I happens in small groups too


Even with singular people


Im awful at speaking up


I sound like a kindergartner


then if they ignore you maybe they aren't the people you should talk to


And I feel like the only reason people even interact with me is because Im nice


Everyone does it Simar


no


everyone sees u here


Okay


chloe yes u are nice and ur a good friend to everyone and everyone loves talking to u


Thanks Simar


ik it probably doesn't help me saying that cause everyone says that but i get the feeling of being ignored and out casted, it happens to me a lot and i usually don't really care cause ik it happens but ik everyone is different and have different ways of going with problems and i get ur saying ur awful at speaking up maybe just say how u feel and tell them that ur feeling ignored


No it dont want to be rude and I shouldnt have said anything in here in the first place but i really appreciate you talking with me thank you very much


Thank you


no u should talk


u shouldn't just throw it away


its not being rude


ur just saying how u feel


thats not rude


saying how u feel and being rude is two different things


also discord sooo laggy, it took like 6sec for that msg to load


also being nice is easier then being mean. you get treated better and you can feel better avout yourself. people also are more willing to stand up for you and lend you favors


thats why so many people are nice..maybe. and thats why nice is boring and mean is interesting. so if you wanne get sociale power you should be nice too people who are usefull and be mean infront of those friends towards other people so you seem more interesting


normal is boring btw


coming in contact with the sociale sphere everday makes me feel like there's nothing to miss tbh


Social sphere?


I mean being nice is the best thing about someone


Like take me for example, I am really bad at my subjects and lack a lot of general knowledge but I try to be kind to people so they dont think Im worthless


ye but thats the thing, being nice is easy and therefore shouldnt be counted as a pro, a lot of people are nice every can be nice. and i every1 can do what u do but even better you are still worthless


sry im bad at acting


I am pretty good at being worthless


true


same


yo wait, who just added me on snap CUZ LIKE IT SAYS BY SEARCH...confess:


O


Did u put ur snap on somewhere?


thats the thing, idrk


Do u remember putting ur snap anywhere?


nah man


Maybe friend gave it to them


insta: said.and.done


snap: tae.ok


flat 21st of May, 2020


Big yikes


jajaja


What


i feel ya. its like u have to be like someone else.


Mhm


I hate having to act like someone else, makes me feel bad


ya it stupid


i mean ur still growing so


no one looks normal


there is no normal


everyone is different


u just gonna be urself and embrace it


there is no right way to look


ya


everyone is beautiful and should embrace that


You cannot be judged between two people because no two people are the same apart from twins an stuff


thats not true


its alri


everyone has opinions


u were just wanting to share ur opinion


Why my life gotta be so confusing


So there is a girl who I dated a year or so ago and I still kinda like her and she is in my math class but I hate math so much because Im so bad at it


She is also in my sport class and we somehow manage to always be on same team


Idk why


Idk how


Starcrossed lovers


Oh wait that's English Lit... Not maths or Sport...


Ah well either way, probably either she's messing with you, or it's a huge coincidence, both equally possible


Wym she messing with me


You mean like she trying to get into my team on purpose


if your teachers are choosing the teams they might know you have a crush on her and theyre trying to get you both closer


We dated tho and it was for two weeks


I never knew why she broke up but I think I know


No the teachers do random picks


Like they say your blue team


That kinda stuff


i mean are you sure?


I dont think teachers actually care about that


i think theyre choosing you and her on the same tea@


But thats just what i think


And people always move around to try be with certain people but I dont


some do


I dont know


I have math tomorrow


So like we will talk a bit in class because she sits near my friend


i mean the could think it guy i dunno


but


I think its just coincidence


for every team in that class? i mean it would be crazy if it was just a coincidence but if the teachers knew you were dating its probably why or maybe someone told them about you two


But the teams are random


And we usually have 34 teams


Like


do they point at you and say red team then point at someone else and say blue team


Visible frustration”


Yes


yea they do it on purpose most likely


thats not random because they dont want to put a big friend group all together or anything


Its hard to explain


So we kinda semi circle around him while he explains the rules then he just starts somewhere and says what team in and order like, red, green, yellow, blue


Damn


Famn


hmm


okay


Idk... ive seen so much homophbia today i kinda just broke. I dont get it. I just wanna freely love who i wanna without fear of being killed or tortured or threatened. Ill never get why people are so concerned about how people choose to identify or who people love.


I dont often start crying but i guess today just...


Im sorry about that but thats todays messed up world, little hope for the future and heaps of violence


I have a message for homophobes


i didnt think i would be back here on this account again but here i am but hey people


i just wanna get out of this house as soon as i can but i wont be able to for ages i just really hate it here


Omg ur back


yea i am


Yea its annoying how were just trapped in our houses


And for so long


and like its not fair we should be able to leave when we want because like people dont know how you actually feel about your family


they could be abusing you but no one would believe you at all because of their reputation”


Yea, very true


A lot of the stuff keeping us inside is part politics and part science


Idek at this point


and like most people are too scared of what might happen if they tell anyone


Yeah a lot of people cant really access other adults to tell rn


if i just disappear its because my phones died and i havent got a charger no more


like thats the main reason ive made this account so i can like tell people how i feel without them knowing who i am id rather be anonymously telling people than using my main


yea


Yea i feel like i should make an anonymous account as well


but like im not gonna tell anyone who i am because then like think about why they could do


Sometimes sharing your opinion or view on something really backfires


then people see you as the bad person and you cant say anything else then your feelings just get bottles up inside


Yea pretty much


Not all the time tho


There are always gonna be people that share your opinions on stuff


like one of my siblings said they hope i die and theyre still favourited it says a lot


you can hardly trust anyone anymore


I mean i dont think thats true


You can trust people


Just not everyone


but like most people just stab you in the back


its gonna be hard to find real people who dont share everything


I mean you just have to learn who to trust


Idk im not really good at that tho


I tend to trust a lot of people for the smallest reasons


yea


but like its scary trying to find more friends and things


How is it scary?


like they could turn on you like randomly then youll be left alown


alone


There are definitely a lot of people that wouldnt do that, you really juat have to find them


Just


but its just scary talking to new people you dont even know them


Its easier to make friends if you are more social and understanding


ive gotta go my phones about to die


im sorry for cutting the convo off early


Otay


Its fine


Byebye


byee!


WHAT IS IT WITH EVERYONE AND STATUES ATM GEEEZ


ya i get what u mean


Honestly, first it was Brexit, then it was the general election, then just 2020 in general


Im sad;;


Why


Idk man


I miss my irl friends


But


I feel like they dont really care abt me anymore


im sure they do care about you


maybe reconnect with them like text or call


Ive been doing that in the past, but it usually seemed like they didnt want to talk


But then they say theyre worried about me cus ive been acting distant


Its hard to keep up a conversation with someone when ur the only one trying ya know


So i just kind of stopped


its alright


its kinda hard to connect with people in quarantine


i actually haven't talked to anyone in my school for like 2 months


after quarantine im sure you can reconnect with them


I hope


ya


just don't worry so much, its hard for everyone so im guessing they feel the same


I feel like i should make some new friends tbh, but its a bit too late for that rn


no


its never too late to make friends


Its never too late


Ok


Ill try and talk to some of them tommorrow


i hope it goes well


Thank you, and i hope it does too


Also, idk where to put this, but ima be taking a break from discord for a while


o


oki take as much time as u need


just stay safe


and take care of urself


I'll be back tho


Otay


You too man


And uhh


Gnight


Im tired


Good night


sleep well


Goodnight


i hope tomorrow is a wonderful day for you


You too


Bye guys


bye


Cya


later


Ik I thought I was in main and just saw


Gonna go toaster bath be back


motivation? More like, what tf am i doing anymore pog


Minecraft


yes


well doing something your happy doing is always good


but you can always motivate people in different wats


ways


I can tell you when I was a teenager I was in the same boat I didnt think I would be good enough and I was super depressed and didnt know how to be who I am today. It gets way better and tbh high school for me seems like a lifetime ago


I used to get into sooo much trouble and I ended up realizing hey wow my parents do care


yeah i get in trouble a lot but its because my sister always lies to get out of trouble


Yeah it happens but try not to get so down on yourself everything ALWAYS gets better and thats a fact if you really believe it


i suppose


but like idc what people say about me being smart because they arent me, they dont know what i do every second


Good you shouldnt! At the end of the day its you that you have to spend the rest of your life with you might as well enjoy it and not worry about what others think


its impossible to not care about what other pepole think tho


Gets easier with time they


Tbh


yeah I gues


guess


fax no printer


Thats good to know, I have been enlightened


Thats


i once saw a snail and poured a whole lot of salt over it


i once kicked a bunny


i saw a bird once with broken wings and picked it up and dropped it some where


i dont rememvber wher


wdum


my reasoning


so you killed a bird


nopoint why you trying to help this man I don't think the bird was a traumatic experience


i kicked the bunny, because it looked to cute. the bird i just did it without thinking i knew it couldnt fly. the snail i dont remeber, i like snails


do you hate animals?


no


i love animals


yeah what


somtimes i just feel like every1 likes animals too much


so you beat animals


i dont beat them


some animals dont get enough


it just annoying


true


Messed up imo


i dont like to eat in public because i look weird when i eat


hmmm


no!


people look at me when i eat, cant even enjoy it


np sir point of no


there is a point


yes


Hm I think it isnt worrying that you had that reaction


Um, so yesterday i had to go to the doctors and stuff and shit and we were there just do do some things and they we had to test for corona and everyone in my family is fine they don't have corona but my test was messed up for some reason and i don't know the whole story cause my parents saying that im fine but i may have corona, and i should be scared but for some reason im fine im not scared or anything and i don't know if i should worry about having corona or that i gave no reaction


NoPoint awe no im sorry: Try not to worry too much though! My friend and both her parents have tested positive and they are okay. Im sure you will be fine 3


You don't have any underlying health problems do you?


Yeah, you should be perfectly fine. Try not to worry. I mean my mother could have had it cause she had the severe symptoms and was very sick for a while but is fine now. Plus Covid is only killing very young children and elderly people along with people with underlying health conditions like asthma and stuff. But yea, try not to worry too much and if you do get it you my get sick for a bit but you'll be fine after:


Oki, again try not to worry and get too worked up abt it. Love you


hi ren here uhh ok i dont know if this is considered a vent or not but here i go


i have a girlfriend, we were best friends before we started dating and overall everything was just going perfect! then she told me she needed to take a tiny break to catch up on schoolwork. now that school is over, she still hasn't answered my calls or texts. i might just be selfish and clingy, but i'm still really worried. during the period that we haven't talked, about 3 weeks, ive had some issues concerning my sexual identity. i feel more comfortable as someone who isn't gender identified so basically nonbinary but here's the thing. my girlfriend is bisexual. we've already had conversations long before any of this, about her sexuality. i asked if she would date a trans/enby and she said she would rather just stick to boys and girls. HELP? i don't know if she'll be comfortable dating me if i am not genderidentified, let alone if she's not talking to me because she doesn't want to date me anymore at all. well that's it, sorry for being selfish but i just had to let it out.


Just tell her youre non binary. If she isnt into you for that or any other reason, then she just isnt the right person


i know, it would just be really hard to leave her.


and plus im gonna have to wait till she starts talking to me again to tell her


sounds like you got ghosted buddy


i mean most of the time people like eachoter for their personality so the way you look probably won't be that much of a problem for her i think.


that's not even close to what that means but ok


wdum


i think she just broke up with me


what happened


or. shall, i say, how did it happen


oof


what happend


i always bring a knife to school to cut myself in the bathrooms when i get stressed


you should use a rubber band instead


leaves marks but isnt as bad as a knife


how do you do that with a rubber band?


put it on your wrist and flick your arm


oh like shoot your wrist


yes


but not with a gun


oki, i might try that, thx


np thats what im here for


sometimes i dont know if should stop being depressed. it would feel like don't belong to any other subculture anymore


Why are u depressed?


im a retoise and a lot of people think im smart and have already made expectations for me and i dont wanne let them down


If they are your friends then they will never be desappointed


i dont have friends irl


Have u tried make friends?


ye, im too boring though


Well i can be your friend


oh thx, but i mean irl


i have friends that are boring and im still they're friend


what makes you wanne stay friends with them?


Its just that i know them and i see the positive things about them


do you mean that they are just nice people?


I mean im friends with everyone


oh thats cool:0


life must be poggers then


Its just that i like everyone how they are


i cant do that, i always pretend to be, but i just cant help to dislike some personality qualitys


Dont pretend be yourself


i cant be mean, unless im joking


damn none of my friends have seen me MAD MAD and i get mad all the time


i just have to seem bubbly all the time


soo yeah


im also never MAD MAD, but i just sabotage and never share


MM


i dont like sharing either


i was just joking, get jebaited. i love sharing


Lmao


BRUHD SJHZHZU


one time i was going to sit and then i landed on a soap bottle. ive felt gay ever since that moment. now i look twice before i sit down


i mean like who doesnt


i like to play the bad guy a lot of the times


its mostly an end goal behind all my actions


So you like being bad


i'm alive


good good


so like my school posted smth on BLM on their insta and it has 53 comments all from alumni c/o 2020 and a few adults ab how bad the school is in teaching ab racism and everything and i wanna add to it but its all SO true


and i dont wanna add a comment or like comments u can see who likes what but ion wanna get in trouble and ion ruin my chances of getting into colleges


i wanna send pics to show u but it would be a lotta editing for usernames


so i go to a catholic school and the principal and priest posted ab the school and BLM


on one insta post


it has over 50 comments


and theres a lot of hate going to a teacher


yeah but like theres stuff that should be said but creating a fake insta acct to do it will still be bad


You cant get kicked out for saying that stuff or liking that stuff. If it does, you can sue them lmao


but i can


i can get in trouble


and involved in stuff just for speaking my mind


If you do, then it isnt your fault. They cant hold you back for views about not being racist and teaching about problems in the world. I think you should go for it if its important to you


yo she probably does ngl. i tried confronting my sibling with the same type of siyuation and my moment of weakness got taken advantage of


but, she probably doesnt hate you


it seems like she does tho


sometimes parents get so mad they just start calling you names, but they still love you i think


i never understood why they would scream at me. my dad always explained it with a calm voice and a lot of reasoning. i always tend to listen to him more


same, they both have the same intentions tho


and if you are too shy for your mom, let your dad explain it to your mom


but one of my older brothers is so much more openplays music out loud and can generanly talk to then


but me and my olderst brother keep to ourselves alot more


maybe that other older brother is prove that your mother can be talked or negotiated with


i suppose


but he haas always seemed to be more open


i like to scratch my genital area with a knife


why?


it just itshes and it feels satisfying


with a knife


ye


it scratches so well


T M I


what does that stand for?


TO MUCH INFORMATION


i mean she asked for it


but why


dont answer that


whyy do you even ask


why did you tell!


look at you guys claiming me as a weirdo


I MEAN IT IS WEIRD


well... that doesnt mean im weird


im just a normale guy doing weird thins


you sure?


oke oke


Everyone does different things


im sure that even you have your weird behavious


To help themselves


Yes


im just cool enough to tell them in public


but a k n i f e


i like chefs


luckly im a chefcock


Wait u boy right?


omg


or neither?


what made you think i was dude?


uh'Frederik'


because of my poggers attire?


no...'Frederik'


Wait your a girl


Damn


its my imaginaries friend name


i have a lot


I thought you were a boy because your name


johan was my dog


never judge a book by its cover


so am i invited to the sleep over?


that actually makes more sense to me now


adding texture


JKJK


i have found many females on tik tok with a knife kink anyways


im one of the many ofc


What about me


poggers


you male dumbf


im was just joking btw


Wait


but im already in


Duck Im so confused now


Gee are you male?


Or you were joking about the sleepover


Yes Im male


im a dude


this confuses me


but i wasnt joking about my name


sneak 100 im one of the many


im a lvl100 actor


Evie


Ok we should go to main because we just chatting now


we have been bamboozled


tayla


yeah


when i go the bathroom i wipe too deep and aggresive. because of this my keister has been bleeding


i just wanne be an open book really


all my flaws and disgusting feautures on the table


people will start liking me less


and thats what i want tbh


Why dont you want people to like you lmao


thats a question you cant know the answer of. you will need to play the Frederik after story to unlock that content


or you can get the preorder deal, now only kosting a hug


its alrighty, you probably needed it


Theres gonna be a pro police protest something and my parents are going


I'm bout to commit all sue of the sides


oof


Again I'm bout to commit all sue of the sides


Alright I guess not


suicide prevented:0


Oh im so sorry, take all the time you need


oof sry to hear that dude. we hope it all goes well


wow


i'm gonna keep it quick. i've been getting more panic attacks then usual. it would be very nice if when you can vc with me it really calms me down. so if ur not really busy pls @ me if u can vc!:


its loud


Btw riley why


NoPoint why what


YEAH why waht


im sorry im intruding hdhd


Why does school have to be so deadly?


i just dissappointed someone again, she even said that she was extremely dissapointed in me. God just kill me already, why do people even believe in me. i literally always let people down


Y'know what THAT'S A BIG FAT MOOD


Also, whenever someone tells you I'm disappointed in you that's just them telling you their emotion towards you, like saying I'm happy for you, so I just see it as their opinion, which I can choose to ignore or take it as constructive criticism and move on:


Therefore, I don't think you have anything to worry about, why are they disappointed?


i forgot an appointment and left her waiting for half an hour


dude i messed man


i just wish that no1 knew me tbh


A simple mistake, happens to everyone at least a thousand times in their lives, so if this were me I'd just apologize, and take this as a pointer to keep an eye on the time to not be late to planned things, even though I never do and I usually forget anyway, but still! Keep this guilt in mind and use that guilt power to drive yourself into not forgetting appointments:


oke i will, thx for the advice


No probs!


I had something similar happen 3 years ago with my dad too I understand exactly how you feel and relate to you whole heartedly. I am so sorry that happend to you, it's so painful and im really very sorry. First, im glad you've never cut. Relapsing isnt fun. Suicide is also never the answer. I feel the same as you, like something is stopping me and my mother is the same. I should take my oen advice but maybe if your family isnt willing to help try branching out and finding ways personally to find help. Its hard to find places but there are many online therapy things you can get. Please do try and reach out to some 3


Taylax i have reached out to some people ob discord and they have helped me and im getting better little by little


Im so happy you are getting better! I promise that it will get better. It may take a while but im confident that you will make it out of this! 3


Thanks and i hope can get out of this happy and healthy


omg


my mom is taking my custody away from him


IM NOT COMPLAINING


Huh


i literally went to court today, i took a hella gpod photo doe


deletedchannel


wait fr


yEAH LMAO


:D


Yeah I have that as well


I wanna be there for people because my life is so bad rn, I dont want people to know whats really happening in my life and I dont want that stuff to happen to them but whenever Im kind there is always one person who says simp and it just really changes your view after a while


SOFIA FOR EMIL SPREAD THE WORD


cool picture mister:0


i think i can speak for a lot of people when i say that i'd paysomeone to beat me up


im one of the many mood, make me actually not have a mental breakdown over signing a card


wdym signing a card?


and i never what people meant when saying mood


Oh it was a fathers day card for my step dad but they didn't have one that said step dad and i had to write'to daddy' cause my younger siblings name was on it and i kinda broke down and couldn't do it my mother had too after calming me down


im one of the many means you find something relatable when you say mood too it


oh oki thx


but yeah i feel pathetic for having a breakdown over signing a card; w;


did you already post something like this earlier?


nope, the only thing i said about it when it happened i if someone wanted to play mc because i needed a mood lifter


also, familie is important. if you cry to something familie related it just means that you care about them. you should be proud about that


being able to care about some1 to cry for them is hard and not a lot of people can do that


Meh this is different. My dad kinda is dead and i struggled signing a card where i called my step dad, my dad and it just made this uttermost repulsion in me and i couldn't sign it. i feel pathetic because of that


I see


oh hi


so you cant accept your new dad as dad?


but that's understandable


it's going to take a while for you to accept that, so why fret over it? You cannot currently control how you feel about it to that extent, so let it develop over time,


no its not really that. I don't want to replace my dad. I still loved him his death was quite sudden. That's why i don't like calling my step dad, dad... it just doesn't feel right


i dont even say stepdad too him i just call him by his name


that's a solution!,


im also on my extremely hormonal week so that didn't help; w;


don't get all hung up on it, that's how things are now, living in the past in a dangerous mentality to have,


please refrain from getting upset about it in the future, and work towards a solution


yeah idk what really happend. like i said it was signed'to daddy' which is what i used to sign his so i guess its what you would call a trigger


apologies if that was insensitive


no dw


I see,


well, it's your reaction is completely acceptable,


And you sorted it out, somewhat calmly, so you aren't necessarily in the wrong in that situation


it was stupid to cry about it, idk i couldn't sign it myself. i felt guilty at the idea of signing it... i didnt even like the fact my name was on it...


i wanted to give him a card


oh,


please refrain from crying, if you can control it


idk i was just repulsed at how i adressed it


ye i know... i cry too much


understandable,


like w a y too much


well then,


apologies,


idk it's weird... i get frustrated over little things easily and that turns into getting upset which goes to a mental breakdown... i swear I have some form of anger issues cause i end up getting the urge to harm something and its usually the only way to calm down, whether that myself or i just break something like a clothing hanger


I'm assuming your birthday is in November?


a Scorpio perhaps?


No it's today actually, well for me


oh, a new day,


Timezones are strange


multiple irl people you can vent to,


I'm assuming?


i've tried with my mother before but she never did anything. i don't know how to address it to her cause she isn't really the type you can talk to... she is more the type to say you are overreacting


I'm sure the person in question is knowledgeable enough to know that self harm isn't a valid option in situations like this one,


also, that's unfortunate, but that's your mothers viewpoint, and I'm assuming she won't change it easily


i haven't had one of them breakdowns in a while so it's been a while since...


I see


she is accepting but in the mental health department shes not exactly educated... she managed not to gain any mental health issues from her dads death and i envy that


maybe she did but she just hid it well


yeah... they normally refer to camhs and camhs is not good at all


most my friends do camhs and they are just awful


my friends manage to skip meetings with them. they really don't care as long as you are alive and they can't be blamed for it


well


It seems the situation has been calmed to an extent


I apologize for anything you went through, I don't know the full story so I cannot be of more assistance


apologies


no you don't have to apologise. you have been a big help just by talking to me


thank you


I am undeserving of thanks, but I appreciate the gesture


i might be off for the day


my dad just yelled at me for having friends to talk to and almost broke my pc


said i shouldnt have an opinion cause im 15


in that case i shouldnt matter


hes gonna scream at me for having an opinion and having friends then go back in the other room and laugh with his gf about stupid shit


with my entire pc set on the floor bc he doesnt like being wrong


cant even go to my moms either without being screamed at constantly


theres no way for me to be safe and happy


apparently im friends with the wrong people


oof, sry to hear that dude


Im so sorry you have to go through that


Im so sorry about that


Jimpycoo


I sincerely apologize for your fathers reaction


if you'd like to talk about it


im more then willing


refrain from running


Seek help


Try to have a civil conversation with him


If he is unwilling I apologize


he says he wants one


but it ends up in a yelling match


I know trying not to yell in argument is very hard but if one person stays calm it really helps the situation


i dont yell


its him


i stay calm


no


i barely know her


ok


Could you stay at a friend or friends houses for a while so he calms down


same here


strangers will try to support you


You have no reason to trust me


Or anything I say


What makes you believe that I will think your telling the truth about talking to strangers and about not trusting you


Never mind I lost it


I see


your input was highly valued


thank you for making an attempt to help


I respect you, and appreciate the effort you made to help someone you barely know,


I guess its just people who have been there before try help out others who are heading that way, I havent had the same experience as Jimpy is having


Its the little things that can make the biggest difference


I agree completely


I try to help at any time,


it's hard to at times


some people are different


All people are different


No one is the same


but with all the corruption in this world, a minuscule amount of good will go a long way


no one is the same, I agree, if that was the case, we wouldn't be human


Very true


helping people is hard, sometimes i just dont know how respond


I understand how you feel


Same


Its hard to know how someone is feeling when you havent been there yourself


I failed to help someone in the past, so now I try my hardest to help,


true


Personal experience of mine was someone in this server going through a tough time and I was trying to help them and they were offline for a month or so and I just assumed the worst but they are ok


i just get helped a lot and i want to return the favor


I couldn't help someone


I lost them


I have been helped a bit recently


so, I try to help as much as possible


Im sorry


same dude, my best friend commited sewerside 2years ago. i tried to help his depression but i am just so bad with words


I find no reason to mourn someone, I understand the concept, but no matter the situation, they are gone


that's something you cannot change,


im one of the many


Don't blame yourself, that's the first step to getting what he had, remember the times you spent with him, and all the moments you appreciated,


good response, pretty pogu advice


I see


im only trying to help


but it just made me realize how bad i am at speaking my mind


I apologize


if push comes to shove again i wanne be able to make a change you know


no need for apologies, advice is always welcome


change is necessary in evolution


Things go extinct based on their ability to adapt


if you as a human cannot adapt, and become better then the previous generation


it's an unfortunate fate for you,


What if we were from mars and its so dry from pollution and global warming and they escaped to earth and the pod was the meteorite that killed the dinosaurs


good theory!


hm?


here is where gee, helped people


he earned my personal respect, not thats it's worth anything


I did my part in helping, but I admire all that try to help people in need


you could say


I can see some ill intent in some of these people,


keyword being some


nopoint is one of the nicest people around here


noted


yes he is


No point you are one of the kindest people on this server


You always look out for people who need help


I'll live in this channel for a while


my best efforts will be put here


I used to be in a server like this, but something, unfortunate happened, and I made the decision to leave


multiple houses


what happend?


I'd rather not,


Simar has helped me alot... i appreciate it alot


oki np


thanks for understanding


I'll be going now


oki


pall, poggers


Wait isnt no point your nick


merely joking


pall is also pretty cool tbh


oki bye shogun


I didnt know that


have a great day


Bye shogun


you aswell


See you aroun


appreciated


I have stayed up past midnight for more than 5 weeks in a row


Same


Ive been waking up early tho


What time


CJ021 what time


MMM


Oh lmao same


I got school


Thats fine ig


I get up 7 leave at 8:20


Hey whats the matter honey?”


/I dont sleep cause when I do all my dreamer dreams are you/


Good song


a lot of people act passive aggresive towards me and i always act normal towards it and and try not to be mean. its not easy for me to keep on taking that behaviour, i have a short temper for people like that. but they still do it and whenever i bring it up or ask them why theyve been acting this towards me they just say that they are joking and that its not true. i don't know how they expect me to behave, but in this situation its pretty common for some1 to get mad and start a fight


passive aggressive people anger me so much and i personally just try to ignore it


its better to ignore it so it doesnt start any sort of tension and it can help with your temper


unless its truly offensive


I would just brush it off


but if you dont want to thats fine just giving my advice


np, thx for the advice


Some people just need to tell the difference between certain words


Im not mentioning the specific word, but its bannable even though what I said was a different word and in a completely different context


huh


what word


Its an offensive word


But in no way did I actually mean it


probably cigarette for british


And it wasnt even the actual word


if its a slur just put the first letter then slur


N


iger River


I was literally discussing geography


And poof! Ban


idk its just you could just say n word


and nott


Are you assuming my skin color?


was it this server?


i asked


Disgusting


Despicable


I am a blue man


lmao are you assuming my gender all over again


if thats a gender joke


i reakky


dont wanna talk to you


I mean thats a real river


Exactly


But I understand their reaction 100


what oh he meant the river


i thought


Yeahhh


he was using an expression


Also suggestion, get a profile picture, places will be less likely to ban you if you dont seem like a throw away alt


Nah man


Im sticking with Discord Man


i mean shes not wrong


Dat true


Hold on


NOPOINT


NICEE


Got broken up with again today gonna go Kms see yall never


Wait what happened? I thought u guys were good?


greg do not do that


Well see


No


We wont, dont do that


As I said well see


greg awe no im so sorry, please don't die though. It may seem like you have hit rock bottom but there is so many other people out there! She just wasn't the one. Again i'm so sorry that happened you seemed to really like her..


Taylax omfg no bb they don't deserve you;


wrong pinggg


Momma Greg got broken up


Poor mommy


im single af lmao


Lmao same


Same


yeah i feel really bad... he always gushed about how pretty she was in main and stuff...


Who was it


What she look like


i never saw her


Why do I always have to be the problem


Idk


But then a month later he called me cool, so that's weird


Oof, Im sorry to hear that


Hope your friendship is still healthy with that person


Thanks man, I'm just trying to be friends with him, he's nicer now


Oh im sorry to hear that, i hope you guys continue to have a good relationship and he wont talk about you anymore


One of my cells died today


what happened?


My crotch got punched by a ball


o


rip


ooo


ouchyyy


@ KNEE by the time I wrote this millions of my cells died and were replaced


wait what


I have to move again


damn


can i ask why?


Yeah


My dad is in the navy


6th move


For me its my parents 8th move


I feel like I got closest to my friends here than anywhere else but now Im moving, and that normally means we stop talking after a few months. So Im kinda sad but also... Im used to it now.


have u like talked to ur parents how u feel about moving?


Oh im sorry about that


I mean its not bad to at least tel ur parents how u feel


Cause parents do take ur input in things


Ill think about it, Ive kinda portrayed to them I dont care cause I dont like talking about my feelings to them.


Oh well dont do anything that youre not comfortable with, tho i do recommend telling them how you feel about it


so i rly upset CJ IS NOT STAFF


SAME


THIS IS SO UPSETTING


SINCE DAY 1 IVE BEEN HERE


SAME EXCEPT SINCE DAY 30


WOW


I LOVE THIS SERVER


OMG


SAME THO


Me


it's okay simar


Whats ok?


I just love being super upset and sappy ya knwo


know


yes sir


dont we all love it


ah thanks


Ill just leave bye


Ikr


Mind if I vent here?


No go aheqd


Im so sorry that this is happening to you


ik its hard to have hope these days, but having a hope that everything will be alright is something you can hold on to, ya maybe u won't believe it, no one does these days but i hope your family is doing alright and i wish them the best of luck in life and i hope they can have a good and enjoyable life and they live longer


and you shouldn't ignore ur problems its not healthy


i get its hard


but if you try your best to help out as much as you can it will at least make your parents happy that you are safe and are doing ok cause im sure they are worrying about you a lot and want you to have a good and long life


Oh gosh im so sorry about your family I hope they get better. I dont think putting your feelings away is a good idea. Yeah having them rush a cure” is quite scary, but ig you have to trust the process. Everything right now is scary but you have to try being as positive as you can


You cant trust the process Im sorry..


They are risking my life yours and everybody elses to.


For what?


A cure that might no even fix anything


i mean people are trying there best


their


Yea but there best” is not good.


Trust me..


i mean i rather have hope


My family works there all the time..


My uncle doesnt even have hope for this cure” anymore and he is one trying to work on it and its scary but Im not going to lie..I dont trust it I dont trust them at all.


its ok not to trsust


trust


you just gonna believe that everything will be alright cause it will be


ik its gonna be hard to believe


and i don't blame you


but giving urself hope will help your parents and they don't want you to lose hope


I wont lie..hope is no longer an option to me because I know for a FACT the FDA would N O T approve of this so instead they decide to go to trump for help? YOUR TELLING ME THEY DID THAT AND THEY PUT ALL OF US IN DANGER MORE THAN THE CORONA CUASES JUST TO TEST” TELL ME RIGHT NOW THAT IS NOT HORRIBLE IM SORRY BUT PEOPLE SIGN UP SO FOR THEM TO PUT US ALL IN DANGER IS NOT OK THEY HAVE PEOPLE ASKING TO HELP YET THEY STILL WANT EVERYBODY TO IM NOT SURE IF YOU UNDERSTAND HOW MUCH DANGER THAT PUTS US IN ITS MORE THAN CORNOA ILL SAY IT OVER AND OVER AGAIN IM SORRY IF THIS COMES OF AS RUDE BUT ITS JUST SO STRESSFUL


its alright you don't have to apologize to me


you can say everything here freely


i just wanna help and comfort as much as possible


and tbh i don't know whats happening in america much


ik its going through one of its worst times


and im so sorry


It is..


ik i can't do more then just say a few words that might not even matter


And its all because


but


i just wanna help comfort you


help with your mind set


ik there is a lot of stress in your life


and ik its really hard


but ik this is probably the worst time to do this but do not over stress urself, take time off from everything and just be with urself, try to enjoy urself as much as possible or talk to someone that makes you happy, send the day with them calling or talking once you had ur time then come back and focus on these issues and try to calming help and see what you can do, do not over stress urself


everyone as limits of what they can do


Trump wasnt prepared no matter what people say oh it was random” cant control it” we have had so many pandemics as a world and for people to sit there and tell me we wouldnt have been prepared anyways pisses me off. No matter the most random times it comes up as a world together we should be prepared we have gone through so many pandemics have they not learned? Even if it take long they should have been prepared.


ik they should have be prepared


thte world should be better prepared to protect ourselves from these issues and problems and have been happening


hey i hate to burst your bubble but i dont like politics in chat


same


it offends me rly bad


BAN BAN


i feel like i'm wasting time. i spent the past 4 months doing absolutely nothing and I feel like I need to make every moment count yknow, since I know I won't be around forever.


True


attak3 yeah i get that. Im probably not living past 18... but anyways. Yeah i understand, i realise now i never took loads of pictures of times when i was with friends and now im tryna make up for that. But even if you do feel like you have wasted the last 4 years and you are trying to make up for it now because life is short that is awesome. Make sure to go have fun while you can. Make sure to do things you've always wanted to try. Make sure you have no regrets that you didnt do something you wanted. And when the times does come around to y'know... you can safely say you did everything you wanted and can go peacefully with no worries or regrets of anything


When you realise we spent 20 years of our life doing school


20 we cant do anything because we are old


20 working or starting business


Life is short


Because of our generation we live to around 80 unless unnatural accident


That leaves 20 years


technically for myself i can finish school at 18 and not go to Uni or anywhere but still


Trye


I already wanna drop out at 14 so


mood tho


So basically what is happening is that I just keep zoning out because it all seems like a dream and in one room it is a lot worse because of the amount of people in itbig room kinda like gym and because all the sound bounces around it makes me zone out even quicker and deeper and so I try avoid that room at breaks but if its raining we have to go inside but its holidays now so I will get a break but I will see be so distant from my friends because Im going to farm and I normally get easily distracted and now if I go up to our camp site I could just zone out for ages watching the creek


At school Everyone is split up in groups and I dont fit in most of them so I kinda wander around or just sit there


yeah you need to work on some more grounding stuff. Try some stuff out and see what makes you not feel in a dream. Dissociation issues can be quite annoying sometimes. In my opinion i think that is what's best for you but i'm not the most educated on this topic, all i know and can give advice is from personal experience


Idk if its a really be problem zoning out but if you are doing it often then maybe check it out


it seems more serious than just zoning out tbh


Cause if u zone out and something happens to u it could be dangerous


It happens a lot at school mostly


Wym


Just forcing on an object


cause there is day dreaming then there is thinking that reality is a dream


Like u force on 1 thing and you zone out right?


Yeah


Well if something like near by you happened and ur just zoned out you wouldnt know what happening


Just paying attention to that object then your mind goes elsewhere


True


Ok then you might need to check it out


Or it could just be ur brain not getting sleep?


Probably


So try to get more sleep for like a week and see what happened


Stayed up past midnight for 6 weeks now


Ya I would say sleep earlier


Cause zoning out pretty much mean ur day dreaming


Which means ur tired


Look at the time


Ya maybe go to sleep


Yeah ig


Try sleeping for like 8 hours for 1 week and see what happens


I tried going to sleep early the other day and couldnt because my sleep schedule


Ok maybe take some naps in the day


Cause u need to rest ur mind


So try to get as much sleep as possible


But if I sleep during day I wont be able to at night


Ok then what time do you normally sleep


Midnight


Isnt it midnight rn?


Mhm


Ok what time do you wake up?


School days30am


Weekends 89


Am


Ok then they should be a good sleep but if u need more sleep maybe sleep in on weekends


Go from 9 to 10


And just rest


Yeah


I will try to sleep at 11 and gradually move down to 9


Ya ok thats good


Trying is good


So sleep now


Ok


Btw I gotta do homework tomorrow so I probably wont be on


For some parts


Its alright


Ok thanks


Good night


Everyone got a life out online


Good night sleep well


You too


See you


Cya


goodnight gee


funny when ur parents call you a disappointment but not directly cause they want to make you feel better saying your marks aren't bad which they definitely are and says that you could have done better then everyone if you tried and if you put ur potential in school, but like what if you don't wanna try in school? plus when you get compared to your sister saying she is much better and smarter then you funny but like im only saying this here cause idk there really isn't no problem, im smart but don't try cause no point in trying but ya i put it in here cause i didn't want to bother people but ya all im saying im lazy and a disappointment but to make me feel better people will be like ur not, ur a wonderful person well thx but ya sorry about this


I also dont try in school when I could get good grades, but I dont have anyone my parents can compare me to. So... that sucks. Your not a disappointment just because you dont get good grades in school and your parents are dumb for judging based off that. School isnt everything in life. Also they can think what they wanna think... it doesnt mean anything, and I doubt they think your a disappointment. They just believe in you and believe you can do better.


eh maybe


i mean people have a lot of expectation and ya i wanna fulfil it cause i rather not let people down but like when i don't do it then i just feel like a disappointment but at the same time i want help or stand tall for people but its hard when u stand for too long


NoPoint please don't apologise for venting there is nothing to apologise for. The worst thing parents can do is compare you too your siblings but they don't realise how toxic it is and how much it affects their children not only mentally but their childrens relationships with each other...


nah im fine with it


if i could


i would give all the knowledge i know and like my smartness to my sister


she actually works hard


and even tho she does get stressed she still strong about it


she isn't as soft as me


she is very open to people


she isn't shy like me


she is like a perfect child


hey there isn't anything wrong with being more sensitive and shy. i don't really think there should be such thing as a'perfect child' cause not everyone is the same even if you are siblings. it sets and unnatrually different goal and almost impossible one to get at that. I understand how you feel though i've always been the child that lies mostly because my brother cant really lie effectively but my mother has outright said infront of me she likes my brother more because he doesn't liea dn cares about him more. she doesn't exactly try to hide it. Parents are wack sometimes. Anyways, again, the'perfect child' thing is so toxic try not to beat yourself up because you don't meet the standards. Not everyone can do that and not everyone can even meet them even if they tried and that's fine: The standards set by parents on children are exhausting and i hate em


well idk i just think my sister is a lot better then me and my parents say that she tries and stuff, me they say im smart and have potential but im lazy asf and don't try anything, so if i could i would like give my knowledge to her cause it will help her succeed since im not trying anymore


don't give up completely! honestly im lazy but i have something im really passionate about and something i really want to do. hmm maybe an ambition might help. Do you have anything you lean towards wanting to do after school is over?


nope


im just gonna follow my parents cause at least that won't disappoint them more


im venting cuz mad


erghhh


Why


erghh


whats wrong


why are you mad?


hwy u mad


to get levels


imf


Omg cj for lvl 100


snrt


yep


ohh


cj deservers level 200


there is no 200


or i think there isn't


should be


thanks you guys


i need this durting such a trying time


explain what durting means in a 17 page paper


oajwdajdoawjdoawdjao


agree 100


yes


Literally my whole friend group had a party without me


I nearly have to ask to get involved sometimes


Yeah


I dont know how to spell nunchucks and that makes me mad


wait isnt that how you spell i


WAIT


Nunchucks


Yeah thats how


i used o have my roblox as nunchucs then some numbers omfg


Wow


its either nunchucks or nunchakus


nunchucks nunchakus my phone dont say either is spelt wrong so i dunno


Someone bday in main go cheer them up with me


Supporting someone with their art and have them over look yours for someone else's kinda hurts y'know? Like it's not once or twice...if be able to forgive that but it's almost every time. I'm just waiting for them to just straight up go can you stop posting art? And if the other person were to offer they said oh no not you just them I know it's stupid but I mean fjjfngnt. Anyways


Ok so what happened


Ok so my ex is supper toxic and I keep going back to.her and I dont know why I tried to move in but idk if I can I just idk I have been to a few survers to try and find someone but nobody likes me and plus I have ptsd from my childhood because I got raped when I was 5 I have depression ive been cutting recently I have a broken knee bc of a fight from last year so yea


yoo please don't hurt urself or harm urself


its ok ik its hard to move on from ex's


its ok


maybe have time to yourself


take care of urself first


then look for a partner


I have still liked my ex for a year now, its ok


yea bro on a serious note please dont harm urself


its hard to move on from people you liked and wanted to give everything but just focus on urself


just take a break from everything and have just be with yourself


Please please dont do any self harm, itll be hard but try to cut off communication with her. Focus on yourself


and try to figure out what u want


and u shouldn't focus on having a partner


until you love yourself


first accept and love yourself then find someone that will love with you


your an amazing person and you should know that


i shouldn't be telling u that


I am actually cryig rn


yoo please don't cry


its ok to cry


just


be careful


on another note im actually really sad that that happened to you at the age of 5. i really do hope you get better


ur amazing ok


No like happy cryish


ya im really sorry that it hasn't been the best for you and i really hope wonders come your way


good wonders btw


Ik tthank you guys


np mate


if u ever need to talk my dms are open


or u can vent here if u feel comfortable


Defiantly


oki so i hope you enjoy the rest of the day and i hope tomorrow is wonderful for you


enjoy your day mate and i seriously hope things get better for you


Thx guys


np


anytime mate


of course. anytime


I'm emotionally eating again.. Ending a friendship on your b day is a horrible feeling..


o


im so sorry that this happened to u


Oh do what helps you im sorry about that but happy birthday


ya happy birthday


Happy birthday


but just maybe calm down take deep breaths


This is just me right now not a vent. Just me.


im crying right now thanks:


what


why


don't cry


Sorry


don't apologize


Im sorry


its ok to cry but i want to try to help comfort u


I its just what I do I always say sorry..


i say sorry a lot too


Pls dont cry


Dont cry


Im trying Im sorry


why are you crying if you dont mind me asking


its alright


ya


if u wanna rant to me or vent my dms are always open


i just want the best for you and want u to enjoy ur life adn if there is something bothering u plz u can talk to me


Thank you and Im crying...because..I am I try not to but even with out a real reason I cry...I just have all these thoughts in m head...and it makes me sad..so I cry


its ok


but u shouldn't always cry


Oh its alright, its okay to cry. Try having something distract you


its ok to cry a few times but you have to try to get better from it, if u want we can call or text if this happens and i can try to cheer u up and try my best to have a beautiful smile on ur gorgeous face


Try not forcing yourself not to cry its a coping mechanism


My friends always say I love silent and peaceful alone time”


But when I do i think sad things its scary I dont like it.


everyone has different opinions and likings


u are never alone ok


u can always talk to any of us


see...the thing is Im ok for now so why am I sad? I dont know..I..dont know I cant tell you why I am sad I dont know why I am sad I just am..I cant sleep...anxiety..keeps me awake..and I cry..I cry all the time and I dont understand why..I just...want to be happy I do its not..that I want to be sad its that I just cant find a way to be happy most people think Im fake..thats ok..Im better of alone anyways.


Im sorry about that


Tf I am being shamed on Snapchat for being able to live on little sleep


Tf has life come too


i feel like distancing myself from everyone


why


bc im just an annoyance to everyone


your not tho


thats not what most people say


then the people that say that shouldn't be in ur life


most people and everyone are not the same


it feels like everyone says that


well feeling and actually knowing is different too


there is always people that want to talk to you and care for you


i dont think there is tbh


there is


thinking and knowing is different


u can never be sure until you actually see every possibility


I feel like in every relationship no matter what kind I get tossed to the side by the end of it. It's not like one person has done it almost everyone I've had a relationship with has used me until they decided I wasnt useful any more. Not once have I had a bond with someone that lasted over a year because they tossed me to the curb and left me to rot in sadness. I feel like no one cares long enough. And I never get any sort of closure either. It's just that they hadn't checked on me or even acknowledged that I exist for over 4 months why should I believe they care. But I'm still there...I'm still giving support. And I always will no matter how much it hurts. It just feel right to still be an anchor and to lift them up. Even if I cant do the same for myself...


ok i would say work on urself, ik ur not the problem but screw being in a relationship single life is better until you meet someone that sctuwlly cares for you so i say just be with urself wnd love yourself cause who cares about others u need to love urself and care for urself before letting someone care for you


Yeah...I know I should but I'll try a lot harder now...thank you


trying is hetter then not doing anything


so i hope you great things in ur future and i hope you enjoy ur wonderful life


Thank you again and you too


no need to thank, just want the best for u


I wanna see myself the way others see me


I want to see what they see of me and what they think about me


same


Im here to vent, im not a good person, ok vent over


you are a good person, simar. you make mistakes and you fuck up, but so does everyone. you treat people with respect and kindness and worry about people. you are good, not bad, don't let anyone or yourself convince you otherwise.


I get what u mean well not all of it but the part were people say ur a good person but u know what u have done before and regret it


So u feel like a bad person


But In that case no ones a good person cuz everyone does stuff they regret but its how we deal with it that makes a difference


Or at least thats how I like to think about it


I guess what you mean is that people tell you your nice and are an amazing person, but you don't feel like you are so you start feeling guiltly right?


i don't regret anything, or i try not to regret anything and im saying that the thinks i do aren't really good maybe short term it will help someone but i just feel like i bring people down a lot and i feel like its usually my fault if someone is mad, upset, sad, or any emotion that ruins their day if they like talk to me or something but ya


buttons pretty much


Dont blame ur self. We all have bad days for different reasons and just because u happened to talk to anyone during a bad day it doesnt mean u caused their bad day


like what i mean is that ya if someone has a bad day i wanna help them and try to cheer them up but like i feel like i make it worse for people


Cheering someone up can only happen if the person receiving the cheer wants to be happy, this means if they don't want to be cheered up they won't approach you about their bad situation and they will either wanna be left alone, wanna go cheer themselves up, or they just wanna have a normal conversation.


ya i get that, i don't force or push, if they wanna talk about it they can if they are comfortable


However, if they do wanna be cheered up, they will allow you to do so, and maybe even talk through with you about their situation. At this point it may not seem like they have cheered when they leave the conversation, but everything you have told them, or even just you simply listening to them, will help them somewhat, one way or another, no matter what. unless your intentionally being mean, don't do that . I believe when people feel like they have done a bad job when they feel as if they haven't done enough for them, or gave them the wrong advice, it's just the cheerer worrying about them, completly normal reaction


I guess in your case you might just be worrying about the person you have just cheered up bcause you feel as if you haven't done a good enough job. But don't ever think you made it worse, as long as you haven't pushed them to talk which obvs you don't as said then you've helped them somewhat


thank you buttons


i am so sorry jojo, you have been through a lot and ik its been a rough life and ik ur probably not gonna believe this but life gets harder before it gets better and i can't really tell the future but i want really hope and i believe that there are many greats things for you in the future and u deserve the absolute world and im really sorry


I am so sorry about that


It is hard losing family and friends as well as the combined pressure of having to do well in school


Im sorry about that, mate, but dont say that there are people who dont want you...


Talk to us if you need to


im sorry that u feel that, and if u ever wanna talk or just want someone to speak to im always here


Im sorry about that but if they cant enjoy you for who you are want what you bring to the world then your better off without them


Ducks hows


Makes sense tho


life really sucks bro, and it hurts to think that, unfortunately, it doesnt really get much better than where i stand now. hate to think realistically ab things like that but ive seen no other mindset that doesnt sugarcoat it excessively


I just feel like im better off dead. That's it. I'd cause less issues if I was dead than staying alive.


Being dead has more issues than you think


It causes stress and sadness over a lot more than you think of people


yeah it's not that though. I'm way to sensitive. I get angry and het up so easily and become extremely rude. I am an entire dissapointment to my parents. I don't know exactly what to do after school and get screamed at for not knowing. I'll never be accepted by society. At this point its easier if i die. Then i'm less of a trouble to my parents, friends and siblings.


My parents act like they care and say they do but they refuse to understand or care.


So they would forget easily.


Wait how old you?


Oh Im 14 but I still have no idea about my future so its ok


I'm horrible to my siblings they wouldn't care.


Only issue is i have to figure out what i wanna do by next year.


cause i finish highschool and go to college next year


My little sister absolutely hates me ngl but Im getting a stronger bond with my brothers because Ive been playing games on mobile with them


im not interested in the games they play and they arent interested in anime. There isn't much to bond over with us.


My brothers and I always used to fight tho so it can definitely improve some way


fair, there is just lots of issues id rather avoid than face. I'd rather not harm my friends and family anymore and just not exist anymore.


Im sick of life.


Taylax my parents also think they know whats best for me when its not always true but you just gotta let it slide, I have anger issues too but i try keep calm


Society, everything.


What time is it for you


9:30 am


Have you slept yet


yes


would love to give support but to be fair i think that outlook is the same that ive been feeling recently so its hard to give an input


i woke up like an hour and half ago


T T oh im sorry, i would try and help you too but not really in the right mindset


What are your level of restrictions, can you try to go outside to a park without any technology


its fine. i really refrain from trying to help because i feel i do more harm seeing as this mindset is the one im in and i could be giving the wrong advice rather than the correct. really want to help tho. very conflicting mindsets lmao


Its ok


yes but what do i do there. I am a therapist friend to like every one of my friends. Non of them are fit to be a therapist and neither am i but i want to help as many people as possible even if it harms me cause it doesnt matter im already just broken anyways. I dont believe its ever going to get better anymore. Anyways here is my only outlet and vent of what im feeling and even then my brain likes to make me believe im attention seeking alot of the time so i cant tell if my emotions are tru or just that. Though at this point im pretty sure i have an issue. My brain is against me. Death can stop it going against me. You see im in a vicious cycle.


Im sorry about that


I like to try help people, idk why I just have, i guess it helps me see that I can do good in the world and that I made a difference


Btw a video is loading but its very slow


always ok to talk ab issues at any time so i wouldnt call it attention seeking


Yeah but i always get oversensitive over the most minor things. My brain likes to make me believe that I want to tell people my feelings cause i want attention... it could be the case. I don't get that much emotional comfortation and sympathy at home.


Just because your sad and want to tell someone about it doesnt mean its attention seeking


my parents can see through every other lie apart from'im fine' and sometimes i feel they do but they just dont care at all.


At school Im completely different to what I am at home, I feel like my parents dont understand me as well


So I use school as an opportunity to show who I am


Video almost done


Im sorry i dont know a lot about step parents/siblings and all that kinda stuff


if that doesnt scream she doesnt care i dont know what does.


My dad died a few years back and i have a repulsion to my step dad at all replacing my dad because i wasnt ready for him to die and i dont want to believe he is fully gone.


Im so sorry about that


Having someone replace someone who was irreplaceable is impossible


but again my mother doesnt understand. I explained 20 times that i couldnt sign it because it was signed how i used to sign my dads cards and i just couldnt do that. She just kept going on abt my step dad being upset while i am having a MENTAL BREAKDOWN in HER ARMS


she doesnt care.


its obvious.


my step dad i am scared of.


my siblings are too young and are on the ASD scale anyway so i would never vent to them.


ASD?


its like the autism scale


i cant remember the full acronym


i have another friend i could vent too but she has enoug problems of her own already


shes the only friend who i have actively called


its actually Ren who is in this server who is that friend


Thats why I like discord because you can vent easier


yup same and i have no need to worry about seeing them in real life with the awkwardness that i just told em that i want to die


and that i have a chance of just dying on them


I would never be able to work up the courage to say that if my friend was in this server so Im proud of you


yeah i just hope she doesnt check this channel and seeing this though. I don't need her unnecessarily worrying over other things. She has enough stress with school and all that


Is it normal to be bad at life


If you dont do anything on a day to day basis lmao


Not you specifically , Im just saying that from what I see, a lot of people who think that they are bad at everything” usually are because they dont do anything


True


Yeah but I try withschool but I never get the results I was hoping for


Taylax isnt it ADHD or thats diff


Also oof man sorry to hear that


Voltstrick ADHD is different but often most people on the ASD scale do have ADHD


Huh aint that surprising


MY STOMACH HURTS SO BAD


I NEED TO SLEEP


I CANT THOUGH


Ive been thinking too much because no one was on so I couldnt distract my thoughts


I hate going to a private school but I like it st the same time


So supposedly because I go to a private school Im supposed to be smart but Im the complete opposite


My parents and always saying Im not trying hard enough when I am


They say its because Im listening to music while I study


I listen to music while I study to distract myself from all my thoughts about there being no point because Im going to do bad anyway


I dont get what it is


I dont know why Im doing so bad


I try in class I really do


But sometimes I just feel like there is no point


And why parents wonder why Im always on my phone or in my room


Its because they yell at me or tell me off for getting bad results and its fucking shit


I dunno honestly


I dont know what to do anymore


I have no clue about my future


I have 1 true irl friend


Life is shit


I just wish I had someone irl who understands me and I can tell them anything and they wont judge me


I have little control over my actions


I cant stop myself from staying up late at night


I have so much anger and emotion trapped inside me and Im scared of what may happen if I lose it


Yeah, I dont really have any irl friends either. But have you tried talking to your friend?


I dont know


I have only told one person


And it was the wrong person


Did they react negatively when you told them?


No its because they were sad so I told them they arent alone


I want to find my purpose in life


I want to see myself from someone elses perspective


I see u as a nice guy, I dont know u very well but ur funny and seem like a true friend. The ones that know u irl should be lucky to have u in their life


Gee


And the only person that can find ur purpose is you and Idk how to do that tbh Im also struggling with fining purpose but Ive always had my dream of becoming a vet and for me rn thats my only meaning/goal in life


NoPoint no simar you are not a horrible person at all. everyone makes mistakes and fucks up sometimes but it doesnt make you an explicitly bad person. You are one of the nicest people here and one of the best people I have become friends with here... you are a good person.


Taylax


Its just nothing in life has called to me yet for what I want to do


what do you want to do


What do you want to do rn


I have hobbies I like or would like to try but they arent a work kinda thing


I like mountain biking


But Im bad at it


oo


i mean as long as u enjoy it i think go for it


Yeah I guess


ya


its not about how good u r


its about if u enjoy it or not


True


a lot of people need to hear this


I stuffed up once again


Its fucking midnight


I tell myself to sleep early


I never can


I swear every night now I have gone on a rant about myself


no no its okay, but you should go to sleep Gee


lemon?


he is probably asleep


so i would stop pinging him


vent vent vent


nice vent


thx


very emotional


ik


I feel like a failure


Like a over sensitive piece of trash that exist and lives but isnt really liked or loved


That Im that annoying person people talk to just to be nice


The one everyone just thinks is only looking for attention


And I try to be strong but sometimes thats just the hardest thing to be


And I have hard to believe that I am something cuz I have been treated like a ghost by way to many people


Jojo1217 its okay my bruv we all share that sometimes


But why me? Am i really so disliked people intentionally leave me out


So disliked that the ones supposed to be my best friends just leave me and ignored me for 1 year for no reason at all


So disliked that even the people outside school that decided to hang out left me out cuz they were to many” and insisted on not inviting me to hangout but still talking about it when I were there


Am I really such a bad person?


What did I do?


Or was it just that I was my self?


JOJO! You are mah Swedish bestie! and you are high u on the bestie list as Sweden is one of my favourite countries! But of course I shouldn't like someone just because they happen to live in a really cool country, all in all as a person, you are really sweet and kind, conversations with you are always interesting, if I seem like I push people away, more importantly, if it seems like I push you away in aconvesation, that just means I am only able to have the chat as background noise and/or I don't have the time to get into a convo at that time, I feel as if that may have happened today when I was failing to pronouce Swedish words lmao


No it wasnt that ur good


I got into depressed mode and thought about my past for different reasons


buttons


Im just so good at judging people I judge my self


But still why did all this happen to me and why all at once why did everything and everyone turn on me at the same time


Was it that I was so depressed all the time


So just a quick mood swing, I completely understand your depresso feelings


Cuz I needed friends being there for me cuz I felt like the universe Was turning right at me all at once


Like I wasnt supposed to be happy


Cuz everytime I started to be happy someone died or started to treat me like trash


Obvs the best thing to do in this situation is to not ponder on it, the way to do this is to make sure someone knows of this pain, and knows your thought process, because that way you have vented it out your system and you can look back on it not as a depressed state, but a sudden change in mood for a little bit


Life gave you lemons basically


OH WAIT I UNDERSTAND THE SAYING NOW


Life gave me all my worst fears at once


Life gices you lemons, a death of a close one for exampe, and you make lemonade out of it, make the best of it and see positives!


If you face nothing but your worst fears you gotta find a way to kill those fears, overcome them


Or make lemonade


OR MAKE LIFE TAKE THE LEMONS BACK!


That will be very hard since they r loosing someone loved and being left alone


I dont get the time I need


It is depressing, and it is honestly kinda scary, but you will get to the light at the end of the tunnel


Cuz until then someone else is dead


What I'm about to say is an unpopular opinion, I'm not scared of death, I never have been, because I'm young still I guess, but I am at a loss as to how I would feel when a family member dies, I haven't experienced that yet, and considering the old ones of my family's age, they are all gonna die on relatively close dates to each other. Now here's the unpopular opinion; A string of deaths will make you feel numb, it usually cuts you down, but eventually, your not surprised by it and it no longer effects you. The dangerous way of this opinion is that it can easily lead to depression, and that the other thing you have to remember, don't get depressed and make sure someone knows your true feelings and thoughts


Yeah I meant tosay that I'm not scared of death but I'm scared of the edath of others, I lose myself in my own words easily lmao


I know what you mean yeah, been there


In my case I have been on the brink of commiting suicide on two occasions, both times because I thought the whole school had turned on me, I was mentally broken then, I'm a little less broken now


But.. I have forgotten what I was going to say gimme a sec lmao


I also forgot to mention the part where Ive been on the breaking point of a eating disorder for almost a year now


Well you at least have something I don't, I just have crazy fast metabolism and I shrink in height


The only things I can say for you are to make sure you keep telling at least one person whats going on, don't skip any detail, and that there's always another way, no matter what it is, there is a light at the end of the tunnel


r u ok jack?


yeh bro just them late night feels ya know


ya i get you but likr if u ever wanna talk im alwags here


ignore my spelling mistakes


omg


Nice


Hi brother tech


yes


i actually think im bi but i also think im too young to question my sexuality


How old are you?


am i too young to question sexuality


Nahh bro


WAIT YOUR 13


bruh


I question mines and i share ur age


I thought you would have been like 16 or older


i gotta start acting my age


A staff is 13 awesoem i got a fighting chance


hey guys have yall seen the fortunate update


Voltstrick i lied about it age forever


not hector cool


anyways


is 13 too young to question your sexuality


Yeah well I guess even as you get older you still develope so idk when tbh


not really


i meant what tech said


you really cant say the age to know ur sexuality its usually how u feel about them cause some people find out at a young age


and its ok to think that at a young age


my aunt thought she was gay at like 10 and shes getting married to her wife in a couple months and she s31 so i dont think it matters


ya


so it really depends ok how u feel


not ur gae


age


yuh


not hector ur age doesnt really define ur sexuality or like it doesnt tell you when or when not to know its just how u feel about it and the experiences that u have gone through so


the thing is this has been on my mind for a while but i dont want to jump to the fact that im bi when i might be something else


or im just straight and just want affection from anyone


wait but that sounds like bi


AAA


not hector just take ur time no one knows what they really are until they take the time to notice or to themselves just wait have a thought about it and maybe try out some new things but u have a gf so idk if u can question rn but just keep in mind that it takes time for everything so dont push to far just wait and see what happens, even rn i dont fully know if im bi cause honestly idk how i feel about it


not hector if you think that 13 is too young to question yourself, you can always identify as questioning until you decide on weather you are bi or not. However, people generally say that you know once you fall in love, or some cheesy thing like that


Although cheesy, it's true


Ventilations Machines


not hector Im very late but no, seeing how I figured out I was bi at 13 and a half.


We all figuring out we bi at 13 here


Taylax seems so lmao


goodbye.


Cockroach nooo!


Damn their gone:


Aw man I hope you feel better soon


I want my sneck snapped


why


Cuz Im losing everything


so i just wanna small vent, if ur planning on responding i probably wont see it but ya um i havent been myself, not really tho like what i mean is that i have been having a lot of pain recently for the past few days maybe weeks so idk if its just stress or other things but i tell myself im gonna be fine which most days are ok but its been awhile since i had a good day, i had good moments but idk havent been the best few days thats really it to vent please i dont respond i just wanted to say this i dont wanna worry people so i thought this was the best way to know how i am hut really nothing to bad to worry about


NoPoint yeah, i can kind of tell alot of the time. id be repeating myself by saying you can always talk to me if you need too . Maybe try getting into a hobby outside of the internet for a while! Okay, well i hope you start to feel better soon, loves you!


mayhe but idk if that would do tood but ill he rine


okay, well please take care of yourself okay?


Ima get gory real quick


c


Vent


Why am I up.


ok


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Mood


IKR


FUCKING VENT TO ME


SCREAM IN MY FAAACE


JSJSJSJJSDKH


but seriously i just want all my mental health issues solved so i can progress. id be fine if i was fine


Honestly, mood


Yup.


That's why I went on to do Graphic Design instead of the normal art thingy, people see it as the same thing most of the time because it requires skill


It's dumb as hell, jumping though loops just to get some high numbers on a piece of paper so you can live a good life


You live close by to Hull right?


yupp


Mmkay gimme a hot second...


Perfect! So..


I go to a school called a UTC University Technical College They are an organisation that was created originally by the government to modernise education in 2010. They have 48 schools across England and UTC Hull is one of'em. Check out the website, and their KS4 Curriculum, they have lots of art and design choices!


Honestly I just sound like a salesman, BUT they are good at what they do /


omg thank you, ima check that out


Lmao


Hang on I'll send the link over in DMs..


thank you thank you


No probs


I am not okay.


u wanna talk about it? Emiko Ouma


Nah I just like pretending I am a serial killer.


o


well if u do wanna talk about anything then my dms are open


and try to stay safe and take care of urself


I just wanna cry, cry cuz I dont feel needed and I have a need of feeling needed otherwise I feel like a disappointment. I want to be someone that everyone knows cuz Im good at a certain thing that only” Im good at


I wanna be talented in anyway and not just that person the is ok when it comes to things


I wanna be a person for the people in my surrounding not just my brothers sister or my parents daughter


Im my surrounding out side school


I dont wanna be the second, third or last choice I wanna be more


maybe try new things?


Believe me Ive tried a lot of things


I feel unwanted and not needed


i think im biromantic lesbian but i dont wanna be gay bc i wanna experience things. and some boys r qt but I HAVE NO IDEA IF I LIKE THEM


Just be friends with 5 guys


Take them to 5 guys


And then see who is actively trying to have a convo with u


Then just select him and say wassup


Or just choose whoever u like


Deniz Vogue. dont feel pressured to label yourself! Just go with your gut! Its nobody else's business what your preferences are! And if you want to label yourself, you still have time to experience things and try it out!


I need to get my math test back like Rn because Im doubting myself so much


I already know Im gonna do bad but I just wanna get it over with


Thing is the dumb kid in class literally became so much smarter like tf


He got 6 percent on the last test and he was thinking he could easily pass the test


I hate sc


I did a yolo and got none


And someone does one for the first time in ages and they get so many


I always get told to stop doing yolos but no one else does


No one else gets told to stop


Big sad


When no one replies I start doubting myself and say that I clicked something and they cant see it so then I am now always doubting myself


I feel like I need to vent but i feel like Ive done too many


Just doit,!,/


Well, fortunately thats why we have a vent, so we can share and support each other with these problems.


If you dont have your phone or discord available to relieve stress, what I do when I feel so inextricably stressed out is take deep breaths I often do 1015 consecutively, especially when you feel very angry or are severely emotional. It may seem like a stupid thing to do, but trust me, it should work. If it doesnt end up work, well I offer myself to be a punching bag.


Also, try to encourage your siblings to leave you alone and establish that you dont wanna be bothered since you said middle child, I assume you have 2 siblings and wanna focus on work.


3 siblings


Not sure about what math you take, but I can help if its calculus or below not statistics though


Its just general math I struggle with


Multiplying


Algebra?


Yeah I guess


Im struggling to remember what that even is


Ok thanks


Why


Cuz yes


Dont be mad


im afraid of my dad


why?


hes very physicall


does he abusive you?


whats up


ok if he is abusive you and your mother then maybe the cops should be involved


theyre not togheter anymore but he comes to our house like once a week and hes always angry


Why does he come to your house?


a lot of the times he argues with my mom and i think it might turn into a physicall argument again


Have you tried to get the cops involved?


my mom feels the need to solve the situation with him, so she wants to talk to him, but it neve works


no


things will get messy with the cops rn i think


ok, well have you tried talking to your mother about getting the cops involved?


id rather not


ok


how about another adult?


have you like told another adult about what your dad does?


oh we asked my uncle he made him leave in the first place


ok, then maybe have ur uncle involved if your dad is getting abusive


maybe ye


i'll ask


he is very open


ya so see how that works and if it works then thats good


ya


thats good


just be careful and stay safe


oki i will, thank you


you too


Np


hi


Hi


Hru!


im normale rn i guess thx for asking:, how are you?


Pretty cool fam


good to hear dude


emotions are stupid. if i could get rid of them i would not hesitate to get rid of them. love, pain, fear all of it. Its too much work and way too exhausting.


maybe this is why i want to die so much. death has no emotions. nothing. just pain free nothingness.


what


no


emotions are what makes us human


i know but they are getting exhausting. troublesome. they are getting in the way. they always have.


Getting in the way of what?


everything


If we were to remove emotion, then there would be nothing to get out of the way of


Everything would just work, humans would complete everything and then die, pretty... meh..


And that anger can be used to overcome these! This can translate into confidence easily, just with the right encouragment and the right intentions, you will be on the right track to taking the reighns of your mind


Unfortunatly life is fulla hurdles and you gotta jump all of them to do life perfectly


i overthink it all. every minor thing. its why i catch feelings easily but also think people hate me easily and just dont like me which just


i mean normally the issue is they dont i just think they do


it could simply be things of not responding that makes me think that


ah I see whatcha mean


Whenever you get worried about this sorta thing, just remember to wait just that little bit longer. OR! next time you get worried take you rmind off of things by going to your happy place, or even... ugh... doing chores...


BUT! work is a good distraction!


just don't overdo it


booty!


bootilicious


kojdieh


It may not seem like it but I suffer from trauma anixety and DID, but I still haven't gone to ANY kind of doctor GP, Dentist, Therapist since 2016!


I appear to still be quite healty though so it's fiiine


awe buttons im so sorry


yeah but the people that can help me in real life either have their own issues and trauma or just dont care...


or are too young


just cause they have their own issues doesn't mean they don't want to help


yeah but i dont want to put my issues on them when their issues are already bad


i mean if they are willy to help then they are fine with it


everyone has a point where its the most struggle so its hard when the point comes


Welcome to generation z! We are so fucknig broken that most of us think it's normal!


sorry I'm a llittle too positive for this


it might be when they are young or when they are really old but everyone has a point of the most struggle


yeah but mine seems to be going on forever. 2017 happened and then... its never been the same. life is just getting worse and worse. more and more things keep happening and i dont want to progress to the next thing anymore. i dont think i can handle the next thing. ive only just been able to continue for a while when life trips me up


Tay, I'm glad you said that. For the past 4 years I've been thinking that exact thing, and to be honest with you, I'm just glad you are talking to people about it rather than keeping it under your hat. To progress from this, there isn't a way as far as I know, you just have to cope, this is why people say get hobbies if your depressed, because, in reality, we have no idea how to cure it so to speak, but we know how to cope with it and heal the wound. I just live with it, and try and change anything and everything I can for the better, help as many people as I can, I guess that's what my coping mechanism is


The depression thing is an example btw, I'm not saying you have depression


yeah i have the same coping mechanism along with a few other escapism tactics


You just gotta keep it moving, charge forwards no matter what! and Yes I have breakdowns still, but I let that emotion out before I start charging forwards again...


...because it's dangerous to run with tears in your eyes


...reduced sight and such


...man I just confuddled myself...


Helpisneeded


what happened?


Idek


Uhh


Long story short


Something happened like 10 years ago


And like


I cant forget


I cant forgive


Its taking a toll


ok niko calm


just calm down ik its hard to forgive and forget things


how about taking a different direction at this


instead of forgetting keep it, make it so that it makes u get out of bed and work hard every day


im not saying to forgive someone or something cause ik its hard


but sometimes u just have to stay with things but u don't need to forgive


forgiveness is earned


or just given


once you feel like they can be forgive then thats all u


but that doesn't mean u hold a grudge on it


cause that just holds u back


use it as a reminder to not look back


Thats really good advice


I havent thought about it that way really


But everyday things remind me


Ive learned to cope


But at night shit gets wack


ok its alright, sometimes its hard when u get reminded everyday


maybe try to think of other things instead of the thing that made you not forgive it but im not saying to forgot about it cause it will still always be there but try to look around it


at night just try to thinks of things that make u happy


that make u get out of bed and walk the earth


We need coma


I will try


Oop


trying is better then not trying


and if u ever have trouble at night im always free to talk and try to comfort


Can i just dm rn


If you got time


If you dont i get it


oki u can dm anytime


im always free


Otay


i have no room to ask why here, because that would be offensive, so instead, i say there there


sometimes just telling ur stress out and problems helps


true ye


ta


ya


i mean, sometimes you dont need a worth, just be yourself, enjoy urself and only the true people that come to your life and take their time and effort to listen to u, talk to u and trust u are the real people u need in ur life


but whats the point if you are just going to have fun all the time and not accomplish anything in your life. by the time you are 30 and look back you wont have anything. without accomplishments you cant make friends and you cant find a wife nor a job


my life has been getting worse by the week all i hear is bad news and people giving up on me or just hating me out of nowhere


ok having fun u still can do sometimes in ur life, the point is to enjoy urself and be urself and ik life gets harder and it changes but sometimes u just gotta change urself to be stronger,


a worth and accomplishment are different things a worth is what u live up to, accomplishment is what u have done but it doesnt identify ur life, u identity ur life u are u and no one esle should change that


all, ive done was chance and people call me weird for it.


change


who cares if they call you weird, they arent the ones the judge you


why not?


you judge urself and should always be urself and shouldnt care of what others say


cause why be someone ur not


ur not them


they arent u


u are u


and only u should decide what you think is best for you and not let others choose your path


bc i need to change, i need to make something of myself and i cant do it with how i am rn


ok then you change how you think u wanna change not because others say it


hmm


but remember u should always be ur own person and be urself and try to get positive about things and ik its hard in this life but if you want to change you can but remember to go off your mind set not what others say


hm


thats a good mindset


thx for your perspective on the matter i guess


np, if u need anything else or just wanna talk im always free


oki thx for the offer


np, just wanna be there for people


same, being there for people is hard when you cant be there for yourself tho


ya so just focus on urself and then you can help others


hmm maybe


please


hihihi, maybe i will maybe i wont


ok how about just try at least


im trying ye, i can do that


thank you


why sad?


it looked like your emote xd


o wait


i used the wrong emote


i meant to use


yup


i dislike arguing pleople with moral topics tbh, it feels like im always right or just to stubborn to be convinced


ya it be like that sometimes


What did you do


i dont know if im entirely comfortable saying here


Dm?


its can be kind of triggering. you dont have any triggers do you?


Not really


okay then please can i dm you? i just agh idk if i wanna vent abt it


No its fine!


You can always dm me


Deniz Vogue. dont feel pressured to label yourself! Just go with your gut! Its nobody else's business what your preferences are! And if you want to label yourself, you still have time to experience things and try it out!


Illusive thankss


trying to help depressed people is hard. its like they have a base lvl of sadness they always fall back to and when i cheer them up, they'll be at that lvl again within 6hours


i mean it is what it is


no one said it was easy


yeah ig


Congrats youve learned mental illness isn't an easy thing


i already knew that, but thx for saying that i guess


helping them is the hard part


Its not that hard if you get close enough to the person


yes it is


zeus not really


again there is no hard or easy thing


its just helping someone


there is tho


everyone got issues so u just help them out as best as u can


People suffer and cope with mental illnesses differently, some find it easier to open up while others dont


If you get close you can learn what makes them happy and what causes them to be sad so you can get there mind off the bad and make them happy with the good


if u r at ur limit of helping then u advise them to seek help from others or professional


zeus ya true


having motivation isnt the hard part i mean helping them and it actually having effect


That's because helping with deppresion is a difficult thing in of itself, hence why there are professionals that your advised to contact. Deppresion and other mental illness is a silent killer that ultimately only the person dealing with it can'prevent' ect. The effect you have on them and their ability to cope and overcome it comes down to how strong they are mentally. They may look fine, they may have a smile but the valleys their facing are all mentally and the strain that can have on people, the feeling of isolation within their own mind can be deadly


cool i agree i just said the obvious


it wasnt supposed to be something to debate


but meh


ye i see


I cant do this


Its 3 in the morning my alarms going off,


lily


I hear car doors shutting outside my door


again if u wanna call so my voice would be more comfortable we can


ur gonna be fine


ur gonna be fine lily


again if u wanna call we can?


its alright


lily sure we can dm as always


Ty


ok


damn


They masacred my boy


I


crying and shaking.


the chain has been broken and will never return


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were aware


ya


but everything will be alright nothing to be scared about just to protection urself turn on only friends dm u


just to be safe


but nothing will harm u


but thanks for the msg


CLICKING THESE LINKS WILL IMMEDIATELY SHARE ALL YOUR INFORMATION! I KNOW ITS WELL KNOWN NOW BUT I WANT TO MAKE SURE YOU ARE ALL SAFE!


kerra we know


keirra


we are aware and have told everyone


ive got a dick pic ready to send :


remy could i get the photo so i totally to use it to scare blue whale people and not for my own use


if there is any issue we are here to help


not hector you really want it?


oh


why not


because pp


Flip and please refrain from spreading more worry about it, especially in all caps, its caused some people some anxiety


If you get scared though, feel free to vent here and people will be happy to calm you down


when see whale boat


Im not asking for any role or something but everytime I see people talking in the lunch club since its looked for me I get sad cuz last year seriously every friend group I was in at the time either froze me out or just hurted me mentally accept one that I wasnt even a part of since it was a class server one of my friends invited me 2 and I became close with them and talked with them for a while until I felt like they didnt want me there cuz they also started to hurt me and Ik its stupid but thats just what it is and theres nothing I can do about it and theres probably nothing u guys can do about it either I just wanted to get it off my chest. This is also kinda the reason I was gone for like over 2 weeks cuz a guy that I had been talking to as a friend invited me to his discord server that is a smaller one so I felt less like a left out and more welcome and special.


friends role given


Now I feel like I begged for it or something or that people will think I just made it all up


Just to get the friends role


no


u talk in vc


ur chill


so i gave friends role


Oke


Sometimes I think I judge my self more than others judge me


im sorry jojo about your friends but if you feel like they dont like you or appreciate you then you should tell them but if you cant tell them in person maybe try over text or make another account and tell them how you feel and give little hints that its you they should understand but if they dont then you might have to find a new friend group or try fix up whats going on in your one right now you might think its harsh to just leave them but if they are being bitchy about things then so what dont worry about it if you really dont like what there doing and you need to change it and i hope you all do find out a way to fix anything if theres something wrong and im happy youre feeling closer to the guy but just remember but i highly doubt they dont like you maybe youre just a little quiet and its a bit awkward to start a conversation with people but dont worry about things just choose your decisions wisely :


remy ty I left the group that hurt me the most and just walked away after talking to them and realized nothing were going to change and then Alamo the whole group changed schools leaving 2 of them and 1 of they I try to stay away from but they sometimes come and talk to me like everythings fine... the other one was the one that told me about everything and shes a good person when shes not with them and apperantly Im her only close friend so Im not gonna leave her like they left me.


So its still hard but its going on the right direction


But it still makes me feel like Im nothing like people think Im just something they can just throw away like Im some pice of trash that doesnt feel anything that isnt capable of emotions


remy ty ur really good at pep talks and there came the tears but I mean it thank you


Jojo1217 yee thank youuu! happy tears right? :  thank youuu :


Yes or emotional tear that idk which emotion they belong to


I also have my fluffy cat here as support making me happy but he doesnt say much


yeee : and KITTY


Ventilations


I always try to help other people with their issues, but when they try to help me i feel like im being too needy


ur not being needy


ur just seeking help like everyone else


there is no harm is asking


for help


ok and?


Sureee


every mod is different in every server


ok


good to know


Im scared to go into main tbh


then lets go to dms


Some people take my burdens and weigh themselves down as well and i dont want that to happen to anyone else tbh. But i dont want to keep to myself either tho


Idk


i mean its not a burden to me


u can talk to me if u like


Okai thanks