english: And maybe the hardest part about my life ending is that I learned something hard about myself, and that was that, as much as I would be frustrated about not being able to get my work out to the world, there was a part of me that was working very hard to engineer staying small, staying right under the radar.
non_english: Ve hayatımın sona ermesinin en zor kısmı kendim hakkımda zor birşeyi öğrenmem oldu. Ve bu da, her ne kadar çalışmalarımın yayılmamasına sinir oluyor olsam da, bir parçam küçük kalmak için, farkedilmemek için, büyük bir çaba harcıyor.