovery as deeply and desperately as we felt it on nights when we held Joel in our arms praying for hours, stubbornly holding out hope for a grace that we could not create for ourselves.
non_english: Ve Joel'i kollarımızın arasına alıp inatla kendi elimizde olmayan bir mucize umuduna tutunarak dualar ettiğimiz gecelerde hissettiğimiz şeyi hissetsinler.