Pics of my donkey Jose with be in selfies


Gee i think ik what u need...closure


slycatnala thats what Im trying to get, I needed the truth


I was otg with someone else but my mind wasnt with them so I had to stop it


Gee u need to meet her up and sort it out


Cuz the path you've taken


Who


Oh


Your ex


Its deteriorating


You mentally


I think


Most likely


Hmmm just confront her


Call her up n ask make a choice


Cut her off


But I cant call her


Why


I get nervous really easily and stuff up my words


Gee do it


Its one shot


Man up and move on become a man grow up


Silent telling someone to man up doesnt fix everything


U make it or lose it


Im sorry


Getting over someone is HARD


But its worth every sec to try


Complaining about your Im sorry


Gee complaining about your problems isnt fixing anything


Silent it does help


look


Hes talking it through


Help but not fix


he is either the type to complain


and not do anything about it


Nth can be fixed in one go


It takes time


Will clearly its took to much time


or complains and goes through the effort of solving their own issues


I wanna judge but i wont


Cuz he'll feel bad


slycatnala its been over a year thoo


So i hope u make the right decision Gee


Milk Man ikr


Okay gtg shower


Ttyl


no more sugar coating man


You wont regret it


you got a deal


Dm


He came here to hear what he wants to hear


Tell me if Im wrong


milk man


damn


thats sad sad


like sad sad


i know my life is so hard


it truly is a daily struggle


Damn I'll pray for you lmao


fank yuu


i feel like this


like what?


o


why feel like this?


Cause im bored


and lem isnt coming online;;


idk who lem is


SourLemons


im sure they will come on soon


I hope so


They'd punch me


They'd yell at me


have u told their parents?


NoPoint they already know


and they haven't done anything?


it is unhealthy, its bad for them and you


I'm been gaslight for so long I need someone to say I'm right for once


NoPoint thank you


ur just trying to be a friend to them and i get that, i get you want to help them and its hard when they aren't allowing you to


They don't say it and say the expact opposite but it's like I have to fix them and I can't


I'm not a therapist


I want to help them so much


But I'm helpless


NoPoint how can you know something but need to be told it so much


i mean not really a need its more of a reminder but idk tbh, im not a therapist either and i don't think im gonna be and im saying is that if they think of you as a freind they would understand how u feel about it too and how u are trying to help


ya


some people take depression as a way to just stay sad


I think it's a case of misery is so comfortable


They can't get better


I agree


The human mind is a miracle and you will never see it jump more quickly into action them to prove it dosn't have to change


My favourite quote


Two of my friends are on this chat and could see this but I don't really care


I'm to tired


I can't settle in this group because I'm waiting for the other shoe to drop


I'm so anxious then I have all my school stress


maybe take a break for them for a bit, just focus on urself


I've had a meltdown every other day for the past 3 weeks


NoPoint I gonna try and leave it's just hard because one of them we've been close for years and have so much fun but when the entire group is together they're so depressing


ya, just try to focus on urself, don't stress too much, try to live ur life to the fullest


Yeah their mental health isn't my job I love my friends and want them to get better but it isn't my job to drag them to get better


Hm that really is a tough thing you have on your hands, but I think its important to understand that you cant help someone who doesnt want to help themselves, ya know? You can encourage them to get help, and talk to someone who is a professional in that field and if theyre getting ANGRY at you for these suggestions then theres not much to do. Also I want to point out, if someone is not respecting what youve expressed to be uncomfortable then they arent really your friends, EVEN if they are mentally ill that doesnt give someone the right to think theyre entitled to put all their emotional disparities on you, like I have a friend whos depressed and use to harm and anytime if Ive told her Im uncomfortable with something she stops. You shouldnt have to deal with people who dont respect you, ya know? But with that being said if you arent looking to end the friendship maybe try having a sit down conversation with all of them, and express how you feel and based on your response maybe see where that goes.


Ren ya first take care of urself


But with that being said if you arent looking to end the friendship maybe try having a sit down conversation with all of them, and express how you feel and based on your response maybe see where that goes.


HappyAccident I'll try that but I'm scared they'll yell at me again


I have sensory issues due to have aspergous syndrome


And noise is my strongest


just take ur time, once u feel like you are ready to say how u feel then you go do it


Thank you


Why try when no matter the outcome your portrayed as a failure.”


That's something my friends would say


Valor lots of reasons 1 Improvement


2 your worth being looked at as more then your flaws


Huh?


Why do you keep deleting messages?


I feeling very empty at the moment, quite odd, usually when I'm here on the server, I'm usually quite cheerful, and it has never failed to cheer me up when I am feeling a bit shit.


But right now? I jus feeling really bloody empty


Kinda scary, and I dunno what to do, I feel like I should be panicking, but I'm not


I guess that's all I have to say, I think I've probably missed something but I just feel really confused and lost i dunno


im sure there is just something on ur mind thats bothering u


Oh, plenty, for sure, but I have never reacted in this way before


i mean we learn new things about ourselves everyday


I guess so, but surly feeling absolutely devoid of thoughts, feelings and opinions isn't normal right?


eh i don't think anything is normal


Fair enough


i feel like 2 sides of the same coin


i feel like a different person nowedays too ig


ye, but i have been for all my life now


Living in both your older brothers shadows


Im supposed to be just like them at sport


I do think I am good at sport but


When they kick an AFL footy it goes straight but with me its goes to the sides


i can relate


but i live in the shadows of my own self and my parent


F


Sorry but I cant talk long my cousins are picking me up for a trip


Also we have no COVID here so I am allowed to do this


cool


and you are sure it isnt bc of the chargers/


Is it possible to get something off my mind?


it is believe it or not


I've been bugged by something for the past 4 years


It's almost laser burned into my head


take your time


somethings been on my mind since i was about 4


i still cant shake the thought


but itll get better


Now what bothers me most to this day is the fact that in those 9 months, I hadn't been eating properly and basically starving myself, only seeing my mom 2 hours a week for a total of 5 times and eventually moved up to Pennsylvania with my dad...


And I went through all that just to never see her again because a year later in December she died in her sleep for reasons I still don't know


Mainly because some cunt didn't decide to tell me until after my 16th birthday in January


For 4 years I've been wondering why nobody told me until a month after and didn't even have at least a piss poor explanation for what happened


Why my dad even cried when this happened baffles me


He didn't care


He still doesn't, neither did my sister and I was the only one who had the patience to see her drugged up on psych medication, the only one who cared long enough until it was over


I saw purple vent


We should vote them


Wait Im purple as well..


I mean light purple


That wasn't very funny tbh


That's my life you're joking with


But whatever


Cool


it isnt very funny i agreee and im here for u if u need anything im in a sad mood so i cant really help tbh nikwilliam


OOOf this not really a bad issue but man Im so lonely and also just ugh


I want someone but I have to wait


As well as this person hasnt been on discord in a while and oof


Yea its okay


aha friend just commited check


wait what


my friend went aha yk yeetus deletus


o im sorry:


itsalg i just dunno how to take it


when?


like right now


i mean everyone takes it differently so just take ur time, try to focus on urself and don't stress to much


just got a call from their mother


omg im so sorry


i hope you feel better


aha she was the same girl who stayed up late for me when i told her to sleep she wanted to make me happy


she was that friend


im so sorry


i really am


those are good friends and im sorry you lost a very good friend:


i knew she was hurting and she acted happy but nobody got and warning she was doing it


she just snapped


i cant help much but if you wanna talk i can


ima act like nothing happened in the chat like normal


i mean if u ever need someone talk to im more then willing to be that person


thanks


just take ur time with things and just go things ur way


kk


ah nice my mother is blaming me for their death


what


thats


dumb


apparently cause shes my friend im resposible for her death


we love mentally and verbally abusive and manipulative parents


im sorry the world is cruel:


aha yk i could go through all my trauma but i dont got hours


like i have a ed at 8


describing that alone would take 30mins


i mean we can talk later after ur ed


honestly if there was a possibility i would totally let u switch lives with me cause i see a lot of people go through a lot and me just having depression when i probably shouldn't


im sorry:


its fine


im used to it


fuck it ima say it cause i aint ashamed i have depression, anxiety, seperation anxiety, tics, adhd, social anxiety, ocd, ptsd, insomnia and physical disablilities 3


i aint ashamed cause its me. its me being me


i mean for someone with social anxiety i think ur pretty open


ye i try to be


its mainly up front


ya i understand


im sure u will over come it


im trying


its like if i dont know the person irl it doesnt affect me for some reason


ya i get that


im pretty shy irl, i can't even talk to a person thats on my bus but we snap each other


but i think u are pretty cool so im sure u will be able to over come it


thanks


im now considering writing a book on my trauma


i mean if ur up for it


like people ask about my trauma. copy and paste it


i mean it would save the writing ig, but thats full up to you


ye


aha im 2 seconds from TOPPING MYSELF


wait what


you heard me:


its means killing self


right, also please don't


i m i g h t


well, there is a bright future ahead of you, and ik you probably won't see it but its true, there is so much to life so please don't:


aha nope


nah


i keep telling myself i just have to get through about a month more of the server i now own. theres a game which i help run, it takes about 39 days and since it was all stars season which means the best players of this game are playing, the old owner is playing so she promoted me to that. but anyways, it can take up a lot of my time and ive been doing this since the pandemic began. like i enjoy the people there, but then i always think theres more i should be doing IRL socially than that.


Jack the way I keep myself running this server is taking breaks


Take like a few days break where u just dont get on discord and hang out with people or do work other than on your pc/ phone


Just got into a call with my cousin saying I shouldn't bring up their dad


mostly becouse I defended myself when my cousin called a fat cow


and now I'm kicked for their server


tbh I don't even care anymore if he keeps insulting me he should learn the consaqueses of insulting me vey badly


Is this where the imposters hang out?


Im really really stoopid


Thats my vent


Thank you for coming


Well Im gay i Get Yelled at Cuz It Goodbye... forever


...And Ever...and ever


no


you good bb


shh


its all ok


Welp.


mac n cheese is honestly the best food


the combination of savory with the texture of the noodles and creamy cheese just bring a delight to the senses


someone told me to put parmesan in my mac n cheese


i said nay


parmesan is for pizza and spaghetti


Bruh, pelmeni is best food


Change my mind


not mac n cheese. it doesnt belong


idek what pelmeni is lemme look it up


yoo it looks like tortellini Slavic Crusader


and i know for sure tortellini slaps hard


Dirtwich


It's dumpling with meat inside


oh nice


im polish so i eat pierogis Slavic Crusader


i look like humpty dumpty wtf


woo


Use more make up


PiroZky, noice


Why can't I be normal and happy?... Why do I have to be so weak.


is that polish?


what is it russian?


If it was polish, it would look more retarded


ruh roh


I guess I really don't have a place here


good thing i dont get offended or else u would have triggered me


Emotions go brrr?


Slavic Crusader jesus


woo yes, I'm his postman


LMAO


legendary


Slavic Crusader LFMADSKODMASSOADAS


I wish things will get better. I hope that whatever I do it will be done to make myself happy..i want my brother to stop calling me names..i want to be accepted..i want to be able to talk with my parents... I wanna be able to look at my crush and say I love you With confidence...i wanna be able to walk outside wearing a more tight shirt and love being me. I wanna be happy..


sometimes i cover myself in glue and then roll around in salad croutons so i can pretend to be a breaded chicken breast


sometimes i cover myself with orange paint and go in the garden and pretend to be a carrot


Dirtwich


Noice


I wanna be able to look at myself and say Im proud of myself I wanna look in the mirror without saying I'm too fat Or I'm too skinny


Sometimes I cover myself in oil and slides on roads


sometimes i lift the couch on top of myself and pretend to be a dust bunny


sometimes i spin in circles pretending to be a ceiling fan


LMFSOOSOSOLDSK


I wanna be like everyone else..i wanna be normal


sometimes i stare at the sun for 10 minutes so i can be as blind as the refs at my games


Sometimes I scream suka blyat for fun


sometimes i open the freezer and pretend im in space


I'm done venting


kk


Slavic Crusader nononono


suka blyat bad


BAD


one time i got really high and i held a candle up to my ear because i couldnt hear it


one time i got really drunk at a grad party and i woke up outside without a shirt


never found the shirt


woo


Why no


and thats on not eating in 3 days cause your family calls you fat


talk to him again


i just need to stop loving


i cant


why not


he blocked me on everything


thats how he broke up with me


i see


he didnt say anything


he just blocked me


well he wasnt the one


it felt like he was the one


dont always trust your feelings


my parents could see the happiness change in me when i was with him


ill give you a tip in life that might benefit you later on


dont ever put your everything on someone because when they leave then youll have nothing


i trusted him with everything


and how did that go


no you actually didnt


so dont blame yourself because people left you


sometimes its actually for your own good without you knowing it


how so


i always say sum or do sum that makes them leave


i dont mean to make them leave


im just impossible to love


they leave cuz they werent good enough


start believing that


and eventually someone whos good enough will stick by you forver and after


im the one whos not good enough


nah you just blaming all on yourself


just blame it on love


but the thing is if he wanted to get back together in a couple of days yk what i would


i would get back with him


i love him


u should start loathing urself less


only then it ll get better:


i dont wanna grow up yet


im too young to feel this sad and stressed about school and what i look like


i mean ye, everyone should relax sometimes and just do what they want, why not try to have a clear head and set times for urself then you can relax and do whatever u want


Hey dont do that


i dont have anything to live for


What about ur family


Do you have any pets


naw


you shouldnt live for the sake of others. i bet there's things in life that u wanna do. live for urself, do things that make u happy


i dont have anyone


if u depend on others, people are bound to leave and when they do u'll have no one again


all i have is weed the weeknd and you guys and some irl freind


so just do things on ur own


well thats enough?


im usally alone


i feel like im dead


im slways scared or parinoid


u got hobbies?


nah just weed and the weeknd and talking u to guys


actually


i feel the same but if something makes u wake up everyday then let it wake you up


thats more then enough


i just feel like


if u r not willing to make ur own life more interesting and fun


honestly, no one else will


even though im some random person, i like talking to everyone here and everyone gives me the energy to make me get up, it might not be the same for you but ik life will get better


i kinda ks


i would like to talk to you more but im currently in class


is


its fine


i feel a lil better


kinda


idk


but if u wanna talk my dms are open and im always willing yo help out


to


alway man thank you


what's the point


of everything


i mean thats the thing. we don't know which makes it mysterious


we can make the point


you urself can make your own point and go with it


ya maybe it will change but thats just how it is


bot your futures the point. The life you have ahead like family and friends


But i dont see it that way


Btw thank u NoPoint babygirl


np if u still wanna talk my dms are open:D


bot I'm sorry. I know exactly what you mean tho I was in the same place a little while back. If you ever need to talk you can message me


sometimes its better to change ur view if first few times it doesn't work


there is always an option for everything


Sorry for the book, I just feel conflicted and in search of answers.


Sounds like u desperately need motivation and a sense of self worth, and you desperately need a sense of independence


You're not wrong.


But I don't know how to break this string of failures that is my life.


i think u should set goals, dreams, try to set times for urself, just try to do things how u want it, try new things and yes it will be a trial and error, there will be ups and downs but thats how u learn, just try to start with small things, always best to start slow with baby steps


Yep yep


Buy a calendar, or set reminders on ur phone everyday for somethinganything


Positive ofc


Never


Never give up


life is a trial and error


there will always be times where u fail and feel like nothing will get better


but thats not true


once u get 1 win it will get so much better u just have to keep trying


Look at ur failures as lessons. Look at why you failed, and what led up to it. And do the opposite of that


People who fail less give up easily, people who try many times will have a better end because they tried harder then people who tried very less


better end meaning better life


i can't really take failure easily it fucks me but that doesn't mean you should give up


ya there has been times where i don't think i can succeed but there is always hope:D


I understand, but I just don't know how much longer I can last. Failure isn't even my biggest issue. My biggest issue is my memories.


Memories?


Read the latter half of my paragraph.


memories will always stick, i can't say they will go away, they will always be there but u can make good memories and look into ur past and see what made you the person you are today


not everyone gets a good start but doesn't mean ur ending will not be good, just do ur best and thats i can ask of you


I'll try, but I can't make any promises that a year from now I'll still be on this Earth.


It's hell.


look i can't force you to do anything, just do ur best and see what u can do, but there is a lot to the world that not everyone knows


but there is always other options


u just have to look in every direction


Thanks for the support.


I know how u feel... Well how life is hell anyway... I felt like that for years every single day. But i dont see it that way anymore. And this may sound cheesy but i really suggest hoing outside and just looking at the sky. Or looking at the trees and grass. It gave me a new filter over my perspective and now i realize just how beautiful the world is. Even looking out a window. It slows ur mind down so you dont focus on ur problems


np i get life is hard but thats what makes us humans better


Thanks guys.


Ye np


Chamberlain wow I'm so sorry you had to go through those things I almost cried reading that. If you wanna talk my dms are always open


Thanks.


Feel free to hmu if you have any questions about it, but I've said really all I need to say without coming off as whiny.


So my meeting with my therapist new one got cancles and is up for next week


Yeah next Wednesday yeah I'm still stuck in that therapy group session


HunnyPuppy im meeting my new one on tuesday i think


Lily cool


I saw big toe in here, I swear


no commuting swan dive into missouri river


have u told him to stop?


SOYA how is he messing with you


just strait up shut him down


fuckin auto


be mini hulk and take him down :


And how do u just become ugly all of a sudden? That doesn't make sense


I straight up rejected him so I feel mildly bad


not ur fault u just didnt feel the same way


I mean i was ugly before so no cap idk


I smell cap


He just does small things to make my job a Hassel


if he is annoying you u should either complain to the manger or tell him to stop


I have


if he doesnt then gonna be some issues


i will end him


i would say best to like get away from him then


We work in the same area idk if he's distracted or actually working for once he doesn't, it's not a big deal just a lil irritating I spose


i mean if it bothers you, you stood conplain about it!


I havvveee tho, the dude supervisor was just like guys will be guys /


Hey guys. I found the cool people


And the other supervisors weren't around to save me


SOYA lemme smack him please


Dawg. Imma hold your hoops! SNATCH BIS WEAVE


HIS


LMAO JAMES


Exactly


I'm one of the youngest there and he called me a baby I was like if I'm a baby, pls stop tryna get into my diaper


Wow wot


Oof. Girl, Im a boy myself. And I say you just take him to corporate.


I mean I don't want him to get in trouble with corporate, just stop bothering mw


How old are you


Who? Me?


Ay do you know how I was struggling with getting over someone


I just been invited to pool party and they will be there and knowing me that will not help


And if they read the message before the party it will be very very awkward


So hopefully they dont


Read it


im sure it will be fine gee


Hopefully


yup


u good slavic?


oki good


o


?lock


?unlock


Pog


4th night and I still can't sleep


i am tired and i think i am slowly but surely dying


Same


I can't sleep no matter what I do


e


Nice


I'm fucken pissed anyway


I haven't slept in days


i was staying all night long


and i have work too


damn


Mhm


Also, almost lost my arm in a car accident today


Shouldn't u sleep?


I can't


Close one then, wish you good luck tomorrow


Is there something on ur mind thats making u have trouble sleeping?


Not at all


my body denies to sleep


Its fucken irritating at this point


Damn


ikr..


Hmm


I was the same until I found stuff to fall asleep to


Like music or watching a cute video before bed


I always listen to music


I have stuffed animals too tho, maybe that's something


maybe thats why i cant sleep


Some people feel comfort to sounds, like a fan or AC


ah i would sleep with a fan


if my ma would let me


I listen to 10 hour rain sounds sometimes


i listen to slowed songs mostly


calming and all


Put it to the second lowest volume and I'll fall asleep after a bit


Yea me too, I have a playlist


I mostly open randomly


to find new songs


and all


I cant fall asleep to new songs, have to be my favorites or sum, because then I'll stay up thinking about their lyrics and such


Ive tried many things bruh


I rly wanna knock myself out this time


I found too many good songs while random listening


but i dont keep names of em


my problem starts here


Try tiring yourself out


I workout a lil bit


hmm working out sounds good


I literally have 13 followers on Instagram and 48 on tiptoe while everyone is in my grade has atleast 200 on both


Im not feeling it.


The sympathy,


that emotion.


I just wanna disappear.


But say goodbye


My life isnt bad.


Just, Im not sure.


Its different feeling.


Like, whats the point of the life?


Just to keep repeating the same day while getting old.


Losing people.


Im just not strong enough.


Hey man hang in there I know you just lost a friend and it's hard but you can get through it and we will help you


If ever you feel sad just tell us and we'll find a way to cheer you up


I don't understand what you are going through but I can understand that you are in pain so just stay with us and have some fun.


Thanks. Yeah, just. Im not feeling it, on how I felt last year. This year just hasnt been a great start to my life.


I try to stay positive, but fully it cant never work out


We got you man


Thanks.


I am out of wheat bread


I think theres something wrong with me


I cant keep anybody interested in me for more than 2 weeks


FrostHT The only person I've been able to keep is now 18 so we can't be together even tho he calls me baby and talks to me about having a future


That sound super self centered I'm sorry


No i understand. I have a similar situation going on but now it seems like she is tired of me


FrostHT oh I'm sorry if u wanna talk my dms are always open:


Not the time


Arent there police or something


Because that sounds fucking scary


Why am I nice at the wrong time


I just spent 1 hour and a half fixing up someones Mc house which was grieved and the person who grieved it turned out to be the owner of the house


Fml honestly


I just


I cant


I cant get over her


And Im sorry for not getting over it like some of you said to do last time


But its hard ok


Idk what I saw in her


But whatever it was she didnt see it in me


And she never told me why


And that led to me making up excuses about why she left me to myself


Our lies sound best to ourselves and thats what happened to me


I believed what I was saying


ok


why though?


suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem indra


I wanna do it but i won't dw


why do you want to though


the problem is the fact you want to do it in the first place


Welp


Reasons


But I won't bruh


do ya want to talk about it i have nothing to do for the rest of the day and my dm's are always open if ya wanna talk about it


like please reach out to me if you need help with coping or other things im always here


yall


i had like


real bad ptsd yesterday and took it out on my boyfriend and feel just, awful


like


idk


i love him so damn much and i be feelin so down for like bein standoffish towards him


like i jus wanted a hug but like barely even looked in his direction when i was with him its just ugh


why do i be like this


i mean its hard to show how u feel sometimes, im sure your boyfriend loves you dearly and cares for you, so just talk to him, he wants u in his life and wants to be with you


well i know


ill see him today but he was v upset about it and understandably so


maybe just go up to him and hug him, it will maybe make you feel better and him


well thats the plan but


he do be grumpy when he wakes up and he bout to nap


so maybe ill wait on the hug


ya


o im sorry:


Would like to say just as a maybe message or more of a quote


stop being afraid of what can go wrong, and start being positive about what can go right


its a good quote but i understand that its ok to be scared of not getting the outcome you want but always try to think positive and do your best, getting something wrong is apart of life its just how we learn and grow3


Do something today that your future self will thank you for


What can be done tomorrow can be done today this quote hits so hard cause of how lazy i am


never regret a day in your life. Good days give you happiness, bad days give you experience, worst days give you lessons, and best days give you memories.


the first step is you have to say that you can


you can't use up creativity. The more you use, the more you have


He who blames others, has a long way to go on his journey. He who blames himself is half way there. he who blames no one has arrived


Nothing is impossible, the word itself says im possible


be patient with yourself, nothing in nature blooms all year


You are amazing just the way you are


like to say if anyone is reading this that if u wanna vent you can, im not stopping you to, i will always try to help, im just doing this to spread positivity3


speak your body in a loving way. It's the only one you've got it's your home, and it deserves your respect


sometimes when things are falling apart, they may actually be falling in place


if you want something you never had you have to do something never done


if its bother anyone, ill stop


thank you for that simar


nope not btohtering me


not at all


ahha


im still going


im like really bored


same


just bored in general not by the quotes lmao


aww


MikaylaLeigh14 mikayla?


never give up on things that make you happy


can i say some quotes sim?


ya lily, you can do whatever you want3


yay ty ily


starting today, forget whats gone. appreciate what still remains and look forward to whats coming next”


yooo


whatsup


nm hbu


bored asf


im just looking for quotes atm lmao


I see I see


hehe


you cant always have a good day. but you can always face a bad day with a good attitude”


youve survived everything youve gone through up to this point. the best day of your life is yet to come. there are still people you havent met and things you havent experienced”


your mind is a powerful thing. once you fill it with positive thoughts, your life will begin to change”


Elsa Ye?


My boyfriend keeps saying the N word, what do I do?


tell him to chill tf out


Right, I told him


Poopyman have u asked to stop saying that?


and explain why he shouldnt be saying that


He's black but still


o damn


Hello


All said that like yall were more surprised he was black than anything else lmfaoo


Helloo


Who gon be my friend


I got memes


Plenty of memes


Wait Whaa happend


kushie you can go to chat to make a lot more friends than in here


Can we be friends Lily


If yes today marks our history as we RISE TO THE TOP OF MEMEHOOD


DO YOU ACCEPT THIS REQUEST FOR MEMELATIONS?


yes sir


AMAZING MY CHILD WE SHALL RISE TOGETHER


Ill leave a meme for good luck


lets fuckin go boys


you can put the meme in memes


oh ur here MikaylaLeigh14


Poopyman aww ur a girl


ayee i feel ya my boyfriend is half black too but he doesnt over use it, more like he uses it on me a lot lmaoo


I personally wouldn't allow it if the person was lightskin or sum, I'm half black myself but I'm very much light


So I dont allow myself to say it at all


hes blasian


anyways he doesnt listen to me pretty stubborn if u ask me so i cant do nothing


That's poopy of him


my ex boyfriend was a drug dealer


The weed made his IQ dropped badly


all he did was play cod, smoke weed, and sell drugs


My ex who cheated on me he barley talked to me


my other ex almost died while dating


me


Pimp I was kidding, it was just that he'll cheat alot and I'll have to act normal about it


he was dosing off of drugs


Im sorry to hear that with you lot


I think I'm a druh dealer now


how


I give my prescription to my friend


can i get some of that supply


give me sum hehee


Is this a drug dealer chant


Chat


All I have now is just sleeping pills and focus pills


indeed


Coz I think Im missing something here


I used to take antidepressants


Set me some of them


But they took it off my charts


Ooof


But there really good for you


As my friend recommended me it before


i need focus pills tbh


Guessing school and stuff


I can't have antidepressants back in my prescription list again untill I get diagnosed with depression again


i cant focus


like frfr


Sameb


Mood


nah i have a ahrd time focusing


I give them off to my friend for free because she doesnt have money


on anything


Thats good at least in a way


sometiems texting tbh


And thats valid


Do you get tired a lot?


yes


Easily wise


but i dont text a lot


I put sexy in dyslexic


which is why i let my text messages fill up


and then peopel get mad


I wish that was me


bc i dont text back


Sounds like my one friend


But its understandable its hard and long to always have a lot of friends


I just know this from my one friend


awww they arent my friedns tho


HunnyPuppy wym by that earlier


Humble wym


Oh nvm


Im special


dukenukem6901 what?


About the sexy thing


i dont have friends


is the bottom line


Oh I got it from a VR youtuber


Oh fairs


And well I can be your friend if you want


His name is Juicy


I have like three if I can count


Ahhh juicy is jokes


Love him


sure why not


I used to watch him a lot


but we gonna fade


nvm


just saying friends never last


I understand but theres ppl in life that youll meet that will be there for life


hmm i dont believe


anyways i gotta go


somehwere


Yeet valid but still dont give up as currently Im trying my best


You evee just have those random moments when you just flat out dont want to care anymore and then you get scared because if I dont care then bad things will happen but if i do care I'm going to be hurt and like I dont want to give up on people and I probably wont but it's that split sexind of feeling cold and heartless thats fkn terrifying


Oop sad boi hours ig


honestly same


That happens to me all the time


Yea fun times:


I'm listening to music now so I feel a bit better but still feel sucky


i feel sucky all the time


why do u feel that?


i have no self esteem


well then best to work on it now then never, just give urself a little confidence day by day


i think you are wonderful for who you are and the world should know that


i already give up on life


so


never too late to get back up


life isnt over until you live it to the fullest


but i tried


and


it just sucks


i need some computer tech


my paernts lost my phone


its dead too


well its ok to try and fail its just life, its never always gonna be happy and positive there will be times you will be down, but that just means to stride higher and try to live it to the fullest, go chase ur dreams, set goals and stuff


and sorry about ur phone:


hmm i believe some dreasm dont come true


its okay


just emans i have to keep working


to get a phone


but since im not of working age


they give me stipends


well they only dont come true if u give up, if u keep going and trying ur best ik u will make ur dream come true


tho i belive dreams come true for some lives


just not others


but for me i believe imma get a job that isnt gonna make me happy


or a job that i realy love and i am super passionate about?


ya feel me


i mean if you believe and do ur best ik u can do whatever3


we will see where that goes


and i will see you succeed in life and living ur best time3


small chance gonna happen


but we will see


positive mind


ahhah dont have one remember


well then start one, always best to be positive


no?


yaaa


i dont like positvity


its just


too much


o i understand


yes


some dude just calld me rude


ouch


how could he


im the most respecctful women ik


thats good to know


same


I don't feel like I fit in with this community.


I feel empty all the time


i feel broken


i love you


your status


aww thxs


why


bc i dont have to feel what im feeling


what are you feeling


sasd


sad


suicidal


no reason


bye


u r 13


i am not 13


but okay


how old are you


Stefanac


not 13


since u assumed i was 13


not telling u my age tbh


NoPoint


do u think


im 13?


oh why not


cause u talk calming, and you understand most things also im pretty sure u told ur age to me before


i did


so ur saying 13 year olds aren't necessarily calm


but im annoying


so


ya 13 usually aren't as calm, and i don't think u are annoying


im 16


but i ping u a lot


tho


i don't really mind pings


u sure


ikr


ya you don't annoy me


idk why people thinks a ping is annoying


it is


depends on how many times someone pings and for what reason


i used to get ping


some people literally ping you all the time w/o needing to


and it gets annoying


on my previous dsicord accounts


and i deleted those


but


well i mean as a person in like 100 servers with 7k pings i don't really mind


i mute most of the servers i'm in


and don't talk in a lot of them


ya i turned off all my notifications expect for a few servers im active in


i get way too distracted by discord


so i have to mute lmao


ya same


but then i lowkey forget i'm in some of them


and don't check for a long time;


samee


bc of people like me


just pin gu


ping


nah


then how do u guys handle school


lmaooo


nah tbh they just don't ping cause they have no reason to


or r u dropouts


i'm too old to be in school rn


no nopoint


i don't pay attention in school


idk nopoints name


just gonna say nopoint


if that is fine with u


ya thats fine


oh then? what about ur aprens


what do they think of u not paying attention ins chool


they think that with the grades i get i could get perfect if i actually tried


so u have passing grades


not good ones?


i don't really put effort in anything anymore so i just don't try, i have usually average grades


NoPoint last year of school


dont do nothing


you will pass


bruh


why not


i mean its my second last year of high school


yeah junior year


sat?


year


idk what sat is


school is trash


but education is good


is something that god cant explain


canada schools don't do sat


sat is the test u take for colleges to see ig how much u know


oh


then


how do colleges tehre work?


well tbh i don't fully know, you apply in the beginning of your last year of high school


at least for university


.ookiujgt


Fake...people


I feel so scared to open up in fear im just gonna get yelled at again for overreacting” or rearranging words” I dont know what to do but I know keeping it inside is damaging...Im lost..I dont want to be lost...I hate feeling lost...


Im sorry about that, I kinda know how it feels, I say I do but its not confirmed but I feel like I have anxiety so I struggle to make decisions about say for dinner whether we have Stir fry or soup for eg


I just dont like the uncertainty of knowing what will happen


And I have had that feeling for so long


So I really struggle making decisions


But one day you will find your feet again


It may be tomorrow, who knows?


But you will get there


Yes it takes time but so does everything


Everything is based on a factor of time


That made me feel really smart just then lmao


Yeah but there is no telling how a relationship could go


Yea


Just don't get into any ez


I know


20000 weights have been dropped on my chest by my anxiety and ocd


I want to do an anxiety test online or something but Im worried my parents will see search history


Found one but you had to do all these details


So I havent done one


Hey, calm down. You can always delete it afterwards. But if you can't they need to understand that you need help. The faster you get help the more maybe your anxiety will drop down buddy


Love is real here


Alr


so basically my mom called me a mistake last night i got suicidal and then my girlfriend decides it was the right time to break up with she does that i start to cry this is the first time ive ever cried over a girl and then everything just got confusing apparently were still together idfk


im very very confused


and sad


well first of all, does your mom oftenly calls you that?


if so, she was never meant to be a mother, especially her calling you a mistake.


yes she usally calls me a mistake


even tho i have straight A's


and i try


really hard


and if you think you are, you arent. please dont be like that. just dont believe your mother even if you think you are.


ive never been good at giving at advices, so please excuse me


It doesn't matter if your a mistake or that you were suppose to be born, you were born in this world for a reason and have a life to live, and you should live it to the fullest


we only have one life and people take that for granted, live ur life how u want to live it


thank you guys


like


alot


I hate how relationships starts to feel dreadful... I don't want to chat him in a routine but then that's the only time I get to chat with him because of a timezone. Heck I don't even know if he'll ever respond back for the day. He could be working, playing games, or reading. Afraid to schedule a call or an anime date with him cause he might be too busy... and I can't keep on making up questions or send memes as a topic... I ran out, he barely starts a conversation. I tried confronting about it earlier but it seemed baseless. Could be my paranoia, but things just feel tensed even since the 2 months has ended. Despite how many times he tells me he loves me and is trying for me, or how he trusted me about his story, his agenda or when's his bathroom break.. I still can't help but worry...


have u tried to have like a small break


i get its an online relationship so maybe just get off online for a bit


just think what u want in life


have a relaxed mind


and see what can be done


Yeah, sometimes it's best to just collect yourself for awhile and make


You can't just roll over tho


I had been trying to, sometimes a day, sometimes a week. It still.. seems to stress me out and he's still distant


A relationship requires to people


two


You can't carry it by yourself


He needs to put in the effort too


And if he doesn't, then he doesn't deserve you


if its just you doing everything thats not a relationship, thats just u having to carry for stress for urself


Over all a relationship should make you feel good about yourself,not bring you down


And if it does bring you down then it is not worth it


maybe talk to him but i think its best to maybe not be in a relationship with him


But of course we are just strangers on the internet at the end of the day it's gotta be your decision


I could tell how genuine he is with me but yeah he rarely tries...


I'll take a break


ya maybe have a break, see how it feels but break ups even if its for the best still are hard to over come, just see how u feel but remember to choose what u think is best3


Yeah make sure you're happy


I just didn't know if I should, or shouldn't in the first place. Because the two of us rarely talk nowadays...


Okay


relationship are good with communication if there is no communication then there really shouldn't be a relationship


honestly if the relationship isn't making you happy anymore and there's barely anything going on/communication, it's really best to just end it unless it looks like it will get better soon


it's just unnecessary anxiety/stress if you stay in such a relationship w/ it going nowhere


There's that issue too... I'm confused with his intentions. I could tell he's genuine and loyal with me, comfortable with sharing his past, but he never makes the time for me, and he rarely starts a convo.. he always blames the timezone, but he inconveniently do other things when I'm up.


I guess so...


it's easy to claim you care and love someone but in the end if they can't show it and you're not content with that then it's what it is i guess


and some people just aren't in a good place for a relationship


It's your decision love, some people will never be able to fully commit.. you shouldn't have to be the only one trying


It will hurt you both in the end if you stretch it out


yeah...if it's meant to work out, i believe things always somehow work out on their own


but if not then it's better to save yourself the trouble and time/feelings


I don't know how to fix this.. confrontation after confrontation


Hmm... I see


just tell him honestly how you feel and that you think you need a break for awhile, if not permanently


Then don't. You shouldn't have to be the one always fixing things


just so you can gather your thoughts better and see if you're happier w/ things that way


Take a break and see if your happier without him


He's online rn.. I don't know how to talk anymore.


i took a break from my ex for a bit and after a couple days decided i should really just end it after months of prolonging it


And if I miss him a lot during?


Ohh..


Then you know that you wanna keep things going


missing someone you used to love is natural, it's hard to suddenly change your habits/schedule/etc


See how he feels about it though


but in the end if you think it's best for your mental/emotional/physical health then it's worth the temporary struggle


you can still be friends afterall if he's ok with it


I just got used into talking the guy... like everyday before we started dating we just laugh like there's no tomorrow... since two months ended. We're just going from lovey dovey to lonely to anxiety in a loop


I'm sure he's up for being friends, can't say the same for me..


Do what makes you happy, don't feel guilty for it


well if you don't wish to be friends either it's ok too


yeah, just do what is best for you


if he can't make you happy and things aren't working out then he can't stop you


it might hurt but that's just life and love in general


ya its gonna be a hard transition idk if thats the right spelling but honestly it will be better for you but thats not really my decision


look whatever path u take its not right or wrong its just a decision you make and u go with it, ya u might regret it but that shouldn't stop u from moving forward


It might not seem like it but there's always gonna be others


That might be kinda rude


But it's trus


Trus


I can't spell


Hmm.. I do hear that a lot. Just need to decide if I should just break it off or let it flow and trust him... though idk how long till I finally lose all my sanity


just try to clear ur mind, maybe meditate and try to have like a week to yourself and see how u feel


be urself


do whatever u want


Aight, I'll do that first before continuing on letting things flow... for now I just asked him this


Morning love


.. sorry if I seem aaah.. too much right now and yesterday but what do you intend this relationship to flow into? Like.. what should we do about it? And where do you think we'll end up at this point?


ya i think thats good


also love the morning love thats adorable


Sounds good to me


hm if he responds with another Just trust me and go with the flow, I'm sorry our timezone isn't matched up I'm getting tf out


You go queen


Okay I wanna vent about something. I know as an adult, I should be more mature but I would be lying if I said I was. I didn't exactly have a great social life as a kid but I was happy with playing video games and watching videos. A few months ago I made friendship with this girl online. It was great at first but things turned pretty bad for me. She would reject me when I asked for a relationship but would blame me if I didn't give her enough time. You know, kinda leading me on. She made me question my sanity so many times, like blaming me when I opened up to her My family had domestic violence issues. Anyway, I don't exactly know when it happened but I am very much mentally traumatized. I cut connections with her but I can't forget and move on. My trauama is that I feel like something is wrong even when it isn't. This feeling I get is of walking among corpses, pure vomitting types.


I found a new friend and everything is good between us. But I can't stop that feeling. For example, even if everything is good, I would feel like it isn't for no reason.


I keep questioning my sanity. I feel like I am walking wrong at this point. I can't stop these thoughts no matter how hard I try. Can't move on.


I just want the bad thoughts to stop. All I remember is at one point I was so happy watching videos and playing games


i think its just trust issues


I don't feel it anymore.


would is ok, sometimes its actually better to have trust issues, ur more alert


but maybe try thinking positively


just see the good things


not the bad


gonna be a bit hard but its not impossible


Yes I agree with you. I just wish I had a map to see where I am going. Don't really want these trust issues anymore.


you just gotta learn along the way that some people are going to be toxic to you and treat you badly and not the way you deserve to be, and not everyone is worth giving all of your trust to and letting hurt you like that. if you continue to believe in what they say and assume it's true, it will always haunt you, but if there's really no reason to justify the things they told you or the way they treated you, it's best to try and convince yourself that there's nothing wrong with you as a person in general, it was just their problem.


and always be aware/cautious of people who ask too much of you despite seeming to reject you or setting hard boundaries. if they don't want to be in a relationship then they really have no obligation to your time/etc more than you're willing to give as a friend. if they start to act entitled then try to figure out their true intentions and if it's not pure and innocent in any sense then it's better not to associate with such people


selfish/selfcentered people are the most draining and best staying away from them


Jinhii NoPoint thank you for listening and giving advice. I am willing to do anything to feel normal again.


np but i kinda don't know what normal is, everyone is unique for themselves


ofc : i always wish the best for others and i hope you can find your way to happiness even though it may be hard right now, just try and stay positive when you can and look on the bright side of things and appreciate the good people in your life that make you feel safe and happy


Do you ever feel like you are not worthy of love?


yes


all the time


i do, but it's a selfesteem issue and often made worse by the way others treat us and view us i think


even if there's generally nothing wrong with you someone will always have an issue w/ the way you are and nitpick or get upset w/ you


I feel like people who love me are putting expectations on me that I will never be able to uphold


and it's just really harmful when people do that when you're not even doing anything bad


and it's hard to feel like you're worthy of love when you can't even love yourself anymore cause everyone else acts like they hate you


but you are deserving of love, don't ever think otherwise


people who love you, love you for who


wait


i said that wrong


i meant


people who love you, love you for you


it's all good


I wish I had friends like you when I was a kid


Jinhii I also think it maybe because I don't love myself enough


well life might not have a good start but you can make ur life better while its going on


this is a cute emoji


I agree


i agree


Thanks I feel better. I didn't really expect anyone to understand but you did


So theres this friend of ours who comes down to this place my friend and I volunteer at, and honestly Im so tired of this little prick


yeah, that's why it's important to learn to love yourself before anyone else tbh


it's ok to love others but it's best to be able to love yourself too


cause then others will love you even more and you can be a positive influence and be more of a pleasure to be around


people who can't love themselves often end up bringing other ppl's moods down too


and end up lowkey toxic in a sense at times as well


nikwilliam Are you able to like kick him out?


so it's best to learn to love yourself and accept yourself first


then you can be happy even w/o other peoples' validation


i mean we all of that one person we kinda don't like


From what I have learned, it's best to ignore fools. They don't understand any form of reason.


Annoying people are annoying


Like mf dont be pushy when we allowed you to come here


He probably saw one of those alpha male videos on YouTube


Dear lord


Ugh


yes agree


So I went to the doctor today


How did it go?


This is where the fun begins


Im so shook is also the most annoying grammatical construction. The correct phase is I'm so shocked. Shook is a verb not an adjective. Shook is the past tense of shake and shocked is the past tense of shock. I don't know if people just say I'm so shook because it sounds cool or if they legitimately don't know what the words mean


I feel like Ill never be good enough even if I worked for a whole day straight I feel like I never did enough i overwork myself and try to perfect everything sometimes and all I can think is that why didnt you fo that? You couldve done better. I almost always get straight As in school and I still feel like complete garbage and feel like I didnt work hard enough this has fallen me into kinda a depression I tell people im fine and good I know I should tell them but I dont why?


ok so i understand the not good enough, i feel the same but you gotta understand that you are way more then good enough, if you try ur best everyday then i say your more then perfect, and telling how u feel can be difficult its easier to say im fine and not explain whars going on in ur mind but im telling you once you open up u will feel better


it takes time but ik you can do it


Why does it happen... ever since I was a child I grow anxious towards socialization. So its hard for me to make any connection, even to my own parents. As I grew, whenever I do get a connection, I get more paranoid than the other. Tore hundreds of friendships, been through thousands of fights, and I feel like Im losing my lover... slowly. He just find ways to hide from me since were in a LDR... I just can tell. Is my body reaction a self defense mecha?


xMira ok with socializing its hard to be good at that ngl, its just one of the many problems we go through, so maybe try to have conversations with ur parents more little by litte, but i get it will take time but its better to start somewhere then never starting


Its getting harder and harder..


what is?


Life? Or?


why?


kill us at the same time


there will be no killing


but.. but i like stabby stabbys


yes


plz do


stabby stabby?


Nvm


I was sad asf


Not anymore


ok im glad ur better now3


who wanna talk about bullcrap and vent cringey with me:


exactly. thats what i hate about life. its a cycle.


schoolworkdie


thats it


huh


this is why my mom takes away my razor


nikwilliam stop being sad


Nah


i give you hug so you stop being sad


Dont micromanage me and just come home


i come give you kiss and you be happy ok?


i think thats good deal


i give you cuddles and we forget our past troubles


thats in the past babyboi


im outside finishing my cig


YO people think im mean and yeah i can admit i do act mean a lot and put on a tough exterior but i do nice things like share answers and help people with things like hw or other and im a fun person and i genuinely care i just feel like people always call me mean when i feel like im a nice person, like i cant joke around with them? does me engaging in some friendly bullying fog all else good i have done? also people should understand that people act the way they do for a reason, like im mean cause im sensitive and been hurt deep down but if people just TRIED TO TRY A LITTLE MORE WITH ME THEY WOULD SEE THAT IM ACTUALLY REALLY FUCKING NICE AND SWEET AND THE BEST PERSON EVER U KNOW?


Also she hasnt opened the snap yet which is kinda a good thing because I have a party coming up I have probably told you this and she is going


Even though my bf apologized for being distant... I'm still crying for some reason. It still hurts. He tried joking around, and easing up the issue, I still can't help it.


xMira I understand how you feel. Really not your fault to feel this way.


You're right, but I still.. don't get why I'm being this way.


xMira as I told you, it's natural to feel this way. It's not your fault. You are feeling this way because certain expectations are not being met.


Hm.. that makes sense


xMira yup. It's happens but if it becomes a regular thing, then it's not right. Don't let him mistreat you.


Aight, let's see how this will go


xMira mhm


Should I talk this out with him? Or I should just distance myself... for a month?


its always best to talk to your partner about issues or whatever since then u guys can find a solution


xMira yeah it's best to talk with him. Why should you have to hide feelings? The whole point of relationships is being able to be open and vulnerable.


It's been harder to be so.. honest. After accusing him over and over for the past September...


Oh I see. Was he always like this?


Distant? No. Not at all,


I hate it too when people become distant and act as if everything's normal


As if that's an expected natural behaviour


Can't really tell for certain cause I don't know him.


Maybe you should first get your thoughts straight you know. Find and note down all your problems.


Make the mind clearer


Meditation helps if you can do that.


I guess I should, I'll find the time once college actually takes a break for once


Mhmm


Feel free to dm me if you wanna discuss anything


Okie dokie, I'll dm when I can ': thanks for the advice, see you


Yup tc


man idk


i just want to talk to ppl


i just lonely since this covid thing


i cant be coochie man outside


im inside


so i barely see any girls anymore


so pls


help


oh wait


i mess up


ok listen


if u need help


to talk to ppl or u just sad just dm me


ok deal


why only girls


what about school?


idek


fine


i want to play sports but im moving and idk if its gonna be hard to make friends


u just gotta go out, try to get out of ur comfort zone and meet people


its always hard to make some friends but once u got at least one it feels nice:D


ok listen im the most popular kid since i was in 2nd grade


but idk if im gonna get that feeling again


u were popular because u earned everyones respect


u just gotta earn everyones respect thats all


ye then im sure u will be fine making friends


its not hard to have ppl earn my respect


its pretty much if u can vibe with people thats all


u don't know if the area ur moving is mostly blacks?


cuz im going to D1 school which means that its gonna be tuff


Atlanta


idk what that is


im moving back


georgia


oo


look man i think ur pretty chill and everyone likes ur vibe so im sure u will be fine


besides joshie ur right


joshie always kills my vibe


joshie is joshie


i kinda wanna vent here but im scared


Dont be


Jammtoast feel free


Or you can dm me personally too


idek what i wanna say


Groscr thanks


Jammtoast sure


ok umm


i think i just had a panic attack


Are you okay?


yea.


im just scared nobody likes me, or that ill end up alone with no friends like before. I mean,try not to think about it and sometimes it works and things seem to go great and it feels like im surrounded with people and then i just kinda feel alone again. i see the smallest thing and it just sends me straight off the cliff, and suddenly im lashing out and yelling at people who didnt do anything wrong.


Jammtoast I feel the same way. Always worried about ending up alone. I never really know if people stopped liking me. Some people ghost me without giving any reason. I am always left confused.


You know best thing to do is to not worry about who is liking me or not


You know. You have to put effort because people don't know you are good for them. You have to keep giving them signs to let them know you are a good person.


yea...


Thing is you do your part. After that, if they talk or not is totally upto them


You move on then


you have a point


Mhm. That's how I do things too


I found some good friends after long time


thanks:


Mhm


im happy for you


And I wish the best for you


same for you


and again thank youu


Welcome


Anybody else on the verge of tears? Cause same


I guess


I'm losing myself again arn't I


babygirl u wanna talk about it?


Im losing myself again arnt I


HunnyPuppy wdym?


NoPoint I'm okay just super stressed cause I'm really far behind in school. And I keep procrastinating it because it's giving me panic attacks so it's a never ending cycle


NoPoint Im okay just super stressed cause Im really far behind in school. And I keep procrastinating it because its giving me panic attacks so its a never ending cycle


babygirl ya i understand just take ur time, everyone goes at their own pace, just try little by little and im sure u are very smart and will get excellent grades, u got this!


NoPoint thanks but I have to finish everything by the end of this week cause the semester will be over and my mom's pissed at how far behind I am


i would say just to not worry about how others feel just go with ur with ur flow


u got this go i believe in u


babygirl


NoPoint thank youuu


NoPoint I'm losing everything I've lost myself again but I try to hide and it just seems to work I keel losing myself alot


NoPoint Im losing everything Ive lost myself again but I try to hide and it just seems to work I keel losing myself alot


HunnyPuppy you shouldnt hide urself


NoPoint why?


HunnyPuppy u should he urself


NoPoint I want to be myself but I don't have the guys dude I get shamed for being myself because they thing it's better for me


pretty epic ngl


Ima prey, please dont though


dont what


be depressed


ight den


Valor i hope things get better for u if u need someone to vent to im here even tho u dont know me but im js tryina help out someone:


Valor i rly dont care if i help u out even just by little ill be happy


Why tf do people tell me turn off your voice changer do you act or am I a voice actor or say hey your voice is deep I get it I have a deep voice but damn why is this a daily thing why can't people just ignore it and just talk to me like I'm a normal person and not make my voice the only quality I have like damn my voice isn't something to get moist over or bring up can't I just be that tall guy instead for a day. I don't mind it every now and then but it is every single day.


Not CORPSE r u tall?


babygirl I mean yeah


Not CORPSE how tall?


babygirl Last time I went to the doctor I was 64 and I was 18 why?


Not CORPSE damn that's tall. You're almost a whole foot taller than me. And you said you wanted to be the tall guy for a day lmao


babygirl oh thanks I feel better now but height is a family curse lmao


Not CORPSE so u don't like being tall or having a deep voice?


babygirl I sound like corpse so I keep getting mistakin for him and being tall try to move a house and hit your head on a uhaul door over and over. I don't care I have it just don't like people only knowing me as the deep voice man all the time and that's it.


Not CORPSE I might sound a little dumb but idk who that is. And yeah I understand not liking being tall


babygirl it's not dumb at all trust me I had no idea who he was still someone asked if I was him I look him up he was a YouTuber who sounds almost exactly like I do I think my voice is deeper from what I know lmao.


Not CORPSE I watched some of corpses new videos. I had no idea that he was this big deal


Not CORPSE dang I just looked him up. He honestly sounds pretty cool though


babygirl yeah he blew up out of nowhere lmao


Not CORPSE well I see how you could get annoyed. Cause just watching one of his videos it seems like he gets attacked about how deep it is


babygirl yeah it happens alot alot it's made me basically not want to vc at all when it comes to socializing online. It is what it is


Not CORPSE I'm so sorry but is it bad that I kinda wanna here?


He doesnt sound like him completely. Theres a clear difference


babygirl lmaoo no not really I'm not able to vc tonight because of a 52 demon next to me but I'll add you and vc later.


Yo do I get a request to?


Dean The EMT Firefighter have we been in voice chat before? Like not at night


No


I dont think so


Not CORPSE a 5'2 demon?


I could still tell the difference though


babygirl yes a short sleeping person who is grumpy


You dont sound like him too much


But a 5'2 demon? Is that a gf?


A lot of people have deep voices


His voice is alot more dead inside I know that


Yeah


babygirl Yeah probably gonna be more than that but for now yeah lmao.


Yo add me and well vc another day


Done


How long have yall been together?


Not CORPSE omg ur gonna propose? That's so cute! How old r u?


I've been living with her for almost 2 years now.


That doesnt quite answer any question


babygirl yes but I'm young for marriage


Dean The EMT Firefighter u good?


About to be 20


My girlfriend of 4 months just broke up with me tonight


Dean The EMT Firefighter I'm so sorry how old r u?


Im a young gorl


Yo same


But thats when love is felt the most


That's rough man


Youre not exposed to the harshness of the world


Its not that harsh but if ya need to talk I'm here with all the wisdom of a 5 year old girl


Ah I see


Thank you for your offer at a chance of wisdom


Np man


What's up with u and toast?


It's bread


Narrator, do you think Im a guy?


same difference


Nah I call everyone bro


Ah


Usually they assume by the name


babygirl tbh I just send it in chats because I don't know what to say and all the sudden I made a cult


Cults are formed very easily here


That makes me happy


Bread cult shall take over eventually


There was a Monki cult that lasted for about 2 months


Oh no it's spreading


How does someone assume that spooky EMT is a man or women? How can u assume someone's gender from that


yeah sometimes


I have three thingy due tomorrow and I am stressing


And we have a math test


Which I am not going to do well on


Because I stress


Then I forget everything


Like today, the others 2 others computers werent working so they sat next to me each side and used my computer and they were talking and I couldnt focus and I just


I got really stressed because I couldnt think


Tf is wrong with me


Why cant I just be smart


Gee fr just be smart ez


is the math test that hard?


Its hard


Some find it easy others dont


That's life


life sux


but hey


u can fix it


temporarily doe


being a lefty can also be tough


but like


much easier than real problems ppl have


soapsoup i left you for one day what happened


Lel


SaberSouls she wants you to be good looking? Is that what you said?


babygirl yeah


SaberSouls well that's kinda rude. Shouldn't she have no problems with what her child looks like


Hmpf not nice


Jammtoast oh hey sorry i was in school, nthing really


Hang in there SS:


My mom commented on my feet and stuff. I'm horribly insecure about them now.


None of it is your problem. Many factors contribute to weight issues. Just keep telling yourself that and do your best to work through their comments. Easier said than done, but you gotta ignore the comments.


exaclty


like ive eaten healthy and stuff and now im just really cutting calories


and working out ofc


You'll always be accepted.


ive never been particularly skinny and my mom has been doing this to me like what am i supposed to do


clingy loser I am the exact opposite, I was skinny like really skinny and they told me I need to gain weight


But it hurts


When you try and try but it doesnt work


this is probably the most interestinf place on this channel


Did red vent?


its called vent but rlly i know what this is


well i just got ip banned for the 3rd time in 2 weeks idk why well i do but i still dont know why even tho i dont do anything


if u got banned the first time why go back?


is it weird to vent here more than once lmao


its fine


u do u no judgment


its just that every once in a while i have like a relapse of the same emotions and idk


Jammtoast honestly i say thats pretty normal


i do the exact same


but u are unique for urself


who tf cares what they think


something is wrong wit them if they can't see how awesome u are


thanks


physically present, mentally at Rihhanas concert in 2009


Really?


Cool


I had a dream abt her last night, it was weird


Or I was reality shifting to her concert


NoPoint


ruthie4.01298 youre manifesting Riri into your reality


lowkey felt the rihanna concert comment. wish I was there rn


I know, Im suppose to take a break from discord. But its vent. So for some reason I cant cry rn. I tried. But right now, it would be amazing to cry. For some reason. But I just cant.


what happen?


Ghost sus


Whenever I'm home alone I keep hearing weird noises in le kitchen


They are probably going to be my screams when my mum finds out I submitted work without her seeing it first


You know what would help


A big hug


But thats not happening so


I have a problem, a growing problem


Not CORPSE no you DONT


@.ghostie bruh how do you know lmao.


Not CORPSE i know but YOU ARE VERY GORGEOUS TO MEE


@.ghostie lmao thank you for the complement, I'm very eh best I can do is describe my looks because picture anxiety.


No it doesn't you will get through these hard times


Trust me I've been in the same place


Who did you loose?


I just need someone to ducking love, I know I gotta make sure its real not me just desperate but when you see all your friends get into relationships and you dont it hits


Hey man, hold it there BigManEli


What's going on?


no


Come on man


Im done being nice I give up


Why though dude? You can probably work it out


Exs


Everything


Everything is too much


It just takes some perspective and someone to talk to man


What's the reason for it?


For running away?


Hey man, if you do go through with it, I wish you the best


I am not one for convincing, though I hope you realize


It's not worth it


BigManEli think about if it was you, if you were in your parents shoes and your kid ran away, you would be worried sick


You dont know my position,


No I dont


Would you like to give me a quick explanation


So I can try help


Have you tried proving that it wasnt you


Probably yes


Nobody cares enough to listen


How old are you?


Okay


Im just trying to think here


If I cant stop you from leaving but if you did where would you go


My parents are gonna go through my phone, I cant say or theyll know


I live in Australia so I doubt if you said certain locations I would know where that is


Ok all g


Wait but wont they see that you said all this


Idc


At least they wont know where Im at


Ok it may seem shit, and leaving may seem like the best option but it wont be, you would most likely be on the streets, you will get robbed, beaten up, abused and made fun of. Do you really want to live like that?


You probably have done a lot of the stuff I suggest but try call someone anonymously like a help line or 000 or whatever the emergency service is in America


Try talk to your parents


I find that very confronting and dont like it but it would help them realise what you are going through


But leaving will only make things worse


I did a project on homelessness and most homeless people tried to end it


And that is not the right idea


But leaving home, your parents would be worried so much, wth so little information


You are here for a reason


You were not here just to leave home and live on the streets


U


You are destined to greatness


Yeah it will take hard work but thats life


If you truly want something you will work for it


So I am telling you


Dont leave home


Try sort it out


Yes I get you would have tried


But never give up trying again


Always push on


Even at the darkest time you have to keep moving


Success comes from hard work


So sort things out


And tell someone how you are feeling


It doesnt matter who


Hello..


today my friend was upset and I wanted to help Because I normally dont fix thing I normally ruin things and he came back and hes fine, I wanted to help so badly but he just didnt want me to help even tho for years I wanted to be helping people but the one time I had a chance to help my best friend he is fine


ever just make a joke and your friends are like funny we hate you now goodbye And then you just think abt drowning yourself in the bathtub


look, u are more then good enough, u are beautiful in ur own way, u are amazing because u are u, ik people care about u, and life will get better3


I'm tired and sleept


Um so she has replied to my text that I sent 34 weeks ago


And I am not going to open it until later


But


I am very nervous


Some of you will know what Im talking aboutthe text


I think I know what she is going to say


But Im gonna open it


Its been 20 mins


FUCKING SHIT


She completely ignored me


Wait no


She hasnt opened my snaps


I was gonna snap her back so she opened them but then she was at a party so she would have showed someone


Or they would have seen


Why would she not open it


This is very frustrating


Why is everyone except me getting into relationships


I dont want to rush but I feel so left out


Gee be in my relationshop


I want to go outside


The night sky is awake


Gee i feel the same but its better to take time cause those are the best relationships


Oh I meant the thing about the text but yeah I get what you mean


ooo


idk about that i cant even read porperly rn


Nice


I cant type because I have headache and cant focus


I fix it before I send it but


best to go to sleep then


Yeah


wait whats wrong with the pumpkin patch?


wait what


@.ghostie you ok love?


@.ghostie i hope you're okay! please come back to us when u r ready


@.ghostie please take things slow and do the 54321 method


name 5 things u can see, 4 things you can touch, 3 things you can hear, 2 things u can smell, and 1 happy thing you can think of or look forward to


keep doing it over and over until you feel at ground, or go beyond the numbers if you'd like. you'll be okay, i promise


Oh no i think i hopped into something sad


What happened?:


Awww


i'm ok now i think


@.ghostie great then:


hey


i'm having a rough time


am i in the right server for that?


i've been having very intrusive thoughts. they scare me


my anxiety is really bad right now. any tips on making intrusive thoughts go away?


thats really smart. i'd think of my safe person, but we're currently fighting i'll try thinking of the beach. it sounds like a really nice place to be right now.. thank you


we've been long distance since covid started, which really sucks. i haven't seen him in 7mo... may not seem long to some other people. i think my favorite memory with him was when we stood outside of a car at 2am and danced in the middle of a gravel road barefoot. he's very warm and reminds me of the ocean.


i'm gonna think about that and see if it helps


we only live 30 minutes away and go to the same school so realistically it's not bad what so ever, but he's been on lockdown and unable to leave his house since the pandemic hit us. 7 months! that's so long for someone being so close..


gh0st is typing...


y'all I hate my life sm


Bro wack


goodluck then


I'm going to school in person now tomorrow


HunnyPuppy bruh ive been going in person since the school year started... id rather stay at home actually...


who vented


thx ghost3


You're not a waste of space at all, just wishing for and striving to be a better person and wishing for everyone's wellbeing is a great and amazing thing not everyone can do. I've seen you try your best to help others as well, so don't say or think you are worthless or a failure. Shit happens all the time but it's not always something you have much control over so don't let those things put you down or make you give up on yourself when you did nothing wrong. And I feel you on the taking all the negativity on yourself part but in order to help others it's important to help yourself and love yourself too as well. We should seek to make everyone happier including ourselves. But don't take it as a responsibility to do so for everyone. Just do what you can manage and wish to and that's totally fine. We live to share our experiences and pain and seek happiness together, not fall into darkness and suffer just to lift someone else up. Please take care of yourself as much as you need when you are struggling as well.


thank you  Jinhii


circumference ilysmt 3


its kinda bad but im runing off of caffeine and cant think rn...


u should rest


ily tho dont forget that NoPoint


it'd feel so weird w/o you


3 ilyt


i hope you all understand that you are also able to confide in me. yeah, Im just a stranger. nothing more or less, so if you dont feel comfortable venting on here, Ill say it:


my dms are open. always.


Ill be sure to get back to you whenever I can and Ill be able to sympathize with you if you talk to me.


Thanks to everyone for being here


thank you noems, u are not a stranger, i think of you as a friend3


NoPoint simar, listen to me. you are nothing but positive and you dont need to hide what you feel. dont ever be sorry for venting. i love you and im always here for you. im so so sorry about your relative and what happened with your friend and im here if you wanna talk about it i will listen to everything, i need you to know i love you and im never gonna stop loving you


thx lily


ily sim


soapsoup same


i already lost my motivation


NoPoint i'm right here


@.ghostie 3


NoPoint its gonna be ok love, i promise 3.


time to vent


sighh i cant get over my ex


pls use rob


NoPoint I thought I was your motivation...


HunnyPuppy idk


NoPoint oh okay


ya motivation meaning like to do anything


ugh.. so lately stuff has been kinda tough i really just miss how things used to be i miss all my old friends and lately someone that i was starting to really really like has drifted away and i feel so scared and sad and alone because of that and i dont want to anymore.. Its gotten to the point where it doesnt feel like i can smile anymore without it being fake I hate it


no worries im okay, im j dramatic


dont worry about me ill delete it sorry


@.ghostie thanks for the offer, i just didn't know how to word it i guess but i'll be fine.


im okay really im just over dramatic i promise nothing more, nothing less


oh yeah


im sorry for making u worry about me


didnt mean to do that


ill be taking my leave now


ill try to be here tomorrow


i constatnly cry


at out of nowhere:


Sometimes I feel like life isnt worth it. I feel constantly lonely and sad and I feel like I have no purpose in life. I feel like if I were to disappear tomorrow nobody would notice or care.


I have a person I can talk to but I feel like I shouldnt because I dont want to burden them or make them sad.


so much about the seeking of meaning in life can be found when you base your own happiness or/and value on the things you do regularly as hobbies and activities, and not base it on your social relationships/standing


I heard something today


There is a difference between happiness and a distraction from sadness


I have been listening to headspace and it has helped a lot


Just calming me down and relaxing and not stressing


Thank you dude


WHAT


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?warn XjL79oBq spam


?warn fMwVNASd3748 spam


I cant be stuffed lmao


Too many


HEL


HELP


I CANT TLAK


Talk


TALK


Can anyone else not send stuff in commands


Someone kick the bots out


?lock


?unlock


intersting


so even if u arent able to finish on the dead line that doesnt mean u cant finish at all, deadlines are only there so you actually set times to so it, if u never had a deadline u wouldnt even think about it, maybe try to adjust urself and just try small things that help you motivate urself to do like school stuff, like what goals do you have, what u wanna do, its better to start there then you will be able to get back up and have the motivation to move forward


Honestly idk, the only reason I like being in uni is for the social life, I only like my course because it seems kinda cool, also because idk where else to make friends irl.


I really want to motivate myself, i just don't know exactly where i see myself in the future, i mean i have an idea but idk how i'd enjoy it


well ik working is boring and stuff, but at least 1 day out of the week just only do school work and see how it feels, try to just make urself do it


like maybe i want to graduate from college, but idk how to do this without overthinking all the time


also because i never had a job before, i probably don't even know what it's like to fully commit to something


NoPoint honestly i just have so much to do, like 3 weeks of work to catch up


maybe if i dedicate myself a full day, i can see where it goes


well its best to take ur time to do it


alright


that's good advice


because like i've been selfsabotaging myself binging shows on my laptop


now that everything's online


it's hard to have selfcontrol


like really hard


i try uninstalling discord, i keep thinking about the things i miss and 15 minutes later, i'll reinstall it


honestly ill start small, im just really anxious rn don't think i can get this homework done in 2 hours


im not really ig educated for like this, its best if you feel like you have no where to go to maybe try a therapist, it may or may not help but its a worth try


oh perfect. i'm seeing my counsellor tomorrow anyway


im just the worst procrastinator ever


like really, im the worst. so much money is spent on me, only to disappoint people every time


don't really think about the money or whos gonna be disappointed its more what you wanna do and that if ur committed to do it, money is always wasted everyday, its best to see what u want and do it


maybe like everyday in the morning or before you sleep make a list of what ur gonna do that day or tomorrow and just try to do most of the things in the list or even better do all of it


it may be small or big depending on the day but try to make a check list


That him he would awlays tell me to go to sleep when it's very late


I miss his comfort


who?


Someone who I used to love


But he ended up breaking my heart


crunky?


NO


We're still together


ooo


i mean thats good


His name was william


was?


Wait no his name is


i was about to say did he like pass


but um what happened, did he like leave or something?


He said that he loved me


And spoiled me with all his love and guess what happened


He would leave me on open and we don't talk that much after talking alot


He's from the eats coast and I'm from the southwest


Turns out he had a girlfriend and cheated on her


And it honestly feels like he didnt even loved me back


And him saying I love you was just trying to make me fall for him


I miss his comfort


so he controlled u?


I think so


I had a friend who knew about him


She told everything what happened


thats why u miss him, he controlled u into falling for him and i think thats what happened


And she said that he used me as a toy


thats what happens when u get manipulated


Yeah


ya, so its probably gonna take awhile to get over the feeling but its better not to talk to him


Yeah he stopped talking to me


ya thats good


He didn't even apologize for breaking my heart


But I still forgave him


he isn't gonna apologize, he manipulated you, thats what horrible people do


Yeah I know


yea im not gonna be here for long forget about how i feel nothing ever matters anyways


@.ghostie not true u matter and stuff matter there are things that matter Ik how you feel well not about the cheating part. But Ive been feeling hopeless for many years and Ive had moments where Ive just wanted to die but I kept on fighting for my best friend. And at my lows Ive felt just like nothing matters but then I just started to think about the few good things with my lives that I actually cared about and things that does matter to me no matter what my mood is


I don't wanna go to school anymore


But I do wanna go to school because I made a mew friend there


We would awlays sit together at lunch and wait for each other


But I don't have enough engery to go to school anymore


Why do I feel left out out of anything


I left early becouse I had therapy meeting


We both talked about relationship


She told me that I figured all the puzzles out of a relationship I need and dont need and how to change it back hoe it orginally was in the relationship


I just need practice to do them out


And tbh I do wanna practice those puzzles out


But I'm just to afraid of what will happen when I do say them


Man I wish I had the confidence to do something that is very healthy for me


I'm to afraid that if I set boundaries on my boyfriend who I'm currently with rn I'm to afraid if o set those with him he will go off and find someone new


Thanks I do hope things get better for me


I see, I can't offer much help as I don't have experience. All I can say is good luck. I hope you feel better soon. The only advice I can offer is to rest. You've gone through a lot and even resting for a day could help. Get your emotions in check and try to find energy somewhere.


Oh okay


I'll try to find my energy somewhere in me


But thanks for your helps anyways


if its not in you, there are a lot of ways to find it somewhere else. Maybe in your friends or family.


Don't lose hope


Okay


I'm trying so hard to not lose hope


yeah i understand. Perhaps try to find a laugh out of something. Maybe watch some things that make you happy, make you hopeful.


Okay thanks


im sorry btw. i dont know a lot of things in ur situation so i cant help as much


It's okay I understand


But thanks for your help anyways


no problem. maybe theres someone here who can help u


They literally dont care about anyone elses feelings


He didnt even try hide his screen so I couldnt see the instagram gc


theyre not ur friends u need to drop them asap


my old friend” group made plans in front of me and it hurt


drop them now


They are the people I sit with in class because the other boys are a completely different friend group


At lunch and recess I have tried to go somewhere else


And then when I dont invite them to partys this happened once last year, I didnt really talk to him that much back then I get told Im rude


Exactly


But I cant help but feel bad


I know its not my friend group though


I want to go outside


Lie down on the grass with someone


And stare at the stars


Damn those late night songs hit


@.ghostie are u okay?


most people i see just keep talking and dont know how to listen eh


if my brain could stop making me have frustration breakdowns so i get so frutrated i cry and break down that would be nice


its not flattering


the anger issues dont mix neither


wait what


i like how tay and satan avoid me


im not mean


That gives off v small pp vibes smoX


im so sowwy youre under lots of stress


aww thanks:


i still have 13 missing assighnments


im alright rn its just been alot of stress lately


oof


but they are easy


school is really challenging now cause of da rona


so im good but im just lazyyy


i dont want to do anything i just wanna sleep


i usually just wanna watch anime and drown everything out


same


yea


yea same


look tbh i get where ur boyfriend is coming from, he cares about you a lot and wants you to be safe and healthy, but also in a relationship is trust and im sure he trust you a lot, so just maybe talk to him


i mean again man is just really worried about you and wants to take care of you, but he should understand that you are capable of taking care of urself


i guess


if he is moody ig best to give space, cause if he is not talking to you now then best to do it when he is more clam


calm


yeah, thanks:/


i wasnt really a big help but np


NoPoint that does help me a little. i do have a lot of online friends but it doesnt feel like friendship yk it feels more like you see me in a server so youre kinda forced to talk to me. i also see you rlly close and its nice to hear it from you cause everytime i talked to you i felt like you were just being nice out of pity or something. tbh idek the whole point of my rant or maybe just rlly anything. i just feel extremely unmotivated to live and idk what to do anymore. i feel like i do have purpose aand it should be clear to me but idk whats going on ahhh


circumference sometimes we are stopped at a red light, we just gotta wait and see what we want and do that


but i do like talking to you3


my overreaction ruins every chance i get on love or friendships


i overreact and end up looking stupid


NoPoint i love talking to you its nice seeing that some1 actually cares 3


esp some1 i like talking to


i feeel so lonely probably bc i keep listening to the song lonely by justin bieber...: i have a real problem with listening to sad songs :


for me sad songs just make me feel more sad and more negative ngl:


same i get that feeling


try to move away for that then


i cant


thats the problem


u can, it just takes a lot of time and motivation ig


maybe listen to songs with someone els


well sad songs just make me wanna cry so probably why i cant stop listening to it yk


ya i understand, maybe try to calm music, but honestly best to listen with someone their music


i used to listen to 12 hours straight of elecronic music


maybe not go back to that, since ik sometimes it doesn't feel the same, try new songs every week


alr i will try


yes:D


and then im doing terribel in school


i have a F in one class


like the class average or u got an f in a tes


t


the grade for the class


where u at:? MikaylaLeigh14


doesn't look like she is on discord


but yeah i have all B's and one f


i mean school isn't over so im sure u will bring that up:D


i have less than 1 month left


my district does 3 classes 1 quarter and next quarter is 3 other and so basically my grade will stay like that


ughh


does that make sense?


ya i get that


you arent a dissappointment, from the things ive heard about you you are pretty amazing:0. i also think that looking back on your pastself is oke but comparing yourself to isnt a good idea. ive felt like i didnt meet the expectations i or other people set for myself but people always say to me that wanting to be better is oke but you should be satisfied with the way you are so i kinda think you should do the same you know


sry i repeated myself at the end


maybe just saying something and letting it out will help but i dont have access to a therapist and my parents barely know a thing ab me fyi


clingy loser same my parents want me to open up and they r tyring to get me a therapist but over time they have seen me kind of change adn ig they have stopped looking for a therapist that fits me. but the difference wtih me and u is i have suicidal thoughts and sometiems i attempt at it whcih my parents dont know if. only my older brother and my sister. and usualyl i put this different image and different person i am at home, at school, around friends, etc...


So my friend B, I had a fling with him in the summer, anyways he told his friend K that I'd be down to hook up with him since I did stuff with B during the summer. Like wtf


I'm annoyed now


she left me because I didnt give her what she wants d


awww im sorry, its okay at least shes out of ur life:, but im hoping ur finding time to heal and get over her:


I dont know guys, should I seek psychological help?


I feel dead asf


I am dead asf


Who want to vent out our problems to each other


MILO is there something bothering u?


NoPoint a bit yes


noems why?


indra also why?


Life yk MILO


MILO would u like to talk about it?


oh nothing dw about it cuz it's nothing to do w u MILO


Hello anyone here right now?


How are u?


Anyone else here?


im still here


stop it


bad saber


Oop


Im hurt


Why:


Well its funny how people break trust like its nothing


It cant get any worse in my case


It can always get worse


And it is for me


And I dont know how to change it


My death will be the result if it gets worse


Ill try my best to let it not get any worse


Death is not the answer


Ik it isn't


Yeah it seems like it but


Also, im not talking about suicide


Good


Far out


I hate this


People ditched someones bday party to go to someone elses party


Why


And to think that those people were my friend group


I thought they were nice


I didnt even realise


Why cant she leave me alone


She keeps lying


Extreme moodswings ree


i dont know what to say, but i feel for you man. having not that many people to trust in your surroundings can like really frick up your mental stability


im barely holding it together and idk what to do


Tay, you're a fantastic person with a vibrant personality, I know life is hard right now but it will get better, I believe in you, you're a strong person you've just got to keep going and the sun will rise another day it may seem low right now it may seem hopeless but it does get better, believe me I believe in you and if you need to I'm here to talk to you, my dms are open we can text or call, we may not be too close but I care a lot about you as you're a fantastic person


I get life being tough I have struggled for a while as well, but tay if you were too go a lot of people would be sad myself included, you are amazing, if you need help definitely come to me I can work on trying to help fix you I don't give up I'm very persistent in that regard, I will always be here for you, I can show you the bright aspects of life and keep you surrounded by those if you'd like, I can show you how to cope with stuff better I can show you healthy outlets for your problems if you want, I am willing to dedicate portions of my day to helping you if needed


alright i have a good amount of venting i can do


So i started vaping and smoking tobaco recently my best friend fucked my 5th grade girlfriend next to me while i was sleeping idrc abt it tho


I snuck out at night ran into a tree


almost got hit by 4 cars in the past week


And my parents got divorced while my actual gf cheated on me with my brother


so if anyone knows how to help with that feel free to try


Wait your best friend lost his virginity by 5th grade I'm in ninth and still have my v card ok that's besides the point try but just keep holding on ik it can be hard at times and you may feel really down but just pick yourself up walk it off find people who actually care abt the smoking and vaping before I can help you with that I got to help myself with that


Oh ok


Continue I want to try and help you


well beside the fact of my gf cheating on me with my brother and my parents divorcing


thats abt it


i did it agaaain


I suspect my girlfriend is cheating nlg


Explain bruhuhcuh


Maybe I can help


She acting distant and being overall weird


I hide behind a fake smile because I dont want people to feel the way I do


Same, I know telling someone feels bad because when you see them next you are really awkward and shit and I bottle a lot up but I let some of it out on discord so that I dont get really stressed out, I prefer on discord because no one knows who I am so it wont be awkward


Its good that you dont self harm


But it gets better


But it will take time


Honestly thats me all the time


FrostHT I couldnt have said it better my self. Thats like almost exactly how I feel


jesus dude


have u told the girl about this?


sorry to hear that honestly, freacking boycot those people


also have u tried to tell another adult like a teacher that you get abused by ur grandma


I always get played when it comes to love, and i have actuslly but they wont do anything so now im trying to find something to do as far as a job to noy only escape her but to get money to move away when i can.


look if u warned her and told her about him and she still chooses to be with him u cant really so anything


what about police?


True, I dont really know what my sexuality is anyways... And ive called 911 bc i tried stabbing myself through my leg and it didnt work and told them why but nothing rlly happened


And i csnt take my anxiety and depression meds bc they make me feel worse


ok its alright to be curious about ur sexuality


im the same i dont know where i stand


and thats alright


it takes time and a lot of ig experience to know what you like


is there anyone else you can live with?


doesnt sound like a healthy place to live, maybe get some help from a teacher?


may i ask how old u r kris?


I'm 15


ok do you know anyone that ur close with that can like help care for you?


Not at all.


who do you trust the most in ur life


Ill try and get away when i can, as for now im going to join furry servers and stuff just to do commissions to earn money.


hmm oki


but what about after you get away


At 16 if i have enough money and stuff to take care of myself I am allowed to live on my own, so ig ill save up and eventually rent a home.


hm dont you wanna study to become somthing? that will be really tough


As for now im going to try and get a job at some of these places around me, i dont know what it will take but its gonna be worth it im tired of the abuse, i dont wanna be sad


Nono i am still going to go to school im not ditching school


try to get a bond with someone, having someone with you will help


I will continue going to school aswell, its hard to have bonds bc if someone is sad i grt sad bc i feel im not helping, im fr a wack person.


not everything can be done alone


look thats normal, i get sad if im talking to someone who is sad


its alright as long as ur there for each other thats what makes a bond


Thats true, but i dont exactly know how to work with things, i am currently seeing 2 therapist smh..


They dont know how to help me either.


well maybe you just need a friend


I feel im just a bother to people, and im skrry if I am bothering you guys i just feel that since Idk you guys i rlly dont care about being judged, i like hearing others point of views and things.


of therapy doesnt work maybe you should like search things you like doing to make yoursef happy


Yeah thats true


But idk what makes me happy


I really dont.


ur not bothering me at all kris


i get that feeling tho, i dont like bothering people and its hard for me to talk to people


i think a lot of people dont, but they just do what feels right for them ig


but just try to reach other, just talk im sure if they fee bothered they will tell but ur a pretty chill and cool person so im sure no one will he bothered by u