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The Patient statement is: Deleted messenger and deactivated Facebook account. Not that it matters, nobody would text me or look for me anyway. So might as well free up some space to download a couple of games.
Sick of everything and all the pointless/stupid chit-chatting or seeing how other people have fun, go places, be together with their significant other, meeting people, doing things. It just makes me think "what have I achieved?" The answer is almost always "absolutely fucking nothing" and when it's not it's all negative stuff. It hurts to see other people enjoy life, it hurts to be told by someone they're there for you but don't text or talk to you for weeks, it hurts to be lonely and knowing you'll die that way as well, it hurts getting out of bed and trying to convince yourself not to commit suicide. Based on the context, the disorder may be: Depression | Depression |
The Patient statement is: How do you guys get out of bed every morning? I wake up at 7:00 to go to the gym and sometimes I can’t seem to collect myself and get out of bed in the mornings.
The past few weeks have been horrible. I’ve missed more days than I’ve gone because of it. And as soon as i wake up it’s instant regret that I didn’t go.
Anything i can do to improve my mornings? Based on the context, the disorder may be: Depression | Depression |
The Patient statement is: I should’ve been a military man This is what I want to do and I feel it’s what I’m supposed to do. It’s most likely the best role for me or, even further, why I was put on earth. It’s too late now. I made decisions that I cannot go back on. I can’t do that to my partner. I can’t just up and leave and put her through all the stress of military life especially with the way she feels about it. I’m stuck living a life I don’t want. A life I don’t fit in to and I life I don’t deserve. It is my fault and mine alone. I should’ve made that decision well before others. I shouldn’t have been a stupid selfish kid and made commitments I couldn’t properly handle. I should’ve been a military man. Based on the context, the disorder may be: Depression | Depression |
The Patient statement is: How depersonalization feels I feel like I lost my connection to reality 2 years ago due to death trauma and since then I’ve just been a shell of Sydney watching the boring movie that is her life and going through the motions of a human being instead of being present and alive. And even though I’m trying my best to be here I’m not. I’m on medication for anxiety, I exercise, I’m doing well in school, I keep up with the real world, I hang out with my best friends and family. But I’m not here. It’s been like this for 2 years. It’s like I’m living in the sunken place from Get Out. It makes me want to kill myself.
I mean haha me too thanks Based on the context, the disorder may be: Anxiety | Anxiety |
The Patient statement is: don’t want to live anymore i lost everyone i care about and i would kill myself but i’m too scared to do it. but i can’t keep living anymore. i have nothing. Based on the context, the disorder may be: Suicide | Suicide |
The Patient statement is: Anyone have trouble planning for the future and being impulsive because you think you'll kill yourself eventually anyways? Based on the context, the disorder may be: Depression | Depression |
The Patient statement is: 2017 tried to kill me In January I had just moved out of my college dorms with my abusive roommate into a house with a friend and her friend.
In February said friend ditched town, left the house a mess, and didn't pay rent along with owing me for a security deposit.
In March I lost control.
In April I had my first attempt with xanax, an entire bottle of my prozac pills, and fireball. I don't remember much of it besides the hospital.
In May I was denied to the arts program at my university.
In June my cat was hit by a car.
In July my entire friend group left me. They gossiped about me and told everyone I was crazy.
In August my roommate/close friend moved to California without saying goodbye. She also didn't pay for her dog's damages. I was also used by a guy I had a lot of feelings for. I found this out through a friend he was seeing someone else.
In September I was in a new apartment and my next best friend (that didn't turn on me in my previous friend group) was my new roommate. He slowly started just being mean to me for no reason.
In October he moved out along with moving out of our friendship
In November I realized my family hates me.
In December I realized that I have no friends. My mom has been diagnosed with the same cancer that killed my father when I was 12.
I wonder what's left. Based on the context, the disorder may be: Suicide | Suicide |
The Patient statement is: I have so much energy I'm on the verge of tears I don't think my medication is working anymore. The dose has been upped and upped and now I'm at the max and I'm still sitting here feeling like I'm on speed. I get little blips of feeling normal and fine here and there but then it ends and I feel even more out of control. I can't stop moving or thinking or TALKING especially talking. I've been pretty much having a conversation with myself all day ar work today because nobody else is keeping up! I just want to do everything because everyone else is too slow!
What bothers me most though is I keep hearing this buzzing sound. Like an electronic buzz, like something or someone is in my thoughts and I really want that to stop. Like my husband is listening to my thoughts, I'm sure he is. Whatever though, back to work! Seeing as I pretty much hold this company together LOL Based on the context, the disorder may be: Bipolar | Bipolar |
The Patient statement is: A journal entry I wrote a few weeks ago about my depression and anxiety. Figured I would share. Hope someone can relate. [deleted] Based on the context, the disorder may be: Anxiety | Anxiety |
The Patient statement is: Am I crazy for wanting to leave the US? That's pretty much it. I mean do I really have to explain? I'm starting to get scared. I'm probably overreacting, but it's so clear our government is no longer here for us.
I understand it's not so easy to up and leave, but if you were here, would you be thinking of getting out? Based on the context, the disorder may be: Expressing | Expressing |
The Patient statement is: Vocational Rehabilitation - Gov program I urge you to check out First, here’s the link:
[U.S. Dept of Education - Vocational Rehabilitation](https://www2.ed.gov/programs/rsabvrs/index.html)
If you have a verifiable Disability covered under the ADA ... and whether you have a job or not ... the vocational rehab can help. It’s federally and state funded.
It’s not amazing, where they throw thousands of dollars at you. But, they provide a shit-ton of help.
Some of the things they do:
- Provide discounts and funding for transportation
- Provide funding for additional education
- Provide funding to pursue a new career.
- Help with resume
- Psycholgical and cognitive assessment tests
- Results showing recommended fields
- One-on-one with a gov employee that helps run through different programs they have with schools and/or companies that get federal grants.
If it’s helped others as much as myself, let me know. I don’t want to bother the mods asking for a sticky or sidebar, unless it’s worth it. Based on the context, the disorder may be: Bipolar | Bipolar |
The Patient statement is: What's the longest anxiety/panic attack you've ever had? What were the worst parts? how long did it take to get over it and how did you manage? Due to some circumstances at (near really) my home that are out of my control and an awful interaction the other day I am in maybe the most severe and protracted anxiety attack I've had since my first panic attacks hospitalized me at the age of 19 (now 30). I'm constantly thought cycling and revisiting the bad interaction in my head. It's very difficult to eat and my stomach is a constant twisted knot. I'm hypervigilant and hypersensitive and I'm jumping at every sound. I'm just scared, terrified, of everything and of nothing. My poor dog doesn't know what's wrong with me. I'm hopeful it ends soon, it's been 3 days. I've been listening to anxiety help podcasts and reassuring meditations at work and reading other's stories online all night, I find it helps a little. So tell me your story of the worst anxiety/panic attack situation you had, whether it seemed like it would never end or was just during the worst possible time. P.S. I just found this sub-reddit today, and it's been super helpful reading and responding to other's stories. People without anxiety don't understand how simply and absolutely CRUSHING it can be to one's life, I know we all feel alone and often think that no one else on Earth is experiencing the awful things we are, but that's not true. Based on the context, the disorder may be: Anxiety | Anxiety |
The Patient statement is: I'm too old to be depressed. I'm almost 34. Most people who are my age have overcome their depression 10 or more years ago. They have spouses, children, careers, and families. I have a cat i can't even afford to take to the veterinarian. I don't discuss it in person. "Everyone gets depressed sometimes." or "Well, grow up and try being a man." are the most actionable pieces of advice I've ever got. I hate myself. I hate my brain. I hate everything. Based on the context, the disorder may be: Depression | Depression |
The Patient statement is: It's been 1 year It's been one year since you left me. I try to only think about you in times like this, where I try think about how far I've come, if I've made any progress at all. I fell back in love with music, my style of music, I even got to see my favorite band in concert on the 1 year mark to the day (funny coincidence)! I've almost passed all my professional certification exams! I moved to the city we always planned to live and I started my career after so many years of school and hard work. I've made so many new friends, met so many new people this year. Most of all, I realized how flawed and broken I am, how I have failed so many people over the course of my life.
I honestly barely have a clue as to what you are up to. I know you still have pharmacy school for another few years. But every time someone wants to talk about you, I change the conversation. Its because I truly don't want to know. I don't respond to your texts because every time you forget those 3 words I just want to hear once: "I am sorry." Saying it once doesn't mean we have to get back together and undo everything. I get it, you were unhappy. But it didn't give you the right to do what you did.
It has been a long year. Every day is different. Sometimes I get lucky and don't think about you at all for a week or two. Other days bring back memories and its harder. I just can't wait until you escape my mind forever.
Based on the context, the disorder may be: Expressing | Expressing |
The Patient statement is: Friend is suicidal, need help and advice Hello, I need help and advice on how to deal with this, I have no experience and I am completely out of my element.
My friend called me last night crying with suicidal thoughts. I went over to her house and checked up on her. She had written up a suicide letter. She also told me this isn't the first time it's gotten this bad, and she has attempted at least once.
By her own admission, she believes something is wrong in her head, and she's aware of it. Overall, life and work are going pretty well for her and she's not sad about anything specifically.
I'm doing the best I can to keep an eye on her, but I am in no way equipped/trained to deal with this. I believe she needs to see a professional. She agrees and is willing to get help, but neither of us know where to go from here. She doesn't have insurance, we live in the Los Angeles area. I can help out a little bit with doctors fees.
What do I do?! Based on the context, the disorder may be: Suicide | Suicide |
The Patient statement is: I love you guys, and this community I posted this morning about my rough time with work or whatever but I just wanted to make a separate post thanking everyone who responded since it was a lot of comments and I didnt get to reply to everybody but I was feeling awful today and you all are wonderful people (:
Its nice having a place to share experiences and listen to people who relate and understand how you feel. I really like this subreddit, we're a bunch of anxiety ridden folks but we understand one another and I think there is comfort knowing that theres others who get it.
Anyways, I appreciate all of you! Even if you have no idea wtf im talking about or my earlier post haha I hope everyone has a good rest of their day/night!
Tomorrow is another day, and we can all survive whatever challenges we are dealing with or will deal with! Based on the context, the disorder may be: Anxiety | Anxiety |
The Patient statement is: Feel myself sinking My daughter is suppose to visit her pos father and his family today. This is the first time they've seen her in 3 months. No phone calls or anything. He's a huge trigger for me and I already have to face him tomorrow in court(5th year in a nonsupport case against him.) I don't know if I'll be able to take her and stay for the 3 hours she's suppose to be there without losing my shit. I have to stay because they've said some things to try to keep me from hanging around and I refuse. These people are abusive, selfish, awful people and I have to find a way to maintain myself. I can already feel myself falling into an angry depression. Im failing at all the techniques I've been working on in therapy...How I suppose to maintain myself around these awful people? Based on the context, the disorder may be: Bipolar | Bipolar |
The Patient statement is: Obituaries I like to look through obituaries.. sometimes, I would get curious and google their name or facebook to see what kind of lives they had.
Recently, I waved a couple of them on facebook Messenger. Are they going to wave me back? Based on the context, the disorder may be: Depression | Depression |
The Patient statement is: I stopped Lamictal after it screwed up my vision. How long until the side effect wears off? [deleted] Based on the context, the disorder may be: Bipolar | Bipolar |
The Patient statement is: I have HSV1. My boyfriend broke up with me. I’m going to be alone forever and I don’t see the point My ex boyfriend gave me HSV1 through oral sex. He broke up with me this week for unrelated reasons.
I’m now single again. But this time, I now have a HSV1. I’m going to be alone for the rest of my life. No one will want to have sex with me or be in a relationship with me. I have read on Reddit over and over; why date a girl with herpes, when there’s other girls out there without it? I’m worthless now. I’m not worthy of love, because I received oral sex in a long term monogamous relationship.
I wanted to get married and have children one day, and now this is only something I can dream of. I wish I had contracted this orally, as my entire life would be different.
When I drive to work I think about crashing my car. When I get home, I think about taking all my pain medication. I don’t want to face a life alone. Based on the context, the disorder may be: Suicide | Suicide |
The Patient statement is: I didn't do any of my final exams. Help me. Hi everyone. I'm a senior in college, I'm severely depressed and I have ADHD. I took four classes last semester, and had an exam in one and final essays in three. I didn't do any. I'm terrible and I kind of want to die.
I want to graduate, even though it will take me longer than May. I can't bear to start picking up the pieces. Where do I begin? I haven't checked my email in two months. I can't even imagine doing that or I have a panic attacks.
Should I look into inpatient depression treatment? Should I call the school? I can't check my email. Please help. I think I can write my essays, and I will, even though it might not help. Based on the context, the disorder may be: Depression | Depression |
The Patient statement is: I am on Zoloft and Buspirone and I recently got a girlfriend and feel ready to quit I can't fucking cum. I'm tired and out of it a lot, I'm numb and sometimes, like now, these side effects make me angry and depressed and inadequate. I FUCKING HATE IT!!!! I know it's impulsive to start tapering at the beginning of a valuable relationship so I'm wondering what others have done in this situation aside from Wellbutrin. I don't even play music anymore. I feel like for the first half of the year, it helped, but now it's kind of going back down in the converse way. I'm not myself
What have other people done in this circumstance? I'm over it so hard Based on the context, the disorder may be: Depression | Depression |
The Patient statement is: What is this? I have really strange feelings last few days, maybe weeks. I'm taking SSRIs for half an year maybe. Last few weeks, as University goes harder I fell like they don't have affect. Only what I feel are side effects. What is going worse - my mother, who persuaded me to go to doctor, wants go next time with me. To see, what I am saying to him, what he is saying to me and so on. I feel really weird about it (as I have sexual problems as well and we solve it somehow as well). There is also another story. At first, she thought I can make it on myself, then she told me that I should find a psychologist, and now she want to go with me. She is still angry somehow at me, and (another story) - I am afraid going home. I just rather stay at my Uni city, than going home (I am going every day there and back), drinking beers, or just staying in library than going home. At home I feel I can't be productive, many distractions, parents who always want to do something and I feel like my life is passing through but without me. I was thinking about about moving, but it is probably too expensive and I can't afford it right now. I JUST FEEL FROZEN SOMEHOW Based on the context, the disorder may be: Anxiety | Anxiety |
The Patient statement is: I had the tie around my neck But I chickened out. I pulled it tight and for several seconds it felt tight and it was hard to breath. I felt pulsing in my neck but I let go. My 7 month old was sleeping in his crib that I was using to hold the tie up while I let it choke me and my 2 year old and husband was asleep in the bedroom. That was about half an hour ago. My husband just started a new job so I have no insurance. My anxiety has gotten so bad I have started making my toddler stay up late until 3 or 4 am so he will sleep to 3 or 4 in the afternoon and when the baby isn't awake I sleep too just waiting for my husband to be home. I love my kids but I hate being a mother. I favor the baby over the toddler and the guilt over that kills me. If I go to the ER my husband will have to watch the kids and he will loose his job and they will have nothing. I'm too selfish to just be a good mother and stop being depressed and anxious but I'm not selfish enough to abandon them even though they would be better off without me. Based on the context, the disorder may be: Suicide | Suicide |
The Patient statement is: I’m not doing shit at work today... My ultimate goal is to fuck off. I work in Corporate America, and I bust my ass during the year, and then during the holidays I don’t do shit. Now I’m bored as fuck at work, and I just want to go work from home so I can fuck off even more!
*Someone entertain me... :( * Based on the context, the disorder may be: Expressing | Expressing |
The Patient statement is: I'm trying to help my friend, but it's just making me feel worse about myself [deleted] Based on the context, the disorder may be: Depression | Depression |
The Patient statement is: My rapist said he owns me. He raped me again last night. I'm still bleeding and I'm in pain. I don't want to be alive anymore. [removed] Based on the context, the disorder may be: Suicide | Suicide |
The Patient statement is: Because you are white or a Trump supporter does not make you racist, or a bad person. [deleted] Based on the context, the disorder may be: Expressing | Expressing |
The Patient statement is: Reaching a dead end Hi everyone,
I have been feeling sad for quite some time now. One of the most recurrent thoughts is that I have fallen behind in life. I'm 34 and I have no girlfriend or many friends for that matter. I went through a difficult breakup two and half years ago. I came back to my hometown and I am currently living in my parents' home. I know it's hard to understand but I didn't want to live alone while I got used to my new job and town. Four months after that, I feel lonely and sad at times. The last few days have been incredibly harsh for me. I feel completely drained and I don't have the energy to exercise, even though I do exercise regularly. One of the triggers I think was seeing my ex with her boyfriend living the high life on Instagram (her current boyfriend was his boyfriend, she left him to be with me ten years ago) . Another recurrent thought is running into them and feeling nervous about what they may think. Life's becoming increasingly dull and I obsess over the fact that I'll never have a family or a girlfriend for that matter. Any tips? I'm starting therapy next week. Thanks. Based on the context, the disorder may be: Depression | Depression |
The Patient statement is: I don't know, but I feel even more depressed when I have no money I don't know know how to say this but for some reason, I feel more depressed when I have less money.
I come from a poor family and my mom is an alcoholic, my parents don't give me enough money per week also I like drawing and originally I didn't want to do it but I've decided to have a patreon to try to cure my depression
seriously I don't know how to get away from this being poor makes me depressed, I just want to stop this. Based on the context, the disorder may be: Depression | Depression |
The Patient statement is: Unsuccessfully trying to go to sleep, but feel like something is really wrong with me. Not sure if it’s anxiety or something else. My left arm has been feeling weird, it’s tingling right now, and my heart feels heavy. I used to have severe anxiety but I thought I had gotten over it, 3 days ago it returned and I had a panic attack out of nowhere. Since then I have been consistently anxious for no reason. It just sucks cause I really thought I had overcome this, and I hadn’t had a panic attack in a few years. I can’t go back to how things were when I was a teenager and having panic attacks everyday. I have all these coping skills and I’ve gotten pretty good at calming myself down. But these past 3 days I’ve just been feeling like my heart could stop at any moment and my chest feels weird and sore. I’m not sure if it’s anxiety anymore and I’m scared. I’m 21 and healthy. I’ve had heart palpitations in the past, but this is a different sensation. It’s like my heart feels weak at certain times in the day. Based on the context, the disorder may be: Anxiety | Anxiety |
The Patient statement is: I've failed my life as a man, why not just kill myself? I'm about to graduate college a virgin at the age of 26.
I've failed the very basic thing that a man is supposed to be able to do, and I failed at it trying my best.
Ive been spending most of my past couple weeks in my room binging on amateur porn trying to pretend like I know how that feels but it's not really working anymore, the couple hours of calm and serenity that gave me are now shorter and shorter and no longer helping
The rest of life is surely downhill from here, so why shouldn't I just off myself?
I've been researching ways to do it and I think I'm going to use the exitbag method, just need to figure out what gas to use. Based on the context, the disorder may be: Suicide | Suicide |
The Patient statement is: Question Well, I had anxiety since middle school, now I'm 19 in uni, I didn't have a clue that my state was wrong, but 2 month ago I got panic so I went to the doc and he gave me meds and I'm going to therapy as well. My main prob is that when I'm feeling good I'm aware of it and then I'm getting anxious of getting anxious and it all disappears, can someone relate to it? Based on the context, the disorder may be: Anxiety | Anxiety |
The Patient statement is: nothing matters anymore i feel like i’m in an endless cycle of boring things that don’t matter. the real problem is that i can’t think of one thing that matters. i can think of things that i know i should care about so i say i do but i just don’t. i want to care about things and i want things to matter. i’m getting scared that i’m wasting my life like this. someone please tell me you feel opposite of me so i know there is hope. Based on the context, the disorder may be: Depression | Depression |
The Patient statement is: going to buy a gun i have a brain disease but its diagnosed as autism.after developing lethargy fatigue and weakness in limbs every day is a challenge.also whenever i go to the regional center socials i can't stop thinking about shooting myself in the head.it's really hard to think and write now too and i ..... Based on the context, the disorder may be: Suicide | Suicide |
The Patient statement is: Is this anxiety? I am sorry if this is a stupid question but every night when I go to bed I feel like I am going to either die in my sleep or I start crying because I start appreciate a lot more people in my life than how I do now. When I say I feel like dying I mean I feel like the next day or something I won't be alive. I have also gotten a lot of Deja vu moments. Also I feel like I have been faced with a choice between life or death in the past couple of days. It just feels like things are being taken away from me that I have to just sit and watch it happen. Based on the context, the disorder may be: Anxiety | Anxiety |
The Patient statement is: I get angry and sad seeing a group of friends Based on the context, the disorder may be: Depression | Depression |
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