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not a taboo! Look at it all lined up like this, Watanuki, and
you can tell just how calculating that woman is."
Avoiding happiness.
Avoiding pressure.
"A word as forthright and flamboyant as 'urges' hardly
describes such a slipshod methodology. What she does is sim-
ply a compromise. It seems you are not among them,
Watanuki, but there are any number of people who do not
like being exalted, do not like being thought highly of, and
the vast majority of those people invariably choose the
second-best option."
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The second-best option.
"A problem of balance and swift adjustment. Nobody can
afford to keep the gas pedal down all the time, can they?
You'd never make it around the next corner. You could boil it
down to overcautiousness, or underestimating oneself, but ei-
ther way, refusing to accept a normal amount of happiness
can hardly be described as the right thing to do."
"The right thing to do?"
"It is your duty to accept a measure of happiness equiva-
lent to the actions you have taken. Rejecting it violates your
contract with yourself If your effort is not rewarded, your
soul rebels."
"R b I
"
e es ...
"You could also say it overflows. If you do the work to re-
ceive the best option, then you must accept that option as
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your rewar .
That was the fair price.
A fair price could neither be undercut nor overpaid.
Yilko pointed her pipe at the seat where Kushimura had
been a few minutes before.
"Stop herself from doing what she doesn't want to do ...
a fascinating turn of phrase, and one that makes no sense.
The fact that she doesn't want to do those things suggests she
is already stopping herself from doing them-very calculat-
edly. She may well have a black belt in stopping herself
Never once leaving the realm of safety, never even going
close to the fence around the realm. The only question is, to
what extent is she herself aware of this?"
o Over}'IOIw
The word used for "rebellion" or" "revolt" is a homonym of the word for
"flood" or "overflow." Both words are read hanrall.
ANOTHERHOLlC, LANDOLT·RI NG AEROSOL
" ... If she puts those glasses on," Watanuki said, trying to
hide how shaken he was, "will she really ... be able to choose
the path that's best for her?"
"Of course not," Yilko said, as if it were obvious. "Those
are an ordinary pair of fake glasses."
"Eh ... but ... then ... "
"Watanuki, you said it yourself. Have you already forgot-
ten how pompously you lectured me for deceiving her? You
must be suffering from amnesia."
"No, I mean, you're right, but ... then what was the point
of it all?"
"There is a point ... just not a dramatic one."
Watanuki waited.
"I merely provided an opportunity."
She had not become any more involved than that:
"Watanuki, you always wear glasses. But if you were to
take them off, do you think you wouldn't be able to see spir-
its anymore?"
"Huh ?"
"Or if you close your eyes. That would prevent you from
seeing them. Even more extreme-you could gouge both
eyes out. Would that get rid of the spirits that gather around
you?"
"Now you're starting to scare me," Watanuki said, back-
ing away from Yilko and protecting his eyes.
"I exist to scare you. Answer the question. If that would
work, you would hardly need to continue your life of inden-
tured servitude here."
"Nah, nothing like that would really solve the problem.
Spirits aren't there because I can see them; I can see them be-
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cause they're there. As long as they're attracted by my blood,
I'm sure I'll still be able to sense them."
And that ...
. . . meant that not only his sight, but all five of his senses,
and his sixth sense as well, would have to be shut down. Or
nothing would change .
"H
h' k
?"
mm,you t III not.
"Well ... I've never tried, so 1 don't know for sure."
"W tt?"
an o.
"Since the procedure would be irreversible, hell no!"
And if it failed, where would he be?
Watanuki was no adventure seeker.