soapsoup try typing or writing your thoughts out typing will be more secure since you can save stuff and hide it in folders or locks on your phone to help focus your thoughts a bit. And then you can look back tomorrow or next week to reflect on them some more


Ok yeah true... but im not saying that that was a bullshit thought, its just tha i felt like it was at that moment...


I ran outta things to talk about..


Cant think of anything since we covered most of it


I ithink


That's okay to feel that, but try not to view thoughts overall in that way


Yeah...


that's okay, if you ever want to just ask some stuff about it or whatever just dm me or ping me. I might not be awake or I might be busy, but I try to reply


Ur the most useful, undestanding, sweet, but then again supportive person i met online...


I try my best to be. I've ignored myself and my mental health for a long time, and I've been the person helping others and the one who needed help, more so the latter. I have a lot of experience with what a lot of people in the server are going through, and if I can be the one that helps them figure stuff out about themselves or get to a point where they feel better about themselves and their life, then it helps me justify staying alive and accepting my mistakes


So its kind of a cycle


You help people with your expirience


Then u help urself and have more expirience to help people with


Omg my vision just got blurry for a second what the f


exactly, helping others and learning about their experiences helps me get a better understanding of how others in similar situations feel and I can help them work through that. I think a lot of people lack someone like that in their life, someone who may not be a professional and know how to help everyone, but someone who has dealt with what they are going through or has experience with it and can point them in the right direction when they are lost


Then i was lucky enough to meet you:


People like that are why I'm even alive today, if I didn't have people, some who don't even know who I am, that gave me direction and helped give me the motivation to keep going, I would've definitely ended my life


I'm glad you feel that way:


Aw thats both sad and wholesome... u were that depressed?: if its a sensitive topic its ok u dont have to talk about it


Don't worry, I try and be open about it. I know it's hard for a lot of people to talk about, but I know that there are even more people who are scared to talk about it, if I can be the person that makes it easy then that's ok with me


and like I said, a lot of the stuff the people here are dealing with or might deal with I've had some experience with


a very wise and experienced perzon i c


Failed relationships, alcohol abuse, drug abuse, mild depression, severe depression, anxiety, suicide attempts, motivational issues, feeling alone or isolated


there are dozens of other things, it would be nice if I didn't have to go through those things


but it helped me grow and helps me help people who are also dealing with those things


: i believe thats something i cant really experience yet... like ive always seen strange people talk about always being alone and stuff, while i can now understand bc im still young friends are pretty much always there


It's something you can still feel when you have friends right there with you, I know that from experience. Some of the times I've felt the most alone were times I was surrounded by friends


There's nothing wrong with feeling like that, and a lot of people won't deal with that feeling


if you don't


that's ok, if you do, that's ok.


Yeah i dont know what to say to that except i feel bad for the people who do feel like that


It's just something some people have to cope with, for me it was talking to my friends and trying to be open about that feeling, but I only could do that after I started therapy


I still have days where I feel alone, but I have 2 very close friends that also know that feeling and we try to be open about it


Oh well uh sorry ash but


Its like almost midnight rn and im having a bit of a migraine so i should probably get some sleep


don't worry about it, I'm probably gonna take a nap here soon anyway


Hope u have a good rest if the day now and peace out


Cya 3


cya 3


I feel so week


And sad


My crush has feelings for my cousin


And I feel sad now


I was gonna give him my heart origami paper that I made for him


But not anymore


He has feelings for someone now


And that made me very love sick


it's unfortunately something that's gonna happen throughout everyones life. It's hard, seeing someone you have feelings for not reciprocating those feelings. But you can't control how others feel, if you could it wouldn't really be real love. As you move through life, you're gonna find a lot of people that you have feelings for, a lot of them are gonna end up in other relationships, and a lot you could end up dating. Take your time to work through those feelings, but don't let it feel like the end of your life. There is always going to be more people who you are interested in, and that are interested in you.


Wow


I guess your right


Thank you


no problem, it's absolutely ok to feel like, it does pass but don't rush yourself to get past those feelings. Take as long as you need to work through them


yes i hear ou no thanks cause its 2am rn


TAKE RAMEN AND LOVE YOURSELF BECAUSE WE ONLY HAVE ONE LIFE AND WE ALL LOVE YOU, YOU HAVE ALWAYS BEEN HERE FOR US NOW ITS OUR TURN


DUDE BREATH AND THINK ABOUT WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY BETTER YET WHAT CAN MAKE YOU HAPPY:


i have never been happy but thanks for caring about me ill try but idk how much or of this i can take


i have never been happy but thanks for caring about me ill try but idk how much or of this i cant take


Joshie Happiness isn't something you experience it comes when it comes, you dont need happiness to be yourself. You have many talents and other traits and im sorry your going threw this. However if you can't take this let others know how you feel, not us but ur parents, or even turn yourself to someone safe who can hold you, if your girlfriend is there for you. Go hug her tight and let her know how you feel its ok to cry, but just our loves one holding us is enough to bring just a little confidence.


And your welcome /3


Sometimes expressing yourself is for the better and the ones who did not except it has had a reason or was emotional inside, i'm rlly sorry and hope that you have the best of your days, i don't want any suicidal or hurtful thought in ur mind, i don't expect you to be happy


i just want you to be ok


or even


eh


Thanks for talking to me about this but i just wish i didnt say anything and my life at school and at home would be fine


Silence would just hurt you inside im glad you got it out, and we all can help on the outside


but you have to help us help you


AND NOW THEY TREAT ME DIFFERENT


x,Aiden 3


Draikuu


Thanks i appreciate it


Somebody, please go to music 1


girll.. this is vent wtf are you talking about


Joshie anytime 3


VENT IS BACK YAY


we r baq


I idk I just. Ive gotten into a new low and Im just so tired of fake smiling day in and day out. But I just dont want people to ask me how I feel cuz thats when I start to feel about how Im actually feeling even more and everything gets worse. I just dont feel like I fit in anywhere and Im always invisible when I wanna be seen but when I wanna be invisible Im seen. Its just so annoying like I just want to be someone, is that too much too ask


Like I just want people to understand me. People know who I am.


And I just wanna get over my social anxiety. I like talking to people and I want to talk to new people but when Im about to join that vc with unknown people I just feel dizzy and I back out cuz I feel like they r gonna judge me or something or just not like me


And Ik Im not like other people but I just dont want to feel like Im unliked


hey just wanted to let you know I know how u feel, personally I'm vv conscious of my voice n really scared to join a vc but if u need a private vent about anything I'm here if needed


And everytime I talk about my probelms it feels like people just see me as an attention seeker and that I pretend not to be okay just for people to care but I dont I just want to be happy and not be afraid of it anymore


trust me honey I've seen attention seekers you dont fit the vibe of one


Ty


Why am I judging my self more than other people judge me


np idk if I helped I hope I did in some way


Im eating my self up from the inside and idk what to do everythings just getting worse again


we do that to ourselves n we dont mean to but our self esteem just kinda drops and morphs us to be worse than we are ig


Im just so tired of fighting all the time


Tired of fighting the voices in my head


Whos telling me that I cant be enough


That Im just a little ghost and no body cares about me


My head hurts


It hella hurts


I had a mental break down when I was in the shower


It was over my love sickness


I was crying over the fact that no one loves me..


Well some do but I'm talking about relationship love


My relationships never last


At the end of the day they never loved me because they left me


I know some had to leave due to personal problems and I respect that


I'm just crying over me jumping into relationship to relationship


I'm trying so hard to take a break from dating


And yet I keep finding myself in another relationship


I'm trying to find love that last longer that I'll probably never will experience


Shut up you bot


I'm trying so fucken hard to keep myself tight and not lose


But I keep losing myself again and again and again


I'm giving up on myself


I'm giving up so badly


It really does hurt


It feels like it's going to kill me


It feels like I'm going to be murdered by them


If they keep continuing to leave me I'll die from heartbreak and loneliness


I don't wanna be lonely


I want to be loved


But I guess that will never happen


Pls snipe


HunnyPuppy hey, jump to music 1


Magnemax why?


Because of this


Because of what


Is this the land of the imposters Bc yall venting


HunnyPuppy hey dw the right person will come eventually


bruhh bot its not the best time rn smh


You know its people like you that we need more of


pizzaroli.


And thanks man really does help


aw thanks i just try helping Bob Duncan


Nothing


I am nothing


Why


Im nothing


Nothing I said nothing!


Spam


No


Love


For


You


Ugly people


People no


Human


I will kiss human


I need to love human!


I need love


You need love


Love is life


Humans


I am nothing


Nobody


No one


Life


Is interesting


We need


Light!


Light is good


For human!


LIGHTTTY


I need


Love


Human


No


Oh


Oh no one love


Sad


fast roach


legit same


VicarVickerton hey, vika


vika?


did u just call me vika


I love that


Magnemax hello


May you go to the music 1


why


Because of this


of what


Magnemax I'd love to but it ain't letting sorry


So my cousin told me that she also likes my crush but not a lot


And I told her that He can have you


And I'm sad bec she likes him back but only a little bit


I give up she can have him


Even if it hurts me for them to get together


I still let them have each other


My cousin and I are planning to tell all this to him tomorrow


Stfu you bot


I'm taking now listen


I need a cure for my love sickness


HunnyPuppy but doesn't ur cousin want u to be happy


NoPoint yeah...


HunnyPuppy ya so she should understand that u like him more


NoPoint yeah but my crush likes her more


wait did he tell both of you that he likes both of u?


He said that he likes me but I had a bf at that time


And before we broke up I had feelings for him


And now my crush likes my cousin


i mean, does ur crush know that u like hi,?


him


why not tell him how u feel


I can't


He confessed his feelings to my cousin


My crush likes my cousin


I can't confess


O


im sorry:


NoPoint it's okay I'll try to get over him


I feel bad for you HunnyPuppy


Binyo I know everyone does it makes us human


HunnyPuppy Well think positive, you can still find your soulmate


Binyo I did founded my soulmate...he left me...


HunnyPuppy maybe is not, you will never know


Binyo I'm just sad because I keep thinking that their soulmates and boom they just leave my feelings are to fatal


HunnyPuppy Did you really know him?


I regret dating my bf n literally crying my eyes out for him last night just for him to say the r slur n ignore me


@! exia omg im sorry:, but i mean we all make decisions and we do regret them but we shouldn't just holy focus on regret, we should move on cause screw ur bf, ur so much better then he is


THANK U FSHEJHFG


@! exia 3


tw self harm: when you see a knife do you just wanna


iconique why do u wanna do that?


NoPoint idk ive never did it but i just imagine doing it whenever i see one


iconique ok well its still not good to think about it, have u tried to talk to ur parents about this?


NoPoint theyd probably be like nah the internet just saying and teaching that or something


iconique ok well, maybe try day dreaming, ik it sounds stupid but being creative and making ur own world helps a lot, it gives ur creativity and like ur own world u can do what u want, it might not help but u can try it out, otherwise, it might be best to talk to someone if u have these thoughts about hurting urself


NoPoint i feel like i cant. i already draw in class, so why would i daydream?


iconique i mean, day dreaming makes u have ur own world and do whatever u want but drawing helps too, just try to relax urself, is there like a reason when u see a knife why u might have those thoughts?


NoPoint tw ed: ive been slightly sad lately and wanting not to eat thats probably why


iconique is there a reason why u been sad, and why not wanting to eat, food is yum


NoPoint thats the reason, i eat food a lot and i keep gaining weight. ive been sad bc i have barely anyone, only one friend irl and online friends


iconique i mean, maybe start a working out and eating like meals and healthy food, like not eating doesn't make u lose weight


NoPoint my brother said the main thing to lose weight is to eat less


aww wait i didn't see it


iconique ok he pretty dumb


best way to lose weight is to have a good workout like way and eat healthy and balance out


NoPoint thing is im 13 so i cant really lose weight


iconique you can?


NoPoint well my parents dont really think i should lose weight yet bc im too young”


iconique i mean u can always workout at any age


my sister is 14 and she is working out


oops already messed that up


and u say she didnt know the proper background of it


@! exia Keep in mind that parents usually want what they see is best for their children. Most of the time we don't agree on what is best, and to her, putting slut on a caption probably looks pretty bad to her. For us, it doesn't really, a lot of people will do it as a joke, a lot of people are ok with calling themselves that and the word is just generally less derogatory in more circumstances it used to be. Unless you live in the same house and she can punish you somehow, she can eat shit. Even then, unless there is a genuine punishment, she can eat shit. With the sugar skull makeup, a lot of people don't really understand the implications of using someones culture as a fashion statement and only do it because they like how it looks. But if she doesn't recognize what is wrong with it, she isn't gonna care if someone doesn't like it.


VicarVickerton she wore the sugar skull makeup look for Halloween without having basic knowledge of its origins


@! exia yeah that's shitty


GOOD NEWS


I GOT MY CHANCE TO CONFESS MY LOVE TO MY CRUSG


MY COUSIN REJECTED HIM BECAUSE SHE STILL LIKES ANOGHER GUY


HE SEES ME AS A FRIEND


BUT THAT WON'T CHANCE ME FOR CONFESSING TO HIM


I'm so proud of myself


And to my cousin


Thanks


My love sickness is getting better


HunnyPuppy ooo niceee


im always proud of you soo, me even more proud


YAY


THANK YOU


I had one of my worst days today


Worst day in a while


And my birthday is in a few days


And I have no happiness towards it apart from being 15


I dont really want to have a party


I had heaps of ideas but my parents neglected them


And now they are threatening to make me move to the farm and change schools because I dont appreciate being fortunate enough to go to it


Yes I do take it for granted


But


I dont wanna leave that school


I cried for the first time in ages today


I really just wanna sneak out and lie outside and escape from it all


CbAnDzZz pinged you so when you wake up you can see


Sorry I didnt respond earlier


NoPoint lad you have depression, you're bound to get better go down and get better again, that's the unfortunate thing, but lad distancing yourself/not talking to people will make it worse you're giving into what your depression wants, it wants you to be alone, it wants you to not have anyone to turn to, you gotta fight it man, you're very strong, your head is gonna tell you otherwise but you're a fantastic person, you're fun to talk to, you have a soothing voice, you're funny, like dude you're cool asf you gotta ignore the thoughts man they just gonna drag you down


Avotic thank you ethan


im sorry it hasn't been the best, i hope you get better with the leg, with school ik its like gonna get harder and worse, but sometimes we just need like 1 day off and help us relax ourselves, so maybe just have a day to urself, it might feel not like u can't, but u will always have one day to urself, i say maybe if stress is getting to you to like try some hobbies or something to help with the stress and help have a clear head to move forward


You are worth it, you arent a waste


You were put through things that someone should never have to go through


But that is motivating for you to push forward and keep strong


I also remember a time where everything made me happy and now its not like that


But we have to keep forward


Life is kinda like a bike, you gotta keep moving forward or you will lose your balance


Its ok to be feeling down


And its good that you have let us know


How nice does this look


For my eyes its pitch black


it looks pretty cool


I wanna go out and look at the stars


Also the trees are green


you can see the trees really well


I DID IT WITH A COLOUR AND


I got a ghost on camera


See that shit on the tree


im heading out


if you all need me message me I guess but I wont be sure when Ill be back


thanks for everything 3


thats


wow


I just feel very helpless sometimes. i want to help people and i want them to be better in the end but i always end up feeling like i did nothing and made things worse.


im so insecure i feel like everyone genuinely dislikes me or at least find me annoying. whether its my laugh, me in general etc. just idk ik people dont hate me but i cant help it.


i used to have so many goals that were possibly unreachable sure but i tried to acheive them. now i just dont care. my one that exists that i want is: move to canada and now im just giving up and dont care anymore. i dont know what i want to do anymore i used to be so sure but now idc i just want to curl up into a ball and fade away.


sometimes i just feel like im wandering aimlessly. i used to feel like trying but now i dont care of have any drive to want to try to get things i want ive just got so apathetic and i dont know what to do anymore.


idk if its cause ive been trapped inside for 2 weeks or not but god i just cant be assed to do anything anymore. cba to just do life in general. its too exhausting.


I just dont care to try fix it anymore tho, id rather just help everyone else. thats really all that matters tbh. their happiness over mine. ik its toxic to myself but my saviour complex really said no


well i guess thats good right...


i cant do anything i migh perceive as selfish without being disgusted afterwards and then afraid people will think its selfish and hate me


im repulsed at the idea of being narcassistic and selfish that things many will tell me arent i still think they are ad actively avoid doing it


probably why i dont have an ounce of self love


i kinda wanna go on a rant abt more insecurities cause ive never really told anyone but ive done so much already


Taylax u can always rant to me3


Oh my god johnni im so sorry


Hey thank you guys for being my friends


Big dum np ily


@.ghostie:


Yea so today hasnt been great my friend is leaving me on read and the other is taking a break from social media and they didnt tell me before hand: anddd my friend gave me a panic from earlier on top of that I feel really disconnected: aaa


Thats all


Anyone else just sad


You cant think of a reason


But youre just sad


oh yeah all the time


Big dum np ily jj


ehh i need advice I guess


pog


but my friend left a server while ago and I think I wanna add them back but I dont know if theyre gonna respond. also they seem kinda distant? like theyre dissassociating and its making me worried since they wont tell me the problem. I dont want to force it out of them, we just been friends for so long its concerning but I wont say anything about it.


i guess people have their times and their moments but this is just new to me ive never seen it happen before


waterbottle i would say just ask how they are and just say and let them know ur there for them and comfort them otherwise u can't really do anything be wait for them and be patience for them, just in sure them ur always there for them


okay, but when is it okay to DM them? they dont answer like they used to and Im just really concerned thats all


bcs all I get back is a dont worry” or they bring up anotjer topic and Im stumped


should I just go along with it?


whenever u feel comfortable3


waterbottle i used to have a friend like that too, and honestly i enjoyed talking to them but anytime i think something happen they say don't worry kinda pissed me off but just try to like in sure them ur there for him anytime he says that ig


I cried myself to sleep last night and I have no idea why


and even if im not being forced to delete my social media im probably still gonna take a little break because these last few weeks have really not been the best and ive had a bunch of little anxiety attacks like one im having right now


oki emily stay safe be careful love you!


Oh damn alright please stay safe emily


NoPoint Im not sure. I mean nothing different from how I normally feel has happened


FrostHT just speak ur mind


its not that i'm really pissed off at my friend, im just a bit frusturated but i think they have trust issues and can't speak their mind even with those they can trust. It scares me because i know that they are bottleing everything inside and i'm so worried. I haven't messaged them either because im too nervous to and this server is the only one i can trust ig


arson says awooga so if u ever need me u can dm me ok, ur an amazing person and ik everyone that cares about u loves u 3


It honastly feels like I'm losing myself rn


lets see if i make it until new years


FR THOUGJTHGHB


My math teacher be like that doe


my dad wants me to come to thanksgiving, he wants me to visit for a couple days because my sisters mental health has been deteriorating. but i dont think i can, since him calling me i just feel so gross about saying id go. and i know why it is, and honestly im torn, i dont think i should have any type of relationship with him because of our past and how he treated me throughout my life and until now. part of me however still wants him to love me and care about me and just treat me like his daughter but it just... hurts talking to him and seeing him and looking at him, and i want to do this for my sister but i feel like at this point ive come so far in improving my life and getting happy and staying there and im finally doing good! but i just feel like ill backslide, i dont feel obligation to do it because were family but the only two times ive seen him in the past 3 years were when my grandmother and her sister died, and part of me worries that might happen again if i dont go now.


But I do maths that u do in ur 11th year


so geometry?


Depends but I also have a sister” whos good at maths so if I cant explain she can


nvm, its cool. thank you though


KEA NO


im just here to vent


oki oki


tell me whats wrong bebe


ima be honest i always thought i was confused about my sexuality but this time im not and i just found out my mom thought i was playing about being a lesbian and she always makes fun of me for it and now i dont talk to my dad because he doesnt accept me for who i am so i dont know what to do now because i have no one to talk to at home and all i do is fakea smile


kea, babes, dont fake it. talk to people who love you, ik your parents love you no matter what. but if you arent comfortable talking to them im always available just ping it sm me


well


its coming back


slowly but surely


lowkey wanna die but can't show it cause I'm a therapist too people


its ok ethan


we all feel like that at some point


can we just agree that this generation needs some serious help.


we're the most connected generation but the most lonely one at the same time


w h y a m i c r y i n g


yall give me the ability to cry


i barely can


i forgot how


i get a couple tears then its over


i try to make myself cry but it doesnt rlly work


i just hurt myself rlly bad


whoops


When I was younger I was verbally abused and when I'm sad like this the feeling of getting yelled at comes back and it makes me wanna die:


sarah what did you do


nothing


nvm


i was sexually assulted when i was 7


and he told me not to tell anyone


I wouldnt say what you did..


Just incase


i was 6 :


im not gonna


About the self harm


Oki


or sm it to me sarah


anyways what yall want from mcdonalds?


dm


MCFLURRY


he would touch me in places i never wanted to be touched


or we looking to be more classy


dennys!


Nothing I dont feel like eating


likewise


but we can chill


he forced me to do things i didnt want to do


he was 15 and i was 7


Ima be hungry later And i will be eating but rn I'd rather starve


my nose is bleeding...


and when i told my mom about it she told his parents and then he said i wanted to do all those things and i got in trouble in a way i will never forget


do yall ever see kids at school w sh scars?


it always is


I havent


tbf


I wish I had tho


i do. a lot. and its sad but at least no ones seen mine


the ones i see are never as bad as mine


there on my thighs tho


Ive never self harmed tho ive wanted t


to


i always where long sleeves and shorts so i cant cut my thighs


And ive tried to but I could never actually make a mark


theres only 4 cuts so i can still use shorts


oh yea


Who wanna go play Russian roullette


Me


Fun times


Avotic i made it 9 days


the words he called me are replaying in my head...


thank you ethan


i love you sm yall


hes the reason my depression and anxiety got worse


i love you too


My thoughts scare me:


bubbles i just want to thank you for being here for me and all the support you give me


forever and always.


Honestly it doesnt feel like I can love anyone rn so sorry I didnt say it back


absolutely babes.


i get scared easily


Thank for being here tho


ofc


Its less of me being scared and more me hating every second of it


And then the random suicidal thought hits and I sob like crazy


its not scary in particular it just doesnt seem right


It doesnt feel like me


Never does


but you know what feels even worse


being truly happy for about a day and then remembering youre never gonna get that back again


it hurts.


What about for the whole day putting up a fake personality to random ppl online to replace the non exostant irl social life i have and then realising today that I really dont know what I am anymore


Am I acting right now or not I'll never tell cuz its all bs


Jesus Christ I'm emo rn


lmao


Ouch


At least it feels like I'm being honest with myself for once


how does one cry?


or at least pretend


asking for a friend


idk anymore sarah


its hard to get me to cry


I don't know


seeing yall in pain makes me cry


thats all


I hate feeling emotions


Idk how to cut so I just use a screwdriver and press down


Nah..


I'll be fine


No blood


i dont wanna pressure you


bc i know how much that hurts


but


nonetheless


try


LMAO


I fake smile


i dont


its hard to fake a smile


Same


i think smiling is my normal face


When you dont know if you faking anything or if your faking everything


my default is smile bc yes


Its hard to fake something


i only have 2 expressions


a smile


and aaa


My default is frown


i have a emotionless face and my fake smile


a mischievous look almost


You'll see me in a video making weird faces to stop myself from frowning


i look like im gonna burn your house down


like ?


I'll just sit with my tongue to the side a weird


OMG


I SLAP MY MOUTH


I CANT STOP


Oof


I feel a little better now but I'm not gonna switch to the other chat until I know I'm okay idk what I'll say


uh huh


im just here to try and help people


im gonna die


ping if you need to talk


Alright


love yall


so much


You too


we love youuu tooo


i fake laugh


and fake smile too


If i do fake smile or laugh I wouldn't know


I dont think I do


im just glad i made it this far


kea dont do anything


please


i wont i promise


lily im sorry i promise i wont self harm again this is the last time


You know, last year I really felt like I was gonna give up, I was literally looking for a spot. But something stopped me, I dont know what it was, but I felt something. So I didnt


And Im really glad I didnt


Because life has gotten so much better


And yeah theres ups and downs


But thats just part of it


im reallly sorry gee i know i shouldnt self harm but i was lost in my thoughts


And now I am otg with someone


I honestly feel like there may be something wrong with me


I am not very smart


Like at times I can get these moment where I am smart


But I have little lack of general knowledge of anythin


G


Just ask me a few questions


And then theres my problem speaking


I always stuff up my words no matter who I am talking to


And I have energy highs and then I can be reallly tired


And when I yawn my eyes water


And so it looks like Im crying


But when I have energy i talk a lot and people get annoyed


And I have no way to get rid of that energy in class except for the old leg bounce thing


Could I not repeat last night pls


why do i have jealousy issues


tahnk you verry much!


Um hello


hello


Um so I need to talk to someone


And um its about parental abuse


DMs are always open here


So I can dm you?


Yup


second account btw


Someone come over


I hate everything right now


I just want someone here


To comfort me


To show me that someone cares


Someone who isnt online


Gee its gonna be ok we're here for you


you can always dm me if you feel lonely or sad and I'll try and help


you arent alone and people care abt you


bc you are valid


i mean, even if he thought u liked them, and u say no multiple times, it still means they he shouldn't try to like touch you, but thats up to you if u think its assaulted again its ur body not mine, but i say its better not to get close like physical wise with him, but he keeps doing it then i would say he just wants to get in ur pants, if i was with a person i liked yes i would get close but otherwise i would respect the decision of the other person cause again if this is the person i wanna date then i wouldn't wanna like mess it up, thats just me


Ok so this is my only message today. Ive felt so done with everything recently, and for the past month I feel myself slowly edging closer to a breakdown. And Ive been trying to keep it in and stay strong since my friends are also kinda sad so I just console them. But today I almost broke. Ive only ever had one before and I dont want that again. I literally cried for the first time in months. I almost exploded. What am I supposed to do whenever I actually do? Help wanted with this one


maybe try to get a therapist


ik its hard but talking to others and speaking how u feel helps a lot


Ok Ill look into that


Thank you


Im just not sure how my parents would react. Ive talked to my sister whos in college and she went through the exact same thing. Sucks that my parents dont realize that stress that theyve put on us.


ya i get what u mean


Hey!


How are you today? Ask the question to yourself .


Please stop and read.


Breathe.


In and out.


One more time.


Are you feeling worthless or unloved.


Are you feeling anxious, depressed.


Or all of above.


Just remember, I love you.


If you feel like no one loves you, well.


Youre wrong.


Your brother, sister, dad, mom, uncle, grandparents, and even the turtle. They all love and care of you no matter what!


I even care/love you!


Im not saying it is easy, but I believe in you.


Everyone has there faults and flaws not just you.


You have to be motivated.


Think about the turtle he believes in you!


If that doesnt work, think about yourself.


Youre worth it!


cant cry anymore


Im sad! Lily doesnt like me anymore.:


Nobody liked lily so...


did lily actually leave


mean


I like you


Of course lovey!


YAYYY


ILYSM DEAN


ilyt!


Hello


So, as most of ya probably know, I've been mute for the last like month, and lately it's been making me really depressed, I cannot communicate easily with people, so many times it came as a disatvantage, both in school and socialy, which is why my grades havent been the best lately... I've been really sad, and instead of doing homework, I would just sit and listen to sad lofi to relax... I cannot focus and its really bad...


well i mean not everyone is obliged to learn sl


except my family and stuff ofc they know


i usually wouldnt go to this part of a server for problems but my partners offline. any tips for falling and staying asleep? my anxiety is being a bitch to me and i cant sleep without my partner singing/talking.


i just dont wanna be dependent on it ya know


its different for everyone


but its more of trial and error


before ur partner how did u sleep?


green vented btw


thank you simar:


or is it something bothering u that u cant normally sleep?


i sing if i hear music, but maybe ill try falling asleep to law and order or something since ive seen a lot of the episodes.


and i was worried about my grades but i checked them and theyre fine so im not stressed about anything in particular


i did find a lullaby called close your eyes sleepy paws i like a lot at least!


ooo thats good


again carlie its just trial and error, everyone is different so u just gotta find what makes you like comfortable to sleep


yuh yuh yuh thankies


is dreaming about your own deaths okay and i mean that's is the only thing i dream about is that normal?


not really normal since everyone can dream about anything but its not really the best thing to always dream about u dying


okie


i mean ive dreamed about me dying


i do kinda often


dreamt


omg


english


If he does care about you, he'll understand, maybe not straight away, maybe it'll take a day or two, point is, if he does come round and eventually realise then I still loves you.


Just as long as you mention you wanna have a heart to heart, it feels like he's loosing interest in you, and it hurts you because you've been holding back because you are afraid of loosing him.


Don't be afraid to talk your mind a little bit to him, if he's human, he'll understand:


ouf I didn't realise it was this big of a paragraph sorry o0


Hey


hi people


hiya!


g o o d d a y


howdy


Well hello


hello


I just had a full on spontaneous breakdown, I dunno why, it happened shortly after talking about how we sleep and I mentioned I sleep with an old stuffed toy for comfort, because there is a specific reason why I can't, and don't sleep, trauma, but I'm not comfortable saying what it is proper publicly just yet... Point is I lay there in bed in the early morning 6AM crying about something I don't even know what I'm I'm crying about, I know it isn't bad to cry, it just scares me that I don't know what caused it


look Buttons its fine i know for a fact half of this server crys just to cry or fore no reason


and yeah i gotchu on the being alone forever thing i always think about loneliness mainly bc im imbound for it but dude its alr its all gon be alr dw


Cheers Valor.. sorry for not replying sooner I fell asleep not long after this 0o


Sometimes I can barely take it


Can't wait to leave this earth and go literally anywhere else


hi. my health isnt good apparently. i cant do much about it if my parents dont care and i cant drive alone i have my permit not my license. ever since october everything has felt like a dream, or unreal. ever since the summer ive been having awful stomach aches before bed. i also have had chronic migraines for the longest time and they have just been getting worse and worse. in addition, im having these weird pins and needles in the back of my head and ive had them before in 5th grade and they concerned my doctor. lately, these past few weeks ive been feeling super delirious and that i was gonna pass out at any given time. i have no idea whats going on and i cant take painkillers or else i get a bad headache. ik for a fact that i dont have corona but i have no idea whats going on and my parents wont take me anywhere. any idea as to what it is? my friends say i should go to a hospital or a doctor but like i cant and my mom refuses to believe i have migraines. someone send help


anyways since the second shutdown none of my friends keep in contact with me im literally just rotting away and crying my eyes out 24/7. I just want to see someone besides my parents you know?


Of course I go here first but I feel so invalidated rn, my friend who ive known since 4th grade said that he didnt have to call me by the pronouns i wanted i go by they/them because apparently it's optional now and now i feel so sad? angry? ive been stressed out lately and that just great for me


on this


wow


yeah i could try


i didnt feel like arguing with them abt it so I just stop messaging


Yeah maybe you guys just need some time apart


im just conflicted rn cause ive known them for awhile but that really hurts bro ngl


my friends tried to explain it to him


So basically its incorrect because her gender is non binary


well hM


at least it seems like hes trying to understand a bit! any updates?


I need money :c


My heart hurts even more


Great


My point exactly


is it 12 am? yes


am i crying? also yes


am i going to be up until 6 am crying? most likely.


did i just get dead named and misgendered for the 7th time today? yes.


here is cat with thumbs to help u feel better


I woke up at 3 am due to my wack sleep schedule, once i got into school did 4 tests for 4 of my classes and they count as most of my grades, got into a fight with my boyfriend and friend, was told i was a girl and that transgender people didn't exist, and got hit on by a adult. This is surprisingly normal for me.. why can't i have a normal life like other people?


I feel bad, I wish I could help you out


And Im sorry about whatever you have had to go through


Being an adult must suck.


So most of us like human contact, cuz that's kinda hardwired into our brains, because of our parents.


Weather you have/had one, two or none, if your here, you've had a hug or other type of contact like that from a parental figure in your life.


What has been bothering me recently is what happens when you leave home? What happens if your alone when you move? Is it even possible to live without that caring contact? Those wquestions gave been stuck on my mind for a couple months now and I dunno how to feel about it.. for some reason it makes me feel empty inside, and rather upset.. it's strange and the human mind spooks me about all it's little wants and needs...


i asked him how he felt and he simply said, its confusing, yes. every time i ask him thats always his response and i keep letting myself get attached because of some made believe world that will never happen


have u ever asked him why its confusing?


i get too worried and scared to ask him agian because i dont want him to get annoyed or frustrated with me


no i never really thought of that, i felt like it might be prying to much


well, u have the right to know as he is someone u care about, so its best to know why its confusing


be there for him


ok, thanks for this btw


hi so like my grandpas dying and hes in another country russia. about 2 months ago his health started rapidly declining once he was bedridden still is after he broke his hip. currently, hes not doing well and my mom has to fly back there. she left for 3 weeks to be with him in november and put him in a nursing home. i mean i kinda was expecting it bc he is 92 and a WW2 vet. but im also super anxious for my SAT tmr and i have to do well bc my moms expecting a lot from me. going back to my grandpa, i have no idea how long my mom will be gone. hes widowed and theres a lot that needs to be done. im not sure if my dad will be able to go for a possible funeral a few weeks after my mom leaves; i know for sure im staying home for school and i wont have an opportunity. the scary part is that during the holidays in russia, the country practically shuts down, pandemic or not, bc the holidays are major there. im just super stressed and anxious and i feel that everythings at an uncertain. i just want 2020 over. i also dont mind being home alone for awhile bc it was like that when my mom left bc my dad works but idk man it takes a toll. i just want to do well on my SAT and make my mom happy. shes expecting at least a 1200 highest score is 1600 bc i got a 1140 on my PSAT highest score is 1520. so like if anyone has some tips on stress relief and relaxation please help it would be very appreciated:


A nice relaxing drive always helped me. Or drink some green tea or chocolate.


Also working out then a nice shower.


Those dont really work for me anymore but they used to.


thank you sm


bunny is there a reason why?


idrc


i mean if u wanna talk about it then we can dm or just say it here if u don't then i understand but i don't think u should die, im sure u are an amazing person


Why does it not matter?


@.ghostie


Im here for you


Why:


What'd i miss?


um trying to find one currently


Guys only want one thing and its ducking disgusting


What guys want


man i kinda want that right now


Same honestly


You know I have never hugged a girl?


Nor kissed


I have had a girl put her head on my shoulder and I put my head on hers at a party but apart from that


lily


that


was


at 5 am


Its so weird


Its on an angle


so i always thought music was my way of not thinking of suicidal thoughts


and now i have been thinking of different ways to die for about 4 hours


NoPoint tbh i understand what you mean i always thought music or keeping myself busy would help and nothing really helps but I can tell you wont end up like me having to resort to different takes try going for a walks or try new things mby think might help you keep your might of Suicadal thoughts  if nothing works I don't mind talking to you Thats if I'm not busy


idk i feel like the moment no one sees me ill probably try to end it, in the summer i tried to go for like walks and just riding my bike to get my thoughts cleared but i stopped going cause i got unmotivated


If you ever EVER need to just talk or vent to someone you can count on me I'm here for you


i dont fight cause if u fight u have something to fight for, i just dont really want to fight for anything i dont want to fight, ya ik im not alone but everytime i got no one in my hear no one that is with me, then i just feel lonely but then im just being annoying and thinking that i always need someone with me but i dont know ehat i want, im not the type to reach out to anyone cause im already struggling to talk to anyone about how i feel or anythhing about myself cause who tf wants to talk about me im not really interesting i dont really wanna worry people or think i want attention cause i dont, i never really want attention its just not bad to have but idk


You are amazing, and till you start believing that life will be harsh and I can't guarantee that once you start loving yourself life will get better. But I can tell you that when you start loving yourself you learn to value who you are and who you are is a very important person. Weather you believe it or not


You are more than what you think you are


You are amazing, and anyone who ever said other wise can suck it okay. Because whoever pushed you down to make you believe it and eventually push yourself down are incorrect asholes okay.


I know it seems hard or even impossible to ever learn to love yourself but it's not impossible. And I am here to help you every step of the way okay, I can teach you some techniques on how I learned to accept myself that really helped me


nothing is impossible even the word impossible is im possible


And guess what your human and that's okay to fall and give up sometimes, but you have to get back up, because you a real strong I know you are okay. Don't let what other people say or do get to you.


You are not a disappointment, you are you and that's all that matters.


Because at the end of the day it's you and yourself not anyone else you have to sleep with yourself not anyone else okay.


okay


And if your not happy with who you are, do something about it. Change yourself to who you want to be, not who everyone else wants you to be but who you want to be. And if you don't know who you want to be that's okay too okay. Just take it day by day and tweak whatever you want to tweak okay.


Because nobody can make you do anything nobody can make you feel better only you can do that, and I believe in you


i just feel like im a waste by just being here that i dont have dreams


no goals


no life things i want


nothing


all i want is for othets to be happy


only goal would be helping others


will i got none


some days i lay in bed for hours not even sleeping just laying there


been eating less and less


That's not good


Well then from now on I'll be your little helper


Weather you like it or not


i mean if u want to but its gonna be a waste of time


I'm feeling a little better now I'm calm enough to text at least


I hate this place.


this isnt the main chat lmaoo


I think I just lost it


I just started crying for no reason


I havent been feeling sad and


That has just happened


Wait for sadness to kick in


is getting used to cutting yourself a bad thing or a good thing?


quite a bad thing


its an addiction, like alcohol you can build up a tolerance


Im getting used to pain?


you should be careful with this fr


better seek for help from therapist


luv


its hard ik, im still figuring out a way to actually live my life


i really can't carry on with living an adult life anymore. everything feels so heavy and i feel like a little kid in supermarket with no money. anything i do have such consequences that i regret it immediately. all of this makes me want to flee. but there's nowhere to go. no one to help you. mental illnesses just mess up all my day schedule and thoughts. i really don't know how am i gonna get through this. maybe i won't.


Hey girl i aint a adult but i think this may work out for you,focus on yourself more often!Take care of yourself!Sleep early so you can wake up to see the sunrise,Walk in the park and pick up some plants,and try to put them in jars or sum! Adulthood isnt easy and im not ready for it too! Just stay safe and just do something to make you happy College wont do yall good! Only if you want to go to it.Theres a girl who inspried me and said that she had a disease killing her organs but she left the hospital to explore the world,i wanted to do the same so bad


And that was around when I was like 56


also sorry that u got screamed at:


wair


wronf reaction


my


bad


cause if ur not happy cause of ur household then u should have the right to move sesy from that


away


True


merry jolly fun times


thats what i like to call it


thats not very good


I really felt like making that


felt that


I am at the farm and Im lonely


All my friends are in town


And I cant go to the parties and chill with this girl


do u not have a ride?


Im at the farm and we arent going to town until Christmas


i will be up for maybe another few hours


so if u wanna text or call just dm me and we can get to know each other more:D


Im done


I was talking to some friends in a different group and my dad asks who I'm talking to I don't know them but I'm making friends and he looks at the pfp can one of them had a mustache and he say Your not talking to adults They were teens and he tells me to delete discord I say I do and I don't and can't vc with friends unless at my mom's and she's ok about it and he's so controlling I can have privacy and Your 11 you don't get privacy I hate it here and he treats me like shit and always yells at me and I think he's going through my phone bc I never talk him about that I'm bi and yeah his name was dad Now it's DAD I don't like it here I need advice


Thanks


My gf got high and did the stuff with someone.


Oh


Oh no


Im so sorry


I'm so sorry, are you okay?


Im sure its nice


I would say can I hear it but yoi probably wouldnt want to because you hate it


But trust me


Your voice would be fine


When you lose 2 people in one day


saraphina idk


no one deserves to feel that way


but i beg of you please try to talk to someone


im always here i know we dont know eachother that well


but ill listen


I have but I made it worse


maybe talk to someone but not talk on the subject


like talk about anything


anything at all


deaths the only thing on my mind


I cant think happy or think straight


what makes you think of death, then?


wow that was fast


leveled again


I never smile etc


you sound like someone i know rn


its not much of a bad thing, the dudes got talent


im sure u do too


have you ever tried just relaxing your face and smiling?


sarah has a question


sarah are you she/her?


yes yes


its in my roles


okie ty


so I don't have one


thats not good


ya I just drink water


i hear you like football


team?


well i hardly watch it now but for the most part yes


ah i see i see


how come you like american football so much?


its not the best thing In the world but i watch it


main reason all my friends watch it


so I have to keep updated with it


convo material


can u perhaps tell be about it? i dont know much


Uhh see now that's a problem


you neeed to watch some part of it before I explain it


i know a bit


or you will be like wtf


@ kaafie but I you kinda need to watch a game or something then I can explain it


because I wont make sense


wait which football is this


the blackandwhite ball or the orange one


i dint really know what am football is xD


theyre both just called football here in my area


which is confusing af


in europe its futbol which in america is soccer


u might be confusing it w that


but american football involves a lot of tackling


ohhh that oneee


man the people here taught me confusing terms


bnw ball football


orange oblong football


they couldnt have done that better


leveling


yah its so fast


ohhh so thats a football


yes its an american foot ball


so the other is a soccer ball then


ohhh


thanks for the info that had me so confused


i know you love me but i have to go alright? the last words my best friend said before killing herself


shes not here anymore.. today is the day she died last year and it hurts but... ive built thick skin


i promise my family every birthday that.. ill be here till next year and more but i dont know this time


its hard to see people go.. it really is.. i know people will miss me but.. thats equal or less for my enemies and my bad thoughts


im still not sure


The easy way is never the right way


Your a sweet person, but i can't continue to see you break every. single. day. It happens again and again. And i'm afraid you might be at your limits. I loved you, i did. but it didn't last. don't miss me Mi Amor. Liam, my boyfriend


If he really loved me, he would have cared and stayed. If he really loved me he would have not cheated on my with my best friend and my ex. If he loved me, He would still be here with me, holding me as i cry for the fifth time today. If he loved me, He wouldn't get drunk every night, underaged, and hook up with random people. IF HE LOVED ME, LIKE HE SAID, I WOULDN'T BE HERE CRYING, ANGRY AT THE WORLD AND MYSELF FOR NOT BEING GOOD ENOUGH FOR HIM! if he loved me. But he didn't in the end. so for 4 years of my life, he pretended to love me and care for me and say i was ok. for 4 years... i thought i was safe with a person who loved me for me. But in the end i was wrong.


My vent


beep beep im so pissed of today


someone called me the fslur


I


FUCK THEM


so whats the funny part?


And anytime I get close to someone these intrusive thoughts come in and I want to hurt them emotionally even if I love them and I wish it wasnt like that


Im so touch starved and I need someone to hold me and tell me Im not a terrible person


Even though I am


For 16 years the only form of love Ive ever known was all a lie. He told me to my face he only acted like he loved me because he wanted to hurt my mom


I was nothing but a pawn in his game


So I have no real depiction of love


Because the only love Ive ever known was fake


ok well its hard ti change


but with proper friends


that will be there for u u can do it


i believe in you


and ik u can do it


it takes a lot of time and effort but u got this queen


u are amazing and deserve to be treated like a queen


yourdaddy


just believe in urself


im here if u ever wanna talk about anything


again its no ones fault


ok so we will start dming more to each other promise?


promise


Anyone else have that song on and they just die


Just die of sad


Wait


That doesnt make sens


Well


Im going back to dying to this song


Its just the song that breaks you


Im just feeling confused at times and ask why i deserve all these people my friends my family and others when ive done so many hurtful things


i dont feel too well either


I'm sorry to hear that I hope you can find something or someone to make you happy


thank u, i hopu u do too


Thank you I left all my friends purposefully cause I got made fun of by them and now I miss them so much


Yall. I been missing my great grandma, because she was a grandma to me. I dont have a grandma, not even one to grow up with. And its been one year since my great grandmother passed. I call one my last family members my grandma since, she kind is. Its also coming up to the day when my friend committed. Which is January something, and I feel quality. I didnt do anything wrong, I just dont know. Also. I been just sad. And theres not much reasons for why Im sad.


omg


fuck


I don't want to get political


But when someone gives me something that I really deserve I dont know how to reaspond


sometimes its ok to like not respond


Oh sorry I was in class


its alright


be urself


Hmm


Okay


Realising I think Im starting to love this guy Im speaking to and Im so scared of commitment, Ive recently come out of a toxic relationship and really want to trust him but Im worried Ill push him too far and he wont come back


ok, do u like this dude a lot?


ive stopped talking to everyone and just given up with things in general. i dont feel a place here anymore


i mean


why


wait


im


dumb


ok


lets start over


why step talking to everyone


OMG NOW STEP


owakdmjowa


TISITDTDITE


ok just whats on ur mind


oops


I just wanna go to sleep forever


I don't wanna wake up and annoy people or bother them


Because I know how annoying I am to them


Why should I bother hang out with them if they are gonna bass my energy


I just want someone with the same energy as me


I just want to be accepted


HunnyPuppy u dont bother or annoy anyone


It's the middle of class and i feel like i need 12 shots of vodka. what has my life come to?


So my ex cheated on me while high and she just kinda disappeared after because she knew what she did and understood what came next


And you know how someone would be really upset about that right


I was for the first couple days


And its like yeah it sucks


But Im not really like feeling as much loss as I feel I should


Idk if it just hasnt hit me yet or what


Its not that


Like I have this constant feeling of loss


But its like


Not as extreme


Or going away


Or bothering me as much as I feel it should


its hard to describe


I know how it feels. im sorry you have to feel that though:/


hey


So ok like, ive been really concious about: male puberty, body hair, deep voice, extreme growth all that, it makes me a bit uncomfortable and anxious


yeah no ofc


So like idk if those are signs of dysphoria or?


here can you dm me


Oop k


@Trans ChildNiokii we love you your so strong


Not me getting punched in the gut by a full grown man but a karen complaining about wearing a mask


Idk if this is venting but bro why do women have to be so confusing


I like this dude and she is basically saying in my face that she likes me too but she says she likes someone else so am i just the brother


what is the point to life? all it gives you is pain and sorrow..


Not me popping pain relief pills because my gut hurts


Insomnia really got the best of me


I feel guilt.


When you have paro


They just locked the chat


I've tried no one will take me and it just keeps getting worse and worse


Which I am not because its been over a year


She is currently at her sport I believe


So she cant see my messages


But I told her


I am not using her to get over my ex, that I do like her and that its not fake and thats I am sorry if I ever made it seem that way


Yeah and thats annoying


Yeah


And I have been left on opened now


She may be typing a long thingo


In a snap instead of text


But I have to get up now sorru


Yeah I was left on opened


But thank you


Fuck this hurts


I honestly think its over for us now


WHY TF IS IT WHEN YOU TRUST SOMEONE AND YOU TELL THEM SOMETHIJG THATS GOING ON IN YOURS LIFE THEY USE THAT AGAINST YOU


I dont know if its over


We werent dating but we were otg


fuck


Coming back from this with her is going to take a while


I actually thought it would work


Fucking stupid


Like always


I dont want to make up my mind though


She didnt say she wanted to end us


But I feel like its not going to work


I want a chubby girl I could hold in my arms and cuddle with But I am afraid of rejection.


I am sick of being lonely all the time


I always get compliments on my looks but I cant even find a girl


I feel like I am not good enough for anyone


I hope so


But the problem is that I only date chubby girls


Its because I love to cuddle


And skinny girls arent really meant for cuddling


What do you mean? @.Pissbaby


I wont find love like that?


But chubby people are more soft and warm


sigh I shouldnt have come here cause people are going to complain about my favorite body type


@.ghostie thanks ghost


I'm still in a lot of pain and I don't know how to express it to my parents the never seem to listen


I've told them multiple times I needed to go they don't care tho


They always notice my mistakes more than they notice anything else I do I'm slowly becoming to hate myself more and more


also were on a floating rock


i mean like the earth is just a massive rock floating in space so essentially most of the things that we worry about on a daily basis is pretty insignificant when you look at the bigger picture


idk if that rlly works but i think of everything in that kinda way so they arent that heavy on my conscience


So the most I'd say that you would be able to do in this situation is to think more positive and or make their days feel better by talking with them


Because the way I'm see it right now is when they die soon, you're going to fall into a deeper hole than the Mariana Trench, and even if you don't, you're going to suffer from it regardless


So you should focus on completely defending/maintaining your mental health, and as well as help your family's mental health if you can


It's better to take a bullet with a bulletproof vest than without one


my mom would fly over maybe my dad too depending on work but i would stay home bc school


if you can facetime or call, then staying home shouldn't be much different from being there physically


my uncle is gonna be fine he just has a lot of pre existing health conditions and its not really good for him


yeah


If he's endured them for that long, then he's already a champ


my mom calls my grandpa on whatsapp or whatever thru his social worker he has one since hes a ww2 vet


Oh really?


This is my personal opinion, but I think it would be a good idea for him to meet with a platoon member he's fought with before


ah, never mind then


That's nice


If he meets with you, make sure that he feels happy talking with you. It should make him comfortable with the fact that you care about him


he broke his hip in november and my mom was in russia for 3 weeks to get him in a nursing home and stuff but she thinks after the holidays shes gonna fly over again


um he forgot who i was LMAO


Oh dang


When was the 3rd time?


3 years ago


or 4


i was 12 or 13 i think


And does he remember your mom?


pog


their constant communication keeps him in the loop


Then if he doesn't remember if you meet him a 4th time, remind him you two last met 3 years ago


im just not ready to become the family therapist bc i cant talk to a legit therapist and it bogs me down


i can try that but when my mom calls him im in school bc of the 8 hour difference


Oh, and if you can't communicate with him whatsoever, then tell your mom that his strong, matured granddaughter has grown up and sends her regards


oh


yeah, try over break then


nah it's all good, a few min is nothing compared to a decade


true


thank you for the advice i appreciate it


no problem mate


I dont know what I did wrong


I have an idea but I may be overthinking


Yesterday I got logged out of Snapchat, then she started talking about my ex, who is named shawtybae on Snapchat because of a memory on camp, it was her word of the week and I found it funny and so she was saying that I was still trying to get over her or something


She said she was overthinking stuff


And that she thought I was using her to get over my ex


No I actually didnt


But I believe I may have told her something about my ex a while and she may have gotten the idea


I cant ask her rn though


She is with people


Someone come and hug me on the trampoline


i thought my birthday would be nice


Emotional support at its finest


Damn no one responded


Hey dad if your feeling sad why don't you talk to me


I'd gladly talk to you


Just don't kill your self it's not worth it, your going to miss the life ahead of you what if you are the president or a cult leader. Just don't kill your self please thank you


Valor


I dont really need to talk to anyone and if I do its to get something off my chest so Ill usually just put it here


Then there's a lot on your chest that you haven't gotten off


sbgrab


wow tay


i shouldve gotten it


Im poor i needed it


No


bruh


so uhm i and my bf now ex just broke up 2 weeks ago and we always had matching pfps when we were together but today i saw that he changed his pfp to one of the christmas couple matching ones and im lowkey kinda hurt but i shouldnt be worrying too much right? he's my ex anyway yeah uh


I need to say this before I go to bed so Im not struggling to sleep, so New Years is coming up and someone is having a party and we might be going to our shack so I might miss out


But I really want to go


And if I do go I am pretty sure I will get that New Years kiss and I just dont wanna lose this opportunity


And its really affecting me


I need hkep


This dude on Instagram wont stop harassing me


He keeps asking alot of personal questions and its making me really uncomfortable


use the block feature


I did


Makes new account? Well just use the ignore feature.


both


have u asked them how u feel?


like


have u talked to them about how u feel


yeah but only my close friends and they just were like same”


I feel so good right now but its getting drained out cuz I know I'm gonna feel terrible in an hpur


Hour


Im missing out on an event that happens once a year


Dont get to have my New Years kiss


Never even had a kiss


sbgrab


so.


You first if you want


I dont mind


Mines already done actually


i do be crying bc im not sure if he actually likes me


Above these texts


i got a kiss today tho


and not like


a tap kiss


Fr


Dammm


Making me even more sad


Keep going


so uhm


we cuddled


and uhm


i got thrown on the bed


Is this the person who you dont think likes you


yus


im scared he doesnt like meee


Oh well now I can relate slightly


bc SOME people fake their feelings


true


The girl I am otg with started overthinking and thought I was using her to get over my ex, even though we cuddle and hug at parties, a few days before she asked me if I actually liked her we were at a early Christmas party and we just cuddled on this chair for half an hour or more it was squishy but it was nice but I told her that I wasnt faking my feelings and that I was not using her to get over my ex


When you get into this mindset and start overthinking it can be very bad


And can actually ruin the relationship


mhmm


i get that


I was scared that It was over between us because we had a kinda fight and I just didnt know what was going to happen with us but we are still otg


A New Years party was planned and I was going to actually get my first ever kiss and kiss her at midnight but i overthought about it and I wasnt able to go to the party because our family is at the shack


finna go over to his house and kiss him


for new years


im so excited bro its crazy


Thats what happened to me


I got all hyped


I started imagining the moment


Standing next to her


Turning her head


sjsjjsjsjsjs


But no


Thats not going to happen


wait wait


gib picture of her:0


i bet shes pwettyyy


I cant go to the party because my parents didnt tell me we were going to our shack for new years


pain.


Gee gib picture


I am actually talking to her right now


ooo


I told her we need to start a convo and she is now asking me questions


nice nice


When was your biggest adrenaline rush:


I sad


said


Either riding the motorbike or when I broke my arm, its not really adrenaline I dont think but when we were hugging on the chair I felt this weird feeling I have never felt before


niceee


We shall see what she says


but like


it was adorable


What was


he threw me on the bed like this


Sorry for the little bit of stalking but YOU ARE LISTENING TO LITTLE LION MAN  SUCH A GOOD SONG


YESSS


yusss


And then what happened


She just said where would I be if I could be anywhere and what would I be looking at


I said on the beach, clear night sky, stargazing


Playing the cards well


Mhm definitely


I AM PLAYING MY CARDS SO FINE RN LIKE SHIII


HSJSKAJDJSN


We talking about how nice the sky would be


AND I SAID IMAGINe if IT WAS A CLEAR as this and sent the Whats Gibby thinking about video


ooo


Now she is talking about


Is home a place or a feeling


Might try make the chat deep here


For a deeper connection


ooope


Can anyone be my discord friend if you want pls send me a friend request


If i commited unalive, would i finally get to be happy? would i finally not wake up in pain and wake up with people who constantly misgender and dead name me to the point where i want to die? would i finally be able to say i am ok?


probably not but.. what if?


Is it a catfish?


I am sorry if i talk too much here. I'm sorry, but I just need some place to share my thoughts. I really do hate my dad. One of the reasons why is because he criticizes me whenever I eat. Yesterday I ordered a steak for dinner and he said Really? A steak?. And the other day I got McDonalds and he said Oh, of course you're eating McDonalds because you can't eat adult food. No matter what I do he criticizes me. So thats a lil bit of why I cry so much. If anybody see's this, thank you. It's nice to know that somebody listens. Have a good day.


vent channels


my favorite


if anyone needs to talk ping me here or dms


Bye bye...


My mom passed away at around 9:30pm. i now know what it feels like to be numb. i dont know what to do anymore


I'm feeling kinda lonley


Zzzame


same, i like this one guy but nobody has ever liked me back when i like somebody, so my chances are low


Mister Turtle feel ya hope u feel better


Well I am doing challenge and you are supposed to do it everyday


I might do a certain amount throughout the day


So I rest a bit


Straight up not having a good time


Just hang around in a server for a while and people will start recognizing you


yeah i'll try i guess, thanks


Pog


!play choke me


!skip


here is me being akward: i havnt been able to eat much and only eat during dinner when my family is around me and im becoming addicted to self harm again and one of my clessmates mentioned my wrist today and i didnt reply and i think they know, im just not doing great


Good thing I reported to the server and hes now banned


Just block him


I did


Arth its when abusive people take people more innocent/younger/less experienced in general life than them and try to like.. make them into someone they can abuse


It usually involves a lot of complimenting, which leads to flirting


mmm


I dunno how else to explain it, but its really gross and theyre basically just trying to take advantage of someone's innocence


i thought i got groomed but if it involves a lot of complimenting and flirting then it wasnt that


It could be a similar experience


a girl i knew one came to me after a month of no contact and said/did pretty lewd things and forced me to do that too...


That is sexual assault/abuse


Grooming can often lead to that, but grooming is moreso a process


Im sorry that happened to you


and i liked her so much as a friend and didn't wan't to disappoint her that i went along... but after some days she blocked me...


Its a good thing shes out of your life then, she sounds like a very abusive person


I'm so sorry you had to experience that


it's okay


Why do they have to be so nosy


Just leave us be


who?


are you two a thing or what? You dont have to answer


My friends


I am otg with someone but we said we will take it slow


And the others asked if we are dating


And being really nosy about it


and what did you say?


I dont know what to say


atleast u picked up on it


well its passed ig


wha


how many times did you get pinged hunny? qwq


1314 times? qwq


bro i wiiish


oh


discord glitchy


i am happy if i even get mentioned or dm'd once a week qwq


kk


uuu


u


sbgrab


why are you using commands in vent?


@.ghostie yeah your problem seems pretty concerning


i wish you the best tho


and stay happy


de nada!


it's not like you're getting worse, but that you can't do everything you did before is not niceor maybe it's only like that for me, sometimes i feel like i'm depressed but i know that i'm not, it's just that i can't do anything, i can't meet someone, or have fun with my siblings outside...


for example, i wanted to play airsoft with my brother after my 18th... but now we can't anymore


or going in clubs or something


life just got so boring


and if you can't do anything it not good


that's why i've started meditating, drawing, even more programming than before


to just forget how boring life is atm


I seriously cant do anything when I try do something with myself I get bored and start to hide myself so no one sees me


Like Im starting to be really really stressed and its happening a lot more


And its doesnt help when Im depressed because its making me worse and i cant stop it


have you tried to learn something new?


just to like... uhm... have some change in your daily lifestyle


mmm


you mean alcohol with drinking?


maybe try to drink like uhm...


capri sun


Hmmm na I find drinking alcohol better then over things


but it isn't


it's one of the worst things you can do


especially all day


Sooo its worse then cutting yourself everyday?


i can't force you to stop with something, i can only tell you what i think and know


no one forces you to cut yourself


and y?


Because its get anyway all the negative thoughts


yeah cuz you're concentrating yourself on that instead of other things


but if you try something else where you need to concentrate that would help more


I have tried everything single thing


das a lie


Walking, keeping myself busy, music, talking to people, elastic bands etc


And nothing helps


keep trying


someday you'll find something that u like


besides drinking and cutting yourself


I found drinking


then instead of drinking alcohol just drink water


that's healthier


No the the hole point in drinking alcohol is to waste yourself so you dont have to think of anything or do anything and plus its fun I enjoy it


that's pretty sad


have you ever tried to dance?


it's fun and looks cool


no im not really into the dancing side of things


i thought that too at first


but now i think it's fun and cool and you can meet so many new people with that


I dont want people to look at me


Im shy I like my space dancing wont help


ooor, hmmm, i guess you're a boy cuz of husband soo... something manly...


mmm


boxing?


The only thing I do is football


But Im starting to lose my interest


understandable


wait


which football?


american or soccer football


American


oOO


das so coool


i wish i could play but in switzerland there are not many clubs that do that


What would you play QB, WR?


i don't really know that much bout that


but i think it looks really cool


and catching a ball and run is pretty fun


and ramming people


sbgrab


you lurker


:c


why?


I thought I was in main sorry


staaay with me


i'm so alone


Ive never been happy in 10 years after my dad died


Help me


Also i just rejected someone rn


And i feel bad


Mea


Mwa


I do drink a beer here and there tho but i dont like get drunk lmao


Now i feel bad


Hm


No i dont


Maybe


I dont know


I cant recgonise my emots


naw don't. i got adopted and i have a great life with my fiance.


Congrats!


She said yees?


i live in california where i can get married underaged.


Coool


I wanna visit americaaa


US


Watch mee


NOOO


YESS


My friend told me to just lay down and do nothing to not get a bad hungover


Shes just lying


AHHH


naw i have had a hangover so many times and had to go to school so i would suggest drinking water and laying down.


Yes thats what she say


But no


I brushed my teeth so many times


The aftertaste isnt going out


Yeahhh


But like only after an hour


It gets gross


To me atleast


sbgrab


Also i rejected someone like an hour ago


im sorry i'm trying to like text my fiance, chat, and here at the same exact time.


No regrett


Yh nu problemo


cool.


wanna just co to main chat?


Nah theres to many convos going on the already


ouch sorry:/


Also if your stomach was already weak in the first place, why drink alcohol


It wasnt


I mean for niokii


Discord makes me feel like the oldest Old Maidy McMaidster ever. I'm worried about dying alone, being lonely, turning into either Schoolmarm who Crochets or Simpsons level crazy cat lady.


I got such a hard life dawg


Can anyone be my discord friend if you want send me a friend request


I'm crying because I'm in the dark


I'm scared of the dark


I'm just a winy baby


Bruh


Bruv


Just realized this is venting, uh yeah poor joke


mmm, take notes my dears.


drink coffee with vodka in it. it makes it better. and helps you get through the day.


but if you are underaged don't. i don't take responsibility for underaged drinking


KILL MEEE


i hate life. i really just wish i could die and finally feel ok and be able to say im fine when i am really staying up every night crying to myself as i look and the mirror and think i am not pretty enough. like i say i am ok but really everyday i am crying for 2 hours at least and saying that i am good enough but im not.


no seriously


It's just plain bad for your blood and organs altogether


No shit you're feeling terrible, you're treating yourself terribly


You're doing things for pleasure that lasts a few seconds and not things that give pleasure long term


You need stop punching yourself in the face every 5 seconds


...fineee... sorry...


No, say sorry to yourself


...i'll try to be better...?


better to yourself


ah i understand


Understanding is one thing, implementing that understanding is another


i understand and i will do better for myself and my health?


i


Don't question it


Just do it


stupid bot


jfc ofc the mods haven't removed it from vent


sbgrab


shrug


alright, thank you


of course, no problem. i hope everything is okay with you both and things get better


bruh


school is ridiculous they give me so much work and I just feel so overworked and its like they want me to prioritise my homework being handed in over my own happiness, with my maths work I have to do a test over and over until I get 100 and I need to do it by the end of today and I just don't understand and I was told to listen so I listen but I just don't understand and they won't accept it


I told my mom and showed her screen shots of me being groomed by the man you saw


She told me that she will maybe call the police


thank youu


they said its a 17 chance he's going to make it... it was less than what i thought it would be but he would make it, right? like...he wouldn't leave me right?...right?


i was wrong... he left me...


but thats ok right? at least he's happy, right?... god... why can't i have my brother back?... it wasn't his time yet... he said he would never leave me...


WHY DID HE LEAVE ME THEN?!


HE PROMISED ME...that he wouldn't go...


but he lied..


and he left...


and now im alone with the voice banging around my head...


the ones that tell me it was my fault and the ones that tell me im not enough..


Dont try to be prefect. Just try to be better than you were yesterday”


Hey I need help so I was thinking I am straight but now idk I feel a bit different


Does anyone have advice


Ik this is typical advice, but breathing deeply


and closing eyes while doing so


And doing it without any stop in between that breathing


maybe 15 deep inhales and exhales, and don't try to speed each breath up


oh i thought she wasn't thinking straight, my bad


Thank u it will help me


Thank u


My swedish boyfriend ditched me yay


So my mom calls me saying there's and 200S Xbox charge on my card I replied'I dont know' when she talks about the charge, then She asks me to buy something to see if the card works, so I do it works... Then I'm panicking thinking about who it could be, she asks me to delete the cards and I do so, a few days later she asks me questions about it, I replied with the truth, she believes me and I talk about one friends she knows, then to day my mom walks in on me doing stuff Bc it's late and she thinks I'm asleep, so we talk and stuff and she says my friend is going into complete lock down because of the charge, I know she did do it I feel so bad, I dont know what to do. End vent thank you


Sorry if there's any miss spellings


soapsoup if you ever need someone to talk to I'm here


Np


Gn if I can sleep


I'll stay in the vc if you wanna talk


Night night


Nah no need


Yeah i can relate, but like you have to accept the reality, life will alway be hard but you have to keep going and try to change your life i know its hard bc i keep trying to change my life but nothing works


If you do nothing about your lack of happiness, then you're gonna stay unhappy. I won't get a pizza done if I don't prepare the ingredients. I can't grow a tree if I don't have a seed. I can't write if I don't have a pencil. And I can't be happy if I don't confront my sadness.


I told my friend that he was making me feel uncomfortable but he still kept going


I had to like keep telling him to stop


So one of my friends


Like agreed to stop


But that one friend keeps on going


So I had to tell him that he was making me feel VIOLATED so than he stopped


Oh dang, mate. I'm sorry about that


Was it like a confession or something?


She said I wasnt putting enough effort into trying to catch up


I have been at the farm all holidays


And I am in town rn


And she told me about this festival kinda thing


Said I should go


I said I cant because Mum wont let me


And she wont let me go


And now in a group chat she said someone come to this park with her and her dog, and someone said gee can and I just


I just wanna fucking disappear right now


dang


can you make a compromise with your mom?


No because it is late at night


And I think it would be really awkward if I went


did you say on the gc that you can't


then say it


they should understand


if they're logical peeps


leave them off with a good vibe if you can


like say something positive at the end of your message


like: sorry, I can't come with you to the event, but I wish I could've


My sister and her kid and her boyfriend are over for a week or more and they just got here today and they are already treating me like I'm their personal babysitter and whenever I try to say no my mom always yells at me or makes me feel bad


My dad also threw me to the ground a couple days ago and then when I tried to get my coat and shoes to leave he did it again so I left without my coat or shoes in the snow and my mom called the cops on me and the cop was rude as hell


Your own parents called the cops on you? What was her reason?


put salt in all of their pockets /3


butv whyd she call the police if you dad was pushing you and ifk if im right idk much abt this but isnt that abse?


so uh


almost drowned


tryna help a little kid out


got caught in the current


i kept my cool but the did was panicking


and i got help and was chilling


well called for it


after a while i didnt even need help but my leg cramped cuz at first i tried to swim out


but the kid was swollowing water


then the mom came


then both were paniking


and today my dad said im the reason they almost died


and im still shooked cuz if i would have hit a rock i would be died


you did a good thing


I don't know what to say


I don't know the full context, but be careful in what you do in extreme situations like those, especially involving life and death


Yeah I told her that I was not some kinda babysitter and they said they didn't care


bruh


You gotta stand up for yourself man


They can't always be dependent on the same dude every time


it wasnt your fault? you tried to help even if you were told not to in school or whatever its brtter than leaving someone who couldnt help themself than leaving them there until someone gets there


not everything is abt a game idk if its a misunderstanding but no its kinda obvious its not the game


just say youre not too good with this stuff and try your best


sad


i dont vent offen cuz i keep it all to myself here it goes. i was born with autism if you dont know it is a spectrum disorder ASD, refers to a broad range of conditions characterized by challenges with social skills, repetitive behaviors, speech and nonverbal communication. I've had autism since I was six years old. And it's been hard for me to learn in school ever since i was young and high school is just horrible for me since people in my school dont really understand what asd is. online learning is difficult since it really challenges myself. so yeah


Is ASD a general term I assume?


By asd, the SD refers to Spectrum Disorder?


yes it is


Has learning been difficult since elementary or all the time?


mhm


former or latter?


since idk much about asd


Youre born with that


Which you said


But you said since you were 6


Is that when your parents found out?


Sorry I can't give more, I'm currently in the process of becoming more of a vegetable than peeps in a coma


Yeah people learn better in different ways


I was lucky because Im very high on the spectrum


some would say I learn better than most people


im told that i understand things more


But Im not very good at social stuff


im a very social and it gets to the best of me at sometimes


i am very not social


Well thats selfish because if he doesnt treat you like a son then it might as well be that way


Right and he and my mom made up and he said that I was in the wrong for trying to leave


Why dont my parents believe in me


My mum wants me to go for a run with her tomorrow at this event but I said I dont really want to go


Then she said


You have to get fitter so you can play AFL this year yet she doesnt seem to see how fit I am at the moment


im having super bad mood swings, period or not. theyre really major for me and i can be at an all time high or all time low. ive never seen a therapist or anything and i never will have access to one until im an adult or whatever. i really need to talk to a legit therapist and my mood swings are super unhealthy and i know it. ive had them since middle school but lately theyve been worsening really bad, since september? i just dont get how one second i can be on cloud nine and the next im below zero. it makes no sense. i just wish i could talk to someone like a therapist. my parents are ignorant to my problems and when i try and talk to them theyre all like stop faking” when really im suffering inside. yes im in a happy and healthy relationship thats making me very happy and has changed me for the better. but no, i dont want my partner turning into my therapist as per thats not what love is about. i just want my problems to go away. yes im hungover and this is scattered. sorry. i just need a solid therapist, NOT someone saying oh im here for u blah blah blah” and all that. i want to be happy like i was when i was younger, not bottling up. i dont really need a response but i mean if u wanna give advice id appreciate it but i just needed to vent bc this is really bothering me


I just want someone to hold and cuddle with


I am sick of being so lonely all the time


Same pretty much


Mhmm


same


clingy loser I am very sorry about what you are going though, it must be very difficult and I hope you get better soon I am always welcome to talk if you want


I want to run away from all my problems so bad. More importantly, I want to run from myself. Its the beginning of my life and I already screwed all of it up. The days are not getting better. Isnt that supposed to happen? I feel so uncomfortable with myself. I cant think about myself, look at myself, or listen to my self without feeling like squirming out of my own skin. Does everyone else feel this way?


and no matter what i do shell always view me as that there's nth i can do to change that


Move on, just...walk away, save the friendship but accept there is nothing you can do


as I said the embarrassment will be worth it


if you really want this person then you would tell them


I just want my parents to be told by someone else or figure it out and me not have to tell them


I just


you want this person right?


Im going to try explain


I want her but then at the same time I dont, and I dont know why, I like her and I like when we hug at a party and just cuddle on a couch but then I also sometimes just see it as a friendship, and I am so lost, not many people like her, they think she is weird and everyone saying that is affecting my thoughts about it


well if you want her


go for her


but you really need to parents


because its not good to have a relationship without your parents knowing trust me:


it will be worth it


i promise you


if you want things to work then


you need to tell them


But what happens if I tell them


Then we go back to school and we arent in the same class and we distance


And it stops


again your call


but


you should tell your parents


its the right thing in my opinion


Gee I think you need to decide whether the stress of hiding a relationship is worth having the relationship. Relationships are supposed to bring you up, they have downpoints but generally they're supposed to improve the lives of both or more participants. If you are constantly stressing over this, it might be a good idea to reconsider the relationship or try to be brave and be more open about having said relationship


FrostHT so its pretty normal to think this cause u care about her a lot, honestly man just do ur best, be urself cause thats what she likes, if she doesnt like for who you are then i dont think u should be with them but its alex, shes a wonderful person, and ik she cares for you a lot, she wanted to be with you because you are you, nothing more nothing less, i cant really tell you how she feels so u might have to ask her but if ur there for each other i think its more then good enough


And everything that Simmy said aswell


But I cant talk right now


nope nope


i do maybe recommend fidget toys? to maybe occupy your hands?


i would say take baby steps


i know it's sounds bitchy but don't let them step all over you and bring you down


not in the slightest


youre a wonderful girl


and an even better friend


youre amazing in every way shape and form


let that sink in


self affirmations


dianne


think about it this way


those people that say that


are so beyond jealous


do i need to list the reasons?


but those are things people have told you


and like i said those people are jealous


you shouldnt believe people when they tell you those things and choose not to believe the good things


that kinda hurts the people trying to tell you that youre not shit”


people dont see you that way dianne


people see you as a beautiful young women who is extremely smart and kind and is so easy to talk to


EXCUSE ME


dianne youre a problem solver


you know how to get through to people


you always know what to say


and you know what i find that amazing


and i envy you for that


so the minute you try to tell yourself you arent that gets to me


whats it gonna take for you to believe that youre so beyond amazing?


dont let that happen


you have the ability to branch out of that


i know it


dianne youre one of the brightest and most resilient ppl i know. youre super strong and courageous for still being here after what youve gone through. i know i probably sound basic but im being honest. your mentality isnt where it should be and you need to change habits, little by little. that starts with the mindset that you need to be here, WE WANT YOU HERE. just bc ppl around u might not want to doesnt mean u should bc that wont last long. little thoughts add up. then slowly ease into healthy habits and allowing ur body to tolerate things bc u need to love urself in order to go anywhere and were always here for u. easier said than done. look for motivation, know ur motivation. then the little baby steps. then progress. you can do it and we all love u and and want you here.


i know


do you want to feel better? live to be who YOU want to be?


i was suicidal and sh from 8th til mid sophomore year and something that helped me realize that i didnt wanna be dead was that realizing in my future i wouldnt be around the people making me feel like shit. and if i were to push through and live, i could do it


I saw this thing


am


a


mess


Joshh whys that:


Okay first of all I understand people need breaks but if youre going to ghost everyone after saying some concerning things then yeah, Im gonna be worried, and yeah I was justified in calling the police. Also usually when people want to kill themselves they dont tell the people about it. I understand people leave notes and shit but if youre properly going to go through with it chances are youre not gonna say much to anyone. Thank you for saying that Ethan probably needed a break Sarah but that doesnt change the fact that we were worried. Ethan, I dont feel bad you got your Xbox or phone taken away and just because you may not have found it super serious Sarah doesnt mean other people dont. Goodnight. saraphina Avotic


Ah


Life


Especially a few certain people in staff at the moment


Like that echo thing


She is a Subhuman


im gonna say one thing and one thing only ethan always gives a warning


You are the only staff that I like


i forgot this is vent so i gotta be srs


i know you think that jordan


And some staff should mind their own business too


so stop being hella open about it and fix your problems instead of shoving them into other peoples faces


maybe talk to kali instead of letting the whole world know you hate her


ghostie pooh is typing...


So I can vent


Right?


So go away if you arent helping...


Then why are you here?


Well thank god she isnt as active as she was


Ok and?


bc i know how you like to switch up hella fast


she knows too


ghostie pooh is typing...again...


I was just putting on a show for her


exactly


I was lying


UGHHH


Anyways ghost you were saying?


Upset? no


I am not upset


I am happy


I am happy because my opinion on one person pissed someone off


Its very funny


I used to be very nice


Trust me


I used to be


You have now seen my mean side


And I can get worse


But if I do Ill make some jackasses cry


So I wont


this is a nightmare


they blocked me...


who


the perosn kail ban


Why do I push the people who try to help me away?


I am a bad person


I shouldve killed my self the night I lost her


No one deserves the pain I inflicted on you guys


FrostHT I am sorry too


I am just a horrible person


i forgive you bro. you arent a horrible person you just made a bad decision


Knowing what it feels like to be in pain is exactly why we try to be kind to others. Master Jiraiya


good quote


have a nice break off discordig


I'm sad


Yesterday my doggie got neaurted


I wanted puppies


But my mommy told me that my doggie may or may not have puppies


She also said that if she does get pregnant she will have a small amount of puppies


dang, sorry mate


oh


damn


idk if adopting a puppy will have the same feeling as having a puppy born, but if it does, then i'd go for that


.mute


look


.mute NoPoint


oops


the cops are onto me and i don't know why.


It feels like theres a constant dark cloud over me. The only person who I feel truly made me happy wants nothing to do with me. I cant stop crying, Im always trying to reach them. I miss them so much and I want them to at least see me as a friend.


do you ever just want to talk about your feelings because you hold them in so much it just begins to hurt because you want people to see you as happy but you are not happy because you push all of your happy into other people when they are sad but you never get any happy back?


Not really society in this case, but you get what I mean. At least the actual good people among humanity are rare, and it's very satisfying when you do find one of them


I dated them but it was only for a bit. They dont plan on contacting me again


I knew them for not that long before we started dating


I really wish I had kept my no labels” rule


It's why they say Betrayal hurts the most because it comes from the people you love


There isn't a point in really waiting for someone else to do it


then stop squeezing for others


why contribute to people who won't even appreciate it


I say that because they can say thank you so much for the help niokii but their thoughts say otherwise


it's when people are appreciative of your actions rather than the person helping them that is the issue


...why do people have to be so selfish...and then when i don't want to give anymore they make me think i am selfish...i am not selfish i just want to survive..!


especially when the person is the source of those actions they would be so appreciative about


should I dump some of my friends because my girlfriend gets jealous?


or is that not in her place to decide who I'm friends with or not


don't be obsessed with how others think you


if they never cared to pour your cup in the first place, then they never even thought of you much to begin with


wouldn't be much of a difference if you started being selfish for once


if they didn't see you when you helped them, they won't see you when you start being selfish


she's abusive


but she threatened to kill herself


i forgot how to spell halfway through that


and im scared


she will


if I leave


fuck


I thinkn


ill make sure she has friends


and that she's on her feet


then ill leave


...that would be a good idea


whatever happens from there I tried my best


Thank you


So V if you see, stay safe and Ill always be proud of you!


pfttt


im the stupidest person ik i rest my case


no ur not


without u i would have to get up for my food


don't just leave out of impulse, have a plan


yeyeye im almost there


just


a few years


wha


omg


i realized how much i worth


zamn


if anybody here has watched the chilling adventures of sabrina can you tell me if its good, I just started the first episode and I don't wanna watch hour long episodes to be disappointed lmao


i watched it a whileee ago though so i dont remember much


take a shot at it, why not


wait why say it in vents


idk


wait i thought this was chat lmao


sorry my bad


Uhm I like being insulted so is it weird for me to want to get rejected from girls?


Orr


They were on a personal level about my insecurities


I dont know


At this point


i mean


its not bad to


but at the same time


its more for pleasure


so


I guess I cant lose when I ask girls out now


If they reject me I get pleasure


pretty much


ya


it is what it is man


everyone got their kinks


You have it too?


So its normal


kinks meaning different types


i don't like being degradee


I think I like being dominated and degraded


there is nothing normal with kinks they are just preferences for people pleasure


Im curious how do you feel if ure not rejected


like


Do u get disappointed?


Ill have to try it


A friend I once knew bullied me on my insecurities


I told her I got off to it


So she bullied me again


and again


but i wouldn't like let that go into ur life


And thats how I realized I actually like it


like ya its fine to have pleasure but its better to keep that under the sheets


o


i mean again


everyone has their own kinks


Ya I think Im gonna call my crush


well


good luck


so u feel good getting yelled ay?


at


You dont even message me why are you asking me this”


No! Dont ever talk to me again