Ayy


Oh wow


Imma use this a lot


AIGHT WATCH ME ACTUALLY VENT


Oh great


Wow


Why


Shush


Oop


Nasty


Kick him


Jesus


Keep going ignore him


Now i know why this doesnt exist


Yeah


Ya


As I said


Chaos


Its why we deleted last time


Do a flip


Sorry to hear that


No


Please dont


Yeet


Jezz


Stop it


Y'all chill


?ban Linh rule 19


Talking like this


Zamn


Thats pretty gay


Disappointed but not surprised


Why would I be surprised


Like Im honestly kinda annoyed with yall because me and him NEVER fight like EVER now u wanna be dummies here and Im just gonna sit back n watch


This is what would definitely happen


Fuck you


Huh


not u kitten Im talkin abt my friends


thus channel shouldve never existed


This


Yeah


An I guy then lmao


I get why it got deleted


I still dont know what this channel is


Same


NoPoint


Idk


NoPoint it's made so people can go on about problems or som


Domel its just going to cause arguments


so leave this channel if u don't cate abt other peoples problems


Thank u pokecord


And ya Zeus is right


Please


Dont


this channel is made for that


Well


Well great vent


Talk to a adult not a bunch of teens online


Ikr


Oof


Omg


I sent a request DEPRESSION


O


Im sorry


Dude


Why is that funny


Stop it


Jesus


Shut up


LIYAG OH MY GOD


why is that thing here


Yikes


Ur not funny


Oh please dont


Really dont do it


Is that all of them?


Idk


nope


Doing wont fix this


Yes he was


O this one


Dude


Its not a joke


?ban bubs toxic


Thats not funny


?ban bubs bye


oh wait


No


Please


Dont leave


I got it


?ban Morgan toxic


last one I think


Greg made a bunch of dumbasses join


Idk if vibe was with them


DEPRESSION can you accept the request


If possible


He was in the server before just started being with them


might just adctually do a back flip since they actually want me to do it.


DEPRESSION no please dont


Dont jump in the first place


Please dont


i made a friend with this girl, she's older than me. lately this girl's been dming me lately asking for something.. i don't really want to go into detail. let's call her uhh.. a. she seemed really nice at first but she asked for a topless pic and well.. a is a really nice friend of mine and someone really nice i guess. we've been friends for a while and yea. i told her it made me uncomfortable and stuff. then a sent me a dick pic.. i just don't know what to do anymore.


Oof


That happened to me once


I just blocked them


He was a weirdo


What


Ya thats acc a good one


painting is so fun


Huh


Perfect vent


I think this was a mistake to make this channel


Same


Idk man


At least it got the other people banned


Yeah


Finally peace


What happened to her?


To who


Did she go for the time


Umm


Idk the pretty gay


Thats


Cant spell her name


Depression?


That


Her


Him


Idk


They


Damn


I hope she didnt actually do anything dumb


Yeah


The way she was talking was really serious


Yeah same I messaged her/him/they


Yeet


yeah


Oh


Yay


There you are


Bruh


they were all in vc together


Were they all joking


What


Wow


They have no life i see


Yes


Well


Suicide


Wait they are


Thought about it once


Was actually gonna jump once


Then


I re thought it


And now I am here


nopoint go to staff chat


I did


Oof


Im totally fineee


Im not gonna die anytime soon


I think


Good


Life is going well for now


Thats good if you need to talk to anyone we are here


I did do something I really regretted


Thanks


Thats pretty gay


Zeus


Shush


One time I got cut by a cardboard box


Then


Bad idea came to mind


Oh


Oops


I started cutting


Yeah


Its all good now


Got 6 weeks so far


Since I havent


Life is well


Now I have a good thing to distract me


Girls be crazy


No


All of us are


True


Like just dont care what other people think


Cant do that


I do


Care


About


That


Yes


Same


Need to look pretty


Need to be smart


Need to be up to the standards


Yep


I need to


Why


Or I get yelled at


Huh


Dunno


Its just my mindset as well


I just do


And I get judged


So I cant just not care


Like I dont care but i care at the same time


You girls are the ones judging each other


Im not


Im saying in general


I know


But this comes from


My family


And those eyes at school


true we don't


Ya he has a point


If your mom was actually supportive she wouldnt care


My brain isnt working


Can you explain more


What do you guys have against kpop


Facts tho


Its just music


RinNakunatta nothing against kpop


it's the fanbase


Yeah the fans are wack


I guess


Ye


Facts


I like the music


How


Same with jpop


Both are good


How can you like something you cant understand


some people like different music emil


sorry zeus not emil


i'm dumb


Its just something to jam to


When Im not sad


I mean everyone has their own music taste


Yeah


yep


yo nopoint alex is in main


See but you dont understand we do everything to make our moms happy but they just never see past it. They always just focus on the failure and they never congratulate us on the good we do they never point it out, they just say we can do better and move on. They are so picky about everything and my mom wants to control every little aspect of my life and Im over it. Anyways thanks for coming to my TED talk


hey man boys have problems like that too but we handle our problems differently


Then explain


Please Id love to hear about this


Like actually


zeus help me out here


Not being sarcastic


wait did he go offline


Id like to hear


ok kitten i get your sarcasm


Not trying to make this an argument


I cant cry


i used to not be able to


Then shes like why are your eyes so baggy


And makes you look bad


and kim i know how you feel


like i haven't told y'all my background at all so like i'm just saying boys handle things differently than girls


Mhm


that's it not trying to cause an argument or anything


Yeah I get it


Its whatever I always keep my feelings bottled up I never express how I feel to anyone because I dont like bothering them. So I just keep all my problems to myself which I know is not good


Kim u will never bother me


I had no one to talk to about this


you should definitely not fo that kim


do


damn fat finger


Till I met lee and Val and Sam


Gotta love them


Ill always hear ur problems and listen and try to comfort u as best as possible Kim


Kim possible


Call me reach me


I forgot the rest


Whats the stich


Sorry


Anywaysss moving on yall dont need to hear my sad boi hours


No its fine


Kim possible Yee yee


This why we are here


I would hear anything from u


Support


I guess


no kim talk about your sad boi hours


that's what we're here for


Mhm


Kimmyy tell us


No Ill just keep this one night to myself


Okay


Well just know we are here


Thank you


Id like to get better at this help thing


Kim Ill always be here for u maybe u dont want to say it its fine but we, I will always be here with open arms


Oop


How so nopoint


If you met me irl you would be surprised


You never talked before about your problems


Yet you talk about it vaguely


bruh that ain't always a bad thing


Id like to move up the ranks at my school


I know its dumb


But like


Its fun


being the quiet one isn't a bad thing


like that's probably a good thing


Quiet me all the time with my friends


I just sit there like a doll


Being the quiet is bad cause ur like the mute of the group


Lifeless


Listening to them talk


that's not bad nopoint


i'm also the quiet one of my group


I think its so weird


I open up to people online


And not my real life friends


Like I know they care about me from a previous occasion


Wait what


But I still dont open up


Greg the quiet one?


yes


in my group i am


Interesting


Crying is fun


Same with hyperventilating


And shaking


Thats the best part


Lmao


Gotta love the shaking


Ok kitten whats wrong


ok yeah


Nothing much


Just


that's obviously not true


I know


Just what


yeah


just what


Umm


tell us


Life


bruh


Life is a big term


Sadly


narrow it down


But I know I cant end it know


Now


But sometimes


I just want to jump and be free


do you have a therapist?


Nope


you should get one if you can


I dont trust the counselors either


Yeah I will never be able to get one


why not


Yeah


Christians get help from God


that's not how it works at all


My mom thinks depression isnt a real thing and that people have it to get attention


parents like that are dumb


Ill


greg to my parents yes


But I thgouht it did


Hi yall


So


Kitten


basically he's saying that nothing good comes without hardship


Ummm ya ig


You dont have to stop because letting out how you feel is good and health


y


fuck


Hmmm?


Or just spill it out and be able to take advice


Ngl I want to go outside and scream right now


Yeah


If I cant cut might as well do something not to dangerous


REEE


no


definitely not how that should work


Kitten ur still really young u still got a lot to learn you know what Im still young I actually dont know a shot about life and I wanted to kill myself too but like I couldnt cause whats the point of ending now if there is more to live on for


Ngl I just want to run away


Might help


probably won't


cause where would you go


Hmm


To Texas


Just need the money


To get there


Running wont solve anything


Well dying wont either


It just brings more pain and grief


Why


I dont want to see my mom and sister anymore


Same with dad


U do want to see them ur just having that moment where u think they dont want u but they do


Im telling you family means a lot


But that moment happens a lot


yeah you might not want to but it's a better idea to just live it through with them instead of leaving them


And running from that will really screw someone over


My sister and mom are just always happy together


Mom yells at me


I guess


think about it like this if you leave now your odds of never having to deal with them is a lot lower than it will be if you wait it out


Huh


Ok kitten idk if this is a right question to ask but maybe try understanding why ur mom does what she does and it shouldnt be cause she hates u cause she loves and will protect u cause thats what mothers do


i understand how you feel kitten but trust me you'll do better if you wait it out


Its weird


I never talk to my friends like this in irl but one time I did and I kind of liked it


But I dont k ow


Know


The counselors make me anxious


it's harder face to face because they can see you and see you react and see that vulnerability online they can't see you or touch you


Yeah


i understand how you feel


i basically can't tell people anything in person


i've tried to before and i physically couldn't speak


Oof


same


Last time I did


I cried


And ended up on the floor shaking


That was funnn


Felt weak


Like my wall fell


see i would cry if i did but i can't allow myself to cry infront of others so i can't do it


And I did not like that


no one does


it's not fun to feel like that


Mhm


Yeah


Ge


H


Oops


you should


Night yall


it'll help


Night


night


Oke nighty night


my dog is crying


sadness is taken away


right


one thing my dad told me is


Yeah?


Oof uhm an awkward vent, but like ya wanna know what's fun not being able to good, but like acting happy to try and get some piece of mind even tho what's troubling you won't leave your head


Don't mind me oof


Yeah


yes


I hate that feeling


Yeah or like feeling ashamed and just thinking how you could've prevented something, but being told you weren't doing anything and you just think then why did it happen


yep


I accidentally kissed someone


What?


what


Fun


How do you do that anyway


Like you say you slipped


Idk


yeah weird huh


weird


Ha


Damn Im level 27


Pretty exciting


im level uh


Oop


im lvl 49


Level 11


Rank 46


rank 2


Rank 47


level 13


OOO shiny new channel to use mah therapist powers in


Mwahahaha...'ight


Lmao


buttons read up top


Help me


Wait what where


OOO!


Theres a vent chat? Why am I just hearing of this?


RinNakunatta read up top where?


A h


Mmkay hang on...


RinNakunatta


Talk to me


Yeah?


Maybe


Just speak to us:


I used to do that. God, did it turn out to be one of the worst things Ive ever done


The other one was almost killing myself


Itll only turn out so much worse for you in the end


In lif


E


Aight im good


I am going to get anger put


out


i dont got anger tho


Yeah


I stopped like 6 weeks ago with the cutting


Tried to jump out me window


Bad idea


Luckily I didnt do it


Ha


Re thought my choices


Havent really had any suicidal thoughts in a while but for cutting on the other hand


I want to do it


Then I usually stop myself


Like I have the blade in my hand and Im like what would Lee think I would have e failed her


And all my progress


I made


Gone down the drain


I have cut my hand before


And thought about doing it


I was literally looking through the house for a spot


But Im fine now


Im glad


i dropped my tuna salad on the floor


im sorry :


huh


cCC


ac


oop


am sad


am sorry :


dang


im hopeless


i wish


i can


How do y'all know when someone is the one


Bruh


umm


idk


im only 13


yeah


well


when it is perfect


When your mine craft gf has her redrawn point at someone else's house


Jk


But how do you get it to be perfect


OwO


AAAggghhh


Damn that felt good


Are there Japanese or Chinese people in this server


i think


Okay


I guess I kinda could say it cause its the vent server but her goes nothing


45 what u mean


44 ignore the number


Im tired and angry


43 its how many texts till i level up


42 why


Because


Idk


41 say what is on ur ming right now


F just realised my window open


Thats not it


40 okay


Brb closing window


39 play


38 okay


37 IWHDIWBDKDNSPXN


Gee 36 MIGHT WANNA DELETE IT THO


BAHABIDBWIDN


trye


True


34 JDBWSBDISN


Couldnt you just say the number then send


what u mean


like 32


then okay


30 or what


Like that


26 okay


Oh my god the creators central Minecraft server is down Im thinking of dying rn


Literally was the only fun thing to do


And its gone


Wtf


yes we need minecraft back


Do you ever just do something wrong and then the entire chat gets mad at you so you move to another in hopes that none of them find you and you can wallow in sadness


No not really but it must be rough


I really need a higher self esteem


And I get that failing to be funny can be annoying, but to someone with as bad humor and as unlike able as me, its hard to not get a warning


I really just find it hard to believe In myself


But thats reasonable because there isnt much that I can do


And personally, I dont think I deserve the life Ive been given. Theres no reason for me to have this good of a life if all Ive done is complain and not help. I dont deserve all the friends that I have


And you know what sucks? Almost everyone spams at the end of there messages in what I can only assume is an attempt at being funny, but as soon as I forget my joke, granted I did say that that was the end of the joke, but that was just a coverup, I get a warning


I make ONE bad joke and everyone is on my tail, but they spam, which is also against the rules, and they get away with it


Huh


I thought this is what venting is


it is


But who am I to say anything? Im just some kid in his room


I havent seen ONE of them getting a warning


And you know, Im very disconnected to my own mind, maybe Im secretly doing this for attention, who knows?


Who are they


Almost everyone in the main chat


JUST LOOK AT HOW MUCH OF AN IDIOT I AM. I MISUNDERSTOOD AN ENTIRE CONVERSATION THAT OTHERS WERE HAVING THAT DIDNT INCLUDE ME. THAT WAS NOT MY BUSINESS. WHY DID I DO THAT


And Im trying to get rid of these narcissistic habits, but I just cant


You know, maybe this quarantine is helping me. Its letting me reflect on all of my mistakes and try my best to fix them


honestly i think you're overeacting


like you didn't do anything wrong


This happens every time I fail to do something


you didn't fail to do anything


I just reflect on my entire life and all my mistakes


you literally didn't fail at anything


Yes, but I messed up, and to me, that has the same effect as failing


no


stop


just cause you mess up one thing doesn't mean you're dumb


honestly there's nothing wrong with messing up not being perfect is better


Yes, I can agree with that, but if you mess up so many times and get ridiculed for each one, it makes the next one hit harder


Bruh, if you fail, you can learn from that failure and then improve and be better. If you never fail then you'll never achieve anything either.


Thats the thing, I dont improve. I never improve, no matter how hard I try


Okay.. what you have tried differently after each failure? Have you changed your mindset from I can't do this no matter what to something like. Maybe if I try it this way it'll work. My guess is you haven't.


Nope, I have


it doesn't seem like it


Uh you haven't cause you just said right now'I never improve, no matter how hard i try


Instead of thinking about how many times you've tried and failed, think about what you can do differently that will help. You can't wallow in selfpity if you want to improve. I know it's difficult, but it's a must if you want to be improving with whatever you are doing, no matter what it is.


seems like to me you just started to ridicule yourself instead of thinking positive


Thinking positively when you've ben told bad things an insulted for whatever you're doing, is extremely difficult.


yes i'm aware i dealt with the same thing


I do try to think positive, I really do! But my mind is stuck in such a dark space that I keep getting dragged back


all i wanted was to be happy


and now im in my bed crying


and whys that


about how the world would be different if i wasnt there


and how happy people would feel


without dealing with me


ok stop right there


I've been there myself, so I don't really blame you. Try focusing on improving things you already can do decently so you don't fail nearly as much, rather than try to do new things that you cannot do. This way you'll gain some selfconfidence back little by little. Take small steps with your mindset to improve it. Instead of going from where you are now, which is like.. I'll never be able to do anything well to I can do this easily in terms of mindset. Go from the I'll never be able to do anything well to just accepting slowly things you cannot do and focusing on things you can do. If you can do this you'll be a lot happier in life.


Uhhh


there are plenty of people that enjoy you being here peachfizz


i know its just that i dont feel that way to myself


and why's that


peachfizz I shall tell you right now, even if people seem like they wouldn't care, they care a lot more than you think.


i hope thats true


it definitely is


my parents wouldnt be divorced if i wasnt here


that's definitely not true


Your friends and your family care deeply about you


my friends wouldnt have to deal with me and my whole crazy life


Dont blame their actions on you


and who says they don't enjoy your life


what if to them you're one of the reasons they can have fun every day


Your friends enjoy your company


ok that's not always true


I've tried to commit suicide 14 times now. I stopped because on my last attempt I almost died and when i woke in the hospital bed after a week of being in a coma. I had 20 people gathered around my bed, People who I thought hated me cause they didn't treat me well, and people who i cared and so on. My best friend told me this quote.


When you commit suicide, all you are doing is giving your pain x10 to those who care about you.


i have that thought sometimes that im not enough


people expect more in me


there is no such thing as enough


You ARE enough


People love you for who you are


its the same thing as perfect there's nothing perfect either


i should live up to peoples expectations and be perfect


but i cant


then live up to your own


what's the fun in being perfect


so i sit in my small room and cry about it knowing it will never change while have a very bad fever and my family not caring


Even if people don't seem like they care, they do. Many of us, as human nature, don't know how to communicate well. Everyone is hiding their feelings at some point and possibly still are., The only way you'll ever understand people is if you talk to those.


Everyone has expectations put on them, you do not have to follow them, instead talk to those who put those expectations on you and tell them what you need to have happen. Just be a little open and trust those who know you well.


i just feel to overwhelmed trying to be perfect


perfect means you lose that satisfaction of feeling the achievement of success and life will become very boring


Hey, I just had a conversation about this, and I learned, theres no need to be perfect, you can make your mistakes, but those who truly care will still be there for you


you shouldn't be perfect


Being perfect is impossible for anyone. Get that word out of your head.


exactly


what about being normal


normal is fake too


who is really normal


i'm not normal


Well.. normal categorizes people, but you should just be you


but what does being normal mean


Normal is.. very subjective


It means fitting in, but that doesnt mean that normal is a goal


it means to me feeling like you have control of your life


That's an unusual definition of normal...


what normal person has control


most people don't


Cause literally roughly 80 of people from a study I saw a while ago feel like they don't have control of their lives.


Youre not supposed to have control over life


In reality less than 1 do


only people like monks have control


The ONLY people who have full control of their lives are the extremely rich.


Even then its not fully controlled


Benji that's not always true either


people who are rich probably aren't in full control either


Wait whered she go


sorry i had a little fight with my mom


Sorry to get in to your business, and if you dont want to talk about it you dont have to, but what was it about?


i did something i cant take back


i had a knife and i cut a few spots around my body


ill send some pics if thats okay


No no no its ok


if you really want i guess you can


yo we got another creator


okay i just didnt think you would believe me


No we believe you.


the dude that joined has 103k subs on youtube


wow


But harming yourself is never the correct option


who?


wait


WHO?


many flames away


im not going to send them


sorry


its ok


Ok, first, what caused you to go down into this dark spiral of depression?


peachfizz? Are you ok?


im fine


its my parents divorce


they got divorced 2 years ago


And you believe yourself to be the cause?


and the years that my sisters went off to College


i had no one and nobody


sometimes i do


they were never satisfied


Let us start there. It wasnt your fault your parents split or that your sister went to college


Your sister wanted a better education and there was probably already a problem in your parents relationship


thats when it all started


None of this was because of you


i dont believe so


Given your role, you were at least 11 when they split


i was 14


Usually if theres a split because of a child, it happens right after or before they are born


it was more heath problems


One of your parents had health problems or was it you?


my father


Ok, so was the split because they couldnt cover the hospital bills?


my dad smoke every night


So lung cancer?


no


no serious problems


my mom was worried for his heath


And there was my major point. See how we havent talked about you at all so far? The split was because of a problem in your parents relationship


thats true


So why do you blame yourself?


i feel like they would be happier without me


How would they be happier?


Or rather, why would they be happier?


So many people are depressed here crying is ohhecc is I am


Well, Im taking up an unofficial therapist role, so if you have any problems, do tell


Okay


am i feeling lonely? do i deserve to be ignored?


nooo


no.


Oh my


Hot


Wait what


I am


Hehe


Ok, not to like go against the mods ideals, but who came up with the if youre not funny you get silenced” rule. Literally all you have to do is tell them that they arent being funny and 90 of the time, theyll stop what theyre doing


Being funny depends on how other people think and people have different things that they find funny, and forcing them to be funny by other peoples standards doesnt let them be themselves, and I get that it can get annoying, but people try to be funny for attention, so you dont need to ridicule them for not meeting your


Wait


Gubbi


Can we talk about why my staff was removed cause I woke up this morning without any explanation and Im still a little confused


In dms


oh my


why


Left unanswered


yup


OwO


Damn


My tallie


Is


Adorable


idk man


just not my day today


including the voice call at 4 am lmao


i mean thats just u tired asf


and its just one day


husband?


don't u have a wife


tf


also like


yeah i know


but still


weird day


maybe just go relax or take a break for the day


i kinda live here lmao


you know what


not a bad idea Nopoint


i'll think about it


I have been on here everyday for the past few weeks


I have been here since I first join


Damn


I wouldve missed three or four days since I first joined


Vibe with me in music


I cant


i have both


what?


my ice cream melted


Awww


Hope you get more


rip


I hate when ice cream kinda drips onto ur fingers so now your fingers are sticky


ikr


bro thats deep


i just realized he's forgotten about me, why does that bother me so much. I dont care, right? ugh.


Ok first ur not being annoying


Second its fine to miss it, you havent been there for over a month and I get that


U just miss people around u and actually doing something instead of staying home


I really do feel like I'm being annoying, but ya know. /


Ok there were a lot of spelling mistakes and idk why but ya


But thanks nopoint


Ur not being annnoying


Saying how u feel doesnt make u annoying


Ig it's more than just being stuck inside, but me and my roomates started crying when we realized we had to leave each other for a while


We where basically told pack all you're things, it's last minute, but ya gotta leave


Ya that is understandable


By tonight


Which was like


I mean think of it as a summer vacation


Only its longer and more boring


Too late, already got insane pretty much


But I get what ya mean, thanks simar buddy


I mean I think most of us have gone insane


Essentially, I gave up on driving with glasses on


And np haki Its always nice to talk to u


i have not gone insane


And jumped into the lake behind my house with clothes on


just so you know


I mean there is not much we can do in quarantine


Definitely weird seeing my parents everyday now tho


Same


I essentially gave up on quarentine


I've been all over Missouri


And lowkey Kansas, cause I got lost


i'm used to this so it's easy for me


I havent gone insane Im just even more bored then before


i usually stay inside by myself


man this is normal to me


Ya moving is always a plan


my level of contact with people outside of school is 0


I've spoken to 7 people from school this whole month


Unless Im asked to go somewhere or do something which is like really rare Im chilling at home


Actually nvm


no but now you're more bored this is actually less boring for me


I have spoken to 1 person from my school thats it


people don't talk to me outside of school so


Honestly I think for me if I didnt have music I would have gone insane so long ago


i think on average i only talk to people outside of school on the weekends when i play my xbox


Music is nicw


Yes it is nice


Same I dont usually talk to people outside myself, unless Im playing like a video game or something


Veri nice


Ya same


i mean this is more contact than i get on average so


This is the most friends I have gotten in a long while


I'm use to being surrounded by a ton of people on campud


Or just my friends randomly busting into my dorm room


So having minimal contact with people regardless if I don't usually talk to people is odd


i have a shit ton of friends they just don't consider me a close friend so they don't talk to me


Um I think only contact for me is just my friends at school we only talk at school, and rarely we would talk after school or something


Lmao I tend to get pretty close to people irl, like me and my roommates are too comfortable with each other, she walks in while I'm in the shower to sing to music with me


Or like we both walk around in our underwear hyping each other up


Thats actually a great bond


It really is


Probably why I miss them all so much


i miss my dog and xbox


that's what i miss


Ya that makes sense


Um is it bad I dont miss anything


well you live at your own house nopoint i had to move across the country to live with my uncle


I tend to have no regrets and stuff so


I mean not really


otherwise i would agree


Yeah true, you do live at home oof


see i don't live at home i'm living with my uncle and i don't have my xbox or my dog


Oof


yeah


that's the only thing i miss


if i could live with my dog and xbox i would


I mean understandable tho


yep


but only my xbox and dog nobody else in the house


Mood


bruh there are bare people that love you, it doesn't only have to be in a gf/bf relationship, there are friend bonds, family bonds and so many other bonds that can make u happy and cheerful


Thanks nopoint


A fly hit my eye and now my eyes is leaking some liquid


I dont mean to be rude or anything but I have the best relationship with a friend and I dont know how to explain it but we make each other happy and i would hate to lose it


So you need to look for the friends who are real not fake


Short rant;


Dated this girl for 2 years. had a lot of firsts with her. Things ended on not so good terms. Dated like 34 girls after her for short periods of time.


At the end of the day, I only miss her. When I think of a relationship, I can only think of her and I.


We had broken things off and then gotten back together in the past, so part of me thinks there's still a chance of us getting back together.


Roommate kept her added on snapchat. Recently told me she's been with a new guy for a few months, has been drunk and high on her story, dropped out of college. Things have totally gone downhill for her since I last saw her. Meanwhile things have gotten a lot better for me.


Still miss her regardless. but now I know going back to her isn't possible anymore because apparently she's changed significantly as a person, the girl I knew is pretty much gone now.


So I just kinda sit and sulk in lockdown knowing it's going to be a long time before I find anyone like her again


: awh


Honestly kris same for me like a year or 2 i have been so heart broken from my first and always thought what if i go back but im fine where im at i just gotta look forward and find the thing that once filled my heart with hope and love to support and care with people around me and im sure one day you will find someone much better then her and will give u the support and care you need in ur life just gonna wait a bit and things will get better


You guys are lucky at least you dated for more that two weeks


And dated other people


i mean how many relationships have u been in gee?


One


Im otg tho


But we arent going to date because quarantine


whats otg?


So Im just good friends


On the go


o


i mean thats good at least


Yeah but I still miss the other one


I liked my ex so much more than this girl but its just because we talked heaps in class


i mean we all miss how ex's its pretty normal


Ive still liked my ex for nearly a year now after breakup but Im basically over her


The most annoying this was I dont even know why she broke up


did u ask her?


So I was doubting myself Im different ways then I was depressed because I was pointing out all the bad things in me


Yeah I asked


so she didn't tell u why she broke up with u


No she had excuse but I could tell it was fake


Guaranteed it was fake


ok give me 1 min ill be back and we can talk about it


Okay


Ok sorry I had to switch from pc to phone


And u shouldnt blame yourself mate


Im not anymore


I have changed so much I know this is said a lot but its true


I put others before me so much and if someone wants to buy me something I look for a cheaper one I like


Ya I do that too


I always try to make others feel more special then myself and thats ok but u gotta take care of urself too


so do u simar


I do but I get caught up with school work so much


Usually the best time to clear ur head is early morning or late at night if u ever think too much on ur mind go for a walk have a long walk and think or if ur more of a person thst you want to say or like rant about how u feel like talk to someone u trust and Im sure they will help and support u


Thing is tho that I only have two friends I really trust because the others try to be funny by being rude


Thats why I like going on discord because I can talk to people like you


What I mean by trust I meant angone it could be online or real life


Just someone u trust and that will support u if u want to express ur feelings


I dont like talking to people about all that stuff though


Im not depressed or anything its just Im stuck


Then u just need a push


Talking to people about how u feel and support from others will help you a lot but the biggest thing is to love yourself mate


I guess its just because recently I found out I may have to move back to an old school of mine


The school is messed up


The school u mean the people in the school like the students?


The students basically all have mullets


You can search it up if u want


St Marys high school tas


There a kids younger that my little sister 7 who have mullets


How so?


Messed up kids


Oh nvm I was lagging


Nice


Well just dont go near those kids


Leave them


Its gonna be hard not to


Some of them are old mates of mine from when I was 58


Or something


Im not at the school yet but I know one or two people who I can hang with


Guess time will tell whether they like me or not


I got enough hair to get a mullet though


U gonna get a mullet?


no mullet


yes mullet


maybe mullet


No mullet


Doubt I will


If I get one I will send u pic


But literally no other hairstyle fits


Damn rip


So gee is there anything else u wanna talk about?


Or anyone wanna talk about anything?


I got to go bye


No its fine thanks for the talk


sesame streeet


Np later gee


Nobody watches clone wars here


I do


Did


Better watch it more


Season 7 includes big good


Big sad


Big epic


Damn


Well


I hope you do


Oshs


Yes


Yeah its understandable


Almost a year


Yeah me too


this is so sad


Nvm


i have never heard someone say that


crime?


LMAO


Time


My new gf just broke up with me


assuming doesnt mean much because she was new


stop


your not allowed links anyway


NoPoint


dont try to ping everyone


BRUH


that first image


?warn Unknown tried to @ everyone


sorry i had to go eat


you may have food poisoning that happened to me before


when i had food poisoning


still could


i had mine for about two weeks


Is there any adult you can talk to?


It's important to have a support system


A friend's parent?


No one?


If you can maybe tell your parents


I'm sorry Kitten


You should still tell your parents if you can


im sorry that i can't do more kitten and i just want you to be happy and well


No point guess what I got in pokemon


what


Go into it


I have no place here but I hope everyones okay


everyone has a place here


Thank you


not even a role just everyone is special in their own way


Hey is everything okay with you kitten


Yea what is wrong


thats good that someone is bringing you happiness


Well I only hope that it will turn out good and you will find happiness


but you shouldn't always have to need someone to make you happy, you should be happy on your own cause your an amazing and awesome persona


Its a weird thing happinesses


You have it then you dont


ok everyone has their way of being happy


You should watch Instructions to Happiness Exurb1a


It may not help but I like it a lot


He's a youtuber


Cool cool


Sometimes it's hard to find happiness on your own and having someone with you to help guide you to happiness can help. Not using them to be happy but learning to be happy from being around them


Sometimes it's hard to love yourself


and Sometimes it's nice to have some by your side to help you


Life is temporary which is a super scary thought


But if it can be helped we should try to do the things we love with the people we love and not dwell on feeling shit


This entire conversation reminds me of the pursuit of happiness


How so?


That's good. It's hard to be happy sometimes and getting help is nothing to be ashamed of


Go to sleep


Go to sleep have a long nice sleep


And u can decide then what to do


Kitten u cant always just work late its not good


That is a possibility yes


Ya


No


I dont want u to die


Plz


Tru is a good start


Try


Noice


Thats good


Ikr


I saw to people how life will have bumps but once u get to the point it will be amazing and I think thats true but for me right now its going really slow and everyday it gets slower and slower and somethings Ill be like damn life really doesnt want me at that point


You will get there


Sometimes it gets slow sometimes it speeds up sometimes it will feel like itll take forever but its all worth it when you get there


Dont give up simar


Maybe


You will if you give up now youll never get there so dont give up


Keep going


Keep pushing through it


Youll get there


Is just me or when I have a problem I just say bruh” and try to ignore it


Hello


Ever just want to yeet yourself at something or off something


Yes


If your feeling down I suggest watching old care home with 4 year olds on iview its really interesting


Okie


Where is everyone


Late night depressing music hits different


It really does


U got any songs


I got none


Anything from joji


Joji is bae


Huh


Hey kitten


jajaj


Everywhere


everything


everyone


my cat slaps me and i do not like it


wow so disrespectful


Ok my girlfriend won't answer me until like a month later after I text her and I tried to text to say you know I don't think we're dating anymore but she won't even answer that aaa


sorry to say but that aint your gf anymore


Lmao Tech Deck. Damn


I understand that


I don't want her to be my gf if she won't even take the time out of her day to fucken answer me


good


no one deserves someone who doesnt pay the slightest attention to them


Thats good


depressed music while playing


thats nice to hear


She was really nice so I was trying to be the nicest I could in the break up text but like I'm physiclly unable to be mean


just ghost her back idk


I already sent her the text theres no going back from that


Nope she literally doesn't open my snaps for like a month so in a month ill tell you guys what she said


Yeah she ignores that I have sent her a chat for about a month and then she finally opens it and we have a short conversation


I hope I wasn't getting cheated on or however you say that


I friend zoned her and if she was cheating on me then I'm not even going to give that


Oh your fine


But she really isn't the one that really would cheat


34 maybe 5 months


Sorry I was talking to my friend and seeing if she respected my decisions


uh


hey u got 30S tho


O I hope u feel better kris


Anyone else have annoying old habits


Okay den just me


Well anyway Im going to get rubber band and whenever I do that habit Im going to pull it and snap myself


yes i do


i used to selfharm a lot and well just know, if you ever need someone to talk to about that. im here.


I used to have small pp


No I dont think its what you blurred but idk


rubber


I just realized that Im gonna die and everything I do is pointless and each day I get closer to death


thats why you have to cherish everyvmoment


Geez


Hope its okay


Wait what


I mean Im sure he is fine and there is nothing u can do to know if he is busy or not


He could be doing something


Can I ask who


What was the note about?


Ok well it sounds like it but Im sure he is fine, usually people that make it dramatic dont really do it not that Im judging or something but just try to think he is fine just taking a break cause u cant do anything if ur behind a screen


Thats sounds a lot like me...especially rn but um Im fine Ill be fine Im not leaving the world not yet at least


Im sorry


Wtf


I am so sorry


You shouldnt have to deal with that


Damn


Oh?


I dont think so


maybe


Yeah


Oh damn


Thats messed up


If you could come live with me I would let you


Ok


Yeah?


Because man this is getting real and sad


Wow


Damn im sry. Mines pretty stuck up


i really want to say things here but im too scared


Yeah well i dont like my mom looking for bc me and my friend be trading juuls


Well a boys got do stuff to get though quarantine


Clone wars sad


Big sad


What


I will educate you


In spam


Sleep


Go sleep


You


Although I'm guessing you're already sleeping


Good


i lag


Huh


my discord is so slow today


demote emil for inactivity


i mean its not his fault


dusjdhhjf


its alri to be sad sometimes


its an emotion thats all


everyone is sad and sometimes sad goes to happy


It doesn't ever seen to get better tho I've been sad for months now


do u know why?


No I just am sad all the time for no excact reason my life isn't even bad so I don't know why


Im the same way


it could be mood swings?


Idk


maybe check it out


thanks


so my friend told me he was homophobic. and is now making fun of me. telling people i should go die. that i should just be be myself. i might just not talk anymore. theres not much i can do.


Oof


oof really?


thats horrible and i honestly dont know what to say but u need to stop talking to him and and remove him ur social media


Im not


Yeah what presentated said


Ignore him. Hes just trying to get under your skin.


How


it doesnt matter


And what will he do?


dont let him hurt u


Just dont talk to the person anymore


no rachel he cant hurt me


Just do it legally


Then what would he do


ill tell the school that he hid drugs


fr tell the school


Well, that works too


id like to see that unfold


Well jail ruins your life sooo i mean your choice


me too man


Same


i also think he hooked up with a teacher once


OMG LMAO


OOO


scroll up


like where scroll up?


Well you would have to have proof for the teacher to be fired


Expell him don't just suspend him


Right after the cake that kitten sent


I dont see no teacher on the top


madi yes that


find it?


Yeah


Or just ignore it


would rather not bottle insults and hate up


not good


The best thing to do is ignore tho if you try to get back it will just start a war


lowk true but u arent supposed to hook up with teachers or hide drugs


so


okay so...


the kid told me to stop liking girls if your a girl” and said he was gonna give his mom my number...


Oh?


not get involved


i meant


hs


is


his


omg


yeah


itd be funny


It would


I get not liking people who like the same gender but its bad when you make fun of them


yes


Yea


so what exactly is bad abt his mom contacting u


yep


im bi but im going to live a straight life because its less problematic


They really do


presentated


Can I give up?


I really want to give up


Can someone push me off a cliff


Or I can jump to


Ive always wanted go go cliff diving anyways


Why


I mean its not like anyone would notice anyways


No one notices me enough the notice that I was gone


Not. True. Id notice.


I mean it would be easy right?


I mean people forget about me


All the time


The peop,e in the server would notice


Im just forgettable


I doubt it


No, we dont forget about you. No one does. It just doesnt happen


Please dont talk this way... Seriously. Not only is it not right, it reminds me of when I almost did it...


Oh


Im sorry


Im so sorry


Ill stop


And look where I am. Ive got a nice life. So you can definitely achieve the same Tim. Its possible. Not everyone forgets about you. Just be happy youre alive. Be happy you know who you know. O


There is someone out there in this big world. Just for you.


Do you really think so


Someone who will care for you. Love you. Never forget about you.


But I feel like everyone forgets abt me


Of course I do. There is someone for all of us.


Yeah ig


No. No I guess.”


Tell me you know.


Say I know


But you dk that there is anybody out there


Yes. I do. Now say you know. I need you to say it.


Why


You really dont know if there is or not


Just say it. Itll help


Ik ig


Yes Tim, theres someone for you, theres someone for me, theres even someone for Poggels.


No, type it out.


And say I it with confidence


I know ig


No. Stop with the I guess.


Just you know


Because you do. There is someone. We were put here for someone. For a reason.


But I really dont know


Ok. I guess you dont. But we all have hope.


Theres always something for you


I doubt it


Yes go to bed


Tim there is someone for you there is something out there for you to achieve and if your just sad all the time your not gonna achieve the thing that your supposed to achieve and I would miss you


I doubt that there is


Im so shSt at math


Same


We just had test then


And I did so bad


Imagine still having tests


How is china still at 80k cases and ny is already at 300k or more cases


Wtf


Because they dont report any of there cases


Prob


Do you use any of the stuff they teach you


It depends what job you get


I really want to be a mountain bike rider when Im older but I dont think my parents will like the idea


Yeah but when your the new gucci it wont be so bad


yall ever just wanna hit someone with the little nibbler in your left toe


what


Im lonely


everyone is


yes


Huh


Cap


Wait what


What


Hey


I used to bottle up everything in order to constantly look fine for those that looked up to me and then release everything in one huge go, eventually leading me to developing anxiety and DID:


Damn


everyone overthinks


It usually happens in states of everyday stress, and can be easily overcome once you take steps to understand how to stay calm in situations of stress


Yeah. Idk how doe


i overstress heaps in math


DSJFHJSKLAFGHN


thats all.


thanks.


Lit


For someone who's name is angry, it doesn't take much to for them to vent everything


What did you do


Oof


ya ever jus kinda feel like youre getting no where with things


like it feels like your running so fast but youre getting absolutely no where


and then you just give up


or want to


because mood


we vibe


Yeah that happens all the time


thats crazy


if jfjd


Helo i am here for thing


What is the thing


Imma be straight forward I feel completely useless to everyone and have no hope of being something special


Ok dont say that


Your not useless


You are something special poggels


Dont ever think that your not bc you are


You arent useless


I mean I dont really provide much


Yeah youre still important


we shouldn't be important because we have nothing to provide


we are important because we are our own person


Its just that all I do is funny and I dont wanna be the funny anymore


then don't, be ur own person


But like all i know is funny


Then just be u not somebody that other people want you to be just be you


u can do what u want to do, you shouldn't be something u don't want to be


Im never serious


And its so hard to talk to people unless im being funny


then stand up for yourself, you shouldn't change urself


just make others understand you


You are you


There a no others versions of you in this world


What does that mean


its just agreeing with u


its pointing up


see


Yeah


Oh ok


As he should


Why


Oooh


RinNakunatta why


what?


Mummy?


Wait no that isn't how it works...


i would notice


I doubt anyone would notice I was gone


Irl or online


They both wouldnt notice I bet


What if I just ended it


That would be easy right?


I want to cry but I feel like Im out of tears


I just want to explode


Then I wouldnt be here


It wouldnt be Suicide


It wouldnt be considered that I dont think


Because killing yourself only makes it worse


Ive been there trust me


I want to go in the woods


Maybe Ill get lost


Literally I was so sad I was looking around the house to find somewhere to do it


Id be alone finally


But I know this is said a lot but life does get better


I wouldnt have to worry abt anything


I know personally I was so sad but then I got amazing experiences from schooltrip to nz for exchange and now Im sad because I have to leave that school


Because Im dumb


Im always faking something


Killing yourself is a permanent solution for a temporary problem and if you kill yourself other people that love you will be In pain


We all do


Most of the time its my happiness and smile


Sometimes I feel like I dont actually have a real smile


I realised today how people really see me and I look ugly


But its not about how you look


Its about who you are


Yeah


Later I was rewarded by finding out the test is marked by the qeustions we attempted within reason


I mean thats good


So never go for the easy option


I feel like everything in my life is going down hill


Challenge your limits


Idk how to explain it


I do to but you have to find a friend to talk to. Not about your feelings if u dont want to but just talk to them


Make their day happy


I have been talking to a friend and she looks out for me now


Gee Im really glad you have someone whos there for you


I have one friend that I talk to but she tries to make a joke about everything and anything


Yeah she has helped lots but Im to Tim that needs it


Well my friend tries to make it a joke but thats because they are trying to lighten the mood


madi then you shouldnt go to her if shes making you feel worse


Thats about the only person I have irl that I can go to


I cant see anyone irl atm


I talk to people on snap and discord like you


Even though we may seem irrelevant we are still here living and we can make a difference to the world no matter how small or big


Everything we do affects the world in one way


Most things


Yes everyone contributes and everyone matters


Yes


I doubt anything I do helps the world


why does it need to help the world?


venting isnt my thing


I just dont fit in with anyone


I dont think Im meant to be here


Maybe your just going crazy from isolation


ive only really talked to jimpy about my life


madi of course youre meant to be here


Tommorow if you dont respond to me in private chat Im gonna be real sad


but it was only once


Ive thought these things before isolation


Im gonna check as many days as I can that you still here and ok


i dont like venting cause i dont see a point, if im upset then ill deal with it myself


riley! thats how I am


Everyone is different in their own ways


I always keep these things to myself


I do too but it doesnt help


ive only taken a brake from the server once and it was only for like 3 days


yea


break


i took off a week and idk y


I just dont feel right being here


How so?


anyways ima mute this channel again so i dont overthink some things


madi why


I feel like Im just out of place everywhere I go


Im the person who doesnt talk at all


You still stuck inside house or not


Hardly looks at anything other than the ground


Gee kinda stuck in the house but I go outside and leave the house still


Im the person who looks happy but isnt


Im the person who never keeps their head up


U should go for a walk without tech and look at life look at how far humans have come


Listen to me okay


Life gets better


You have to keep positive


But remember anyone is allowed to cry


Or feel sad


My nan owns a farm in the middle of the bush and I love going for walks because of nature


I like nature but I just can enjoy it


Like I want to


Its the little things in life that make it good


I used to fail all my math tests last year


One day I passed one and I was so happy


I just want to take a week or a month away from tech and everyone and everything


For once I wasnt scared to show someone my result


I really want that too


When Im older Im going to live in the bush and walk into the untouched nature and relax


I just want to live out in the middle of no where


Where no one knows where I live


Hey I have to go now but tomorrow I want you to message me ok


I have sent you req


Ill try


Ok


Remember to think about the good things


Its hard for me to do that


The convos were having in vc are so deep and wack rn


Lmaoo


Example?


Aww okay, Tim, why do you feel so low? Is it because you feel like you lack purpose? Lack motivation? Something of the latter?


Everything


I mean you can scroll up and try and read all of it but its like a lot of reading


Oh


I just dont understand why Im here


So a lack of purpose you mean?


Hm... What school year are you in?


Imma be a freshmen when we go back to school


So 9th basically


Okay, so now you are the equivalent to a year 9 in England


A freshman here would be year 10 I think


Anyway, this is good


This is good why?


You may feel a lack of purpose in life because from entering Middle School up until around about this age, life is repetitive, we have a role in life as students, we learn things and memorise them for tests in order to get grades. At least over here from 6th grade to 9th grade is basically the same lessons of the same things 4 time over, so we can pass the big exams in 10th grade.


What I'm getting at basically is that you have been getting demotivated possibly at all the repitition, all I can say is look to the future and face it head on, start looking for other purposes other than a student


Unfortunatly humans are naturally stupid, so we make it harder for ourselves all the time, around about this time should be a good idea to look at post school life, where are you going to go?


I feel like I'm sorta throwing words together now... My brain is running on fumes at the moment so most of this maybe absolute gibberish in the end


Nah youre speaking facts


Your fine


Phew okay, I started worrying when I thought Hey, my face feels like it's melting randomly


You should probably sleep


Ill be fine


I always am


How long has it been since youve slept


Nah I'm all good, you do you, and remember not to keep anything bottled like that, I know what you mean when you say your always fine it ain't good for you, remember my messages are always open


Oh the last time I slept? I can't remember /


YOU NEED SLEEP


Sleep


I never remember if I sleep or not it's fiiine


Will you sleep please


Awww but I don't wannaaa


Also I've showered, dressed, breakfasted, had a few breathes of fresh air, brushed my teeth, yada yada etc etc...


Oh


Well


Will you sleep tonight


Lmaoo ofc


There's no stopping me sleeping me unless I don't


What


I'm never sure if I do, or will sleep, but maybe I'll surprise myself /


Well tonight will you sleep please


That's how fricked I've froged my mind


Ill try to start thinking differently


And I'll see if I can figure a way to sleep


Ok


Thank you


No probsss:


Iws


OwO


Ok?


I dont see you


i can see you.


You dont see kitten


Shes a ghost


So you dont see her


Hmm


Damn


I mean


I didn't see anything


I love you Tim and how you actually go along


RinNakunattayay


Sorry i tried


I wont be on for abt a week


Well


Breaks


Are


Good


I think


Yeah


Why not?


It's ok if you don't wanna talk about it


Just take a break when you need to


Wdym


Hmmm?


Same


OwO


Quote by someone maybe me idk It just popped in my head if life is bad at the moment and you end it then the sadness doesnt stop it just has no chance to get better


I just want to help people that's all I want to do


Everyone deserves a good life


And a second chance to


everyone can change its just if they notice the opportunity that they were given and how they react shows if they can change for the reason you want or for a reason for someone else


Yeah thats understandable


Hi hi


Whats happening here?


Uhhh venting?


Just read jojo I can't explain it


Lmao


The reason I fugging hate corona is because I cant see my emotional support person


I understand that


Dont ingore it ask someone one of your friend or something for help


Ya thats the same with me


Maybe u should try to have a good convo and maybe try to make ur mom see ur way


Ig she is just over protective


Sorry if these are late replies


Well I got nothing for that


Yeah same


She extremely wants me to date someone the race tho


That's not gonna change with her


Ya moms dont change their opinion about anything


But Im sure she is just over protective and maybe she doesnt understand that kids these days will like someone for who they are not how they look


Yeah true, she's also pretty culture drivin. I understand it's important, but I connect to my culture in everyday life as is.


Oh well mom's will be mom's


Ya


Thats awesome


2 boys?


Oops one sec


downzhis


I meant dogs


My phone being goofy


i peed on my cat


pee on me


why


then let the cat pee on u


let is pee on u so ur even


yes


u still need to pee on me


so mean smh


ok first off why tf did u pee on the cat


also


youre


u pee on the chair


no


shelf


fine


Idk


Mission complete


I helped someone not to hurt themselves


im proud of myself


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so no head?


i have no heads


i just flipped the switch


Yeah 2020 is giving me anxiety and depression tbh bc all that's going on, trying to maintain a job, work from school and not trying to fail 9th grade, and girls tbh


Girls bc I think a few months ago I was going through depression and shit my skank I call my ex cheated and even put it on video but I got her back


Kinda rlly put me down and makes me not trust girls anymore, well some of them


well thats only one girl, there are so many girls out there that are sweet and nice, maybe its better not to think about girls until 1 is able to get into ur life and trust and supports u


about what


bruh


it is vent for a reason


damn


I


Don't even know what happened sooo


Bleep


But


But why


Well


That's understandable


I think


Killing is not good


If you kill someone that means you're an even worse person than they were


Nice to know you..


Vent all you want, but Death threats..nah


Yeah i get that


That wasn't just drama that was illegal


same


Like just leave now we know how to read and count isnt that all we need to know


I can go live in the bush all by myself


Do whatever


Disappear into the bush


No one will even know


ikr


bruh


what


someone. selected it


deleted


oh wow


i can sleak


soeak ksksj


?unmute ly


wait what


bahahahhaha


she wasnt muted?


nope


dang


is it broken


Sorry what


meh


Oh great


I fixed it


It was channel perms


ok is he muted?


Ya she is


i want someone to fall i. a drain and stay there


yes


bye


Damn you dont need to be here tech take your time on your personal life


Damn just remember though correct me if Im wrong but your mum was on drugs. Now I dont know what she is like normally but its ok


Motivation Me


tech deck you should take a break away from discord its just adding more and more problems you should try talk to your dad and find out what hes hiding you might want to contact your mum but i dont recommend it she might get angry but take a break for now i dont know how to help you in that situation but i hope it gets better


if he doesnt tell you dont worry about it try to keep in contact with him if you arnt now


Or try get outside away from tech


but go rest now its early


You ever just be in that depressed mode but cant explain why


Thats what Im in rn


i get what you mean


im not cool


why u say that?


i am not cool thats why


because?


Im always here if you need to talk to someone


thanks tim


Your welcome


I will try and help as much as possible


okay thank you


you good?


That Happened to me last years accept it wasnt just cuz my problems they ignored me and they ignored me full time


oh sorry


does anyone else know about it


No. And I cant tell CPS because he stands right there when we speak


I try and keep my sister away from it all though. Try and keep her innocent


But its a price to pay


you should talk to someone you are closer too aswell


just so they know if anything happens


I do have someone. But just one person. And my counsellors dont do much


you could try going to stay at someone else house with your sister for now maybe


Not with covid. Were in the worst state


I do appreciate you listening though


you should be able to go over and stay there if theres been an argument with family


im always here


Ill see what I can do. Thank you


But another thing.


sorry its kinda hard giving advice you cant really do anything right now because of corona


yea


Can you go stay a family memembers house?


Dean The EMT Firefighter Cant you text them, I know some places you can text 911 and you can text cps in some places but im not sure if its everwhere


you could maybe try get a friend to call them for you aswell


Even when all this is happening, you usually see me happy, right?


No, its not an emergency, so Id probably get fined for it


you said sometimes he gets violent right


what do you mean by violent


like does he hit you or your sister


Just your average crack or punch every once in a while


whenever friends need something from you you help them with whatever and you would reply but why when you need one little thing they air you and just leave you on read they can just help or whats tt he point of even talking to them they can go fuck then self


shelfelf sometimes friends need space for themselves, it's okay. I understand what you mean tho if they do this constantly but if they are really going through a tough time they might not be in the best mental space to assist with their other friends issues aswell


Bettyboopatethemoon i mean like all the time no one that i actually talk to ever answers my messages i just aired and left on read even when i actually really need them but they never answer


loads of peoples friends do it i dont know why or what they get out of it


Maybe you should invest in new friendships, they sound kinda toxic


Most people that I know do that to me and it happens a lot more than you would think. I help and listen to my friends whenever they need it and they just leave me on read


i cant make new friends its too awkward and everyone in my class is just plain rude


You can


rowlint yea why do they do it what do they get out of r


You did it once. It may be hard but it's not impossible and they don't have to be in your class


i cant people dont like me in my class because of whats happened


i made one friend at the start of the year and. she introduced me to a few people but now all we do is argue and everyone sides with her because shes more populate


Why can't you make friends outside your class


im too awkward to talk to people outside my class


How so?


What makes you too awkward and inable to talk to people outside your class?


i do talk one person outside my class but we arnt in any of the same class so its really hard to find them


u might be like me, i can talk in servers and stuff but always mess up my words


yea i just get scared


i feel likke im always being judged


yea


So insecurities


i guess


I understand how to blanket of anonymity makes it a billion times easier to talk to people online than irl


I can be a big baby myself sometimes and sound like a lagging song when i speak


But it isn't impossible


And I firmly believe that you can find friends irl that will invest their time in you


It doesn't change the fact that what's happening in this moment is happening


Bht until that point you do have online friends that care aboutcha


people have said things about me and its spread around


Hopefully that can give you a little hope for the time being


so no one really talks to me


I'm sorry


its okay


We're here for you


thank you betty


Thank you, you're really helping me understand there's different angles to every story and everything isn't always black and white


I have a good feeling things'll look up for ya tho in the friend area


ill try talk to some people when i go back but idk


A positive about quarantine is it does give everyone a somewhat clean slate for when we go back to socializing


yea


you okay betty?


I am frusturated


This server was so much fun when I first joined


And it still is sometimes


But I'm tired of people being bossed around over nothing


yea like people get away with a lot but no one else can


And i wanna say this is main but it probably would get deleted


And that sc group is getting me in a twist aswell


thank you for saying that maturely


And i'm just tired


like when kitten was here and she used commands or sent a link to main she could say please it was a mistake but if someone else did it they would get a warn


I do agree with you the server has changed


yea its change quite alot


Ima just put that in main it is what it is


okay


If you need someone to talk to i am always here and mostly active so i will see it reasonably soon


talking is irrelevant even tho its important i just can't let go of pain or problems i have by saying stuff it just never goes away i see negatives and ik everyone does but thats the thing i only see negatives


yeah i know it doesn't but recently i've been talking to people and they make you happier


i dont even know any of these people im talking to


Ik its hard to talk to others abt things but it does help


I'm sorry Simar for all the pressure you have on you and everything you're going through


i just don't know what to do anymore


im lost and have no direction, i always follow rules and instruction but now i just don't know


i can't be done with life since its the thing i have to do, i just don't know anything anymore im confused, lost, have no clue what im doing


nopoint, i dont know how to help you and i know from what you said you wont believe me, you are a good person. I think all of us are clueless at this time of the year. We all lost direction and dont know what to do.


but i want you to know things get better


if that takes having to take a break to get stuff organized, please go for it


by break he means have a few days off tech


grim is typing a lot of stuff


NoPoint you do you, whatever makes you feel best not what others want you to do, do what makes you happy and cheerful and dont worry about things around you. Try to solve the problem if you can try and go as far as you can from suicide thoughts do what makes you happy, it may be hard to do during quarantine but at least you can try just try your best to stay happy during situations i have been dealing with the same stuff but i focus on everything else besides the bad thoughts i try and work my way over the issue or solve it focusing on the bad leads to nothing but worse thoughts than before you can talk to your friends about this in real life or not we can try and help you and most likely we will understand your problems.


Thx u guys


NoPoint do you have a therapist or psychiatrist


get one


I usually dont say shit and feelings because I usually think talking about depressed stuff loses friendship which it has in the past


you need a therapist and psychiatrist


and yes that does ruin friendships but that's only with people who don't care about you if the person cared enough they'd be there even tho you're depressed and sad trust me you need to talk about it


if they dont care about your life your better off without them


nopoint you can care about people that's fine i do the same thing but you need to find your group of people who you can trust and talk to and you feel comfy and safe with


NoPoint


Ya ik its just hard to find that and actually talk to people face to face


i cant tell people about how i feel face to face thats why i do it on discord ect


because there is the annonimyse cover


cant spell


I know don't worry you're not the only one who has that problem I have problems too my guy I just don't talk about them much cause i'd rather focus on the present and have fun


sometimes it is good to just let everything out sometimes


greg rachel asleep in vc


NoPoint never say to yourself that people probably had worse because while it may be true it doesn't mean what you're dealing with is any better everyone deals with pain and sadness differently so you may feel the same way as someone who is having something worse happen or you could feel happier then them or sadder than them everyone has their own problems don't compare yours to others because you're not them so the way they feel is going to be different from you


Ya ur right


Do you ever just sit down and realize that your nobodys favorite person


And that you caused most of the bad things that have or are happening to you


And that shallow conversations are pointless and all you want is a genuine conversation but you cant get that because society is scared of themselves


But its okay because youre so smart” and you should have nothing to worry about right? But anytime you try and have a genuine conversation about whats on your mind people either dont know how to respond or just dont understand what your saying


And youve wasted so much time trying to explain it to people who will never understand but you care too much to drop them so you just look at them with a practiced smile and continue to have shallow conversations because its just easier that way


And then you give up


me too


Ye


Listen, you dont want to be smart, its not going to solve your problems, but you cant give up on what you really want because youve given up before its started


I cant do maths or anything


So, no 11?


NoPoint


u good g?


I can do basic maths but when its times table and all that stuff I forget everything and cant think


Its okay to forget, its not a bad thing we all do it


Yeah I know but its used heaps in jobs and if I cant do maths


what are u tryna do?


No its not forgetting its because I cant do it


I literally have a mental break down every class


You have to give yourself a break, you cant be this hard on yourself


I dont know what Im going to be when Im I meet


When Im older


I have no idea what Im going to do and I should have by now


you stressing cause youre worried about your performance in class?


dude imma be real with you


Just know that its okay to be a bit behind, and its okay to not understand


idk anything for life either


im just getting by doing work


So? Your teachers arent going to remember you after you graduate, so who cares what they think


Ok its ok no to be the favourite person that doesnt mean nobody cares for you, there are a lot of people who care and support you and so what if u messed up that shouldnt stop you, maybe u are a stop point and thats fine all u gotta do is start ur journey again, if u need help with that then ask, Im always here to talk about anything a problem, an issue, a laugh together, cry together, have fun together, all Im saying if u need a friend Im always here to talk


simar typing for so long scares me


ok


imm aread that


I didnt read the recent stuff so Im gonna read that so give me 1 sec


Its okay to ask for help,


I just feel like everyone always judges my actions and I never tell my parents anything because I feel like I will be embarrassed


Ik that feeling


Whenever Im talking irl I always stuff up my words even if its a friend I trust


ik what you mean


I get it, you cant ever step foot outside your room without someone judging you, wishing you were something different, but your not on this Earth to please other people, your here to live your life, so dont let other people control it


Ik its hard but u shouldnt listen to what other people say, u be u thats all that matters and if ur scared to tell ur parents just tell them ur truth ur beliefs and it might be hard at first but once u do it will be much easier for u


what aiyana said


i feel that


I sometimes wish I could disappear into the bush one day for a while and just get away from everyone and everything


My parents dont get it though


My parents are different


i understand what youre saying simar, but with people like your parents its hard asf


their approval means a lot


They dont have to understand, but a conversation on how you feel shouldnt end in an argument


its tough to have to talk to them about such a sensitive subject


Gee dont ever be ashamed for the way you feel


oh yeah never


They always say I spend to much time in my room but thats because they always make me feel awkward whenever we talk


Start off small, like playing a board game or watching a movie, something that doesnt require a lot of conversation


Yeah I guess so. Im gonna go try sleep, my phone about to go flat to


Goodnight, Gee try and give your parents a chance okay?


Ik what u mean I cant tell my parents shit I always feel like I have to have 2 lives 1 with my parents and 1 outside my house but never try to bring them together and I understand what I mean it will take a lot of courage to tell ur parents something even if its small but Ik u have the courage to do it


im struggling with my religion rn, i ran into it way too quick but now im questioning it because there are no answers. my parents are religious and to this day i am the only kid who follows the religion. i want to confront my parents and tell them that i want to get out of it and live my life normally becasue everything i do has me feeling guilt since me and my religion are so different from eachother. so i know what u mean by it being hard to talk to ur parents


Ya I get what u mean sukhman


its rough


If a religion isnt right for you, its not right for you


Trust your intuition and do what makes you happy


Ya its just that its kinda hard to explain that to ur religious parents


but the weight of family approval is insane


Ya we have to pass it down to our childrens and to their childrens but like Ik it should be a choice if u should be religious or not but parents dont get that


especially since im indian and our family gossips a lot. so if other family's are gossiping about my parents son giving up on religion, i didnt just disappoint them, but also shame them


yeah


families fight and stuff


so i have to take time with this


my sister is telling me to tell tehm but im scared


Ya its better to tell them sooner then later but I get its really hard to tell parents something that heavy


yeah man its real hard


and since im in highschool they might think im doing drugs


since i want out of the religion


Ya I get what u mean


lmao


I hate society


what happened?


Nothing, and thats the issue everybody wants to talk about issues but never wants to solve them


People are so backwards that it hurts


i mean those people you are backwards aren't the people for you


there are many people who will care and support u


No I have people that care, but its kind of like society is stuck in a constant state of ignorance, and they refuse to acknowledge anything negative in life which will only end up hurting them in the end but they dont see it because theyre so blinded by the shadow of judgment by the people around them


ya i see your point and i understand it is frustrating but rn we can't change that, im not saying that it isn't possible cause i think we are can change how people treat negatively and how to prevent negatively from hurting more people its just as of now we can't do much, ik this is probably the worst advice possible but i get what u mean people don't know what to do the negative and it just ends up hurting everyone


Idk its not something that I can fix in a day so I dont usually stress about it too much its just a sad reality


ya i mean if u were want to rant about it u can rant it with me


I know, its just I dont like wasting time on things when change isnt really ever going to happen


i mean there is always a chance something will happened


Right, but its a personal problem but it happens all around the world so its not something you can just solve in the masses


Chances are it will never happen in my lifetime


i mean maybe it won't happened anytime soon cause people are just going insane but maybe there is a chance it will happened after this mess is fixed.


I had a think last night and reading back over our texts and what you guys said has made me realise. Im going to look for the positive side and Im going to try talk to my parents a bit more.


right now my parents are fighting over the phone


Aww Im really glad that you feel that way, things will get better i promise


ya thats very good gee and we will support ur decisions as much as possible


it makes my ears hurt


Can you go outside right now?


who?


Rin I think she talking about


im in my room


Can you listen to music or something


i am doing that


thats lit


ty nopoint


wait i feel like that i made u more upset


Tuning it out is really the best thing to do, not being around it I mean


ya i can't like hear or see my parents fight cause i get very emotional about it


Half alive sad vibe dayglowgood music


ya thats the same with me


So now i am sad for no reason


And that sprung up to mind


All the pressure on me


Like pfff


maybe u should get a therapist


it would help alot if u explain to someone in real life


it makes it easier to decision and help out ur life


it just depends on the people who do it


some people don't like therapists and it may not help but there are always ways to relief ur problems out


Communism Goblin I'm sad for no reason all the time it's okay


I like my feelings for myself


I generally dont trust a lot of peeps


So id rather my feelings stay my feelings


Yeah even though talking about my feelings makes me feel better I just dont got anyone to talk to


Usually when i come home and my parents say how was your day i always see: it was allright


And then i head upstairs


thats why therapist is the best option since they worked for learning about how to solve and ease ur mind


Regardless how good or bad my day was


Me too even if it was a terrible day I just say it was fine


Nah mate i dunno how much i trust some guy i have a appointment with


Its the same way for me but I dont like talking about my feelings even though its makes me feel better


yeah i do that because otherwise they have a big talk about it and say do we need to contact your headmaster


ik i shouldn't be saying this cause im not in therapy either but it really is one of thte best ways


If i cant talk with my parents about feelings


I dont think i trust a therapist


rowlint emily if u ever want to talk about anything im always here to talk and give the best poissble hlep and support i can give


Thanks


I generally supress my feelings


I dont have a problem


And no one has a problem with my deelings


I have always hated helping someone with feelings


So i think why bother them with my feelings


I have a way of kinda making myself feel better because when I talk to someone i feel like im bothering them


Same


Yeah I figured that out a long time ago


im sorry


That's not ok


what


ya bad joke my bad


Ehh my joke was bad too so it's fine


Sooo there are my thoughts about feelings


That is


They are stupid


You dont need em


I dont want to saddle others with my feelings


Cuz that is only a burden for the other


And i dont want to be a burden


So i feel like its best to keep em for myself


no its not a burden


there are feelings for a reason


people should express them


I need them you can't really keep them bottled up for too long comrade


I can


Been doing that for 15 years now


Listen i dont like feelings, i dont like helping people with feelings cuz that makes me akward. So id rather have em for myself in case someone is like me and that person doesnt like talking about feelings


Its just a stupid hormone


i dont like talking abiut feeling as well but its not a hormone


its you personaly


Okay so here's some pointers: NEVER under NO CIRCUMSTANCES should you bottle up your emotions, no matter what you think those bottled up emotions can manifest into something big and bad, instead, depending on how often you get angry/annoyed/sad/etc... Regularly vent to a close friend or family member, or even get a coping mechanism that won't harm you in any way, like doing something you like, picking up a hobby, going for a walk, but no coping mechanism that would possibly be bad for you, like an eating disorder, or addiction


My life is full i rarely have irl friends, let alone see irl friends. I am not the person to be open. I devote my entire life to basketball. And like i said i dont likt talkin about feelings, it isnt something i just do. That first part was actually a really rare moment from me, since inever would do somethjng like that


buttons That made me tear up but ill keep that in mind


Awww you softy thanks for keeping the advice in mind:


Everyone has his own ways of dealing with emotions and feelings my way of exspressing it is by not doing anything. I feel vulnerable and weak in such positions. It might be dumb to say but i dont like being vulnerable, quarantine has made me sadder but i keep it for myself since i dont feel like talking to anyon irl about it. Never would it cross my mind to set myself in a vulnerable position


It is normal to feel like this, it has been found that people can talk to absolute strangers about serious situations about themselves better than close family members that they've lived with all their lives


I don't like feeling weak or vulnerable either but you just got to let it go sometimes or you got to vent to yourself because if you keep it to yourself it's never going to get better


Even over texts and the internet, people tend to share more


I always think vulnerability is bad, so why would i put myself in the position of it


yesterday i felt sad and thought i might try draw pictures for people they give me picture,i draw and i did the best drawing i have ever done


always try out different things


Because you want it to just stop after a while of keeping your feelings in it's already happened to me and it wasnt good so Im just saying vent sometimes


I got a amzing trait that will come handy my entire life


what is it


Getting over a hill


And not feel anythin


It'll be fine you don't feel bad after you just let it all out


Metaphorical


Some people cant get over stuff


Ive learned to get over it and move on


i couldnt get over my ex and its nearly been a year


That is why i supress feelings


Ik it wont bother me in max a week


i guess its because i never knew why she broke up


So why bother venting in my casr


This is why you should only vent to those that you trust, it is true your vunrability can expose you, which is exactly why I don't tend to vent publicly, but if you find someone you trust, someone close, or someone smart, then you can most definitely vent to them


But of course, like I said, you don't need to vent, there is always the choice of finding a coping mechanism


im going to try draw when im sad or angry


Yeah like that!


I dont vent i get over it and forget


And then i fall eight back in my normal pattern


Like nothin happend


For the past 15 years that is my strategy


And it will be for a long time


That's all well and good and if it works, great! Good for you! But just remember if you ever find anything that is too hard to forget, try venting or a coping mechanism


Got it matey


Coolio


Great too see how other people habdle situations


Ikr? Real interesting stuff


I do everything kinda


i never really have true friends only one but i dont talkto anyone about my feeliings except on here


because its annonymous


i had one true friend last year but now we in different class and growing distant which ucks


sucks


ive had this exxperience beforre though so its not as bad this time


rowlint Same, I've had to deal with a lot of shit over the past 6 years, mostly consisting of physical and mental assaults, I have had lots of time to study how my brain reacts and work out how other people react around me, get a better understanding about coping and stuff like that


buttons Im sorry about what has happened but im glad you have kinda got a way on getting better. Do you have any i guess like tips on how to cope with emotions?


May I ask what sort of emotions?


Like sadness and anger


Ah okay, so what problems do you have with these emotions? Do you bottle them up? Was there an event that has caused you to feel these emotions constantly?


buttons ur really good at this


I do bottle them up. I get yelled at for no reason, ignored,bullied and of course whats happening in life atm


Okay, so is this with people you live with or is it at school, or both?


ly thanks ;


Both


Alright, so, do you have any close friends or relatives you are comfortable talking to?


Nope


Hm... How much spare time do you have on a generic weekday and a generic weekend?


like 5 hours each


I have to do something rn i dont think ill be long but if you need to ask me something or tell me something just @ me


'ight


Well with your 5 hours, if there really isn't anyone for you to vent to, unless you find internet venting easier, you can always get rid of anger and sadness another way


People tend to say things like meditation and stuff, it's never worked on me personally because I am one hyper son of a bitch, but other ways of meditation include things like going out for a walk, that is a good time for thought, the more you think about your problems, the more you understand yourself, and the more you understand yourself the more you understand how you work, and if can understand how you work, then you can soon work with yourself to work towards a new coping mechanism to kill your bottled anger and sadness


Walking isn't the only thing you can do obviously, but a new hobby or other sport is a good alternative that works among most people


The crucial thing about doing this is so you can get your head clear so you can think without having those emotions in the way, and therefore you will be able to progress easily to your own coping mechanisms, as opposed to the basic mediation sorta thing


rowlint  this is all the advice I can really give without prying too much into your situation, but my DMs are always open and this channel is always here for help:


Okay thank you for listening


I appreciate it


No probs:


Does anyone play games?


Well duh


Continued from art


Why would you be embarrassed?


Because Im not like my other siblings


I always keep to myself and dont talk that much


Im like that to


I used to think anime was weird and now if I show her I feel like she will think Im weird and tell me to stop drawing them


The drawing a pretty dark as well


She cant tell you what you can and cant draw


But she will judge it because of what its about


I never told her what I was drawing I just said where is the spare drawing book


Oh?


Idk whether to do drawings without her knowing because when I draw I lose concentration and focus on the drawing instead of life


I mainly draw on my phone so my mom cant really see what I draw


I do that to


How


I just really wish I had a bit more privacy for what I do and they dont have to check what Im doing every 5 minutes


Thanks


People need privacy


We all do


Gee i with you there and yes it kinda drains you and your paranoid all the time right? it might just be me. just letting you know you can talk to me dm me whatever u want


ur welcome because ik its hard being ur own person sometimes


Yeah I feel like they just dont understand who I am


I get that parents dont understand their kids as much


yh i guess our generation is very different then ours especially whats happening rn


its hard on everyone


Yeah


like kids in america and other countries looking forward to senior year and making all those memories


just gone


its all the things in the world stressing me out


its like i have to do this and that


its just to hard to handle for me


all i want to do is cry about how much i cant do in life


Well, its ok to cry sometimes. We all need it.


and i have a big stomach ache that wont go away and i dont really want to eat since i feel so numb inside


That makes sense. Maybe eating isnt the best


But if you need to cry, you should. It helps some things


i cried for a good five minutes


Did you feel a little bit better?


Im sorry girlie. Usually crying helps me. Maybe talk?


i dont think crying will help


When I do, sometimes it helps release some of the weight


But, it isnt that way for everyone


my thaprist isn't for another month


I want to say Im an expert, but Im not. Although, some people have come to me with some problems of theirs.


So, wanna tell me?


I promise Ill give the best I can


i've said most of it


Where?


in a vcall i think


If you did, I dont remember


hold on my phoen died


frick


What?


i gtg


Ok


Bye bye girlie


Do yall ever just want to feel physical pain like not from anyone else but like wanting to punch a concrete wall or claw yourself till its red


yeah


yes


Thats what I feel like rn


I also want to scream til my head burst


do u have any rubber bands


tim


Tiny ones


But not any big rubber bands


if u have any larger ones eventualy put them on your wrist and when you feel like this pull it back and hit your arm with it


But thats not as fun as punching a wall but okkk


yeah that sounds fun


Yeah


idk if i should say this


but when i was younger i went to an old abandond house with a friend exploring it. and we put a hole through every room


but the house was destroyed so dosnt really mater


THAT SOUNDS FUN


I like to walking to the rain so nobody see me crying


U alri?


onibb apart from u being sad that is actually so smart


i hate talking abt my feelings but im such a sensitive person:/ n i feel like i growing apart from my friend group and i dont rlly know wat to do, i dont make friends that easily and im in quarentine so its even worse. uh but thats it


Its hard for everyone to make friend and keep friend groups close during quarantine


Ok I need some advice: there is a girl I started to talk to at school in my class, started catching feeling but then we had iso and because I havent seen her at all and only talked on snap Ive lost the connection and Im just stuck because idk but I really just wanted to be in a relationship with someone close and someone I can talk to but I dont really feel that way about her. So yeah Im really stuck with what to do


I have only been in one relationship which was two weeks so its still kinda new to me


Ok so my advice if u dont feel like she is the one then maybe just still talk to her and see where it leads cause maybe that feeling might change but if it doesnt then just stay as friends


Okay


Cheers


Do u like her?


Idk


Ok maybe u should talk more and get close with her


Im gonna be honest here I dont see her as hot or cute but I just guess it was from her and I talking in class


I think it was more personality


Does she like u?


Yeah


She sends me snap literally every minute when Im on


O then maybe if shes into ig wait until she tells u that she likes u until then just keep talking to her and maybe just to lead on saying we should get to know each other more and all that


She told me she likes me already


I can try lean more towards the friend side


Slightly over longer period so less obvious


Ive had that happen and I wasnt really that sad about it


Maybe if u like her just say that I like u too but i want to get to know u more and get close first


If u want to be with her


My dad literally stole all my money and said i told him he could have it yesterday and i had like 160 dollars that i had to earn over half a year and now hes threatening to take like everything i own bru


damn


um


idk what to say there


thats a pretty rough situation


update he gave it back and said he was just mad at me like ok


o


r u ok?


yeah nothing rly happens in my family


ok im glad ur ok


Hi umm how eveyone doing?


Good


Actually not so good my sister is actually so annoying sometimes


would you like to hear my day?


Yeah ok but my wifi is slow so


Ok, my great grandma died from crona and its by brothers birthday so its been kinda crazy.


Wow


its okay


Yeet


Beat


i feel like dizzy


but im fine


How dizzy


Have much water have you had in the last 2 days?


Dean The EMT Firefighter i have a little but when i do drink more tyan 10 ounces i feel worse


You feel dizzy?


May. u can talk about things here if u want


not dizzy but very light headed


Nah i just hate me;;


why


Ah. Wrap a hot towel around your head, and lay down for a while


Bc;; I'm me


Everything about me;;


i used to be able to drink more water


May. thats not hateable


Idk I don't really get much;; friends


Most ppl dont like me;;


i like u


but you got ly


Yeah I just have a fear of not being enough


well youre more than enough


You might not think that way but i do


ur amazing and ur worth alot


Thanks guys


Dont mention it


The worst feeling is when you buy someone something and they dont use it


Hehe


i live in hotel


I live in a house


Same


ly


okay


why are people eolllaying


role playing


what not here


i thought you said so what will we be role playing


no


i want zeus to come online because he usually does something


o


damn


creepy


ok i stopped them


thank you


noroleplayruleanymore


ive been thinking a lot of how life couldve been


so waht do u think


well about someone


guy?


i mean you wouldnt get it


its just worrying what he couldve done


can u explain what happened?


i mean its a long story


i mean i have alot of time


u only share whatever ur comfortable with sharing


ok ya


im sorry


i might not get it cause im a guy


but i wanna help


well its done


oki


hes out of mine and my familys life


o


damn


that is good right?


yes very very good


yay


its just scary to think i stayed home alone for months with a sex offender


r u ok?


yea im fine


did he do anything to u?


No i guess he has gone violent and hit me a few time and yelled at me like every day


but everyone is okay and thats what matter


UR MOM one of the best things that has happened in a while tbh


thats good


very


Today was one big bruh moment


Like I wake up and here one of my favorite dogs died


im so sorry to hear that


Get yelled at for no reason hit in the face a lot


Wow thanks


what


Oh sorry Im kinda


Its just been a long day and Im tired but I cant fall alsleep


And I got that feeling when you have like a pit in your stomach and you feel just meh


maybe just rest and watch some youtube videos make urself laugh and distract urself


maybe have some medicine too


Thank you have a good day


im really sorry ur day wasn't good today but maybe tomorrow it will be better


Everything will go better


pog


Thank you


Woah i dont really know what to say. Are you ok


im trying to be


Listen if you need someone to talk all of us are here


Do you think you want to get the cops or something for T


i normally dont vent bc i am scared to. But i just needed to get it off my chest


ive been staying up late at night just breaking down bc im so scared of it


Its always good to get some weight off your shoulders


and cops will make things worse


im really sorry jimpy, i don't know what to say in this situation, and im really sorry whats happening to u and i want the best for u and im sorry that u also have to deal with the stress of the server and all i can say is to go to a trusted adult and tell them about it because there isn't much we can do in this situation and im worried for u.


Staying up late probably isnt the best thing to do in your situation because you will become tired and maybe make things worse by being moody from tiredness


its hard to not stay up late


its all i can think about


and i talk to trusted adults


I know


but they cant do anything either


there isnt actually anything anybody can do bc theres no proof to back up anything


What about any gun laws


Anything to remove danger of guns


honestly if i was to tell the cops that i would probably get shot


i wouldnt be surpised if he aimed a gun at me


What if you try make a deal or something for him to stop vaping ect for a while so he gets a bit better mood


ive talked to him about it


he curses me out


and screams at me


I really dont know how to help sorry


and my mom doesnt do anything


theres no way out


is there anyone else u trust thats an adult


all i can do is hope nothing bad happens


not really


What about your dad or whoevers house you went to


there isnt a lot of adults in my life ive ever really looked up to


i talk to my dad about it


but he isnt willing to get included


Is there any way of informing police or someone who can help without making it obvious you told them


Why


it just makes more of a chance that she will commit suide


suicide


bc those guns are also hers


Oh I know this isnt a very nice option but how healthy is t


Because if he vapes heaps his health may go down


I know this sounds really bad


But does he seem healthy or is he coughing a fair bit sometimes


coughing


i need to sleep


ok good idea


Go try sleep and dont think about stuff


Because you will overthink because you are tired, mad and scared


ill try


Ok good night


If you need us we are always here and Im active most of the time


gee ur amazing at this


Thanks


i try to help people but i don't think i help alot, like ur amazing i just say random things


and thats fine gee


I didnt know what to say really


I guess I was looking for the safer ways for all


ya thats good, i just try to be positive but i never been in that situation and it gets me scared