Gosh darnit


im crying my eyes out


It's so hard


To scream louder than the voices in her head


To chase away the black clouds that surround her mind


She thinks that they hurt me


She thinks it isn't worth it


I would do anything to prove to her that that's not true


I dont doubt for a second that I'll always be there for her


I'm just praying that she doesn't hurt herself because she thinks she doesn't deserve it


I want her to feel okay with leaning against my shoulder


Forget about how it's because she's so needy


or that she's asking too much


and just


breathe...


rika your a strong person from what i know


she's stronger


both of you are


tbh i don't what to say it like you are confess you feeling to some one if you are struggle with it should tell how you feel for her welp it depend on you


But...


I didnt type a bad word...


Intentionally


@ Neko's Baby Kitten try again


Why does life have to be unfair..? My gf broke up with me,I had to block one of my greatest friends,now I lost everyone I had...


V HINOUU Im sorry that things like that are happening to you, think of it as something in the road though. Things happen and there will be good things coming, I promise you


Think of it as knowing there is no expectations when it comes to life. Life will and always will be unfair, we just have to be ready for the worst and not expect the best every time. Just keep your head up high, and life will get better soon.


Ive never even had a gf


Sometimes I just want to end it, but of course those are just thoughts and I never act on them and they go away, but they always come back


Knowing that many people around me are loved and cherished breaks my moral


Like I shouldnt exist. Maybe my two friends would have better lives if I left tomorrow. Yeah Ive thought of that when down


Being as shy as I am, but wanting to reach out is painful


Its like a war happening inside me every day. A war to kill off my mental disorders and shyness. Too become who I want to be


I only want to be loved in this world by just 1 person. Just 1


Yet it hasnt happened


I hate myself for what Ive done, for what I have become. How hard it will be to fix this situation is beyond me


I CANT F REACH OUT!


I want to be included


Why am I unimfingportant? Because I didnt grow up with many friends?!


Even though I tried?!


Yet those two friends I have are better at finding that special someone?!


Im scared. Im afraid. Im sad. I barely have anything to look forward to anymore.


I dont want to die like this


Am I undeserving of attention? Is it because Im small? Underweight?


If I die tomorrow will anyone care?


Will people value me, or will they think of me as an unimportant waste on society itself


Don't hate yourself, love yourself.


It won't be hard to fix it.


You can reach out.


You are already included.


Your are important, you don't need many friends.


You tried your best.


Just be patient, you'll soon find that special person.


Don't be scared, be brave.


You won't die like that.


You deserve attention.


You may be short, but at least you don't live like me.


At least your soft enough for me to carry you.


I will care.


I will value you, your important to society.


Other words, I love you. As a friend cause we don't know each other that much.


Thx anyway, Ms. Chloe


alrightt so im helping to set up a new server, and ive been working super hard because im the only staff with any experience there


and like, the other staff are mostly not too active bc they have studies/other priorities atm.


there is one staff though that is active but he has zero experience whatsoever, he's staff because he was one of the server founders


he always wants to help A TON and like he's super super eager but i feel like he gets in my way sometimes or like the vision i have for certain features of the server


and it's just lowkey annoying me. and i do feel bad because he's a sweetheart, but like im doing everything and it's making my job harder


i got a bit triggered just now because he moved the role order around without asking me to organize them and it messed up the permissions.


ex. we have a disable affiliates role for obvious reasons and he messed it up so everyone got pinged including members who originally disabled the channel. so... if we lose members that's on him.


it just irritates me like, he doesnt know any of the basics but he just goes ahead with things and trying to help ...


For me you should warm him not like over used the power and told him what is wrong and that he need to stop, ik he try to help but you have to let him know what is help and what is not you can only help him gain experiment on what he do wrong and he will yeah get better if he try not listen to you welp you can ask him to stop and let you do it or you can take his power away


That why every restaurant alway have staff manager to secure the restaurant not going crazy


Teach him the basic if he still not listen yeah you know what for the good i sorry it may hurt but it true


Welp good luck being a mod/staff is hard have to responsibility to eevrything that can caution to sv


thank u for the advice pillow


No need to thank take your time and stay calm


Being mad just made thing heat stay calm and process


And idk about setup sv sorry I cannot help but i can give you advice what to do and sorry that all i can do


it's okay i agree with what u said


i just vent in here so i can stay calm outside


Ik it hard to stay calm everytimes


I have sam issue tbh xD


Welp if i mad something i ussually go vent on league where i can expose my real mad lmao


So yeah dw no one perfect that why they need each pther


Let me know if you still need help or vent or what ever you need i can try to help in my ability


I dislike feeling yucky in side and scard


I wanna cry


why?


Because I really feel lm alone and people only talk to me when absolutely necessary like this is even in irl hate it happens what ever server I go into I'm just ignored no one feels the need to say hi just makes me feel yucky


leafyy


That's y


ooh, I felt that once. I thought that everyone thinks I'm useless, but I told this to my sister she said It's okay! a lot of people would love to listen to your stories, you just gotta speak up so I did and that makes me less anxious. Hope you will feel less alone!


leafyy thank you


ywww


o lovelyt


VidPlt


This is why failure is the best teacher of all. It basically tells you where you should not step on and at the end nobody is perfect to walk perfectly straight. It is indeed tough and reaaally painful when you are wrong but if you instead letting yourself down and think how can i not make the same mistake again? you will see how everything changes. It will take time so lots of patience is needed and you have to keep learning every time you fail but most importantly, never give up accomplishing what you desire.


Thanks for reading.


I feel like nobody values any work I do


Why is that?


Im sure your works are amazing


Sometimes, the best work goes unnoticed. Legends never get written down into the history books, and hero's are unknown. If every single hero, legend and best worker was acknowledged, books would be way too long. I believe you are noticed and people do value your work, but they think you're just being a glory hound which you aren't. So keep working hard and one of these days, people will show their appreciation.


Thank you


It feels like a gut punch sometimes but itll happen eventually


Somebody has to value it eventually. Even if its a smol number


On a lighter note from the norm, failure can be the best teacher. Hell I play many games and can confirm that


Failure is how we progress into greater achievements in society. We learn from our mistakes and come back harder.


I disagree with southgamer. Everyone can draw the same stickman. But the only difference is how it is drawn to get attention.


The only thing keeping me from hurting myself is a freaking baby toy.


what's wrong?


My boyfriend is being weird and distant


ouchies have you been texting him?


Yes


and he hasn't responded?


He does


Just one message and then disappears


oh damn


i really hope he starts messaging more often


And he is doing the same thing to his boyfriend


Same excuse


But it doesn't make sense


it doesnt


it really doesnt


I just want to talk to him


I told him how it makes me feel


And then he disappeared again


could you do a call with him?


I have tried calling him


AHK


editing stuff aint my forte


i guess he doesnt pick up


Yeah


ah damn


? What happens?


yan's boyfriend is being distant with her


and she's concerned and stuff like that


she messages him but he replies and leaves


but since when, maybe he needs some time alone


also, try to contact his family?


Welp if he been distance he must give her something as the reason welp cant just leave like that


And that wrong


okay, but what do you think she should do then?


Welp for my point i think she should try contact and ask if he doesnt pick up 1. It must some thing serious he have to leave 2. Some thing that cant let him contact 3. If he really love her he would try everything to contatc but if he dont you know it online dating you aint know what gonna happens


I know him irl


He has autism


Just like me


So things like communication sometimes aren't very easy


But normally it doesn't affect our relationship


I'm just worried


So take your time if you trust him and he does really love you he would not give up on you there must something happens that stop him text you


He texts me


Just like one message and then disappears


In this case tbh idk how to advice you all you can do rn is wait trust him he not gonna leave ypu that easy if he truely love you


I feel so alone right now..


It's been so long since my girlfriend has last texted me and I don't know what's going on..


Like if it's me I can change..


But her ignoring me is breaking my heart..


I just feel empty and lost. She never texts me anymore and if she wants to leave the relationship she could just tell me...


Like what am I to her.?


Nothing?


A friend?


What am I?..


I feel like I'm just being annoying...


I tell her I love her everyday no response..


I say good night/ good morning everyday no response...


My heart is just being crushed at this point...


And reading over old text messages hurt even more..


March 31st is our anniversary...


1 month and 9 days ago...


I just miss her...


I miss her I love her but I don't know if she feels the same way anymore...


I'm starting to fall back into that pit of depression that took me two years to crawl out of...


So this is what vent looks like


So I cried today again


Don't fall back into that cycle of depression, you know nothing good will ever come out of it if you say back into that pit.


I think you should move on. Sounds harsh I know, especially since you love her. But it's like talking to a gravestone. You can wish and talk to it to come back, bring back that loved one but it won't ever happen. There's no point in doing that if nothing happens.


This girl, she doesn't deserve a caring and loving person like you. 1 month and 9 days sounds like they might've given up and moved on already.. You might be right about how she doesn't feel the same.


I know your heart feels broken and alone, but you can't let yourself be defeated by a relationship no matter how much you love them.


Move on from the relationship and start healing, delete the conversation and take time for yourself. Don't wait for them, they most likely are never coming back @M I I A


She never wants to talk even when she's online...


Y'all can try to dm her she's in the server...


There's someone out there better for you worthless, someone who will acknowledge you and love you for who you are. If you want that, it's best for yourself to move on.


I hugged her in deletedchannel


Maybe one of you can get through to her...


I can try talking to her, but in the end it's not of my business. In situations like this, you have to think about yourself.


This is something I wanna share. My mental state became screwed up five years ago it was when everything was just too much for me plus my class betrayed me and it broke me. I was weak and socialy unstable for 2 years next I had to go through a lot of stuff to make myself go back in gears and not go completely unsocial... Now I'm better but there are still many things that hunt me and it hurts me inside. I feel loneliness and fear like I'm lost inside, don't rly know what to do my minds a mess and sometimes wonder do I want love do I just want to hang out with my friends do I want to meet new ppl. There's something holding me back from it. Feels like I'm chained and in front of me is a key but I can't reach it.


I always wear a fake mask and pretend that everything is OK and fine


You've got to be brave Kuro, take that leap of faith. The past is the past, nothing can change that. But what you can change is what you do next. Will you become a stronger person and risk it for friends, love and better quality of life? Or do you stay afraid, lonely and stuck inside your own bubble where the only good thing that comes out of it is safety and security?


Hmmm


Will you keep that fixed mindset or grow?


It's up to you


But ppl tend to avoid me


That's their problem, not yours


Okey


You keep trying, you keep fighting and trust me, one day it will be worth it.


I'll take your word on that. Thanks u rly did help


Father of the year lmao


You're welcome


Man I swear yo


too many drama about me its really getting to me


Like I just wanna have fun and talk to my friends


I was in war and now I cant come out please help


What war is it?


I was in the 2020 war for 40 years


wait how?


bruh lmao


Theres no such thing


I don't understand


theyre obviously joking


Ikr


no omg


i was in war in 2019 all the way throughout 2020


same


heesh man


you know that impending feeling of dread


when ur like


That's the thing about depression: A human being can survive almost anything, as long as she sees the end in sight. But depression is so insidious, and it compounds daily, that it's impossible to ever see the end


Alright can you explain it again?


mmm


Wha t


He just walked into my room and said that


He might be drunk or something I dont know


That's a toxic Brother.


How old is he?


He has dipolar hes 23


Sometimes he lashes out on me and other times hes super nice to me


w h a t.


He plays with my emotions in a way


That's a very toxic relationship you have with your brother.


Well, a lot of horrible things have happened between me and him I have a lot of trauma from him


Honey, just don't call it toxic


mh


it kinda is though


Cause my lil' bro does that to me too, and like I don't really care but we also get along pretty well. But anyways, peach, I recommend you try and talk to a trusted adult/someone who can take care of this. I don't recommend asking him/ignoring him/try and make things better. Cause some people will say to ask him, or ignore him but if he's actually drunk don't do it.


Try asking your mom to maybe like, not allow your brother in your room, but if he comes in then he's drunk.


He wont listen to that shes tried, trust me


Oh, okay let me think... have you tried every possible way, to not let him in your room?


Mhm


Thanks!


I'd never thought I'd be here to vent


But i need to right now


All my parents care about is homework and they never consider how I might feel and they don't bother to help me or even be beside me to guide me,Then you should go ask us is all they say to defend themselves,my mom would always say go ask your dad but the only thing he does is stress me. I was expecting a different kind of school holiday but NO they just HAD to ruin it. They don't even realize that their stressing me a lot. I'm done with all the stuff they put me through,but they don't even care,they're just pushy people that made me hate them. Honestly,I want to run away but then again I can't because I'd have nowhere to go,no money for food or even have the endurance to the dark. I have nyctophobia They only put their feelings first and never thinking about mine,I know that I've been keeping this in because I didn't want anyone to bother about me.. but I guess the truth is,I guess I just want them to treat me a little better even the smallest bit


Maybe you could try and reason with them? like, when you do your homework maybe tell them afterwards you want to spend time with them. That should help a bit, because then they feel like their kid cares for them, and theyll start caring back.


truth be told i need someone to vsnt to i have been dating a guy for a year and a half weve been on and off a lot and its getting tiring. it has gotteb to the point where now i just wanna leave, i asked him for his account details and he refused i realized i still had them so i went on his account. he has my account so i thought it was only fair, our relationship was really toxic he called me worthless ugly and a lot more. while going through his account i found he was talking to his ex this earlier today so when we were discussing getting back together. they had vced and he had called her voice cute and he had said things about her body. i screenshotted because he told me there was nothing going on i talked to the girl and like ngl she was defending him saying they were just friends but had i said those things to someone else hed accuse me of cheating. im at the point where i dont know what to do, he tells me he only loves me i guess it doesnt matter if he treats me so horribly


i dont know if im being sensitive and theyre just friends, when i was friends with an ex of mine someone who actually helped me get with him my bf said nasty things about him and nade me block him but he refused to do the same. am i in the wrong for snooping and lack of trust?


I have no rights to talk but who cares, You should maybe talk or sort it out with your bf because that's a bad relationship right there..


Why wasting ur time on someone that calls you ugly/worthless;w;


Well, im not telling you to break up, or at least not yet try to sort it out with him and talk about it


IF you think he's not right for you then do as you please. Stay or leave


And if she really is just a friend then there's no problem:3, since you said it doesn't matter if he treats me horribly WHICH IS NOT RIGHT CUS WHAT KIND OF BOYFRIEND DOES THAT


Alright, here's my opinion sorry im not good at giving advice:c


awww thank you so much i appreciate it


Dev sorry for the ping qwq


In this situation focus on how you feel.You said he treats you horribly then he isnt worth your time.If you dont feel good around him then somethings wrong there hes supposed to be supporting you and complementing you.With the friend I say talk to him about it and tell him how you feel if he keeps on lying and you dont feel well or comfortable then it isnt worth it Im 100 sure youre an amazing person and you dont need this youre strong so show him that Ive been in your shoes before and imo when I got out of it it was like being set free


thank you so much i really needed your advuce


Mhm anytime just want to make sure everyones okay we need happiness not toxicity!


I'm just stressed cuz I'm staff in a bunch of servers and i have to stay active but at the same time i have a bunch of homework and


Its hard to stay active in five servers


I'm afraid of letting people down especially because I promised I would be active but I'm not as active as before


Maltese is a hard language, I've been learning it for 14 years and I still suck


I'm a Maltese native and I don't know Maltese


I'm getting lots of homework


I'm behind on homework


Its stressful


Maltese is as hard as arabic


Actually, harder


How can a Maltese native not know her language


Yui kill @M I I A


Yui slap @M I I A


@ wholesome of the day! please do us a huge favor and help ashwi out. She really needs your love and support right now and I'm begging you, please help her.


ah, i'm not very good at this but what's wrong?


We will do what we can.


Is she stressed?


Neves vent


@ Kitty Rika!


I think Ashi is really sad about the thing that she is loosing boosts, activity etc.


aw.


She doesn't know how to make the server spark again, not so sure though.


Its a lot more than that


Im just asking you to show her that you love her


Alright.


@ Ashi On Break


I lub u rebuccaa!


SPAMS WITH LOVE EMOJIS


No


Not right now


We all love youuu.


Im crying


Not


Right now


Maybe later


I dont feel right


Im sorry


Please feel better soon..


Thats right ashwi


Well do it later today and you will be there for it


Im sorry that isn't active and we're losing boosts!


But I want you to know we all love you!


For whatever is happening to you, I hope you feel happier! If you need to let it out go ahead!


I should try to be more active here


Look, Ashi. You're the best owner ever, you do everything for the server and more.


And, we all do love you for sure. We hope that you'll feel happier. Just, if you're ever feeling upset or sad you should just vent here or in DMs.


Your amazing and yeah, you are the best server owner ever!


We all love you so much and we all hope that you'll feel better!


I know that words don't help much, but.. still.


We all love you ashi, you can always talk to us. Pleass feel better soon ashi..


I just want you to know that were always here to help you.


Dear Ashi.


As Amy said, youre the best owner ever. You have the cutest server and please know that we all love you/ care for you. We will always be here for you, we have our DMs and this chat open for a reason. We will spread love to you and support forever and forever, Im sorry this is happening to you and hope you know all of our DMs are open for you to vent in. We will help you in very way and all ways. We all love you


Please dont be sad, but if you really have to spill out the feelings. Were here.


ashi, you deserve all the love this world has to give. you're hardworking, kind, caring, patient and so tolerant. you're one of the nicest people i've met ok? this is the best server, in the discord community and i live by that. we're all so proud of you and everything you've done/ achieved for this server. what's happening now, isn't a downfall, it's a lesson to get you to work even hard and if we stay strong everything will be okay. we love you and appreciate you endlessly.


Brb so bbing m yheart out


to ashi:


hey ash, you deserve all the love, you're an amazing person and im glad your my friend. i love this community you built for us!


Ash, sorry for being inactive. Your server is the best server I've ever come across. Everytime I joined a server, no one would care if I was there. Sayu changed that, I actually got friends and I'm very happy to help any way I can


Baba well I won't say much because I know you can do it :3, I'll support you and be more active on the chat!


So don't be sad! Tell me if Ya need help okai. I'll always be there for you so dont worry


Ashi, don't be sad, don't be lonely and don't be depressed! We're here for you 3 I'm sure you will make up soon! I will try to help whenever you need help We all love you and appreciate you! I will be more active in the chat and like how hiya said, I will also support you, and your server! Don't worry, everything's going to be alright:3


This isnt much of a problem, but as much as I try to be happy I fail. Im trying to cheer others up too but I fail. I feel very left out in servers too, I really dont know why.


Best way to find happiness is to stop looking. It sounds simple but it's really quite easy. Just notice what you have, friends online or irl, even the fact you have nitro.


And if you want to find it, focus on other people's happiness not trying to make them happy, but simply just noticing happiness in others. Just give it a try c:


one of the mods from this server has vanished for the last 3 days, and i don't know if i should be worried. it's definitely not like him to suddenly disappear without saying anything, and i don't know if i'm overreacting about it. he's my best friend and i miss him a lot. i've been sending him a few messages and he hasn't responded to any, nor seen my messages on instagram. i dont know if i should be this concerned but its really not like him to do this and i don't know if something bad has happened


Sorry to ask but, is it Sammy?


yeah it's sammy


Maybe he's just taking a break from discord, perhaps he's hooked up to a game or something, etc, or maybe he quits since he left the server


Well, try talking to him. He'll reply lets hope he'll reply:3


ive been messaging him for 3 days


And I just don't know what to do...


My heart is just broken...


hugs thats horrid


i am so sorry she did those things and said those things. well, we are all your friends here, you got us now


Woah that is harsh, im truly sorry for that.. actually, if I were you I would slap that girl DONT DO THIS OK because she just went to far..


But hey, look at the bright side:3


If you were to date her, I think you'll just waste your time with her/ toxic relationship, etc, it's not good


owo hug @M I I A


Oop


?afk dancing like sluty gay boyo I am


Today my friend gave me a message that said that I never respect people. I used to be friends with her since grade 5 and my friend told me that I hate everyone and treat her like sht... My sister exposed me and told my friend to do this hurtful things... so Im never in the mood to talk to anyone today


they're both not worth your time


I'm sorry you have a sister like that.


I hope you find better friends.


Never thought that Id have to vent here


But apparently I cant trust any other server


So these days Ive just been breaking down from the stress of many things, not just schoolwork, and other peoplefrom other servers are just trying to play and use me. They assume everythings fine, but they dont know anything. Theyre just trying to hurt me and they dont think about whats actually going on. They think they can just push me around, but they dont know whats going on in my head. I doubt theyd care anyways tbh. Im just sick and tired of them, but I cant do anything about it. Ive been upset for days, and it shows, but they just ignore all that. Not everything is sugar sweet, but they dont care. I cant trust them, but I cant do anything. I havent laughed at all for like months until this morning because someone in this server did something to make me laugh. I want to say thank you to him. Ive been stressed, and broken down 3 times this past week.


Sigh


I feel overwhelmed all the time. Like...i cant sleep, I cant enjoy gaming, I keep thinking about things. I cant turn my brain off. Either it be my PTSD or something else going on. Sometimes ill be up for a few days and not be able to get any sleep and im afraid it will affect my new job and eventually the rest of my life


So, my girlfriend is in quite bad position right now, to the point where she was hospitalised for harming herself too bad, and was barely breathing, and her heart was barely beating. She somewhat recovered and was able to message me for a bit today. She had other things to tell me. She's had heart problems since she was a kid and now that all of this has happened her heart has weakened more and she only has a 30 chance of survival... I don't want to lose another person who I care and love for so much.. it's just feels like my past is gonna repeat.. this'll be the 2nd time someone I've been in a relationship has died and idk how I'll be able cope with it all. As I feel a lot stronger for this person rather than the other one... I know all I can do is hope that she will be okay... But I honestly jusy don't know...


im very sorry to hear this. she is in good hands and the most you can do is try to make the best out of everything. try to make her happy, be positive and cheerful. she needs you more than ever right now, and just keep praying


I do all I can for her, according to her I'm the only thing that has been able to keep her happy and I've been trying my best to keep it that way.


Mhm, and if she really does pass, just know that shell be in a better place.


but im sure she wont


30 is more than 0


she has a chance still


So Im back here


Um


Lately Ive been feeling weak its like if my body is giving out on me it down at wanna work earlier today I felt like if I was gonna faint Ive also been feeling different.Ive been trying to stay positive but the only thing I have are those pills that help the pain go away last year I was in a very bad position with well self harm and really bad things and well I have that fear of going back and Im trying my best to not go back but all I can do is cry but I dont tell anyone to not burden them


Best advice I can give is, soldier on. Tomorrow is another day, a new day to do something different or new.


Whenever you feel beat down, you get back up and you look at depression or anything in the eyes and say That punch was weak, try harder next time. Don't give it control over you, and each time you don't give it control it loses some of that grip on you, if you know what I mean.


Feeling better won't happen immediately, like a cold it takes time to get better and mental health takes months or years to improve.


So keep at it and keep going, even just wanting or attempting to try and be positive is a change. I believe in you!


And so Im going to spend yet another birthday without someone I can hold in my arms. My morale is dropping, and hope for a future is diminishing. There may not be a 2021 for me. There is always that chance I give up.


2020 has screwed me. I guess I should have never became interested in video games, anime, and everything else Im interested in today. Maybe I should just stop being a nice guy and become the meanest person like everyone else not you guys. Just maybe this will give me someone to hold in my arms. My nice guy persona has caused people to use me for personal gain.


I regret who I am, and who Ive become. It hasnt brought me love, only sadness and depression as I watch everyone around me ravish in love


Being different is crime I guess


i don't think that you should become a mean person and stop being a nice guy, because that's not who you are, it's mostly about being with the right kind of people easy said then done. think of this, life can be like a game, for every year you go up a level it gets harder and harder, and that's were your skills and the person you are comes in, you level up and gets some new skills. yeah there will be times were you fail, but you try again, the level is not one way, it has a lot of ways to beat the level, but it's gonna be hard to find the easiest way to beat the level, but in the end you end up beating the level, because you believed you can and i believe that you can and people who is there for you when you fail, is there because they also believe that you can beat the level. don't lose hope stay strong.


sorry if my English is bad


Sammai your english is great


thanks yoonchigga


Thanks for the advice Sammai


Well now I feel horrible. I basically just ruined a salvageable friendship with a friend I considered close. The reason it was ruined is because I wasnt paying attention to them and ignoring them. I dont know if I can still fix it, tbh I dont think I can. The friendships I managed to make are just dropping like flies, and it just tears me apart.


I guess I could try and make more but


For me its not easy.


Thats why I try and cherish the ones I made, I wanna make them last, Ik friends come and go


But


@ wholesome of the day!


I feel like I want to die..


hi. Im here to help.


Wanna talk about it?


I'm here to help too


I just wish I wasn't alone anymore and this pandemic isn't helping at all


Everythings going to be okay. It might not be okay right now, but just think of your future. Everything might seem hopeless, but itll get better.


Idek who to DM


Dm anyone you want to dm


Clarity Darling no one is ever alone! We're all here for you. We'll get through this pandemic together! You will be fine. Hang on to life, it will eventually lead to good. Think about all the things you never had a chance to do yet and think about things and people that make you HAPPY! We all care and love you. 3


People keep venting in my dms and I just cant tell them to stop Ill feel like a horrible person then when I share what I think they just keep saying worser things and I just end up crying myself because I cant handle it out I cant handle people feeling sad so I just carry along with it Im so tired but Im to scared to say anything


Suki, maybe react to ask to dm role for now, and Since there's status, you should write hmmm.. Let's say Dont DM unless blabla


Its not just people from this server its from many servers where they dont have roles


Well


I just want people to talk to but there is always people like that and if I put my status like that I feel like theyre going to feel like I dont care about them


Status


You can talk to them or you can put something like


No vent


on ue status


... Ive been trying to say that I will feel like theyre bothering me and I dont want them to feel that way


But there's no choice


But I think it's a good thing


that means they trust you enough


Im sorry Im just so sensitive


No no dont be xd


Ik this might not be part of venting but idk, so lately we started soccer at our school and were put into teams, Im in an all boys team and theyre all rlly good, and the teams we vs r good as well, Im like the worst at soccer im a girl btw and then finally one of the teachers came up to me and said I hv to be more active and not just stand around, I feel like im gonna fail and get a D for sport or maybe an E. We hv sport again tmr and Im rlly dreading it. Anyone hv any advice they can give me to help me get better? I would be extremely grateful


If I fail it will be the first time I ever get a D in anything


@ wholesome of the day!


Oki tysm!


Np its the least I can do!


u can try ur best its ok to fail but practise more


I


It was probably in the vent


Welp... there it goes.


let me test something


god damn


yeah that doesnt pick up as a bad word


I dont know what the bad word was


I re wrote the whole thing


well..


weird


W h a t


What bad word


DM me what u dmed, Ill try to find the bad word


ping pong;w;


I mean messaged


I needed help because I vented a little bit


TRIGGER WARNING


As a person who attempted sicide 4 times its very annoying to see people depressed” over their crushes. I dont understand what could hurt so much that someone would self harm”. I have been heart broken before but i didnt start self harm because of that. No! I started self harm, sicidal thoughts and sicide attempts because of the abse, because of the touching, because of the beating, because of the bllying, because of the words... And i still self harm sometimes. Im being pushed to the absolute edge and currently contemplating another attempt...Yeah..Thats all...Bye.


@ wholesome of the day! Im very sorry for all the pings...


Thank you finally


To be honest I agree, you shouldnt really be self harming or depressed over your crush just not wanting you. Its kinda petty


I dont let them heal. If i self harm i do it over what i already did. So it gets worse


ngl seeing people self harm or just be depressed over a crush or something like that isnt worth it


To be honest, I kinda disagree. But I know how you feel. But when a girl/ boy is depressed over their crush it means something. But I was depressed over my crush and a few other things not long ago.


Not body shaming. But how stupid i am. How wrthless i am. i dont deserve anything in the world. Things like this..


Yes but i dont think it brought you to self harm


and being suicidal


Some people self harmover their crushes because of something the crush or they have done.


I understand how it must hurt a lot to be rejected from someone you wanted to date, but I think its a little overboard by becoming depressed


ME IS SHE SHE IS ME WE ARE SHE ok but you shouldnt selfharm unless like the crush was being rude or smth they shouldnt even be your crush in the first place if so


If theyre being manipulative just because you have a crush over them thats something for you to leave


I think often the cause of depression isnt the breakup, but the person may have already been depressed to some level and the breakup tipped them over, as some people may get depressed when a family member leaves, if someone is very attatched it may have the same or similar affect


To respond to something previous


Uh...what?


@! twinkii?


What does my status have to do with this?


No no no


Im just talking about the people who are depressed over crushes


Sorry for the confusion


oh goodness I missed a lot of venting care pings


Mhm


i mean


i did self harm for the reason that my family was toxic my dad was abusive etc


like i said before i guess im in a better state but at the same time its like if im rolling backwards with it


like im slowly going back into it


oopie can't relate after my breakup it was harsh


;w;


Im sorry to hear that ashii:c


i think no one should self harm no matter what. there is no good reason to do it and no good reason to end your life. dont self harm over anything, because youll get through it one day and then youll end up with a bunch of scars


uhm So i keep sleeping at like 65 pm and i wake up at 910 pm and then i go back to sleep at like 12 and wake up at like 23 i know its super complicated but i cant seem to fix my sleeping schedule. I also keep having strange, unnerving dreams about my loved ones dying and one of them was that my cat died, The next day my cat died. Today i had a dream my dog dies. I dont know how to control these dreams, someone please help. I always wake up having panic attacks or huge migraines or just crying a bunch. Someone please help, i cant endure this anymore.


Im not gonna ping the vent helpers cause most people are likely asleep right now...


Most people yeah but there's always someone


Elixir, that sounds like anxiety and something must have terrified you. Had this happened before? Is your cat dying a coincidence or has a similar event occurred before?


Sometimes we can have crazy dreams from having anxiety, whether it's obvious or not.


It could also be due to stress or sleep deprivation or even insomnia. I'm no doctor so if you're really worried tell someone you trust and respect, most likely your family. Tell them you've been having a lot of strange dreams and it makes you feel upset or anything you can explain to them.


For now, just focus on breathing and trying to keep calm.


Once you've done that, try to figure out what could be causing all these dreams and take care of it from there such as letting go of your past. If you can't or fine it hard to let go, that's when I recommend you tell someone, anyone at all, before it gets worse. I know you can get through this, update me if you feel comfortable about it. I'm here for you and so are other people.


There's this feeling I have, so you guys know ships right? Well, cause of that I'm starting to turn into homophbic due to toxic gay shippers, why can't they appreciate straight ships? Yes gay ships are cute but straight ships are cute too. Every single time I mention IzuOcha, or TodoMomo, or any straight ship, they just say'Ew! I like TodoDeku better, or MomoJiro' or any other gay ships. When they do that I tend to cry, what's wrong with straight ships? Literally. At least some people agree with me but most of them are just. Like I really wanna quit Discord now, once I think about quitting Discord, I won't tell anyone unless I really trust them with all my heart. Can someone at least agree with me straight ships are cute. I just need that right now.


I agree with all ships, but straight ships are cute and always have been.


I agree!


@ wholesome of the day! hi very sorry to be pinging at this hour but im really anxious can someone dm me please


Yeah, of course 3


awh ofc


agree


i try helping people out but im not sure if they take my advice, and i just use my knowledge when giving advice. im stressed and tired knowing that people some appreciate what i do for them. i just want to please others and help them out with their problems, but sometimes it gets on my nerves, sometimes i realize i cant save others. i feel pained when i know they're going through some things and i try to reach out, i try to help i really do.


@ wholesome of the day! what in the lords name do i do now after my gf broke up with me


take some time to recover


that's terrible


im sure your a wonderful person perm


Do you feel sad, mad, etc?


Oh no. How could anyone say that.


im annoyed, putting it nicely


Can I DM you? britthetransgirl


@. yea go on


Ty.


britthetransgirl is okay if i dm to talk to you about this convo further?


Nesto yea


I suggest listening to music, spending some you time. Try to relax.


@ wholesome of the day! Anyone send me a hi in DMS so I can rant a bit. Ty.


if anyone reads my status they will be killed with an axe


well. seems like i have my first victim


noone


I really wanna die. I am worried and stressed. I don't even know what to do anymore it just hurts a lot.


well


your not the only one


im not good enough


just listening to Snail's house Hot milk on repeat


has no words. but somehow... it's relatable..


i just don't know, i feel like no one will care even after i send these messages.


they'll just skip me.


because why would my feelings matter to them if they don't know me personally.


:,c


Guys I have an unpopular opinion


Jk


Hi.


Neve you have to listen to your own feelings, thoughts and emotions. They are your own and only yours. In the end they only matter to you. Who cares what people say about you, good or bad it doesn't matter. What does matter is what you think of yourself. If you believe you aren't good enough that's not ok because you are. To someone, you could mean the whole world. That's how much you can and do matter, so keep trying.


Yui hug Neve


Ty guys...


Nya


I will go have a rest..


Good night everyone..


Night!


HIHIHII


i'm so sad for the stupidest reasons


Why


welp stuff gonna happens don't blame your self too much


whatever happened has happened. try to forget about it


no it's like


really


stupid


i had a panic attack over it and


2 people wished me a happy birthday this morning smh


I'm really worried about something. Anyone DM me for any advice or consolation. @ wholesome of the day!


Late but here if you need it @.


Loco It's solved, ty for your concern.


No problem


ack when i said they wished me a happy bday i meant they wished me a bad one


That's rough;;


Sorry to hear that


its fine


things have just been really off since apr 15 tho


Well considering the Pandemic and all, it has gotten rougher for some people.


the pandemic isnt the reason


the thing is 12 yrs ago my online bestfriends online friend told me that casey my online bsf died from a car crash, but they were just online friends so how could this be true? after 12 years of wondering, my old online friend, gian, gets in contact with me and we talk, then he just blurts out: did you know casey died? and i just couldnt believe it, i said ..” THAT WAS TRUE?!” gian and casey were online friends, but gian said val told him, and val was an irl friend of casey, which meant it had to be true.


and then my other online friend tells me that he got run over and died and i cant imagine how painful it is


and i cried so hard that day because i had known him for years


i found this out on apr 15th


and thats when things just started going wrong


i got super jealous super easily, like once i got jealous of something that i really shouldnt have


and i had a panic attack


this was my first panic attack


and there were more to come


i then had another one a while after my first one


but i forget what it was and i had this friend i talked to when it happened


so im gonna go see what it was abt


ah i remembee


so


a group of people were peer pressuring me into doing something that i didnt wanna


because i knew i wouldnt be able to handle it


and of you are wondering no it wasnt about taking weed or drugs or anything


it was simply something normal that i didnt wanna do


and this happened online as well


i started crying and had a panic attack


and thwn


i had my 3rd panic attack 2 days ago


because he really did me like that


and once again i got jealous and talked to my friend about it


i fell asleep bc of it and the next day


a little later in the day he thought i was manipulating him


idk this is such a complicated story


oh and lets not forget about the 2 people who wished me a bad birthday


im tired of people thinking that oh you are a girl, you cant game, you cant defend yourself FIRST OFF, i am a casual gamer, i game for MY enjoyment, i dont game to prove a point, i dont game to cause myself more stress, i use it a stress relief. As for defense? i was raised in the south, i know how to use a weapon, either it be a shooty or a sharp. even pepper spray. not all girls are useless or defensless. i can defend myself.


PERIODT


Periodt


Anyone look at my status they get beheaded and I keep their heads


takes head and pins on wall


Alright so basically I met this guy. We actually highly disliked each other in the beginning, but we started finding out that we had the same interests. I was already in a toxic relationship that I was scared to get out, but I finally had the courage to do so. So I finally told this guy how I felt and I asked him out and now we're dating. It's been around a couple of days, but I feel like I've made the wrong choice. I feel like I've not given my self time to heal and I don't want or need a boyfriend atm, but he literally loves me and I ofc love him, but I'm not ready. If anything I don't want to go back to the toxic relationship, but I don't want to be in the relationship at the moment right now. He's mostly doing all the effort and I just jumped in to this relationship after I broke up with my toxic ex thinking everything was going to be okay. I just want time to myself for a while before I put myself for someone else. I'm not being the best girlfriend and I'm kind of avoiding him, but at the same time I'm not. And I know it hurts him because that's what my ex did and if anything I don't want him to feel that way. I just don't think I'm ready to move on yet. Like I said I don't miss him, but I haven't healed from it. I just need time to focus on myself before I put myself out there for others, but I'm not sure he'll understand since we've been waiting to get together for a while now.


Also.. I'm questioning my gender.. In starting to think.. I may be NonBinary.. I'm confused.. An I need to talk to someone..maybe who is non binary..an help me through this..


@ wholesome of the day!


Overthinking about your sexuality makes it more confusing, just be who you want to be!


im sorry that your parents are like that, Evangeline and i really hope it gets better


trust me, it'll get better


your a very strong person Evangeline


I feel like JJ chips said it all, but I'll add my bit anyway.


You can be anything you like, nobody has the right to tell you otherwise. And nobody should ever compare themselves to you, because that's just wrong and again they have no right.


If you are questioning, just be Queer/Questioning and if you think you're nonbinary you be nonbinary.


If so probs yes


I was about to vent and i found a song that displays my feelings better than myself...


Whats wrong?:


i don't know..


my head is tricking me saying im a bad person


Something's wrong with me..


Thanks for worrying.. there are lots of things happening in the world right now


perhaps thats why i feel like this..


sobs


i'm done they all get


qwq u ok?


no


i thought i trusted my friends but apparently not


aww


In the end, just goes to show not even the best of friends can always be trusted.


mhm


@ wholesome of the day! Can any one of you DM me please?


I can!


ofc


That's why we're here. 3


@ wholesome of the day! could anybody dm me too? I just need somebody to help me with my feelings and stuff like that.


Thanks


Ummm


I wanna send a pic but I cant


Yes it about vent btw


Hmmm


If you want send it to me and I'll post it here


I tried to help at least


im replaced


and that's all i will say


i give up at trying to explain every single stupid time


it's sad.


Like..


Am i not as good as them..?


I spend every second of my life on this app trying to get friends but they use me. for whatever purpose.


usually for servers because i'm quite decent at that.. im not contacted afterwards..


I'll stop talking, goodbye, im just selfish, bye bye..


you arent selfish Neve!


i got used multiple times and its a terrible experience, and i guess what i learn from them is not to trust people so easily on the internet


Very true. Some people on the internet cannot be trusted so easily, and even the people you thought were your best friends can also misplace your trust.


You can never be replaced, because there's only one of you and you have something no one else does. And don't ever try to compare yourself to someone else, it'll never help you feel any better.


Like JJ said, take it as a learning experience and move on from it. They don't think you're good enough? Than they don't deserve you around.


You're not selfish either, because you are aware of selfless acts that you did for your friends. Only selfish people would say otherwise.


Move on, learn from it and find friends you can trust will always talk to you and be there.


Nobody likes what I do. I can put so much effort into something, and the most people will notice is that its my style.” It hurts to have everybody assume Im just lazy with everything I do when Im not.


Vent ab something that happened in a diff server


My best friend is suffering from sleeping problems, her thoughts try to be positive, but negative things come to her head and she becomes insane, and I would like anyone to give me falling asleep tips for her, I don't want her to suffer more. That's all, thank you.


i think i can help. let's start with some basics, like no screen time 15 min before bed it can help a bit, drinking something warm like milk or tea, and last don't think if she don't thinks about anything it should calm she down easy said then done. if non of it works she should see a doctor cause sleep problems is a REAL problem and should get help with her sleeping problem remember it should be the last thing if there is nothing that is helping


and for ramensocks i don't really know what you mean, i know then someone put effort into something, that is not being lazy, just the fact that you got up and did it says in it self that you are not lazy and i fell sorry for you that some people are thinking of you that way.


Thank you so much!


you're welcome!


One DM from any one of you. Just one person please. @ wholesome of the day!


@. do you need to vent?


You can DM me.


It's more of something that happened rn, and I can't do anything cause I'm scared.


If you need help, or if you wanna vent, or if its really serious. Or you just really need someone to talk too, Im here.


Thanks for your caring.


It's not really serious.


Your feelings matter


mhm ur feelings do matter


If it's hard to deal with, you should probably talk to someone. I'm not trying to boss you but keeping your feeling all bottled up makes it worse


mhm


Maybe you can talk to someone you know to make it feel comfortable?


Yeaaa


Ashi didn't believe them


Luckily


I said I'm not gonna point any fingers


Since I think the person doesn't want to get any hate or something like that


Oh I know the consequences, the funny thing is they said I'm 19


Because they didn't know my age so they just assumed


That's a dangerous age with that context


Like, if you told that to the wrong person


Yeah


I'm like 13 so I'm safe I think lmao


I mean they only told ashi


And ashi doesn't believe them


So yeah


I told you I won't point fingers


I already told someone who is in contact with them since when I trued to confront them they blocked me


tried


Wdym?


I think you're going to far here


I guess so, but reporting it to discord is not needed


They can so whatever, proof is what they need


Without proof you can't do shit


You can't just go uhh, this person is a pedophile because I said do


And then expect them to be arrested


In case you think Im flexing” like others do please dont click this


I just feel disrespected and uncomfortable with nitro now..


aw...


Hope someone can help me out..


im wide open cutie


Like sure, gay ships are fine. But it's so annoying because no everything has to be gay. It's just getting kind of overrated, and no one appreciates perfectly fine straight ships that are more logical sometimes


They should be accepting, just like the world has when gays became legal. Lgbtq people who hate straight couples should honestly be thankful they exist. Without straight couples, nobody would exist because society never had access to IV or Artificial insemination. We're all human regardless of sexuality, and people should just accept it.


also


that church is super homo and transphobic as well


i could go on and on about how rotten my experience was with that church but ill save that for another day


Jer i feel sorry for the pathetic things you have been put through, but i can say that you're a strong person, that'll be able to do anything and no one can stop you, the fact that you're standing to this day inspires me, thank you, you're a strong person and i want you to remember that. the world will be full of hatred but some day it will cease to exist.


i didn't mean to ping you, sorry


Sammai ty


Wth pollux


@ wholesome of the day! i don't mean to spread hate about this person but Tai blocked me for no reason. what do i do...


i am proper mad about it


Wait, Tai Sorry not sorry for the ping, but why did you block them?


i didnt do anything wrong


What's wrong sweetie did something happen between I guys?britthetransgirl


it was not my fault some idk how i blocked them


britthetransgirl tai wasn't trying to block u sweetie I think he was only trying to block someone else but blocked chu by accident


o ok.


im not mad now


Pollux wanted to vent about how selling her chests is her only job and feels depressed


I'm starting to hate myself


I lack confidence to keep things together


I hate that I can't speak to my parents about how I feel about them getting separated


I hate how I can't tell dad to not leave


I hate how I'm disappointing my mother and making her feel like I don't love her


I hate how I'm a burden to my parents


I feel like I'm mute and speaking could make things worse..


I don't know the right words..


I don't know who's right... Who's side to take.. Dad or mom...


I'm having a mental breakdown and idk how exactly to explain it


The only thing I can do rn is just to hope that things gets better this time too..


Hika i wish you the best and i hope that things get better in ur life. good luck cutie


It got worse rn but thank you


I will keep hoping for the better


It got better now


So good to be true like smiling so hard


It's good that things got better! Glad to see that you are smiling!


Thanks


recently, I've been starting to fall out of love to my girlfriend


i just don't seem to like her as much as I used to


to be honest, i consider her as a friend more than a lover


and i dont want to hurt her feelings if i say we should break up


i tried breaking up with her before but she convinced me to stay


so i did, i stayed to be her girlfriend until now


but i dont really think our relationship is working out


me and her barely say ily or things to eachother


we actually barely talk often


it's just


hard for me to decide whether or not i should


tell her what i feel again and break up with her


i don't really know what to do


Hmmm, welp its up to you whether u want to break up or not. But before you do, I want you to think about how she's gonna feel.. I mean she wants u to stay and be together with you. Affection/something like that can grow over time, but once you break up it ends and will never come back.. So choose wisely, if u want to break up then sure. Good luck


Do what feels best for yourself. In these situations, is comes down to the person who feels they should leave.


If there is good reason, as you have said yourself Fall out of love Don't seem to like her as much as I used to are the telltale signs a relationships is heading for the rocks. And it seems you have tried, since she convinced you to stay, to fix it but it seems to not have worked.


It doesn't sound very healthy, since you don't say the ily or talk much.


If your gut is telling you it's time to go, and you know you have good reasons, listen to your gut. It has helped us survive as a species for thousands of years, so you should listen to it. Don't prolong a relationship if you don't want to be there. It'll only hurt worse the longer it lasts.


In the end, it's up to you. I'm here if you need more advice. Good luck.


thank you.


@ wholesome of the day!


Is there anyone available in dms..?


im open


KARLS WIFE I'm open aswell


@ wholesome of the day! Is anyone available?


I am rosalie6666


Yes


rosalie


is everything ok?


Im available


Late but I'm here too!


Im open


Just want to say if anyone needs help I'm on pretty often your all valid and deserve help 3


@ wholesome of the day! so thing ping exists. anyone available to dm?


I am!


hii


yes hi


Me too


When your friends assume you have tiktok


You can DM me whenever you see me as online


@ wholesome of the day! hi. i need someone to talk to.. all I do is blame myself for things that arent my fault and it hurts me so bad. So if anyone can talk, please dm me.


I'm opened!


chu can DM meh, Cutie!


I'm also open yessir


@ wholesome of the day! I feel forgotten and hated on by a family member and im feeling kinda sad abt it.


im actually in a online class rn so if any one can be online on the next 40 mins ill take that


actually


nvm


its fine just ignore mine


sorry


i try helping people with their problems and im just using what i know for advice, so it prolly gets repetitive and annoying. i do feel happy when people take my advice, but i get stresssed and tired knowing they aren't okay i just want to please others and help them out ya know. then i realize i cant save everyone, it just hits you i just feel so hurt when i think about things like it. i try and help them out and i guess im not good enough


It's not ur fault, that's what I think for me. Because I know you're giving them good advice.. It's just whether they will take it or no, so in the end it's them not you, so take it easy okai


@ wholesome of the day! , can I sob into someone while talking about some stuff?


Sure


Thank you thank you


yeah sure!


Im just so tired of my grandma saying Ill be just like my dad and mother, Im just so tired of it., Nobody understands me. I need confidence not belittling or downing me.


I truly love my family I really do. But Im just really sick of it.


If someone could dm me that'd be nice


hi everyone3 i'm quite new here but just know my dms are always open to anyone at anytime


so like I'm pretty sad.


If u dont really want to hear about some sad st then dont click


it has been a year since I have lost my dog from blood failure and a stomach


Failure basically some blood got loose or something, so I kept crying,


and everyday.. I look at the sky and say, when will I be able to meet u?


I really want to hug you. Cuddle you. Everything. I want to commit suicide


Just for you but I dont want anyone to be sad. : I wish I was with you already


please look after me down from heaven 3 it's so depressing losing


A so much loved one. I just feel so down, I wish I had seen him again,


thank you so much, Chelsey. For being there for me because ily to much


and I just want to see you again. Please, your my angel to protect me.


Awwuh sounds hard I know how it feels


But Im sure shell be happy if you didnt give up


it's hard going through this pain


also it's a boy but its fine


Oof Im so sorry


but Im sure hed like you to be alive, and try to be happy


@ wholesome of the day! / @ gfx access Venting channel has been reopened


he made you happy, so now its your turn to make others but especially yourself happy


Super sorry for the nsfw channel delay


ok i can see


why is the slow,ode 5 hours?


oh oki


@ gfx access Fixed sorryy


Awe


Is sad


@ wholesome of the day! can uh someone help? just urges and yeah. basically.


I'msoconfusedonhowthisworks.


Hm?


well you vent here


when your having problems or


feel down


Yeah! Put your problems and thoughts.


need to let out your feelings


And well make you feel better.


oo Okay I'll try I can just put it here in this channel?


Sure!


Uhm. Basically Im having a lot of suicidal urges. Like, urges to take a bunch of pills/overdose. I did a few days ago and now Im still sickI dont know how to tell my psychologist. My psychiatrist and her tell my parents everything. They dont try to help really. They just take away the pills, the sharp objects and call it a day. Its really hard. Theres not even a reason to it. Everyone always asks me why, but I dont know. Theres justurges. I wanted to tell my friend, but I dont want to annoy him, and he gets really worried when I talk about attempts. My other friend left me saying I just wanted attention with my suicidal thoughts, and I dont want to lose this one, too. tw Ig. diescauseIfeellikethisistoopersonalforthis.


Problem twoStruggling with my sexuality. I dont know how to tell if Im bi Like, I find women so pretty and attractive and honestly would date a girl, but does that classifies me as bi? I would also date boys and find them okayish attractive. I cant tell if its temporary. Can I change my sexuality as I get older? I dont want to say Im bi to my friends and then just end up being straight and its just temporary. HHH confused.


No need to help on problem two, Im justconfused sorry for how long it is.


Aw. Its okay.


Since you are a teenager


things change


its okay if youre bi for a little while


and you end up realizing youre straight


thats fine


youre still a child


and for your suicidal thoughts


try to not think about it


do things you enjoy


talk to friends


etc


heya, im so sorry to hear that youre feeling this way. have you thought of seeking professional help? someone who is qualified will probably be able to help you overcome this and get better and provide more solid advice and feedback on another note, if your friend is a real true one, theyll be there to stand by you no matter what, and you shouldnt be afraid of losing them


Also, focus on different things.


Besides the terrible.


You can always DM me.


yeah! find your passion, find what makes you happy, and focus on it


I recommend that VERY much


;w;w;w; I do see a few professionals, but they don't really help with the urges. Right now I'm just distracting myself with music. It's kind of helping


oh thats good to hear


Thats good.


anything to keep you from spiralling again


keeping busy may also help


Yes.


tbh i don't rant to my online friends n e more bc they don't seem to care about my feelings n e ways


i'm starting to think that my rl friends and only one of my online friend actually care


every time i seem visibly upset they don't do anything and when one of them just puts a dot, then they worry


Anyone up?


lowkey


not feeling the best rn


but thats okay because being not okay is fine! right?


I'm here if you need to talk


It's okay to not be okay, we all feel that way from time to time. If it lasts for too long, do something you enjoy.


I know the past is the past.. but this will forever freaking bug me. So I copied things from Jill and I freaking regret it. And now seeing like all the things because it's more visible to me now it's just hurts and make me feel empty. And now I'm a trial staff in her server and I feel like I'll let her down for what I did in the past. I know I learned my lesson but it still freaking bugs me. And I feel Jill doesn't like me but I don't understand why she chose me to be trial staff. I am happy that I made it in but it ugh. I just feel like I'll let her down again... And reading all of this it just makes me feel weak or whatever. I know i never should've done it in the first place but when I read what she said about me in the staff chat it makes my stomach feel all twisted


i feel like i should really stop bottling this up.


everyday i worry im not good enough because so many people say im dumb, worthless and i've been told to die because im a furry and in LGBTQ. at a point i just gave up and took a break from social media n such but chaos happened and im back online for a while no not the pandemic but life is stressful.


ive kept my feelings bottled up together and i've been with my friends for most the way to support them with what they've been going thru like for example ashi was feeling down last night but i helped her and she let me know she felt a bit better. then one of my friends for 5 death threats in a week, and myself i've dealt with my death threats n stuff.


ive been stressing out so much, the past few days because i feel if i let out to my friends they're gonna not be able to help me after what they've been through. i want to just break down and give up speaking to others because it is very stressful for me, and it doesnt help my sister is CONSTANTLY rude to me and like it never stops and i've been sick of this. she constantly just talks behind my back and i know it i feel like no one loves me at this point..


am i really this useless to the point where my own gf told me to go die?


or should i just end it all?


oh be gone with the whole your worth everything act


Your girlfriend is pointless don't be in a toxic relationship. That girl didn't get the vibe


i kinda feel offended now


but okay.


Who


idk chip just went like oh be gone with the whole your worth everything act i was just trying to help


I might sound rude here, but im saying the truth, they asked for it anyway


people are wishing me dead even though I did nothing to them


i'm sorry that's happening, and they really shouldn't be doing that to you. try as many methods as possible to block them and restrict any contact with them. if you see them physically and they're still harassing you, try to file for some sort of restraining order. i hope you can get through this, stay strong!


xui awww! I'm so sorry for you. They arent real friends if they backstab you,


Im so sorry. I had a girlfriend who back stabbed me. I hope ur doing fine 3


demi on fire tysm and Im so sorry hearing that Im doing ok I guess and hope you are also doing fine 33 aa lag


PhonePhankorb I know it's sad, everyone misses their friends alot from school,


I want school back aswell. I'm so sorry about ur parents aswell, I wish u didnt feel that pain.


If u ever need to speak to someone I'm here. 3 and i do hope u go back home. And RIP ur progress.


xui Have had something like that happen in a server and a ex who wasn't the best


All i can say is they aren't your friends if they act like this, ignore them


xui np 3


awww


Melian tysmm I left everything and broke contact with them


aww I feel so bad


xui That's the best you can do in situations like that, trust me you'll find better friends


and your welcome


yes


I'm so sorry


it would be ok


I would love to make u happy


but I'm kinda saving up rn teehee


Its okay


Dont be saddd


yui pat PhonePhankorb


I can't help...


It's not something i know alot about


xui alrighty so first off id like to start off as, im truly sorry that happened to you!


i use to have people thatd backstab me too for my niceness and would use me for anything


but lets not make this about me, my main focus is you.


it is not right that they falsely accuse people when they did absolutely nothing.


thats just toxicity right there.


True


i guess the main thing is that they think theyre powerful enough to do whatever they want when thats not the case.


Very true


so i understand that.


It hurt me when i got kicked and the mods proceeded to laugh at me


And even mock me in their statues


yikes, that just makes me angry


one question


what server are you in


some SFW community


Oh so a fake one?


kinda


Welp


The mods think they have so much power


That's


I was kicked due to me being accused of bullying” someone


And they didnt even wait for my side of the story


They just waited for me to come online and then they kicked me


wow


Surprised that server isn't blacklisted


They dont do partners


Honestly, I can relate


How did you find them then?


Some friend send me the link


Prolly through a friend


Ye


Mhm


Well if the server is that toxic, that's the only way to keep it active


i guess


Its literally just the mods not even the community surprisingly


I was accused of bullying a new member/lower level


When I never did


And its even funnier how the victim” proceeded to disrespect my friends pronouns and assume her gender after multiple times being told my friend was a female


What did the owner say?


The owner doesnt even get involved with these types of things


My bad its a youtuber server I forgot


Shouldn't they?


Ah


Idek anymore


But all I know is that my friend and I were falsely accused


And were made fun of by the staff


the audacity


People really think it's ok to do things like that


exactly


like what goes through your mind to think


It really hurt me but I guess that doesnt matter


oh lets kick them even though we havent heard their side of the story because were so powerful huhuhuhu kick”


The sad part is it could be a joke to them, but it hurts the person they mock and belittle


True


wait you got kicked


not banned


yes


which means..


you can confront them!


im always here to help if you need help confronting them


Oh well this is unrelated but, I was head moderator on a server for like, 3 months and then one day some guy came and became close friends with the owner or something. He wen't from trial mod to admin in two days while I was just about to get promoted to admin after 3 months of being there. He literally was on the server for 12 weeks and managed to get as far as I did on 2 days, 2 DAYS. So ofc, I got pissed and because he thought he was higher then me he started picking on me saying I'm inactive and immature I literally sent 200 messages a day depends on activity of the server and I was mostly 6 hours a day active. He didn't even care about his position because he knew that he was gonna keep it no matter what, ffw 2 months. He boosted the server 7 times and is still on his position with no to minimal activity


I got banned for calling out a owner for belittling her staff and stealing


i can be a bit harsh though


Update, I realized the guy left


Oof that's good


He still had under 3k messages while I had 6k


She was playing favorites


Lmao


congrats to him on his rank up but like


That's how some people are


16 hours a day on that damned server


im kinda getting tired of these people who think theyre on top of the world and can do whatever they want


same


The server i got banned from would be another example


Its really sad how people get treated differently because of their roles


True


It does really change people if theyre admins


Depends


Oh yeah you talk a lot to me here I'll put you over the people that actually work


I've been one


I was about to become one


I coown a server and have admin experience in others


After being a head moderator for 2 months


I was about to be a admin but nooo


I was hurt asf


Well they're gone now


So all's good yes?


And so is my position


Oh?


Yes duh, I can't reapply


Lmao


They took away your mod role?


For no reason?


Yep, they completely stripped me off my rank that day


of


Well


He said I'm inactive and immature


So I had a fight with him


6k messages a day you said?


Yeaa


That's very active


I wish they kinda cared


And maybe you'll have a chance here to try


Eh, they aren't good people if they do that


6k messages is a ton


Anyway, fingers crossed that I'll have a chance here


I'm sure you will but good luck!


Oh well


Venting time over


I'm not sure if i helped but glad you're better now


Well you did help a little! At least I don't feel so bad about myself now


That's good!


I grew up to be very lonely and have no friends. So forgive me if I ever say I feel ignored” or something sad. I never had good friends to talk with.


mimi V No worries i've been where you are, and i'm sure you'll find great friends just give it time!


mimi V Ive had the same situation dont worry, I know how it feels having no friends. Dont give up though, if you need a friend just talk to me, Ill gladly be your friend!


Im so tired of trying to be perfect for everyone. perfect friend, perfect girlfriend, perfect student, perfect daughter ; girl with perfect body, attitude, face... The more I try to be perfect, the more they leave me lonely and try to change me. I have never been one who I wanna be. I always lived according to peoples likes and desires. But they broke me, tho. And I forgive them when they apologize and do it again. Im tired of being used. Im tired of people who are trying to change me. Tired of people who loves me when I do good things but hate me when I do bad things at the same time. Im tired of people who dont accept me just the way I am and always see my mistakes and faults instead of my good things. I dont wanna live however other people like. I wanna live however I like. I wanna get that perfect body because I want it; not for others. I wish people would stop meddling in my life. But.. I know Ill care again. But I just wanna stop. People can either love me or hate me but I just wanna be with people loves me way I am. I dont care if I lose them but... I just want people to love me just how much I love them.


potato queen awww, nobody should tell you what to do, your beautiful just the way you are. Everyone isnt perfect, but one thing everyone is beautiful. If you need anyone to talk, DM me! Im always open!


thanks a lot. and I wish people would understand it too


No problem!


Before I start my vent, potato queen i apologize for the ping remember that perfect is no such word!


Be who you want to be.


Humans come with imperfections.


Imperfections are what makes us human!


Stay strong and prove them that theyre wrong.


I feel like that I need to get this out.


Im tired of saying that Im straight” when Im really not.


Im a closeted bisexual.


Im into boys in girls.


But does anyone around me accept that?


No they do not.


I end up being called nasty for liking girls


or the other word


the g word which is used for boys.


But they dont understand


I like girls AND boys.


My parents found out about this and they werent happy.


They put me in a depressed state for a few months


calling me a disgrace.


I cant control how I feel towards other people.


I know that Im not fully straight.


I sadly cant say that Im straight.


I also fall for girls and not just boys.


Boys can be awfully disgusting no offense and untrustworthy.


Youre trying to force me to be someone I dont want to be.


I hate that kind of toxic people too. Im straight” I hate this mention and If I was lesbian or bisexual my mom, who makes me feel worthless would be reject me.


igh


Yes mine too.


My mothers the key to my anxiety and sadness.


She thinks insulting me will make me stronger.


people always trying to fix and meddle someone elses lives as if theirs are 10/10


Then takes away my phone for the dumbest reasons knowing that my phone is the only thing that makes me happy.


And yes, that is true and quite accurate.


I also had friends like this.


But they werent really homophobic since we had another friend who was into girls in the group


The group was toxic


deja yea okie, mine is doesnt even like this. She always tells my faults and wrongs with mock and insanely and doesnt even think my feelings


All they did was curse


eww


And say the n word which was extremely racist because none of them were ya know..


One got mad at me and called me a pusxsy for not saying it.


I ended up leaving them


There was only one unproblematic one


she minded her own business


she bullied me sometimes to make me feel bad though lmao


but other than that, were still friends


the other two thought they were so cool


making fun of me for liking anime


anime is great


legit


so that kinda hurt


Thankfully my friends are always supportive and accept me way I am. But my parents, who are supposed to be the most important thing in childs life, have always been toxic and they used me and make me do what they want and didnt care about my feelings


theyre all now blocked and i have only one left


Well


In irl, humanity is so much different with friends


They arent supportive


They werent supportive about me coming out


Instead they told everyone they knew after I said keep it a secret


Then I got called gxay


Like wtf


I stopped trusting friends


And this is why I gatekeep my secrets


They either blackmail me, backstab me or just humiliate me


Because they think its quirky and cool


my parents got divorced 4 years ago. And we were getting on really well till last year. My father cut the connection between me and treated me insanely and got me and my mom into trouble both in financial way and emotional way. Why? Because I didnt do what he wanted me to.


And my mom does the same even dou she hates what my father did


My parents did the same


When I do good things, she just tell me well done but when I do bad things or dont do anything she talks about it whole day. Egh, with mock and insanely as I said


I got taken away from my father and well


Its been tough


I study and do some chores because I wanna help bc she works


ALSO SAME HERE


But she doesnt think thats enough


SHE MOCKS ME FOR ALL THE BAD THINGS I DO


She wants more


She repeatedly reminds me of all the bad things Ive done


And constantly try to make me feel bad about it


She wants me to faultless BUT I CANNOT


Shes so ratty


deja yea same but I DO. I do all my best to help


and she doesnt see them


Parents are sick


last night I forgot to say good night and went to bed


They think theyre helping their child but instead theyre putting us through literal hell


And she got nothing left to say me


all curse words, bad things


deja yea she doesnt think that shes helping me


hehe


idk why


I dont think that shes doing it purposely because she says that whenever we argue but shes still supposed to think what shes gonna say and think about my feelings


My parents act like I dont have feelings


But hey thats the same for almost all my siblings


My Dad couldnt show up to me or my brothers 1st birthdays because he didnt want to see my mother


He was more worried about her than seeing his own children finally turn one years old


Their first year of growing up


my mom waits for me to do her favors but doesnt see that i do and always tells that she does everything for me and I dont do the same but I do


Ive locked myself in my room so many times because of their crap


Im always on my phone or doing schoolwork


I only come out occasionally


To get a quick snack


we have so much common things


Also


Yes we do.


potato queen MINE TOO


oml


I cant ignore what she does for me and shes working hard for me but she makes me not seeing them


yeah


I want a little care while I'm sobbing down tears...pwease at least a huggu


KawaiiAlpha whats wrong?


I wish I had a better father...


awh...i felt that too since my mother just bad mouths my father and uhh dunnu


i felt bad about it


but im okay with it:


When it father regects u


uh thats so sad to hear because my dad is also a trash. And weird.. the last 3 people here talked about how bad parents that they have


Damn


I wish I had a father figure


never had one


i use to but that was years ago


uhh


well this is kind of a whatever situation but for no reason whatsoever someone here blocked me. i thought i was their friend but whatever. they wanna block me they can go ahead. have a nice life.


im very hurt and upset that they did that.


But whatever. nice people always come in last.


Greninja just forget them they arent even worth your time you did nothing to them but yet you got blocked for no reason


just got told to kms again but im okay:


He might not like your smile, I bet he doesnt know you havent eaten in a while. He might not know your worth, but I do. Please love you for you. And he has his idea list, but when he cuts you off, hes only cutting your wrists. He doesnt care for you... but I guess sometimes hes there for you. And its really not fair to you. Please dont let him take your air from you...


you know those kinds of girls who look like theyre made of honey and glass like... sticky sweet ash. and you cant get the taste off your tongue? burnt sugar and a little bit of rum? and she dances in the rain with her clothes on, drenched to the bone and never knows when shes all gone. but shes the life of the party and deep down I know that nobody flinches when they take off her clothes. and I wonder whats its like to be one of those girls, to sit in the sun and look at the world and never think... wow. am I enough? cause life is easy when you know that youre the main character and Im sitting here thinking... this is not fair.. but her smile makes it hard to be mad. Its not her fault that Im so fcking sad. so Ill sit here and look at these girls in the sun, dancing in the rain and having their fun... and maybe one day I can forget the past... and be one of those girls of honey and glass


you think youve seen her naked because you took her clothes off. tell me about her dreams... tell me what breaks her heart... what shes passionate about, what makes her cry... tell me about her childhood... better yet, tell me one story about her that youre not in. youve seen her skin and youve touched her body... but... you still know as much about her as a book you once found... you never got around to open it.


As much as I wanna let go I cannot. I was treated unfairly because of some unprofessional mods. They mocked me and continue to hide their insecurities in their statues by going after my friends and me. They are so insecure to the point they have to take it out on others, but because theyre so entitled its so funny how they dont even know what theyre doing wrong. I trusted them and they all back stabbed in such minutes, I loved them all but then they chose a server over me. They like to blame the community for their issues, when it was THEIR CHOICE to babysit” 12k members. They are such hypocrites that sometimes I wished they could see their mistakes but theyre so stubborn its impossible


I got cyber bullying a few times and the last was hard for me


Hello everyone! If you guys are reading this this is a big disclaimer! This will contain a bunch of suicidal things! If your not used to it please dont read it if your grossed out


Yesterday my friend Ben told me that he had depression and he wanted to kill himself. I told him that you have to talk to your family or me about what it is but he didnt share the information. So he decided to go to the doctors about his mental illness. But today! Heres the worse worse part! He started to text me taking photos of his cuts on his arm. I started to cringe and feel pain like what he did to his hand.. my body felt so so worried! I didnt want him to die!


Oofie


he hurt himself badly?


Like I can feel the pain now


ehhh, it sometimes happens..but he still good Ig?


yah should try to force him to talk about it


I tried to give him a stress relief like a video


Or a song


he needs something positive that makes him forget it and feel better


show him care and kindness more..


Believe in him, if you know he can get through it then so can you


stay beside him and try to make him talk abt it


he will surely be okay after a day or two, Imma v sure about that


just try to make him feel comfortable


and all will be v v goodie!


Keep supporting him, the fact that he told you must been a really big step for him


Hes suffering from anxiety, anger issues and depression


I need to find a way but hes still never listening


I tried to tell him about eating well and exercising but its still gonna fight it


Ive been suffering a lot from panic attacks and I almost had a heart attack today bc my dog has a horrible disease


That horrible


I know losing a pet you love is really sad


I remember my next door friend lost her dog from a bad sickness too since its cancer


okay so


I told her to leave me alone, she wouldnt. I told her because she didnt do that she was toxic. Now shes turning more friends on me


Im sick of this shiz


I feel so uncomfortable.. you guys discomfort me and I'm slowly becoming corrupted . even slowly becoming wise, u guys kept ignored it... im so done! I regret my decisions. my major depression kept developed


if theres no one you know personally in your life who you can talk to, theres always people here who can help and lend an ear.


if you want to talk to me about it, im available! ill try my best to provide advice c:


Dude I feel like Im forgotten, or alone. Many of my friends told me they cant be friends with me. I compare myself to other too, I know comparing isnt right but I did. I feel my friend loves more my other friend than me, she shows more love to my friend than me, Its like Im jealous or something, I just feel so stupid.


aww ik that feeling i hope thing will work out but ur not forgotten


i am here for u if u ever want to talk Idelle


Thank you,


hey, im so sorry about that. i hope youre doing okay with the panic attacks, and i hope you can find some way to ground yourself.


as for you and your dad, i feel as long as youre taking proper safety measures wearing masks, always sanitizing shared surfaces, and monitoring your health regularly, thats the best you can do and probably the best for yourself and your family.


if you can, id recommend starting a health/mentality journal about how youre feeling each day. if your abilities and feelings become reminiscent of those of COVID19 symptoms, follow up with professional attention.


also, in general, id recommend that you keep this journal for the rest of quarantine. this is a fairly new chapter for the world although things like this have happened before, and i feel like our society can use this time to improve its infrastructure systems so when this happens again its not as devastating


we, the younger generations, do have the power to prevent something like this from happening again. if we pay attention to patterns, trends, daily updates and data contributions, we can find a way to make sure things dont go as haywire as they did this time


im wishing the best for you and your family and i hope things are going well! make sure to wash your hands, drink water, and eat regularly.


ill be here if you need someone to talk to c:


everyday that goes by the reality of it sinks in further and further. Im never going to win at this life, Im cursed to struggle and be tormented forever. and the sad thing is that Ive accepted it now


I think I failed my exam;; and this was so much important exam


oof


i'm sorry you feel that way! as long as you worked diligently while studying and tried your hardest, i think you'll be okay


if not, this is an opportunity for you to learn and utilize whatever resources you have


please don't hesitate to dm me if you need someone to talk to about this!


awe thank youu


i feel sad and my head is everywhere


Yo moon, may if I take it to dms


im sorry pretend you didnt read anything


Too late


I also never thought i have family issues, i juse realized i have/had alot of them..


hey Toffifee, im sorry you feel that way. i understand it may be hard for you to assert yourself, but i feel like your mother will only become more distrustful and skeptical of you if you arent being truthful and saying youre not dating anyone.


id recommend having a talk with her, if you feel like its best to. do you know what causes her to overreact and jump to conclusions about this? perhaps if you posed that question, shed open up.


if youve told her that you dont online date anyone, and have showed her proof of that perhaps your search history and have also expressed your disinterest for dating men, i feel like that would solve the problem as well as her explaining her truth. if youve told her these things on multiple occasions and she refuses to believe you, thats a problem she has, and it might not even have anything to do with you.


hey kitty, im sorry youre feeling that way, and you definitely deserve someone wholl make you happy! do you find that you feel uncomfortable around yourself? perhaps your loneliness could be worsened because you may not feel good with yourself.


sometimes the best remedy to loneliness is to appreciate oneself and indulge in things that make you happy


i once heard a quote from a short film that said the worst loneliness is to be uncomfortable with oneself” if that helps at all


np!


i would vent but i feel like im overreacting


i tend to exagerrate feelings


sometimes it helps to vent to others so they can help you figure out which parts are genuine problems that you need to find solutions to and which parts arent as significant


but you ofc arent obliged to tell us anything, at least not at this moment, if you feel uncomfortable doing so. just know this community will be open for you to express your struggles and feelings when you need assistance!


Im so damn scared man. Why does it have to be me. All I want is to be loved. Ive been used, played and lied to. All I want in life is someone to wrap my hands around. To bury my tears into. I collect plushes because theyre the only thing I can bury my sadness into. They are sometimes my only friends. I dont want to die alone. Im scared. COVID is spreading everyone out. I may never be able to have that girl I so want in my arms. Is life even worth living through this? I only have one life. I want to live while Im young, and the world says NO.


I want to know what it feels like to be loved. To be happy. Joyful. To just be content. You see all these girls being used and cheated on by scum. I wouldnt do that. They keep choosing people that shouldnt be loved. Why? People that dont really care for them, that dont want a long lasting relationship. Why cant they see the idiocy in these men? The carelessness.


hey SouthGamer, im sorry about how youre feeling right now. the best thing might be to focus on yourself for a little while. selflove provides a sense of security that having a relationship with someone who, unbeknownst to you, will hurt you, lacks.


i want to wish you all the best as you continue to navigate your life, and i want you to know things can and will get better if you put in the effort and devote your attention to it.


as young people, we feel like the world has turned its back on us. but we have the power to turn everything around. our generation will bring the next big thinkers and innovators, and we will be able to solve the problems we are facing right now if we believe we can.


even though your youth might be filled with memories of the COVID pandemic, it could help you come up with solutions to crippling problems that are prevalent in our society. even though our youth might not be the happiest or utopian, we can use our experiences and knowledge to further our understanding of the world around us.


yes, there are terrible people out there who lie, cheat, and play with your feelings. sometimes we cant change that. however, if you have selflove and are content with being with yourself, it should be easier to deal with. perhaps you cant convert all the lying, cheating, disgusting people in this world into people with better morals and better senses of judgement, but as long as you have yourself, you can find those who are just the people you need.


Thx for the advice ultraviolet


np! ill be here if you need advice or would like to update me.


It is SOO sad that my mom is homophobic but I am LGBT supporter;;


Thankfully I am heterosexual; she would reject me if I was lesbian or bi..


thanks for allying yourself with the community, your support is greatly appreciated!


im sorry about your mother, do you know why shes homophobic? perhaps if you knew, you could somehow convince her that love is love, no matter how people identify.


ofc, it isnt your fault if you cant get her to see that. at the end of the day, what matters is that you made an effort.


ultraviolet shes strictly religious and she thinks being LGBT person is prohibited. But she doesnt understand that its not a choice but tendency and its not in peoples power;;


ah okay. i know this might not work for every religious person, but if you can get her to understand that religion teaches individuals to foster love and respect for all people at least from my understanding, perhaps she could learn to understand and accept the LGBT community


she may soon realize that there really isnt anything morally wrong with loving someone other than what society or religion has taught or implied to us is the norm


u may be right. thank you


np!


I have friends who are really nice supportive, my friend Valeria has a girlfriend, shes really nice and sweet. Today they were planning on making a wedding probably.” I was happy for them not irl bday tho. Vales girlfriend name was Blue Cookie”. I was good friends with her too! When I said I wont be showing up, bc Ill be too busy eating Nutella.”


Later we started arguing for this dumbass comment I said of eating Nutella. When I said I need time alone” Blue cookie started talking about me like:


She cant even take a joke lmao: I understand I cant take funny jokes”.


She became depressed 1m already: Ive been depressed my whole life.


Its like they give more attention to her than me, they mostly ONLY care about BLUE COOKIES life. They dont even bother to say to me:


Are you okay Chi?


Dont cry Chi..


They only ask vales gf those questions


At this point I feel very useless invisible right now.


I feel alone. I have great friends, then they leave me or somehow I stupidly leave them. But theyre all online. I want real friends because half of these online people come out toxic and leave me. I just need some hugs from someone real. Someone who understands me. But I can never find that. Theyre all fake or Ill never meet them irl. I hate the feeling that Im alone. Like my family loves me and I love them they give me hugs and stuff and comfort me but they only say its gonna be alright because they dont understand.


Yui hug Kenzie 3


Yui hug Edric


Id hug the living bejeezus out of you


Maybe cuddle


Idk


yui hug Kenzie 3


Thank you guys


youre welcome


It makes me sad that the most toxic people in my life are my parents. Especially my mother, because i live with her. If I listed her bad sides, it would be an endless list. I dont fcking care anymore and she cant hurt me no longer but it still does because she is my mother. Pfff


um


ik i shouldnt be thinking about this now


when im not even in highschool


but idk what i want to be when i grow up and now its stressing me out


i like so many things and ig im good” at them


but i either dont see myself pursuing them as a career or dont think i can do that career for the rest of my life


i just dont know what to do because 2020 is going by so fast and the next thing ik ill be graduating highschool and im rlly scared;;


hey, thats alright! im going through some similar things as you, and i just want to reassure you that youll cross these bridges when you get to them. theres so much time for you to figure out what you want to do, even if it feels like the world is going by so fast.


there ya go, hope it helps


i gave it my everything


Ya, push ur own limit and maybe who knows


Don't give up till u reach it, Maybe it's hard but nothing is impossible


Get a better/supporting friend, Maybe it's hard for you but, it's better to get out of that circle of frendship, cuz they be fake


I do whatever people want me to do even if i dont want but people dont do the same and refuses me easily. Just now i asked my friend to start a new mutual series and he said no. Oki starting a new series is not the problem but the problem is if he wanted me the same id accept immediately. Or for example; when I ask people to go out they say i dont want, no” etc. but when people ask i accept even if i dont want because of the fear of breaking their hearts but no i wont anymore and i hope theyll understand.


Simple, say no when u don't want to. Ur not their dolls, neither them are yours as well, it won't break their heart because the decision is yours to choose


Thank you


I don't fit in anywhere.


Like, no matter what in a group chat, server, I always feel like i'm different and that i don't fit in.


Maybe it's the topics we discuss? Maybe it's everyone's sense of humor. I don't know.


I hate being weird and different from others.


I had this feeling for a really long time.. and I wanna just get it off my head..


no youre perfect and fit and its ok to be different because what if we were all the same? differences make us precious and if people think its not nice and they criticize you dont listen to them. i know what you are feeling i used to trying to be person that everyone would love but especially my classmates always criticized me; about my nail polish color, my behaviors, that i laugh for everything, my thoughts etc. and i thought that i wasnt good enough and fit but now, i know that theres someone that loves me just the way i am. they dont wait for me to be perfect because they find me perfect so i know who im living and being me for. you dont have to be fit and similar to others because youre unique and as i said, differences are what makes us unique from others and a person so dont be sad and feel weird, being weird is good sjdjwjjxejn


You can DM me if you wanna talk more, ily


Thank you so much!


This isnt really me venting, but Ill lay it out. To achieve what I deem as impossible” I must do what I deem as impossible”. Basically, to achieve what I think is not achievable, I must push myself to an immeasurable limit to achieve it


Therefore if I may have to do the impossible


Just my mind going philosophical


I got two ventings that tie in with each other, but am too tired and Im trying to go to sleep. Ill deliver hopefully in the next 1224 hours