On  my  way  across  the  continent  I  decided  to  send  a  cable
to  Maude  at  Paris,  since  it  were  only  fair  to  give  her  an
opportunity  to  reflect  upon  the  manner  in  which  she  would
meet  the  situation.  Save  for  an  impatience  which  at  mo-
ments I  restrained  with  difficulty,  the  moods  that  succeeded
one  another  as  I  journeyed  did  not  differ  greatly  from  those
I  had  experienced  in  the  past  month.  I  was  alternately
exalted  and  depressed;  I  hoped  and  doubted  and  feared;
my  courage,  my  confidence  rose  and  fell.  And  yet  I  was
aware  of  the  nascence  within  me  of  an  element  that  gave
me  a  stability  I  had  hitherto  lacked:  I  had  made  my  de-
cision, and  I  felt  the  stronger  for  it.
