But it honestly makes me feel threatened because it scares me and idk what couses it to hug me and kiss me


And now my back hurts


hm was this fear caused by a happening in your past or was it just there?


It happened when I was 4


When I was younger I used to live in an apartment in ohio


I would awlays hear whispering and movement in the closets inside my apartment


And I saw it ran past my moms closet and it saw it have metallic skin very tall and thin but muscular


I honestly felt so scared sleeping alone


was that the last time youve seen of that thing?


But I ignored it one when I fall asleep and one of them ended up getting attached to me when I slept alone


Back in 2012 or 2011


When I was 4


hm maybe they were ghost


Or when I was 5


or what do you think they were


That's what I think so too


I just think that their comfort ghosts


if you think that they dont harm you maybe they dont have ill intend?


hm what if you invisioned talking to them


I don't know how to talk to them actually


I have no clue how to talk to them


if they are ghosts then a good option would be talking to them as if they were a real person maybe?


Yeah maybe


I do enjoy their comfort but their looks scares me


i think that if you dont know when you'll get rid of them you need to face them and get over your fear


maybe i cant really grasp how hard it is to face somthing that is as uncommon as that but its up to you when you can overcome it


also maybe you should talk to a psychiatrist or somthing, bc it might just be a mental inlness also


Maybe


I'm gonna tell my therapist about this when I get a new one


hmhm thats good


For now I'm gonna have to tell my councilor about this ghost confort thing


oki, im trusting you to make the right descision for yourself


Okay, thank you


This isnt really a vent


Just gotta let off some steam


So we have probably all heard of the maze runner movies


Well so they made 3 of the books into movies but not the rest


And Im pissed


Because they were so good


And now


I miss out


And not in a gay way but some of the characters were hot


Hot as in they look good


ye ik what u mean


Thats Thomas


yes


raze munner


tf did i type


maze runner


bro he is hot


Gee pretty sure they are gonna make more of the maze runner movies but its probably gonna take time


i mean they are going off the book


so ya


I cant seriously be the only one that doesnt like Thomas


no ik there are a lot of people who dont like him


Ive never talked to someone that doesnt like him other than me


That Im avare of


ik a lot of people that are like into maze runner who dont like him


its pretty rare cause he is the main character


I like Thomas


i mean i like both the actor and the character


im addicted to sour milk creme, hewp me:


is that bad?


no its the best thing ive discovered recently


but being addicted to anything is probably bad ig


ehh not really, maybe just to take less as then u usually take


just baby steps


You can put sour cream on enchiladas


Theres no one else that tends to sit alone at ur school?


Man I do have a group of friends to hang out but the gang broke up


All I'm left with is just my bestfreind and my other friends


Everytime we go to eat lunch I'm all by myself when my other friends are absent since my bestfreind eats in the old cafeteria and I eat in the new one


I get along pretty well with pretty much everyone so I've never had that problem but I'm sorry you guys have


It's okay


I going off to bed now


I'm kinda scared of he's going to cuddle me when I'm gonna go sleep


Well anyways Goodnight y'all sweet dreams


When does the pain stop


Do you want to know what really grinds my gears me a freshman help juniors and seniors put up lgbtq posters in the hallway and then junior vollyball girls tore the posters down cause they were peer pressured into doing it also a teacher at my school had a student call a bisexual student the fslur and she laughed and said it was funny


the teacher laughed?


The teacher laughed and this was supposedly the teacher that was going to start a gsa gaystraight alliance in the school


bruh


same, but there a difference bewteen accidentaly being funny and having that comedic timing on point you kno. like constantly making goodones


but a lot of the times people need more confidence to make a joke


i will obtain the funny someday


yes u will


i believe it


but ya people are confident when they make jokes, sometimes it just comes on spot


Im in mental and physical pain and idk when its gonna end


is there anyone with u?


Nah why


i mean if ur in pain its best to get someone with you


Tf they gon do homie


Tell me to stop hurting physically


i mean help someway


cause if ur alone its a lot harder


Thats what she said...


ok so basically last night i went to my mates house tyea for her bday and i went w 3 others so we were all gucci then when it was nearly my time to leave we were by the hill and i started crying as i had bad cramps cause of my illness but when i when it got bad one of my mates were helping me w the pain while the other 2 were ligit screaming at her to leave me to go to them but she never did when it was time for me to go they all said bye and they were supposed to leave aswell but they ended up staying there for an eztra 2 hrs and went live so i joined and they were having way more fun without me and tbh idk what to do


ikr


Ok


somtimes i cant move my letf arm


this has become more frequent over the last month


maybe check with a doctor or an adult?


im one of the many Has it felt numb at all?


ye


like at first


but then just nothing


ya probably best to check with a doctor or check it up


ye true


im going to the doctor next wednesday


Try and see a doctor ASAP, if you have periods of numbness in any limbs, or specific parts of the body, and not be able to move them, you could have a serious problem, like serious serious. But otherwise you might be fine


maybe


Or a blood clot in an artery


n o w a i t


just a blood clot somewhere


hmhm, i think you're on the right track here


Sometimes I just want someone to ask me how I am or just notice me but Im always just to invisible for people to notice when Im sad or in a bad mood. And when Im at home and in a bad mood the only thing my parents does it scream at me for it and start a fight


And everytime I try to tell that that i dont feel well they just think im saying it for attention or cuz I dont want to go to school. Why cant they just believe me for once in their lives just think about my health instead of my grades


But ig its just how my life is Im not meant to be noticed I will always be a ghost. Theres nothing special about me Ive always just been a nobody.


Even in my family my brother has always gotten more attention. Like both my mom and dad have forgotten me on multiple occasions


im so sorry you have to go through all that. you definietely arent a nobody, there are people who appriciate you you'll just need to search for them even tho its pretty hard. for now i know that people from discord really care for you and wanna know how you feel during the day


you're pretty pog from what ive seen


Like I even had to go to the hospital when I was a baby cuz I didnt get enough attention so my body kinda made my parents notice me by needing to get more blood. And ig I get I mean my brother had cancer but they just put so much pressure on me and think Im gonna be fine they even know how many deaths Ive had to process these last 3 years and they know that may of them had a special place in my heart


But they still just make me feel like a disappointment


im one of the many aww ty


hmm thats pretty immature of your parents, do you maybe have some1 else close to you that you can notify or talk to so you can feel appriciated like a friend or a classmate maybe. if there arent you can always talk to me btw. im on most of the time if you need to get somthing of your chest


sry i type really slow


Its okay


you ever just think to yourself ya know I can't trust people anymore


Whats wrong?


don't worry about it


Im worrying


I'm in my room all alone so one is in here with me


I cam hear breathing that is not mine


The TV is on with the Volume up


I can hear breathing in the walls and under my bed


Is that the ghost or the demon telling me to go to sleep or


Am I going inside


I felt light headed now


I can feel them touching my belly


It gave me shivers


Woah


I think you should sleep


And me


I cant focus very well


Can't its 6:07am


im so sorry for ur losses and horrible things that have happen in ur life, if ur friends is making u wake up every day then keep it the same, let it wake you up everyday.


greg why u think that


You a little late


well u said not to worry so im worrying


also i fell asleep when u said that


well don't worry it don't matter


it matters


u can't just always say don't worry about it when you know its something to worry about


I act VERY differently depending who I am around. In front of my family, I am an innocent, positive ball of energy, that does well in school and abides by rules and laws always because I'm cute


And that comes back to bite me when I wanna be mature, and trustworthy, I'm treated like a cookie cutter teenager a lot of the time just cuz I'm 16. They point out when I'm being a grumpy teen whenever I show a small sign of annoyance, they blame my lack of sleep on technology, despite them knowing that I had quite a traumatic funfun time in one of my previous schools... It's like they don't wanna admit that I'm somewhat different, I don't like to sound like that hipster dude that always says I'm not like the general population or some shizz, but I don't think I am not broken mentally because of what happened rendering me slightly different to your everyday, jackofalltrades, grumpy teenager


It pisses me off that they seem to turn away and try to ignore what they know what happened, and try to continue on with life as if nothing happened


It's been eating away at me for a few years now, but they still treat me like this after all this time


And now I feel like I'm just saying nonsense so Imma s t o p


bloody paragraph b a r f


I feel like I'm missing context, and I feel like I shouldn't have said some of the things I said because it sounds like I'm am being a stuck up egocentric idiot


Oh hey look I'm having a crisis Imma disappear


buttons you can type all you want, its venting you can say how muhc you want, and i can't know ik ur parents minds idk wht they are thinking, i don't really have an answer but really only way is to talk to them even tho it is difficult and ik it is cause like i can't even talk to my parents but takes a bit of courage and conifdence and u can pretty much do anything and i think im stupid cause courage and confidence are the same thing


How long does it take to find that person


I just hate it


You see everyone else happy


I feel you, sometimes it takes a long time and cause we are only in our teen years or very early twenties it feels even long. But youll find them someday whenever that day may be


That the thing


Its that uncertainty


Because some people dont find love


And I dont want that to be me


Hopefully


You know someone from our grade once dated 12 girls in one year


And then there is me


1 girl in 14 years


For 2 weeks


Thats better than some people so aye good for you


Yeah I guess


But I never knew why she left so it was difficult for me


Made up reasons


Couldve been for a lot of things


Yeah but no one likes me


I doubt someone will come to me


SAME Im in your boat man


Because we are supposed to muck around as children


literally almost all relationships are toxic


i see it between kids in my grade


High school dating is a good way to experience the bad and not make those kinda mistakes later


just be patient and dont compare urself


thats true


Yes


The sad thing is I still like my ex and its been over a year


Its okay


That happens to some people


At some point youll get over them


Just take your time


Wait how would I know its the one


I dont wanna just break my heart again


You might not know Gee


You just have to hope


Because there has to be hope in order for there to be love


I guess


It is very confusing


Welp my friend is mad at me and probably because I havent said anything to them in a couple days. I havent really said anything to anyone for a couple of days really.


also idk if im over them or not LMAOAOO


Gee


Saw your chat and I know love is everything one can dream of and its something people wish they didnt know about. You cant find love, it comes to you. You and your partner cross paths once and stay forever


It takes a long time and personally, I dont say it from experience but from observance. I helped the people who felt the most helpless find a place with love where they wan to be. It takes a long time but it is worth the wait. The true one also makes mistakes because no one is perfect and it takes a long time depending on how long it takes on to learn. Patience is key and when your patient sometimes you cant find the lock


What Im saying is that you have to flow with time. And from experience, theres a chance things will be easier but you have to hope for the best and plan for the worst


For example, maybe your relationship was falling apart and you were in denial. So as the basic ice cream and a movie is the way some girls deal with their break up. They hoped for the best and planned for the worst with the ice cream in the fridge.


I know it doesnt make sense but sometimes we have to remember its the real world and sadly its not directed by a director. Make your life the way you want it to be.. Things will only get harder from now on and you have to stay strong


Life is about risks


that was great like actually thanks for typing that out


Ofc!


Valor be careful


sangwoosbasementchains Anime characters are shifting into the real world


HunnyPuppy I agree


THISGIRL024 thank you


Gee Of course! You ok? I dont see you in Main Chat


hes from australia so hes usually on at night


Now I level up


do you have something that helps you eith stress?


Not really


Just took my blood pressure


It's at 100


Idk if I can lower that


I wanna do someting really bad to myself..and i dont if i can fight the urge to do it anymore


Oh please dont!


Express your reasons!


And why do you care about those peoples acceptance?!


I may not be the person


Youd like to have care from but when it comes to these situations I know I dont have control and ONLY you do


EVEN if those people are family or friends


They dont have the right to tell you what to do


My own dad threatened to kill me this morning and he wasnt joking this time..


Try to look for help!


Find a teen shelter near your area!


An abusive home but Im not sure how youll be able to get any paperwork thats important


Its mental abuse and thats not right!


No one is perfect and DONT be sorry you werent the picture of the perfect daughter he wanted


Dont feel ashamed


Be GRATEFUL you arent what he wanted but that youre a more SPECIAL being!


Please come back to me!


Look for a shelter or a friends house!


If youre afraid of the virus DONT BE


It will be SO MUCH better being sick than living in a Toxic place!


Nah..i genuinely wanna and nothings stopping me this time


Thats killing your self esteem!


So yeah


Stopping you from what! No self harm!


I know you have doubts


I KNOW YOU DO!


Thanks for trying to help but never works on me.


Youll only give the satisfaction of your blood to your enemies!


Dont let them see your weak wether they know it or not


THINK ABOUT YOUR DIFFERENCE


What will happen when youre away from them


When your successful!


I know EVERYONE who has HOPE and PERSEVERANCE can go anywhere they wish as long as the direction is UP


Please come back to me


Or type!


I want to make sure youre reading this!


Im sorry Im not of any help..


Please call?


Send it in media maybe?


Or in selfies!


Just let me know where Im so glad to see youre back


Please stay a little longer..


A little means an eternity btw


One second...


Is it sent through media?


Sending


Sent


Ok! Ill check it now


That IS!


I cant believe it I know what they possibly want


They want your last words to go to someone who wants to feel worthy but doesnt even tell you to STEP AWAY?!


THAT is cruel YOU are so much MORE than that


I know you have doubts!


I dont know what maybe made you happy.. wether it was the first time you ate ice cream or passed a test


Im sitting in the window right now


No one has notice yet


Maybe you skipped school once and you were so happy that your adrenaline was running?


Please step away


I know you can get through this


It may seem impossible but its no where near that


I just want someone to notice me so i can feel special to at least someone


THISGIRL024 and this I have seen before Im not saying it applies to you cause it doesnt


I try art, sports, everything


Fuck ive even broken bone to get attention


SOFTIE MARS What I know about you is, I know your special! I know you are a beautiful person and if your heart could be seems EVERYONE would try to take it


I know that youre passionate about things you want to keep doing


Things that inspire you


Why when you were 4?


Ive been abused and neglected my whole life


My dad has stabbed me, punched me, and i havent told a soul


I may not know what you are exactly feeling, wanting, needing, desiring; but I know that you have talent, beauty, passions, and a bright smile with beautiful diamond eyes that the world needs to see


You need to get out of the toxicity there


You have to find a shelter or a place


The reason is because youre the only one being absorbed by the atmosphere


And I know that wanting attention from those of your own blood is wrong because you should never ask for it


You should never ask for better treatment or for a better place


Those who truly know you for who you are will beg differ


Tell me


I know you want to get through it


And you may not know where to start


I want someone i call my parents and will treat me like i belong for once


I want that actually care fot me and hang out


Theres a difference in parent who are parents by name and parents who are there for you


But not everyone has the luck and IT IS difficult to understand


Theres only so much you can trust someone


I wanna jump out of this window and i dont know if can continue to hold back while we talk


Please dont


Look


When you get through it


Youll be looking upon the sky happy there was not a last time


It seems impossible but you will get through it


No one can tell you exactly when, how or why it happened


But you need to understand that its because YOU are the one who make the choices


And the choice you wan to make is NOT the right one


Its not the one that will guide you


Or make things right


Youre here for a reason and that reason is to not give up


You are a uniquely strong human being


Can i take a moment to sit here and think?


And youll never know the changes unless you Try


Yes go ahead


Its been while


And its the next day! Or at least in my time zone


Thanks btw..


YES OF COURSE!


Im so glad you got back to me!


I understand you needed a breather and take the time you need to process! We all work at different paces!


I hope you dont mind I have to sleep I wake up in about 5 hours, Good night!


Gee Of course! You ok? I dont see you in Main Chat


THISGIRL024 sorry I was on, I was at school


Its ok Im suppose to be asleep hehe


I just cant sleep


I have my net but cant find the Zzzs to catch! Are you feeling better?


THISGIRL024 not really tbh because someone has made a joke and I fear it could spread and be very bad


What type of joke? Gee


THISGIRL024 so there is a party happening in a few days and because I was otg with the person who is hosting we decided to be friends they keep making jokes about our relationship and I was asking what time does the party start and finish


And they said for me the party doesnt actually start until everyone else leaves


Damn be careful


Youre a college student?


Year 9


Im 14 turning 15 nov


oop


i thought i was older than you


Lily F


Dont go to parties at a young age


Why?


They probably want to do drugs after everyone leaves or something but Id rather not go if I were you


No it wasnt drugs it was the


You see when a man and a women fall in love


That thing


Lets just say that even though not all parties are safe, there kids who like to explore certain things that shouldnt be their interest


That was my best attempt to explain


Yeah I know please dont go any further


Thanks!


Killed me


What type of shrek is that?! Is that even one?


Well if youre into that you can stay at the party but if you want to stay safer then do what you think is safe but.. what was the joke?


That is shrek and Barry b benson


The joke was they said I should stay the night there


Oml


Yes


Ya boi getting the girls already


Jk


Year 9


Gee isnt that 1314? In Yr 10 I turned 15 now I'm in Yr 11


And why do you fear it spreads? Because then theyll know the true intentions of a guy? Its nothing new its old


Im 14 turning 15 this year


Oh cool cool


Freshmen be like


So ur in yr 10 now


THISGIRL024 no because I didnt do it, and I dont want fake rumours


FireBeatsICE next year


the grading system are confusing


Well then theres no one to say you did


Besides the Hosts and everyone else.. If they do theres not much you could do


Wym


If they do make up some lies about you and they tell others it can spread


When was the last time you saw gossip being turned down?


Ohh


I thought you meant if the do do the nasty


Wait so if this is going to be a possibility


I need advice for what to look out for


Because I dont want it to happen


Just take 2 or 3 friends that are actually your friends


i have nobodyyy


maddy wdym


Hmm?


maddylew To call my own


That song is so old


lmao ik


Im gonna yeet myself off a cliff that is all


Parents pissed me of thats all ill get over it


try and ignore them


they say things they dont mean to prove a point but its usually really exaggerated


Im not okay. I shouldn't get this angry over something so minor. I just wanna be okay


I really do


I dont wanna be like this anymore


Its exhausting


Draining


I feel so lonely whilst having so many friends who love me and care for me


maybe cause i feel so unloveable


and then even when i do everyone here tells me they love me and that im great


but i cant tell if anyone is genuine without seeing or hearing them say it so my mind overworks


the self hatred fucks everything up


i genuinley feel so annoying all of the time


and i dont wanna feel like im a terrible person


maybe i am


maybe there is just nothing i can to correct the self hatred


because its there because im terrible


no youre not a terrible person. your negative thoughts are making you very insecure ab urself. thats whats causing u to think this way. what are some things you like about yourself? u need to discover urself and find more traits ab urself u like. write in a journal, it helps. any negative thought u have u write down and throw away.


thats the issue. i genuinley could not tell you one thing i like about myself


one good thing abt myself


i never thought of that...


youre kind


ur friends care and love u for reasons


good qualities, good attributes...


Maybe the only reason you feel lonely is because you dont have self love. When you feel that love you wont worry about others loving you because you have the ultimate feeling you need to bear with life


You are the person who is tearing you apart


Or is there someone in specific who you want? Maybe its because they havent made it clear that you feel youre not good enough for them. You seek their comfort and want to meet their standards.


You should feel enough because youre more than that and youre not meant to be someone else, youre meant to be yourself and if youre not being your self then you have to find yourself because you might be losing yourself to the person youre not


And Im being genuine because no one should feel that way!


You dont have to say your feelings are bad or that they sound bad because not all the feelings are the same


I understand you may want to feel those emotions and that you dont want to wait but it takes time


You never know who the person on the other side is and you can just fall into someones hands who may not feel the same way


Thats why it takes time to get to know them and for them to slowly show you what personality they have developed over the course of the years


Is part of the reason you want someone on the intimacy level to feel worth something or to be someone value? I know how hard it is to mask everything but you cant keep the same mask on forever


Its not bad to show your feelings because we all have them and you shouldnt feel ashamed


It seems you dont mind the distance because you just want the relationship to be close to each other


You dont have to feel so bad and bring yourself down everyday


But theres a difference


didnt mean to send that right then but it seems you understand my emotions more than i do


Theres a bringing down that help your confidence because if you can talk yourself down everyday in the mirror or so it means you tell yourself this because it allows you not to care for others emotions to you


Give me a sec Im in a class


and yeah im just like extremely lonely to the point i project it onto fiction.'simp' and gain similar feelings to what i would feel to actual people with fictional characters. mostly anime characters


THISGIRL024 thats okay dw


And then theres a talking down that only brings you down making things worse and making yourself seem utterly useless even though your not and you think you have taken the blindfold off when you really have put more and more which does not allow you to see the true talents and beauty youve always had


i dont get how to stop. i dont even consciously do it. it kind of just happens. i just wish everything would go tf away. i wish everything that has happened to me hasnt i just want my dad back for gods sake


Its important to know that anime characters have a chosen fate and their lives have been written by others who had a goal to satisfy you. And I dont blame you because I sometimes do compare my strengths and emotions to them but thats besides the point


The point is that instead of writing yourself a life into a hole youll never get out of, you should think otherwise. Youre the one who makes choices and youre the one who writes your story


NoPoint thank you for that. i love you alot too and feelings are mutual. im probably closer to you than mostly anyone else on this server.


No one has your book and pencil, only you do and you have to make sure theyre always with you, remember youre the one in control and if youre not in control then whats the point of trying to have it when you can just use it to help yourself or those around you who you know truly love and care for you


THISGIRL024 mhm i try not to compare myself to them apart from relating to their problems and finding comfort in that. when i say projecting lonelliness i mostly imagine myself dating them. literally almsot being in love with them as sad and weird as that sounds. i make self insert OCs which i find are idealised versions of myself and put them and insert them into these animes i watch to imagine i interact with these characters etc. this method of escapism has helped me alot and i did get reduced breakdowns but it was because i was living in a world of fantasy.. but i cant live in that world forever. and the idea of not doing so hurts. and causes so much pain that its concerning


its fine to compare urself, its natural, maybe try to compare urself to ur past self then people who aren't u


i think it helps improve a person if they focus on how much they have grown then comparing urself to people who aren't u


but i prefer past me which is the worst thing


i miss how okay i was


how indifferent i was to how i looked etc.


how i didnt care what anyone else thought


i want that back


childhood was so simple and carefree


Taylax I honestly used to do that but instead of watching anime I used read webtoons. I stopped reading and instead of living in my world of fantasy I picked up hobbies and when I didnt feel happy or distracted doing them then Id drop them because I have the power


Im not sure what your interests are but you can pick up honbies or watch videos about the hobbies you like. Maybe you want to be in a law or health career and I think because those are your dreams that you can make realities, then you should try to work to make them real


It doesnt mean you have to stop fantasizing because it helped you and if you know it did then you can keep it ip but only minimize to when you need to


hobbies. art. i love art but have lacked inspiration till recently


u can fantasize all you want, just don't make it where its bringing you down


Taylax can u draw something for me every wekk?


week


i just cant help but imagine how different i would be now if my dad never died. all my problems started after his death


like just make something nice and show


anything u like


a bird


whatever


NoPoint that gives me a goal so if you are okay with me bothering you with that every week then i would enjoy that


Taylax tay you never bother me


but yes i would love that


fuck


also its ok to imagine different things that could have happen


i do the same


NoPoint Yes only until you need it but when you start bringing yourself down then thats when you dont need it because its affection you in the opposite way


When you start running the first 2 hours are ok not the best but ok then as you go and reach about 56 hours your body triggers the production chemical of happiness and then when you reach 910 hours of running non stop it affects you negatively


I dont know how to explain but too little is not enough and too much it also bad


jhvoifgn well at least that is sorted. i can do one by next tuesday and thats a goal to achieve and might help me actually manage to do some


but its not gonna change the fact it has been down, all you have to do is focus on ur future, ur presents self


Taylax i will always help if u ever need to3


THISGIRL024 mhm i get that. i mean i have been watching anime recently which i dont insert myself into it and dont want but when i need that i go back to some old ones like mha etc. when i need to for that feeling of affection y'know


NoPoint expect most the pieces to be anime related etc. cause anime is a MASSIVE interest of mine rn


i mean im not complaining


Taylax like ones ive already inserted myself in and created my own storyline and character etc.


NoPoint this is probably why you are one of the best people for this the mutual interest in anime works


TAY I WILL ALWAYS GIVE U AFFECTION BECAUSE U ONLY DESERVE THE BEST THINGS IN THIS WORLD3


Taylax HEHE


NoPoint ik you will but i meant affection as in relationship type affection. i appreciate the sentiment tho. you are always the best for whenever i need cheering up tho


WDYM RELATIONSHIP WE ARE MARRIED IDOT


djsfhuisjf


fair point


I see the origins of your problems and if I can ask do you feel because your father is gone in body, you feel lonely like hes only in your heart and mind?


Im sure your day would hate to see you the way you are and would help you with everything they could. If it helps try picking up a hobbie that he did so you take a part of him with you and when you understand you are not lonely because theyre taking care of you, its when you have moved on.


I cant imagine the pain of losing a dad or a parent but I know its like losing the reason of your life. One feels this way because they wouldve loved to teach you more and you can always relive those happy memories as long as you dont feel harmed


Anyways, Im going to check out if you dont mind and sorry Im not much of help and if I was even a tiny bit then Im glad I was able to help!


Have a good day you 2


im sure u were great help


and its alright u have a life to live


talk to you later girl


that sounds weird asf


THISGIRL024 oh no you were a great help really. you are definitley helping me understand how i feel more and how to deal with that and i really appreciate all your help today seriously. thank you. and yeah ive talked abt how much i miss my dad and how much i loved him here before. we had so many plans now unable to be completed. a step mother that turned out to be trash agh its all just accumulated. but ive come to terms with the fact my dads death is the reason for alot of my negative feelings


NoPoint LMAO IT DOES


but yeah, girl, you were a really massive help and i really appreciate. thank you so so much 3


attak3 aren't u allowed to switch class?


Taylax I took psychology because it applies to the healthcare system since its mental health so it is also required to get my degree but I also know what it is to understand your emotions in a different way, since I did find new things about myself too


Im 16 so dont be scared Im some creep


Taylax NoPoint Thank you!


Oh also try not to be seen by yourself with a girl and dont go upstairs after cause thats where its suppose to happen


THISGIRL024 that is a good idea


Yeah just try to steer clear, yk?


Im thinking about leaving the server


what why?


I have my reasons


what are those reasons


Theres a person


that?


you dont like?


No I dont dislike anyone


so whatcha thinkin


so what about this person?


Its someone who I used to think of as a friend but I dont really anymore and they havent done anything its just uncomfy seeing their name


oh?


have u tried to talk to them?


im sorry to hear that


yep


I don't try anymore tho


i mean why leave cause of 1 person when everyone wants u to be here


I mean I'm sure that person wants me here too they probably still think of us as friends


ok then whats the problem?


bruh I just told you the problem


so they make u uncomfortable but they still think of u as a friend


yep it's not like they know they make me uncomfy


look at our mutual friendslist and there should be a person who you would expect me to be friends with but I'm not


but don't say who it is


i mean why don't you think of them as a friend?


if I explained that they'd know who they were


i mean ur explaining to me not to them so, why do you think they are not ur friend?


yeah but they can see and I don't wanna hurt anyone's feelings


i mean ur saying ur feelings u have a right


I know that simar


fine I'll just tell you who it is


it's kali


ok and why don't u think of her as a friend


do I really have to explain that


i mean i can't read ur mind


well first I doubt she'd care if we stopped being friends anyway


ok why do u think that?


why wouldn't I?


i mean i can't read ur mind so u kinda have to explain


imma be real with you I don't want to explain it but I'm not the only person that thinks it


and if you wanna see if I'm right go ahead I don't care but I don't wanna talk about it for now so I'm either gonna leave or I'm gonna stay so we'll see


but u came to vent to say that u thinking about leaving the server, so that means u have a chance to stay soo u came for the answer. soo i think you should stay, i do care we are still friends, i mean i think of you as a friend but its ur life i only can give some advice and thats ur choice to take it or not i just hope you stay


I dont think you should let one person ruin your whole experience of a group, if you block them Im pretty sure it wont show their name.


I hate it when everyone treats me like a second option


I frfr get treated like a second option everytime they say Oh I won't treat you like a second option


But than treats me like one


I honestly hate it


Makes me feel like I'm not good enough to be the first option


I don't see anything of how much I'm worth


Everyone just honestly treats me like garbage


They even promised me something than breaks it ot just forgets what was the promise


I honestly hate it so much


I know some people just honestly arent worth your time, you are so much more than you know, you just have to learn to realize that you are good enough and worth it


How do I realize that I'm worth so much


How do I realize that what I'm doing is good enough


Because everyone doesn't EVEN SEE IT


I'M IN SOOO MUCH OF EMOTIONAL PAIN I CAN'T BELIVE HOW I STILL EVEN LIVING


I HATE IT HERE


I HATE EVERYTHING SO MUCH


I dont know honestly, just treat yourself with respect and do what you think is right. You are worth it. One day you will realize it


Trust me I know how that feels just hang in there, I love you and I dont even know you. I tell myself everyday I want the pain to go away, it gets better. You will get those things when you least expect it


You are perfect


I CAN'T HOLD ON MUCH LONGER


I'M GOING TO DIE FROM EMOTIONAL PAIN


MY CHEST IS HURTING


I know, but you have to. For your family or animals and for yourself


ALL I HAVE THAT CARES FOR ME IST EMOTIONAL SUPPORT ANIMAL


MY FREINDS, AND MY FAMILY


And think about how broken that animal would be if it had to watch you go


BUT I KNOE I DISAPOINT THEM SO MUCH THAT O THINK THEY DON'T EVEN CARE ABOIT ME


Think about the screams your family would let out if they found you gone. Ive heard that scream is so terrifying that they cant even mimic it.


You are so important


NO I'M NOT


I'M FUCKEN BROKEN CAN'T YOU SEE I'M IN TERRIBLE PAIN


Think about how your animal would walk around the house searching for you until they gave out


We are all in pain


But we cant give up


I GAVE UP ON MYSELF ALREADY


BUT I STILL GOING BECAUSE I'M GOING TO END MYSELF ONE DAY


Dont think like that


AND I JUST WANT SOMEONE TO BE PROUD FOR ME FOR ONCE


You will get better


And I am so proud of you


And so many people are proud of you


IF THEIR PROUD OF ME WHY CAN'T THEY PROOF IT


LIKE IF THEY REALLY DID LOVE WHY CAN'T THEY PROOF IT THAT THEY LOVE ME


I HATE IT HERE


I'm just verry sad


I'm in so much of emotional pain


I just want it to end


I know it will get better


Just hold on as hard as you can


HOW DO YOU KNOW IT WILL GET BETTER FOR ME?


HunnyPuppy hey it will be ok


We are here for you


Okay


If you're here for me will you just leave me out of the blue when I really need you?


No


I am a very busy person but I will help you with what ever you need


Okau just promise me that you won't abandon me


I wont abandon you


Thank you


Same here


well, this was one of the first places on discord that i had fun, and i am gonna start being inactive on discord, ill be on from time to time, but ill thank you guys especially for helping me through my times not hector NotSouls NoPoint Jimpycoo greg adios, and if you want to ban me from pinging mods go ahead, ok see ya sometime soon


see ya


thanks mom


awww okay bye, Im so happy we were able to help


stay safe and take care of urself3


ok thanks guys, cya


Aw no problem, stay safe and see you around!


damn i love you dex  stay healthy


Just took advil when I was having chest pain


It felt like something broke in my heart


And I honestly don't know what couses it


I hope you get better, and find out what causes you to feel that way


so um I just had the covid test bc I've been sick for the past week and I've absolutely no idea if I have it or not I really hope I don't but idk what will happen if I do


Well you will just have to wait and see but you should hopefully be fine


Remember its just been winter and you may just be sick from that


I mean I guess


I mean if you do happen to have it then you'll just be quarantined for a couple of weeks plus u might not have it at all and even if u do then I don't think anything really bad will happen


I hope so


HenryTheHoover I hope you feel better


I know a tea thats strong but Ill remember the recipe and tag you with it, it helps with COVID and your immune system


If your dont mind?


I know you may not have it but its best to start early


thank you


and sure I'll try it


HenryTheHoover Ok if I recall


1 1/3 cup of water


1/2 Tbs of oregano


1 pinch of thyme


Uhhh


2 ices for cool down optional


1 tbs of honey optional


1. After a boil add oregano and thyme and let boil for 1 minute


2. Strain into a heat resistant cup or a mug and add honey with ice if optional


3. Let sit for 12 minutes before drinking


I forgot what else you add to it:/


You can also just drink orange juice without pulp and thats that


Sorry Im in class but...


I dont want to do work


HenryTheHoover


What is that for


... READ! Im jk


I'm reading


They fear they may have COVID


So I asked if theyd like a recipe and they said sure


Its ok Valor is just Bipolar af


Or has Personality disorder


HenryTheHoover Ok if I recall


1 1/3 cup of water


1/2 Tbs of oregano


1 pinch of thyme


Uhhh


2 ices for cool down optional


1 tbs of honey optional


THISGIRL024 tysm


Of course!


If you eat soups make sure you add oregano as it improves your immune system


I have never drank this tea but last time I got sick was 4 years ago in like 7th or 8th grade


I have drank it but not at that time


Its mainly orange juice for me


So youve done it before? I dont want to know how that went


THISGIRL024 And i did jokes earlier, I dont mean any mean things I say cause Im not like that


Its meant to sound the other way


But I do believe you are bipolar


BOII


Why are you apologizing for being you? I dont take anything seriously


Just be yourself even if youre depressed but you may have bipolar depression since you have some or few regrets


so I shouldnt regret cussing people out and saying mean things to people that have done nothing to me


My bad


THISGIRL024 dont BOII” me twerp


Valor You pog


No


Valor You dOnT have to to me


I say pog as a joke


I know that you have that type of humor


I dont actually use the word pog like legit


Ok?


Im still gonna use it


Oml Im saying that you say bad words as humor half the time


Dont try to be difficult


Cause its not working


But if you want keep trying


Why do people call you that?


Because you referred to them first? Like how you welcome some people?


Nah


Like uni, satan,kimmmy,lily, and niko say it to everyone


THISGIRL024 ur mean


I leave now


Cya


I still dont understand how Im mean


I mean no one said it seriously


it was all jokes


Why does everyone do Jokes


I mean I do them too but not all the time


HEHE


i mean its not all the time


What?


No I mean different people in other servers too


No one does me


I do them


Cap


Im here


I do you


Perv


JOKE STOP LYING!


Oh ok


Say less


Sure


Wait


Jokes


Soo


Whyd I get pinged?


I only let cuties ping me


Oh wait thats why u can ping me


Smh


Okay


BYe bye


Jokes Thats why you cant ping yourself either


and I do it to mess with you


Am I cute now


Yes


Bc I pinged u


Pog


Why so mean THISGIRL024


Valor Thats why yall fck with eachother all the time


Ill legit slap u in 100 different ways


Tell them all to me


Nty


Pls snipe


Sorry I was fcking with bot, what happened?


Yeah


Im just kidding I did you right there


Huh?


Bro


Ur confusing


Thats what I love to be


Cya!


Okay then


Ok bye


If someone was reading that notes


Dont tell anyone


Cant u see audit log doe


So why try to snipe


Because like sniping, you can't see deleted images


It only shows up as the filename


In this case the default image0.png


U cant snipe images either


Yeah, like I said


Why do I laugh at serious things


Like when I laugh when someone is giving me the serious face


Can i vent to someone for a minute?


yes


My bad didn't see it


Texas Toast


Alright i got told today that after the first semester of school that I can attend full college classes online, which I think is pretty nice but at the same time that means next year u have to take 10 college classes through the year which I dont know if im capable of doing. My school has a stigma around me that since I was smart in elementary that it would carry through too high school and im worried that I will disappoint everyone. The main goal though for doing the college is to earn an associates degree by the time I graduate which would be nice but i doubt myself


I average about an AB average but I just don't know if I can do it


It seems out of reach


You'll be okay, no one should pressure you to do anything or stick you in an uncomfortable position


I'd say give it a whirl, it's always worth a try


And if you feel yourself slipping let your teachers know, or whoever is in charge, and maybe then you guys could sort something out to help, or lower your workload


Yeah, I want to do it because if I manage to pull it off I will be able to get into the college I want to, it would help me set up my future


Its just everyone expects so much of me and I've had a following stigma around me that im the smart kid when im really not


I understand that, just remember to think about yourself, don't let other people's thoughts control what happens to you or your future, if you feel someone who is expecting too much of you is putting you somewhere that is too much for you, remember you have the power to speak up


Feel like I'm kinda just saying bullcrap now, it's true, but kinda cheesy


Well in terms of myself I tend to be clumsy and forgetful but people view me academically as smart and there is no way I can really shake it without flanking some stuff. At times I don't mind it but I just always get worried that I'm gonna let people down and they'll give up on me


That's understandable... Maybe let people know directly when they praise you in such a way that makes you feel kinda meh?


Yeah, I definitely need to be more open about those issues


But yeah, im just a bit stressed, ill talk to my guidance counselor more tomorrow and go in depth about it the details, but for now it scares me a bit


I deffo understand your position, there are ways to help you, I'm sure your councillor will know what to do


Yeah, I was only briefly told about it, I just never really thought I'd be able to get into a position like this though at the same time


Maybe I should look at it more in a positive way and think that its the first step into college and less of a burden


That's a great way of thinking, just always remember to think about yourself and keep in tune with your thoughts:


Yep, I can better realize that. Thanks for hearing me out


No probs


this week destroyed me


just like, wave after wave of problems all kind of built up and this is the breaking point


i'm just crying, i don't know what else to do. everything is bad. i want to curl up in a ball and pretend this week didn't happen


its ok to cry, we all have days sometimes even weeks where its just bad, you just have to stay calm and relax, maybe find something that can hwlp you relax?


And high school?


No


Full college


Oh thats like yeah thats not a biggie


But technically still in high school


Im in high school...


Its just stressful because I struggle with high school classes and im about to take on 4 college classes


Same, im in 11th grade right now


2 M/W and 2 T/Th?


Oh thats cool were in the same grade!


No, its 5 classes every day


That is pretty cool


Thats an odd schedule


Umm thats not like the usual college


Where are you going Harvard? That sounds about right? Im sure youre really smart and they see A LOT of potential in you


Stop doubting yourself” was what I heard from a trusted source


And it applies to you


Well im gonna be taking certain classes to get into the University of Florida but im not sure I can make it, the acceptance rate is under 40


And here I am moaning about my college when I only have one course


guys I don't have covid


YAY!


You have successfully lifted that weight off your chest


yeah thank God


Please wait 1 1/2 weeks for the next level!


Tip: It will not be easy!


no it will not


Do you agree to level up or quit?


Quoting will result in the loss of progress and you may have to restart


Love when im pushed aside in my family


Its sick


like they aren't telling u things or they aren't including u?


Im just not important


And barely acknowledged


meaning like they forget about u?


Pretty much, its like whenever my sister would do something everyone would be so happy, whenever she got her car bought for her everyone congratulated her but whenever I buy one no one says anything. And I just recently started planning classes for college and when I tell my family I get yelled at


Its like they want me to feel like shit


The only family member who is genuinely happy for me is my sister but she doesn't live with me


have u talked to them about how u feel?


Not really, i just don't want to mention it because I feel like i shouldn't


Like a simple congrats would make me feel happy


i mean if u want it then you have to tell them how u feel


there is no should or shouldn't


its only what u want


and if u want this


then go for it


Well its just ive been doing all this stuff and no one acknowledges me, i mean I don't like being the center of attention but its just i always get yelled at for doing nothing when I worked for 7 months to buy my own car and get called lazy by my family


u just want to be loved is pretty much what it is, then just talk to ur parents


Well i live with just my grandma, im not sure where my parents are. But that's probably it


I didnt mean to turn it that way but I get what you were saying


just whenever u get the chance, just tell ur parents how u feel


If you know your parents wont listen to you then you should right them a letter, or if they check your room or walk in just have it laying around and theyll probably see it


You can do that if you feel like you wont have the courage to ever give it to them and if you want to just give it to them then you can also do that


My parents left the house to get my dad an Xray


He was feeling pain somewhere on his body


So I'm home alone with my siblings and my grandma


And I hungry


Grandma


So therefore u should never go hungry


But my grandma doesn't cook anymore


She's old


And plus I'm only used to my mom's and dad's cooking


oh ok


bro my stomach could make a noise and my grandma has already got some soup or something 2 feet down my throat


or something


Ims sorry


expomarker


Yo?


Sus


Always has been


I always been sus man


We know


At least we've come to an understanding


Pls snipe


Hekn hek


Sir


Whats up


Nothing


can someone believe in me eventhough you dont what im doing


bro i always believe in you


im one of the many i believe in you, forever and always


thanks, im fired upp!


GO GET EM


aaa


saaame


lmao


Yea


I don't want my stuff animal to be the only thing to sleep with me in bed


i mean sometimes people aren't able to be there with you, so i get its nice having someone there but its better to start learning to sleep alone too?


I'm scared to sleep alone


I never grew out of my fear of being alone, and the dark


I'm scared of fhe dark it couse trauma


maybe have a light on then


when sleeping


I have a night light


And it's a big blue Christmas light


And I hate being alone it scares me


Oh okay


Thanks for your help ig


I never get to adapt to environments if I feel extremely lonely


ok there is a limit to extremely lonely and just sleeping


What's the limit than?


extremely lonely well to me is like i have no one to talk to, like a day where didn't talk to anyone outside my house or online


just sticked to myself


I feel lonely like that type that no one wants you even if someone wants you it still makes you feel like no one is there for me because it feels like their trying to built up my confidence and destroy it


SHUT IT MEE6


It honestly feel very lonely even I have someone


I don't let anyone in my heart box easily


ok do u want urself?


Yeah I may get emotionally attached to someone but I need to know them more so I can let them fully in my heart


NoPoint I don't feel like myself anymore I feel like I'm a nobody


thats probably why then


no one is a nobody


No matter how much people try to make le happy I just go down


u are urself and i think u are wonderful


self love is very important


Hmmm


I don't know how to love myself tbh


especially if u want someone else with u its important to have self love


not just love from someone else


I want someone to teach me self love


ok try to go to the mirror every morning and say at least 1 thing u are proud of urself


and what u like about urself


Nothing


do that for like a week


yes there is something


I'm not proud of myself


But I am proud for eating because that's my comfort


i like that u are very sweet, kind, caring and wonderful


see already got 4 things


I already got 4 reasons to not feel worthless about


But I just still don't see that


I feel like a god of loneliness


Like no one wants me even if their there for me


Idk making me feel that way


who cares what other people want or not want, u should focus on urself, care for what u want, what ur dreams are, ik its selfish but thats what self love is


But I didn't felt lonely when they would check up on me all day I honestly miss that person for checking up in me everyday


I would tell them all my problems and they would give me adive of joe to turn my problems around


But now I wonder where that person whent


They stopped checking up on me


And now I felt more lonelier than ever


so u are looking for someone else to care for you? is that right


Yes


I want someone to awlays be there for me even of their busy


I awlays pray to god for that person


But I guess god didnt answered and tje devil heard my prayer


time is always against god


I hate going to chruch it's soo boring and it doesn't help me do well


ofc its gonna be boring, and problems isn't always fixed overnight, even tho im not religious i think praying is more like a long time term effect


I had a dream before when I was extremely upset bec no one was there for me


And it was a young man crying


He was yelling at someone


He was in distress


I honestly felt his pain


The shocked on his face when we both heard You don't matter to me anymore, you can honestly just leave made me cry in my sleep


i mean im not a person to care if people check on me or care for me, it is what it is but ik there are people that care about me cause ik if there wasn't i would be living on the streets alone doing nothing with my life and living with regrets


ya we are all gonna make mistakes and regret it


but why would that hold us back?


i want to live my life


i want to see my grand kids smile


i want to do many things in my life


i have a lot of regrets but that doesn't hold me back


those regrets made me the person i am today


everything that i have done has been to this person and im still going to make mistakes and imrpove


Yeah I guess you're right


ik i may have not helped but the only person that can help you improve is urself


Hmm thank you


phew, that felt good.


he deleted it so we made a new one since the community was great and banned him from it, eventually i became owner


oo thats cool


females are complicated asf


Nah


...yeah


everyone is pretty complicated even if u think u aren't


if she tells u about other dudes ur probably the main then


There's usually a very thin line with girls when knowing if they think of you as a friend or someone who they want to pursue something more with


ya pretty much


idk she said i was adorable


and then like a min later


said i looked like caioulo


that one bald kid


the cartoon


idk how u say his name


Depends on the personality honestly. Some girl could joke to me about daddy jokes and all she thinks of me is someone she's comfortable to joke around with and wants to be friends and nothing more. On the other, someone could really want you but you get nothing anywhere near that level so you think they like you just as friends


Shes just poking fun at u


ya most people here just mess around with me


its all good


but its fax doe


again i take nothing seriously


My dad just fat shamed me for eating one tiny bar of Hershey milk chocolate


not good


same


wanna trade?


How's your dad and how's your mom


I live in a mexican household


abusive


extremely


So the emotional and physical abuse is extremd


work on a farm


and them school


and then sleep


My parents are poir


5 annpying sistets


bro i know nothing but poverty


1 really annoying sister who I used to abuse


And 1 brother who is 2 years younger than me


And btw


My mom cam hear me do anything


same


She can hear me brush my teeth, put on my shoes, get in online classes QUIETLY!


my mom got spidey senses


Same


bro i gotta tell u sum


So there's no point of trading parents when are parents are the same


Sure what is it?


nothing


Oh okay


i have a lady friend you could say now


thanks


so like theres this discord game i play. its basically you start out with 16 people, split up into teams, you compete in a challenge, if your team loses you vote someone out until theres 2 people left, then you the other eliminated players vote for who they think played better. anyways we have an all stars season coming up and they didnt make the cut so they went off on me over it and i just gave my reasonings and left the chat


Jack That sounds toxic AF but at least you left it


This server is a better place


oh i left her group dm, not the server, she left on her own accord thank god


Valor yes


yes


I guess its the same for many Mexican households but you guys have it worse than I do


THISGIRL024 yeah Abuse does run in the culture


Im really sorry to hear that


THISGIRL024 it's okay some of us are used to it some of us arn't


Im still sorry:


But I cant lie saying I havent had a similar experience I just chose to avoid the topics


Im just saying its better now


Yeah


nvm im single again


that went well


I miss this


I miss all of you


And I dont want to lose you all


Yet


I know I will


i mean spend as much time as you can then with the things u love


Just got misgendered in photography class and Im so tired of being alive


wait wdym?


like people thought u were a girl?


I mean


Thats not it chief


Just being called a girl gives me dysphoria


i mean ik everyone is different, but people think im a pedo


i mean then would standing up be better, like saying that u are a guy, everyone is gonna assume at first cause that is what people do but if u tell them then they will understand


i found my home


hugs vent


o


so is there something on ur mind or u help others?


Rn no but im usually sad


But yeah i love to help others


that emoji always cheers me up


MISA u can always talk to me if u need someone to talk to


Oh okie


Also nice pfp


Doctor stone:


yaaa


u have a nice pfp too


E


Ty


np


I just saw my body at my mirror


And omg


I gained alot of Quarantine weight


No wonder my dad fat shames me everytime he sees me eat something


I mean its not ur fault that ur dads a dick


And its hard tryna stay healthy during quarantine anyways, especially if you dont have a schedule yk


And just remember that you dont have to change for anyone but yourself ok


um lets maybe not do that


forgot to delete it my bad


we dont talk about that


fine but take care of urself


yes


i got my appstore back finally


ok its alright to talk about urself, this is a place to vent and its ok to be selfish, but if you have feelings for her you should tell her soon then later, its better to say how u feel then just keeping it locked up


and im always down to talk


my dms are always open if u ever need to talk to someone


same my crush used me


for money, stole my friends


played with my heart and emotions


tywin.the.awesome.lion yup that happened to me to


im emotionless


but the wrost thing is i fall in love with her


same


it was so bad bro


i do be over it yet emotionally unstable


than i fall in love with 2 of my so called best friends


damn


im sorry man


Sounds like you need company, maybe consider sticking round in chat for a while and see how you feel?


Your call, really, I'm not your mum /


im still in pain


I would love to be in a call rn cause thats a really good distraction, but i got a mountain of hw so like Imma just lurk and talk when i can until i can be in one


It just has to be one of those nights I can't just sit in VC the whole time


NotSouls you can join ours when youre done


i agree


You ever get that gut feeling that things have been going way too well, so its any day now that itll all fall apart and be ripped away? Yeah i got that right now. Just callin it.


ok


thxs


im struggling to find the strength to live


same


Today on seeing people I used to know still be best friends with each other while I still have never had a best friend


i am afraid to admit this


but im a simp


A simp for who


shiii anyone that dont treat me bad


arianna


Oop


i didnt see anything


ight bye


nvm


I be simping too


amen


hey


Im jk do wtv you want


I do be simpiny


Not physically


any type, its not a shame to be weak


mentally?


I actually believe I have anxiety or something because I hate being embarrassed


But oh well here we go


Gonna step outside the comfort zone once again


There is a girl, I have liked her for a while, we dated, broke up and I never knew why so I never had a reason to stop liking her, and now I miss it


havw u tried talking to her?


No


I dont even know if she has a boy


Friend


But I heard she likes someone


i mean you can still tak to her


talk


Well I try to start streaks and she either doesnt open or leaves on open


o


maybe just say hey and see what happens


But that seems really awkward


i mean ya its gonna be awkward but you have to at least try


I dont know


I dont want to come off as desperate


And I dont even know what I would say


just try to start a convo, like how you talk to anyone else, see how shes doign and whats going on


Wait I could say someone chat, like Im sending it to other people


And then just send it to her


Ok that sounds weird


its up to u but its better to just straight up text her


She is probably asleep


Its 11pm


probably


I probably should be too


I have been doing farm work past 3 days


ya then best to go to sleep gee


Okay


Goodnight


good night gee


Where the disappero guy emoji


There we go


Bye


later


Grr


grr


Grrr


Racisim is very bad!


just because he doesnt show his pride in u doesnt mean hes not proud


How do you know that?


i just cant contain this infromation any longer


im afraid to admit but i have a massive schlong


damn


wish i had the confidence and inches for that


its ok


your simar your 2 inches is automattically 2 feet


Omg


I'm gonna be totally honest I'm really unsure about my sexuality...


it's okay to be unsure, you can take however long you need to figure it out.


and you don't ever need a label if you don't want one!


I did try some of those sexuality tests and most say that I'm bisexual.


it really depends on how you feel you identify, if you feel like bisexual is the right label for you then you can use it.


and sexuality can change over time too, so you might think you're bisexual and then realise you're gay, and that's fine too


I'm not gay for certain. I have been attracted to girls.


i need some serious help on my sexuality myself, and i think its fine not to have a label


atm im pan and demi lmao


im complicated


i've gone through so much with my sexuality/gender, i'm still a little confused with it


I'm either bisexual, pansexual or just straight...but I'm not sure.


LegalAndy360 its fine to be bi curious


or just curious


u just be urself


when you know what you feel you are then you can say that


just take ur time


see ur options and see what u think is right for u


yeah, it's okay to just be unsure until you know what you are


ya


it does take a lot of time and thinking


and maybe experience too


tru


so you can't really know unless u try


so you should just do what u feel is right for you


I'm not really ready for a relationship yet tbh.


take your time love


hey buttons


LegalAndy360 I am a b s o l u t l y lost with my sexuality, so for the time being while I get my thoughts together, I say I m questioning, because I am confuzzled:


Hi George!


also shslw0rm.0n.str1ngz nice music taste my dude:D


Hey'all:


thanks!


LegalAndy360 and thats too fine


just take ur time


and see when u are fully ready


hey


I know that stick h might've been great at one point, now it's meaningless


Hi


Anyone


Plz


hi?


Just found out that my ex who left me twice actually cheated on me


I giggled when I heard that


I was like idec lmaooo he's my ex


If we we're still together and cheated on me I would cryy


Bit nah he's my ex now do idc about him lmao


read username for how i would deal with that


Jack sameb


It's okay


He broke my heart when he left me twice


But it's whatever now


Awe


she has already found someone else and it aint even been a whole day yet


gonna go kms now im obviously not worth that much


dont actually


nah im a full sender


already got the glock9


at the chin


boutta 200 pump my self


U CANT STOP ME


DIES


ur not tho


i am doe


i was born on birth control


no wonder im such a screw up


thats called a mistake


i wasnt supposed to happen


so who cares how it happen, you are born into this world to be u, who cares if u mess up just get back up and do even better


Hmm


I was unexpected


kinda hard doe my guy when there is no getting up when ur stuck under the current of life


What makes you think I make unexpected things


Valor I know that feeling when your on the edge of the cliff and trying to give up but can't couse you don't have the motivation to do give up


i been at da edge of my cliff since birth


not one good thing has happened to me


not one


never


ever


I don't hate you


But ik there's gonna be a good thing happening to you


Just have hope


im trying to my guy


its hard after 14 years of non stop pain


Have you try to change things?


Like my guy if you can't achieve in anything like my guy you need change yourself into a better person than you already are and to be there for someone or for everyone and to like not be thay sensitive when it comes to things you hate


i try broski


im legit there for everyone when i can be bc of my past i know how it feels


Bro


Have you ever heard of therapy maybe that'll help


But it's okay if you don't want to go to therapy


too expenisve


I get that not wanting to go to therapy


Yeah


What


Hi


Im here


Hello


hello


im here too


Olympe


Yea idk what to do


MikaylaLeigh14 u good


Tiffany for now


alr vent to me


whats that


i have 20 more minutes with u


whats vent


means talk


Oh


ok


go on im all ears


if i dont reply that means im prepping for my sleep


Ok so I was diagnosed with depression when I was 5 ever since my family split apart all because of my dads family Ive had 2 deaths in the pass 2 months Ive been on an app that ppl kill themselfs on Ive actually stabbed myself with a knife and every single day Ive cried over things that has happened to my pass so I thought instead of living I could just die which seems like a good idea but tbh I love crying myself to sleep and I just cut myself every night my best friend has got rid of it a little bit but whenever Im happy something happens


danggg that was personal but yk u didnt have to tell me that bc one u could have dm me that


bc that was personal to me at least


oh srry


its all good unless u were comfortable saying it


I was


I finally got it off my chest


so tell me more about this app


anyways mikayla imma go to sleep but first need to do my math hw so have fun hope u doing well just dm me or ping me in this channel if u need anything or just someone to annoy bc i see u like a lil sis bc ur around my lil sisters age alr cool cool peace out luvv byee MikaylaLeigh14


Bye love you too


hello


Ciao


i dont think i need friends anymore


neither a relationship


i just wanna have a good time


Mood


NoPoint I sent a text, I was to nervous to talk straight up so I did the someone chat


Also sorry ping


When you wanna cry but your brother in the room


its alright


Idk if she is just ignoring my text or something but


She must go to sleep real early


Actually well I go to sleep late so


how long has it been since you sent the snap


She actually has a good sleep schedule


It has been


Half hour


37 mins


To be precise


ok see tomorrow if she opens it or not


Will do


danggg lmaoo yk what i do to my boyfriend, i get mad and post something on my private and he knows im mad at him : but before i do that, i say good night and yeahh: Gee


reading the past 20 minutes of chat between ari and that one guy


not pog for my mental health


ya i get that


make want die levels increase by fair amount


the already low levels of serotonin levels decrease rapidly in a short period of time


plays juice wrld


but your not though my guy


u don't need a worth to live


ya


thxs love kinda a strong word and i have serious trust issues, my boyfriend hates my guyts when i keep stuff from him like it scares me when he just looks at me and knows something is going on sighhh. but im always denying his love and pushing him away:


if he is blocking you from being happy then i don't think you should be with him


but it might be that hes looking out for u


maybe just talk to him


its not really denying his love, its more of stop telling me or shwoing ur love to me idk why i do that


then just break up with him then man


idk what to tell u


i mean if u feel like he is blocking you from being happy then ya best bet is to break up with him


no hes definitely not blocking me from being happy in fact he makes me laugh and smile a lot, i think about him a lot sometimes i laugh too much i start crying but yeahh and no i really love him we dont argue a lot now its just i think its more of a me problem than our relationship problem, and sighh i think he is looking out for me but i dont really like when people look out for me idk. okay one i cant talk to him bc i cant tlaking to people in my life and opening up


ok he is ur bf and he is always gonna be there for u


this kid legit wrote sigh


off topic my bad


so i would say just take ur time and open up


he will be there for you and always try to make u happy


yeah


yeah im trying: i cant seem to open up to anyone in my life


except online people


smh


breaks up and meets on tinder


there problem solved


Doe just take ur time


baby steps


just talk to him about how u feel


and see where that goes


idk how i feel


i feel lost in my emotions


somem confusing emotions jumbled together


ok how do u feel rn


i can seem to describe how i feel


cant


what are u thinking about


school


uh idk what else


how old are you?


emotion central


ok so how do u feel about ur boyfriend?


idk tbh all ik is i wanna see him


and i care for him and i love him


thats good


but when i think about his love, one someting deeep down is making me deny it


like as if its fake


thats not good


ok then talk to him about it


yeah


sighhh i should


its his and ur love, we can't really tell whats fake or not


u should


then i feel bad


SIMAR! BE A THERAPIST! IT PAYS WELL AND UR GOOD AT IT!


good relationship happens with good communication


Valor im still too young


trueee


and inexperienced


and lazy asf


ik that


fax doe


not rlly


doe


but


yes


ye i get what u mean


Bianchi u shouldn't feel bad


just talk to him


i cant i feel bad


idk if its feeling bad


idk how to describe it


a good relationship is when both parties have good communication and understand


like i said i dont like opening up to anyone in my life


and i don't either its not my kind of thing but reaching out to people helps


maybe except my 21 year old brother


and improves on u


but only thru text


or vc


then try to text ur bf and see how it goes


just start slow


and say as much as u can


it won't happen over night


it will take some time


hmm i think hes teh type to listen


but u just need a little confidence


and then try to do it for a shrot amount and then forget about it


i mean u know him better then i do


ok try to make a goal


and stick to it


mange ur time


do i really know him that weel?


im questioning


only known him for 5 months


idk how long i have been dating him


thats what happens when ur in love


i mean i knew him for 2 years ish just never talked to him


like never


all im saying is that he is ur bf for a reason


a reason only u and him can talk about


and will always be there for u


sighh


i feel like me talking to him wont do any good


it will


u never know until u try


i ddi talk to him once, he said he would try harder


all im saying even tho im lazy a little effort can do a lot


and then he did for 2 weeks and after that treated me as if i was a friend


hmm i should stop questioning or imma break down


then talk to him thats literally the only solution, its u two relationship and u need to understand both ur feelings


Prochora its alright


just stay calm


relax


ill question our relationship at night


that way i dont cry in class


or blow up


anyways i cant control my emotions recently


ok well if u need me il always free and willing to help


and maybe u shouldn't control them


no


but thats cause u just don't reach out


and talk about how u feel


u should open up more


don't hide ur feelings


to who


i cant trust anyone


to anyone u trust


except my brother


im willing to listen if u like


probably only person i trust


but he makes jokes about it


my life n problems


well if u have no one else im always willing to listen and help out


but helps me, currently im ignoring him


oh okayyy yeahh thats dope


who are u ignoring?


my brother


why?


is it cause he is bothering u?


no


more like hes annoying


so u just want space?


ooo ya i understand


what i mean by my emotions are getting out of control


when im close with someone


one moment im chill and cool


the next day or 2 im annoyed at them


and i do this every week or every 2 weeks


its bad for me at least


i mean thats fine, i think its cause u are controlling ur emotions too much


sometimes its best to just let them out, better then just taming them


cause not everyone likes to be controlled am i right?


yes


so tonight just maybe have someone to talk to and let out ur emotions


colgate or crest


i need help answering that question


idk what colgate or crest is


sorry:


dang where r u from


canada


oh dang


i think it might be only in the usa


its tooth paste brands


oh okayyy


nah its all good


im not the brightest


stubbing toe or hitting elbow on something


wait whatt


which is worse


umm


i think toe


same


anyways i should try to talk to someone tonight


im back


deifinitely not my brother


Siouxie yaa


wb valor


i talk to myselfff


no


it has to be another person


: sooo its cool


i actually talk to myself a lot


which is fine


but talk to someone else tonight


oh okayyy


sighh okayyy


funny thing i do it at night a lot


well tonight will be different


oh okay


idk who that will be


thats up to u but ik u will find someone


yeahh and sighh i hope i do find someone


i hope u do too:D


Hello


hello NoPoint tywin.the.awesome.lion


it might be u who knows


maybe


hello lmaoo that was for nopoint


lmaoo


if it is me u can just dm me oki3


its alright


my bad


Chat dead for 15 minutes now


My ears hurt Lounge one


ya thats scary place


Lmao


Nice PFP adventure time?


hi simar


There someone with a high pitch noice!


I cant


chl0e Hey finn


THISGIRL024 yaa


its all good dont be sorry


tywin.the.awesome.lion heyy


what?


u said sorry


hmm


hmm is that a personal experience?


yes


Hello people:/


hey


i've made progress with my username


as have i


I want that person back in my life they would check up on me everyday but now they stopped and it makes me feel very lonely but I'm getting warmer and warmer because I have someone special in my life now and I don't want to end and have it hurt me very badly


But I'm trying so hard to forget that person


I honestly hate them for stopping to check up on me every day


Jack Stunning!


VENT


I don't really think that's how this works


does your body ever feel completely numb for no reason


yep


when that happens i


anyone wanna sleep call with me tn


plz dm


Wass up


Ima help you


you said you cut yourself?


Talk to us


Listen thats a really bad path to go down mikay kay Ive gone down that path


Hey hun you can talk to us if u want


And its a really bad path to go down


Pls pls pls No cutting bb


we all love you here


it hurts us to see you harm yourself


Ok so I was diagnosed with depression when I was 5 ever since my family split apart all because of my dads family Ive had 2 deaths in the pass 2 months Ive been on an app that ppl kill themselfs on Ive actually stabbed myself with a knife and every single day Ive cried over things that has happened to my pass so I thought instead of living I could just die which seems like a good idea but tbh I love crying myself to sleep and I just cut myself every night my best friend has got rid of it a little bit but whenever Im happy something happens


Awee come here you lemme give you a hug. You know you matter so much! And your life is precious


Hun I get it I know what it feels like to just leave and that death seems like a good option but it really isnt okay. I know this saying that keeps me going and it may not help you now but if you start thinking about it, it will make u see things more positively sorry if this is cringey


hugs am I a disappointment


MikaylaLeigh14 guess what


noone cares about you


not your friends


not your family


not me


just go and die


noone loves you


noone wants you


tywin.the.awesome.lion TF IS WRONG WITH U DUDE


Are u kidding me


tywin.the.awesome.lion ok I will


Hold on


tywin.the.awesome.lion Get TF OUT OF HERE RN


RN


Someone


Kick him


OUT


Hold up


DONT LISTEN TO HIM MikaylaLeigh14


Mikayla


This is the problem


U listen to the negativity


Ignore em


Then only you'll understand what your life holds


Im actually crying


NoPoint


she tried to hit on me


tywin.the.awesome.lion dude


baka


Ban


Cardon


Thats no reason to say those awful things u did


Thank god


THANK GOD


!kick tywin.the.awesome.lion


@.Pissbaby they gone


Thank u


if they werent kicked i coulda banned em


but its aight


same thing


nah ur gucci


Im actually really mad rn


just stop being mad


Im actually crying


I wanna commit man slaughter


on cardon


I miss my best friend


she died


apparently I have to die


MikaylaLeigh14 hun


on the 16 of September


Those feelingss you're having


MikaylaLeigh14 okay so if you want me to give you legit help and options I can cause I dont want to say how or why I can on here but I know ways to get help okay


mikay kay We all love you sweety


I have em all the time


please please please dont be sad


What im grateful about is ik i have people who care


They bring me out of that pit


Love is real we really do


And I also look at this now in a different POV since Ive been through a lot of stuff so what you guys are saying now is not what Im fully thinking


Okay


Oh


Okie


I thought this was vent


MikaylaLeigh14 are u here can u read what I said


She made a mistake


I hope shes alright


I do too


oh mikiberries?


All I ask is for a therapist


So like we can only help a friend out so much that if we try to fix it ourselves it hurts us mentally physically and emotionally because like what Ive done is take all of someones issues and try to solve it and forget mine. You can be there and help but you can only do so much it really depends on professionals and adult you can give them support and some advice but dont hurt or mess yourself over it


i already have a therapist sooo rip


but honestly sometimes he isnt helpful like i just cant open up to him


Oh okay


anyways im getting a new one


MikaylaLeigh14 did u talk about it with your mom


hello boyyy


or maaam and i am baddd i am freaking out for my chem test how r u tho


well im procrastinating : rip


dont know who cardon is and idk who that is anyways u shouldnt ask me im not a mod or anything or a staff


rip yup


wym? im so lost rn


who is he


isk who that is


dont know who that is


danggg why u asking if u dont know or?


im lost


anywyas lets move on


hows ur day


kind of good just ate a chocolate bar and i am drinking my tea


Am I a bad child If I hate my parents sometimes


Thankyou for answering


and no


ur not


its normal


Yes thanks now I dont feel as bad


I need to vent cuz today someone in my speech class brought up self harm and yk I tried my best to stay calm but I could feel it through both my wrists and no I havent self harmed my wrist for almost a year but it was so triggering like I wasnt triggered but somehow my body was


nd I hope my parents divorce


i know its not my place to ask but what did they do?


also try to refrain from self harm, i know me saying it does nothing and the pain can be unbearable but think about how you can change ur life and make the pain go away, try to keep on moving forward


that helped alot thanks


Hey hey


Hey hey hey hey hey


your welcome


you can talk to any time


jon.snow i think he was being sarcastic


NoPoint gotta love the 20hour delivered


Oh well


Im doing homework


So gotta get back to it


To be honest, I have no idea where to start, my siblings are starting to pull pranks on me as jokes, my parents are starting to give attention to my younger siblings because I'm the oldest sibling, my legs have been aching day an night, I'm getting extremely tired and getting around 4 hours of sleep, I'm getting many thoughts of how I should end my life. I just don't like it. At all.


I ended up cutting once and I regretted it.


I know it is hard to talk to people about that stuff but getting more sleep will help a lot


Last year I hated life and now it is great because I met all of you, and I have been given amazing opportunities so dont ever think of ending it


dang i totally forgot to text or talk to someone last nigth


yeahh i hopso too


ive been stress eating for the past 3 years


mines is pretty bad, i eat a lot of chocolate


daily somtimes i try to stop but i cant


Shh


jon.snow I feel like you secretly text everyone


nothing idk what to reply with


Aight


I think they was talkin bout dms my guy


No one said you were bro


you have the power to make them fell at ease and calm. you should probably try to convince them to notify the cops so that it doesnt happen again with someone else


by text


convincing her is the best option i think


hm how so


dude


you should defientely call the cops then


and you dont have any controll on how your ex behaves, its definietely not your fault


but have you maybe tried to talk to your ex also


hmm, i think that helping your gf keep her distance is also an option but i dont recommand you guys takingaction on your own if your ex capable of going thatfar. get a third party involved?


Had a very weird dream.


It was around the end of summer or so and I was standing in an open field on a warm, not hot sunny day, around 5 pm or so, basically evening. It was extremely peaceful all I could really hear was some birds chirping in the distance, but the main thing was that right near me there was a small, well built wooden cabin with the door slightly open. I decided to just go ahead and walk right in when there was an older man like 70s or something who seemed to be carving something out of wood. Again, basically all peaceful, at this point all I could hear was a slight ticking of a clock which was in the cabin. The man then turns around and asks do you know a why you're here my name? As he continues carving. And I was like no not really. There was a bit of silence before he basically gestured me over saying come, come and shows me what he's working on which looks like it's an interesting star shaped thing. Couldn't really describe it but it looked neat. From there he tells this place, it's peaceful isn't it and I'm like yeah it is. He says, I think so too and chuckled a bit.


Then I pretty much woke up


Maybe not so much as weird, probably fascinating


lmaooo i miss my ex:9


idk if im a crazy ex


What?


shes in a gang?


or friend group?


oh danggg do u know her well? or?


so u never met her?


dangg so how is she gonna hurt ur gf


so how does ur ex know u have a gf


and your gf told ur ex ur her gf?


hmm wel its someones fault for opening their mouth


hmm it someones


not urs never said that


anyways restraining order?


wym take her down?


physically?


so you never met this current gf of urs?


then why are you doing it if it doesnt make it right


yk there is a simpler way or ways to do this


uh u can do it another way


sometimes i feel like


yoo whats up


she got raped?


Ill come back sorry I dont wanna interrupt your lots convo sorry


nah its all good


i can talk to multiple people at once dukenukem6901


uh one i would feel sad


Naaa its calm Ill feel bad


or go to the lounge channel


ill talk with u there or any other talking channel


two i would wish it never happened


lmaoo my best friend is my gf but i am a girl


no


i would feel mad deep down


Im just trying to make friends but tbh Im really socially awkward


one violence isnt the answer


awww or dm me dukenukem6901


ill be ur friend


just dont hurt her


sighh can you talk to the school about it


get your gf to talk to the counselor


report it


one report it


her parents?


or get ur gf to come visit u one day and both of u guys can call the national sexual assault hotline


or get her to transfer from her school to ur school


i dont think u should move her to ur house


one call the national sexual assult hotline


discuss what happen, they will help u


just call the hotline


thats the best bet u go, these people are pros and do it for a living


got


u live in the usa?


oh rip


i say call the hotline first


these people know how to handle these situations


yes they do


Why did the messages delete


He got banned


k im pissed so i hope no one minds that i vent here.. sooo basically today heres some context my friend and my gf are close and basically my friend was saying she was gonna kill herself and so she went offline at the time and then parents find out what were saying so my gf told my friend to use her old account so they did that and now we are here and we dont know who tf is posing as our possibly dead friend and im pissed: even if our friend is just messing with us im still gonna be pissed cuz urgh


im legit shakinggg


are you serious?


yea.. my gf just told me


not good


yea


im gonna go i need to cool off


take your time


shell be ok


i promise


Is anyone here wanna be my friends plz Im sorry for being awkward Im not very good with social


im always down to make new friends!


howve ya been love?


Meh ngl Ive been trying to make new friends but you know


Lily How are you tho


dukenukem6901 my bad


im ok


Thats ok and is ok to add you


yea ofc


Thanks


lets head to chat?


Yis


Lily is ok to dm u instead


dukenukem6901 yea ofc man


hey.. im back im feeling a lil better now not much tho..


thats better than nothing


yea


Red pretty sus


Just saw him vent


also that girl i was talking bout shes alive


Great


Hey


I want dead


There is NoPoint in living


I just feel the worst


Your right


Actually saved me from doing somthing I would have regretted


Yeah


Thanks tho


had a guy drop out of an all stars discord game i help run. its something where they were getting information about it back in august. literally 12 hours before the cast reveal he dropped, but at the same time i cant blame him. its just tough scrambling last minute


Gender equality doesn't exist in my fucken house hold


I honestly hate it when my mom or dad tells me You need to learn how to cook or you won't get married


Or when my dad tells me Wow you look so pretty when you cook, every girl needs to cook or they won't get married


everyone should learn to cook


I wish I knew how to cook


I know how to cook but I don't know how to do it more


Cooking is a good skill to learn


All I know is just basic cooking


It can also be fun and calming if you do it for yourself


I wanna make Tamales


If you Wanna cook more then I suggest watching'Binging With Babish' on YouTube and finding a basic recipe to do or anything that inspires you and just having fun


But cooking doesnt equal worth, especially if youre a woman


But my dad keeps saying You're so lazy and women needs to coo for their husband and only women can cook no man


Get a wife that likes cooking instead of a husband then


And she can cook cuz she isnt a man


Lots of men can cook


A what


Pls snipe


Then why would you want him in your life anyway


Do you actually want the respect and love of your dad?


Because from what Ive seen, it sounds like all he does is berate you over sexist and mean things


I do respect him but he doesnt respect me back


You shouldnt respect him if he doesnt respect you and treats you like that


Val saids I should respect my mom even tho she emotionally and physically abused me


They all keep saying that I should respect my parents even tho they emotionally and physically abused me


If you dont want to respect someone because theyve hurt you in some way, you dont have to


You have no reason to respect them


You did your best, you tried to respect them


Yeah but when I try to tell them both out of the abuse they just don't listen and do it even more


As long as you treat them as humans and tolerate them, they dont deserve anything else from you


Nothing helps in this household


Try to tune out whatever they say


Eventually youll get out of the toxic environment, okay?


Only thing that will help is when one of my siblings dies from the abuse and they're change


I can't get out of this toxic environment


Dont worry about what they say because it obviously doesnt matter because their views are skewed and wrong


You will eventually as you get older


I have to live with my parents until I'm married


Then get in a fake marriage where no real feelings are expected


And they'll visit me when I get out of their lives


Not if you dont let them


Get married and then give them a fake address and fake number


I honestly want to abandon my family


I'll give them the john cena hot line


Do it


You owe nothing to them if they dont try to actually love you for you


Just find a way out


And build your life how you want it


Okau


What are the roles for?


Yes


Just to change color or for more permission


I've been swindled again. GG. Never gonna go out of my room again


im confused


Hmm. Well I've been through this same phase a lot so I usually watch myself quite cautiously such that I don't end up being in the same thing. But this time an acquaintance of mine caught me off guard. She wanted to be friends with me, I neither rushed in nor ignored her I simply said, okay. It was going good and I guess that asking'how's it going' and'how you doing' isn't weird so the conversation lasted like this. The voice calls were rather hectic for me, because I really don't prefer talking over the bars. I couldn't visit her Since I'm locked at my house due to Pandemic and now I'm blocked from everywhere. I tried to call to clear things out but got the same thing. Now even if I visit her I possibly couldn't bear enough to talk because I'm Hella confused. Ah yes, besides confusion I wanna thank her for making me feel that how hopeless I am. I ain't ever gonna get out of my own space. For now at least.


Nah, you need to say nothing. I just wanted to vent it out where people don't know me


I'm good


imo


send proof?


tf you mean send proof?


and i'm sorting it out rn, we're talking about it atm


how are you sorting it out, youre not mod?


Im the admin


youre not?


ummm?


it's not in this server bro


im so confused


it's in me and a friends server. Me and my friend have a server. I am an admin and so is my friend but my friend is not the one who banned the member. I, the admin, saw that the mod banned someone without reason so now me, the admin, and the mod are discussing why she banned the member. there was a situation prior involving this member but they've fixed themselves. The mod was annoyed with the member for some reason and next thing I know the member is kicked and then they've blocked me.


yeah lmao


i wanna take their perms but i have to talk to the other admin about it


ya best to communicate with the other mods


gotchu


Damm


Im weird. I have anxiety and paranoia. Which really affects me. Bud also, something else effects me. I feel like when I do something, for example watch a movie. I feel like its gonna change me. Like today I watched Hocuspocus and I havent seen that in forever. I felt like that affected me somehow. Like spelling.


Can someone help me


TattoodMonk8 with what?


I dont know


Ive got a bunch of problems with my stepdad but Ive pretty much figured them out


So I dont know


is there something on ur mind?


Not really


Well


well?


Idk its a long story


i mean i got time


unless i pass out


Its a REAAALLY long story


well i might pass out soon then soo ig another time


TattoodMonk8 i can hellppp u even tho i feel scared


saddd something bad happened to me:


Shelah whats wrong?


a stalker


idk if thats teh right word but some lady was standing outside at 9 pm and rn its 10:34 so 1 hour and a half ago was outside my gate while i was cleaning teh car and just staring at me for 10 minuets


yeahhh im paranoid soo


its scaring me even more


i went to a nearby state with my family and it was a 3 hour drive and we basically spent our entire day there, woke up at 5 am and drove to there and got back at 8 ish pm almost 9 pm and then i was cleaning teh car bc we made a mess and i was cleanign and didnt realize she was there but then when i realized she was there i kept turning around every minute and every minute passed and she was there


Omg


yeah i called my dad after 10 minutes


first i called my brother and i was really scared and he was being ignorant so he didnt help me, and then i called my younger brother and he saw her and lowkey got scared so he called my dad and my dad came out and was like what do u want. and then seh was like i was tasing ur mushrooms and looking at ur mushrooms. but im not being crazy or nothing but i swear my house has no mushrooms and we dont grow mushrooms and we just dont have mushrooms and ik for a fact we dont. so i told my dad earlier during dinner that and he was like calm down, ill checkif there are mushrooms by our gate to see if she was lying sighh


Thats wierd man


yeah scary i dont wanna go to sleep yet


Oh my gosh if u want u can text me personally


yeahh oh okay


my parents thinking of disowning me because I've become too westernized.. man that hurts


my dad's scared of me because I'm just a bit rebellious and too emotional and because of that, I'm also really immature for my age


well I'm asian and we try to live in a traditional religious culture, i live in a big family and i don't like mixing with them because I'm just really different


Ohhh okay


westernized means in a way that I'm trying to be more idk.. like the countries in the western world america, europe..etc.


so as to say, I'm pretty much behaving like a snowflake millenial


honestly idk how to explain it, im bad at explaining things


No you're fine


So do you live in like some part of asia or something?


oh no i live in ireland.. i was born here, grew up here, lived here all my life but we try to go by a traditional asian setting because both my parents are malaysian


they keep complaining im trying to be too irish


I mean I don't think they can blame you though. If that's the setting you grew up in how is it not supposed to effect you?


yeah i get what you mean..


idk.. i've changed a lot in the past few years, before that I was always really obedient and stuff


but i grew out of it because I struggled to fit in with the world


and now i feel like I'm being blamed for it, i still feel like it's partially my fault for being more rebellious but at the same time, i hate not standing up for myself


Well how do you act out?


i hide in my room 24/7 not wanting to interact with anyone at home


Wait how old r u


whenever i get the oppportunity to go out, i spend as much time as i can away from everyone


ik, it's a tough life for me rn


im grown up, i should do this, ik


Oh I was gonna say so like a normal teen but I guess ur not really a teen anymore


But still that's not that bad


i'd like to say i'm not really maturing for my age or that i'm just really different


because i do feel like a teen or do feel the things teens does


i often blame it on my family or the setting i'm in because I don't feel like im growing up as much


Why don't you text me individually?


i can't really make friends with anyone my age because adults are so complicated


alright


i mean sure ig


SHT


ITS 10:28pm


And I got to get up at 7


Wait


Thats not so bad


Well considering the fact I cant sleep


Maybe it is bad


Thats what I sent


Whoa


Where did u send


It


Snapchat


Arh


Has she moved on yet


I dont know


She hasnt answered me


man istg if she screenshots it and posts it on a private story


Shes not like that


good


Maybe you should just distance yourself


She might reach out to u


Im not saying this in a crush way but she is a really nice and caring person


Doubt it


How long have u been together


maybe send her fake streaks or something so she'll see the happen


yooo


slide


slycatnala we were together for two weeks, but it was the school holidays after 1 week of dating and then she just left me, made up a fake excuse and yeah


Pass


Gee dude what


You arent over a girl who u dated for like 2 weeks


its been over a year too


you wildinn


Trueee


Damn bro


Bro move on honestly its been a pretty long time you should just find someone else tbh


you need to relax


and fix yourself man


She wasnt serious if she left u like that


Go to the gym


love yourself before you fall in love with others


I bet u deserve someone


Or adopt of my donkeys


Ill give u 49 off


Id like to see em donkeys bro


U do know telling me to just get over it doesnt help


i thought they was free


I tried


wth


Gee i think ik what u need...closure


I was otg with someone else but my mind wasnt with them so I had to stop it