You have to be stern and sincere with your words so he can tell youre serious about it


i dont know if this is just my siblings but they wont stop like even if you are serious they carry on


he still wont take me serious


Then maybe you should try to explain the issue to your parents, Like how even if they tell him to stop, he doesnt


And explain how what theyre doing isnt affecting the actions hes taking


parents dont do anything they see older siblings as mature” people so they just think youre lying most of the time


Well maybe you could give actual examples, from like physical things like when he threw that ball at you and you got that bruise


Unless that was someone else


My brain cant remember things


Im sorry


its all good


it was my brother, sister and cousin


Tuff


If it continues then the best thing you can do to prevent it is just to avoid them


I get its like your brother and all


thats probably gonna be harder to stop


my siblinhs are just a pain


no its not youre giving us good advice but its just harder for some people to sort problems out


is it bad that i thought my brother was going to spray me with mosquito spray just because he was near me with the spray thing?


rowlint it depends. is he usually violent and stuff. i know me an dmy brother just do stuff to annoy each other whenever we have the chance


except like play fighting no but he has sprayed me with thr mosquito thing like twice


yeah he tries his hardest to annoy me and my sister I can try talking to him but im noy sure if thatll do anything becausr thats how hes always been


Siblings are... well they mostly dont get along


Its just how it is, I pick on my younger siblings and we all try to annoy each other, But never with the intentions of actually harming each other


U just gotta be tuff


yeah thatd why i dont think there is a reason to talk about him being annoying


Well? If you feel like you need to atleast mention it you always can


Even if its not something as big as having 69 different personalities, its still a smth you can talk about


my neck be hurty


why


ive sat in the same spot on the cough for 3 hours


cough?


couch


maybe lay down


on ur bed


i have my girls password for instagram, and i dont really go through her stuff. but i saw she got a message, and i accidentally clicked it. she muted him and im scared that like, theres a reason for that.


relax urself


ice it if u need to


have u talked to her about it


no it just happened


she never muted anyone


mites


smfh


o


just talk to her about it, it might not be serious


im not worried about it. if she really likes me then everything will be okay


she blocked him


i didnt mean to check her blocked i meant to check mine


Isnt it crazy how your ex is going to marry someone else


ya


actually not really


not if i kill them


Aiyana not necessarily. They could die or be unloved


Yeah, but like, theyll grow older without you, and you only exist to them in their memories


a memory that they regret having


I have one memory of my ex


Cause we did noting


Nothing


Honestly


I dated” a guy but we never even had a real conversation


Same but it was girl


I never knew why she broke up


So I made assumptions


Like what


You want to know something Gee


What


I am though but I dont really care


I think your just repeating what other people have told you


My calculator history is bad than google not that I do that tlstuff


No I actually am dumb but Ive gotten over it


In maths last year I passed 2 tests out of heaps


Smarts isnt measured in standardized tests, well, not the smarts that matter anyway, you know how to read people, make them feel better without trying, and thats so much more valuable than a test score


Thanks


Everyone says Im not trying hard enough when I am though and I get annoyed


Your welcome, theyll never know the amount of effort your really putting in because they dont know whats going on in your head so they cant be right


True


Okay so I have a question


Yeah


If you could go anywhere in the world where would you go and why


To untouched bush because I grew up in the bush


Bush untouched by humans


Whats the untouched bush? If you dont mind me asking


No buildings, machines ect


Just the bush


Nature


That sounds nice


It is


One time we went up to the back of our farm because some fires had been recently put out there and we decided to walk down a created and it was amazing


Rocks carved by the flow of water


Not machine


That sounds like a literal dream


Ive always been jealous of people who grew up in really rural areas, it seems so peaceful, my family is obsessed with big cities


I dont like large populations


Not my thing


Yeah, everyone always seems to be doing something, nature has always seemed like a piece cut out of time where everything stands still and you get to just be” you know?


Yeah


My life is kinda perfect for some reason


Im junior firefighter who protects bush and houses and I love nature


Sorry i didn't fully read what happened but i just want u guys to know that i care about u and i want u guys to know that love you guys alot and want u guys to be happy so if there is anything i can do plz let me know


Cheers


Were just talking, thanks for being concerned though


We. Can move to diff channel if u need though


Yeah this convo doesnt really belong in a vent chat


no its fine


Go to main 2


u guys can stay here


i like it here


Thank you


Yeah I guess its just because my older brothers firefighter and my dad is chief and my nan and pop used to be


Awww thats sweet that your carrying on their legacy


This convo is rly wholesome lmao


Its weird because my main friends have a parent who is cop


Schools nearly finished yesss


10 more mins


For the day or for summer?


Day


what time iz it for you?


3:20 pm


Holyyy...


o wow


What


for me its 12:21 am


Its 12 21 am for me


Wait that really early isnt it


Yeah its the middle of the night


Wyd


Me?


Yeah


Im doing humanities


Assignment


Humanities?


Geography and stuff


History


Civics


Ohh


Did you ever finish that one drawing?


Oh yeah


My first one?


Because i did 2 more


Really?


What did you draw


Welp


When we got told to move chats


Ouch


I suppose we kinda moved from here to art


While it is almost 2 am and Im trying to do a remember and say out what happened at my day


So I woke up around 2pm


No one gave a shit


I freshen up


Checked my snaps


Replied to some


Went downstairs


Talk wirh my sister for a bit


Trying to find a movie


Couldnt find it so I ate and went upstairs


I did my homework that took me around 2 hours


Um I got on discord see how everything was up


Then have my daily lecture on me being a disappointment


Go back on discord


Cant memory what else I did


Streamed a movie


Nice


And idk


Interesting


I left after movie because had to do some school work


My brother was being annoying again to me


O ik sorry gee


Im


What?


Idk


I read that wrong


I have stayed up till twelve st night for last 2 weeks


And Im fine atm


I mean


Me too


Late night thoughts hit different


Yeah, especially convos


Yeah


Conclusion of today: it was alri day still kinda in the feels but you know staying positive is good


Late nights near a fire on those plastic chairs with deep convos hits different


White plastic chairs


Just dont deny your emotions ok?


Me?


Yes you


I mean it would be nice too


Its all fun and games until the wind starts blowing in your direction


I dont get it


Campfire? Smoke?


I kinda like the smell though


Being junior firefighter I grew up around it with my brothers being junior and me being little but watching from the truck


Aw thats cool you did that with your brothers, i didnt know they allowed stuff like that


No one could watch me at home so I had to stay with them


Im gonna go for a bit but will on later


Bye


Cheers for the talk


Okay byee


Okay, bye Gee


Afternoon snak


Samn


Damn


I just noticed how quiet life is


All I hear is ringing noises


Thats the blood rushing in your ears


Its your body functioning


Its kind of weird to think about


I mean I always hear ringing


I just never notice it


yummy


Maybe


Feels nice quiet and peaceful


But lonely too


except when ut gives you a headache


I like to think of it as like built in cricket noises if that makes sense


Im wondering if this is what u hear at death


Cause its peaceful


And quiet


I think you gradually go deaf


But feel lonely and empty


Like the parts of your body dying at different times


release


Its like swimming through a cold fog


Never done that


I can imagine the whole experience so clearly though


No resistance of the water, just the slight specks of mist hurting your arms


Ya


Im sorry if this topic is sensitive


Not for me personally, death is a natural thing, it happens anyway so there is no point living in fear of it


Ok I just didnt want u to feel like suicidal if Im talking about this or if like u lost someone


Im sorry


Im just


Idk mood ig


Dont apologize


Its just how you feel


Dont be ashamed of it


Besides I like talking about this sort of thing


Btw r u ok?


Cause I always see u here


And u always help people


Yeah, I like helping people, it makes me happy knowing that I can help people


Thanks for asking


How have you been? I always see you on here too


ur rlly good at it


Aww thank you 3


Um


I usually try to help people too


Cause Ik life is hard rn


Even tho I have been going through a lot I still want to be there for people


Yeah, I think its kind of funny really, because all of the issues that I help people overcome usually dont last that long, and honestly I feel kind of lost if Im not there for someone


There is a lot of pain in the world and I know I cant heal it all but knowing one person is better off makes the world a little better


But u should take care of urself too


U matter like every other person


Everyone deserves to be happy


I know I do, Im really grateful for everyone who is there for me, its just a really powerful thing to be a part of you know?


I read that so wrong


What do you mean


I read as its just a really powerful thing to be a part of u


Dude its too late for this stuff


What


Now Im confused


What do you mean...


Ah


Idk


Im always lost


Okay how about we start over


Meaning


emote


I hate that question but my parents want me to be accountant


They asked what you wanna be


You are not a reflection of your parents dreams


In your own dream world


I asked you what YOU want to be, not what your parents wan you to be


I dont think of other things cause ik Im probably gonna lead to something else


What I mean


Is that my mind is set on accoutant


I dont like making decisions so I just go with what people tell me


Idrc


Cause i follow


I dont lead


Hm,


Id like to be a politician


O


Thats cool


But I wouldnt belong to a political party


Then you wont get anywhere


I mean then what do u wanna do as an politicaian


You dont have to


Thats basically the same as saying one person is always right no matter what situation it is


Which is wrong


People are unstable and often too ignorant to be right 100 of the time


Its just not possible


Does becoming a politician sound fun to u?


Yeah, i think its really interesting, ik it sounds nerdy to other people but you get to debate and contribute to important decisions in the country


I think its cool


My sister wants to be a lawyer


Or an artist


Theyre both really competent


Competitive


She is very talented at a lot things


I think being an artist is less stressful though, my dad is a lawyer and hes always doing something to build cases


Shes not perfect, and I know its hard to hear let alone believe coming from someone who has never met her but no one is perfect, because perfect” doesnt exist the ideal person always changes


But just know that you are worth it


Ya no one is perfect Ik that


Everyone has flaws and its fine to have them


I just feel like I always bring my parents down and dont do shit and u have my sister who works hard and always does stuff


Your parents still love you, even though they might lecture you every day, theyre just trying to help, theyre just not sure how to


Idk how to help myself


You dont need to do everything by yourself, its okay to ask for help, if I were to ever need help my parents would be the first people I would come to, because they love me no matter how angry they get at me


Ya ik


Thx btw


Your welcome


Are you getting tired


Kinda


Im back just played a bit of pubg


Nice


Thats cool


Okay so Im painting my nails


oo nice


Pic?


Like after ur done


Maybe


I painted my nails once and I didnt know we were going out to tea that night


Rip


It was a joke painting nails though didnt do it on purpose


Kicking around


Mucking


What happened


remember how i said i had a feeling of today being a meh day


well it was


or yesterday ig


We were mucking around and I painted nails but I didnt know we were going out for dinner


Emily r u ok?


U wanna talk about ur day?


Not really


Im sorry


I hope it gets better


And Im alway here to talk


It doesnt have to be sad


We could have a fun talk


Yeah


Its all good


U sure?


Dont be a


Turn the frown upside down


yeah


i really try


We all do


Its okay to fall down,


its on to nlt be ol


dnndjdjf


Spaleng


its ok to not be ok


engish”


Emily ur an amazing and wonderful person and I really do care about u, I care about everyone in this server, ik its probably bad to have a connection with online people but Im really connected to everyone in this server and I just want everyone to be ok and safe and if ur feeling down its ok I just wanna help as much as possible to make u feel better and if u rather be leaving is better thats fine I just want a way to make u feel better


nopoint rly came in with the pep talk


thats good


Probably mess up cause if english


english isnt my native language


crybaby is tho


examole: jejdjdjdjdmdmdmfn


Im going to say goodnight to everyone in the server no point so, goodnight everyone, sleep well 3


Good night sleep well I love you Aiyana


Good night aiyana i hope you have a good nights rest


Love you too 3


Go to sleep


You too


This is nice


whag is nice


njhffhffhhfh


Here


Its quiet and peaceful


peace


i go


What


im leaving


Why


cause it needs to be peaceful


U hewing here is nice


english pls


O


I meant u being here is nice


ohh ok


not my conversation but i was confused idk


not peaceful


Very peaceful


no it is not


my chest itches


omg same


ooh why does urs hurt


mine hurts because of my binder


itch


i meant itch


not hurt


im funny


funny


dumby


im itchy person


u got eczema


omg


sorryr im not really replying i am thinking. if i dont say someyhing in like 30 minutes j probably fell asleep


that didnt really make sense


okaygoodnightgosleepnow


On good night Emily sleep well love you


Good night


k i just need to rant


so dont mind me


basically, i have a brother and a sister. both 21 and turning 22 this year,


im really close w my brother and always have been


but see, my sister hates me


i dont know what i did though


Thats common in siblings


Its just siblings and Im sure she loves u dearly


like she loved me a lot when i was like 1, but she stopped talking to me alltogether


Both my siblings think I hate them but I care about them a lot


we havent had a conversation


like ever


Maybe talk to her


we have never had a real conversation


no


Why


because anytime i even asking her a simple question ro something she gets pissed off


and it makes me sad


because i just wanna know what i did


Have u talked with ur brother about this?


no, hes not that close with her


they are my half siblings


Maybe just talk with him and see how it could change


He might help


he cant do anything about it


And do u wanna vc and talk about this?


im about to go to bed


and my mood isnt the best anymore


because i starting thinking about this


and its not even that ive ever been the annoying little sister


ive always been a good kid. i would never bother her


ever


god i just want to have a sister that i can go to with my everyday girl problems


but she hates me so much


and it hurts so bad


Ok Im really sorry ur an amazing wonderful gorgeous person and I care about u a lot ur vibe is always so sweet and cool and I never want u to feel upset but I get some people might not like u and its ok just cherish the people that want to get to know h and be close with u


but its my sister


its not some random person


Honestly if u want to talk about girl problems I can try


I have a sister


My sister and I fight all the time


i knwo i shouldnt complain because theres people that have it worse but god


She usually comes to me for talks


i dont even know her


I mean no family is the same so


No its fine to complaint about ur problems


okay nevermind then


Dont ever thing other people have it worse


Everyone has problems


Its fine to have them


apparently this is the same as no family,


im gonna go


Angry plz


Im sorry


I wanna help


you didnt do it


Ur an amazing person


I really care about u


did you not see what they said


And I wanna help as much as possible


Same


I wont be able to sleep unless I help


ill be fine


Guess you aint sleepin


I think about 5 helpful things I have done and if I havent done them I havent lived


So I dont sleep till they done


theres nothing that can be helped with it


it just hurts is all


Angry ik its not the best advice but u have to let her know how u feel


no


im scared of her now


Is she older than u


shes turning 22, yes


Angry I want to hug u so bad and comfort u


im 14


Then talk to ur parents


Plz


i have


they dont care


I know what it is like having an older sibling my brother is 22 and its awkward whenever we talk


they always talk about how shes gotten so much nicer and ive tries telling them that she hates me and they just shrug their shoulders


Angry honestly I would just take u and all the things u need and u can live with me


What about your brothers


i just wanna know what i did


Tell them


U did nothing


my brother isnt that close with her, but they get along


It happens in siblings when you get Ofer


Older


Talk to ur brother about this


He will help


If ur close to him


i dont know what he would do


So


Just talk to him


and hes not home much anymore


he works a lot


If u have time with him just talk to him


my sister is living with us for a bit and then moving into her own house


and i feel like at this point theres nothing i can do


she feels like a stranger to me at this point


Do a talk online anonymously on website thats for this stuff because they are professionals


There is always a different direction


idk


i think i should just let it go


Angry I love you a lot and I dont want u to just let go of ur problems u will feel worse I want to help and comfort u as much as possible there is always a way for something


it will be fine


ill be fine


Saying it better then actually being fine


i just seriously dont see any way to fix this so i think its best to just leave it


i just needed to rant ig


U can always rant with me


Im always ok with that


I always like taking to u


okay


thank you


it means a lot


Ur one of the few people who I always wait for to talk to


And if ur feeling down I want to help


I love you and want u to know I will always be here for u


thank you and i love you 2


maybe i should just go to bed


Ok


Get some rest


so sleep will help


Im sorru


no its all good


im ok


Saying ok is easier then saying Im no ok


Ik that


it always is


Well its not good


I dont want u to feel alone


Im always here


I want u to be open with me


I wanna be a good enough friend


Angry u can always talk to me


I love taking to u


Ur aweosme and amazing


U mean a lot to me


And if ur down then I feel down


And I wanna do as much as I can to help


thank you so much


it really means so much to me


Plz if there is anything I can do if u want space thats fine, if u judt want me to listen I will listen, if u want me to talk all night with u I will


my dms are always open for everyone and anyone


thank you finn


I love you very much angry and you mean very much to me


i love you 2 nopoint


yes ofc! nlbody should be treated poorly because of feelings they cannot control


yeah. it just kinda stuck with me because of the person that said it ig.


Angry who ever that person is should just never talk to u


U deserve so much more


Honestly sometimes I think Im not a good friend for u, I think u deserve much more then me


wrong


girl you deserve the world.


and i mean that.


Cause ur wonderful and sweet person and never want anything bad or sad from u


What Finn said


thank you


Angry I want to hug u rn but u probably dont want some old looking dude hugging u


if i could hug you i would


Get some rest angry


Weeezy


i dont have nitro i cannot send the emoji but its a cute thing that says gimme hug”


are you guys ok wkdnje


i give u guys hug


Ya we ok sailor thx


sailor btw i like your pfp


thank you, me too


anyways


Ok angry go to sleep


im gonna try to slep


Good night sleep well I love you very much and i hope u have a great day tomorrow


i love you guys!


good. try not to stress over little things :


i will try


love you too!


goodnight:


Good ngiht


nigh nigh


I spelled that wrong but like no one noticed


thats good


Ya


I love this server very much


ive made some new friends too which is swag money


i just joined today but


me too. its like another family.


its pretty chill


Ur gonna love it


Its my family


i got quite addicted quite fast


Once u join it ur apart of it


everyone seems nice


there are some people that can extra at some points but its not worth mourning over. otherwise, all around its a great server


I mean there are fights and toxic things but we are very sweet and nice


yea i saw toxicity earlier but for the most part its a good server


Ya I really dont like the toxicity


it gets really toxic sometimes but im usually not here for that


guess theres not much to do about it though


why did that just now send


my phone rly said:...jsjdjdjffjfu


phone on some typa drug


i cannot either


my phone is forever years old and im also on the phone and its overheating


i like it here in this channel. its peaceful


me too


theres no toxicity here. no arguments. its...like a vacation


I am actually done with social media it is taking over my life and my friends life


I just got into social media


I love em, But theyre a little much


what about your mother?


Explaining to them what you're doing isn't helping I suppose? Did you show some of the stuff you were working on so they could understand?


Excuse the late response, but my mother, Shes very nice, I never have any issues with her, And yeah he doesnt really wanna listen to me when I try to explain myself. I did show him but they didnt seem to be listening to what I was talking about and just acted like it wasnt there.


ok im sorry this is a late response too but if he is threaten u or harassing u call the police or another adult, if he is giving u threatens he shouldn't be in ur life if he is the reason keeping u down, try to talk to ur mom about this or talk to a teacher or someone that is able to stop this cause that is very wrong that he keeps u down, ik i probably can't do much from behind a screen but all im saying is talk to another adult and see how to keep u safe and have a joyful life


Sphorx


Im going to talk to him


Give me a sec


ok


stay safe


be careful


wait


sphorx r u ok?


Im perfectly fine


We talked it out and it went better than I couldve imagined


Glad it went okay. Its fine, take time to work on yourself, its way more important!


Alr


Im likely gonna head off soon


Alright.


im glad it worked out but sad u won't be on


And just to add, The whole threatening part of what had happened I wanna say has only happened about twice, He doesnt do it to the point to where he actually hurts me, He just didnt like the attitude and tone of my voice so he just wanted to s p o o k me apparently


take care of urself


sleep more


Thanks


im gonna miss u


Byebye


Bye Sphorx


Ill be on almost everyday, just need some time to work on myself Dw


oki later sphorx take care of urself and hope u get better


I feel like I dont deserve anything? Like I feel like Im going to keel over if I dont beg for people to kick me and say awful things


maybe try to think of positive things


thing of things that make u happy


can anybody like dm? it's not exactly a vent but it's kinda something i wanna talk about


You could DM me if youd like


u sure?


Yeah


yknow never mind


o


im always here too


uh


today


was good


until i watched a kinda disturbing ass tv show


and um i feel like vomiting because of what i saw


what was it called


btw no point iim gonna be on every second day or more


ive been listening to deep playlists and now i see the world differently


remember its fake because otherwise they would hae stoped him


no like


oki gee stay safe


dude he thrusted the girl with full clothes tho


it just made me uncomfortable


in forensics class at school we watching heaps of cop stuff and rapists and all that


I myself personally cannot watch movies like that, I know Id get freaked out about stuff like that even while knowing its fake


Do you usually watch stuff like this?


no


i don't watch porn or anything


that stuff grossed me out


Wait so this is like the first time youve seen stuff like this?


yeah it is gross what pepole do


It is


i mean i've saw porn before


People are...


Very very


Yeah


like this show just felt so like.. real


this is why i hate some generations that use technology a bad way


it felt like i was watching someone be raped, and i couldn't do anything


Well, I mean knowing its just a tv show and that its fake, it happens in real life too, I mean yeah Im stupid thats obvious but knowing thats a serious issue the show likely shows it as a way of raising awareness for issues like the one youve just stated


And some cops shows are just


Theyre very


yes


they can be very graphic


Some shows can be fake and make an issue seem more worse than it actually is


But its likely made for adults


i'm not bothered by seeing someone shot in the head


In which by mentioning whats your age?


i'm not bothered by seeing someone be stabbed


one time as a kid i was watching tv and the show about rapist or something special victims unit or something was on and they tied someone to tree and did it


If you dont mind me asking that is


but like that stuff just messes me up


i'm 14


the show usually doesn't have graphic stuff


that's why i watch it


i mean it has dead vodies and bullet holes and stab wounds and stuff


but like it never does like rape. and stuff


this episode was also serial killer so it was kinda horror like too


Well, If youre aware that it usually includes graphic content you should be more aware of the fact that the scenes in the show are probably made to seem worse than they actually are, and you should also get used to knowing that stuff like that would come up so that you know to either stop watching the show, Skip Past parts like that, or atleast just put up with it


yeah


Gotta be tuff


Ver strong


Yes yes


Im sorry if my advice doesnt make any sense


Im not exactly the best at this


No youre not


If thats something that doesnt normally come up


And youre unaware of


but i was kinda glad i disint, cuz the guy got shot in the head by the girls father


Then its not your fault


Thats tuff


so it was good ending


Well is there anything else you need to talk abt?


uh. no, thanks for getting this stuff off of me, i feel better


Yeah, Np


thats what we are here for


Wrote this earlier


My friends told me to put it somewhere so people could see


Just give your opinions on it i guess


Is this lyrics?


Ohhh


Poem


Sorry for not clarifying earlier


Its alri


Ight


Whys it here tho


Its very sad and I kinda could relate


And why here


Idk anywhere else


Like spam


Or smth


Idk


Uhh k ill delete then i guess?


No it fine ig


But like I just dont understand what it was


Okie


Idek


Nice vent mines better


Honestly same my parents expect me to do so much and follow everything they say and they always tell me what to do for my whole day at once and Im like how am I suppose remember when I cant even remember what I ddI yesterday. If this is an issue ur having I think the beet thing is just to have a conversation with ur parents start slow so u tell them how u feel


i have 1 parent thats obver protecive


BUT


sorry i havent been talking on here much, ill probably not be for the week cuz of school work


i put this on vent cuz i didnt want to diturbe you guys in main


No its fine


jdjfodhdi


its alri tiara


i didnt what to seem like i didnt care udhdjdn


tiara u can always talk to me or anyone else if u wanna talk to me in private we can


jhdishej:0 okii


ya


im always here for u


just gotta ask


ill try my best to comfort and support u


ahhh so sweeettt //


And ill always be here too i may not be the best at comforting someone but i will always listen to you


skhdis ahhh thank you too:D ngl i barely talk about my problems so eivdjd


its fine


im not gonna force u


take ur time


ill wait


u can talk when ur uncomfortable


:' thank youu kdbxj


I legit just want to die. I don't really wanna talk about it but i just needed to get it off my chest.


oh..


im sorry


tay


ik it was a bit blunt. idk i just needed to get it out


nuu its okayyy


its okay to let things out sometimes


tay ur an amazing and wonderful person and ik its a rough situation u are in but i think its just a moment and i don't want u to die, u mean alot to me and i care about u so i just want to let u know that


u can always talk to me


thank you. i might talk about it later. right now i just wanna cry. i just need to get it out


yes good, let it out


u can always talk to me privately and im always here for u


dont force yourself to talk about it if you dont want to, if you do decide to ill be here


thank you guys. so much. i dont feel like i deserve it but thank you for the kind words


ill do the samee:


you deserve the world


tay u deserve so much more


L a x


yes?


aww


dont cry


i cant help it. you are all so kind


i had a dream with my dad in it. i woke up and it hurt again. i loved him so much. i dont get why he had to go. i dont get why it wont stop hurting. its not got better at all. its just got worse and idk how to deal with it anymore.


maybe take some time off, have a break for awhile, be ureslf


just be with urself and do the things u like


keep those together


Life has its reasons youll grow. itll be hard to just try to keep your mind off it


the only issue is the things i like take prouctivity and motivation. and i just dont have any of that anymore. i managed to do some painting with my pride stuff and i vibed to music. that kind of helped. but it took like a week to even start doing it...


its ok to have memories of ur dad thats fine, its gonna hurt, every memory hurts but all sad memories and happy memories in hiding, ur an amazing and wonderful person and i love talking to u, and if u ever need to have a talk we can call, u literally can call me anytime ill come, ill try my best to comfort u and support and love you as much as possible u mean alot to me and have helped me too. so if u want something to do we can call and have a nice and calming talking


thank you so much. thank you for all of this. you are so caring and nice to me and everyone. i would call but im so awkward in calls lmao 3


Hot


Idc, i love talking to u, it doesn't matter if ur awkward if it makes u feel less lonely if ur in a call i will call and try my best to keep u happy


3 thank you simar


With this while BLM and pride coming up I've found out how homophobic and racist some of my family is. They just dont get it or something but it makes me angry and its not like i can change their mind or fight back. They dont believe anything and its it's just djgntjbckf


im really sorry to hear that but have u talked to them about it, they are ur parents and will love u always


I've tried but they still think I'm too young to really know what's going on


I know but I dunno


I cant exactly change their mind


is there anyone else u can talk to that is an adul?


adult


Yeah but it just feels weird that my family doesn't believe this movement and what it stands for


ya i understand that, but to make them understand ur way maybe have another adult to be with u so u don't feel lonely and ur parents might be able to understand?


I hope they will if I get an adult to talk to them


ya


i hope for the best for u and wish u good luck with this


if u need anything else that i can help with plz ask


ill try my best to answer and give the best possible advice possible


Thank you


im sorry


np anytime


d


Chaotic Yahiano Im sorry you have to deal with that.:


wowzas


it's hard honestly, look i have an interest in like serious role play and i am in a policing group for role play, and i get pretty outright bullied for it. if i ever mention it to random people they will be like ew you online date? shit like that. like some people do that, but i do this to like have it as a way to police and shit and honestly have fun. it's difficult to have a ton of stress to get groups active and stuff, like idk just a ton of stress i guess


i gotcha


ya i get u


every has things they like


everyone


yeah exactly


im not feeling well.


ive been depressed and the past two weeks have been hell.


first, mr. lloyd died unexpectedly, then my familys disney trip gets cancelled. only thing im hanging onto is the possibility to stream on twitch and my cousins coming to visit.


im sorry about ur loss


i have also been having to juggle my emotions, schoolwork, my friends problems, and having to help dex with work. im fine with helping him because he quite literally saved my life, but its too much work on top of the death and the trip basically being cancelled.


ive also gotten stressed a lot since i played deltarune because it was really scary for some reason.


i basically live in constant fear of what happens next, and what will scare me more. i downloaded a minecraft mod today, and it was so stressful that i almost uninstalled minecraft. i also went through my pokemon cards, learning that my favorite cards in my collection are severest damaged and will probably never be worth anything besides sentimental value. ive felt so stressed and i really need something to keep my mind off depression and death and cancellation. its been a wild ride, and all rollercoasters come to an end, thats what im thinking of doing. ending the rollercoaster short. my mental health and skill have declined with my mental state, and having stress from my gym teacher, regular teachers, parents, my friends making fun of me, and not being able to sleep has driven me to the verge of insanity. i dont want to be here anymore.


Life is like a roller coaster, many bumps and turns and sometimes it comes to an end earlier because of a malfunction, but they fix it and they finish the ride st the right time


I been the same way as you in some ways


I didnt tell anyone I was depressed for a whole year and I got through it


hehe


what


akk


Im terrified because of pridefall.


Im terrified of bwing doxxed.


But i dont wanna stay silent.


I dont know what to do.


I cant help but panic


Calm down


Everything will be fine


Will it?


Yes it will


Pride month is meant to be happy.


Yeah


Pride month is meant to be a time to be prideful. And people have ti ruin it


there willbe conflicts


but ur not gonna get hurt


I cant help it. People are scary.


yes they are


I dont know what people can and cant do


Ive taken precautions on my social media accounts and stuff. I just... why do people have to ruin things. Why are they so concerned about peoples lives and sexualities amd gender


I dont want to be silent. But what happens if we arent silent. Are we more at risk? Is this an actual thing that is going to happen? I dont know. I just cant not panic. I dont know why. But everything is going wrong this year. It feels like we are going backwards. Ive never seen so much homophobia and racism this year.


But hopefully everyone who has been doing bad things will see the destruction they have caused and they will stop and try create a better future


no that was great


No no. Its fine. You are all very helpful. And i thank you.


e


Soz If my advice makes no sense


Not the best at this


i made sense


i got it


People are always going to be dicks, if I could change it I would. You will be okay because you are you. There may not be good things happening at the moment but you have to try to stay as positive as you can


Just stay safe


If anyone hurts u I will hurt them


thank you. all for the reassurances. I can't help but want it all to go away. Its becoming a struggle to stay motivated. i cant stop overreacting and panicking so i feel i should go calm down a little and go to sleep. having a mental breakdown over this isnt going to help anyone or myself. thank you all for the kind words. I may talk occassionally in chat till i go to sleep but i just need to calm down a little


Yes


NoPoint koidjdiuj 3


Thats ok tay we just all care about u and love u


Yes we do


We will always be here for u


Yes we will


thank you everyone


and well do that because we care about you


i care about you all too. thank you guys. i love you all so much


Just try to get some sleep and rest


i will. good night all


Good night rest well


good night tay sleep well love you so much


Yeah good night


ya idk i just can't remember anything anymore and i have been feeling down alot


Is there anything going on thats making you feel like this, like our current situation with this rioting, racism, and quarantine?


Things like that really do have an impact on your mental health


Especially quarantine


honestly i wanna say its quarantine but like im always the same even when im not in quarantine


im not usually socially to alot of people now im here talking to a new person everyday


i mean i tried to hurt myself once


When was that?


3 weeks ago i think


Mhm


What did you do?


tried to jump


Off of..?


balcony


Who stopped you?


me ig


Have you been thinking about trying to do something similar to this recently?


i don't wanna hurt myself but like i still feel broken ig


Well


im sorry that im ruining ur time with ur friends


Nono o


its just a moment im having


They can wait


we can talk later ig


No


Its fine


I promise


no i don't wanna ruin ur time


We talk everyday


u go have fun


n o


ill be fine i swear


see


happy


If you need help then I should help you as soon as I Can


no its fine


Are you sure?


go enjoy


ya


ill be fine


We talk actually everyday


ya go talk with ur friends


promise


Promise?


MMM


promise ill be fine


go have fun


Fine, but if you need absolutely anything at all, or just wanna continue what we were talking about, do not hesitate to DM me


Or atleast @ me


ok i will


Fine


swear


Just tell me if you need help alright


don;t worry about me


yes i will


now go have fun


enjoy


i mean i tried to hurt myself once


NoPoint Nuuu. You have to promise me you will message me if you are struggling


im not gonna hurt myself again


most likely


Good, because i care about you alot. You have helped me alot and i love you dude 3


i love you too tay


i don't want to hurt myself but if i break i break


yeah, if you are struggling. please do message me. I would hate to lose you and so would everyone in this server


ya ik


im just not used to going to people and be like hey i got a problem, i usually just like to keep it to myself cause ik its just a moment and ill probably feel better the next day


yeah, i understand how you feel and often do the same


ill be fine ig


just


a


moment


always


Yeah but it can sometimes not be just a moment. And as hard as it may be to reach out to someone. Please do so. 3


wait what emily?


again ill be fine


just a moment


ill always be fine


ig


Its obvious you arent perfectly fine Simar and thats fine


nope


i am perfectly fine


as always


No you aren't Simar. Its obvious to see. Its fine to not be fine. Okay?


im


perfectly


fine


are you?


yes im fine


i think


NoPoint...


awww rowlint Taylax you guys are such good helpersss


damn sudhhdud that took a whike to type out


im fine


most likely


please be sure youre okay


its important to me that you are as okay as ever


just having a moment


im perfectly fine


: i hope that everything goes well with you ,3


i hope it is too


and never stop hoping


ill try


and im glad youre going to


I want to stab


I did nothing productive today


I'm in vc with two people who are talking about warframe


Someone sent a picture of a cereal box with all the cereals mixed together which is fine but all the cereal mascots were on the box together and made me pissed off


very confused


you are?


do you have the picture of the box?


yeah


you want it?


yea please


i know it sounds weird that i'd be annoyed at that picture


i just really hate cereal mascots as a whole concept


shut


poor mascots


it makes sense


they look so fake and unnecessarily happy


something about them just rubs my brain the wrong way


idek why i'm mad


what cereal is the chicken on


it's just a bunch of things at once


chicken?


oh


corn flakes i think


gross


i guess its kinda that they use cartoon characters to sell sugar to children who don't know any better


yum yum


tiger must look yum yum


no


oh no its entertaining


okay


better not talk about anything serious here then


you can if you want to


you'll just be like brain go brrr


I dont wanna seem rude but what r u upset about?


i'm not upset


just slightly annoyed about various things


yum yum tiger


R u ok?


and they all add up


i'll live


What are these things that are annoying u


idek why i came here to rant idek any of you except jimpy


well firstly i'm annoyed at myself for not doing anything productive all day


go pics to see yum yum box


I mean everyone had those days


Has


and secondly my friends im in vc with atm are talking about stuff i know nothing about and i feel left out


start making conversation


I mean that happens sometimes maybe just talking about something and get them involved?


idk i feel left out too and i just leave but


yeah


shh


Ya usually if I cant really be in the convo I lurk or I leave


i just dont really feel like talking so it just feeds into the cycle of them talking and me sitting here being quiet


thats on being awkward


I mean we can vc if u like to talk about u?


i'm not really awkward


nah i don't wanna talk about me im boring


everyone says that


I mean u seem interesting


everyone is the main character of their own story


exactly


ur not boring


Well we are in ur story now


i'm boring in other people's stories


no book is boring, you just have to think about it


Well lets go to ur story


well im less boring, more cringey


I would like to go to ur story


welll i'll join private 2 if you really wanna talk


Oki, but Im always hella awkward sooo


it's okay i wont judge


me too


i feel a bit better already thanks even tho you didnt really do anything but listen


Ya I mean if u need anything we here to help


my mother just woke up for work


Btw do u actually want us to join?


well i wanna talk to someone


im gonna join i just wont talk until i knowim safe


Aii Ill join


ill text in chat for


doe


but the people i was in vc with before were talking about warframe about which i know nothing


okay


dont be nervous i'm nice


you seem hella nice ngl


aww


ty


Im nervous about everything


yiz


anxietea


my zoom classes gave me bad anxiety


aw


yeah im so glad im out of school


school ended yesterday for me


Ya Im really shy dude and honestly cant just talk to people that easily


epic


Me too


I dont have online school


im why but outgoing at the same time


mine not required


Idk if I have exams tho


I had online school


hellooo


yes


my mother just woke up or is chat


id


going to work


Jejdjejee if I join can I just be muted or do I have to talk


yes its 3:29 am


you can mute if you want but it'd be more awkward since im the only one talking


simar just joking smdh


join


cannot english


Lehrjehebe


yea thats true


welcome


i think i typed joinnn and it corrected


thats valid


myphone is at 69 again epic


australia is swag money


i love ur accent


i kinda can?


someone would say six and id go


canadians suck


canadians are better than americans lmaooo


i have a slight canadian accent because of my exposure to the media.


ur rly around the globe damn


i was born and raised in america


rip


DAMN


its 3:30 am


we vibinf with no sleep


vibinf


Its 330 were im at rn


swag


zeus and i dont get along but its whatever


im not worried about it, life is like that


wHO?


had WHAT?


zeus said i seem like a good person so we are automatically friends


he knows my secret


of all people the person i dont get along with


ye


he checked deleted messages


can i know the secret


wait


my secret is very secretive


you should tell me


all staff know then


What


secret finn has


i have big secret


k sorry just needed to scREAM


good:


im sorry


i wanna say i understand but i don't think its happening in canada and plus i don't even talk to my parents that much, but ig if u don't want to listen to tehm maybe have some music to block the other sounds


When you make big doodoo


I submitted some work for school but it was wrong document and so my mum is going to be mad and


can u unsubmit it?


I gotta do a bunch of work tomorrow


Me make big doodoo too and keep getting behind


No shes already marked it


Email her


can u email her saying u sent the wrong thing


I sent her email with proof it was wrong doc but idk if its allowed


I mean it wasnt that long


It was due first month or something of quarantine


When did you submit it tho?


A while ago


Dang


More of a reason for my mum make me leave that school


Honestly I just wanna drop out of school


What about homeschooling?


With my parents


As teachers


Wont work


They have work


And now I found out that I was supposed to have been asked to go hang out but I wasnt


So much for friends


Nonono


Homeschool yourself


Honestly I wanna drop out of school, work on dads farm all day, get a job nearby get some cash


You mean online school


You should get either a real textbook or online one and then assignments


Well I do it on paper


I teach myself all the work


Yeah but Im not smart


So I would understand how to do anything


And where would I get the text books


I would have to make a timetable and all that stuff


Well the program would provide you.


You just sign up with a program so that its all still legal and they give you everything, mark everything and theyre there for help if you need it


What program is it


Whats it called


Illusive


Do you have to pay


Can u please send me info about it


Nah man Im in Canada


sorry i didn't reply, i kinda went off my heads kinda killing me so if u need anything just ping me and ill try to respond still sorry i didn't reply to this


Theres multiple different homeschooling systems


I dont know if you have to pay cuz things are different in America


Ok thanks


I suggest just googling or asking your school because lots of schools have a connection with the homeschooling programs


Tbh I would rather be at farm doing it because I would get in less trouble because dads chill but wifi bad there so I could get better data or wifi


One of my friends” does online schooling


Omg yess my teacher said she will have a look and adjust the marks


pog


Do you ever just look in the mirror and self esteem issues


Bc same


yes


mirrors are ew


Mmhm


very


s mert


bruh i get scared staring at one MM


same


they are s p o o k y


yeth


STFU YES I AM, pardon me


no lying


BUT YES TF I AM


No


jdnd


NO PLEASE


stop the cap


wait waIT sjdhjdjd how do you knoww


riley one snap


HDJSHDHS


I HAVE SOME UGLY PICS PICS IVE SENT HER


AHHH


KEHDKD


nooo


NOPE


IN COR RECT


u are


MMM


NO SHUSH


ly.1225 what


kdjdjdufu im b a w l i n g


NAHHH


flat u have SO many of me


u r


RILEY BUT


rjdjddndjdj


exactly


i dont seNd tHem tO peEeipLee


tf u do


im the hottest one here


except when you did it to no point


AHHH


what did u even send him


what pic!


oh SHOOT


lmao hol up


I SWEARR IVE ONLY SENT 1 PIC TO SOMEONE


NO PLEASE


flat is your insta pfp you?


yes


tell me rn


YES


not hector


also here


dms


yeS


what?


I SENT IT BEFORE YOU SAID YOU DIDNT LIKE IT DJDNDJ


excuse me what


grandba


thats why you snap me selfies


tiara


yeSs


u dont even send me face pics


bruh


YEAH CUZ I DONT WANT YOU TO THINK IVE FULL OF MYSELF


kdbdjd


sorry


im like


louf


y would i even think that?


ur just sendin me a photo of urself


i love when u do that man


do i have your snap? flat


i dUNno im super self cautions with women how are prettier than mr


me


mmhM yes i doo


i dont


i only send them to tiara


tae.ok not hector


HM


very


but u ss everyone


no tiara


mE? oh yeahh hehehhe


thats y i dont send face pics of me cause i dont want people to ss


i put in my an alum with my friends in itt


album


i dont trust people


so thats good


like at all


he didnt ss my picture i sent today


he an epic boi


tiara i dont even send them to savannah dude


or chloe or maya


only you


and u dotn send them back


kdhdidjj i didnt knoww but wow idjdjdhd


i swear skdndkd


except me


hm


no


hehehhe see thats good


but its hard to send pics to you, of my face dijd


simar a sexy boi


yes i kNow LmaO


he hasnt texted me in a day tho


he needs friends:


so good


NICE


ok tiara


mmm


i need to know about ur status tho


hM oHHH


pleaseee


hol up, im trying to remember


why you wanna know tnoo heheh


thi


tho


i wanna know things


uGgh


ooo okayy, uhhh hM


if u dont want it to be public i can do it in dms if u want


oh no its okay i just have horrid memory


oH i think it was about the MMM wierd server


LMAO


jajmfk


yes


who tho


everything


wha


i dont think it iss


well no


but yeah i think thats it


oh well it was a short thing i think its good...for now


i dunno if she wants any further explanation


idc


i just wanna know who


well it wasnt anyone in particular


Following Buttons suggestion, yes i agree but something more useful is to use that ketchup syringe to also inject questioned ketchup into the bloodstream. Can also work for mayo, relish, mustard or horseradish.


read it again


lmao


how


wait


this is kinda facts


the f o r b i d d i n y e l l o w c o n d e m e n t


wrong channel


t h e f o r b i d d i n u s e d c o n d e m


y e l l o w f o r b i d d e n c o n d e m e n t


Here in england we are currently using a level system for lockdown. Level 5 is legit being locked away as much as possible and level 1 mostly free.


Level5 NHS is overwhelmed, back into full lockdown


level4 number of cases high but hospitals not overwhelmed, back into lockdown


level3 number of cases are now low and low enough to have partial lifting of lockdown


level2 shops and offices reopen with social distancing and the vulnerable stay home


level1 sport events return, vulnerable can leave home only likely with a vaccine


To my knowledge we have no vaccine at all and Boris is just blindly jumping to level 1. Im honestly scared of what's to come.


Boris does seem to be just trying to finish it but isnt doing it the best way


If people would stay inside instead of going out with friends they could stop the spread quicker and hang out with friends even more


Yeah, the scientists weren't happy about moving to level 3. Level 3. They didnt want that yet. He is outright ignoring the scientists which is where his best sources of advice will come from. Its getting kind of annoying.


Yeah but I dont know too much about whats happening in other countries so I cant really help


hhaiadhi


no sleep


Sleep is for the weak


Just ghost your friend


Just try ignore him/her and just say your not allowed to hang or whatever


I can't, most of them just say it's drama


Brain moment


What you could do is try see a therapist and then tell them whats happening and they could help


Substance abuse leads to worse depression and circumstances down the line


If rather deal with that than have to live rn


Can I suggest hypnosis? Its essentially guided meditation that only works if you believe and allow it to. It can do stuff crazier than drugs, its awesome. I can do it to you if youd like.


Ya see thats the thing my therapist doesnt think that will work for me


Cause of the situation Im in and the way I think


Which is why I come to doing drugs cause it see presses anyth h that can affect me


Hypnosis is something anyone can do and its free


At least give it a shot? Im not too shabby if I say so


Ya know what, after this quarintr bulls hit is over ill ask my thearapist about it


Okay


Keep in mind it only works if you believe that it works


Its using the placebo affect to your advantage


Trick


I question everything


Maybe thats why your therapist thinks it might not be easy


ya Ben my therapist had to second guess her self


Trick what?


Trick was supposed to mean trick


Seth Im on sum rn so I might not make sense


Sorry


Ah I see


What happened to they hypnosis


He didnt end up DMing back


Do it to me I wanna see


people in this server are here for you


so no one is there for u or is there ppl


nobody is there.


ok so who the ppl that were there for u for the past 3 years


and I know what people are on, I just talk to them and see how they feel, like my friend shes suicidal and i have been telling her to be calm and everything she has gone thru I have my counselors already that could talk to her and she been calm and shes back to a normal person now


Ok listen okay I made a friend on here and last time I heard from her was ages ago and she was really sad and I feel like she gave up and Im literally so sad


Maddy


maddy


I didnt want to bring it up incase she was having a break from stuff


Yeah I guess its just because we dont know if they got logged out of account or did something


Im going to keep an eye out and check if she is on every now and then


gibby helps me escape. my minecraft account also helps me escape. i have been playing RLCraft for a bit on a server, and it makes me happy. i have a dragon i feed every day, levels to make, and trades to complete. it keeps me happy, but when i get off im empty again.


video games make me happy. they give me a sense of helpfulness. thats why im thinking of streaming. i want to stream, even though i will probably never get followers or fans. i even made a discord server just in case i do end up streaming.


Its good to have goals


I think you should stream


If its something that makes you happy


But dont be pressured into doing it lots


What am I supposed to say here


This whole server is against me


Fuck it, the whole world is too


If I vent anything theyll laugh more


Theyll degrade me more


Say I deserve it


I never did anything to them


Im trying to be myself and figure out who I am


I tried to find a place for myself by trying to figure out what was happening in my brain


But all I get are people calling me fake fake fake


My dad has his multitools and knives in the next room and Ive thought about ending my life five times tonight


Ive asked for help everywhere but everyones asleep


I dont know whats wrong with me


If I am fake then how could it all be happening?


The splits and the attitudes and the headspace and being different people


I dont get it


That moment when you get 50 on math test


ARE YOU KIDDING


PLEASE


IM BEGGING


Im sorry I didnt see your thing Im on mobile


Talk to a suicide hotline


Ive never been called fake so I dont really know what to say but what zeus said is good idea


the suicide hotline number isnt good


they hang up on you


Why


Fantastic


Talk to a parent then


Ive never had to but try Headspace they seem pretty good but they Australian thing Im pretty sure


You never realise how much you miss someone till they are gone


I am done with school, like Im ready to drop out


same


Honestly just do it


My parents will hate me and Im 14


Ah damn... well drop out as soon as you can if you can make a proper career bath that doesnt require schooling


Yeah cause I doubt Im going to pass school


Ive been interested in mountain biking or maybe joining army or sm


Before you join the army make sure to talk to a couple different people about their experience


And see if theres any trade skills youd be interested in


Yeah


I mean in my opinion its not racist


its not if she didnt know


wow


When typing online people receive texts different ways


he meant both


Like if I say woah


ok but why cant ppl j take a joke


thats what in understand


ion


lmao yall need to chill


wha


Some will see it as like inpressed woah and some well see other


yes


v cool


ooo


sounds like my type of maaan


kidding


a man w money tho?


sugar daddy maybe


oh shi


mines free


go to main


Dee how is ur school free tf


Mine is free


Tf


How


Canada bro


Most we have to ever pay for is like'renting' the lockers


My school is so exspensice


And thats only sometimes


But I cant spell


my school is private so like we have to buy uniforms for sport,summer,winter,and for both our sports


Ewww


I hate the thought of uniforms


Its so bad


No thank you, I have a fur coat for a reason


my school is the top school


in the district


Well Im probably going to drop out so like


I learn as I go


Hey well I may be in Canada but I might be able to help you with math a bit, not sure but maybe. Its not my best subject but Canada tends to be ahead of America in math sometimes


Ewww Canada


yes


I will grab my guns and walk to Canada


omg


Our geese will defeat you


We should probably move this out of vent


You release we hunt geese


You know In NZ they used golden syrup on pancakes


Illusive Im Australian


Oh


Well um


I know nothing about the Australian education system


What grade are you in though?


Australians cant be that smart


Thats why hes dropping out


wow


Grade 9


Exsposing myself


Dang might not be able to help much then


bottom


Damn.


Ok, so two days I got in a relationship with my best friend. And I was really happy. Like smiling every second. And now she just broke up with me. I am the big sad


how old are you? because it might just be she wasnt ready?


Were 13, and the day before she had just gotten dumped


yea she most likely wasnt ready for another relationship i wouldnt encourage her either but try get her to not think about it and give her some time to get over it


Yeah


Im telling her Im fine


Letting her make her decisions


theres a small possibility he might like you but he could also be trying to play with your feelings i dont know what hes like im not saying he is but theres a chance


they think its a good idea because it makes them look bad”


byee


im sorry but you should put it back up if it dont take too long and show her you are passionate and show her who you are


i want too but im very much afraid of her. she'll tear it down herself if she has too. i have a big love hate relationship with her.


maybe put little things up? like drawings or like cards


i just feel like the biggest disappointment right now. i have not motivation anymore to make anything again.


thank you


i just feel like she wants to hide me away just because of my sexuality whether she accepts me or not. She just hides me away and that is what making me feel like a mistake and disappointment right now.


That's probably the sweetest thing I have ever seen ever said on this server


no. not really. Im just stuck right now as well. Im only out to my parents. My dads side of the family is homophobic, my dad wasnt but his parents and brother are. Idk my parents friends but she just hides me from them. I thought it was because she didnt want to out me but apparently not...


I would talk to her. But i just cant. I dont know how. What she would say. Im pretty sure she wouldn't care anyway. She doesn't ever seem to care.


Try writing something, then give it to her.


Im just scared. Idk how too. The idea of doing so makes me panic inside. Shes never been a parent you can talk too. They were making trans jokes at the dinner table once and i left a note asking them to not and they got all defensive and didnt talk to me for the rest of the night. They are the white people who also thinks there should be a white pride and straight pride...


thank you. I will try but i cant promise anything


love you too Simar. You take care of yourself too mkay?


my dog is meanie head::::


Oof


Sad


ik im crying


Why are you crying


Im going to see my mom soon. Its been awhile


I hope it goes well jenna


my dog meanie


What type of dog you got?


chihuahua and jack russell


Oh mvm


Noice


he mean


Oof Chihuahuas are meanies


I have one


i have two


I dont really like smol doggos


Double the oof


They scare me like lowkey


i have two tiny dogs then two big dogs


Aww nice


I have one tiny dog one big dog


yea and two cats


Thats alot of animals


well two cats and one dog at one housr then 3 dogs at the other


Oof


yea


Ohh nice


and a rabbit as well


Are at least some of your pets nice?


Lots of oofs for senf


Well thats good


My big dog likes to sit on me so I can barely breathe


Meanie butt


Lmfao


I have a pitbull and she does that as well


dang


my pittbull is sweet


My dog weighs like 40 pounds


So is mine, she tries to look after my bb ducks


I weight like 70 pounds


Idk how much mine weighs


my pitt is like 40 idk


my BIG dog is like 150


Woa


What breed of doggo


the tiny ones are 520 pounds


idk he lived on the streets


yea


Well is he like really tall on his hind legs


kinda


My tiny dog is cubby shes like 15 pounds


Cute


but hes got tons of tumors


Oof


Oh so maybe thats why hes so heavy


think so


Cancerous?


theyre too many to get removed


we dont know


Awww


hes going to the vet this week hopefully if we have the money


Oh well that happens to the best of em


Hopefully


Hopefully you do


hes like 10 so


yea


Hopeful it goes well senf


me too


Well i got to go i need to get to bed early tonight


ok gn:


Night


Theres this genetic disorder that people/pets can get that give them loads of tumors


And they usually arent cancerous


like lots of tiny ones im guessing around 2050


theres a lot


but hes had them literally ALL his life


Well i hope that they stay small


theres only one big one


on his chest


So then maybe they arent cancerous


Oh


im not sure


Well


The chest one seems luke the one the vets should look at first


yea for sure


Bec its near the heart and everything


yea


But the rest dont seem like they would be as bad, bec theyve stayed small


yea, weve had him for 78 years im not sure but hes always had them


He was prob just born with it then


idk


He acts like a normal dog tho right


Cus that would be a good good sign


yea he acts like hes like 2 years old


Aww cute


yea hes always got lots of energy


he could run the yard for hours


Well then yea


Im sure hes fine


Seems like a good doggo


but we just gotta make sure yk


Yea you can never be to sure abt stuff like that yk


Ok see ya around senf ima try and wake up early


Gngngn


okk gn:


Cya


tysm its hard because she was nice one second and turned into a new person the next


Thats life


Yeah I guess but they need to do their job


like the police are shooting and killing innocent people and they think its not adding stress? liek wtf


Even if it means kids like me getting depressed from work loads and results


but they can just do little bits of work


they dont need to do as many as they do


its stressing teachers out too


Well I go to private school so thats not happening


it needs to stop like youre getting stressed out by it so they could slow down the work a bit


Yeah I guess


I honestly wanna give up on my schoolwork because I have to leave next year


No point in me staying there and wasting our money just for me to get bad grades


im sorry


Thanks


Im just so confused with what Im going to do with my life though


maybe try tell someone how you feel


Trust me all it will do is make me even worse because I always feel like Im being judged


you wont be and if they do which they should then just ignore them dont talk to them they dont deserve you


I just feel like I cant trust them


hi everyone so im already in this server but i dont want to expose who i am i dont even know why but ive been feeling down a lot recently i really hate myself right now and with all this going on ive been getting stressed and not as active as i used to be i cant handle it i dont need you to reply to this but i just need to get this off my chest i really love you all so much and when the server dies or i leave i will always remeber you ive been in the server for like a month or two now and i really hate the fact that its dying people are leaving because of others and what they say i really do hate it i wanna just go back to the better times when we were all friendly and it wasnt as chaotic i really miss the old creators central but i dont really think we can sort this out anymore but always know ill miss you and i love you all so much


ive also recently been added to a group and ive just realised how much i miss the old me i was so much nicer and i had friends but now ive just made them all leave and im just rude i really hate myself for that i wanna go back but i cant i really hate the fact i have to live remembering how much of a bad person i was to everyone i just dont wanna be here anymore


thanks gee 3


Its ok


School kills me too...


It's hard...


I feel demotivated...


The pressure's on me all the time...


I feel like everyone is insulting me behind my back...


I feel useless, worthless, I feel like a human not worthy of living...


But I feel like everyone would just say that I'm simply complaining.


That I'm only trying to get attention...


I have no idea who to talk to...


Yes


Me too


So apparently my grandmas cancer was due to a hereditary mutation in her heart that skipped a few generations so no one really talked about it until she got it but its come back really strong so I have to go get tested


Im not leaving


And I will be okay


Dont be sad, stuff like this happens


Simar


Youre not going to loose me


Yeah, I could be fine,


I will be, so you dont need to worry about it okay?


Your only allowed to worry if I test positive


Until they come back dont think about it


Okay, then do something else, think about positive things


Okay


I just hate it here


I hate this house


I hate my dad


I hate me


You shouldnt hate yourself


Why though


I should


Even my dad hates me


Because your special


I try hard for my tests but nearly fail all


Go to deletedchannel its kinda relevant


I cry at least twice maybe three times a week


Its ok to cry


I know but Im tired of it


I do it all the time


And it sucks


I feel like its helping


But I guess not


Aw Im sorry


I dont really cry because being a. Boy I would get bullied because I go to private school but once there was so much pressure about me having to leave and some stuff that happened and one lesson I was swinging on chair and my friend kicked it and I got in trouble and it was just to much for me


I know the feeling. Sometimes I cry for so long that I cant cry anymore


Aw Im sorry Gee. But its alright to cry. I do it all the time anymore


It kind of helps Im the moment


In


I know its just they didnt know I have to leave school


I wasnt ready to tell people


It alright. Just take your time and do it when you want to or can


When your teacher doesnt tell you what work to do so your just sitting there like


You will always have hate and sadness inside you


I feel this way all the time


And I dont know what to do about it. I feel like its getting worse everyday


Dont end it though


Yeah sure I can be happy sometimes or laugh at a joke but I feel like that feeling is always lurking and ready to poke at my insecurities or stuff that has happened between me and my dad.


I have a friend in this server idk if they got logged out or sm but last time I talked to them they seemed so Sqd


Sad


No Im not going to


No. I dont think I will


Aw Im sorry Gee. Hopefully they are ok


I hope they are


I hope they are too


But thanks so much for this talk. It has helped a lot and I guess I dont feel as bad as I was.


Ive never used this channel because I was afraid that people would judge me but honestly I really dont care when I feel this way.


Im not sure honestly


Im just too afraid to tell people because Im the friend who helps and isnt suppose to hurt on the inside.


But I always am


Yeah I guess so


I do that most of the time though


I cant tell my friends because all they say is . ” or same” but when they want to talk I listen and I care and I feel like no one wants to help me


I have a lot of problems I dont talk about


Thanks so much


Thanks nopoint


Alright well I should probably get going now. I was supposed to be sleeping like two hours ago but I couldnt stop crying which sucks and this has helped a lot


Gn everyone


Thanks you too


hey


in


like rq


little rant


if you don't mind


ok so


i like fucked up bad


so it's 9 days till school ends


so i was like, fuck it


i'm not doing the rest of my schoolwork


then my mom tells me i need to do it


and then gets mad cuz i don't attend zoom calls


and i disint do it


because i just dislike the work


it isn't even educational rlly


it's literal busy work


so yea


just a little annoying part of my life


uwu


my head hurts


very bad


i slammed it multiple times against a rocking chair


for no reason


so my forehead is bleeding but i patches it


and now i just have bruises


it hurts bad


idk why i did it


yes


i like pain intially


but then it's annoying


after the initial pain


also like pain i don't cause to myself is like bad and it hurts a lot


but pain i cause to myself is not as bad


cuz then i can be like so what, i did it not somebody else yknow


yea bleeding head isn't good


i just smashed it on a rocking chair


cuz i was annoyed with myself


so i just smashed my head


but ok


i'll stop


plus


i'm not depressed or anything


i don't cause like actual self harm stuff like that


it's just a thing i do idk


yea i would t do they


don't do it


that's bad thing


like instead


maybe try like scratching where u usually cut


so it gives that feel, but ur not actually harming yourself


idk if that's good idea


i've never tired it


it's nice to find someone who relates


and doesn't instantly ask if i'm ok or depressed or smt


ty


i agree


GOD I HATE EMOTIONS


WHY THE HELL DO I HAVE TO FEEL EVERYTHING SO HARD


Okay


Oh you werent supposed to see that Im sorry


Okki


anybody on here?


i feel upset


irk


i mean


it's kinda personal


would you mind if i dm you it?


uh hello?


hey everyone im still in creators central or now known as ghost town i do want to leave but i dont want to leave all my memories behind so i think ill stay for a little longer even though im only online for around 5 minutes a day i still spent time here and love you all and i hope most of us can keep in contact for a while too thats all i want to say and im probably not going to expose who i am you can try find out but ill just deny it or act dumb but yea


my main


its just not the same here and its bothering me and others i really do miss the old creators central when we could all actually joke about things without getting introuble


It's unfortunate how you came online the one time non of the admins are online


It's much more like it was before when they are here


yep


if we want the old creators central back then we need to change


im gonna stay for a bit longer


but im hardly ever active


Me too, I used to be a whole lot more active, I've recently been busier though so I can't be online as much as I used to, but it doesn't change anything /


the servers kinda dying now that people are leaving tho


Nah it's just really quiet at this specific time of day, we need more European users on the server basically


I think Discord in general will be quiet for a while anyway, what with pridefall and such happening, people just don't wanna get caught up in server raids


no i mean like people are leaving the server like betty abrant and stuff and kris is thinking about leaving its not just them theres more but yea


Wait Betty left?


yea


Nooo!


Not the best time amari


Betty left?


im pretty sure it was because of all the politics and arguments i cant remeber


hes


remember


this is what she said


I'm sorry for leaving the server so abruptly. I'm super frusturated and let my feelings take over decision making but honestly this was something I've been contemplating for awhile. I loved Creators Central/Ghost Town but for awhile i haven't been happy with the server and how some people in the server were treating others. I didn't really speak up to everything because I was afraid of getting kicked out or made fun of but that was stupid. We were a really tight family and sometimes families don't agree with each other and make each other upset but in the end the have a conversation and move on. That's what I found was missing. The conversation. Just a bunch of people talking at each other instead of to each other. I'm gonna miss the server so much and if we're friends feel free to reach out I'll do the same if that's okay thank you for the awesome memories, awesome times, and I hope everyone has wonderful lives. BettyboopatethemoonChloe


Aww... That's sad:


When was this?


yea :


i think it was a few days ago ill check


yesterday around 1 am i think


England time


Damn... I can't believe I missed this!


Well I wanna stay on this server and help it grow and develop, ofc there's gonna be people leaving all the time, and maybe they'll rejoin over time, but I wanna be here from close enough to the beginning to the end


yea i kinda wish she didnt leave but it was her choice


shes still in other servers tho


yea same


people keep trying to make them stop their convos about politics but they never listen


Yeah, we're allowed politics only in deletedchannel but the problem with that is people who want to avoid that can't, because deletedchannel is also where polls and non political arguments happen, its non avoidable


and people go too far with it


Yeah, we have some real argumentative people on here


and also we had an incident earlier when someone banned cane back apparently one of staff knew about it but didnt ban them when they found out they need to actually do things because it would stop it from carrying on for longer its not really fair on people because they had to argue and argue just because someone didnt do what they were supposed to they just told other staff and let them do it hours later its really not fair


Yeah there's a few people that have been banned and have come back


but staff leave it for a while then ban them why domt they just do it first thing instead of letting it start something


dont


They've been getting better recently, I think


stop sending links


ion think its fair for ppl to be allowed back in


like i think it depends on which staff u have and how much they like u


hello discord people i will be saying i will be taking a break from discord i have been having suicide thoughts lately and i dont think i can go much farther i have met good friends some i knew before this and some aftertechdeck fattypatty were very good friends to meet i also like NoPoint he has been a great staff and has helped me when i needed help with the server everyone has been overall nice to me over the years but i hope i will make it i have been happy through these times but i think i will make it maybe but fattypatty has been nice to me and tech deck has been a old friend to me i will be thinking about myself and possible suicide it has been a fun time i say my last word in this discord server goodbye.


Im very sorry to hear. But please dont harm your self, or kill yourself! You were made for a purpose and that purpose was great! Everyone hearts will be broken. My friend committed suicide back in January, and the whole school and me were so heart broken! Your life counts every way! But if you do, everyone in the community will be broken and your parents will be just gone. So please live your life! I have no idea what you have been going through, but Im here for you! I can talk to you. So please take that thought and throw it out!


hello?


i had an inside joke with a friend, and it was very fun


but he started sharing it with other ppl


and like made it so its not even as fun


and make it so like its a big thing


and i just wanted it to be a small joke in bewtween us


he dont realize


that i wanted it to be like a thing between us


but then he started adding other people and made a'clan'


and stuff


as a'joke'


but its kinda annoying cuz i wanted it to be between us


oh


PLEASE do NOT SUICIDE YOURSELF strong man


this aint a joke


tbh


but also


now he saying im being'mean to the others in the clan;


because ima nnoyed


about him doing it


and he keeps adding


U ok?


NoPoint didnt realize anyone responded but uhhh ye just a bit sad


I get that so much


i cant do anything but sit there and listen to the sound of a screaming mother giving you a lecture


Yeah and she you try talk she just ignore you


My mum sent me a video of how to put towels on towel racks


lMAO you dont gotta worryyy


not really i mean there isnt really anything to say about it, but thanks for the offer


had two people randomly leave a discord call at once then proceed not to respond to my dms


rip


lmao its kinda funny tbh


so simar I tried to talk to him


what


that guy I told you thats been bullying and picking on me who is also one of my close friends


i just hit my funnybone and it really hurts i hit it on a radiator so it made a noise and it just reminded me i hit my funnybone


dang


yes


the pain wont go!


rup it


idk lmao


rup


it worked very well thank you


idk y i put a p


it sounds snazzy


im so sorry i hope you feel better soon


OMG IM SO SORRY WHAT YOU WENT THROUGH OMG DID THE PERSON ATLEAST GET INTROUBLE OR ANYTHING OMG NO ONE DESERVES THAT


i really hope they get what they deserve no one deserves that ever


good this person needs to be in prison so it cant happen to anyone else


or you could add them here and watch them get shouted at jkjk


but if you do ever wanna we will beat them up and anger them for you


oh


well add them to a snap group with us jkjk


no i dont


Im sorry about what happened


thank you well right now i dont feel it


no im good but thanks


i dont really have anything to talk about


yea i will NoPoint


my cat is bully!


help


im being bitten


ouch


i want to see


he sleep


sleepy


is that bolty


cute


Stay safe


im infuriated


Ok i guess i do need someone to talk to


Im always here as well if no one is one and u want someone to talk to


Oh thank you


You ever have that feeling that you dont know what to do with your life like you feel you have no meaning


not yet


Rn I feel that way


Yep


U wanna talk


Its kinda like Im not good enough for anyone and I can never seem to do the right ing when I try so my mind kinda has stopped trying to do stuff in general


Alr so I dont rlly have a best friend. This time last year me n my bsf broke up over sum dumb crap n that rlly hurt me... like to this day it hurts the exact same cuz we had a rlly good friendship, so when school started again I got close with one of my old friends from middle school we were never that close but then we did get close n it was going well for awhile but then idk wat happened she just got rlly distant from me n... yea but Im rlly sensitive and ig I can tell when someones acting different but maybe Im just being overly sensitive idk but i stopped talking to her Sunday cuz she said sum that rlly hurt my feelings: I also stopped talking to my friend group but it just feels like I have no one to talk to and most ppl have someone that they can talk to abt everything at my age n I dont:/ I would try to make better friends but its rlly hard for me n I think everyone


What I do is a follow a group of people who are kinda my friends and if I dont like what they do I dont talk to them


i think i should be worried


i just heard gunshots outside, like nearby


and heard people screaming and now i hear distant running


oh yeah thats not good at all


and most definitely terrible


i turned off all the lights


my back is against the front door


jejdid oh mmyyy do you think its super severe?


just heard gunshots again


BRUHD DJXHDJDJ


is everyone okay?


is anyone hurtt?


hey gEe


idek


Hello bling blong


You should probably hide just to be safe


Do you have balloons jimpy


i dont want you or other people getti g hurt love


Jimpy if you blow up balloon and pop them if they come towards you and say stop


Are you home alone?


sounds of the shots


thats spooky


they are still going


They dont sound like shots but I dont know what guns you people have over there


but brUh jdhdjd do you think theyre gun guns


OH? i hope its fire works


i mean


theyre a little early


i would go outside and look but


yeah i was gonna sayy


but mmm


Uhh my mom lives near a gun range so I constantly herd guns when Im there and it sounds like gun shots


i dont see any fire works


yea and it doesnt sound like an automatic


hunting?


Its semi automatic


when i hear gunshots usually its hunt oOoh


theres no area to hunt near my house


im just watch callmecarson in panic


Just stay away from windows and keep blinds/curtains closed


Make sure that a friend or relative is aware of the situation just in case


yea i told my dad


Now get icecream and get in a blanket


what about police


I stg i foreal hate people sometimes


Ok thank you


For sure


BRUH I HAVE A HORRIBLE EXPERIENCE WITH AN OLD MAN, BRUH I WAS LIKE 6 AND GOT SEXUALLY HARASSED


facts


oh sjhdjdjdj i didnt know you responded its okay BUT LIKE IM SCRAED TO BE NEXT TO OLD MEN DKND


I think its perfectly valid to be scared of them after what you went through


yeah i knowww ejrhjrjdjejdjejehhdu it was horrible, but it happened quite a while agoo


Have you seen a therapist about it?


nahh, dont you need money for that


Insurance can cover it sometimes


Id look into it if I were you


aww how sweet of you:


Hope ur doing better now


of you to say i meant hdj


omgg ahh thank youu


but its totally okayy


Ok thats good


i cannot sleep. ive been trying to sleep for 6 hours and i have not been able to sleep once. i wasnt touching my phone, i was t too hot or too cold, i just cant sleep and its driving me insane because i was very very tired all day.


insomnia??


Could also be stress


OH YES TRUEE


i have nothing to stress over and i dont have insomnia


because i can sleep every other day


i have insomnia


well thats not funn


i mean what about taking a sleeping bill, though do be careful


Yeah, you should take some melatonin pills, but cut it in half before use because those pills r rlly powerful


Hehe


im going shopping later and ill probably get melatonin gummies


Noice


s l e e p


for bedtime sleepies


hehe melatonin g u m m i e s


cute


yum gummies


Im sorry i had to get political but it had to be said


wooow delete my venting cheap move


sad


FR UHAH...someones on there perIoOd


is that even appropriate to say UHAH


WHAT


NOTHIN


THATS NO


THAT ISNT RIGHT


LIKE


BUT ITS FAX


maybe


I mean r u?


U dont ha e to say


Have


NO NOT MEE MY MOM


UAHHAHAHA dumby


LMFAOO you my man...are slow


and i mean that in the nicest way


god


Ya Im sped


jesus


is my savoir


damn.


everyone with a hentai pfp is automatically slow


DAMN FAX


nopoint


you are smart boy, everyone has there times


Nope


UM yes


Um no


y3S sIr


No maam


BRUH STFU smArT boy


i wanna slap both of u!


ME FIRST


ndjdjdj


jkjkjk


i literally will


NO PLEASE


watch me


AHH


oh yea i found something out today


oop yesss?


theyre 75 my mom doesnt have breast cancer


they have to do more tests tho


well THATS GOOD


weve spent over S500 already


but kinda scaryy


damnnn


which we really cant afford


I BET


not including her surgery


man if i can help you out I WOULD


which was a lot


BRUH FR


i have 20S


shes healing well tho


thats GREAT


she tried to show me but i ran, that may sound weird but eh


like the scars


theyre on the very bottom


well if shes atleast healing welll


yea but it still scares me


cause no one in our family has had cancer


like it doesnt run on either side


idjd then thats literally great, and good for you too


its probably weird were talking about it on here but eh


eh is correct, theyll never know


Maybe


yes


so you all know how i was sxually assaulted a few months ago. well i have talk to my parents about it and well have it figured out in a few weeks. so if i dont have lots of energy or im not active please dont take it the wrong way. im still a little traumatized so it will take me awhile to get over it. so please dont mind if i talk about it or act like i wouldnt act usually.:


Please take all the time you need. We're here for you


And I know talking about that with parents is petrifying but it usually feels a lot less stressful once you do and please do not blame yourself


everyone deals with things differently so u handle it ur way and we will be here to support u and help u go back on ur back path


Indeed


vent through art


i find it easier to express my problems through drawings


although it may not make sense to other people


Everyone has different ways of expressing their problems or feelings


Thats cool drawing


I think it understand what it means


aww, your inspire me to do the same djdhdjbr


Is your grandfather alright at least


omg we really need peacee


Honestly I would say we need a month of just peace and joy but everyone will forget about it and then there will have been no purpose of that month if everyone forgets we honestly just need a new year people should change like god damn we pretty much killing ourself a cause of this year


NoPoint0690 Since there is a new even happening like every week itll be great to even have a month. But i agree there will be no purpose for it. At this point people dont care about dying


ya i understand people need a break and it might help people but like if there is 1 person still doing it, it effects others


My pp hurt


Tfw you get told to put down something because and I quote your kind tends to steal things


what


thats


racist


Chaotic Yahiano r a c i s m. send any info you can get on them and send it to black twt. they'll take care of it


Oh no it's all good now


I may or may not have put them in a tree


oof


Chaotic Yahiano yes. as you should


All in a days work


You lucky bastards think its so bad being left on read or delivered for less than a week sometimes people never respond ever or even give me fake numbers


i mean i don't really care if they give me an excuses ill be like ok


They dont


i mean i only talk to what like 2 irl people from on snap


everyone else i snap is on this server


Not allowed to have snap or Instagram


Or Twitter


Or reddit


i legit dont snap anyone else but ppl on this server now; ;


Or tik tok


i mean its alri


i only use snap and discord


like only two things i use


Not allowed to have discord either


Have it anyway


what


Too important to my life that Im just going to give it up


why?


Im not allowed to talk to random people


Cant do anything public


Have to have my mic muted in all public Matches


i mean ur parents probablt just care about u


They do but theyre just strict


maybe talk to them about it


They caught me playing games when I wasnt supposed to and now I cant play video games anymore


Cuz I get all As I can use my phone strictly from 36pm


u gotta talk to them about it and see cause complain won't solve anything just have a talk with them and see their point and u show them urs


Oh that wont work


They Claim I have an addiction but lets be honest all kids my age dont wanna be without games


The amount of money Ive invested in games and not to mention the time is so much


Probably spent more than S2k


honestly the only thing to do is talk to them


u may say its not gonna work


but talking with them and having a good connection with ur parents is good


Ive lost their trust” by doing exactly what I did recently so many times its kinda impossible


They think Im better without all of that stuff


They think I have more fun without that stuff


Theyre wrong


This is my only senctuary


The only place that I really enjoy myself


they talk to them


literally there is that only direction


They wouldnt understand my dad would just say something like this wasnt what I was expecting out of parenting. Such immature behavior.” And my mom would just sit back and do nothing but say mhm” from time to time


Precisely what Ive had to deal with


All my life


Never been allowed to have devices in my room, always had to ask to do anything on a device whether it be checking my grades playing Minecraft with my friends or watching anime


Not even allowed to use the tv in my room anymore


They dont trust me


For example I have to get off for the day or my ass is grass in five minutes


IKR


Simple fix, get Spotify premium


so basically ahhaha so how bout what if it wasnt


Tw: ED, Medication, and Self Harm


Our body used to never be overweight. Then we switched antidepressants. It would make us ravenous to the point where we had to eat a meal size every 3 hours, otherwise wed feel immense pain in our stomach. That medication gained us 20 pounds in a month. Were off of it now but we never lost those 20 pounds back. Since quarantine started, weve only gotten heavier. Were 53 and 175 pounds. We weigh ourselves every day. We fight a lot of anorexicthoughts before each meal. Ultimately we usually end up eating but I know that we have been teetering on the edge for a long time. If it werent for the fact that our family eats dinner at the table together each night theyd see us not eating anything, wed surely have become anorexic by now. Its hard to fight. Over the years weve had many anorexic friends and weve helped them through that, but its so difficult to deal with for ourselves..


maybe u should take to ur parents


get it checked out


ik in the situation we are in its kinda hard to work on our body


i gained like 15 pounds


but just to do some workouts every few days


i ate like SO MUCH this quartintine oh my god


ya its cause we have nothing to do but eat


it happened to me before


Alright. I might try to do that NoPoint. Its just so difficult when all my brain wants to do is starve


it was a pain but it takes away to get back in shape


i've dealt with my weight a lot


i've always been told i look to skinny


ya maybe just talk to ur parents and see what u can do


Alright..


peachfizz i wish that was me


im too big


maybe do some workouts every now and then


im a thicc bro


go outside for a walk


it's the diet i'm forced into:p


my mom has me on a strict diet for my model classes


but i have been trying to do some workouts and going on a bike ride everyday


i do some chores are shit to help


Omg are you signed to an agency Sofia


nope! not yet


How tall are you


i'm kinda 5'7 ish


Thats a good height especially for cameras


yes i do some photo shoots


i have a vent


nice


well this vent is for sad people


ok im done


wah


i vented


u join the server and go to vent?


i mean


what else is there to vent about


it's batman so ofc he's sad


his parents are dead


btw Beezow DooDoo ZpittybopBopBop can u go to deletedchannel and deletedchannel


the fact imma be super tall when im fully grown because my entire Italian side of the family is over 6'3


thats all i can vent abt


ok


what that server


is there cookie


what


no cookies here


there no cookie but i do what it tell me


imma hit my head on all doors


sad


why


i turned 13 like 2 months ago and im 6 feet tall


so sad


damn


i mean being tall is not bad


doctor says imma be between 6'4 and 6'9


ik a dude who is like 14 15 and he is like 6'11


i dont wanna be behemoth man


i think i'm still growing


i know imma be hairy as well


im an italian


its just how the body works man


idk how to tell u


ik


i like hairy tho


and tall


im not venting


this is what i call a party


o


lets go to chat then


yay


Ok I need some proper advice here please


So there was a girl I was going to ask out but then we had to go into iso and I said to her wait until iso over and then we could go out but we really drifted in iso and today was our first day back and shit was really awkward but she was taking it like we were dating and all that stuff


Its to late


I told her


Oh well whats done is done


Wack


i am scared


why


i have


urine infection


wee


COOKIES?


DSVAKS


somtimes i cant put into words how much i appriciate something


cool art


Child


Like an adult but younger and less mature and known as a child


i wish i could be consistent with my personality


I know what you mean


some people r like super nice and toughtfull. i try to be but sometimes i just wanne say something mean bc some people are really toxic or i just wanne joke about certain controversial stuff. i try to stop this but i cant help it, bc its part of my personality?


tl;dr i try to be a bloomer, but being a doomer is part of my personality


i don't think ur a doomer


everyone should be themself


themselves


and if u want to change urself then u do u but not for the purpose of others


im an actuall doomer xd, have u seen my pfp before i ame in


hmm, but if not being nice is part of my personality, should i also not do it?


instead of nice i should say cheerful


sry


its alri


what im saying is u should choose who u wanna be


You can be nice without being cheerful tho


can i have a scenario pls


like u don't always have to be nice


its ok to be mean sometimes its not a bad thing


and being mean is a kinda a big term


opinion and mean are two different things


true


ya


being mean is like saying things to people cause u want to and u want them to feel bad ig


oh ye true


NoPoint so wise:0


so all im saying is u be u


also thank u, yeah


thx NoPoint


np fred


anytime


whats todays special? listening to a song from like 2009 about a breakup while thinking about a girl who probably doesnt miss me.


is that non gmo?


Doing that right now bro I feel you


If u need to talk Im here tho


ever just sat in class and wondered why u r the only who doesnt understand it


yep


Yes


yes.


sometimes i just want people to stop believing in me, bc i'll let their hopes up


U wanna talk about it


I kinda have that problem because Im not smart but people say I am


same


somwtimes it seems like im just being ignored tbh


Maybe you are just boring lmao


true ngl


Ouch


Very good advice


Hurts on a personal level lmao


Bruh


Nobody's boring


Unless they want to or something idk


True


More of a rant but that moment when you see a cop and start saying things like ACAB,BLM,1312 and PIG and suprising you dad also says it. Now that was epic B


amn


That was inspiring?


I cant vent here lmao


why


idk


are u alri cj?


Im okay


U good?


ya im good


Thats good


i want to


scream


and cry


but i


dont know


i do but like


wh cant i whats stopping me


well im back from not killing myself


NoPoint so movie's stopped now or what?


i mean ig i haven't really had time at the time we usually have it


hm okay then


we need to watch some comedy movies or sum like step brother'sect


or when you have the time


havent seen a comedy movie in ages


maybe we can watch forestgump?


it felt like a comedy


kinda


maybe


I dont watch movies except horror sorry


did you watch evil dead?


Yes


It was funny tho


I hate ut that u have the choice to use a car and go to city then they choose woods instead


Just realized my english got bad


ik


it's ight


i dislike it when people put me down, but then again i rather have them not believe in me then me letting them down


Deep


shallow


Its very true tho


But being put down hurts a lot


ye true


But so does being believed in and not living up to the expectations


kpop


im fine the music they put out, i even like some songs, but only their community is a little toxic


I mean people have choices on who to like and who to not sometimes u get that problem where someone dislikes u I mean doesnt mean they dont believe in u they are just having a hard time treating u as a friend u can say


oki thx


Idk how to feel. Fathers day is on my birthday. Im so excited for my birthday but its still gon be outweighed with how depresso im gonna also be that day; w;


I just want to be really happy


for that one day that im extremely happy on


his death is always gonna make things difficult.


Its alri its gonna be fine


i rant about the same things alot i realise...


thank you Simar


Its alri


We all remember things that used to make us happy


yeah exactly we all do


Just try to have fun and its ok to remember them but keep in mind that he will want u to be happy especially on ur birthday


So just have fun


Be urself


Enjoy


The fact someone can disappear so suddenly. No goodbyes no nothing, planning to wake up the next day and joke around with friends but they never do. They say goodnight to family not knowing its their last.


ya i get that a lot lately


julia I relate to this heavily. Its very scary. Little did I know the last time i would see him it would be a goodbye. I mean at least life allowed me to get some closure


Sometimes I feel invisible


why?


invisible by who?


you feel like they do or do you know?


What?


Feel like I guess


Idk I get interrupted a lot a lot


why do you think you feel like that?


with a big group it happens


People straight ignore what I say sometimes even if it isnt deliberate