Ive been at the point where you think suicides the best answer and I got through it. I didnt tell anyone or my parents and it was tough but I dont tell my parents a lot of things and I know a lot of other people dont as well


This was a year ago so dont worry about me


oki


ya?


Idk I just think about all the stuff I did in the past


its alri to think about stuff in the stuff


btw if i type or my thing sounds weird it is cause i haven't slept for like a day or 2


but its alri shit happens but we have to move on at some point because the past is just the past its not gonna change u just gotta move forward


Been tryna do that for the past 5 years


It's not that I did something bad I just overthink stuff and other stuff


im really sorry but i understand its hard to forget about things i understand what u mean but honestly the only thing i got for u is to think positively about things, overthinking is a pain and ik i do it all the time but i try to think of the positives in everything and maybe ya im in the feels but that still doesn't stop me from thinking of the positive cause of the little things that make me happy give me joy in this world and i want everyont to be happy and cheerful but i get u have times where ur upset and thats fine just take ur time and get back up to be the awesome self u are


Rhynd


And they have four depressed children except their youngest


im so sorry jay i wish the best for you but if this is very serious then maybe its best to get another trusted adult or maybe the cops to deal with it and ik its hard but i just want u to be safe


Ik but I'm not gonna lose my four siblings because my oldest sister is basically my mom


Before they started smoking weed they were good parents


Im sorry to hear that but is there anyway you are able to take away like the weed and stuff?


I could but like they will blame my cousin and he'll get grounded for even longer than we both are


I am sorry to burden you guys with this I think I'll be fine


its not a burden


we have a vents for a reason


we want to help


Ik I guess I just kinda feel like comrade I feel like a burden when I open up about my feelings


same i feel like when i say what i feel like i think it just makes people annoyed about it


Thanks nopoint


mp


np


Last night something terrible happened to me


So I was in bed without my phone and...


I fell asleep


I am now week


Weak


It was weird because I couldnt sleep because Im used to always staying up late


damn


thats why i didn't see gee


i was like where is he at


Got to go school


Alrighty


I'm only plying video games to distract myself...


I feel worthless...


It feels like everyone hates me...


I don't know who to trust...


And I have no irl friends


Or only a few...


i don't knows how to help bc i am also like that


i dont know how to explain it


Eh. I rather have these talks in priv. I feel like personal info shouldnt go into a big server yk:/


i mean i understand what u mean about parents only talk about school cause now thats all we can do or thats what are parents think, they think that now that we have nothing to do that we have to do school but i understand its stupid how we have to focus hard on school when sometimes it doesn't even help us in the future and ya it stresses kids and causes depression and no adults understand this, but i think its best to maybe have a moment of breath and take a step back see how u can talk to ur parents about ur thoughts about school


then u have to talk to them about it


u need a good relationship with ur parents to succeed


so now i am stuck with cropped up feelings about life


the only real why i can feel good is through music


i always have cropped up feelings and its fine to have that but there is always that 1 things that keeps u going


but even that is rarely


its a snowball


it keeps cropping up


and more and more


a snowball?


yes


a snowball rolling downhill


it keeps getting bigger


see now just picture that


u want to do that right?


i want the snowball gone


imagine the snowball are my cropped up feelings


the snowball needs to disappear


ok its best then it slow down the snowball


cause ik u can never stop feelings its always there


but maybe use those feelings to stride foward


tbh i dont know how strong my bond with my parents is


forward


most days before corona i played basketball every day


i lie to my parents, im not a good son at all


so i understand its hard


so i rarely talk to em


cuz i wake up in the morning leave for school come home around 8 in the evening


eat my food alone


go upstairs and work


and thats my day


and thats alri


yea but i rarely see my parents


i mostly talk to em briefly every da


y


before quarantine i didn't even see my parents


but i would try my best to get a little time and they would too just to have a small talk


i just dont have a reason to feel better in life


i dont feel happy like i use too


maybe have a goal


a goal is a good start to have u start somewhere


do u wanna go to college?


i dont feel like i can vent a lot day to day anymore


xc


would u like to go to college comrade?


id like to


then start with that


but my parents kinda force me there


every school related thing is pressured


i dunno i want something different in my life


all schools are pressured but there is always away to relief that pressure


a refreshment of something


just someting new i can look forward too


maybe u should take a break from everything


i should but when


i cant catch a break


anytime u feel like it


there is always something i need to do


maybe take 1 day and just sit down and be urself be with ur thoughts


just 1 day


not even a day


ill stay up all night to be alone with me thoughts probably


its the only real me time i can get


ok if u think that the only time u have is to be alone at night then do that but not everyday


maybe u should get a therapist?


i was thinking about asking my parents about one


but i feel like they arent to informed about the situation the just hush the idea as a one time thing


ya maybe it would be good to try it out and see if ur comfortable


i dont talk about feelings a lot


thats what a therapist is for, they are professional


ik


but i think my parents will just hush it away as a one time thing


that i feel down


im not really good at giving advice since im having a hard time too and not everyone survives their day like i do


how do you survive then


i just try to go through the day thinking about the things that make me happy the people i would do anything for, ik when im sad its just a moment and i just have to go through it and ik im not alone


but im still having a hard time thinking about whats good and whats not


but i just start from the little things


the things that make my day


i dunno there is a small line between good and bad thoughts


the moment that makes my day


i only have bad thoughts


i can never remember good thoughts


i just gotta think of a moment i will make someday and will make everyone happy


a moment where there is no pain


i dunno what i will do


a moment where there is no failure


everything is unceratain


just think of something u want to do and succeed


it can be fake


it just has to be real to u


i always say the less chances you take the less opportunities to fail


ik im probably not gonna a make a difference to anyone im just some random dude that is labeled but i just want to believe that one day no not even a day that 1 second moment that i will make everyone happy no failures no pain, only smiles that will make me believe that there is something to actually live up to


that is what always makes me think


see that is where we differ from each other


i always see myself as a guy that is never gonna make a impact


i think that too


like for me


i dont think that there will ever be a day where no one feels pain or feels bad


there will always be someone who feels bad


and most days thats me


i just hide it a lot


for everyone


i might reach out to a teacher i really like since he is really nice and understanding


or my coach


ik its an impossible mission and probably never gonna happened but its just hope that i will try my best to do this for others, idc if this breaks me cause im already broken, i just think its better for everyone to have joy in their life and stay happy


yes that is a good idea


but there is also a thought of reaching out for a therapist


i dont have hope


i see no hope most of the time


s


maybe if u can't talk to ur parents about a therapist then another adult that u trust is a good idea


maybe im prob gonna reach out to my teacher soon


like really soon


then get hope make something that makes u wake up everyday and that makes u wanna get through the day just for that something or someone


thats good i hope u feel better and hope u sort out ur happiness


thanks same to you


to sorting it out


i just hope for the best for u mate


same


stitchstitch


okay so about my last vent. I would like to say ive talked to my mom. Luckily i was careful with my words and it was a normal conversation. But im still worried that even if i was to see her and say smth itd put her on the edge of tears


it just really scary to think that if i made one mistake in my words, it could lead to my mom dying or killing herself. I feel like itd be my fault


dont worry ill be here for help


as you can see i have my fair share of problems


but i try my best to make other people happy


thanks


its just personal problems from home


i feel ya


my problems are personal


maybe not the same problems


but there are definitly people who can help


she might just be saying it to stop you from saying anything she probably wants a happy family with no arguments


all she does is yell and argue


for the smallest reasons


maybe try message her


instead of talking in person


i moved to my dads to avoid the constant yelling


i do that


but it doesnt prevent anything


words are still words


yea


i dont know but if shes shouting all the time and shes threatening then she might be introuble


would you be able to go round when her boyfriend isnt there?


I dont know what you have tried so far to help your mom, but i dont know in how far space helps. Again i dont want say you arent doing you cuz you are, but people are different in different situation. Maybe it helps if she got some space?


Again i dont know you or your mom personally


I just know in most of my cases space helps a lot


her boyfriend basically lives there


and idk either


do you know when he will next go work or go out


Maybe tell the people she is in touch with to give her some space or tell em to contact her and have a talk


You shouldnt be the only obe trying to help i hope more people are helpin


I have to complete 1 1/2 semesters of math alone in less than a month


I also have like 80 of the second semester to go in all my other classes


i can help with math


just ask


I dont want to all you to help cause this is my fault and I need to fix this problem


If it does get bad really tho Ill go to you


but problems aren't always met to be alone


meant


Wait. You can help with math and I was never told this?


ya i can help with math


i helped juni and alex with math


Simars the mathematician


arc?


Arcs


Geometry


like height width stuff


i have never heard of arcs


i can try to help


o


ya i can help with that


I will let you know tomorrow


Thank you


oki


np


I just want to say something


things will get better


thank u emily


onm


yeah feelings are a joke


They are like me then


jokes have meaning tho


Oh so not a joke then


Cause I have no meaning


you don't need a meaning for life, why can't u just vibe and just live life happy


Cause its hard to be happy when you have no friends and nothing to do


something always breaks the vive


vibe


then make friends, u got friends here and yay there is maybe nothing to do in this situation that we are in but we can't get depressed because of a moment when life is alot longers


exactly


i feel not so great


My friend group split two years ago and I lost contact with my best friend for a year


This happened because we werent in same class


But we are talking a lot more now


I know sometimes people dont understand like when I was a kid I would always lie to not get into trouble but I stopped now that my little sister does it and I get annoyed


Off topic sorry


my point in life is gone, seems like it was buried and then set on fire. i dont feel the same at all, i wish i was the old me with no cares or worries. we got back together but it didnt help. we split up because i broke under the pressure, and i always think, im the monster they think and talk about, and it breaks a piece off of me every time.


There is always a point in life


Life gets tough


Thats what happens


we even talked tonight but it wasnt the same at all


Nothing will ever be the same


it was awkward because we all werent the same


Thats because of quark


we were all so different that it hurt.


Quarantine


it felt i was talking to the other people


Well people age and grow up all the time


i still dont think i wanna stay here...


it has been pressure all around and it has been terrible for me.


But it will disperse trust me


The pressure will go away


it feels like im hit with a bullet when i think of schoolwork or the daunting task of talking to peers. it worries me a lot that i will never be social and will never go out of my room again.


nobody else feels the same way at my school. i want to gauge my eyes out and cut my ears off when they even get close to me. im always remembered as that one kid who was weird in elementary school. it sucks being remembered as the person you were 15 years ago.


it feels as if im detached from my community


Youve been at the same school for 15 years?


yes


How old are you


and i hate every single human being besides a few


im in college now tgo


tho


im 19


College is a tough time


My brother is in his 2nd year of college


Im still hoghsct


High school


i hate my peers so much and i want them to go away, so i felt the only way was suicide, so they would never have to see my faces and i would never have to see theirs. i would never have to relive the bullies and people who pushed me down...


ive never been successful.


Life is gonna get harder and its alri but if u just think of the things that keep u in this world the things that make u wake up everyday


Parents?


nope


What about a goal


Start from there


If u dont have one make one


I used to be the smartest out of my siblings but then something happened and now Im shit at math and everything


But last year I failed all my math test but one day I got a pass and I was so happy


It inspired me to try that extra bit


Is there anyone u trust that can help u stop there bullys


These


i used to be a good person but i was ripped of my dignity and my life. im only happy when its time to escape through video games.


im in college... most of them are somewhere else


they did this in middle and high school


they tormented me, stole my food, told me to do it, but my friends were always there...


and for once in a while, they arent...


Ok thats harassment


Tell the cops


Or teacher


it was in middle and high


not college


What do they do in college


nothing since they went to different colleges


So ur just feeling down cause ur away from ur friends?


Sorry i just dont know the whole story


Maybe take a break


Just have a day to urself or more


Just do whatever u want and have time to think


my close friend, dex, you prob know him, always said, if you do it you better save a seat


here ill @ him


Ik who he is


Jedthus


this guy


his real name isnt dex, and yes


ive been dealing with it in the back of my head since middle school


U should know that killing urself doesnt do or fix anything


its always been way too much


thats what they all say, nopoint


I have tried to kill myself too


It was a scary moment


I couldnt take anything in life


Yeah its scary to think about when I was going to


ive done that many times. welcome to the club of pain.


All the opportunities I would have missed


where everybody hates themselves


But ending it now is just no point


U have worked so hard for ur life am I wrong?


So there is so much good in this world


yes you are wrong


ive worked hard but the bad has drained me of life


U worked hard see


How long do u get to sleep each day


i might have worked hard but it doesnt matter


It does matter


i stay up til around 43am thinking and waiting


Thats why


It helps a person be better of how hard they work


U need to sleep more


like a bedtime is gonna solve my problems


oh you wanna end world hunger? sleep more.


see how that wont work?


I cant remember who it was I think Jacki chan and he didnt give any of his money to his son. He said if my son cant work to earn his money he doesnt deserve it


Sleep clears the mind


yeah and sleep is worthless to me


Sleep helps you focus more because it gives your brain a rest


look, if its 2am already today, then im not sleeping


I understand ur having a hard time and u want to end it but it really doesnt fix anything, like u have so much to live for, just because some assholes bullied u doesnt mean u end it, there are a lot of people who are dealing with problems and probably want to kill them self but everyone had a goal, or someone, or something that makes them wanna move forward or think of something u will do for the world or just for. 1 person or for yourself and try to reach that goal


I have a goal its probably never gonna happen but I still want to stride for it


I still get bullied


I know its hard but I made him invisble to myself


Literally ignored him whenever he did something so he didnt get a reaction like he wanted


mine was built like a toothpick and i never beat him up, i was always scared. he stole my food and most days i didnt even eat.


he was the worst person alive.


every single day at lunch he came to my table, ruined my food, and took it


Everyone has different thoughts


U still in iso or not


he was never luckily hurting me physically because he knew if he just touched me his ass would be in the pavement.


Im skinny and get teased about it but I dont care because I eat a lot but just have fast metabolism


if i had the chance...


See be the tuff guy


Who cares what people say


They are just words


That people make to feel good


but then i would be the bully


I want to get a stress ball


About them self


Stress balls seem so fun


Like chewing gum


I try to bite down hard to break the chewing gum


I dont have a stress thing only thing I do is fidget my leg


My parents notice it and think Im weird for doing it


yeah when i stretch my leg has like a mini seizure


I dont have a stress thing I just zone out and listen to music


Listen to Boys by lizzo


Best vibe


Lizzo


i listen to lil darkie which is probably the problem


Prolly


Probably


but one line speaks to me...


I have a wide range of songs


Music is life to me


I would listen to anything


Hey onib


Onib


Heyy


What's happening here


Hello


I like ur pfp


Stuff


Just venting


he said in his song genocide” stop being depressed, step outside and puff out your chest, he made you the best thats ever gonna come out the nest. that line has stuck with me ever since.


What does it mean to you


What do you think it means in your words


even though he talks about commies and nazis he can still say stuff that means a lot


Why does it stand out to you


Then u cant change the past


U only can do ur best in the present


it makes me think that the world would be okay if i was okay


it makes me feel special in a weird way


Thats good


it makes me feel like i wasnt harassed by my older brother and his friends and that i could take on anything.


it makes me feel like i had really good friends


Im listening to geonocide


i just feel like lil darkie has some bad things and good things. he may be a commie or nazi, but he seems like a nice guy


oh yeah genocide is a 10 minute long song so be in for the long haul


Personal opinion listen to less heavy full on songs to more relaxed songs


Honesty Woahan I just wish for the best for u and I really hope u succeed in life and I care about u and really dont want u to kill urself but I havent helped people actually I really cannot help people Im not good with emotions it upsets me but I think my only advice I can think of is maybe getting a therapist they are professional at this and will help u through rough times


another good one is methead freestyle. has some good and bad parts.


i like the heavy style


But that may be why you feel this way as well


Boys is actualy such a good song


like dont tread on me by lil darkie is about the auckland shooting and he makes me feel kind of sad, but other than that his other songs hype me up.


like genocide and big war hype me up while playing krunker


same with rap music and jack daniels


Im not the best with this stuff but I suggest trying to get some more sleep because it rests your brain from all the stress


its already 2 am..


Later today


aight ima get off. see ya tomorrow.


i might be on later tho


See you hope you feel better


Bye


same to you


bye


Whenever Im sad I just listen to home or gone gone gone by Philip Philip


Or ho hey


Ho hey by the Lumineers? bob ross


Oh ya


Its a great song


My brothers godfather sings that


Cool cool


Hes a good mate of ours


Thats nice


Ngl when people say all their problems and I try help it makes me feel like so many people are sad all the time and its gets me down. Like I want to help people out but its having a toll on me by showing me all the bad things that happen in life


Damn


Maybe they fell asleep while their discord was still opened


Maybe they don't want to talk because they don't feel like it


I guess but not that many people


When ur ex is still hot af


But your not getting back together


Felt that lowkey


She posts on her snap story


Its so hard not to think about her


When you're trying to move on, but your brain is still drawn towards that person


It's a big oof


Thanks


Thing is I didnt have that weaker less love first relationship I just went all out and asked her


Weaker less love?


Oh so you had a strong relationship?


A girl I liked led


Less


I really liked my ex like so much


I literally would try see her face everyday


Not in weird way


Only at school


Yeah that's gonna hurt for a bit, but hey it'll get better it may not seem like it now, but it will at some point


Maybe you need some more time, or do some things to cope with it really being over


There is girl Im otg with but its more friendship but she doesnt realise


That's understandable tho, likeinf someone hella that you kinda just wanna see them it makes sense


Like I guess thats just how I feel about her


But I dont want to seem mean and say no


Yeah sometimes your brain can tell you to move on, but your heart doesn't quite wanna let go of those moments you shared


Maybe trying letting her down easy


We didnt have any moments


Ah well


The moments that could've happened


2 week relationship


Apart from a head touching head for two seconds


I literally froze when she did that


Still when you like someone a lot it gets hard


Yeah


I hope you feel better buddy


But you should also definitely tell the girl you're not interested like rhat


Better than letting her think that you are


But I did used to like her


Well do you still?


I guess not really but we havent really talked because iso we just send snaps back forth


See my pfp thats how I wish my life was Rn


Doing something I love with someone I love


Yeah I think a lot of people want that, it sucks it can't be easier tho


I'm sure one day you'll find the right person for you tho


Sometimes it just takes time there'll be ups and downs, but hey it'll work out


u matter health matters too


yes


sleep is good man


your health matters


you should start sleeping more nopoint or it might stress you out try get around 7 hours of sleep


humans need sleep


I mean


Ya I do sleep


You dont get enough sleep


If you dont get enough it will start to stress you out


It really doesnt stress me


Im able to sleep anytime even If Im not tired


Its just cause I have nothing to do I rather just stay up


sleep?


what's that


whos he


mj do be lookin hot tho


he likes little boys


da,m


Thanks same


Ummm I wanna vent but I feel no emotions like nothing


Wdym by this


that


Idk I just dont feel anything


Like nothing


For myself at least


Is it like no sadness or happiness?


Like no nothing


I have hope and all that


Just dont feel angry


Dont feel sad


Dont feel happy


Im just there


With nothing


I feel the same way kinda


I just have a moment thats all


Honestly I have been great


There was a time a little bit ago that all I felt was dull and the only reason im saying it is because I dont feel it as much anymore so its going to be better


but patience


Ya ik


Its just a moment


Hmmm


No cap I like my PFP its still pretty


Nice


Like you dont even know who you are at the end of the relationship


Yup


Like you feel like you lost yourself completely


And that you still have little hope in finding yourself again but will probably never happen


Took me about a year


Idk how long it will take me if I even find myself again


I just didnt care about relationship after that


Even tho I did go into another one but it broke off after a few months


So I just dont really go for it unless its something Im fully prepared to do


I dont think I will be going into another relationship again for a while


Until Im at least finding myself a lil


I just dont think Ill ever be myself again


I just feel like I wont find myself again


I feel you


what do you mean


explain please


whenever i join on a zoom call w my friends, they just go on w their conversation but when someone else anyone else theyre all happy and excited


it was like that at real school


im always overlooked and feel abandoned but i cant leave the friend group


maybe they arnt paying attention to the screen


oh


maybe try talk to them


tell them how you feel


if they are true friends they will help you


and include you more


message one of them now


do they talk at night


try now but if they dont answer try later tonight


sorry im not that good at explaining things like this


thats my vent


nice


Opened one of my assignments and started crying wtf is going on at this point


Wait you dont break down normally?


u open ur assignments?


I try not to breakdown, probably just me being a mess like normal it's nothing


Im really sorry to hear that Grim. If it helps at all, Ive got the same problem with school. And my life is currently in shambles as well. The best thing I can suggest is ignore your stepsisters” and do your best to ignore your brother. Everything happens for a reason Grim. You just havent figured it out yet.


grim im really sorry of the situation ur in and i wish there is more i can do in this time of thing ik i probably can't do anything with the family issue and just hope it gets better but with the school if u need a break from discord to do the work u can, its fine to take a break and if u need help with anything then u have us to help u just gotta ask and all im saying cause of the current situation everyone is, it is very difficult for most people and it getting worse day by day and all i hope is once the quarantine is over everyone can get better at their own pace


we're here for you Grim, anytime


so. my friend got put in the hospital. no one can even see her. and i just can't lose her. we've made so many great memories i don't want to lose her. i don't know what to do. rn i am just talk to my friends on call. i'll keep you guys updated.


ok ik there is nothing to do in this situation is just to hope and believe she will be better


thank you.


if u need anyone to talk to my dms are always free and ill try my best to give advice and support


crying for no reason to let tears out is amazing


facts


unless u cant cry and them u just ache


Yes


Im so sorry


If they cant trust you again for the thing that to u did they werent meant to be your friends if that makes sense


I feel exactly like that bro but we can get through it


brotha


If they cant trust you for a mistake you made then it bettor off without them


i kid said my head built like an octagon:


Big F


i fell asleep again


early


Good for you


no


i will try not to go on my bed tonight at all


you should sleep early sometimes


No youve been passing out


ya


maybe


idk


once i lay down my body just boom


because you is tired and you needs to sleep


bi


yea


you havent been getting enough sleep recently and when you wake up you are too tired to get out of bed you should try get about 7 hours of sleep or youll get stressed


i don't get stressed tho


im actually perfectly fine


even if i stay up


sleep a little then staying up all night isnt good


i mean there isn't anything to do


if I put sleep in phone you know the buttons with words that come up


It says this


Sleep is for the weak


like every time you meet someone who you want to be close to you have to make yourself fit into their mold regardless of how you feel


its alri to do that, if thats what being yourself is people should accept that if they don't then you shouldn't be around them


ya


and thats fine


i sneezed and i swear i just busted a vain


u ok?


If you cant be yourself around your friends then your better off without them


What happened


F society F life F existing in this faulty mirage that the toxicity of the community you happen to have fallen victim to has conditioned you into believing I think its disgusting existing in a world where people actually believe theyre better than someone else


I shouldve told you I loved you but I couldnt say it out loud, I couldnt let you know how much I cared, I couldnt let you know how easily you couldve hurt me, Im sorry for not trusting you enough to tell you whats on my mind, its not your fault I swear, I couldnt open up to anyone and I still cant, you deserve better than me and I couldnt let you get yourself hurt by caring about me, its better for you this way, an even though it hurts to remember, Im glad your happy


AIYANA


Idk if this is lyrics or not but Im still really sorry and I hope there is something I can help with or something u want me to do


No, theres nothing you can really do, its something I have to get through on my own even though Ill never really get over it, I know how badly you want to help and believe me it really does mean a lot but the simple fact that you listened makes it that much easier


Aiyana


Yes Lily?


We're here for you:c


OwO bot now is not the time dood


Bad OwO


Im not okay, and its okay to not be okay, and its okay to have emotions, its okay to trust people, its okay to get hurt, and it is not your fault


Im still struggling to accept everything above this but its getting better


oh jeezums was not expecting to relate that hard. I don't know you very well but i do care and am here for you. Im sure everyone in this server is. My dms are always open if you need to chat. That goes for pretty much everyone here but still. I do hope it gets better for you and slowly but surely im sure it will


I. Love. You. You have no. Idea what that means to me


I care for everyone in the server even tho I do have my own problems and I probably have depression and stress I still want to care and help out the server and treat it as my family everyone means a lot to me even if ur new ur part of the server and I would do anything just to make u guys smile so if anything is bothering u or ur upset plz talk to me or anyone u trust


Do you need to talk about anything?


I had my time and talking doesnt fix things I have tried it may have fixed little but still picking up the pieces


Its okay to move slow, things dont happen over night, but listen to me very carefully, no matter how bad things get, no matter how badly you think youre drowning, it. Gets. Better, things get easier, and I know its hard, and I know you feel like its going to be like this forever but its not, its exhausting beating yourself up over the little every little thing, give yourself a break, take the time to just breathe, let it all out, its okay


It will all be okay


Im just having a moment thats all


It hasnt really the best 34 weeks


I did kinda rant a week ago but like it helped me little


Dont pass it off unless its something that is affecting you 24/7 I know how bad it can get, but you cant get better if you keep lying to yourself about it


yeah. you can have bad times. Where it gets worse for a bit but it may get worse before it gets better and thats okay. You just have to stay strong and pull through it. Keeping all your friends and family and people you care about close to your heart. It sounds cringe but friends and family and thinking about them and how much you care about them and how much they care about you can help alot.


Seem


One little thing you can change that helps a lot is your music


I mean ik its a shit time and Ik its gonna get worse life isnt easy but we just have to make it to the point where it feels amazing just struggling where to go


Idk if ur talking to me or simi so Im just gonna sit back and watch


Discord is actually the only thing holding me to the ground tbh


NoPoint it can be confusing when trying to find how to progress. but the answer will come whether its sooner rather than later. Just dont be dying on us


Life is only going to get worse if you convince yourself it is, you are a soul inside of a human body, its not going to last, none of it is, the tears, the pain, the loneliness, the lack of emotion, nothing is permanent, NoPoint this is a test run, you can do anything you want with it


Im life is honestly worse then rock bottom


im too out of it to read rn but we love you nopoint


I got 1 string to this life and thats disxord


Im a discord Addict


If I lose this honestly I think Im done


Same


Im failing school


NoPoint Is that really what it is or just the only thing its recognized for?


My parents know Im a disappointment


I dont care about my school because I have to leave it


I really have no irl friends


Im a complete loner


Says at home does nothing productive


Stays


Its getting worse and worse


I should probably do something with my life but Im really bad at maths and thats a skill you need in life I think


I love you all good night


Good night abrant


Night Brant


Then do something about it, Im not trying to be harsh or anything it just is what is, you have to give people a chance or youll never find someone


Peace


Bye bill


i agree


If you treat everyone as your enemy eventually youll never find an ally


My ally is discord


I don't want to find an ally


Everybody just turns their back on you everytime


I just have no one close enough


Do you consider your parents close


i dont even consider my parents close. i can barely talk to em...


Same


You don't need math in your life, I'm terrible at math.


Yeah but the thing is I liked her before quarantine because we started talking in class and I did said to her its pretty obvious we both like each other but I think now Isnt the right time because iso


But because iso we drifting


Apart


No shes just not the right person


she seems toxic asf dud


Yeah I know but shits going to be awkward


I dont know her but I know her type, shes manipulative and she will drag you through the mud


WHO CARES


YOU DESERVE BETTER


Scary shit no point typing is


I just dont really know how to break it to her


I thought I should wait till school goes back and see if maybe it sparks again but Im getting kinda annoyed when she sends a snap every few minutes


But Ive seen her type before but never dated


Just drift, its the best thing to do honestly, no confrontation, no awkward talk, no hard feelings,


Just somebody you used to fw


Ive kinda messed up though because my ex used to actually be bullied by this girl but I found out it last year but kinda forgot


Damn Im sorry bro but everyone can change themselves


I dont really know what to say


I really cannot change the 16 years of what I been doing


NoPoint I want you to do one thing for me okay?


I just try to stay positive and helpful but Im a mess


Ya?


I guess you could try start by doing something diffferent everyday


Go hug your mom, tell her you love her, you dont have to do it now, or tomorrow, take your time, just promise me youll do it okay?


Everyday you should make your bed because it proves you can do stuff and it makes you look neater and soon doing those little things will turn into bigger things in your life


I cant promise that


Every day my body shakes


Every night


It cycles through my head everyday


i really wish i could help


How come some parts are blank


Man I really just want to give you a hug


U click on them and u can see it


Yeah me too


Idk Im just broken


Idk what to do anymore


I just try to be positive and helpful and when it doesnt help I feel like I just ruined someones life even more and its like I made everything worse for everyone


Idk


No point you are a really kind person who has helped out so many people on this server and I honestly think you are actually really cool. Now Im not just saying this because how you feel


i have alot of regrets in my life and one of my biggest ones was not spending enough time with my dad. I regret no spending time with him when i had the chance. Dont wanna seem melodramatic but you really dont know how long you have left with your loved ones till its too late. So make sure you try, try mend with your parents, even if you cant explain whats wrong just make sure they know you love them.


You are a kind person who really looks out for people


Something I have done is just try make my room a bit cleaner


It helps prove you can do stuff


My mind is just hurting and idk how to stop


Bruv i wanna hug you. You seem like you need one. Your mind will hurt for a while, you may not be able to stop it. But ranting and venting helps. when you talk to people about your problems it can feel like a huge weight has been lifted off your shoulders.


I know you dont want to and you get told this a lot but you really should try get off discord and get outside and try meet some people I know its not ideal in iso but getting outside without tech helps me focus so much on my life and what is happening and has happened that I missed because I was to caught up


yeah, another regret. spending to much time on technology when i could have spent it with people.


U guys are people


I love everyone here


But its not a face to face connection


I cant leave everyone here when I cant even talk to people face to face in this world


we know and we love you too. but its not actual physical human, face to face connections. Not having human contact can make us go nuts, it is in our nature


This is my human contact


i get that alot. but i find when i start actually talking to people getting more comfortable. its normally best to find the right people. the people who will accept you no matter what. im very lucky to have that group right now but you need to find yours


It. Takes. Time. Your not broken, your not a disappointment, mentality is a big thing, it takes over your entire life, your relationships, your perceptions of life, its not something that happens easily, it is. Normal


My parents ya we go for walks but we dont talk to anyone this is my only way to talk to people


if it is your only source of human interaction right now, maybe do continue to talk to us. but do take a break sometimes and live in the outside world for a bit. damn i really need to take my own advice...


A few months ago before corona there was an old lady who couldnt read the info on bus stop and she asked me to help. All afternoon I was doubting myself saying I made a mistake and thinking that she was waiting for ages or something happened to her


I cant take my own advice


Same


I physically cannot follow my son advice


I tell people to have a break and do stuff but never do it myself


many of us need to practice what we preach. I always find myself telling people to do stuff i should probably really do myself


Find an uplifting Spotify playlist to listen to that will cheer you up a bit


We're all a bit scared of doing some things. Giving advice is easier to do it by ourselves.


Idk my mind still hurts and Im probably was crying thorough all that but Im feeling a little better


I think i follow you on Spotify no point and Ive heard some of the songs you listen to and you should try listen to a few more happy songs


crying is good! sometimes its good to cry and let out any emotions that you have bottled up


Yeah


Im a emotional dude so actually when I talk to most peoples out their problems I cry but I still try to help


And thats fine! Its better to be emotional than stone cold with pent up emotions


You don't need to repay people. Smh, I think we're all happy to help you a bit.


You dont need to repay us! We love you and want to help: 3


Everyone has moments when the feel down so it ok


I still get break downs every night and idk how to deal with them


Idk sorry I have breakdowns and I just draw whatever why hand wants to draw I literaly just draw lots of lines


Find someone to take your mind away from I


It


Yeah, breakdowns are a bitch. The best thing is to not and i repeat DO NOT do anything drastic. If you need to talk during one to ease it off come talk. Try scribbling your feelings on paper. i do that alot and it feels better to not just carry them


Music is the only thing that helps me but its still a bit rough


Music is always a good way! Happy and uplifting songs that make you wanna dance sounds cringe ik can help alot


Ya ig


And if you do feel in a self harm way just get rubber bands on your arm and flick your arm when you think this way


Change your music. It affects your whole mood. And sunlight. Going outside. I know it sound cliche but they helped me so much


Going outside helps sometimes indeed, it's not cliche, I do that as well c:


When iso over you should try go make some friends


I know its a hard thing to do but it will be worth it


I mean I do have friends just not close ones


Idk ya I might


People are hard to talk to face to face


If I met any of u irl i still wouldnt say anything


Yeah they are, its often why i go silent in vcs


Im that shy dude


Yeah I have very bad social skills


Hey, thats okay!


I can talk in vc cause its online and it doesnt bother me


Ya cant look at a person face to face eye to eye and have a full convo with them


We cant help what social skills we do and dont have. some people social skills come naturally but others not so much. its a case of training yourself to learn them


You actually have a nice voice


NoPoint I would hug you because you need one dood


I would fall asleep if no point read me a story


Bro honestly


He sounds like a Youtuber I have heard before


Fearless or something


Idk what people hear in my voice


Everyone hears their voice differently so


I hear my voice deep but when I talk into recording it comes out higher pitcher


Taylax honestly I just need some human interaction a high face at least but a hug would be so nice


My voice comes out not as deep but its weird frequency


if only virtual hugs were as effective as real ones


I have a Owo hug that changes me


I will send it in pics


Ig people really care about looks when its the first thing they see


When you talk to someone onlin then meet them its more personality


if they are attractive too thats just a nice add on. But personality i find is more important


i was doing a some research for an english essay and majority of people agree that personality is the most important attribute


Yeah


Ya but u only meet understand someones personality when u talk to them and people first take to them if they look cute


It is


Im being completely honest here but first thing I notice about people is there looks but once I get to notice its more personality but looks will always be in back of my head but thats just who I am


i guess. but all of us have met before if any of us met up. I mean ive already shown my face aijide. thats why meeting up and making online friends is fun they judge you for your personality not look majority of the time


I didnt see your face reveal


lel i have an image in selfies


Where


i posted it yesterday cause i leveled up and was like yess


I will have check but wont screenshot because thats not nice


thank you:


Everyone already knows what I look like


Some people even tho my address


Idrc


If they come they cone


if i lived in canada i would be storming over immediatley after quarantine is over just to give you a hug oksojdi... ive said that alot


so cute Tay


I spent ages looking for it but couldnt find


scroll up


Just search up her name in history


I did


Ohh


Makes sense


lmao


Wasnt there


Is it bad I havent hugged someone besides my parents in forever


Ill get it


I used to shy away from hugs but i need some friend hugs right now. but c o r o n a said no


I couldnt find it Lax


ill post another in a second if you cant find it


Ok thanks


hold on a secondd


It was In selfie


I was looking in pics


ndejiknak


Here go to pics


Not used to new update


I sent it


This is a channel meant for ranging and venting


No need to apologize


And I have a parent like that. Except I dont get money. They say I do nothing and that they do it all. When its not true.


Youve gotta push through it. Its not worth the dwelling over it


That really helped Rachel thank you


ima post a long paragraph cause i have a lot to vent tbh i apologise in advance


im really sorry about ur loss and i understand its a scary thing to lose someone and im not gonna tell u to forget him cause thats mean but i want you to move on with that keep that as a memory that you don't want that to happened to ur other ones ik its pretty bad advice but i just want u to know that a loss is hard on ur own and i understnad that u feel like ur alone but ur not alone i care about you alot people in this server cares about u and ik there are people irl that care about you and want to support you and i understand that it feels like nothing is getting better but it is, it may take time and time is shit but all we can do is wait and have others trust and support and try to become better as yourself, your always gonna have these mess ups and loss in ur life but that can't define you, look for the things that make u for u and start with that, look at the things that make you happy and go off that, make a goal to make you feel better but i just want to let you know ur not alone and i would never want that upon anyone, being alone sucks and i understand idk what loss is and probably not the right person to talk to, so maybe if you feel like your breaking then maybe have a therapist but if ur too scared for that im always here to talk to u and will try my best to support and care for you, cause i care for everyone in the server and want everyone to live lifes with joy


Im sorry that had to happen to you especially at such a young age. Im not really good at comforting people but life has its reasons. You have me and the people on this server that you can talk to


Its going to take time to go away, ive lost my grand parents it was devastating but it will get better. Just try taking your mind off it


sometimes this feelings will help you and will give you hope, maybe u should talk to ur mother cause if she knows how it feels then its best to talk to her and it is gonna take time and u can go at ur own pace but if u need a clear mind its best to just have a break from everything and just be urself, go hang out with friends, talk to someone, ft someone have some time on ur own


onib go to sleep


i do that lot but i use unhealthy ways. i become addicted to youtube, watch shows and play video games as a way to escape everything. I need healthier ways but i have lost all productivity levels and motivation whilst in quarantine. ive got art block and cant do any art coursework. no inspiration to write stuff. no motivation to continue my diary. jikjwq i just wanna go back to school.


I really wish I could hug u right now instead of this text message... I know u must be feeling devastated and lonely now. Know that ur not alone we are right here with u everyday


thank you onib


i used to hate school and was so happy when school was cancelled and now is the complete opposite


ik in this situation its hard for everyone but if you can just hold on and wait for this virus to go, im sure it will get better and im really sorry i can't do anything else i always feel like words really don't do anything. if i could i would fly all the way to england just to try to make a smile on ur face and all i ask is that if you want to take out the feeling and emotions then maybe have a call buddy, its best when u talk to someone with a voice so it can give you comfort honestly face to face would be better i get that but i just thing to take baby steps and start with having someone to call and be there for you


if u want ill be that call buddy


i just want to u to be safe


happy


and enjoy ur life


thank you. as much as it may seem not but you guys messaging and replying and trying to help does help alot


i want to help as much as possible


jodsaad thank you. i really really do appreciate that 3


i just want the best for you and everyone in the server


i wanna say that i want the same for you and everyone else. i feel we all should take alot of our own advice sometimes


I dont want anyone to feel bad not even people i hate. I may not come out as the nicest or most supportive but just know i dont want you feeling sad


emily u are one of the nicest people i know


thank you emily. you seem to be such a nice person. like seriously, now donchu put yourself down like that


just be safe and plz if ur ever down or not feeling urself call me or text, i don't want anyone in the server to feel down especially u guys


i will, thank you. and same goes for you okay?


oki


btw i can't find ur inst


a


its alri


ive tried venting something for the past 20 minutes and for some reason i jusr cant. i even had doubts just writing this


What happened


Shes texting me again


Or trying to


Then either ignore her or just see what she says


Im trying to ignore her


idk maybe talk to her but don't be too nice


Im not being nice really


ok good


Dont be too nice or too rude just get your point across


Oh yeah


dont get off topic shes probably going to say how much she misses you and you have to remind her why you guys broke up in the first place


Im blocking her now


alrighty do what you gotta do


as you should


I hate living in the same town as my cousin


Why if you dont mind me asking?


Im here using this channel to tell about a weird dream I had so dont think Im drunk or anything it was just a dream


So I woke up” in my godfathers house and I went to go get a sparkling water from his fridge


is that it?


No one


Nononono


I still have a lot


So I went and put each of the glasses of water around the house


One had strawberries one had ice and the other just had water


So I finished the one with strawberries and drank half of the one with water


So after I finished the strawberry water and half of the ice water, I was suddenly teleported to like a hospital hallway


Except the hallway was halfway filled with cranberrry juice


I walked past a door and went backwards through it and I was suddenly in a new hallway


This hallway was filled halfway up with balloons


So I walked a little bit and I was suddenly back at my godfathers house


And thats when he came out and I woke up


Really trippy dream


And now I have a headache


Tw: S/x h/r/ssment


So I joined a server today and I asked for PluralKit to be added, like I did here. But the owner told me that hed only allow it if I sent him nudes.. I told the rest of the server and they laughed at me and said it was an inside joke”..


oof


Why


I got a pic of me in selfies


Cuz that exists now


I have two friends


And both i am on bad terms with


And i got depression thanks to quarantine


Wait wait, so you and your friend had an arguement because you tried telling him he had a toxic gf?


I regret so many choices I made in past but its to late now


Can you guys help Im sorry but Im really tired and probably wont give the best advice atm


Ok have a good day or night but if you need me talk to me tomorrow after I had sleep


Ah in that case, you've done nothing wrong, if your friend doesn't see that she's toxic now, then he'll notice sooner or later


Good night


Don't worry, J has made a mistake and forgiven someone a little early, sooner or later he'll notice this mistake and sort it out himself, maybe apologize to you eventually


Unfortunately, when this happened to an old close friend of mine, it took him a year and a half to get out of a ridiculous onoff relationship, filled with toxicity and heartbreaks, so all it takes is patience and hope... Even though is cheesy sounding, it's true /


Well cheer up, you did the right thing in trying to warn your friend of the consequences of toxic relationships, have a cookie!


I agree, it take a lot of courage to address something with a friend especially if it's about someone they like. All the things you're feeling fight now are valid but also at some point let yourself feel proud for standing up to a friend, hopefully he gets out of that situation but for now it's out of your hands


I


Sorry


To


Hear


That


i


am


not


good


At this


Hm?


R u ok


Its 11


thats good you should get some sleep sometimes!


What


No


Anytime I sleep something happens in the server


Its fine you need to rest as well.


but you need to sleep its not healthy


you might start getting sick or go brain dead


hey Point dont worry. You should sleep! We can always catch you up later anyway:


Damn NoPoint


You missed helping someone


But its ok. I think shes ok for now. And she knows that we are all here for her.


No ones there for everything. You help as many people as you can. And I think I can safely say for a majority of us, thats what we need. We really appreciate all you do for us Simar.


Don't worry too much. Sometimes you can't always be there for everyone. You should always take care of yourself however before pushing yourself to help others though. It sounds selfish but its true and i need to learn that to


I dont push myself, even tho if I could I would for anyone but its just that I want to be here 24/7 see what I can do if someone needs help or something or something happened and no other staff was around or an argument or anything just that I want to be there to see if I could help. I tell people all the time you wanna talk about ur problem and when they say no I just dont know what to do, I wanna help them but like at that point idk how


Thats ok. Everyone has that feeling sometimes.


We appreciate what you can do for us.


Yeah i meant pushing yourself physically. Like staying up late to be there for people and possibly risking your own health. Sometimes people don't want help or not talk. Its frustrating but often people just like to have an outlet to scream there problems and be done and often dont like to talk. I understand how you feel though. I always try to be there for people too. But then i do it too much and put so much mental strain on myself without realising. I often never talk about my issues with friends but help them with theres and i think its my brain tryna hide from my problems. I never really realised till i spent an entire night being a therapist and one of my friends asked me if i was okay when i hadnt been asked all night. Its always always always best to put your physical and mental health first no matter how selfish it seems. And when people dont want to talk, even if i can be difficult to not try push them too, just make sure they know you are there and if they ever do actually want to talk they are comforted by the fact they know they can go to someone.


R u ok now?


See, oddly enough, thats my same mentality.


whats your mentality again?


What you just said


its kind of what you believe is correct and such. Its hard to explain really


For example


Its fine


I still dont get it but its fine


Honestly I might just stay in here


Ye same


Mentality; the characteristic way of thinking of a person or group.


Synonyms; mindset


Ive been banished to here


Idk what my mentality is


Love is a lie


Fuck the earth


And i dont see a reason for lufe


Its only produce and repoduce


Ur just having a moment thats all


An endless chain of pain and unnecessary hope


People backstab when they get the chance


Who backstabbed u?


Thats 5 days and cause of the situation we are in ur gonna have a hard time


like i say one thing and everyone get instant triggerd


Because it was a triggering topic


but people dont realize that everything i say is gonna trigger someone


take a guess why world leaders are seen as bad


That is why we asked you to come here


and you did


cuz they get taken out of porportion


im shaking and i dont feel good


this place is where you can openly vent whatever you like


oh no


im gonna have a attak


Oh god


i am gonna faint 100 procent


I don't know how to handle these too wll


Do you know how to deal with these?


Try control your breathing first


Screaming about your issues isnt gonna solve em


Is anyone in the house with you that can help? Bring you water and such


Dont think


Inflate your lungs


Deep breathing


Sometimes thats just how it is


this entire planet is a mess


Pretty much


my thoughts off the world are fuckd


and im sorry if you get triggerd but i dont care


i cant type my hands are fuckine shaking


Stop thinking


Just breathe


Deep deep breaths


Inflate and exhale


Only breathing


tha is not how i work, life is a complicated matter


It is


you gotta think every step of the way


Im helping you with your panic attack not your depression


panic attak or not


think


always tink


If this stuff doesnt help you should probably call someone to help you


no, people dont understand


Understand what


understand my state


It can always be worse


ik


i am thankfull for that


foesnt mean its good


ahg why cant i stop shaking


super anoying


We do try understand. Don't forget alot of us are or have been in your state too. We want to try help as much as possible as well


Well, you should probably get off your computer if your having so many issues and call someone to help you out


You just had an attack


i dont want help from anyone


Or you may still be in it


Yes, we understand


help comes at a price


its my nerve system and brain


they will setle


Yes. Just focus on your breathing and try not to think too much


You don't want to flare up again


its my brain which is making a little thingy


which says do this


thats how it all works


love is just a little thing the brain makes


quite facsinating


I've never been in love


also a goo reason why love is a lie, you dont feel in love, its all the brain


I would like to


i like to stay single


irl people i cant trust


I have always believed that the person who is best for me is out there


If thats what you wanna do


i never think that


even if


statisticcly speaking that chance would be zero


I am quite a hopeless romantic considering i've not fallen in love or been in a long lasting relationship


so i dont bother


Well


If thats how you see it


Then sure


if there were someone out there for me the chane would be small that i meet that person


so why bother searhing


i got a survival of the fittest mindset


I guess it all depends


dry texxt 101


That is how you and me differ


i am pessimistic


we differ quite a bit


no man is truely the same


Yes. i am quite an optimist surprisingly but its just easier for me to deal with my issues that way


and statisticly speaking there will never be someone like you


so all the soft talk of u are original is in fact true


but then again i only say that cuz statistics dont lie


and despite that i am a hopeless romantic as well


Yes. We are all unique and different. No two people are the same. Even with identical twins and such, they may look the same but often there is something that means you can differentiate between the two and they often have different personalities


i just dont see me getting anyone


i try not to get my hopes up


learned that to myself


still happy i did


Sometimes having protective mindsets can be good. But its some time better to try open your mind a bit


unfortunatley


we always get hurt


i dont think its good to open up


Life is never fair


and is os wish it was


its easier to give important data away


when u are vulnreable


I am often an open person


Open to new idea


s


i like to stick to habits


Open to new mechanics of the way things work and open to people about myself


it makes life more trustable


Yes. However some habits can be unhealthy


but enough of this gross venting stuff


im going to main


Alr


Okay


Oh god


I still feel slightly fuzzy if that makes sense


i have never been in such a situation as this


its like the feeling of adrenaline fading away


but not


i feel kind of sick too


and am worried about people who suddenly went offline during that


do i worry to much about other people?


I don't know if thats a good or a bad thing


I always take care of others before myself...


is that bad


Yes


Its terrible


this situation has really put into perspective of how peoples issues can affect me


kjhdiusdfhs


LMAO


thanks soon XD


ugh, now that i am common sense


why do i feel like people are weaker or more vulnerable


only thing im alright at is rollerblading and even then i get bullied for it by my peers.


nooo


so who cares what they think


killing myself would be nice right now


I can't rollerblade so your doing better than me lmao


ive always wanted to


DO NOT DO THAT


fate no suicide is never the option


No


No death


Death uncool


yes it is. he was one of the people closest to me and look at him now, dead.


I felt the same way with my dad


everyone has a talent even if you dont see it youll find it very soon it might not be that common but everyone is unique and special and no one deserves to die


Life throughs curvballs at you and the slam you smack bang in the face but you have to pick yourself up


even if it takes a while


ive been in a depressed state for 3 years now. i will probably never recover from this shit. its the last nail in the coffin.


Do your parents know?


knowing that ill have to attend his funeral is such a sad thought.


it will all get better very soon


My dads death only sunk in till i saw his coffin at the funeral


Funerals give finalit


Its best to go to them


Then you dont have to be in denial


thats what they have been saying for the past 3 years pumpkin, itll never get better for me.


try not to think about sadness only think about happy times and dont let the sadness take over


i was in denial for all the days leading up to the funeral


fate but it will you just need to wait a little


It will get better if you want it to get better. It will get better when you try and make it better.


even my brother cried. he hasnt cried for at least a year.


fate wait a little longer it will definitely get better no matter what you think or anyone else says


because its a sad time it is normal to cry


yeah and its definitely normal for a middle schooler wanting to kill themselves. i have had the worst of luck besides my friend dex.


many people have gone through the same it will go away soon and you will never have to deal with it again


You would be surprised how many people your age are suicidal. You are not alone


You are never alone with how you feel


again, what they have been saying for 3 years. they act like im never depressed at school so i make stupid jokes to make me feel better. luckily they are never about other people, so its not bullying.


i do that too ngl


I make jokes about my dads death alot. Kinda a coping method but people look at me like im a psychopath


i feel like such a terrible person but at the same time i have to act happy around everyone. my friend group split up for 2 months because they found out about me being suicidal.


you are not a terrible person. Trust me.


thats not right...


And that isnt right


i only have one friend that i know will stick with me no matter what.


They are amazing


he said if i did it, save a seat.


I love that friend already


just wait for them to experience how it feels and how they made you feel


hes in this server actually.


ya ik dex is in the server


wait


i was talking to Taylax


is that who ur talking about?


o


yeah


sorry


i met him this year, and ever since we have been friends.


Ohhh


ya dex is a good person and maybe u should cherish him


if it wasnt for him, i would be dead.


I havent talked to him i dont think


they cherish him


I still love him already jfoiewf


go talk to him


i messaged him, he hasnt responded


hes probably busy


he knows what its like to lose someone...


there u go


yesterday was his birthday. i got him a gift, but i couldnt drive over and give it to him.


u can talk to him about it


im sorry


it was only a small gift


maybe hold on to the gift


it was just a japanese import kirby plush. kirby is his favorite nintendo character and i thought it would be great, but this corona shit happened.


o


thats nice


i have the gift, but i cant give it to him until the nerf war.


and im sorry that the situation we are in u aren't able to give it to him


then maybe hold on to the gift until u see him


if u tell him how long u were waiting to give it then he would love it even more


we said fuck it and planned a nerf war for summer


he already knows about the gift


i really want to buy a perses nerf rival gun, but they are like 100S and im broke.


that wouldve been a really good gift, but it was too expensive.


he threw a box of cereal at me for my birthday


thats good


im sorry the situation we are in is making it worse


june 5th and they come in from michigan.


its not your fault nopoint


i still feel bad that ur going through alot


if u need anything ill try my best to help and support


i cant handle it, but at the same time i can control it.


yeah my cousins used to live in italy for a long time so they always came once a year, but they moved to the usa and we can visit more.


o


thats nice


im glad u get to see ur cousins more


i actually have to go rn so we can talk more after


okay


when your none of your friends 1 friend so youre always the replacement/backup friend


and the only person youre not a backup for lives in indiana now


hhaaha


i have no one to hang out with im dy I ng


relatable


Well


now im sad


WAIT ANGRY


R U SAD?


NO


IM SORRY


why did my best friend not tell me about their struggles yet they told our other friends. It really hurts, anyone able to clarify


I sad but idk why


Sometimes im just sad aswell


No reason most of the time


Yeah...


thanks


Just feel like that sometimes, but know that no matter what your situation, it could always be worse


yeah


i just feel like we grew a relationship and he kinda ruined it


Well, they may have found it better to tell someone else that they may consider closer to than you are to them


do i say something or stay quiet


I suggest you remain quiet, But you want them to know that youre open to talk if they ever need anyone to go to


Why?


it just feels like maybe he doesnt trust me or something


Well, maybe its not just trust, Maybe it has to do with them not wanting to bug or annoy you by putting their issues onto you


they always do


we have bro talk like every day


dont why im saying they


Well, Maybe since they usually do, they figured that you would likely rather not be annoyed by them constantly talking to you about their problems


Absolutely


Np


Can I just disappear?


Whats making you feel like that


Everything


E l l a b o r a t e


In the past week almost anything and everything has or will go wrong


F u r t h e r


Do you know whats making things go wrong?


No


Like if anything can go wrong it will


Its been doing it for the past like week


Mmm, Well, are these issues affecting your mental health/functionality as a person?


I mean


A lot of them are


Well like, Clearly mentally but if it does get worse you should probably contact someone about it


I cant really do that


Why not?


I cant trust people


With anything


What convinces you that you cant trust anyone


Any sort of past experience or


Yeah past experience and Ive never really trusted anyone at all


Mhm


Well


if you do need to talk to someone about it There are people that have jobs to handle these kinds of issues, and if you believe that theres truly no one you can trust, I completely understand that, But if it is that way, You should know that My DMs are always open for anything that you just need to get off your chest, getting advice for smth, Honestly just you Can just DM me about any of the problems your going through and Id be glad to help in any way that I can


Thank you


Absolutely


when you get a rush of people dying and bad memories that make you want to kill yourself at 11:31 pm


better start writing the letter!


Ah.. want me to get a suicide hotline number for you?


nope. nobody needs to know.


i prolly wont do it anyway


Hey. You vented about it, you dont want this to happen. Thats enough for me to know that you still have hope.


That is a great thing to look forward towards!


You should do it and Im sure we could all help you get started


Not that its very important, but I feel super sick and its hard to concentrate and I dont know if Ill be able to get to sleep this uncomfortable


What do you feel?


My tummy feels like a hot air balloon


i get sick very often so i can try helping


Very stretched


have you ate?


I think sailor just ate too much/ drank too much


Yeah


Even if I know what caused it, I dont know how to fix it.. aside from waiting I guess:


try drinking water, distract yourself somehow


No I drank too much water! Thats the problem!


and i dont think being active is going to help


oo


ah okay i think just lay down and try distracting yourself


I cant pee if its still in my tummy


Thing that annoys me is that shes gonna take it as a breakup when we never dated


Some of you know I was still working out what i was gonna do but someone apparently told her some stuff


Kinda hope its over though because I was just gonna try block her out slowly so she doesnt realise


Till its to late


Update


So it wasnt me they called dodgy it was the fact that apparently Im popular and shes not and those relationships dont work


Whats wrong with being   popular  and not, you shouldnt categorize people. A bit dumb to say it wont work because of that..


I dont


Thats what someone said to her


She said she wasnt popular and called me popular


And Im not


..., even if you were it doesn't change who you are..


Yall ever been body shamed by your own family?


yes


Yes


Me too


When someone says goodnight for the 3rd time and still doesnt actually leave and it makes you wanna scream cuz youve said gn what feels like 30 times


Udjdnsisn im sorryy my brain wont shut off sineosms


Lowkey tempted to find sleep tablets


Its lile 1am


I would like sleep body lmao


Like ive been trying for the past hour, hour i think?, but yeah no my body wont let me sleep


Try music?


Ooo wait


Try to stay awake. The more you try and stay awake, the more tired your mind gets.


Yeah. I gave up after an hour and came here. Probably gonna go watch netflic now for a bit and fall asleep watching that lmao


Gn again again again again again


Lmao thanks sphorx


If you stay up for 4 nights and days you start to hallucinate


Im not recommending it but if anyone want to take one for the team


wait whos staying up


i say just sleep


tbh everyone should sleep at least 56 hours a day


K but like what about the night time


My sleep schedule is entirely reversed at this point


Then why did you make me go to sleep at like 2 yesterday


I usually wake up at like 11


idc about time


u can sleep anytime


its just best if people sleep at least 5 hours a day


If I can sleep anytime


Then why do you keep telling me to go to bed


cause u probably haven't slept for at least 5 hours that day


have u slept at least 5 hour today?


Yes


im going ti go cry so ill be back in a bit


what


Why r u going to cry?


r u ok?


emily


rowlint


fuck she is offline


tuff


im okay


u sure?


u wanna talk about anything?


yeah


i cant even have a conversation right now


is there something happening?


im sorry ill be back in a little bit


ok


its alri


What?


If you dont mind me asking


Is anybody else falling apart at the seams


Like you just want to scream at the top of your lungs but every time you breathe salt water hits the back of your throat


And you want to ball you eyes out but it hurts too much to cry so your left with a million tiny pieces of yourself falling at your feet


Staring off into space as the world around you turns on its axis


But then you have to snap back to reality and while your body is moving your mind is still stuck in the same place running itself over, over and over again because it knows there is something wrong with it, it just cant pinpoint the issue until you look in the mirror


And every


Little


Thing


Sends you over the edge


Whats making you feel like this?


Thats exactly the issue


I have no idea


I think its the fact I spend too much time in my own head and I get tangled up in my thoughts too much


But it could be something else


I block out a lot of present pain in my life so I never have to deal with it, so instead of letting it go the pain kind of marinades in the back of my head


Like things that should be traumatic are just neutral, just a simple memory


Thats when you need a therapist..


Im sorry,


For wheat?


Hehe


Whaot


Dumping that on everyone in the chat bc its too much then they dont know how to respond which is completely understandable so Im sorry for making everyone uncomfy


aiyana do u want my number to call or talk cause im free anytime or we can vc if u want?


Im okay, thank you though


No worries, I cannot feel emotion. However, I am not properly educated to inform you. I would suggest you contact trained medical proffesionals.


Yeah


if u don't feel like telling the whole chat my dms are open


Dont apologise, venting is extremely important. Feel free to vent any time, were here to listen. Even if people cant give advice in return, letting it all out is much better than bottling it up 3


Thank youu


aiyana we all care about u so i rather know what ur dealing with then just not saying anything at all


indeed, my dms are also open if you dont feel comfortable with saying it on here. Here to listen if you need to talk: 3


NoPoint julia I just dont feel like talking to anyone rn its hard for me to express myself to anyone bc Ive have trust issues, nothing against you personally but people are just unstable, they come and go, so its hard for me to let down my walls after theyve been there for years


Especially for people who are just going to leave in a few months


I completely understand you, I hate opening up especially to people who know me because Im worried itll backfire.


Thats why I usually vent to complete strangers who know nothing about me


And cannot hold it against me in any way shape or form


Its a weird mechanism but it does the job


Exactly


i understand we are just random people and we are probably never gonna meet but i rather have u guys talk to me if anything is wrong before i go


Nothings wrong some things just could be better, and Im working on that 3


im just saying if u ever wanna talk or text my dms are always open and u can always ask me to vc


HMMM. Well if anyone needs mental help just drain it in my DMs. idc


What


Why


Idfk


No I mean why bj first


It kinda just happened idrk


I'm conflicted


I'm chill


U should have got nice pierce on ur nose then give him a bj


maybe


O


Ya good question


He's my closest friend so he's still nice


Why is that the question


Oh that deepens the story


Cause


We need to know


What's considered big


nice convo


Eh it's chill


Big


Ya 6


Well theres long and theres circumference


Is it skinny tho


jsjfjfj


Not really


Fat and big?


Long not that skinny


Ong tho what is this conversation


god


I mean fun convo


Just dont let kris know


It's not the first time I've seen that part of him, I've known him a while


And we're pretty close


How does a bj just happen between close friends though


Like do you just trip near his crotch and go'damn'


Great question


Wait ya why did u bj


Friends with benefits?


He might like u


Or mostly does


I mean


Could just be friends with benefits but its hard not to catch feelings in that arrangement, even f he doesnt realize


Even if this has happened before Id definitely clarify your relationship with him before you go on normally and have him give you piercings lmao


Idk he said earlier he simps for me, idk what that leads to


Ya Im pretty sure he likes u


Yike


The council has decided


Wait


I have a question


Or nvm


Ask


It


ASK


Its too deep into it


Just ask it


Ur all children


Expect haki


How do u no that


bruh


Send it somewhere?


All of u are younger then me expect haki


Its a dumb question


Send me the question oof


pfft


Wair what


Tech deck


Wait what


Now Im confused


Ok then


Anyways, idk, if he does like me like that idrk if I want something like that rn, like I get I just did THAT with him, but at the same time


Idfk


Sex and dating are very different matters


I mean if its not with a random dude then Im pretty sure they like u


One requires full like mental attention and readiness


With


Yeah just talk with him


Wow


hmmm. Life hurts. you do something cool its smacks back with something bad


I mean


yea


it cant


but


yes


But


Go sit in the corner, souls


What souls?


The poopy head right there


Hmm interesting


Yeah


Byebye


Have fun


Banished to the corner, its a bit sad tbh


O no


That Succ


Dang


This isnt so much a vent but I dont know why I try get into a relationship when I know that it will end and make me worse than when I started because Im still in high school so couples gonna break up eventually


now you weigh what'll happen Gee would you rather fell happy for months to years, and the feel depressed; or feel pretty meh for months to years, but not depressed


Do you know about anything that your family could be going through, Like an issue or problem that theyre dealing with thats making them act like this?


Mhm


So


Fuck, I have to go, Im so sorry, Ill be back in 2 minutes


Youre sure your parents arent just disciplining you but, Like in a more severe manner?


I understand that people in school can be dicks


I get that


I get made fun of all the time over absolutely nothing


Just dont listen to people at school, Even if they try to put you down to make themselves seem better, just ignore them


It sure as hell works for me


I mean yeah, my parents are unbelievably strict except for I dont get paid for ANY of the work or extra things that I do for them


Honestly theyre almost exactly the way you described your parents as, But Ive just learned to go with it, if theyre treating you unfairly then thats just how it is sometimes, I get thats its tough but it helps you grow to be a better person later on in your life


Yeah I get that most people don't get paid and I'm trying to get money because I want to buy stuff and they never buy anything but weed


Yeah no this has been happening all of my life


So their addictions to drugs come back and affect you


Correct?


Yes


Correct


Well, The drugs are a huge issue and if they continue doing them then itll only get worse for you, so the two best things you can do is just persist and push through the issue, dont let it stop you from doing what you wanna do, and even if this issue is something beyond your control, the least you can do is make an effort at helping them stop their addiction


Even if you can only help a little, any small effort could make a detrimental impact on their health and your mental health and performance in parenting you


Even then, You always have us by your side to help you whenever you need it


They said today they have been potheads all their life and they are never gonna stop so drop the issue I'm glad that I have you guys to talk to it really calms the depression


Maybe it's just sadness all the time


Absolutely


Maybe I'm overreacting


Youd assume that this sadness is coming from your parents behavior towards you


Right?


Idk I'm just sad all the time


Theres no chance youre overreacting, this is a serious issue and you have a good reason to be reacting to this the way you are


It sometimes goes away but then comes right back


Yes I do and I'm glad for that


Well, Is there anything else we need to discuss?


I have to pay for a whole new door which kinda makes me mad but I'm fine


I'm not even the one that broke it but yea I think I'll be good


Thank you


Absolutely, anytime


If you ever need to talk to anyone, My DMs are always open for anything you need to talk about or get off your chest


Thanks


I didnt read all of it and Im sorry but I think everyone is awesome and amazing and would near want anything bad upon someone and if there is anything I can do plz let me know u guys mean alot and Im always here to listen and help as much as I can


kk


i dont understand my brother, he hit me with a ball like 10 times yesterday and is questioning me why my head hurts


very


the only time we bond is when he makes fun of me


I mean


i got 2


Me and my siblings almost never get along


We only actually get to bond when were messing with eachother


Waitwaitwait youre a firstborn too, Right NoPoint?


Epic


Very Ebic


my sister is a year younger then me and my brother is 8 years younger then me


Im a middle child


Get blamed for everything


All good


Its not your fault anyway


Seriously does any one else get told to kill them self over nothing


yup


Yeah I talk to myself sometimes too


very often


i tried


Same


Twice


wasn't the best decision but thats how i felt


Im really glad i didnt though, things did get better after I convinced myself they wouldnt


Yea but I wonder what is the point


point of what?


Find stuff you enjoy


Life is just a test run so do what ever you want


Find people you like


u don't need a point to live, u should be allowed to just live ur life without a purpose just freely out there


enjoy life while you can


Its just sometimes I feel like Im stuck and I cant do much


And does it really matter when every day Im being drag down


i mean everyone gets stuck sometimes, u just gotta look in a different direction and see how to get a way back up


i mean i get dragged down everyday


i just try to think of what i am to myself


try to think positive


idc what people say to me


good or bad


i think of myself of things ik and only me


But do you wonder what would happen if you did it


ya


all the time


i would always think to myself what would life be after my death


i would always think its better off without me


but apparently people actually care about me


and i rather not hurt them


I mean what is stopping me


what do u feel proud about


what brings u joy


Okay what if y out had done it a year ago


What things would you have missed out on


have u ever lost someone?


bob


Yes


and uk how it feels to lose someone right


Yea but I really dont know the people


I wasnt sad cause I never new them


i mean why go away forever when ur just having a sad moment


we got like what 40 years more at most


why not live life to the fullest now


Because this sad moment is my life every day


I have days where Im fine


then change something, there is always different way but people think the easy way is the best way


if ur really thinking about killing urself i will get the hotline thing for this


talk to professionals


Youre not broken.


But its all just momentary distraction from sadness I can change it up all I want but one day the sun is going to explode and its for nothing


It gets worse before it gets better


Life is like jumping on a trampoline, no matter how hard you fall you always come back up, but you have to push to get yourself off the ground again


i never felt a lost like someone dying but people have left my life and it hurt me


like someone left this server and i got really upset cause they were one of my close friends and i really cared about them but they were having personal issues and wanted to leave everything


it hit me hard and i understand how death effects people


even tho i didn't really lose them it still hit me hard


all im saying is that death is never the option


u probably think it is but there is different ways u can go


u just gotta see every directions


ik ur probably not gonna listen to me since im some random dude on the internet but all im saying is to cherish people that care about u and the things that keep u happy even if its small its still keeps u happy


You know you people are the nicest too me right now


Thank you


so please if ur really thinking about death talk to some adult or someone irl and i really don't want u to choose that horrible path


I may have missed a bit of the science call and have no idea whats happening


We cant live without bob Ross


There are many active people on here like me Im active like a lot Im always here for you if u need to talk


im always here to help too, if anyone is upset or having a sad moment plz talk to us or if u don't wanna talk publicly my dms are open and we can voice call too if ur comfortable


Thanks


You dont know what it means


Np Im here to talk any time


Yes if you ever want to talk about something were always here


i'm in a good mood, i'll help anybody rn. dk i just feel like helping people currently.


Ight bc my math homework is really hard rn


Dude you said you would help


with


non math issues


K so I also have daddy issues


I would help with math


non school issues as well, i'm a bad student


Ill try my best to help with my issues


mouthwash


ok


so those daddy issues


i eat daddy's so like


hmu


If you can find him idk man


Hey bot you wanna have a sleepover


Ill bring the blankets


My heart feels heavy


Why?


I'm so done being there for my toxic friend and they're not there for me..


I just need someone who's there for me;


Ik how hard it is to get out of a toxic relationship, listen to me, you deserve so much better than them, youre worth so much more than that


You are in no way shape or form obligated to keep them in your life


what if you have no one else to be there when you let go


ok.6756 Im always gonna be there for u


not hector I know it feels like that all the time, and like you have no one else to talk to, trust me when I say they are holding you back from so many other people you didnt know you had


Ill be here to listen and give as much help as possible


Your friendships become so much more meaningful once you cut them off trust me


I have had 1 toxic friend well kinda but she used me to get her grades up and I thought we were really good friends and it really hurt me but once I moved on I got new friends, friends who I can actually talk to and enjoy my life with


Theyre leaches always have and always will be


I was once friends with a girl who would say stuff like I only hang out with you so I dont look lonely and broke me and my bsf since 2nd grade, she made fun of a girl who cried because her grandpa had died the night before


Its not worth it


Trust me


Its honestly such a scary thing because you never realize how much power someone like that can have over you


It really is


I developed so many insecurities and did a lot of things Im not proud of as a product of that relationship but the second I got out of it this weight I didnt know that I had came off my lungs and I was finally able to look in the mirror without crying again


Its hard to experience but in the end you prove to yourself that youre stronger than you thought you were


Aiyana r u ok?


Yeah, its kind of hard to explain, but if it wasnt for her I wouldnt be as confident/happy as I am now so Im grateful that it happened


Ok


I understand


Idk but I feel like if I saw her now Id tell her thank you


Its kind of funny how people grow


Ya I get what u mean


I kinda wanna stay here


Its quiet nice


Or I might just go off discord for the night


I hate when people act rude to each other


Idk what Im saying


My brain is still huring


I dont wanna sleep


I might go drink a bottle of Pepsi again


I think maybe being off discord might be helpful


Put on some music and just listen for a few minutes


I have been listening to music


Really?


What artist do you listen to


Any


I like all types of music


Mostly with good beats


Try Felly,


Its nothing special its just really calming


I might listen after


But I feel like if I leave I have nothing better to do


You dont always have to have something to do, you can just let the world be for a minute you know?


Kinda


So whats on your mind


Um idek honestly


Everything and nothing


That doesnt help


Sorry


I totally get it


No its fine


I know exactly what you mean


I already kinda ranted but idk


Im not good with advice but I recommend just putting some really soothing music and just think about things that are positive


Its like when the Earth was just a ball of water, rocks, and lava, it is everything and nothing at the same time


Im listening calming music to me and ya I try to think of positive things but then I just dont know I freeze


Just dont think then, get lost in the music


Get off discord for a few minutes and see how you feel


look outside


I might get off but idk where to go if I get off for the night


You dont need to go anywhere, just drift and go to sleep


I dont feel liking sleeping does me good


It just makes me ran away from problems


It gives you time to process your issues


So they dont seem as big when you wake up


no point are you okay?


i muted


I unmuted u


otay


Ya Im ok


oh alr


Just dealing with some issues


No point tf


what happened bruh


What do you mean stuff happens?


simar speak to me


Like you miss stuff when youre alseeo?


or imma clap dem cheeks


Baka chill


its a method


dw


Idk


im like this all the time


dude u cant say idk


Why everyone here


clearly u know something


cuz im worried about a friend


its cuz uh I wondered where you went


so I found you here


ur pfp lookin kinda edgy too bruh


Weve just been talking


i need soem answers youngin


bruh


ur clearly at some sort of a stalemate


I have been having a rough few weeks


No point, no, get out of your own head, ik its starting again


maybe take a break?


u say u dont know.. so are u bored


or is it worse


Probably worse


Kinda


or something psychological with urself


What if we all just took a break and fell asleep


he did say earlier that doesnt help


I wonder what it would be like if we all met in person


Id give everyone a big hug tbh


I cant think straight


simar is a gentle giant


hes around my height but unbelievably nice


I kinda want a hug right now


hugs are noice


i wish i could hug you


but corona wont let that slide


dude think of urself more rn


mental health is just as important as physical health rn


moral is unbelievably crucial


I get you want to help everyone but you have to take time off for you


fr man


uve been on discord for long periods of time


its not good man


Cause I have nothing better to do


i get u like interaction


u do


and thats to work on urself


Idk how to do that


do something else to change up the pace


walks, music, interaction with those around u


as much these people on discord mean, u cant rely on them for everything


I have been trying everything but I just feel like the more u do the shitter it gets


what have u been doing?


can u list a few


I been going for long walks day and night


I take 2 showers a day, I play with my dog, I try to play games and get my mind off but it doesnt work


I tried to make music too


And that doesnt even help


man


give me sec to think


Thats unhealthy


I mean the 2 showers


have u really vented EVRYTHING u feel?


I mean Im not good with words


Have you called someone and have had a good conversation? Maybe youre stressing yourself out on how you want to feel


talking is important man


Im not a person that talks


im not good with social interactions either


Im a shy dude


dude i get u


im just outgoing behind a screen because i have an outlandish personality


i think another problem u have is that u never talk about what u like


u cater ur conversations to others


try to find ur self


Just dont put a fake smile if that make sense, doing that wont help you ive done it everyday for like 2 years and its not good


its okay to not be happy


exactly


Ya ik its ok not to be happy, being sad is an emotion and everyone has it


but people that have common interests with u


What do u mean


what do u enjoy doing


Honestly idek


I usually pick up what others do


I never start my own thing


I cant make my own decisions or do my own thing


Ya I might do that


ur gonna need to


literally anything can make u happy


pls do


u have anything u even mildly like doing


What


do u have anything that u mildly like doing


I mean I used to make some beats before


I had fun doing it


But I lost interest cause of school


return to it


Ig ya I can try


too much for my liking


true


I mean I dont do anything even without quarantine


just make ur beats


and have a good time


Ya ig


if u dont have a good time than start writing about it


Writing really does help


who cares


no ones reading it


and that doesnt matter


its for urself


exactly


to vent to urself in a way


since u would understand


it sounds weird but its true


Ya ok


aight man


but work on urslef


fuck everyone else


Ill work on myself but Im not forgetting about everyone else


do what you have to do


Oki


Thank u


how am i sweating but freezing


simar imm aticle ur toes


my cat has hit me


im crying


plus


i dont have any lemon donuts anymore


so i am also crying


Is that why u showing me black screen


yes


im sobbing


my donuts gone


I rather see that then black screen


thats sad


i will give you a donut


im so sorry


u wanna see me cry?


i new my donuts back


those were fire


No I just wanna see how u look like when u dont look mad


NoPoint the amount of times i send you blacj screens


ok but


most of the time when u say i look mad im not


no they were donuts


thats just my light


in eyes


Ya u both do that


U and Eliza


U guys look mad all the time


if i send eye pics ur lucky


i send tiara face pics tho cause i love her ofc


i dobt spell


I mean she sent me 1 full face pic of u


I didnt ss but ya she has a lot of stickers


WHAT


which one was it


Idk


I just remember ur face


explain i mean


It wasnt bad


idc


It was nothing dont get mad at her


im not


i just wanna know which one


I dont remember


I have brain damage


what does it look like


Again brain damage


I just remember it was u


I didnt ss so I wouldnt remember


what was the last time she texted u


cause she hasnt answered in a while


hours


She left me on read for 4 hours


weird..


i dont even have her added


she never does that to people really


ima text her brother


Ya Im just not a good person


wait what


Yup


no ur not


you are such a nice person


wow i used to never cry now i cry for no reason


eh i dont cry unless im super upset


EVAR


DONT XRY


CRY


oh shoot


IK UR CRYING CAUSD I WAS


Stop


i am crying


No


Plz


bobobonoobon


i cant control


me crying


EMILY


Just calm down


Deep breaths


Calm down


Relax


Once u have relaxed then go wash ur face


frick


i want donuts


no donuts for u


im going to actually cry soon cause my eyes brun fucjjcjcjxjajajajjaaj


Stop


Yeet


No more crying


no crying


ima cry ajajjajajanjaa


yes


ok


some of my humor is back but i dont have any emotion to be happy


Nice


very


When you realise you have gone to all the boys funerals but none of them will come to yours


trust me they will they just need to clutch up in the gulag


I joined a server and they started interrogating me about my OSDD and then said I was causing a scene when I got upset that they didnt believe me..


being valid is already an incredible insecurity of ours. I feel like an incredibly shitty human being, I feel numb and depressed and suicidal and I dont know what to do


Ping me if you respond, this server is too active for me to keep track of


Thank you.. I think thats exactly what I needed to hear.. that makes me feel a bit better


Of course, If you have any issues youd rather not talk about in public, we can talk in DMs anytime you need


Im on like everyday so


I hope that you are feeling better quma, as so many people care


Its really hard to see/believe that some times


We get it, I gotta admit, Sometimes were pretty ignorant,


By we I mean Zeus


I entirely forgot about that encounter


Wooow rude


Wooow not wrong


Sorry


No Im just scared of getting wrapped up into this


Why?


Also May I note, Immm not exactly the best at this, Sorry if my advise doesnt make any sense or sounds dumb


No its fine


Yeet


I dont know, I seem to have an innate ability to get server moderators to despise me


Well, its probably just a lack of understanding your situation


Shouldnt blame yourself


is it bad that i thought my brother was going to spray me with mosquito spray just because he was near me with the spray thing?


Mmm


Slightly,


Is he older than you?


yes


I mean, He probably think hes just playing with you or smth


I act like that with my younger siblings


But they dont seem to mind it and they just do what I did right back


Have you told your parents about the issue?


Why not?


Have you told him that it really agitates you when he does it?


You should do smth, like explain to him that you want him to stop


no because thats like the only time we actually talk


Then maybe the next time hes messing with you, You Can try to explain how you dislike it so much and how you want him to stop