im really sorry ana and i do hope things get better for you, i would say its better to talk it out with them if u can otherwise they aren't worth it if they can't hear u out, just take ur time maybe have a break from them for a bit and see what u want to do


thankies! imma just probably take a break from discord in general


Aw ok


Love you and Im gonna miss you lovey! Take your time coming back


thankyou


ya take ur time, and i hope things get better


My ex and I started talking


And it honestly feels like I'm gonna cry


Because he still havent found a reason why his parents told him to stop talking to men


And I'm gonna cry because I missed him so much


Idk if we should get back together


Or we just stay as friends from there


maybe just stay as friends for now and see how it goes


Yeah


I hope your doing well NoPoint


I understand how you feel


Been there before


Love you


ya i think im well and love you too


Can i vent?


Yes, of course. go right ahead


ok first off im really sorry and i kinda get that but i would say maybe u could just have a nice time with her without feelings and talk and just enjoy ur time, while having other friends that will support u and be there for you, i have many friends that i only like play games with but don't really talk about my feelings with them, then i got those friends that i can talk about anything with so its really up to u of how u feel about her, i don't think shes a friend that helps other people with their problems which i get not everyone can do that but she makes u happy which is good, so its really up to you just know that you can always have more friends for specific things, she can be the friend that u just have a good time with and vibe without feeling sad, then u will have those friends that support u and cry with u and smile with u, ik this really doesn't help but i do hope everything goes well for you3


Yea the only mates that play w me on roblox r my ibfs and when i hang around w amy i just feel likenik being used cause she forces me to go everywhere tound schl w her and also it may sound weird but when i get tickled i kick snd punch so this girl tickled me and i punched her as a reflex and she the girl all the time would throwbme ti the ground and kick my legs and just be really mean to me and amy wouldnstand there laughing saying do it again so i went to my other mate and they all came up and had a go at me for not being w them and also I honestly feel like she's tikd everyone my secrets cause she's that type of person and i told her things I regret mentioning:


ok tbh she doesn't seem like a good friend


Yea


But she makes me rlly happy thob:


may i ask how she does that?


Id say stay away from her, she realizes she makes you happy and that youll always come back, make her realize shes not manipulative enough to make you stay, make her realize she doesnt have power over you, make her realize if she doesnt shape up youre gonna head on out


She just makes me laugh and when we go to town its rlly fun and we watched the next step together on tour and that was the best


I will i may distence myslef from her but not completely end the relationship


Friendship


If shes toxic, ignore her, make her realize she needs to be herself but at the same time cant hurt you


But if she wants to be nice let her be


She only wants you when shes in a mood


I get that


Im everyones last choice


Yeah and the sad thing is that thats friend 1 out of 6 that make me feel bad


Same


If all they do is make you feel bad you need to head out


Just


Just like dat


Yeaaa


This will now be me when i next see herr:E


Ello luvs


okay read it and wow


lets go back to other chat


Omg yes


Oki


Ditchthebitch


Okii


Idk how to feel rn


but will she matter in 10 years?


bc its like a they come and go situation


Its fine to feel the way you feel


Its part of life


Its aids


I mean yea it is but theres really no use telling anyone


but itll help getting it off ur chest


it doesnt have to have a use, sometimes u just gotta say how u feel and sometimes u wont get an answer or the thing ur looking for it just helps to talk to someone and be able to let out how u feel


I dont know how i feel, all i ever say is unnecessary personal information that doesnt benefit myself or anyone else. Telling people just makes me feel worse tbh


But its fine ig


Ill just get over it eventually


You dont have to tell anyone if you dont want to


But dont not say it bc you feel bad


That made no sense lmao


You know what I mean right?


Yea i get what ur saying


hi guys


Yea I try to be patient but it ends up in them moving on and me feeling like shit


I'll try to get better ig


There is no better”


How so


Just the better version of yourself


Oh


With them i was my best


But nvm


U both are right


Idk


Sorry


I mean ok


They made me feel so happy i literally just dont get it anymore


Im fine tho lmao


I'll forget about them eventually


I dont want you to think eventually


i mean i wouldn't forget about the feeling of being happy


Yea


i would say hold on to that feeling


Just dont forget that a lot more than just one person or thing can make you happy


Hmm


Ok


You guys give good advice


Thank you


Luv u guys


Im not that much help lmao


luv you too


Love you babes


good night everyone all of you will be in my prayers and hopefully tomorrow will bring lots of joy to your hearts and healing souls


I like ur pfp


thanks


i think luigi is better than mario tbh


He is tho


Always has been


hes no like other plumbers


not


He green


yessir


wha


Poggers bro


you know this is vents right claire02


Jsjsjsjsj


NoPoint yeah i told lord it is


Woah


I cant tell if ur serious or not


its someone elses story its gotta be


autzy is like 14!


Yea


Im sorry about that


I used to daydream heaps before but I was getting little sleep


So try sleep more maybe?


Yea i sleep from 119 everyday and i cant sleep cause of it sometimes so i cant sleep till like 2 am so if i tlk on this gc at night its cause i cant i can do it sometimes i cant sleep:


Thats the vid


Oh I sleep from 12pm to 7am


Sounds confusing


when im w my mates i still think it and they find it rlly weird that I sometimes just start laughing but in my head the people said something


Ohh but im trying to think a coping method for what? Cause tbh i feel fine but im ligit while typing this daydreaming i rlly need to stop


Danni 3 btw i was replying to someone


Well i just found out its linked w schizophrenia im so happy


shrekislifeforever bruh thats not normal. Someone replied to my comment daying that:


Gee you basically have a whole different life in your head like its not a daydream exactly its like one long never lasting scenario


The same scenario has been going out in my head for abt 6 months: x


I just cant stop it


Im not the smartest person but to me that sounds kinda cool just having a world you can escape to


But it has consequences from not knowing what did and didnt happen


Yea i prefere that world and ik how to get to it but no one would help me


The world is like im an actor and i have the best life none of my fake friends and ive met all my ibfs


... genuine question. Am i annoying? Am i like... terrible cause i feel like people hate me and im just tryna figure out why...


I think youre amazing to be around and youve never annoyed me


Youre sweet


I joke about that stuff a lot


Thats my way of talking to people and I feel bad bc some people take it to heart


You deserve the world lovey


As much as i appreciate to here that. Nothing can convince me i do right now. I need help. Serious help. But i dont know how to get it. How to approach my parents. Knowing them theyd just say im overreacting.


Ask for help


See what you can get


You wont get it if you dont try at all


I just want things to be different. I wish none of it happened. I wish my dad was still alive. This all could have been avoided if he was here. But he isnt


I wish things were different.


I wonder... if my dad was still alive. Would i have found you guys... would i have stayed here because i yearned for social interaction and a way to escape home life


Would my yearn to escape not be there if he was alive so would i have never met you?


Idk


But i just wish he was


He was everything to me


Sorry


I just miss him thats all


What did i do to deserve him dying on me?


I wonder the same


What did our dads do to deserve it?


What did the people who loved them do to deserve it?


Yo I can actually relate to you guys


Yeah if you didnt know my dad killed himself so


Im so sorry love


greg awe no that's terrible, i'm so so sorry max. im always here if you need to talk 3


Taylax its all good it was when I was nine and Ive coped


Gonna go cry myself to sleep tho so ya know


greg Im here if you wanna talk about it lovey


Lily its all good Im just super stressed and worried right now


About what hun?


Lots of things


You wanna talk about it?


I mean maybe honestly I just wish my gf was here to cuddle me


Im sorry


Its okie I talk to her everyday so


Thats good


It is I really really like her so it makes me really happy


Yay!


And she says she feels the same way about me


Aww


I love that for you


Its very nice


Hopefully I can talk to her before school tomorrow so I can relax


Try to


If shes awake I definitely will


Or just try to relax in general


I do


Im gonna wake up early to meditate so


Oki


Dont worry lily I take care of myself


My dream job is a therapist and Ive been counseling people since I was 9


But Im going to become a psychiatrist so I can help people like my dad


Omg I love that


Yep


I wanna do what my dad did


What was that?


He was a mechanic


OOOh thatd be fun


Mhm


Im sorry hes not here anymore


Its all good


Im really sorry about your dad tho


I had no idea


Its ok


What happens happens


It is what it is


Also I just want you to know Im always here for you ok


Thank you lovey


Im always gonna be here for you as well


I know: youre a good friend


Ty


I love having you as a friend


Awww thanks that means a lot


Ofc


Love you too


But imma head off I have school I hope you have a wonderful night


Good luck with school


Sleep well


Love you


I experienced my first relative death last week, it was my great auntie, but I didn't feel at all affect by the death, it was a shock, sure, it started off as a small heart attack which she was treated for, then the doctors thought it would be a good idea to see what was going on, so she had open heart surgery, and then something happened to do with her capillaries and arteries and it quickly turned into a 14 hour surgery... They called in her immediate family, and when they were putting her on some life support machines, she passed... they way that her family put it, pretty suddenly and, luckily, painlessly


awww Im so sorry buttons


Im so sorry lovey


But the thing that is bothering me the most is the fact that ever since an assualt incident I was involved in 2018 I haven't been able to express MAJOR emotions towards anything thrown at me anymore, like for everyone this past 3 years at least has been utter shit, plus god knows what other personal stuff piled on top of that


I'm lost basically.. dunno what I'm supposed to be thinking anymore


awww buttons include so sorry


buttons I get how you feel


I feel like I'm disrespecting her in a way like this, but I don't feel affected by that, it's like an emotional limbo


I get how you feel, after having any major incident or minor one at that can make you just feel less emotions. I lost a dog of 13 years and I didnt cry at all


Its hard


well i have experienced a death of someone close to me and ur definitely seem to be in a sense of shock


the shock is causing u to feel emotionless


buttons your not at all


I lost my dog today, it still hasnt hit me that shes not coming back


The shock hurts


awww noo lily im so sorry


Shock is what messes you up the most


Mhm


Idk I just dont believe it


Like


Shes always been there


Im so sorry


I had to give away my pit bull of like 5 years because we couldnt keep her. It was heartbreaking just looking back at her and walking away


its ok it takes time to get over it


my cousins and i were young like 711? but they definitely took it a lot harder bc they were younger and never experienced a death


aww im sorry


I had to give up a foster puppy a few years ago


Im never gonna foster again


Awww


I'm trying so fucken hard to cry


But I can't seem to cry


Am I weak


Am I numb


Or am I nothing


Non of the above, sometimes its just difficult to get those feelings out and we cant help it


I feel like nothing


I know that we can't help it


But wish


I wish


I wish for someone to stay with me


That's all I wish for


And I wish for someone to love deeply


Everytime someone gives me a compliment


Or when they say I love you


It just feels like a lie


Like no one appreciates me anymore


Like no one believes in my thinking and my feelings


Im tired.


I tried to play Minecraft but I saw a world I had with my ex and it made me sad


if you dont like it rename it and plant tnt everywhere


Big oofs


Jesus you guys are so supportive


Just delete it bro


So you cant be reminded of them anymore


But I did a lot of cool stuff in those worlds


Oh


Jeez


rename it and break all the things that mainly remind you of her then just change some blocks make it look cooler and better


but the thing is


I dont hate her


:c


I think I'm still in love with my ex


Whyd you break up?


He was forced to leave me


His parents told him to stop talking to me


He moved in with his nana


And he can now talk to me


Well I understand why youd love him still, he was forced to break up with you and it wasnt anything like cheating or just loss of emotions


Yeah


So a connection is still kinda there


But I'm extremely love sick


I sometimes get chest pains


Or head aches


whats wrong with talking with him again


I love that I'm talking to him again


Because I extremely missed him


But were back to are old self's


Were still not together still


But were back to talking less


He works now


From 10pm to 7am


Dang


I need to work


I sometimes wish he had a one day break for us to catch up for those 3 months


I bet he sleeps all day


I think he does


Is he a gamer


Yes


He definitely does that too


Oof a mix between a night shift and gaming aint good


Yeah


tbh I have no purpose so night shift and gaming doesnt sound too bad actually


I really wish I was there with him in person to tell him how I'm still in love with him


awe


Maybe you can some day


maybe


Some day I can


I'm crying rn


aw why


crying helps sometimes


I wish I did it more


Agreed


I just want to cured from my love sickness


Like


It to go away


or


It'll go away after 24 months


Dang


Yeah


I've been in so much emotional pain


Is there any chance you guys can get back together?


I can't seem to stop crying about it


I don't know


I'm on a break from dating


If he wants to get back with me I can


If you think thats whats best to not date then go for it


English


Okay


But were staying as friends


And we see it from there


ok


Also


Its ok to cry


Mhm


Some people think its weakness or something


But crying does relieve a lot


Yeah


Anyways I hope whatever happens


Works out for you


I fake laugh to fit in


I think a lot of us do


but I dont find anything funny anymore:T


Gingie what about me I'm funny


Like no feeling at all


You can tell me whats bothering you, Im listening


its not really just one thing


Tell me


Tell me what youre comfortable with saying


Well some people have told me that I can be a depressing person and nobody wants to be around a depressing person its just facts


Thats why I dont talk a lot about that


ya i get that


i have told a lot of people that like im going through shit and being depressed then after awhile they just stop talking to me


but i feel u, if u want to talk about anything my dms are open


Im fine


I already have no friends as it is


well im ur friend


I lost hella friends when I stopped being the happy kid”


The said I wasnt the same”


Like bro thats the point


Im done acting like Im happy


well nobody really talked to me in high school cuz I always looked depressed and sometimes I really wasnt. Like its sad to say but nobody likes talking to depressed people and sometimes that can make it worse.


I get how you feel


But you have to be ready mentally yourself, before you can help others with their issues


that and people dont really want their vibe to be ruined


usually you have yo be the one to go talk to them try to have a conversation and just try to have fun, being sad is just an emotion that everyone has so true friends are the people who would stay


True


Very true


well thats not always the case


I have no real friends tho


Pretty much same


Ive had this friend since middle school


We played video games together


Thats sweet


and hes really my true friend


I have one true friend


I guess since video games are my escape


And I at least seem happy when I play them


Music is my escape


I dont make it


but my other friend from middle school


he moved to the same area and we went to high school together


But my mood can be changed in 2 seconds bc of music


Hes not really my friend anymore


Aw Im sorry


we never really hung out


Or anything


Even though we were driving distance


I have a huge friend group but we kinda just chill on Main Street together


Its fun being around them


But theyre not that great when it comes to feelings


Mainly just hang out and have block partys and shit


sometimes not every friend group will talk about feelings, its usually the friend groups that dont talk about it are the ones that just have fun and dont care if they are feeling sad they would just enjoy ur time


but there will be friend groups that will talk about feeling and comfort you and all that


well I dont even have any that will hang out


have u tried to reach out to make friends?


its too late now


Its my own fault really


Its never too late


It is for me


And its not your fault at all


Im done with school


it is though


That doesnt matter


I was selectively mute freshman year


And thats fine


and most of sophomore year


Thats the prime time to make friends


And even after then I didnt make any


Its my own fault I have none


Any time is a great time to make friends


And its fine to be scared to


ya for my whole freshmen year i didnt talk to anyone cause i never really been to a school that i knew no one


Ive been with the same 100 kids my whole life


well I had just moved from where I knew everyone in the small school


but at the end i talked to people in my class and sophomore we have like a 10 friend group


yeah I dont have that luxury


Ebiccc


Gingie so is there someone ur closest with?


You dont have to talk to people


literally the one I played games with


But hes in the military now


Thats nice


Cant talk to him much since he just started


And it wont be the same after


I havent seen anyone I go to school with since March


same


It sucksss


I didnt even have friends in school


so it doesnt matter for me


is there anyone in school that ur like closest with?


Well the one I knew from middle school


He literally just left for college


but we didnt hang out much at all


what about people in ur classes?


why not start from there


make connects in classes


I dont have school anymore


Im graduated


Do you have an old yearbook that has a couple phone numbers in it?


Nobody ever signed my yearbooks


My teacher used to make everyone


And I didnt even get my senior one because my mom forgot to order it online


Im sorry


your going to college right?


couldnt if I wanted to


I have no money


Not even a scholarship


wait so no school at all?


I get to go for free cause Im adopted


not at all


Thats nice


use it wisely


what about neighbors?


Nope


like u have no neigbors?


I do but I dont have any around my age


they would probably be in college rn


Anyways


i mean any age still u can be friends


Mhm


Yeah but Im not going to go around to the neighborhood children as a legal adult asking to be friends


Just invite em to sit on your roof or something


Thats what I do


I cant even get on my roof


Damn


I sleep out there sometimes in a tent


A little tiny one


You have a roof big enough to have a tent?!


Even a tiny one


Its like the size of me


And Im tiny asf


Im the only one that can fit in it


Beside my little siblings


Theres also another thing


Yea?


My parents are plot up


Split


Stupid autocorrect


Anyways


Im sorry


I havent seen my half siblings in a couple years


My dad died when I was young


And I cant even go to them because I need a car


Im sorry to hear that


So i get having one parent


Or at least one parent at a time ig


like I need to have so many things in order to move on in life


I need a car which Im probably going to need a car loan to buy


Which means I need a job


At all times


While Im paying for that loan


And I need a beefy pc in order to do the things I want to do


Hehe I cant drive


Neither can I technically


Im trying to learn manual and its the hardest thing


Damn


because thats the only car my mom has


Rip


My mom has a really old gmc


So thats stressful


It runs terribly


and Im pressured to learn it soon too because she hurt her already bad ankle falling on the doorstep


and hip


Omg Im so sorry


She will be fine


I hope


I cant drive for more than 30 minutes


but I have to learn how to drive for her surgeries


Manual is so easy to get distracted


even if you dont have it


ADHD


I mean


I forgot to use my blinker the first 2 turns driving manual for the first time


Damn


because you have to do too many things at once


Exactly


Its annoying asf


Like my mom is so used to it shes like wham bam yes maam


You have to make sure youre going the right speed for your gear and then you have to shift perfectly and you have to pay attention to all the cars on the road and obey all traffic laws and its the hardest thing


The hardest thing is stopping and going


Mhm


And thats when you need to pay attention to the road the most


Im pretty good at parking tho


I just wish I had an automatic


vent


Do it


Yes


Why tho


cause


Because?


Tell me what youre comfortable with telling me


tell you what?


i don't want anything


i feel eh just it is what it is


I get that


Just kinda


there


no


im not even there


I just want everyone in the server to know that I may not understand exactly how they feel, but I will go out of my way to listen to them


Jeez


So being a human has positive and negatives. The positive is all of the cheerful moments in your life. Your happy days, and your best day ever days too. And even thoughts of your happiness and excitement. And your negativities are, your down days, your terrible days. Which we all experience. Days we all just want to end it all. Days we can remember what pain we felt. The days where we all lost it. And just stayed in our rooms, crying. Thinking unbearable thoughts. And how every mistake builds, and eventually will go away. I surely have gotten days like this. I have ADHD and paranoia, and you put that together, you get so scared that your cant even sleep. And I think of theses thoughts when at night. Which wont let me sleep. And nightmares which traumatized me. That happened for years. Same nightmare. When I was younger I wanted to be a nice looking dude, which I cried. But then they have her there downs too. There falls. And I regret many mistakes, but I know most people has those same mistakes. Mistakes are things your learning from. But then I know, that my life has a purpose. I havent seek yet, but eventually I will. And now, I am a happy person. I forget those mistakes and think positive. At school, Im the reason your smiling. And you can be that person too. Think positive thoughts. And your mistakes will eventually fade away.


I'm crying terribly right now


I'm having hiccups as I cry


You ok love?


No


I'm not okay


I'm fucken upset


Earlier in the morning my cousin who can see demons, Angel's and spirits


She saw one in the halls this morning while we we're cooking hot pockets


She said her prayers for the spirit to go away


And today at night my dad told me to go brush my teeth


And the hall way was dark


I had a feeling of some grabbing my spine


And o was having extreme anxiety


I told my mom about what happened


She said she gonna stop inviting my cousin


Thats terrific


Im so sorry


I get how you feel


I have anxiety and it affects my day to day life


Yeah


Even my dad doesnt belive in her and me


They both dont believe in spirits demons and Angel's


Even tjo were cathlic


And my mom told me to stop believing in her


I believe in all that stuff


My mom walked in on me venting and in the dark I saw a clown face on her face


Mainly because


Omg


What


I told her about it and she didnt belive me


Thats terrifying


She said it was just my imagination


I bet it was


So I'm gonna sleep with the light on


And when she told me that god is gonna help you


I told her that god never helped me out


That he never helped me out in my life


He will if you let him


I told her that I was in pain and I told god to make it better for me


She said did it got better


I never let him, and he never did, then I tried to get closer to him and well


I told her no


He did


He never helped me


He never did


And that things only got better for me because the devil could hear me crying


The devil was the one that helped me out not god


God never helped me


He just watched me in pain begging for help of my pain


I go to chruch every sunday


I even prayed for having a better life


Im sorry lovey


He never gave me that


I can't even breathe through my nose


You cant just pray and think itll get better, you gotta put your time and effort into everything


That's what I did


Because god never helped me out in my entire life


He has helped you


Many times


No he have not


Ik for a fact he has


HE DIDN'T SAVE ME FROM MY DEPRESSION


Hell be there for you through it


I prayed every month for him to cure my depression


All that it do is just made me numb


Atm Im losing my battle to mental illness


I've lost my happiness completely gone


But ik hell be there


I'm sorry to hear that


For both of us


Its fine ig


I don't know if I still have depression


Because I don't feel anything


I hope you dont


I cant even breathe


I have to breathe through my mouth


Simar can tell you Ive broken down many times to the point where I cant talk because I cant breathe


Its a pain in the ass


Yeah


So how do I feel emotion again


I don't know


I'm having therapy for that


So am I


I awlays laugh at terrible situations


I cant take living this life anymore


Me too


My eyes are tired


Go get some sleep love


Ik its hard


But try


And if you cant thats fine


If you wanna talk instead Ill be here to listen


Okay thank you


Ofc babes


I hope you feel better hun, sleep well


Thank you Soy


i r e l a p s e d:


again.


aww


You doing ok?


somewhat


just disappointed


Its gonna be ok, sometimes we all fall in and cant control it


What happened lovey?


If youre comfortable telling me


I relapsed cut again


Im sorry


I get its hard


I do it too


Its hard to tell someone before you do, but we gotta try


ye


i just wish i hadnt


I get that


i promise my my mom and my close friend i wouldnt do it anymore


but i just did


yeah it does


Its not the best thing to do and ik that


But its just


So hard


Its so addictive


yeah.


Like once you feel the feeling of something other than crying over mental pain you focus on the physical


It feels ok in the moment


But you feel terrible after


Kinda like


What have I done”


it stings


i feel like it constantly reminds me that im not good enough


But it feels better than mental pain


im too dependent on my pills tbh


And thats ok


Its hard


Meds do help


i know im just scared of being helpless without them


theyre the only things keeping me from staying up all night wondering when will it end


i miss one day of not taking them things like this happen


I feel thattt


its like a broken record telling me the same thing over and over just the word numb


but i guess id rather feel pain then nothing


Hello


Hey


Is it really necessary to do this in vent?


Like come on yall know better


Yall


Yes yall?


Sorry


Its fine just do it in spam next time pleeease


Oke


Love yall


Okie


im convinced all my friends hate me and are around me cause they feel bad


we are your new friends, and if you have any problem, do not hesitate to tell us:3


Idk what it is but I lost my vibe here


I have no clue whats happening most of the time and idk how to add to whatever tf these convos are


Lmao


Usually Id leave by now


Hmm


Who wants to vibe with sad songs with me


Come in vc with me


Cant


Im vibing to sad songs tho


Thats private


Im not a mod


Ill have someone drag you


Neverrr


Alr kid


lmao


My whole vibe is ruined Im getting off


Damn


Oki


Bye love youu


I do tho


dont lie to me bish


I dont lie tho


because if just up n left this server you wouldnt give two shits


I really would


I like talking to you


well see about that


Wha


No


toxic


What


How


Huh


Skip my song I was gonna vibe to and its funny like ha


cool


I didnt even know it was one of the songs you queued


yeah but you never even cared in the first place lmao


I dont exist


Gingie, chill dude


Oh my


I wish I didnt exist after that


She didnt know it was yours


dont


Ill see yall later


No lily


Ship Lily x Gingie and I alredy know that lily is taken but ship


You stay and have fun


Love


Stay


Because literally I dont exist here


Wot


You can at least talk to people


Well


Pp


Sh


Im just gonna leave you alone


Im sorry


Lily, stay babe.


Cya


NOOO


LILY


Everyone always thinks Im joking around like Im a joke


Sad now


Nooo


Gingie


Stop


Everyone here loves u


And u can't say no


YOUR PISSING ME OFF MAN


LIKE COME ON


Welp


I think Ill do everyone a favor and leave


No


No dont


Yea I would do that if I were you


Pls


NO


LILY


I'm just gonna


UR SUPPOSED TO HELP


Fuck


Im sorry man


Im not gonna help people who are gonna be like that


Sup


What


ok nvm we were already calm


U ok


Yea now that he left


But


He left the server


Or what


Idk


Phhht


Nah he didnt leave the server


Oh


Pog


Yee


Mow


Fuck


Nein


Shh


Shhh


I never said I wanted you to do that


And when was I not the victim?


bruh everyone gotta feel special


What?!


Bro


What the actual hell


I mean Ill leave the server if you want me to


Gingie no


Because Im fed up


With?!


What did we do


Just gonna back up and watch this


Yea


Im on Lilys side though


Id expect everyone to be


cuz no one knows me


I'm on my own side


How bro


Scroll up


I literally skipped a song


Fuck off


Im just gonna say its not just you so dont get all up in a twist


No wait, Im intrigued as to what shes gonna say.


In case you didnt know theres this great command for groovy that I gladly wouldve used if you told me you wanted to listen to that song. back” woah ik crazy right


Pffft


LMAO


Im interesting huh


you know I mentioned you skipped it several times


then when I was ignored I left


Then was added back for some reason


so I left again


I didnt see you said that


And listened to it on my own


Exactly


I DIDNT SEE IT BRO


HOW TF AM I SUPPOSED TO KNOW


and you kept acting like I was joking around


I was not


Bro


Oml


We kid a lot here


Ive been ignored a lot on this server


Its not the last time youre gonna hear it


that just made me super upset


no


Its not the fact that it was skipped


We jokingly ignore people


Youll live


well I guess Im the biggest joke here


Lmao


Bro Im laughing so hard


ikr


Its so funny how I dont exist


Its hilarious


Cant eeeven


Maybe people ignored u by accident


Just understand why Im pissed


Bro


Im


Gonna


Go


OFFF


I cant


why


Simars gonna kill me


Thats true


Hes like the only person that can calm me down tho


Ima just


Leave


Alright, how about you both just take a couple of breaths, and leave it be.


NO


LILY


FINEEE


IM GONNA GET IN TROUBLE


I wont


Maybe they ignoring u cuz u aren't talking the same topic, or when ur new, sometimes they ignore u, it happened to me too, but if u talk all day and make new friends they'll never ignore u, that happened to me so I can tell


Finny fun


Just


Yah


very good contribution


Hilarious


I have nothing important to add to this so I'll just uh go


Im not mad anymore


Thats why they ignore u, there's sometimes that I don't notice u and thats why I ignore u, but then I notice and respond to ur question or whatever u have said, I'll never ignore someone


Just go off


Get it out


Try not to say something that will hurt him


Hurt


Oh gof


God


Like


Its bad


I already dont feel anything anymore just say it


Exactly


You're


I cant bro


Please lily


Dont


Ima die


Ima just


You can send it in dms


Go punch the wall rq


Not


Do not do it


if itll help you calm down just message me in dms


No


Just no


why


Sorry I made you mad


Jsosksklsk


just do it in dms


Bro


Im


Gonna


Scream


Omg


I hope you have a good day, I hope your mode changes, sorry if I did something wrong, but Lily please don't do it, I know what will happen but please don't do it


Im literally telling you to say everything on your mind about me in dms why wont you


Allison you did absolutely nothing lovey, Im gonna try and calm down


Istg


Gingie, just dont. Please just drop it.


Yes


I dont understand


Like


It's over


It's history


I'm really sorry if ur mad gingie, we're here trying to make new friends, I'm so sorry, hope u have a good day


Like if you wanna say it just say it to me. Itll help you calm down


U said sorty


Fuck


She said sorry


Now


Pp


Done


Im already calm


I said sorry too


That's what I said


And lily, u can tell me everything that makes u mad, I'll try to help u


Its all good


Guys it ok. I got Lily


I don't want to be ignorant, but, this was all formed because someone removed the song that gingie played, right?


no its other things


Sorry I get pissed off really easily


Oh okay


Thats what just set me off


Allison mhm


I'm sorry guys


Its fine


it was also being ignored after I mentioned it


I hope u guys have a good day/night/afternoon and I hope ur mood changes


Love y'all


Peace our


Out


see you


Love youu


Bye Allie!


Maybe


No im not leaving xd


Lmao


Love u too


Lets move to chat


Dean, lily, Josh and gingie


Okay


Love you too babes


Ive been calm for a little. I dont even want to vent and explain myself anymore because everyone will just see me as the bad guy anyways. Or theyll just say drop it, its over but I dont have anything against Lily thats what Im trying to get through to everyone. anyways I kinda ruined it for myself in this server idk if Ill be staying much longer


I know u got nothing against lily


I think the others do too


Yuh


Gingie I'm not gonna get mad at u or see u as a bad guys, we all here want to make friends


A lot of people hate me for my personality at first


And u didn't ruin it, ur a person and we all make mistakes


Then they get to know me and they either love me or hate me 100x more


Yeah


Yes


I dont usually do stuff like that but Ive been keeping stuff in so nobody hates me


Tell me what you think about me


Honestly


Im not gonna get mad


I havent known you long enough I dont judge people with the little knowledge that I have of them


Gingie, u can say it, it's ur opinionGingie


I love you hun! Everything about you. Your personality, looks, just about everything I know about you. DO NOT CHANGE YOUR BOOTIFUL SELF!


Say what you think about me so far


I love you dean baby


I love you more


Not possible


I havent talked to you enough to gather an opinion of you


To the moon and back babe!


U can say everything thing abt me


That u don't like


I'm not gonna get mad


I love you infinitely


Theres nothing about you I dont like.


I love it all


Im not telling everyone what I dislike about them the stuff Ive been keeping in is about me


Yes ik, I'm crazy and weird


Lmao


I dont even dislike anyone here


Im annoying asf, thats why Im 1


Jsjsjsj lily


Ranks speak the truth


That good gingie


Maybe


Okie Im gonna go on a bike ride


Yeet


Have fun lovey!


Thanks! Love you Lily babe!


Love youuu


Gingie go to our dms and tell us everything u don't like abt us, I won't get mad, But try to say it in the least rude way possible


Cya deaaan


Damn


Have fun dean


Im not doing that. I have aspergers so its hard for me to socialize like everyone else. I havent been sharing too much of the depressing stuff because Ive seen and also been told that people dont like being around that. All of my discord friends have kinda left me because Im not exactly the happiest person to be around. Ive just turned 18 and Im the first to graduate high school in my family and theres high expectations for me since Im the oldest even out of all of my cousins. All my friends have left to go to college or in the army or whatever. Ive never really felt so alone in my life. I miss my dad and all my half siblings which I havent seen in years because family issues. Im stressed because I have to get a job and a car soon and I dont even know what I want to do for a career. I dont have a scholarship or any way to pay for college without going into insane amounts of debt. I cant even make friends online anymore I never even had friends in person other than those select few that are already gone. I realized Ive wasted all of high school being a quiet nobody making 0 friends and doing absolutely nothing fun. I feel like a waste of space. I just wish I could do it all over again. But I cant


and Ive just realized this is the most Ive cried since my cousin died


Anyways I doubt anyone will ever read that so Im gonna watch YouTube or something


Omg I'm so sorry


I'm having mad anxiety


Is it my anxiety attack


Or is it my next class


Ive felt that dilemma a million times and I completely understand how you feel. Ill always be here to listen and help with what I can


thanks


I lost my dog the other day actually.


Im still kinda in shock


im sorry


Ive had her since I was 4


Idk what to think exactly


ive had my dog since i was 8


Im so sorry love


Its really confusing


I'm so sorry that's happening I hope for the best in your situation


Im considering leaving the server


I wouldnt


why not


A lot of people here love you


Why leave


I dont feel like I fit well or even deserve to be here


I think you do honestly


Except the fact that were inane


And we havent made you lose it yet


If thats losing it you havent seen what a lot of the people do here when theyre mad


Its bad


Im just tired of pretending like nothing is wrong with me. I feel like I would be doing you guys a favor


Nah we like having you here


Half the time people come here for like a week, open up about life and then everyone becomes best friends


Thats why Id be doing you guys a favor by leaving


But we like having extra friends


it prevents attachment to someone thatll eventually be gone in the end


Nah


Ill be here for life


I wont


Ill always at least try to be it contact with the people here


Honestly feel the exact same


Nothing that used to make me happy does anymore


I keep relapsing


have u ever tried meditating?


meditation helps


Thats all I need


Not even talking helps anymore meditation is just more time in my own mind that I already hate


i mean meditation is to try to clear your head


and relax urself


Eating resolve all my problems


i mean i would say its worth giving a shot, idk if your gonna do it again but trying won't hurt


food makes my stomach hurt


I dont eat


Hehe


My face hurts


im not gonna force you to stay in this server or not, it is your choice, all im saying is that its better to clear your mind then make decisions but this is just advice, you don't have to follow if u don't want to


if ur face hurts have u taken medication for it, maybe resting?


Simar is best at advice here


nah its from crying earlier


I havent cried like that in forever


have u washed your face?


No


I dont wanna get up


ok when your able to get up just try freshening up, it will feel better


just try to do it soon so its easier but again not gonna force, just do as u please, just try to be able to get up soon and freshen up and then you can think of something to do after


its completely fine, sometimes everyone is pathetic and its fine, no one will force you to join vc, its always gonna be your choice


im sorry that today wasn't the best day and i can't really do much behind a screen but i do hope tomorrow is better for you


the sad thing is Ive already ruined my own life. Idk if tomorrow could get any worse


Dont give 2020 any ideas


i mean there is always time to rebuild, sometimes it takes baby steps, sometimes u take 1 step forward but 3 steps backwards but at least u stepped forward and thats an improvement


Its gonna get worse before it gets better


Woah soelling


FUCK


So clors


CLOSW


fuck ut


Bro


Why


Lily why


Sure, but why?


Seriously though why


im a disgrace to my family


my mom hit me countless times when she came home


bruh why


idk


thats the issue


Omg


I'm so sorry lily:


i wanna know what i did to her that makes her hate me so much


what did i do wrong


You didnt do anything


wait w h a t


Fr tho it is


she grabbed my arm too


now i gotta explain to people it was the cats


I don't have mom


I hope whatever is wrong will go away


Hopefully


I mean it will eventually


i have hella people that are my moms


Same doe


fr tho


i need someone to knock some sense into me


My part hurts a lot help


SAMEEE BRO


im dying


its so heavy this time too bro


Why do it hurtsss


like


Yes


I didn't even touched it


Why it hurts


LMAO


I mean


I didn't hit it or something


im cramping so bad rn


im


dying


Me too


send help


i can barely type


Pls


I can't send help tho


Gingie send help


Or niko


Someone send heeelp


have u tried to go to the restroom?


BRO WDYMMM


thats not how it works my friend


We don't need that


bro i bled all over my shorts last night


im dyinggg


Omg


Lmao


i mean im guessing ur both on ur period i think


wild guess


I'm not in my period yet


good one, you are indeed correct


oh nvm


welp


i am


There's no blood


and im dying


i had cramps like a week after my actual period stopped


wha


ohhh i get what you mean


like before


but not


you get what i mean


No


Dms


LMAO


Jsjs


I'm in paaaiiin


frrr


Why is my acne so bad around my eyebrows it hurts so much reee


bro yesterday really said:acne has entered the chat


Or niko


Allison hmm?


What going on jsjsjsj


FACTSSS BRO


copying is a form of flattery its all good


Otay my bad tho


Drugs


Thx


clingy loser you do matter be happy


DM me if u need to talk


Np I'll listen all shitty jokes aside


my friend, lets call him peyton. peyton and me we're in the same middle school. payton wasn't the nicest person in middle school. he used to bully me and steal my things. and the next years it was the same thing. recently my very good friend who i have always been friends with adds peyton into our group chat. i didn't mind at first since we didn't really talk during the school year. after a few weeks later we we're at a friends house and like always we're venting about how much life sucks and until it was peyton's turn. peyton told us about his abusive household and how his mother was poor for almost half of his life. his father was never around since he was in the military. peyton has became a very different person then before. he has recently told me that he was thinking of ovrdosing. since he has been hanging out with us me and my friends could never lose him. so yeah.


peachfizz just try to point out that suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem and that instead of giving in to the situation take control be productive and healthy maybe workout I was in a similar situation so that's the advice I would've given myself


he doesn't have the money to leave


if i died would anyone come to my funeral


like i genuinely feel i make no difference


i mean i rather people not change and keep going on with their lifes


but thats just me


like just go on with their lives


Saw a back to school campus sign, the thought of moving back to dorm, while I miss it...wanted to lowkey slam my head into my computer


i mean at least u can see ur roommates


While that is indeed true, whether I'll be having the same roommates is questionable cause it's a new school year technically


nah dw, more so just stressed about going back not really new people cause I tend to get along with most


I got labeled the most anti social, social butterfly. quite fitting


ya cause u vibe with most things


wait what


fuck labels


all my homies hate labels


eh it makes me chuckle lmao


it basically means while I get along with everyone and can probably goof around at all times that's only if they see me outside my room


vibing along with most thing be fax


fax


I don't know how this works so lemme try it


So I've been single for a while now because me and my Gf broked up before I joined the server. Well, it was a good experience, it made me realize how to really choose who you lay your heart with. So I'm not here because I wanna vent about my relationship, I'm here because I've been so lonely living alone in my apartment while having a dead mother figure. Yeah, it's pretty rough being alone that's why I'm telling you guys to love the people who're so important to you because man, it hurts when you lose them and realize that you didn't love them enough


Ah sorry you have to go through all of that man, I don't really know how that feels so I can't help u that much but I do want to help u I just don't know how idk I hope that makes u feel better. I'm probably not making sense but yes if anything else is on your mind or if things get worse or something idk u can always tell us, we wanna help so yes there.


i drank chocolate milk now ny stomach hurts


omg


Oh no


Lmao


i wanna feel cared about and that my feelings matter. i feel that im always seen as the tough one bc im the one who always is used for shit and gets picked on i mean its funny depending on who says it and i can take a joke. i feel that im always the odd one out, the one walking behind or in front alone, not having that friend or best friend


i just am so used to being that person that im overlooked


like i have feelings too but i find myself the one overlooked and when i AM serious ab myself and making smth sound like a joke its like whatever”


like no one wants to listen to me bc theyre into each others lives and im the one who typically listens


im usually the one in the group who doesnt understand stuff series and sibling and other shit or im always the one offering my best advice


i just wanna know why its always me that has these issues


i feel that im heard but no one listens to me


and when i have the chance to speak my mind and talk ab me and my issues the subject is immediately changed and/or they do smth else/ignore me


i just wanna know WHY


its been this way for me ever since i was little too and my parents dont take me seriously and i dont feel like expressing myself and shit to random ppl that say oh yeah talk to me when u want” like i barely know up


like sometimes i feel like asking am i dead to u?” bc i just feel so overlooked


im sorry that u feel overlooked, i get you with the not having that friend or best friend, i usually have to be the one to push into the convo, i really can't say why people do what they do since im not them, all im gonna say is that maybe if you try to just sit down with them and have a convo and if they listen and change then they are true friends who listen if they don't then they aren't worth your time


There is someone for you


Youre not ugly because you cant be compared to someone who doesnt look like you because if they were to compare and ugly item to a hot item it isnt fair


Yes it hurts losing someone you have loved


Most of us have probably been there


ya i get that feeling of not being the one to be with that person but you know even tho its gonna be hard to think about it, there will be someone for you that loves you for you


I don't really tell people about my problems in real life, but I have a lot of pressure. I'm actually a lot worse than they think I am, so I need to work harder and harder to match their expectation.


i mean you should go at your speed


you take your time and work on it with baby steps until you feel ready, sometimes people like rushing it but it gets done better if you take your time


Yeah I know that mindset


But honestly I don't know how to deal with 13 competitions in a month


i mean did you want to do these competitions?


I want to win every of them


But there're too much pressure


sometimes its ok to lose tho


i mean have u talked to your parents that you feel pressured about these competitons?


I haven't, but I don't want her to be dissappointed


she won't be disappointed


I never tell people my problems actually


im sure your parents wants you to do your best and they care about how u feel


and thats ok a lot of people do that, but the best way to solve the problem is to talk it out


bottling up your feelings will get worse if you keep it to yourself, so maybe just take your time and try to open up to your parents


they do care about you and your well being


and want you to have to choose your decisions


Yeah thanks


it'd better if i can have 10 comp


I'll talk to her tomorrow


NoPoint thank you for the wise words


im only saying what i think is best, its really you that is doing all the work and working on your problems, im just giving advice


but ya just talk to her, but again baby steps are sometimes easier then going all in, from my experience is better to start opening up earlier before you feel like its normal to bottle up your feelings


I always fix my own problems without letting anyone know, that's why I'm not as good as people think I am.


But yeah what you say really makes sense


im not god, i cant remember 20 different choreographies in a short time lmao


I gotta sleep now. thanks again


ya i do the same i fix my own problems but if u wanna talk about anything my dms are open


good night and np


That's really nice of you! Gn


night


Imma stick around for a little bit and see if I can sleep again in an hour or so


omg im sorry buttons, you sleep when you are tired and feel like it


I'm fine now, but if I just sit around in the darkness with nothing but my thoughts for too long then my mind wanders to places I much rather it didn't and I get super worked up about that for no particular reason, then if I calm myslef down one way or another, I don't sleep at all for a while:/


Thank you for caring np:


i really felt that man


i need a distraction from what goes on around me


and from the dark places my mind can take me if i dont


i mean i guess its kinda hard for buttons not to worry


yea


grades are really important unfortunatley and basically set you up for carrying on and making your future. its scary. especially at 16. i wish the uk did it like america and ended highschool at 18 instead


i mean humans are curious so


Imma sound like an emo: but inbetween breakdowns I just feel completly numb and I'm pretending to feel most things


feelings matter


and curiosity is adventure


its how we take risks


otherwise we would just be sitting in your home doing nothing


Buttons, you shouldnt have to have that bottled up feeling stashed away for a while only to break down over everything at once. Its not healthy. I hope you know that whatever it is that youre going through, I understand it. I understand more than youd think. And Im here if you ever need someone to talk to or just need a friend. You dont have to go through it alone. Id be happy to take some of that weight off of your shoulders.


THIS GOES FOR EVERYONE


Im here for all of you!


Because I love each and every one of you


NoPoint can i live my life like that?


pleaseee


No love


WHYYY


You arent allowed to do that


Because youve got so much potential. And you can become this wonderful person. More than you already are.


i hate it


Lily, love, one day it will end. I promise you.


why cant it end now


i wanna get out


Because you have to go through the bad to get to the good lovey


Its just how it goes. Believe me, I hate it too


i cant get through the bad


You can


Youre so strong love


Talk to me


im really not


Tell me why you cant


i cant take it


You are! Youre the strongest person I know


i just cant do this


Talk to me love


i dont know how


i dont know what to do anymore


Try


i dont feel safe


I know you dont love. And its not right


Did you talk to Sam yet?


im trying


Wipe those tears lovey. Breathe. Slowly.


And try and tell me whats on your mind. Why dont you think you can do it?


but i cant breathe


Lily wanna vc?


im never gonna get out of this


You will


You will get out of it


ill vc when im calm


enough


is it possibleif im able to help calm you down?


i dont wanna ruin anything


It might now look so great right now, but there is a light in all of this darkness. You can keep going. It can only get better hun.


What would you ruin?


idk


your not ruining anything


Never


damn


This is true


people have made jokes about me sleeping with a 13 year old


hectorrr


Oop


alr ima shut up for now


Why?


idfk


i just


Come on


Talk to us. Were here for you Lily


would u like me to move you to the call with dean?


i cant


Her WiFi isnt that he greatest


my mom did something with my phone too


What did she do?


i have no idea


Doesnt your grandma have it?


thats what she said but i doubt it


well if you do wanna vc or need someone to talk to i am always here and will be there for you, dean is always here for you


i love you guys


Yeah, were both here.


I love you too


love you too3


im still sorry about last night tho


Why?


i shouldnt have said anything


OOO


I dont think he knows


and it just escalated from joking


he knows


Ah


Well, thats not your fault Lily.


Lily nothing to be sorry about


Its a trigger thing. Youve had people yell at you before, and it just triggers something inside of you every time it happens. Whether its joking or not.


yea um


i kinda


just wanted to say sorry a million times and just try not to do anything


its not your fault lily, i didn't mean to raise my voice and i am really sorry


like i do with my mom


its fine


You havent done anything though


lily i have never regret moments talking to you


i just kinda froze


And thats perfectly normal


You dont like having someone raise theyre voice at you. And it caused something in you to trigger itself. You froze. It happens. Everyone has that one thing.


For me, its if someone raises theyre hand. I freeze and curl up.


i do it with that too


i didnt realize i raised my voice and im really sorry but i literally dont regret talking to you, you are always nice and sweet and you have done nothing wrong to me3


i love you


love you too


If that ever happens again, or you freeze, or anything like that, I want you to come to one of us. Because we are here for you. And we will try our god damn best to help you. You shouldnt have to feel the way you do. Its nothing anyone should have to go through. Especially you. And you shouldnt have to go through it alone either.


you have no idea how much that means to me


seriously


thank you love


Of course! Its what Im here for!


cuties


But hun, youre a 10,000/10


how


what


no.


no maam.


Yes you are


Id prove it to you, but you dont seem to see what I see.


yea i dont get how yall think i look good


YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL


What do you meeean?


i just


i dont get ittt


Accept it


mmm


maybe


You are, and always will be, beautiful.


youre beautiful dean, inside and out


Nope


Thats you


I love youuu


i love you mooore


hehe


But


Thats not possible!


but its trueee


i calmed down a little if you wanna vc still im gonna check if its working


I love you, a bushel and a peck, and a hug around the neck.


We can if you want to


So a few weeks ago


My ex sent me a friend request


And I accepted


We started talking


And


I wanted to talk to him badly all day


But hes awlays at work


So I never got the time to talk to him


And now he unfriended me again


o im sorry:


Idk what's going on with him


It's okay NoPoint


I think I'm still in love with him


Even tho he made me extremely love sick


My cousin is gonna tell if he cheated on me when we we're in a relationship


ya i get still having feelings for your ex


i think its better for you to not talk to him so its easier to move on


Because she said it honestly feels like he cheated on you when you we're together


Oh really


I just wish I found something to cure my love sickness


i can tell you something that will stop you from being love sick isnt gonna be hopping into another relationship


maybe a friend? just try to be close and get a friendship


yea


I try to cure myself


But that never works out


Because I'm an overthinker


I just overthink on the simple things


I get angry over the simple and little things


i understand that


im an overthinker as well


Yeah


its not fun


Yeah it was never that fun


ya i get that, i still kinda overthink but i try to keep calm and relax


maybe try meditating?


i need a distraction


I did tried


But it never works


Nothing works for me


like have u tried to do it for a week?


This is exes?


I did tried it for a month


But I just kept overthinking


And I almost overthink on meditating


okiii


I might though


ill be here if you wanna talk about it lovey


Well, its more between us.


o you two, my bad


im sorry simar


nah its all good


so um im gonna be honest, im a pretty unreliable, im pretty disappointing and i let people down. i always think things will get better but my mindset is just like it has to be done overnight if it doesnt then i cant be helped. im pretty lost rn, i dont have any motivation to do anything, i dont have dreams or goals and im just there, i cannot even make myself smile but i just lost happiness towards myself, i dont really vent a lot cause i feel like i rely on people too much and ik its ok to ask for help but i do that a lot and feel like i need to solve my own problems and keep it quiet, im not really bottling up feelings im just dealing with it by myself, but idk im at a point where im pretty much just dead, i dont feel like good things are coming towards my life, i pretty much gave up school and never study or actually try to pass, i dont do anything in my life, and i just get these lonely moments thinking maybe its better to be in a relationship but then how can i love someone else if i cant even organize my life and i dont even try to live to tomorrow, im just at another stand still point in my life and this one is worse then any time that i had been lost, im not really look for an answer well i kinda am but ik im not gonna do anything cause im that lazy and just cant live for a tomorrow and its stupid


Simar


You dont ask for enough help


how do you think youre unreliable tho?


youre the one thats always there for us


Simar, you have to explain to us whats going on in that bright head of yours. Theres something stirring.


And we cant help you if you dont talk to us


youve got a lot of potential in life


You may not see it, but we do. We always have.


And it might seem cliche, but theres always something to keep you going.


i do talk to people or i used to a lot but i would just rely on people to fix my problems so i just started to be myself and deal with my problems on my own


ik i have potential i can see it and people have told me a lot of times


thats good that you can see it


but that doesnt mean i want to do anything eith the potential


What is your dream in life? What have you wanted to do since you were a little kid?


again i dont mind a lot anything in my life i just do what im told to do and dont really make decisions


i never had a proper dream


even as a child


all it was is what im told to do by others


i want nothing


Dont let people hold you back


You want something


you got a tiny idea? do it.


i dont


Everyone wants something in life


there is nothing in my mind that would want something


Maybe not now


Maybe not tomorrow


But one day


There will be this one thing that you want to do with your life


And you need to go for it


there will be when im actually motivated and axtually want to do things


but these days i dont even deserve a tomorrow


everyone does


Yes you do


Everyone does


ya i get that but im just at a point where nothing for me to do or want


i have no motivation to take care of this family, but i have no motivation to get out, but ik its better for me to get out, im done doing shit for other people. im gonna get out. and im gonna get out for myself. no one else


been eating less, sleeping less, having more headaches and my body been paining somehow i have been hurting myself so pretty sure im slowly dying


ya thats good lily3


im at that point as well...


but itll be ok


i hope


i mean ya i take care of myself but im leading to a point where i need nothing or want nothing, i dont wanna die but im just not livibg


do you wanna vc?


if i can connect


idk if i can and if i do vc and talk about my problems ill end up crying


Crying is ok


i dont want you to cry but i want you to let everything out


You have to let it out somehow


ya i do it let out


every night i vent to myself3


Its nice to vent to someone else as well


lovey


if you need to get it off your chest,


do it


ya i do when i need an answer or just cannot really take it i talk to someone


i was gonna delete what i said cause i do that nornally


i just let it out and delete it


Dont


dont delete it


i mean i do that usuallt


Yeah, but that defeats the purpose


its there to look back on and realize how much youve grown


Exactly


i cant look back on messages i judt get upset


thats ok


you can delete it if you want im not gonna force you to do anything


ya ik


simar, i love you


and i need you to know that


We all love you. And we are all here for you. Every time.


everyone here loves you


and i see no reason why someone wouldnt like you


Lily and I especially love you. And well be here for you Simar.


forever and always


im ready to drop out more than ever


im stressing about an essay coming up and im in year 9


imagine year 12


I have no idea about my future


Not even any work thoughts


When your ps plus ends


Ooof


Had that happen to me and I didnt have any money


The worst time ever


I dont feel like I belong here. The longer I stay, the more I feel distant and uninvolved whenever I try to chat. Its not like Im trying to be uninvolved either


Gingie relatable and I've been here an hour


HenryTheHoover well thats usually how all servers be in the first hour. Ive been here a week I believe


Well the more you talk the more we get to know your personality


Like me I used to be in here just for the pokecord


Then I started talking in main


And now Im trial staff


the thing is that I do talk


and nothing really feels right


It may take a bit idk


Sorry I got to go school


i didnt get like fully noticed until like a month after i joined


a month I ain't got patience for that


ya im used to not talking a lot and just sit back


now that I can do


i would miss you


a lot of people would


OLLIE


Dont you dare


You are loved in this world


Bro trust me, you don't want to do it


more people than you know care about you


I understand because I almost did it when I was 13


If you talk to us, we could understand you.


This might sound fake, but I found God, more like he found me. He told me not to do it, and persuaded me to change myself


I dont have a faith


Gibbgibb222 tried twice, almost worked, but eh


Nuuu


Lily honey


No


Just find something you really enjoy, like playing a musical instrument or playing sport


Lily, are you OK too?


yea im all good


Find people you can talk to.


Were here for you Ollie.


Pick up a book or something


Reading can help to calm


You have any friends that live near you or something?


watch a movie


a show


u dont need a talent, you are special because u are born into this world


youtube


Something funny


yea


Play a game you really like


Keep your mind off it


Stream


I have no friend to play with and I find playing video games by myself is boring


Go to a park or something, and just sit there


What games you got?


Watch nature do its thing


Ill try


i mean im down to play games


what u play on


I play on Ps4


what games?


R6 gta minecraft and a bit of BO3


mc is ebic B


Mans got R6


Yeah


lmao


i got r6 kinda trash on console and i got bo3 and mc so im down to play i dont play much console but if im free im down to play


Ok


My username is BHTAutzy


aii ill add you when im free to play


Bet


Yooo NoPoint you on ps4?


Gingie ya but i don't really play much, im mostly on pc


Oof


I have siege and bo3 downloaded and no one to play with


And mc


Fat rip


You play siege on pc?


Ok well the problem is you cant find out your sensitivity


on pc?


No ps4


usually its just u choose one and get used to it


thats what i had to do


i used to play a lot of siege


I had a friend who started siege on pc but has been playing the ps4 a lot more because he moved and his pc isnt in yet and I gave him good tips on sensitivity and he said he actually likes console siege more because he feels like he has a chance


Hes more of a casual player


ya pc siege players that been playing a little while are pretty good


Ive been told on pc theres things you cant do like on console because the aiming is better with a mouse and keyboard.


ya


like leaning without aiming


its just a lot easier to aim with a mouse then a controller


Yeah that too I wish we could do that. Also, mouse and keyboard adapters are becoming a normal on console so its hard to get past my normal rank I place.


did you know Ive been seeing mouse and keyboard adapters in silver rank and they openly admit it when I do custom games or just in casual


Its really sad tbh


At that point just buy a pc


i mean there are people who use controllers when i play on pc


yeah but controllers arent gonna give you an obvious advantage


Its kinda sad that they feel like they are better than everyone when they put themselves at a cheating advantage over everyone else


Ive been called trash because I lost against an mnk but I didnt feel like trash because I actually almost won against him. It went into overtime. If I almost beat them using a controller and theyre using mnk and Im trash what does that make them?


ya i mean the thing is that a person that just started siege on console vc a person that just started siege on mnk pretty sure the console player would win


Maybe


Hello


imagine getting pewpewed on


simarrr


omg


yeh


ya


Anyways ima go play video games alone


oki im gonna go watch anime


talk to you later3


bye love yall


do it god damnit


too lazy3


just gonna die3


can i die too please


pleeease


i beg of you


why


and ask dean that not me


thank you stupid3


why dean?


cause


cause?


you got a reason for that?


aren't u together?


yea and?


and would u hurt her?


no?


exactly my point


h u h


nvm


ok thenn


when your insurance won't cover your physical therapy so you're stuck with ur chronic dislocation


apples are now illegal. so is yawning and sleeping on my side


i say u dont need a point in life well i dont have a point but even then i think im just done, im alone, i cannot do anything right in this world, im actually a disappointment but people say its alright its really not, im just kinda done im broken and dont think i can rebuild and just gave up, ill live probably, but my life is basically over, idk what to do and it will stay like that forever3. maybe one day ill laugh at this and say i survived but im on the edge of the cliff and idk what im holding on to but letting go seems like my only option3


simar listen to me


letting go isnt the option


have you had someone that didnt feel loved let go?


its painful for the people you leave


very


very painful


its the only option3


i cant


youre not doing anything to hurt yourself are you?


the things id do to get the people back that committed


and the only reason i havent done it is because ik how much it hurts


ya i dont


never felt someone close past away


never had someone close


youre lucky


i dont let people get close to me anymore


well im alone gonna stick to that3


you dont have to be alone


im here for you


youve never bothered, annoyed or hurt me


dont hurt yourself


yes i am and you know it


i have hurt you


and i hate myself for it


i shouldnt be around people


im fine


i swear it wasnt that bad


youre not gonna be alone forever


i promise


and youre not alone right now


i should be3


no you shouldnt be


i love you ok


i dont love me3


im always gonna be here with you


you dont have to love yourself, but you should accept yourself


accept that i cannot do anything in this world ya already did3


youve done so much for me and everyone in the server


ya i have done a lot of hurting and annoying3


im not gonna lie to you right now, quite a few times you saved my life


ya and im grateful i did cause u have an amazing life and i see bright things in your future


and look where it got u


more friends


and gf


NoPoint look at all that you have, so many people love you


simar dont do anything


please


i saw this quote


it said


the loneliest feeling is when everyone loves you but no one likes you3


felt that


phone die now


simar, please be careful, go charge your phone and come back and talk to me


please i need to know youre ok


Wow


dean lovey


I know


Im scared for that as well


hold on my moms gonna force me to eat then ima throw it up


cya in a few


But hes strong. And were here with him throughout all of it.


LILY


NO


EAT AND DO NOT THROW IT BACK UP


why


Because its not healthy love


Love, you shouldnt do that


You need to eat


ill talk to you later babe


And throwing it back up destroys your throat


Its acid your throwing up


im scared i feel like simars gonna do something to himself


Lily im not


You better not


Damn it Daniel


I swear to god I will make that trip up to you, slap you, and then hug you.


Bye lovey!


Tuff


bye love you guys


simar please be safe


Sleep has been PROPER tough recently, I think I'm quietly stressing over the fact that this place is crumbling before us and no one not in power can do anything about it, nor would they care if they realised what they were doing. Businesses left and right have started closing for good, school has raised it's bus prices to E350 a month, and quite possibly the catering prices too due to funding cuts, my family is being called into work more often because the companies are struggling... DAMN 2020 REALLY SUCKS BIG ARSE


Big shame all this, Imma have to go to another new school if the costly problem persists so that's gonna be fun... not:P


im so sorry


Awww


Buttons!


I want food


Cmere


i hope it gets better love


Daniel! Cookies! Cookies are a hunger remedy!


Come join me


I can't join just yet, maybe inna a bit though:D


Okie


Theres nothing in this bloody house


Huuntii Big mood, whenever Imma home alone, I literally search the house from top to bottom to scower the snacks


All I have are edible brownies


But Im Savin those


im a dinsoaur


and a toaster oven called steve


I hate when you keep leaving someone on read and they dont get the memo


i mean how would u feel when someone u wanna talk to leaves you on read


exactly


Yea it hurts


it does


Lowkey tho


a lot


Yea


like


Makes me question my self worth tbh


knowing that you sent something and they ignored it


Hurts. Actually, that recently happened to me.


And Im very sad


Who did it bruv


its not


Yes, it is.


u guys literally said it hurts


its completely fine


i get that you dont talk on snap anymore


dw lovey


thats bs


no one likes me xo vent over


pls editsnipe


hmmm


Hm?


oh yeah and I always get ignored


Thats not what I was trying to say really. The person in particular Ive talked to for a while and Ive already expressed Im not into them like that but they still persistent


Its an awkward situation so I just started leaving them in read


have u told them that u dont wanna talk to them?


Not really I thought it might come off kinda mean


I mean I dont mind talking to them


But its just every second of the day they want to talk


o well that could be just cause they are bored maybe?


Maybe


ya or they are just lonely


If there lonely I wish I could hang out with them but Im just so busy all the time


ya then that could be a reason why they wanna talk so i would say ask how they feel


Im scared Ill draw out a big conversation that will make them think Im interested” in them again. I dont know how to word it


u dont want to lead them on


just say how u feel


and they should say how they feel


Ok


Wish me luck


Hopefully


Thx


good luck


Yo she sent me the whole Declaration of Independence


i


Its to late now


I cant turn back


i nedd more alcjol


Lily JAJAJAJ NO U DONT


She does


i do


If she can still type


ew aspsklein


Shes not wasted enough


ther we fof


Huuntii fctds


facys


eh


whatver


Oh my


My ex broke my heart


Because


He said he wont leave me again but yet he unfriended me again


tuhd sut


fycik


im nnot gone hbe any hep


ncm


And I didnt crying over him


Why what happened


cant spell


wow oj


noe i sn


nvm


Oh okiw


Dean The EMT Firefighter cnx you ecplisn


expalin


whatvee


Yo bro this is starting to get stressful


Omg


omg


help


somde


pleas


how


IDFL MZAB


JUSRV HELP


Ima screenshot it


If she gets mad she gets mad


Oh wait I cant send things here


Big tuff


media


is anyone else like, so comfortable in their depressed state that theyre afraid to leave it? like i wanna get better and maybe eventually not have it anymore but im not ready to leave my comfort zone. sad times


i mean ya i felt that


u take as much time as u want


but soon u have to get out of ur comfort zone


Jesus I really had a hold on her and I didnt even know I feel so bad now


Just found out the reason why my older cousin said I'm prettier then my cousin Vicky


People in my family and outside my family says I look alot like her


And sometimes act like her


They say we both look very similar


I found out why he said I'm prettier then her


He raped vicky when she was little


And I'm scared that I'm going to get raped


And I can now see why she stays away from him


I never knew there was rape history in my family blood line


omg r u able to tell your parents?


No


Theu never believ me


ok then i want you to always stay with another cousin


never be alone with him


always have someone with you


Okay


But I'm scared to be around him now


just try to stay away from him


expalin


Lily hm?


get


ignored


Oki


you ever get that feeling where you just want to cry for hours but no tears ever come out


All the time bro


good I'm not alone


Usually I cant cry until I cant take it anymore then I cry insanely


My dad just yelled at men


I wanted to smell the alcohol from the bottle


But my dad yelled at me YOU CANT DRINK THIS YOUR TOO YOUNG


And I yelled at him back saying I DONT WANNA DRINK IT I JUST WANNA SMELL IT


h u h


Why smell it


Jaja


Damn


Because I like the smell of alcohol


Just down the damn bottle


Bro


Im lightweight I cant be talking


Ima head out now


Lily jajajajajaj


Legit


4 shots was not it


It was 35 by volume I


I deleted my meme folder


I had gold


BRO WHAAAT


I cant get it back


Idk how it happened


Im really pissed rn


Smh my head


I would be too


IKRRR


i mean sound ways idk how to help there, looks you can try maybe working out, try to improve yourself


yeah I do I do lots of sports


so that helps a bit


ya just takes time


true


im so confused what my sexuality is and its stressing me out


I feel like sexuality shouldn't be a thing you should worry that much about tbh


Ur still young so just go for whatever feels good in the moment yk


You probably have a lot on ur plate atm so you dont need another thing to stress about


yeah


it shouldnt be stressful


think about your attractions


you can always just be curious


i still question my sexuality


just take as much time as u need


Same


Why is satan muted


slipknot.toad6764 honestly same its so hard


guys y'friend' is being mean


like she saying that


ye


ok but like i rlly feel like i need to cry like i want to to get it out my system but i just cant like i need to but my body aint letting me what do i do?


If you still cant cry, then try breathing and or going outside


Or not the second option since youre already outside, I assume


nah i came back abt 40 mins ago and im meant to be asleep now lols


ayy


Oh


Gn then


i aint going bed to


im going when i finish a few episodes of ttd


So um


Uhhh


Ummm


A friend of mine sent like a suicide note over text to everyone in her contacts


Idk


I dont think she wil


Will


Im tryna talk to her but she wont


Wait what


She wont listen


Do you know where she is?


Like for sure


In another state bro


I mean like


Probably in the uhh


Kitchen


Oh god


I know


She has a history of cuts but


Omg


Shes been clean for months


And now idk what to do


Simars better at this than me


Idk if Im gonna be any help


But


Yea


Ur fine lily


I dont rlly need help rn ig


Im doing all that i can


She thinks that like


She thinks i hate her


Idky


Ive done nothing wrong


I think


Idk


Her other friends dont even care


Idk anymore


Just try and calm her down, tell her youre here for her


Get her to trust you


Im scared man


I am too


If she sent a suicide note” to you and her friends, chances are shes definitely considering or already decided to do it


I know


Convince her otherwise that you dont hate her, and get her friends to do so too


Is she responding to texts or calls?


Know her parents numbers?


Get ahold of someone like her parents


Agreed


I


Cant


Dont leave her alone


Keep talking to her


And have someone else call 911


And her parents


Im trying


Whats her address?


Ill call


Just because she isnt responding doesnt mean she doesnt see them, unless the phone doesnt say your texts were received


They arent being received


Im gonna just go


Jesus Christ


Niko


Nikole


Call her parents


Get 911 on the phone


Dont tell her not to do it. Because it only makes her want to do it more.


Just talk to her about something else


Try and help her realize why she deserves to live


No, thats not a good idea.


Shell only doubt it.


ya, try to just keep her with you and talk to her, tell her you are there for her and try to comfort her, and ya police would be a good options if she is serious about this, otherwise all you can do is keep her distracted, and just saying to calm someone else down you have to be calm too so just try to relax yourself and take things slowly


Do you know why she might be considering suicide, other than she feels like shes being hated?


Talk about something youve done together.


Im gonna have to put all my attention to her rn


And get the police. Describe where she lives.


ok so try to stay calm niko


Dean The EMT Firefighter this is why I dont help people that often I dont help very much either way


Were here for you Niko.


I havent cried like this in a while


Agreed, panic from you can lead her to panic too


Ok but um


Ill talk to yall later


Lily yes you do. I just have classes in this sort of thing.


ok i hope she stays safe and i hope you are doing alright too niko


try to update us if u are able to


Ok


Love yall


Love you too


Bye ig


Dont worry too much as to feel distressed yourself


Ill check in with you a little bit later. Ok?


I love you too, stay safe and I hope both of yall feel better


Indeed


So uh


Yea?


I got her to go get one of her cats


So hopefully that calms her down


Ok good


Nice


Um


Im worrying myself to the point where i feel like actually sick


Aha


Drink some water, take some deep breaths


I know that feeling


A little too well


Sit down. Take deep breaths.


Shes laughing now


Do as Knee said, and get some water


Idk


Why?


Idk she thinks im funny ig


Her laughter means so much to me im crying


Alright


Wow so


Yeah?


Well people are social creatures who are motivated by selfinterest


But me and Yazmine are just talking about cats rn


expomarker at least shes ok


Yea


Im glad


Unfortunately not more people to come help, but agreed


I haven't actually cried in a really long time


I forgot i was even capable of doing so


Its ok to cry, love


And remembering them means youre still human


Everyone needs to cry. Its only healthy


Niko, are you ok?


Breath


Take deep breaths


Hold it for 5 seconds


And release


Repeat


Guys she just thanked me for being her friend i feel so happy


Thats good


Breathe Nikole


Breathe


I feel worthy for once


You are worthy


Always


Got it?


Maybe cause you already were


Niko? You there?


Yes


Im going to have to go now


Okie. Remember to breathe. In. Hold for a few. Then release. And repeat.


How do i get rid of red eyes


Ok


Splash some water on your face


Try not rubbing em too


I really love you guys


Ok bye


Ill get back on later


Sayonara


Love you too hun


So being a human has positive and negatives. The positive is all of the cheerful moments in your life. Your happy days, and your best day ever days too. And even thoughts of your happiness and excitement. And your negativities are, your down days, your terrible days. Which we all experience. Days we all just want to end it all. Days we can remember what pain we felt. The days where we all lost it. And just stayed in our rooms, crying. Thinking unbearable thoughts. And how every mistake builds, and eventually will go away. I surely have gotten days like this. I have ADHD and paranoia, and you put that together, you get so scared that your cant even sleep. And I think of theses thoughts when at night. Which wont let me sleep. And nightmares which traumatized me. That happened for years. Same nightmare. When I was younger I wanted to be a nice looking dude, which I cried. But then they have her there downs too. There falls. And I regret many mistakes, but I know most people has those same mistakes. Mistakes are things your learning from. But then I know, that my life has a purpose. I havent seek yet, but eventually I will. And now, I am a happy person. I forget those mistakes and think positive. At school, Im the reason your smiling. And you can be that person too. Think positive thoughts. And your mistakes will eventually fade away.


Live life day by day


im not making it past 18


why:


theres just so much going on and today was so freaking stressful. i genuinely have no one to talk to that will listen. even my own girlfriend isnt there for me. i mean she is but its always im sorry” or ”. ive been clean for awhile now and i almost relapsed, thats when i just kinda lost it all. ive been crying for the past two hours and reaching out to a server channel to vent makes me feel really stupid and attention seeking but its wtv ig.


I think I'm now a drug dealer


Idk yet


I dont sell them


I just give them to this girl whose my friend


Because shes the same as me


She needed antidepressants


So I gave her some of my antidepressants


It's been like a year that it happened


These two other students got iss for bringing drugs to school


I was never cought


And she told me of I have more antidepressants


Bro chill


I told her no since they took it off my prescription list


What state you in


The state that I live in or my state of my feelings?


Oof


She told me to get xanax from my therapist


Yeah um I mean Arizona has really strict laws on drugs


Since we both do badly have very terrible anxiety


I told my councilor of anxiety weed does help


That would be illegal everywhere


She told me that it doesnt exist that it's just weed


Your counselor told you that


Yes


Yeah


We even play games when I'm with her:


But I mean if you aint getting caught


Go ahead


I think I might get cought


I smoke and have sold some a bit here and there but as long as you dont boast it online you should be good


Never doing it online


I weirdly attract girls who already have a boyfriend


Its a curse


Very normal


My acne is so bad


And its making me sad


xluver you can always vent to me in dms


ill always try my best to comfort and help


and i get life is stressful


and its better to just let it all out


and if u need someone to listen and help i will be that person if u want


thank you sm 33


I think I'm now a drug dealer


HunnyPuppy oh


Its midnight so sad times


I dont really get along with my main friendgroup anymore irl


Same


We were playing downball at lunch today and I got out but they played it on but everyone in line insisted I was out


And I was the only person they did it too


That was the only place I feel like I fit in and I was just kicked out


I am


I dont really have anywhere to go


Its the popular kids, the downball kids or, the kids no one seems to like for some reason


You know what


I think Im gonna talk to them


Just be like me


Im really confused now


And


With what I said on main


Don't have anyone to talk to


In


Yeah thats me rn


i might be bipolar


thanks for coming to my ted talk


i have a lot of symptoms but im scared to talk to my therapist abt it


actually i dont go to therapy anymore


it makes me remember my traumas


um chile anyways so how are u guys doing


I just realized that organs fall out of ur body when you reach old age with hyserectony


Same


I feel hazy, I can't sleep, annnd maybe losing another section of my brain?


I'm feel like there's something wrong but at the same time I don't?


maybe check it out?


Imma confuddling myself and it's somewhat scaring me lmao


doctors?


No no, I've only been feeling like this since I had dinner a few hours ago, sleep has always been a problem for me, but my parents don't see this as a medical problem, they just think I can't sleep because technology


Also I think my doctor's practice is unavalible at the mo... relocating for a few weeks or something


That is if I'm even registered to the doctors around here.. I can't remember if I handed my form in


i mean its not gonna hurt if you check if there id anything wrong


Yeah


I haven't slept since late Sunday, but I can't sleep, and trust me on this, I do try I swear, I'm not on Discord the whole noght, I just come onto Discord to help


Imma go disappear for a while I think, I'll see what I can do


KFC or Popeyes


umm i actually never had popeyes


i want to have some


never got the time to


popeyes


living by someone words is constraining u to experiencing the good


Baby


no one wants to hurt but its just life


everyone gets hurt


Theres more life then dead


its just how humans are


I work different


I wanna start a family


But to bad I cant find anyone


Imma just fucken have a bone marrow baby


I'm a clown like that


S...Sadly yes


thats not sadly


Yay


We saved zero from committing suicide


I think I was the one who made her sleep


I'm feeling happy that shes alseep now


I feel better about myself


But I do feel bad that no one came to save me when I was committing suicide


Like no one at all


I had to rescue myself


No one didnt know what to do or what to say when I told them o tried to overdose


Or that I'm gonna overdose


But hey


I feel better that I saved Zero


Or as if WE


Yes


I was the one who made her fall asleep I think


Or we all made her fall asleep


I need some advice


Whats stopping you


I dont know


Thats the thing


Bro some guys havent had there first gf till they were in there 20s


Oh heck! I have school tomorrow


E b r b


Server has been inactive for 2 hours


Bruh Im in grade 9 too and Ive only dated 1 person


For some people they just gotta find someone they connect with first rather than diving head in


its better to take things slow and just take ur time instead just going straight for a relationship


I mean


I dont expect to meet my soulmate anytime soon


Yeah ofc


If I spend more then 5 months with that person it makes me feel like I found my soulmate


Because I heard that relationships last for only 3 or 5 months


Most dont make it past 3 months


I think in America I'm in 10th grade, and I've never a dated anyone, because school relationships below 18 don't really last long usually, and most people who got together at that age and manaed to get married got in martial financial trouble, and then divorced, messily


I remember making it past 3 months


So if you do, is cherish it


To bad I had to end it


I wished I made the relationship last longer


buttons you are 11th now buttons


Waaait


w h a t


Oop


NoPoint Oh yeah.. I'm old now


What are the grades in the uk?


Im confused


I heard that if ur from 2008 you already started high school


Youd be 12


uk hes year 12


i think


Lily The grades in UK are known as academic years shortened to just years and they are always one digit ahead of american Grades EXAMPLE: 9th grade year 10, 10th grade year 11


and thats 11th here


wait buttons what year r u


Ohhh oki


NoPoint Going into year 12 in Sept


ya so you will be 11th in america


Nice


Yuppers


I wonder what grade I am in the UK


What year and month were you born?


June 19 2005


I am in 10th grade in high school here in america


Year 10 then, going into year 11 in September ! YOU HAVE TO DO GCSESSS


No


gg


That is what I would say if you lived in England


Luckily, you don't


Yeah


I dont wanna go to the Uk


Very very luckily


I dont wanna go live there


I heard that theres alot of acid attacks


Wait


What about June 2006?


Well that's untrue


The acid attack?


June 2006? ummm same as KMMYHNt na


Yeth


january 2004?


Oof


I dont have a online mom


I only have an online dad


Whos that?


Plannedfatherhood is his name


Mmm i see


I'm in his family server tok


I have an entire family


I have my other 2 kids in there


HunnyPuppy Yeah, we had a few feminists boarding trains across the country same group, working together over the internet that were pouring acid later found to be everyday bleach on men who were manspreading on public transport asserting their dominance as men arguably, where that meme came from


clingy loser Same year as me, Year 11 going into year 12 in Sept


buttons oh


im the same age as u buttons?


To bad my kids father left me twice


If your 16 then yeah


I have kids, a wife, parents, grandparents, aunts and uncles, and a lot more


I have alot of brother and sisters online


I'm April 2004, I joined the server on my birthday without realising


I have a death wish


I dont wanna date a boy that's younger than me


Because I keep hearing that boys who are younger then there girlfriend cheat


I have 4 Grandparents, 1 stepgranddad, 2 uncles and 2 aunties, two and a bit cousins, my parents and my older brother


idrc but i prefer being younger and not having much of an age difference if im older


I have a big irl family ngl


Not here on discord but in real life


diego, lily, emily, and the other cat


I remember telling my friends that I have cousins is russia


I remember


I have a huge family if we're counting my dad's uncle's and aunt's and their families like DAMN my great grandparents had a lotta kids


My dads side of family is just 7 siblings


And 8 kids my age


then immigrated here for college and lived here


idk my russian side there was a divorce


3 kids the same age as my sister and lower


My family has stayed in the UK and Ireland since waaayyy before BC apparently


I'm half mexican


Someone found out the earliest record of our ancestors were on the Isle of Man, a tiny island... inbetween the UK and Ireland


But mexico does have some african blood in it


I will never escape this hell


Because mexico was also apart if slavery


Mexico is what also freed the slaves and kept them when slavery was banned from the us


And yet I dont see any african in mexico sadly


can i vent please?


Yup


ok


2 secs


ok imma do it now


oki


Sounds like Tay has something in common with someone


huh


She gets attached to fictional characters as well


Taylax help this mans


oop


but it was the fact abt how he couldnt complete his one dream and when i asked hey can we tlk i aint feeling gd abt myself i told her she took ss's of the chat and sent them to her ates and they all called me attention seekser


so i think if they dont wanna help me am i rlly worth it?


acc im sorry for bothering u please just ignore them u shouldnt waste ur time over me


guys i have proof my mates have been laughing abt me and making nicknaes abt me what di i do?


Ditch them Im ur mate now


they r all in my tutor thp


so i have ligit all lessons w them


Just avoid them as much as u can


i will try but my only real friend is moving away


Danni 3 i understand this fully. you are not weird for getting attached to people and looking up to people and being upset when they died. the people who told you you were overreacting are wrong. it hurts when we see someone we idolise has gone. we saw alot of what his character did and what he did so its easy for our brains to make connections to characters and people even if we have never actually interacted with them. i get this all the time, like satan last night asking why im crying over mha cause its just a show. or my mother asking why im crying over a silent voice cause its not real. its not abnormal to feel this way and you are completely valid in being upset over his death.


also if someone is mean to me i cant buck up the courage to tell them to stop or i dont wanna be mates w them cause i feel like ive let everyone down


Taylax that honestley made my day he ligit was my idol i wished i was his friend and his death impacted a lot on me and im learning how to switch realites and when i do imma hug snape cause i honest;ey love him


over whos death


gran torino?


alan rickmans


:o i wanna learn how to do that to or at least lucid dream so i can hug all my fave anime characters cause i honestly simp over characters with loads of trauma and they deserve hugs and cuddle


Jackie bro


im ligit having to cover my mouth so my parents dont wake up


if you just gave me an mha spoiler ima eat your kneecaps Jackie


IM NOT DONE WITH S4 YET LMAO


STOP


shig or whatever


i will mute you


stop talking


stop


talking.


i wanna learn how to do that to or at least lucid dream so i can hug all my fave anime characters cause i honestly simp over characters with loads of trauma and they deserve hugs and cuddle


Taylax do switching realities its much easier and all u need to do is make a script and be relaxed


Danni 3 yeah ive learned a bit abt it i just need to learn all the methods and try a few


my mate did it and lets say she went the next step w draco if u know what i mean...


Danni 3 :O


yeah we do the raven method


yea...


wait so i can peg levi fr?


hold on


i need to proccess


i can peg levi...


brb in shock


so much for 100 SFW smh


oki


yea my mate said its just like the show or movie


u decide what happens tho


LMAO


IM SORRY BUT HE JUST GAVE ME AN MHA SPOILER


IM NOT EVEN DONE WITH S4 OR WATCHED ANY MOVIES OR OVAS YET SCREEE


someone give me a harry potter movie


umm


chamber of secrets


my fave hp ovie is prisoner of azkaban


oki imma do poa cause of draco


ok so tomorrow imma go into the poa reality


anything u want me to say remeber they dunno they r in a movie they think they r normal humans


or witches/wizards


goblet of fire


i did that one today


i beat up pansy


and stole hermiones date:


ooo


it was funny


i love to make trouble


i mean sounds fun


i threw my heels at ginny cause she was laughing at me


u know u gotta be a savage


my mate did it w draco...


she went to poa i did gof


omg wait what happens if i make snape survive in deathly hallows


oop


i see


I still feel so alone


k


you really broke that one up mate huh


anyways my callus comments aside


failing is part of learning


in both life and love


no one ever marries their first crush


I started my first relationship all wrong


It taken me over a year


But you get over it


never dated


i get shipped a lot w my guy bff that ive grown up with


bc of this one incident


Its annoying when someone goes to ship when you are really good friends with someone


Or when people say that you should date someone


yeah fr


i went to the movies w him bc he wasnt trusted home alone and his classmate had a birthday party and he wasnt invited and then they all said we went on a date


That must have been annoying


why do people pretend to be your friend?


i mean it could be just ya they toxic or they are just like lonely at school maybe


cause i have friends only at school and friends outside of school


i spilt my chocolate milk:


yooo im actually gonna cry


i feel terrible


i know its so bad


it was like the last of it


no one should go through that pain jackie


think imma go take a walk...”


ok maybe that was too far


oop


Okay whats going on Mellow


Have you spoken to an adult about these feelings


I'm so tired of living...


Tell an adult honestly you need to tell someone who can get you help


Those are really serious thoughts


Talk To Someone Now: Lifeline


Theres also Youth help line and 7cups of year those have helped me


Youre looking for professional help. We arent professionals. Im sorry but any advice we could give you could be harmful


i want my yellow color back!


lmao i love how you put this in vent


cause im venting about my color


heh


im


omg i feel u


True


No


Just be purple then


Problem solved


whats up lovey?


Whats up? HunnyPuppy


IM A FAT ASWELL I GET WEIGHT SHAMED ASWELL


I WANT TO BE SKINNY BUT BEING BIG IS BETTER


It makes me very insecure when I see a slim thick girl