Yuna, I want you to stop hurting yourself. Cutting yourself will make it worse. It is not worth it Im telling you. I want you to stop. I want you to have faith, I want you to believe, I want you to tell yourself, you are greater and you can get through it! You can do it! You are strong, You are worthy! I truly care for you. I dont want this stuff happening to you. You are a beautiful. Dont give up.


Dont do it Yuna. Please.


Dont know


If that is what you wish to believe yuna, I'm truly sorry


You have to tell someone. You cant let them do that.


But I dont care anymore.


I think there is no solution. I will continue suffering.


I wont get help, and never will. I know there is advice, but its silent. It does not want to show itself.


Im sorry Yuna. If you want this... then, I wont stop you. I will try to though.


ily yuna. I hope you know that. I just really want you to stop hurting yourself. ily


I dont know how to stop hurting myself. Ive done this for already 3 years.


Just try at least..?


Yuna. try to think about happy things, look for a hobbie, it will distract you


A million words wont turn back the pain. I know because Ive tried.


Do your friends help you with that?


Which friends .


Count me as well


knowing you have friends, does not mean I have friends in real life.


No one in this server has irl friends


Who says that.


Everyone


no.


could we take this to a dm s'il vous plait? This is out of the rules


Don't say such things, someone will help you


No one will.


also sorry for late reply.


There is no luck There are friends and people that give you oportunities, you Just have to use them


im leavin.


As it pleases you, but don't do that thing


maybe.


To any person who ever felt like selfh4rm helped you feel something, anything, because you felt de4d all the time, or because you needed to feel another kind of pain, it is not worth it.


Your body is what's the most precious to you, with your soul. Take care of those gifts. You are gifted with your body so respect yourself and respect it.


It may feel like you are fine, just for a short moment, but it's not okay to hurt yourself. You are strong and I believe in you. Good luck with everything.


Nyuna, your body is pretty. I know it, cause all bodies are pretty, no exceptions. Our bodies aren't ugly, what is ugly is the way we think about'beauty'.


Beauty isn't about having a skinny waist, long hair or long legs.


You need to love yourself, because selfconfidence is what makes us pretty.


Every part of your body that makes you think that you are ugly, is beautiful, it truly is.


If some parts of your body make you think'this is ugly' focus on it and remember that this part of your body is a part of yourself and that it is beautiful. Yuna.


Define ugly, first


If your body was someone else's body, would you still say it is ugly?


no.


Then your body is beautiful. Be as kind with you as you would be with anyone else.


I know you can do this, you are strong.


I feel helpless and hopeless.


You are not.


You have us


There's always hope, everywhere.


As long as there is people in earth, there is people to help you


Dont know.


But probably im wasting your time. Ill leave for now.


No you are not. You are not wasting my time


You are not wasting our time


You are more than worth it


And if you are, i glad will get my time wasted for a greater good


Im a waste of space. Dont know why I still exist.


Nyuna, if all bodies were the same, then it would be super boring. That's why all bodies are different. Your body is unique and it is beautiful.


You exist because you are luckyyy. I keep on thinking, I am on Earth and I won't complain about it. I sometimes live for the death. People died. People wish they lived. So I will respect them and be thankful for my life.


You deserve the same as all the rest of the world, ergo, you deserve as much attention, love and self care


Nyuna, you are loved.


Text us if you feel bad:3


Doesnt seem like it.


Search a bit, you will find the love you want


Anyway, thanks you all.


I appreciate the effort of your help.


Apreciate your effort to live too, and yw


Brain: Hey me! Its time for your daily 2 am suicidal thoughts!


Me: yess brainn.,.,.,.


Hello, i just want to ask help from anyone here. I got banned from 20 servers, because of false proof. They said I was underaged but im not. The guy who gave edited proof was my friend, of 7 months. I banned him and demoted him because he became so rude to me, and did bad things in my server. Discord was the best place ive ever been to. Even the moderated servers ive been in, trusted him more than me. I couldnt defend myself because i was sleeping at the time. Dream the guy with false proof is happy about it, while im here crying because I made good friends here. And i have to leave them for good, I even have proof i am not underaged. But there is nothing left for me because I can't change the minds and thoughts of everyone


idk why im crying so hard because of an app, ive never done this before


my pet bird died


even thosr where i am moderator at banned me


everything is just downhill


Alright. Well, just try! Show them the proof 3 JM


I'm just gonna take the time to also say what I have to say about you.


You've been someone I really enjoyed talking to. I'm glad you were genuine since, it's difficult to find people on the internet that don't put on a persona. You're someone with flaws, same goes to me. Same as most people like you, I can't really find words to describe how much I really appreciate you. But seriously speaking, I appreciate you a bunch. You've honestly helped brightened up my mood and that's just honestly amazing. You're sweet and I respect that aspect of you but just as you said, people can tend to be too sweet. The moment someone sees and opportunity, they'll take it because, this is online and people can stay anonymous. So try and be careful okay. I don't want anyone taking advantage of such a great person like you.


Thank you honestly. I'm glad that we met.


Itch


Dms have been sent


Im crying rn;; I just told my dad shut up in anger


Bc my mom cancel my driving lesson today


I got so stress


I... I dont know who to talk to anymore


My friends online hate me


My irl friends hardly have time for me


Im really scared because I think I might have coronavirus


Im not joking


This morning I woke up and I felt sorta bad but I was like eh its just allergies but throughout the day it kept getting worse and now...


Im shaky and I think I have a fever and a cough


Im scared


I think I might have caught something from this party I went to a few days ago


But I dont know what to do


Hey, it's going to be okay, you should seek medical help from a professional I'm sure you'll get better, for now isolate, isolating isn't really a big problem as people make it seem like it's really just staying in your room without talking to people and it's better in the sense of you getting everything delivered to your room. Everyone I know who's caught Corona is current recovering if not then fully recovered and my grandmother who almost died from it is even recovering aswell, don't worry you can never be 100 sure. Isolate and wash your hands! You will be okay! sorry for the late reply wish you all the best.


Thank you


Im so mad


I just cant be calm


i just wanna SCRAEAM


SCREAM


I CABT TKWE OT


AGHHH


honestly just kinda feel tired of life


everyone always depends on me and i feel stressed, im scared to go out in crowds but i hate being in open crowds at the same time.


honestly i always just put up some big show for everyone acting like im happy and i dont have any problems but my life is a literal nightmare. i just wanna cry during school, i wanna cry somewhere safe but there's always people around me.


i love it when it rains, because then i dont have to be near anyone that could make me worse in my perspective


i dont wanna be near anyone


no one


Its okay to confront your problems head on, I stepped outta my comfort zone today and hopefully it goes well.


You wouldn't want it, of course you wouldn't. Because you would regret it.


I'm so, so sorry to hear all this, Yuna. You don't deserve any of that. You shouldn't be getting grounded for getting a 50 either, your parents are just plain ol' dumb for doing that, but please, please don't commit.;;


Wish there was a disease that could kill me.


Please don't wish that upon yourself yo;;


OH NO I SWEAR PLEASE DONT


If there was one thing that could make it right, I would offer my life on it.


aaa have you sought out govermental help?


like child abuse is illegal


Dont kill yourself I understand how every parents is different, theres dumb parents and stuff and if your parents are abuse call governmental help or 911 or child help


I called the police so many times like please, they now think Im a joke to them.


I want to end it all in one jump. Would jumping off my window help.


No, Yuna, you need to seek help, please.


Im tired of seeking help THEY DONT GIVE A F


Have you tried absolutely everything?


EVERYTHING


AT LEAST TRY PLEASE


All options have resulted in them just turning you away basically?


THE CHILD HELP HOTLINE OR SMTH


I tried talking to my parents, police, government, HOSPITAL LIKE PLEASE, HOTLINES


all of the calls are confidental


its worth a shot


EVEN EMERGENCY


iim sorry


NO PLEASE


IM SORRY PLEASE DONT


Dont.


Its not funny


And it wont do anything


Yuna, I swear, this isn't funny. YOU WOULD REGRET EVERYTHING.


Dont do it.


dalkjafdslads I CANT LOSE A 7TH FRIEND


You have one life god gave u


Yuna, please don't;;


I have nothing to lose.


If YOU LOSE IT


Bye


Then you wont get back to ur life


Oh yes you do. You would lose everything.


YUNA PLEASE


DON;T


NO I BEG YOU PLEASE


DON'T


SJDLFDKSFKD PLEASE DONT


ILL DO ANYTHING


IMAGINE IF SHES PRANKING US.


Do anything? Leave me the fck alone.


DYMAH.


The fact you'd even suggest that, Dymah.


You think that?


Do you want to know my past life..


It been worse


DYMAH, IF YOU GOT NOTHING TO SAY, LEAVE


YOU AINT A HELP


IMAGINE JOKING ABOUT THESE STUFF IS LIKE WORSER THEN SUICIDE.


Jesus.


past life is not real


YOU ONLY HAVE ONE LIFE SO DON'T WASTE IT


I WILL WASTE IT WATCH ME


PLEASE NO


IVE BEEN IN DEPRESSION


NEARLY KILLED MYSELF


BUT I DIDNT


Yuna, what would Nolan think about you dying?


Do you know how much pain you'd put us in?


You only have one life pls


YKW ILL JUST PING NOLAN IF I HAVE TO


There are people out that care for you


IM TIRED IM ALWAYS THE ONE CRYING WHILE THE OTHERS THINK ITS FUNNY. IM ALWAYS THE ONE GETTING BEATED UP WHILE THE OTHERS THINK ITS NOTHING IM SO DONE WITH THIS SHTTY LIFE


I'm right here..


If your parents doesnt care about you...


I'm here for you.


Nyolan does care a lot of about you yuna


I'll say it again, I'm here for you.


Yuna, please. We're all here for you yo;;


Im here for you yuna.


You say that easy on a screen. But in real life youll let me fall like a brick. I once met my best friend on discord, she slapped me in real life, and left me.


dont kill yourself yuna, its not the best solution please dont. I know how it feel


we all people have pain/problems in our life


without those life will be meaningless


think about those people who needs you


I would never even dare consider doing such things to you, Yuna.


I genuinely care about you, please don't think otherwise.


So let us care about you for you until you can care about yourself then.


Let us help you to realise that there is a point.


Let me tell you that Im lost.


ALRIGHT ILL HELP YOU FIND THE WAY AGAIN


SDKJFL DANYTHING ILL DO ANYTHING


Let us be the light in your dark valley. I'd sacrifice myself and everything I have so you would live. A human's life is just as precious as gold.


yuna, I been seeing a lot of kids kill their self.. and they lost their only life chance.. dont do it, me and everyone here in sayu will be there for you we will support you and appreciate you


I understand how your parents is.


I understand that they always want you to have perfect grades


ee your parents beat you up and threaten you with glass?


You are lost. You need to find you way. You need help. Please, let us help you. I don't want to lost someone I care about.


its not just grades


I have a way


I couldn't bare the pain if I lost you like that, Yuna.


I may have a way


Please, don't go through with it.


Do yall need to hear it?


Yuna., Yuna, listen. If your parents are awful, there HAS to be someone who cares about you. An aunt, or, uncle, or even a friend. Or cousin anything.


I have a way that yuna can get helped


ill lose my 7th friend to suicide


By 911


That doesn't help


They put her off as if she's a joke.


No


Did she tried proof videos?


Its not funny.


you can carry a phone while getting abused


very funny..


i cant.


God


Dymah, she is NOT JOKING.


GOD


My parents always look where my phone is, lock it up in their room.


I have no other device.


i don't even have a phone


Have you tried confronting them?


she has


yes.


she says they all turn her away and laugh


Seriously, Im trying to help.


I tried cutting myself infront them and tell them I have depression, they laugh


It happen to me before.


Dear god...


Gotta go


Like abuse happened to me before.


My dad


Is home


Ill think about death.


Yuna, RUN AWAY. Leave them.


But not do it.


Maybe.


RUN AWAY


what parents would laugh to a child


Run away


GO ANYWHERE IF THEY BRING YOU SO MUCH PAIN


BEFORE THEY DO WORSE


YOU DONT KNOW


RUN


GO TO A ORPHANAGE


We love you


GET UR BAGS AND RUN


Yuna, just GO. FLEE. Before something bad happens! Yuna.


GO TO SHELTER FOR KIDS


YES


RUN YUNA


EXACTLY JUST RUN AS SOON AS POSSIBLE


She's probably not gonna be on for a while.


Goddamn it, I want to help.


But I can't


Man.


I wish I could just be there for her irl


Alright


And tell her everything will be alright.


oml i want to murder those parents of hers


IF THEY DON'T KNOW HOW TO HANDLE A CHILD WHO IS SUFFERING WHY ARE THEY EVEN PARENTS


those aren't parents those are cruel people


I wanna get her help so bad.


THEY ARE


I want her to feel safe..


If I could


If I possibly could


I'd get the police to arrest the parents


i wish i could help her too, what actually happenedi just joined


And fire the police who don't care.


if only yuna could see that but shes offline


Yuna. Get help now yuna. This is important


don't try to get attention like that


Dw, i just want to talk to you about her ventings!


Ohh, sorry for late reply, thank u:3


3 ofc qt


np!


I'm sorry, my stuff doesn't seem as serious but I need to let it out. I've been hearing voices a lot lately of old friends, and it's driving me mad. I wanna cry but my body only makes me laugh, i'm a masochist and all, but, I hate this. Although, I can't help but laugh. It's the pain of it making me laugh. Sometimes i'll cry and laugh. I scream for hours of how i'd yell at that friend. It's driving me crazy and I really want help and to know what's wrong. It feels unsafe to even talk about it, because someone that's their friend is here. I'm scared they'll see this and start saying stuff about me. Btw please don't ping me w replies.


Do you happen to have any Mental Illness or are you heavily stressed? Apparently those are the root causes of Auditory Hallucinations Hearing Voices. If you have lots of stress on your shoulders, try doing some destress activities such as listening to calm music, relaxing in your room, going on a walk...


No problem! If you ever need someone to comfort or help you out you can always message me, i'll try my best to help you out. Everyone's happiness is my priority!


Thank you a lot. I appreciate your kindness and help.


Happy to hear!


i have um a reactive attachment disorder and i have no idea what that is, so does anyone one know what that is? ik this isnt like venting but I dont want to say it and main if its bad or som


So after what i've seen, RAD Reactive Attachement Disorder is a condition where you have troubles in forging a bond with your caretakers, AKA Parents or whoever takes care of you. The article I read says that children/teens with the disorder often have trouble managing their emotions, and are often sad.


rin Hope this helps


tysm


omg


i literally


didnt know what that was


why


i couldnt google it


what is wrong with me


anyways


tysmm


No problem! 3


I have found out that I have clincal depression, social anxiety disorder, and PTSD...I don't know what I'm supposed to do my life is in shambles...


Im here for you if you need to talk! Norachii!


i cry myself to sleep because of her. that so called friend.


Dont waste your time on her


She sounds horrible


she tortured me when i was vulnerable and used me


Just know youre way better then that and you dont need people like that to drag you down


i thought she'd help me because others just bullied me.


At all


again


and again


and again...


Check ur messages


that backstabber got me gone here. why..? i dont understand. she made everyone hate me. now i don't even know if im supposed to be here


You are


never deny the fact that you are supposed to be here


i should've never listened to her and just stay strong and continue as staff and never went on break.


thanks, i guess.


np, if you need any help my dms are open to everyone.


Norachii! , can I DM you?


sure..


I read a lot of the vents it made me sad


they still hate me


i don't know why


it was siarra who did everything bad to me


so why do they still hate me?


I feel depressed


Im feeling unwell, my body is very hot and I have a headache I dont know whats this kind of sickness, my belly hurts and my body is sweating no I isnt coughing, sneezing. No my mom said she wont take me to hospital because shes poor and cant buy.


And I felt it when I was watching anime like few minutes ago


Get off discord


My god


Cant


Yes u can?


I cant get any help


Ok so u rather be on discord


Honestly stop


Istg


ash seya thank u


rush words won't help qt.


Being on Discord and doing nothing will harm you more


now


yeah


Rosie


qt out of the that dem screen


and go away


take care of urself and go to wc if needed too


lord smh


Ik ik ash, but let's make her go


Rosie okay, please go


Sigh


i won't repeat myself again, u know it urself


what to do right? or I am wrong?!


I just dont understand i keep getting alot of hate saying go kys, wat a clown im starting to think i am a clown


I just wanna kill myself in peace without hurting anybody


I cry all night because i overthink about my problems


My parents would make me sad and my siblings didnt help me like they always do..


I just wanna end my life already


Ryuka, bb, your life has so much more value and potential compared to what people tell you you are. Their words may convince you to believe so, but odds are you aren't. In the future you could be living a nice peaceful life, full of joy and calm...you don't wanna give that up, do you? No matter what, your future will hold something good. Those people who call you a clown are just jealous. Fun fact; Clowns at Cirque du Soleil make 200,000S an hour! People who hate for no reason literally have no value in life, and they're searching for that by shaming others thinking it'll make them feel better, but in the future they'll feel really guilty and regret what they did. I hope u stay safe 3


@ Near


I wanna kms, I mean nothing to this world


I have like a million reasons why I should


I dont need meds for my depression anymore:


Good, am glad things have gotten better for you and I hope it continues to be so, you will thrive and blossom into a beautiful human with new life. Lexy


I hate myself so much...I made a fat joke with my bf and I tried apologizing and now he hates me and won't talk to me for the rest of the night...Merry Christmas to me...


tbh i don't think I deserve anything for Christmas...


You don't, we make mistakes it happens.


Also, as long as it's not excessive, I still don't condone that, you're too young and it messes w your head after a point bc then you'll depend on it to help, I know from experience, i just hope everything gets better for you.


Just give him space then love


What is it you search for? @;;


Am here if you need anything really. Dms are open for helping others.


i wanna keep crying


and crying


and crying.


why sweetie?


i just...


want to end this..


i can't keep this up anymore.


i want to end my life. i have nothing to lose. everyone still hates me anyway.


they don't c are


they don't want me


they don't need me


they don't like me


they all want me gone.


awe no


they think im a waste.


please dont think like this


even though


someone else


framed me


we love you..


im sorry that happened dear


i..


i really dont know how to help in vents


im sorry


its fine.


but please


dont go:


nobody can help anyway cause they don't care and never will


because this isn't something you can fix with the right words.


it isnt


but...


please


well


goodbye


for gods sake


dont do it


i bet theres some people


who you dont even notice


who would care for you


:c


goodbye.


no please


goodby


can i vent to someone in dms?


Of course! I'll be here to comfort you if that is what you wish 3


your beautiful your amazing person


so nora..i was just like you


i used to be sad and depressed


but i found myself


were here to help you nora


Your such a amazing person


Venting is the channel where everybody shares the things disturbing them.. think for once uwu. Some people have family problems and some have love or friendship ones but everybody should think how lucky they are to actually be living a life! I had problems about communicating before... until I understood I have many friends around me.. even if ur family hates you you have friends and even if you have friendship problems your family is always gonna be with you, same for love problems... killing yourself isn't gonna make it any better. It will just make it worse even for the people that loved you. Just think about them once... You are very lucky...! I just wanted to wish everybody a Merry Christmas after all.. I can't give you a gift sadly.. the only gift I can give you is reminding you that you are yourself. You will always be lucky to have a life


Ty Rose


That was all I could do uwu


I don't even know if it helps somebody but


I am sure everyone will think about it for once


A server owner brought up vents of mine


It was really horrible


I wanna cry now


She brought them up as an underhanded tactic and Im just shaking with rage


How can someone do that?


I really wanna cry


Its also Christmas too..


Ive had stuff happen to me already


You dont need to ask to vent


Some people are just scum


It's just how it is but my irrelevant opinion is cry, let your emotions flow just dont cry until your glands stop working


She brought it up...we have had another talk in the past one where I was in the right and she demoted me since I talked back to her...she didnt ban someone and they were being extremely rude and saying horrible things


People really just do be like that but you shouldn't let it get to you


See I've just suffered the worst month of my life


And I'm trying to move on before I cant move on


And excuse me? I am fine, like I said. You don't want me prying you life please do not judge mine. I have had staff even say that you might need a break due to things in the vent channel you put. And do not take this as me saying you can't vent but like I said it's clear you are going through things”


What she said


Cuz nobody loves me


hi


ill speak with you


I'm starting to realise how mentally drained of energy I'm becoming once again, I feel like i'm sinking back into my old state from a few months back.


I struggle to find happiness as easy as usual


I don't even know where all this self hatred is coming from, I just feel so goddamn invalid with my way of thinking.


i thought this was because i wasn't getting enough sleep, i was wrong. i still feel like this even after 8hrs of sleep


Aiko


noo you are VALID! everyone is. you are here for a reason and we are here to support that, please know your worth and how precious you are. i know this is all super corny but stay with me


you are enough


you are important


and you are worth it!


please remember these.


feel better always here if you wanna talk


i wasn't saying i was invalid, i was referring to my way of thinking


ik i shouldn't be thinking like this, granted, i probably deserve it considering how good ive been up until now.


im just tryna help


why does this always happen


ik


i appreciate you trying to help


mkay


this is my happy vent yesterday I entered a nitro giveaway and eli rolled the thingy and rolled me and then I was a bit late but the owner gifted me it and now I am literally sobbing on the floor of my room


Aweee


congrats bb!


eek


I just offered to make 50 dividers, 10 banners and do perms for a server for 5 dollar nitro and my friend declined


am i that bad?


I bet she just doesn't have enough or is saving up for something perhaps, I'm sure your great!


I've had a crush on my best friend for awhile now.. I keep telling him that I love him and he thinks I love him as a friend.. so he found out I liked him and his reply was I won't date you ever, Is that fine? Those words tore me apart, I lost everything just from that sentence.. I feel horrible, I feel like dying, I lost my hopes from that.. I get told that I'll find someone better, I just hope I will, I'm devastated that no one else will like me now.. I just wish for the best


Why would ur bsf” do that.


Those words can be very hurtful.


He'll always be in my heart no matter if I'm in his.


I feel useless to the people around me. All I want to do is be helpful but, how can I be if I feel this way? I simply don't understand why I feel this way as I help many and all whom I've crossed paths with. It makes no sense to me anymore. I love everyone as they are people and they deserve to be loved and given the chances by other that they aren't given by the ones that they love or have loved. Sigh why do I feel this, yet feel so loved by people, it is so confusing and my head has started to hurt more often than it doesn't now. People want to see this or want to see that from me, idk if I can do it majority of the time. I feel like I'm just wasting my time with so many things at this point and it doesn't make any sense.


wait why was that deleted


Cus it had blacklisted words


But I read it


could you tell me what was it? In dms or something?


did i say something wrong?


I know people care about me, but I give so much to people. I want to be selfish this one time and finally leave


Just blacklisted words


oh


trust me it's not worth it. you would be hurting so many people who love and care for you. i know it's hard but you've got to keep moving forward. there isn't much i can, but believe in yourself. im not the best at giving advice but i hope this helped.


Thank you


you're welcome


its getting harder, everyday its like Im fighting the tears and the urge to cut or punish myself. I wanna fix it and not feel this ever again but Im stuck, buried deep, into whatever this is. My mind is so full of thoughts, negative and suicidal thoughts that I cant mentally deal with it. I cant keep putting on a smile, because its breaking me. It is actually breaking me. I feel like nobody loves me.


This isnt really a vent but, its currently 4:32 am I havent slept for 1 week now.


Please get some sleep:! with all due respect, it's unhealthy not to sleep


Insomnia, the inability to get to sleep or sleep well at night, can be caused by stress, jet lag, a health condition, the medications you take, or even the amount of coffee you drink. Insomnia can also be caused by other sleep disorders or mood disorders such as anxiety and depression.


and to be honest, i also have a hard time sleeping /3 so you're not alone


I have almost all these things. Probably explains why I cant sleep at all well. Lmao.


awh, hope u guys sleep well though!


I have most of those things.


Tysm for trying though!


I feel like even tho Im trying my hardest in friendships. People arent trying their best in return. I just want to get along and I feel like Im being seen as more of an obstacle in their life then a shortcut. Edit: I feel like Im now being avoided... edit2: I feel like I should of been cheered up about something that happened. But I still feel down. Why..


i feel so weird rn. Cant even put it into words but its def not good


I just wanna die .


Y.hug Cherubicide


aaa omg i sent a message link and the bot deleted my message


Thanks angel. Thats sweet


you're welcome! remember that you are so valid


WELP


wow i am really struggling to speak huh


i just had like. 3 razors jump in my face


oh yeah i was typing something for you but the bot deleted my message


oh


: are you alright?


Yea just depressed snd shook


oh..


if needed you can dm me i know you're a strong person for sure, we can get thru this! keep smiling even if no one's looking because you are not alone: u can rant too as much as you'd like. please eat well, drink lots of water, sleep more and stay strong! you already are strong though, that's what i like about u!


Thanks:,


you're welcome 3!


you deserve better and i recommend not harming yourself!


sometimes i get depressed or maybe i am always if wondering im perfectly ok but i get really scared of dying and if i harmed myself that'd be so scary


well even if i do die its not like anybody even cares at this point.. family wise atleast,


Friend wise yea theyll miss me but theyll get over me eventually.


sleep well!


awwie: it could be stomach flu! do get her to see a doctor, since it's been three days already. throwing up usually isn't a bad sign, since it means that her body is getting rid of the bad stuff. make sure she replenishes her body salts, try to get her isotonic/ sports drinks!


Alright.


can i talk to someone in dms?


fable Sorry for delay, dm me if you wish


Can someone talk to me in dms please


I keep going into these self destructive moods where i try and ruin things, It all started when i almost relapsed and ever since, i get in that weird mood almost every night. For example, the friday after that i decided to cause an argument, i lost 2 friends and during that argument they said im a bad person, have a victim complex, im an attention seeker and im self centered. During that argument i lost it and it went on for 2 hours. I didnt feel good about it but it made me feel a certain way. I realised what they were saying was true but i also felt like a villain and i kinda enjoyed feeling that way, i felt powerful. Sometimes while ruining these things for myself i feel hyper, giggly but also sad.. i confronted my crush about why he hates me, i caused him to hate me, i then realised i have a Victim and a Villain complex it just depends, Id do anything for a bit of attention i leaked my address, phone number, credit card details and more earlier and honestly my attention seeking is a cry for help but no one understands the way i feel. I made a playlist for when im feeling like this and i will send that because that kinda shows how i feel


oft sorry thats so long but i hope someone can help


theres the playlist that shows how i feel when im in those moods


anyway hope someone can read that and maybe even understand


sometimes I get all this attention from people, and I don't even deserve it. As nice as attention can be, I feel it just overwhelms me and can bother me from time to time. Especially when it comes to doing things I love to do. It not only can make me extremely anxious, but make me not want to do it around certain people. It probably shouldn't bother me like it does, but that's how it is and can be. My brain is often confusing.


Alright mate, take care


what my mind does just, isn't that simple unfortunately


but thank you.


So, a few weeks ago, I was feeling something, not like pain but a emotion. It was not happiness nor sadness. It was more of pity or disrespect. Anyways lets get into this:


So those few weeks back I was talking with you guys like usual. Then, my brain was flooded with these overwhelming thoughts, I really don't remember much but I felt,


Ignored


Pitiful


unappreciated


insecure


But instead of letting it out, I kept it in a bottle and just left it. But these past few days are going pretty bad for me. I haven't been getting sleep not like I get much anyway, I am always in my room and sometimes skip meals. For the unappreciated part, I do things for a lot of people. I treat them as if they were the kings/queens of this world. But then they treat me like I am just nobody. This happens on Discord too. Everyone is always so positive and I am over here just faking it all. I doubt I have had a normal smile for weeks. For the insecure part, I just overall hate how I look.


Shamu


let me get it right... you dont think you ugly but you dont like it because you different from others?


hmmm


I think all of that is not important. even if you be the most beautiful person in the world, you never happy if you keep on comparing yourself or even worse let people around you compare you with others


and I think you have people pleaser syndrome


I hope this vid might help you a bit


give yourself some time to watch this


ohhh


can't share vid ig


TEDTALK why people pleasing is hurting you


by Salma Hindy


search that on youtube


it might help you


I just cant do it today. I just cant. This is too hard for my brain to mentally hold. The anxiety, stress, overthinking, and the endless feeling of numb. Where I stare into space trying to cry but no tears come out, its like.. theyve all been used up. By the endless nights I stayed up crying feeling absolutely numb. Why should I have to feel like this? TW i cant keep doing it anymore, i feel like i should end it all, i really feel that I should. but Im fighting against myself, i dont want the one person that loves me to deal with that lose. i just dont know what to do.. and theres so so many issues, in the presence, past and right ahead of me. everyday, the hardest challenges are given to me. its not fair. i cant keep doing this


the thing that keeps me going is music


me?


oh sorryyy


I thought you the other person


my bad


what happens hon?


anything bad today?


i am tired of this everytime i am blamed for doing something i never did or i either get ignored shouted at i am just tired, i try to talk to you and you just turn your back on me. Anytime i say something you argue to me about it i am always there for you but you are barely there for me. i am not being dramatic its just a hard you know


All i do is overthink


That's rough and you're not being over dramatic people like that are the worst, I used to overthink a lot aswell and what I do to prevent it is I distract myself by doing a hobby or thinking of something really hard but sometimes you can't run away from problems so you should face them the sun comes out sooner or later and storms don't last forever your problem will be better in no time! 3


anyone else feel like they have no friends to talk to? i know that most of you probably have at least one person to call, but honestly i dont even have that anymore.


Has long as I cam remember I never been able to do anything right and I get judged a lot for being ADHD and I hate it


Im trying to let people in.. but it hurts.. like if people need to know the real me? The core of who I am. It hurts to share... but I want them to know...


What exactly do you mean by The real me? Like...is there something you haven't told to anyone yet? If that's the case, everyone can have their own things to keep to themselves, it's no biggie! If you wanna tell someone, pick the right moment where they're ready to talk about it. It sounds like it's something that troubles you, so it's best to only say it when you're comfortable. I'm sure everyone here will appreciate you no matter what, Harry! Kristofor


Thank you tho...


By dark, do you mean like...scary? Or um...idk, awkward?


No.. dark as in depressing...


If you don't feel comfortable talking about it, that's 100 okay! Just know that i'm here for you:D


If you ever feel like talking about it to me, i'm sure I can handle it.


O... well... Ive wrote it out in a text message. I could post screenshots here, just crossing out the other persons texts.


Well, not here... images arent allowed


If you want you can send them in DMs if you feel comfortable with it


Ill dm you.


Alright, Ive thanked you in dms... now its time for me to... share... more about my personal self.. this stuff is pretty dark imo.. so read with warning.


Instead of me reliving the moments again.. Im just going to paste some stuff Ive wrote to another person so you can understand it...


Mhm. Good luck


Your name, Happy Harry is for a reason then!


Its all forced tho...


I just want people to see me as a light in their life so they can come to me when theyre sad. I want them to be happy, being around sad people makes them feel the opposite


So I forcefully seem happy and such so they can pick it up off of me.


Focus on yourself more Harry, Make yourself happy first and then make others happy. YOU need to be happy, and give them your joy. Share it with them!


I want nothing outta life... but it gives me comfort in knowing that those who thrive for more can use me to get to the place they wanna be


Don't let yourself get used like that, Harry. You need to be happy yourself, or you'll fall into a darker hole. People will see you as a light in their life but not as sad harry who is putting on a mask. You need to be happy yourself, to help others. Share your joy with them, show them how to be happy and exactly how happy they can be.


I just dont know, Im sorry


Don't apologise, There's no need to.


Theres a lot I wanna say... but I dont have a single good answer


And if you don't know, don't worry about it so much. You will figure it out in time.


Say whatever you want Harry, I am here and I am listening


...I guess I could dm you.. its just hard to put into words


I understand


Throw words at me, I'll put them together


hello, apologies if im disturbing anyone


but im having a problem in a server, and i need advice from any mods on how to handle the situation


i understand i dont talk here but its really alarming and none of our staff team knows what to do, so please ping me if youd like to give some advice n' we can go to DMs


I dont even think I can consider the things I like hobbies anymore


i'm not physically ready to type a long message for everyone but all of u don't deserve this kind pain. i hope all of us heal and seek for comfort!


someone i cared about lied to me about pretty much everything and now i have suicidal tendencies


i had little motivation to start off with so i'm not gonna get anywhere


i am now leaving before i hurt someone else


My relationship with someone in my family is not the best and recently they've been really pissing me off I'm used to people saying oh you gained weight or just straight up calling me fat, and I don't really mind but when people start going out of their way to compare me with someone or something I get really frustrated. I listen to Kpop a lot and the girls in Korea are gorgeous with or without makeup and as that certain someone passes by me they go Don't you want to be like that? Don't you want to look pretty like them? and to be honest it hurt me quite a lot because to be honest sure I wanted to look like them but it was clearly something I couldn't do since I lacked the motivation. I'm not overweight nor do I eat out of control I don't get why I look so round to others. Sure I'm not as slim as my classmates but I'm not too bad I tell myself even though I honestly doubt it I want to look as pretty and as slim as those other girls in my class but I just can't ever seem to dieting, eating healthy, exercising, I just can't be like them. Am I doing something wrong?


No you're not doing anything wrong, you're being you. Dieting is hard to do and isn't for everyone, I've tried myself. Honestly, family is a rough thing especially when they're being toxic toward you. All you can really do is try to ignore them if they live with you or if you rarely see them, like I have you can cut them out completely, no ones life should have room for such negativity and toxicity especially from family members.


istu


Thank you for the encouraging word I'll try to ignore them!


You're welcome if you need anything more feel free to dm me


just a reminder please make sure to censor any and all words such as suicide, etc


Well, I just want nothing to do with people, social interactions, or anything like that. I just want to go behind a screen and play with my animals all day. I feel like animals can understand me more than anyone or anything else, I just want to cuddle with them and sit in a cave and relax all day. No school, no people, just me and myself. I really dont feel hungry anymore, I just drink water, use the restroom, stare at screens all day, and I havent gone outside in ever. School starts soon and its going to break me. I just live off ritz crackers, cheese, and water. I havent gone outside for months, even though I have a giant lawn. I have friends, family, pets, but I just wanna be alone all day with nothing but my imagination.


Do you ever wanna like Just be invisible


Anyways..


There we go


Sorry I cant help with this Im not good with that kind of problems


Dw about it


dont stop before the miracle happens


I want to help you all and that's why i wass here hut sadly I'm on break myself and very busy i came back in Discord for CONCERT I LOVE YOU ALL AND I WANNA HUG YOU.. PLEASE I WISH THAT YOU'LL FEEL MUCH BETTER NEXT YEAR


Covid is so bad for us ete that we got a mutated version of COVID we call it super covid


Socializing, for most people, is hard. The internet isn't really helping with it either. We tend to create empty bonds and even have fake relationships without us knowing. We don't really realize how bad it is since, this is the internet but people need to see this more. It's not easy to create a bond that will last forever but trust me, you just have to wait. It may take a long time, but there will be certain people who awaits you just like how you await them. Those who'll understand you and relate to you. Once you've found it, it'll feel amazing. You just need an open mind and some patience. Good luck.


me really need to use dark mode to visit this channel. it's not light mode friendly. I can't see people's name here.


idk how old are you but if you more than 25yo then you really need help. About your parents, honestly if you a teenager, I might agree on it. Parents argument always affecting their children but if you an adult, im sure there are so many ways to not making it as the main problem to you unless you still depending on them. That would be hmm...


Let me or somebody you trust help you but before hoping others to help, you must help yourself first. People can tell you to do this and that but eventually you the one that needs to take the first step.


MeKoala you said everything i don't need to write anything about it anymore but yes you're right


thank you.


good job and thank you for your hard work


Youll be alright


Im here if you need a talk


can i talk to someone in dms?


Why do I feel this way? Why do I feel like I don't exist, that everyone and everything else doesn't exist either, and that the place and things around me are static and don't exist either? Why? There's no reason to. I don't wanna feel this way. Why do I feel so numb? Everything feels so blank and dull, even though it isn't. It's all just in my head. Every day is the same, and quarantine made that even worse than before. Please. Let me feel normal again. Anything else than this numb derealization feeling. But, then again, this is better than my sadness. It's rough, but now I'm drunk on happiness, and can't seem to get myself out of it. Why can't I just have normal emotions like everyone else? Is it really that hard or is it just me? I have so many questions that I can't ask and that can't be answered. I just wish I was normal. Then, maybe, just maybe, would I not feel this way.


I've started to feel a lot of dysphoria for the first time ever and I'm so confused, I just don't feel like any gender. I'm confused on why this is happening I have always felt like a girl but lately I just don't feel like a girl or boy I feel confused...


my friendship is crumbling and im scared i couldnt do anything to stop this


i just want to cry


I suggest you discuss it with your friend and see if theres a way it wont crumble?


If hopefully this doesnt happen it doesnt work you always have us on discord


one of them left a gc were in the other disabled their account


two of my friends started fighting and it escalated to this point


it was in a gc i wasnt in


and im only finding out about it now


and i feel bad cause i couldnt be there to do anything


My mom said i cant wear a dress i feel confident in because guys will get the wrong idea it doesnt show my booty or breast im a tomboy so i rarely dress up but apparently i cant dress up at all because of guys im pretty sure guys can control their eyes and not be distracted by my shoulders its not fair that girls cant look good without being called a S L U T girls should be able to wear whatever they want and not be held back because if girls hold back they are boring but if girls dont they're asking for it this is just not okay and i am so annoyed


I know it says that in the channel desc but it still needs to be updated


Got pinged wee


same


Oh sorry


instead ping vent support uwu


Its fine though


I thought that was still the venting ping


@ venting access!


Vents above


what happened


pu


ph


why ping


LMAO


Oki sorry for interrupting


Huh?


im here!


but its fine


i got ponged


The role is for people who want to help w those who vent, if you are pinged most likely you've helped someone w their vent in the past


Or had the role previously


I know


uh if I get pinged one more time


I'll leave this server


everyone who is told things like that which feed their insecurities should feel more beautiful when they do such things than what they're told they look like or should feel like. People themselves are beautiful it is never what is on the outside that should matter but how you are personality and emotionally that makes you beautiful


if you feel confident be so, you are given that confidence for a reason, dont let what someone else tell you how you look if you feel that way, it is more important how you feel over someone elses opinion always. It may be hard to get through that first but it'll get better over time I hope I am always here to help you.


right


It may take time to find another dress you'll feel the same in, but if you want ti I recommend doing so, your mom definitely shouldn't talk to you that way and i sincerely apologize


why pinged


Accident on my part


Your parent shouldn't talk to you like that


huh


it kinda sucks you cant but it isnt a big deal


especially if you are 14


welcome to having parents


you dont always get your way


although I read literally one message so I may not understand everything


what do you consider mental abuse


Ive also been sexually harassed by the same guy across about 10 accounts for over a year


Its perfectly reasonable for your parents to not allow you to wear something like that


...already starting the year bad because im getting removed from my house


Just move out” is not a solution to every problem


Dont tell 14 year olds to sneak out of their house and run away


Thats worse than parents calling you a name


They will find somewhere for me to go


...my mom said she cant have a trans kid living in her house


She said she isnt dealing with it


Do you have any trusted adults that are near that you know?


do you live in the United States


Yes i live in the us no idk any adults


which state?


if you dont mind me asking


Florida


okay


its illegal to kick a 14 year old out of your home as a parent in Florida


It can be classified as abandonment


No cps was called.


...i give up


death is on my mind


help me


please


i've attempted twice


and my third one is soon


the person i trusted left me alone


he left me


he said i shouldn't say anything because i can't handle my feelings well


please Dm me if you ever need to talk and help, I am always free to talk.


im dying inside


i've been dying inside since 2018


and it's worse


i can't keep up anymore


i cant


im giving up


soon


i can't anymore


im attempting again soon


i give up. i've been trying and trying to be happy and i was. i was happy for a year and three months until


he decided to do what he did


and manipulate me and shut me down


i give up


it's worse than before


i don't have anyone i trust


im alone


again


Happy new year everyone!


Hey eevee!


And sushi!


Wait this isn't general.


take time?


how much more do i have to wait?


Yes


it's been 5 years


it's been 5 long years


Wait eevee, if you dont mind me asking. How old are you?


Sorry if that makes you uncomfortable


By the if youre are under the age of 18, you will never know whats coming next. Youre still growing, give yourself time


im 15


i've been like this since i was 10


i tried


i trusted him


he wa there for me


The problem is


Youre stuck with him


You need to let go


but called me out saying i cant say hating because i dont know my feelings well


i cant


Theres more people waiting


no one is waiting for me


Everyone is


i can't trust anyone


i trade my joy for my protection again


I know several people that used to say this, they have finally stepped out of their comfort zone and met new people including me. Theres loads of people you can trust in the outside world


You can have both joy and protection


Joy will always be waiting for you on the other side


Listen, I know this is hard and I know what youre going through. Please never stay thinking about one person because there are people who you still trust. You cant just focus on one issue and turn a blind eye on the rest of the world. That makes everything from bad to worse.


my anxiety showed up again


i can't talk


I know this is hard


im too anxious


If you keep doubting yourself then youll never get to your goal


It always makes things better


Dont leave yourself alone with these thoughts


Share them


Youll always get help


Take this channel for example


This is only one thing we can do


We can just talk online


But imagine


What you would get from sharing it in the outside world


wanna talk Eevee?


im here if u need to or want to talk or if u need anything


when i was younger, i got bullied for my name and for being too shy. i always stayed more quiet and i thought i had to change the way i dressed for others to stop talking about me. i was alone for 2 years but then i met him. he was very nice, patient, and understanding... or so i thought.


whats ur name?


also things like that happen


people enter and leave peoples lives


it happens alot


its happend alot to me


i had that happen


but dont think it was cause of the way u were or whatnot


he probably had his reasons for liking the other person


u were probably still a close friend


we started talking and i was very cautious talking about my feelings. i never said anything i was just the happy girl


always smiling


i had to


well u should talk about ur feelings


its not good to hold it all in


a while later i started opening up little by little after finally having someone to talk to


about how i feel


he never judged me


he listened and did his best to help me


i liked him even more


we eventually started dating


but the thing about the girl still bothered me a lot


i didn't say anything until this year


in august


a year and a month later


he said he wasn't mad and he wished i told him sooner


he said he didn't talk to her since he got with me


and so i was okay with that. i never covid forbid him talking to girls


i trusted him


but then things went downhill


and i broke up with him in october


im sorry to hear that


we had arguments


i had the same thing happen with this girl i knew


i tried to help her as much as i could


but eventually she just started getting really angry


and said she hated me and stuff


and then it went down from there


i still miss her


but i try to move on


maybe thats what youll just have to do?


he asked for a second chance i said not yet i need time


when was this?


october 19 2020


hmm


a week after we broke up we still talked though


we stayed as close friends


that sometimes doesnt work out well


but a week after we broke up he talked to her


it didnt for the girl that i liked


im sorry to hear u were sick


but i didn't know yet


are u feeling better now?


a week later i found it he was talking to her


and i blcoked him


he knew


he knew she made me insecure and have low self esteem


after i calmed down i dmed him and i told him what i was feeling


he said he wasn't doing anything wrong


anything wrong...


he said pickup lines to get claiming it was a joke


he sent her hug emotes


and kept calling her cute


not to agree with him but like


u broke up with him?


yeah i did and he asked me a second chance


u turned him down


it shouldn't bother me yeah i know but if he hadn't asked me for another chance i wouldn't have done anything


i can understand


it didn't matter if he talked to her


it was the way he talked to her


but he doesn't understand fhat


i tried to overlook it again


i really tried


but i cant


i can't forgive nor forget


at least not yet


why dont u just stop talking to him?


i cant


he's let of my friend group


part


well


he lives a street away from my aunts house


why dont u find someone else to talk to?


oh


hmm


we go to the same church and school


i can't escape from him


well why dont u find someone else to like?


no


that feels wrong


i'll feel guilty


how so?


and there's no one i like


he has?


hmm how do i explain this


when i had my low moments i was very toxic


i would stop talking to him to not hurt him


but thay hurt him even more


i understand


so i started to self harm myself every time i hurt him


like litterly eveything ur saying happend between the girl i liked and me


almost word for word


it's like he's part of me


i feel so so so alone


very alone


from a certain point of view he did nothing wrong, i mean, i had a relationship and my gf was really insicure and she wanted me to leave all my friends because she was insicure about them she thought they were way better than her. she made me feel so bad, because i needed my friends. probably he knew, but maybe he didnt fully understand how you were feeling, and probably he didnt know how HE was feeling. simply, he wanted to talk to you and her, maybe she was her friends for real, not a gf or a crush.


sigh so then


yeah but it didn't matter if he talked to her it was just the way


i didn't mind if he talked to other girls, really


i was mostly chill about the relationship


yes i understood, its the way


it was just one girl thay brotheres me


sigh


when i asked him why he said things like fhat to her


he started getting defensive


but you have to learn how to overcome your insecurities because this could lead you to be the toxic one in a relationship


and started calling me out


then just dont question him?


just let him be and do his own thing


saying i don't know how to control my feelings and i talked to kai an online friend who confessed he liked me a week after my bf n i broke up but i turned him down because i was going to give my ex a second chance


insecurities are a really really bad thing and i know that, this is why im telling you you should try to stop thinking about what his faults are and maybe focus on overcome insecurities


that was what i was going to do


but now he's basically given up


so i'm just here


thats why u should just try and find someone else


but you should stop thinking about him


he texted me happy new years and he said he was hoping to be friends but every time i see him i start to cry


theres so many other people u can talk to


you have to do that for yourself, not for him


you guys do realize it's not easy right?


its not i know


but u just have to try


sure, its not, but is that a reason why you should give up?


saying its not easy” is a way to protect yourself


im not done


anyways my self esteem has been the worst it's been


well i gotta go my parents are calling me


eeve add me as a friend


you shouldnt be afraid of people telling you something you dont wanna hear, because we all know its not easy


but if you wanna get better and move on you should focus on yourself only now


Eevee when u get back add me as a friend please


because is your goal is HIM, you will never be able to feel better, because your self esteem will be based on another person


wait i'm back for a minute


and people leave, most of the times


guys i can't let him go because he still wants the second chance


did he say he wants the second chance at dating u?


like recently?


its about what YOU want or what HE wants?


reason i say for u to add me is cause i cant add u or message u btw


girl, this is the problem


youre thinking about what doing WITH HIM, you have to think about what doing with yourself


and when i get off and we move on from this topic i want to still be able to message and maybe try to help or something


your self esteem will be totally erased if you base it on him just because he asks


build your self esteem away from him and you will feel better


but try to get better FOR HIM and you will just become dependent and you will never be truly happy


no i mean recently


What's going on?


yeah recently meaning 3 days ago


oh


hmm


well maybe he does want to be with u and not the other girl


idk


when the girl i liked did this kind of stuff she kind of just was sad and lonely and would just use me as a buffer till she regot a new bf or something


then she would be like yea i dont love u i was just joking


or she would say i dont love u i only said it to make u happy


like her faking loving me would make me happy


sigh


honestly their comes a time when a relationship is meant to die


even tho you dont want it to


and u think u can make things be right or happy again they will never be back to that place again


it will probably be best for ur self esteam and ur mental health if you just put them behind u and just be friends with them and find someone else to have be ur listener and helper


yeah but you know that's hard


it's not easy to trust someone


it took me months to open up to him


well if u want im here for u


u can work up ur trust with me if u want


it'll take long


thats fine with me


its really up to u


i'll think about it


alrighty


i hope u feel a little better


if not alot


I think I being prank


3 people that rarely text/contact me suddenly ask to be my bf


hmmm


this is very sus


yup


well I don't like them to accept their confession


I politely say no already


hmm


interesting


I got diagnosed with a stomach cancer


And I feel great


oh


well thats good...ig


Once again my mother told me to dress like a boy not a girl but im a girl


i'll got no choice but to get used to it


so


im sorry


is there any way to talk to your mom about how it upsets you?


Do you know what is tiring the stupidity of the human race? the everlasting cry for issues. It's tiring and cliche at this point. Every day there is more and more of it at this point it's like dogpiling upon a big pile that some called everyday life. Added with a sniff of growing need to overexert oneself for somebody else's need without getting anything in return. The decency of humanity has gone from a simple thanks to the selfish expectancy that it's normal to slave oneself away for another without getting anything in return the simple words thank you have become more of a slave away more for my own selfish needs. It's tiring seeing this happen day in and out and expericining this but for what? and mostly why? Why is there such a need to expect this of another why can't one simply be thankful but instead what happens is a bigger expectancy for it? At this point I conclude that human creed has reached its pinnacle. Mostly in this current generation the creed to expect more from another then you give to others.


nice of u to bring up that issue


unfortunanlty no one cares due to the fact that people usually only worry about themselves and since this doesnt affect them to a degree as long as people are helping them ur words are of utter nonsense and worthless


but u speak very sensable truths and unfortunantly the world is just going down hill further and further and theres not a thing we can do


Eevee how are u doing today?


Don't start conversations here, nipotino.


and Don't be rude.


i cant message them otherwise shah


and im not being rude


im being concerned due to the fact of how upset they were


u can scroll up if u want


u wernt here to try and help tho so it probably wouldnt matter to you


but they have their friends requst turned off and their messages turnd off and i dont just want to hop in general chat to see if their doing alright or not cause its none of the general peoples buisness and i dont want to down their mood or anything by bringing a venting topic into general


i mean to a degree im right


this involves venting


not general chatting


You still cannot start convos. Go to main chat, and if it gets into the venting conversation then you can come here. How are you doing? is not a venting topic. It's a question. And the way you said it was rude. ur words are of utter nonsense and worthless.


like a phyciatrist checking up on their patient


oh


If you continue to argue with me on this, I will have to warn you. Please listen to Staff, like Charmy said.


ur reffering to that


alright fine


ill say a vent


the staff here have no common sense and they fight anything anyone tries to do or say even if they have a good point or are somewhat in the right. instead they just go off what they think is right and take no ones opinions into account


ive seen it happen to many times and its really annoying


yall dont help anyone feel better in the vent channel


and yall dont help people in general


yall just sit around until someone has an actual problem and when someone tries to help or agree with someones vent which is what i was doing to goblins u get pissy


i wasnt saying anything rude to him


i was agreeing with him by saying no one will listen cause people are self centerd


hell u just walts into here and said something to me


but didnt take the time to say anything to charmy


to try and help them on their vent


all i did was come here to try and check on someone to see how they were doing cause i care about peoples problems


where as u just came here to cause more


so go back to what u were doing and watch the general chat roll by and leave the vent part alone since u obviously dont care about anyones problems where as i do


and want to help if i can


god my head hurts so much


Should just listen when told not to do something


u seriosly say that when you come here and vent like every day?


Guys. Resolve this elsewhere.


or is that wrong isaiah?


nipotino I understand your side of this too but let's try so resolve this somewhere else, mk?


I don't vent much.


So it's wrong


Anyway.


is there a dif isaiah?


Go to chat


Isaiah, Nipo. Not here.


Hey, um...to anyone reading this, sorry about what happened above. It looks like a mere misunderstanding on someone's part. Let's continue on normally as this is a place to let out your emotions; Not argue. Thank you


Isaiah, lets go to a different chat. Thank you for trying to help, but we should step away from this.:


Regine Leave him alone


Thank you


Koala, I see you typing, please do not involve yourself in this.


nipotino youre allowed to check on evee, thank you for your concern


thank you


well i hope their ok at least since their offline atm


I've never really felt like this before, but whenever my friends go offline I just feel really lonely and bored.


The smallest things start to make me sad e.g. someone not replying to dms when they're online, being ignored and I just feel really helpless...maybe it's the fact that I haven't seen my cousin in so long, and she's the only other person aside from my closest friend that can make me feel truly happy? I may see her tomorrow so that's something I can look forward to...but that's the thing; It's the very first thing i've actually looked forward to in a while other than the normal things like playing mc with my friend at a certain time, or just something random. I just...feel lonely and never really have much to look forward to. I lack the excitement in life...it's all drained. Probably beacause of Covid...if covid wasn't here, I could see my irl friends, be able to call my online friends more, and overall just be more social. But rn I just feel really closed off, lonely, and sad.


This is a really mixed vent, sorry if you get confused...


I totally understand your feeling. it's like the feeling so empty inside and lost. Wanna know a secret? when I feel like that, I find something to do. I just start embroidery as a hobby which truly awesome. What you feel right now because you spend too much time online, so you depending on people to make you feel exist or needed. When was the last time you spend time just for yourself? Only for you without others. Hey myself! let's do something fun! that way you will see what yourself actually want is not others' attention but you.


I don't know anything fun to do, I usually do GFX but I can't when I'm tired


Like I said...nothing really excites me nor sparks my interest easily anymore


hmmm... does it has to be something that excites you? why can't it be like a challenge? So it will force you to move and do something


Challenge 1: find something that excites me


challenge 2: do something until it's excite me


p/s: what is gfx?


And yeah...it does, or else i'll get bored and just stop doing it


i can understand that tommy


i felt the same way about this girl at school


well


to a degree since urs is ur cousin and mines just a random person ive known for a while


but im sorry to hear ur dealing with that


im here if u need someone to talk to or want to play minecraft with someone


you can play minecraft with me and my friends! we have a minecraft server where we all play together, tommy. i'm here for you, whenever you want to talk to somebody. my dms are always open. i know we do not know each other well, but i am always here to talk if you need somebody to talk to. im always here


a normal server


a small server tho, not many people


thanks for making me feel better you guys


of course, they are okay with it


they're always welcoming


nice


sounds like fun


honestly tho at least their able to talk


even if he has to wait and doesnt get long


its still good hes able to get that time


I feel like im on the verge of a panic attack. My parents are arguing and theyre just going and going, and I wanna tell them to stop, but ill probably be told to shut up. Im just scared and worried and at this point crying. I want this to end, I wanna stop being scared and worried about whats gonna happen. why cant this just end, why doesnt she just walk away and take us so that we dont have to suffer any longer.


I cant take this anymore, its not just that I want out of here, its that I need to get out of here. I dont even feel safe nor do I feel comfortable in my own house anymore because of their fighting.


ooff


im so sorryyy


Yup since i was three


I didn't know that


Ik not really anyone knows


And if they do they don't do anything about it so i continue to suffer:


I can't do anything other than help you here


I know


I was reffering to people irl


okayyy let's see what she always want you to wear


tshirt and jeans?


Boy clothes


T shirt jeans oversized hoodies jeans no dresses no skirts even if they are long and show no cleveage or booty


I think she wants me to forever be a tomboy and never dress like a girl because she thinks its yk s l u t t y


owhhh


if you creative, that will show more feminine side


me literally wear oversize hoodie and still me a girl


let's switch out mindset because we can't change your mom but we can change you


how to make that oversized clothes look feminine


so many bad people eyeing for young girls like you


plus, if you start to show off your body from this young, this is the start when you will build up insecurity to yourself


why?


Because the more you show, the more people will judge you


No i cant because then ill get hit or degraded or yelled at


hold on. brb


where are you from?


seriously getting hit just from wearing something cute... that is bad


California


Wdym emotional


I am not


I have 11 brother 1 sister and one on the way


I mean, some people when they talk about their feeling they like to cry and yell


I dont yell


that's a lot


I cry


you know talk without showing emotion because parents love to use guilt trip when they see you become emotional


tell you feeling like you talk in professional meeting


can you imagine that?


Look, you don't know much about how my mom is she has multiple pereonality disorder and she used to be an alcoholic she degrades me on a daily basis takes down my confidence and has choked me burned me with a spoon and more


Im not mad


Im just explaining


I try to understand your situation


also sorry for the mess with the staff/admins, i read it bruh. i can see your point


nipotino


She's thrown away borrowed clothes that i had from a friend


Gone through my things


Hit me, yelled at me, punished me for no reason


that sounds awful


god! you really a strong kid


Teen


Kids are 12 and under


okay, teen then


I call everyone baby and kid if I like them


Oki


you really a strong teen


better sweetpea?


I am really sorry you have to go through all that. You don't deserve that, nobody deserves that.


Ive tried attempting over several times the last time was February and ive stopped self harming


Well, I am glad you have stopped harming yourself. It's for the better.


I also whilst getting abused by mom was abused by both my grandmas neglected by my dad and severly bullied at school


it's not easy but you did it


I'm lucky I'm not dead i could be but im not


I still get abused less bullying now


No friends


No confidence


But i think one thing that kept me alive is love


Anyways have a nice day


Oh


And


Ive also been assulted by my moms bf and others


Now have a nice day thanks for listening to my lifelong and current day suffering


be strong until you 18


then get out from all of those toxic thingy


Im extremely scared and worried about things that are going to happen one day. Idk why but lately ive just been crying at night time thinking about some people i really care about's death and other things and I dont really know what to do ot how to be prepared for it to happen


I havent seen them in 2 years


i have a problem. im currently in a relationship with someone but ive made feelings for someone else. who do i choose?


It's best to chose the one that you mostly like. No one's gonna force you to one or the other. Your current bf/gf will understand, i'm sure of it.


As koko said, go with the one that you truly like. If you were to stay in that relationship, it wouldnt rlly be called one if you have feelings for someone else.


I got pinged 3 times


mal I don't think you can really blame em tho


Ill be venting tysm


mal honestly tho


With that friendship you might want to talk to her/him about it


And say how they're making you feel


Ok I feel comfortable here


Alright so


Recently my bff has been spending more time with her online friend than me


I still want to be her best friend but the thing is I want to be pleased


Im really not trying to be rude but I dont really like her online friend


Please in what way


Like for her to talk to me equally


Something I learned along with some of my other friends


You just have to let people go


Im waiting for her to just realize Im here


And you have to move on if the people they hang around don't make you feel equal then you have to let go of the one thing that's keeping you there


The same quote applies for this as well


there's more fish in the sea there are always new people that would be willing to make friends with you


My bff who Im just gonna name coco


I just want to be independent of myself for once


Not having to worry about everything


Well I would saying something responding to that


But as you're how old?


Like an age ratio


I dont really like saying my age


Ik but saying like 1315 or something like that


Im 13


Ok well considering your 13 you can't really be independent ya we all want to when we're 13 but we can't


We always need someone that cares about us


You probably just need to get new friends


Oh


I know


The only friends I have nowadays are online friends


Yes exactly


And I only have 1 friend irl for the reason that everyone else me and him try and become friends with irl they all hate us


Last year I lost 3 friends all bc of fights


So we put making friends irl aside and started looking for new people to be friends with


People who know how to treat us equally to them


I have lots of online friends


If you want me to


Nvm


But just send her a message your bff and say how you feel and that it's making you sad


Tho I can't really say too much cus I'm only 14


She unfriended me


Well then it's a sign she doesn't really want to be around you anymore then


Which is quite sad


Yeah


mal but yeah


thanks so much for the help


i appreciate it a ton


If she unfriended you it's a clear sign she doesn't want you around anymore


She does it for fun she tells me


She always friends me back again


Its annoying though


Ask her if it's actually for fun


I will


Thanks again


Np


Dm me cus I'm hardly here or you could shoot me a dm whenever mal


huheuhgfjh,may i vent?


thanks,;


Ofc


Id love to help!


euuehguugheu,


im rlly anxious rn bc i bought me and my friend friendship braclets and im worried on if they arrive, or how am i going to send the other pair


and what if after i just kill myself, so now my friend has a constant reminder that i no longer exist?


anxiety go brrr


Whyd it delete


Oops


I didnt mean to


aaa, stress, im very dumb, abusive parents, years of bullying which somehow will continue after i go back to school


okk,thank you


well verbally, but my mom sometimes threatens me with physical abuse


Have you tried talking to them about it?


Is there anyone trusted you can tell?


i lost best friends, 5 breakups, lonely. almost everyone i talk to about my breakups, they just expect me to get over it. and its very hard to get over it. im physically verbally abused, to scared to call the cops. I love sleeping over at other peoples houses, instead of my mom and dads. I say everythings ok. one time i cried in front of my family because they were comparing me with me and my cousin, my cousin makes her bed, isnt on the internet that much, eats healthy. while im the opposite. then my mom tells me just to smile either if you are sad or crying.


Dont be scared to get help. If they dont catch what your abusers are doing then it might be best to run away. I understand the break up problems. It's better to let it out instead of bottling it up.


It takes time


Try to take care of yourself and get hobbies to distract from it


We are here for you if you ever need support


thank you.


Your welcome make sure to realize how awsome you really are


I can't do this anymore


Why can't I just put a gun to my head and end it all


Its not like anyone would care anyway.


Thats what everyone says.


But do they mean it?


There's no point in living anyway, its a cold cruel world.


Its just hard to open up.


I've been bottling things inside me for so long.


So now I feel empty and worthless.


I know.


It would be better if we talked in dms i guess.


I'd like to just cry, yet I can't bring myself to do so when I need it the most. Instead I just cry over stupid things and things I shouldn't. I want to just have a normal life for once, but I don't think it'll ever be normal, or at least not until I figure my triggers out.


if that's all, please use main chat, unless you plan to provide input to help.


or venting yourself


Yeah they leave for no reason. That's ok though. Just know you did nothing wrong at all.


I wish I had the will to write:/


I need to


But I'm not gonna force myself to do it again


Like last time


If it helps you should do it


Or maybe listen to some calming music


Heh calming music


I've been extremely antsy lately


What's wrong


Sigh


Needing to handle my mental health


Can I send some music?


What calms me music wise, makes others shudder.


Rock?


I have some metal type rock


Theres a song called America by motionless in white if you want


I hardly listen to rock, let's just say it's not for the general public


Good band


Used to listen to them a lot


Um


My sister listens to them


I probably should write again in the near future


I've been itching to get things done with that


Whenever you need it most


Writing isn't a coping thing for me unless I have the words


And I haven't had the words for a month


I can't seem to put the words to how I feel


Well you have the feelings right? Mabye draw it out in a diary


But majority of those words are uplifting and positive


You can try drawing how you feel if words cant describe it


Writing is usually what I do. Have been for years but that's because I cannot draw


Who cares if others dont like it? You are drawing for you. Not other people


As long as you feel better then that's all that matters


I'd personally rather not do something I'll look back at a lot


I look back at my writing a lot


You dont have to look back at it. Just keep creating whenever you need to


Give yourself a hug


I'm better with words than being able to create pictures


Hm then keep thinking


I prefer to write but only when I can or else I get frustrated forcing myself


Mabye it's best to recharge alone whenever you can


I have no alone


Ever


Why not:c


Bc I don't have a room.


Or privacy


Why not? You should have privacy


Bc I don't have that luxury


Not my decision what so ever


Why isnt there any privacy though?


Is it a shelter of some sort?


If you dont feel like telling it is fine


Do your parents not give privacy? That's not ok if they dont


I don't have a room there is no privacy


Not even a bathroom or anything to hide in?


I'd rather not sit in a bathroom for hours:/


Hm ok whenever you need to talk feel free to dm me


Or vent


we all love you


Make sure to take care of yourself


Not me over here vibing on mc while my parents are behind me fighting. Cant wait to think back to this after theyre divorced and be like wow, I was seriously playing a block game while my parents were talking about getting divorced”


Wonder what would happen if I intervened.


thing is


If I walk away.


He knows that he instantly gains a whole load more power over my mum.


So I ain't going nowhere.


I'm tempted to message my nan


But i'm worried my parents are gonna get mad, mainly my dad


Trust me.


He can't do anything with me out here.


While I may be young, like I said before, he only gains power when he's alone


Oh, the fighting is gonna end sooner or later.


Looks like I was right.


Hopefully they follow through on getting divorced this time.


i just came to read this and i hope ur ok Aiko


Oh, i'm fine owo


e goodiewowo1:


omg not again, i havent relised the time and its so late


Oh, same.


It's nearly 12am


Nearly what... 5 hrs of fighting now? jeezus


I usually advise people and kinda be a therapist for them whenever they need help but right when it comes to me I really did not want to bother them about it but I honestly feel like I'm losing myself these days due to stress probably school and exams it's kinda tiring myself, I love studying,been loving books since pre school but nowadays I feel exhausted whenever I look at my books and I really don't like relationships and stuff but I think as I'm growing I feel that need but I will still ignore it cause it's trivial


I feel so lost


I wish I were close to someone but they seem so distant


but then I cannot approach him in that way cause he's the same with everyone he's sweet with everyone and then when it comes to me I am so messed up with my own life I cannot even imagine us and then my own studies I feel like if I focus on my studies I won't give him time and he'll go more distant and if I give him more time my studies my career will be at risk


I don't want to give up on either right now but if my mood continues like how stressed it is right now I might just


give up


sigh venting felt good


Today People told me I felt off


What could I have said


Just I'm fineee it's just I'm busyy


That's all I can say


give yourself a break a bit


go out, do something fun


take day off from studying.


spend time with yourself


maybe dinner with family


I'll try but even during the breaks i take my overthinking mind just goes brrr ugh


i have so much gender envy for yuri piletsky its not even funny like why cant i look like him? be his gender? be him? it hurts when i think about it


You can be his gender if you want. You also have to realize how nice you look too. Mabye wear things that make you feel better


the thing is i cant


It's best to try dressing in a more masculine way before fully reassigning genders


my mom refuses to buy me masculine stuff


and i cant really support myself yet


Have you talked to her about it?


im too scared to, my whole family is lgbtphobic


no


they say i dont need one


That isn't fair of them at all... you can start by considering yourself a guy then. It might help a little at least I hope


thank you so much, out of all my friends youre the only one who actually responded


Aw thanks I'm sure they care though but might just be busy


no, theyre all online


talking in a different channel


When they are in chat they cant see other channels


They care though


once again, thank you and sorry for bothering you with my problems


I'm not bothered:D I came to this channel for a reason pls vent anytime


i will if i have anything i have to get off my chest, have a good day/night


Ok you too:D


i'm a bit worried for a friend of a mine. i met her on discord, one day she sent me an entire paragraph on i'm so so so sorry if i'm bothering you do you want to be friends. her statuses have always been something like i wish i had someone to be with or something similar. but now, she removed her pfp and her status is gone since no one wants me on this platform anyway and she hasn't answered me in 24h.


ethan, you shouldn't listen to your family. of course, it's hard to feel accepted when your own family won't do so, but everyone else's opinions matter more if they support and accept you. your family isn't a good family for not accepting your own son. if possible, try to avoid them more, i guess? i hope everything goes fine for you since i really do not know how to help, but please, do remember that all of us are here to support you through your difficulties. you matter!


I'm back


Dont worry about them


Be yourself


If you spend life listening and following rules of others you wont be able to enjoy it


Well you arent. She just doesnt understand. It isnt hurting anyone so let it be.


She has diagnosed boomer brain


That's why... times are changing and also...lgbtq was there before she was born


Alexander Hamilton confessed love to a man...


So just be yourself


here's another small vent to anyone who is willing to listen.


so recently i have been feeling lost because i don't know who i am anymore. 2020 just ended and a new year has begun and i thought things will go well, but the year has just started and i already feel bad. i feel like i have lost myself and idk where to start over. last year so many people have brought me down and now idk what to do with myself anymore. sometimes i look in front of the mirror and say who am i?. i just feel so useless, so broken. idk what to do anymore. i just need some advice. idk how to heal. i don't even know myself anymore. it may sound all stupid but i feel lost. and nobody is here to help me through these tough times, so this is the only place i can express my feelings.


Losing people is normal. As long as you have yourself that's all that matters. It might take experimenting to find out who you are.


It might be best to take time off of searching for friends and try asking questions and trying out different versions of you. Be yourself, not who you want to be


Pets are pretty helpful with that so if you are considering getting one or have one then you should definitely buy one and comfort eachother


there are a few things that make comfort me. such as my family and my cat. but i still can't help but feel empty inside. i have already gotten over those people who hurt me in life. it was a long recovery but i did it. i just need to heal, but idk how. im kinda confused about who i am, confused about my present and future. making new friends isn't a goal for me as of now. i want to find who i am before i meet new people. and with school around it doesn't make things any easier. i just hope i find myself soon, before i lose hope and let go.


its me again with more problems...


last night i asked my brothers what they would do if i was a boy, my older brother replied with'i would beat you up' and the younger one said'i would make fun of you' its not that hard to just support me? and they completely ignored when i said i wanted to be a boy also the fact that this morning my older brother told me i'd never be able to be one i want to leave


thank you so much


Ight, thatll do for today. Keep messaging and Ill help when I can:p


Thank you sm he does care about my education and constantly tells me to take care of myself


im so mad right now. btw this is more like a rant, so i spent 3 hours trying to get nitro in a server that had those weird ivite things then when i invited 50 PEOPLE YES I MEAN 50 they banned me and i couldnt get my nitro. im gonna go watch attack on titan now bc istg this eren boi is so bootiful. bye bye and goodluck on whatever youre doing rn TT/


How rude of them!


my ex friend who i had an argument joined sayumi and now im paranoid and i dont know what to do i know that sayumi is a big server so me and her probably wont talk again but im just like nervous. i dont know what to do bc i like being in sayumi but i really dont want to b in a shared server w her, should i just ignore it and hopefully not talk when shes online?


I mean if they cause issues with you in chats that's their problem and they will have consequences, we don't like toxicity and others causing drama in chats. You should feel free to do what you wish whether or not they're online. You shouldn't be worried about the other persons um thoughts or anything as long as they aren't projected toward you. This server is a drama free zone and if such things happens we will handle it properly do not worry gail


Sorry for making it so long and the ping


do yous think this is an okay apology after an argument


look im sorry for the other day, i wasnt in the best headspace clearly and i agree with most of the points you made. I was encouraged to argue with you not saying who by and i regret not listening to myself and Nathan. Most of it is because im so self destructive and helpless at this point. I know i need to stop and i was trying. I regret what i did and i let myself down. I told myself to stop and i can no longer help myself. Thats why im going to fix this, ive messaged someone with the same issue and im going to find better ways to deal with it, once again, I am sorry.


Seems pretty nice.


I think it will work but it could take a while to gain back trust


but what about for someone who hates me and also doesn't feel bad at all about anything


Well that might not work...


Just keep trying


alr


I hope it works


ill probably send him it tomorrow or whenever he unblocks me, thank you


Do they have any other social media?


Like number, discord, insta?


only discord and snap


and he blocked me on snap


so im debating sending it on discord


You should probably go quick before they block you again


but he will probably just ignore it/ block me on here


As long as he knows


If he blocks that means he doesnt accept the apology


And that's fine since you have us


he still hasn't accepted my apology from last week


Trying again doesnt hurt


i like this boy but im self destructive and ruined everything


i was having a really bad day and just did it


Hey it's fine. I had a similar experience


this is my 3rd argument with him this week


Hm yeah it happens. You might wanna include that you are sorry for the arguments


yeah


i just sent him this


look im sorry for earlier. im the best headspace clearly and i agree with most of the points you made. I was encouraged to argue with you not saying who by and i regret not listening to myself and Nathan. Most of it is because im so self destructive and helpless at this point. I know i need to stop and i was trying. I regret what i did and i let myself down. I told myself to stop and i can no longer help myself. Thats why im going to fix this, ive messaged someone with the same issue and im going to find better ways to deal with it, once again, I am sorry. Also im feeling self destructive rn and thats why im even messaging u this is embarrassing i hate myself lmao anyhow i agree with your points nd that sorry


bet he ignores me/ blocks me


yup he blocked me


Well then it's best to let go


Try meeting some new people mabye


Sometimes I just feel like people see through me... like Im there, but they dont acknowledge me.. like, people want this, and that. And Im here giving them what they desire and even tho, I do it at extreme lengths... Im not noticed.


Sorry to over take the other vent... just needed to share is all


It's ok


So if people dont notice you mabye stop trying to be noticed and just enjoy yourself


You dont get it, I want their attention


I know


But they wont acknowledge me


If they see how fun you are then they will wanna hang out with you


Im putting in a lot of effort too


This is mainly long distance btw. Like through text


When you are trying to make friends it may seem like you are trying too hard and for some reason ppl dont like that


Mabye join a server or talk in one and just enjoy yourself without the goal of friends


People are starting to become selfish or unaware that their actions have effects on people


I've experienced that a lot


Then ignore them


I cant help it, the person/peoples attention I crave and desire so much... they seem incredible and they have this rare personality trait about them I just cant ignore


when you stop trying to make friends some unique traits of yours show


Ye... Im aware... idk... Im mad..


Try going head first and say hey. Wanna be my friend?


If they say no then there is also many people who are unique. Since everyone is different


Idk... Im sorry for wasting your time. This seems silly. I appreciate your advice, Im just more mad then anything else right now


It's ok i was gonna sit here procrastinating anyway


Have a good day.


But your feelings arent silly


I just... ye...


You too


Oh.


Imma dm you...


Oki


I've been feeling so nostalgic and it's been triggering insomnia and I have a early sleep schedule so it's really been effecting me recently I haven't been so happy about a certain someone flat out leaving me without a single goodbye. Last night I spent all night just laying in bed thinking about them. I barely get insomnia and it's just recently I think I've encountered it the most and it's getting really hard for me to pay attention during virtual class. The person was very dear to me and I know it's my fault that they left and it just makes me really upset.


It isn't your fault. If it was wouldnt they try to tell you how you hurt them?


You didnt do anything wrong


If you feel bad when you didnt do anything to them and are upset that they left then it's not your fault


One of the last text they left me was a bitter message.


What happened?


Can I send it to you in DMs?


Yes


My boyfriend broke up with me, my mental health go brrr


I realised how far back into the closet I was with my friends before quarantine started


And I met them on discord yesterday


And they just said ew to my name, pronouns, status and pfp


Feels great


Time to go as far back as I can and stay till I can get out of this hellhole


a lot of friends turned out not to be really friends during the quarantine


but its not your fault


i feel vulnerable and worthless


thats it.


nothing else.


But youre not


Youre amazing


im not


Weve never properly talked. Wanna dm? If like to learn more about why you feel this way:p


literally all everyone did was drain out my hope for myself and replace it with unhealthy thoughts.


Noire, dm me. We will sort this out my feiend


Friend


alright.


that really must of hurt, you deserve so much more then her


I am not all knowing. please do not spam in this channel. and do not take it as a joke either. because it's not. if you don't have anything important to get off your chest then this ain't your channel.


idk if Im making a big deal out of this but


I have been really stressing over school, Ive been having so much missing assignments, and break ends in a few days. I really dont want to fail all my classes because as an Asian Im supposed to be smart girl” and my family has high expectations for me. Everyday my teachers give me 48 assignments per day and its causing me so much stress. I dont know how to explain it without sounding lazy but everyday I cant go to sleep without the stress reminding me that school is starting soon.


is it wrong to ask for symphathy from someone?


Yay


@! Vicky wow he sounds annoying you dont deserve that type of toxicity


Yw:D


I just needed someone to listen to me but everytime I try to talk about my problems to my friends, they ignore or just argue with me. I usually look for something to make me happy, like the comment section on my yt or my discord server but nothing has been sparking up since New Year. Here's the problem, I'm starting to think my mother is being toxic, I tried to ignore the signs but recently she told me she doesn't like being near me and complains about me and my father's attitude. She said that I never cleaned the room and that If she didn't clean it, no one will She also says the same thing on other chores but the fact that she doesn't notice that when she comes home the room is clean. My mother has been complaining and complaining about everything around her since I was at elementary and she will continue but everytime I try to confront her about it she does this I'm right, you're wrong thing, which is really piing me off. I talked about it with my family members but they told my mom what I told about her and she got really mad about it. I'm too scared to say everything since she did this ever since I was little. It's probably a selfdiagnosing or real but I'm really stressed and the fact that I'm bottling up my feelings and doesn't have someone to talk to makes it even worse.


sorry if I had bad grammar:


Hm she does seem toxic


And your friends do too


I just reallly need to let this out


Agreed though you really deserve so much better than friends who gaslight and make you feel like you did wrong for opening up


thank you!


Im just stressed about this


Your welcome:D next time you talk to your mom try showing that it isnt a joke and you mean buisness


It's ok make sure to sleep well


she doesn't have work


she's a housewife


tysm for listening


...oh my... so she isnt doing anything and pushing it on to you


Have you spoke to your dad about it?


No, he's busy playing games after work


Like another problem


Well remember you are more important than any game make sure you say that's its important


I can confront my dad more but


he says


Can't I play one game?


I'm so tired at work, can we do it tomorrow


Well he has his entire life to play games but talking to you is limited


Record it and show it to him the next day


We aren't that close ngl


and He gets mad if I repeat it


It's been tomorrow for days then and you should tell him that and ask when he will finally listen


oki thx:


Yw:D


but he's like night shift


and when it's morning he sleeps


Oki! thank uou again for listening


Whenever he is up try talking to him


Tysm:


Yw make sure to speak to your friends too


I feel honestly heartbroken since i told the guy i have a crush on that I love him a lot and it seems like yesterday he just found out after he told me he loves someone else, like before that I told him almost every month that i love him he never focused so the ok same thing wasn't true I guess


I dont think he was lying when he said ok same, but i do think he just thought of it as platonic love and he just now found out that you thought of him romantically. I think you two can still maintain a good relationship without being super awkward as long as youre committed. And maybe in the future he will grow to think of you romantically? Either way, i wouldnt be too upset, theres so many people out there that will love and care for you, so dont throw your heart away because of one boy


Hey guys can I vent


I honestly feel like social media has changed me


I failed Highschool


...and I feel like a disappointment to my family


Lmao thats so much im sorry


Thank you that means a lot 3


Ofc!


cait i love u so much, when you asked me out earlier i cried. your so amazing and i cant explain how much u mean to me. i love making tiktoks with you, your so funny and i love your humor, i love how you understand my humor and jokes. ilysm bby.


'' congratulations!


For anyone who's feeling down, your amazing


might not be venting i dont really know much about venting so yeah


but i really wanna let this out