Im blocking you”


thats harsh


Yeah Itfelt pretty nice


see i wanna say thats unfair for blocking since all u did is ask her out like idk why she got so mad but at the same time i liked it so


ok if u knew each other


and u complimented her


why would she get mad


She sounded more annoyed idk


Hey youre hot wanna go out with me


I said that


out of the nowhere u said that?


Ya


First thing


I actually get pleasure from that rejection


I suppose this confirms it


ya


but i would say keep that pleasure under the sheets, cause idk if u getting rejected everytime is a good thing


but ig u can say it as a win win situation


i see


My friend keeps making sexual complaints to me or my body


He has a girlfriend


tell him you find that to be uncomfortable


Another is trying to explain it in a way that's understandable to anyone, including children. For example, if you were to try learning about cellular structure, you wanna try giving information about it to children in a way that they can understand. Because if a child can understand it, a teen can too. You can write the explanation on a piece of paper or something.


@ KNEE thank you homie


thats good


i think


im hungry and i dont wanna go downstairs because my neighbours are over


i will be cringe if i go


just ask ur parents or sibling to bring food upstairs


Ok so


I need to get the message clear with my gf, but the message isnt clear with myself


And its not happening again any time soon


So how do I know


so ur saying u need to get a clear message with ur gf but u don't know if it clear


Yeah


So basically


We were at a party


And we kissed and I didnt know how to act or what to do


And I didnt know how I felt


i mean


who went in to kiss first


u or her


No covid here so we arent wanted by the government


She went


ok so i don't see the problem


I wasnt expecting it


did u not want to kiss her?


ok so u were scared that things were going too fast?


I cant remember, I dont know what was going through my head


ok then why not let her know that, u weren't expecting her to do that and just be honest, but if she went to kiss you then it tends to mean shes likes you a lot


Yeah I know


I was going to try talk to her today but she is busy at breaks and we arent in any classes


ok then maybe call?


Cheese


well you know that is an option but like if ur tired all u need to do is rest, just take a breather and relax, get ur energy back up and keep going


i can't really tell you what to do, but i can give suggestions and support if u like


I cant


you can't what


Try to relax


u can't try it or u don't want to relax


I dont want to relax


I cant even if I wanted to


Its fine to the point my hair is falling out so Ive just accepted this is what I deserve


I cant take it anymore


ok why don't u want to relax


and wdym what you deserve


who decides what you should or shouldn't deserve


but wouldn't that be the same if u left


there are people that care about u


and if u left them how would they feel


Idk


ya it sucks when someone u love leaves but thats not the end of the world, if they didn't give you the time and attention you need then they aren't for you, there is someone out there maybe looking for you


Because I wouldnt


so who knows cause future is a mystery to us


have u seen the future


No


But whats to look forward to


i mean when your watching a show, u wouldn't know what happens next, its the same thing with life


it could be good or bad but it will still keep going


maybe there is something to look forward too


but to know that you would have to be there


And my friends have a tendency to.. Ignore me, not sure if it's exactly the right word. But i don't want to seem annoying OwO so it's a lose lose situation for me


Yay I love my life rn


Their always busy, which sometimes I think is a lie 3


Idk, but thank you for the advice I appreciate it


I am 14!


im taking vitamin that could make u feel sleepy, but there's no effect to me fck


I finally got over the guy I was sad over, I found someone else. But you know the world loves to hate me so he blocked me. Ive just been crying this whole time, hoping someone will come along and make me feel better about myself


drophim


even if hes lying


he shouldnt be joking about that


it doesnt really depend what youre saying but it does. if youre saying something that really like offensive then ig your both in the wrong but if its just something thats not bad then yeah


but just block him


Yeah he keeps saying all this bad stuff about me and my gender


But when I say a gay joke to him which I think was offensive he said he will rape me


I have the zoom privet chat saved


I have his @ but he isn't in the server


I maybe report it to the principle


He goes to my school


when can i be happy again? when can i smile again? when will negative thoughts go away? when will depression leave? i just wanna be happy again i wanna smile and actually mean it not acting or saying im alright when i never am, i wanna be complete again feel emotions properly more in fact understand them but every time time i try to be happy i just get worse and more depressed like is there any point in trying at this point anymore i just see no point in trying its been like near enough 23 years and nothing the only thing that has gone up is my suicide attempts etc like honestly wtf is the point in trying may as well finish myself off for once im sick and tired of trying and most of all trying to live when i see no point in it


iauanctmncitt. emofttam. atbhihbitijml. Ty for listening


The past couple nights Ive been struggling to sleep. 3 nights ago I missed taking my antidepressant and so the following two nights of taking it made me feel sick and made sleeping nearly impossible. Last night I felt no sickness and was so relieved and thought this time i can get a full nights rest'. A few minutes later I started cramping and my period started. I feel so annoyed, I just want to sleep well for once.


I just cut rist


I cant do that either Ive tried, I associate my bed with safety the most and Im a slob so when my mental health drops theres nowhere else I can really go. This isnt really something I think I can fix aside from hoping the antidepressants dont make me sick again lmao


But yeah period pains usually happen on the first day for me, generally for hours? Sometimes they happen again on the next couple days too


My mom is someone who deals a lot with people's health so theres a lot of methods Ive tried for things


Sick as in pain or uncomfortable?


Its both, like nausea that sort of hurts in my chest?


Because if you're suffering side effects from antidepressants, you should consult your doc on that. Also, have you tried reducing your time on watching computer screens?


Ill be honest, Im addicted to my device so nope


And the side effects are because I missed taking it for one day I believe a few days ago. It doesnt usually effect things if I only miss one day but maybe its because my period was coming


And if the cramps happen during the day I can put warmth on myself, along with some mint but it still takes time for it to get better lmao


I guess the only thing I can say then is endure it until the sleep decides to finally come


At least it'll be more satisfying once rest arrives


Yeah I guess, I just hope it happens soon


You just gotta find a pace


No problem. If you need any other suggestions of support. Just dm me.


Okay! Thank you once again!


say it with me: potah


My rant would be that I tried to friend every dan on discord but because I friended so many dans discord suspended my account


I just wanted to catch them all you know?


Yall! I think Im depressed. I been very unmotivated.. I been staying up around 12 clock and I been having trouble sleeping... Then in the mornings I just wanna go back to sleep and not do any schoolwork. And sadly enough I been think very and thoughts. I also been wanting to cry.. Thoughts that could lead to suicide... I think this is being caused, by knowing that me and family may have to put down my dog, that been with us for 12 years. We basically grew up together and its tough. And school too..


do you have any forms of transportation?


Uhh.


The bus.


no


the closest bus station is too far


and are you on your neighbor's good side?


I know you said your father is close with some


i dont talk to them


i dont even acknowledge them


like i dont see them


I see


did they do something?


just that usually people do something to not get aknowledged


or is it that you just don't know them well


fair enough


because you could try asking your neighbors for any basic needs of transportation, and if you feel uncomfortable asking you could ask your parents to ask.


especially with food or something


Your neighbors remind me of my landlord. He is a 50 man looking at my sisters butt


and have you told your parents about the bill situation?


P E D O


i dont mind asking my friends parents to drive me around but it would be awkward af


i would, you'll have to talk to people sooner or later to succeed in life


you might want to get them to contact the bill company to see if they could delay the bills


it's not like as soon as you don't pay bills you lose power


they usually give warnings and things


yep


SATAN


HELP


It was a road...


RAID


and you will probably get the bills at the end of the month. 1 week from now is the 3rd/fourth depending on time zone in us


the bill company wont shut power off that quickly


if the power and stuff gets cut though, you can call them up and explain what is going on


ive watched enough tv to know that water and electricity can be shut off in a snap


but the thing is


minors cant live alone


true


so do you have anyone to watch you?


I see


unless my dad makes a neighbor ask if im alright


you could ask your parents if your friend's family stays over


I mean. Your frog wont me a minor


Your frog can watch you


huh


wont me a minor?


Im a minor


but if you get your friend's family to watch you at your place, you should be fine


thats what i wanna do


i wanna see if i can get one of the adults to make sure im fine


ive been staying ohme alone since i was like 10


so


i dont need constant supervision, i just need an adult to make sure all the adulty problems are handled


even it just be that one of your friends parents checks in every day


np


everything will be okay


as I always say


R


all is good


its crazy how quickly a single song can change your mood. i was feeling decent today and then boom. sad. i wanna be happy again lmao


Lefts up my mood everyday


ill check it out


I should be happy


But I am not


And I dont know why


Yes


Nah Im joking


Im 15


thinkin bout doin something i shouldnt tonight


If you shouldn't, then don't


i wanna go to sleep foreverrr


why


if you're dead, you can never have the satisfaction of falling asleep ever again


that satisfaction is more addicting than 10 tons of weed


except it's actually healthy unlike drugs


I miss playing but i dont have time anymore. Adulting s vcks:


No, you matter the most to yourself


especially right now, you're currently in NO STATE to be helping other people


It's like trying to help with construction when you're arm is broken


i dont matter to myself so whats wrong with making people feel happy and loved and wanted i just like seeing people happy and letting them know im there for them and i wont go


then work around it and dont give up


or else im known as a quitter


I get that you wanna go against the no lives matter reality, but how the hell can you do that if you're hurting yourself in the process?


You can never make someone's life matter if you can't get your life to matter


Then convince yourself to stop


Put on the brakes, pop the tires, place a damn wall in front of the car if need be


Agreed


And taking care of yourself isn't quitting


In your case, it's a tactical retreat


In wars, armies didn't win just by sending their troops fullforce


If you lose too many troops, you fall back and replan, and after the replan, you go again.


Doesn't work, repeat, repeat until you win.


Knee Chan


Unlike soldiers and war crimes though, your enemy isn't planning against you.


Put a little logic into your emotions, yeah?


Also I think it's a little fine for you to be cocky, at least have some logic that justifies that personality.


Also you need to consider the possibility that the people you're helping might be putting on an act.


You want to make their lives... matter, right?


Yes or no? clingy loser


Bark, but no bite


And would you say that the people you are trying to help fit this description?


clingy loser


But you're not like them, right? You're the selfless girl who does anything to please bystanders who'd only turn to you for themselves only. You're already exceptional than most people in that.


@ KNEE you good


what


alr


Me head feel weird and light headed


clingy loser I'm moving on to the next person for now, don't lie if you need more reassurance


Because I dont want to live without someone


What's your relationship with em


What caused the breakup


They stopped loving me


Then how did it go during the last time you saw them?


It was good


Until they told me the never want to see me again


Yes


No buildup, no reassurance?


One sec


Just flat out said it?


Leave me alone for the rest of eternity


Thats exactly what they said


Would you saw they're a douche or not?


feelings aside


No


I love them


And they've treated you nicely all before that, right?


Like kinda yeah


They said Im too attached


Do you agree with them that you were too attached


kindakuteki


Im gonna ball my eyes out later tonight


like, did you text them every 5 seconds? or did you keep leaning on them for a while?


Leaning


that's it?


leaning made them leave you?


what made you feel angry then


and was it justifiable anger?


They were acting cold to me out of nowhere for no reason


Probably both


That I was talking too much?


They moved on in less than a month


what did you talk a lot about then


No


Im going to bed


Oh, uh


You sure?


Yes


Also both people need to be able to change and not just expect the other to do all the changing. Your ex expected you to change, especially in such a short time, but never made any effort themselves to change. It's very, very unlikely for two people to ALREADY be perfect for each other the first time they meet. So relationships, if not all of them, rely on both parties to adapt to one another. If the 2 don't mesh well together, take the time to change as people so both people can eventually, and truly, find love in the other.


Well what classes are you struggling with, is it possible that this is something you can get a tutor for?


No it's when I try to do the homework most of the classes I'm fine but two of them I'm failing in


What 2


And like specifically my auto class is so hard like yesterday my teacher gave us an 82 minute long homework assignment that was due that night


Most of the class I barely pay attention to cuz I'm not putting in the effort but I want to


Obv if I want anything to change it starts with me but it's so stressful and it makes me so overwhelmed


It's the same for the other class which is english language arts


However I understand it it's just I'm held back by my work In auto class


You need baby steps, to make a change like that, and to break a cycle of inactivity like that you need to discipline yourself to pay attention in class, start little, if its that overwhelming dont force yourself to pay attention 100 yk


Do a little note taking then go drink some water


Okay that's a good idea


But I dont have the time


I have one or two months


Until this semester is over and my dad wants me to have no missing work this week


But I already have missing work and idk what he'll do


on top of that I swap in between homes and my mom always yells at me to do this and do that but I cant


I can but I'm only over her house one day and when im there I just wanna lay down all day cuz I dont have my other parents my dad and aunt jen down my back about school


I'm tired of all this shit


In all honesty, you should let your teacher know this


Just upfront let him know youre feeling overwhelmed and maybe ask for some extra time on some of the projects


Just let him know how your feeling and hope he understands


What if he doesnt


I asked for help on the homework from yesterday and they said just to study


they dont understand and neither do my parents


Well all you can do is try


Let him know


See how it goes


You still have 2 months to clutch


your right


still feel like sht though


It gets me so worked ip


Up


It's just amplified with my mental health and shit


now this just sounds like a pity fest


Yeah I get it bro


Find a constructive way to let out that anx yk


For me it was working out for you it may be something else


Yea


Thank you


So much


I've calmed down now


Np man feel free to dm me anytime


If your ever feeling down just know


Kitty loved and adores you


loved?


Im tired of smiling even though im not happy.


Im tired of acting like im happy even though im...im breaking..


Im tired of people saying that everything will be ok. Its not...going to be ok:


Im tired of my teachers asking if im ok. do i look ok? do i act ok?


Im tired of people coming to me for their problems. How am i supposed to make it better?


Im tired of not getting enough sleep. How am i supposed to survive off of 12 hours of sleep...?


Im tired of eating. Im not skinny like those girls...


Im tired of trying. Giving up would be so much fucking easier...


Im tired of people saying im pretty. Im not. Its true...the hard reality...


Im tired of not being good enough. But i guess that i just...wont ever be good enough...


Im tired of people my teachers saying i have to do my work. Do i not have enough already? im working from 12 am to 12 am every day on everything. i have work, activities, stupid homework, and never enough time...


Im tired of my friends telling me to eat. I can't...my body doesn't want it.


Im tired...im so tired...i just...gave up..


Have you considered, or have been, seeing a therapist


Therapy works wonders for the smallest, to the largest problems


I seriously consider seeing one if youre under this much stress


therapy has only made it worse...


Elaborate


ever time i go she just tells me the elaborate and that it will get better and maybe i should talk to my doctor about medicine and that i should try to get more sleep and i should have less screen time but IT NEVER GETS BETTER! I AM IN PAIN EVERY DAY MY BODY IS SO SORE AND STIFF FROM MY WORK AND ACTIVITIES AND I CAN BARELY GET OUT OF BED! SHE TELLS ME I SHOULD GET FRESH AIR! WHEN I FEEL FRESH AIR IT TAKES ME BACK TO MY CHILDHOOD WHERE MY FATHER PURPOSELY LEFT ME AT THE PARK AND I WAITED AND WAITED AND WAITED FOR HIM TO COME BACK! YOU SHOULDN'T DO THAT TO A 6 YEAR OLD KID! AND EVERY TIME SHE TELLS ME TO SLEEP I HAVE SLEEP PARALYSIS AND I HAVE INSOMNIA! it is so so so beautiful how someone can talk my whole life of trauma and stress and depression and anxiety and PTSD and suicidal thoughts and say antidepressants! or anxiety pills! YOU THINK I DON'T POP THOSE EVERY DAY?! WELL I DO. WELCOME TO MY LIFE HUN. WHERE I HAVE TO TELL MYSELF TO NOT POP ALL THOSE PILLS AND OVERDOSE OR WHERE I CAN'T BE ALONE BECAUSE MY BRAIN TELLS MY BODY TO CUT THOSE SUUUPER SEXY SCARS ON MY ARM OR STOMACH OR LEGS! im so FUCKING tired of this...


it


is


sooo


tiring...


I cant possibly convey in words anything that would be meaningful enough to help, you are past the point where someone else can tell you something to make you feel better, all meaningful change must be from action on your end, if your activities are that painful, drop them, if it physically pains you to get out of bed in the morning because of activities, drop them


There is nothing positive from that experience it isnt worth your time and effort


There is nothing people can do about your view on life other than just slightly nudge you in the right direction and hope it goes well


You need to somehow understand the problem and compromise that is the only solution


...i need some alone time...please do not try to contact me for the next 24 hours...


I'm so touch deprived, at first I just try to ignore it but it's actually getting annoying


relatable but im love deprived


You still doing the mandatory social distancing and all that where you are?


If you are then I wouldn't worry too much about it, once everything opens back up it'll be much easier on you I think


Im so tired of peoples dumb humour, i want to feel special for once


good enough and finally be able to stop doing ridiculous things to show people I care


I want to be appreciated how I appreciate others


if I acted how others act I would lose so many connections which is so funny to me


its almost like ppl wouldnt like their own treatment!


also bruh ever since my health has gotten a lot worse my family has been a lot more touchy and I get hugged loads but I dont like their touch that much


shouldve always hugged me if u loved me and not when you finally realise theres issues


plus lolzers parents said they didnt give me proper attention when I was a kid thats why I didnt interact or communicate with others bc I was just bad at it etc


We swaggin on em


Im not going to pretend to know your situation but for the parents thing if the hugging makes you uncomfortable then you should make it clear, also theyre hugging you because if your health is really that bad they want to value you as much as they can because theyre scared This is jsut with info I got from this so lmk if Im wrong


Also with the friends thing, if they would stop being your friends over something like that then they arent your friends


Get friends who like you for the real you not friends who like you for the act you put on


yeah but idk how


bc Im bad a replying bc I just lay in bed


Thats why I usually make online friends but its hard to keep em


And I understand why theyre hugging me but its just a shame they didnt show me as much loving when I was growing up


Online friends take more time but its definitely possible, and yeah it is a shame but I mean them showing it now just means that theyve always loved you its just that now they need to show it more


Theyre worried


Ive said that Ill hug now and again and not loads constantly bc it drains my social battery


its really just a shame that Im getting the stuff I needed as a child right as the age of me moving out is arriving


It is a shame but theres nothing you can do about it, if you love your parents, sit them down, say Mom, Dad, I love you but all the hugging makes me uncomfortable could you please ease a bit


Boom problem solved


You get your boundaries set and they dont get their feelings hurt


Its 5am, I have classes in 4 hours Im gonna go to bed, feel free to dm me anytime though


Yeah Dwai I just felt like saying stuff bc it bothered me


Sleep well and have fun in class


Its a vent channel I get that just throwing my opinion out there, and thank you


Guys


Many nights of no sleep, overhung with thoughts that drown the need to sleep, trying to think of that thing thats keeping you up


i legit just got told we didnt want you here” it may have been a joke god i sure hope it was but dat kinda hurted me doe


Dont take it to heart


and yeah it hurts a ton been there before


i take everything to heart


because i apparently have a tough time figuring out what is sarcasm and whats not


ah yeah, people arent careful with words sometimes and they end up hurting


but theres some out there who are genuine and would love to be your friend


um...so..this happened at swim team practice...


I was... the boy in my lane... he was behind me and he... he grabbed my thigh and tugged himself up so he could get before me... he got really close to my privates and...i feel really uncomfortable...he sexually harassed me...i told my coach but all he said was hes a little autistic but thats not an excuse...he also kept on pushing my up against the line and swam in the middle so i had to stop and he could get before me...i feel really guilty...


If you want to talk about it I'm here


ok...


maybe later...


Sorry to coffee drinkers in advance:


Coffee looks and smells delicious, it isnt, its disgusting, why do you people drink it


This isnt a vent this is just a question and I didnt know where to put it


you have different taste idk i drink it bc im trying to stay up and not fall back asleep


i drink a diff kind


What kind?


vietnamese coffee cuz i like it


Ive never tried it so maybe its good


Im not cultured in coffee so my opinion on it doesnt really matter


Also yeah people drink it to stay up so that makes sense


Anyone got tips on how not to care


its so frustrating, they only love u and talk to u when they need u


If theyre hurting you you gotta learn to distance yourself from them, theyre not worth your time if youre getting hurt


but how tho


No matter how bad it is i still continue to accept them


block their contact. get new friends. or just try a new hobby so u keep yourself busy


If its that difficult to leave them you need a fresh start


1 definite thing that you cant really go back on yk


I wish I was someone else. That I could put this all behind me and turn over a new leaf. I could be a whole different person and people will actually enjoy being around me


Time will heal everything, especially relationships, its a little cliche ik but everyones been there and the only real thing you can do is move on, whoever they were they werent worth you or your time


true


I'm rn thinking about ending my life


Hold on Ill dm you


hmmm


sooo ded!


Im eating applesauce


Makes pain go away


It BUSSIN


So now Im here


hello


ive been told to go here


Light I agree communicating is great but I cant talk to them


Because they blocked me


can i ask why?


Ive tried changing myself in the past but I keep going back to step one


why do u think you should change urself?


Because they said I was rude and that they dont feel happy talking to me


And I feel happy talking to them so ofc I want them to feel the same


Well yeah


Jealous


why were u jealous?


Because they like someone else


was it because you felt as if he liked something ab someone and so you feel hell drift away


So now I feel like even if I do change I wont be good enough


They just said to me one day that they didnt love me anymore


well think of it in a positive way


you couldve avoided so much stuff


Ofc I was confused on what I did wrong so I tried to get them to tell me


maybe its nothing you did wrong they're just not the one


you will always find better


Yeah but I cant and wont find better


But they were everything I wanted


right now u may think what you have is great but theres always better and maybe you will stay in the relationship and it will get btter


can i ask how old r u?


Now I wallow in sadness until one day they finally give up on finding someone better and go back to me. Because other guys either dont like me or arent like him


your still young trust me from 1418 relationships dont count sorry but we're still young


Even if Im a last option I dont care I just want them to come back


Well I cant just Idk forget about them


I was happiest with them knap


trust me you will be happier and you will be sadder but this is still a start and if he drifts away its not that he doensnt like you, its that you guys still young and our brains arent fully developed and we feel things we neve thought we felt which is why im telling you to learn from this


Im still gonna wait


it will be a great tool to know that even the perfect one isnt so perfect after all and you will have better luck


They got over me in a week but I dont care


I was already self destructing


because trust me when i say it will hurt like a bullet dont let som guy/girl/etc hurt you because some arent worth hurting for


Why cant they just realize Im unhappy without them


its not fair and it shouldnt be this way but you cant let that go though you yk


Should I try and talk to them


I really want to but Im trying to Idk change before I do


if you want and tell them how it effects or will effect you if you want to ask if they feel a way you can


be open


but not too open


cause sadly we live in a world where being hurt is really simple


I want to dm them but I cant


I have the urge rn but Im gonna wait til next week when they wont be as busy


They still have me blocked so I cant message them


Cant


Because they wont unblock me


text their friend/


Hm ok


What should they say?


like to tell them who ur dating to talk to u its imp


or to get a chance to talk ab this


Hmm ok


Theyre like in this server


Do you want to talk to them?


i mean if you want me to speak for you i dont mind if they dont


Dating?


No


the friend


We arent dating sadly


Yeah ik


well what would u like me to tel them ab


I'm tired


I feel like shit


It honestly feels like my friends don't wanna be there for me


He keeps telling me to watch what I say or else imma regret it


And yet he said something bad about me and I told him and yet you're the one who told me to watch what I'm saying other wise imma regret it


I feel nothing


I don't believe in soulmates


I had a soulmate but he left me


It broke me


It hurted me


I'm dying


My mental illness is catching up to me


I can feel it grabbing my shoulders


The heavy weight I carry


I wish I was dead


I wish I was something else other than human


I have so many people support me but yet I still feel lonely


I'm always lonely


I end up being lonely


I hate it


It feels like I'm not good enough


I hate my life


I wish I could just end it


You need to surround yourself with a more positive environment something like this will only drag you down


tired and sad.


e


i vented


AMOG US


That is the main hurdle then


Guys Im feeling lost again


My hearts racing


Im losing control of my body


I feel like a psychopath


My trauma is haunting me


Im laughing my pain


What am I going to do with life


I cant control myself


Im losing time


My soul and personality is evaporating


My pain is now


I feel it


Its taking over


My heart is turning black


I feel numb


Im stuck


In a parallel void


Filled with pain


Laugh it off


Its fine


Im fine


Everythings okay


Nothing wrong with you


Shut up you loser you are doing it for attention


You being assaulted is no reason for you to act like this


Your fine


Shut up you hore


Die


WADE IN THE WATER


mmm relatable


I've looked up if I can overdose on pill I have but it's very rare to overdose on it so no suicide


Thats the worst possible option


Every day I try to think of ways to kill myself


i feel ignored


is it bad that i have bhen listing to the same song for the past 3 hours and it is I Deserve to Bleed by Sushi Soucy


waht


someday im going to be dead. and your just going to think im offline...


maybe not today. but one day.