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The Patient statement is: What were your first symptoms? Highly considering I might have bi-polar disorder lately. I want to get it checked out by professionals but I'm just wondering how did it first manifest for you? Based on the context, the disorder may be: Bipolar | Bipolar |
The Patient statement is: This world is scary and discriminating. So, I have a little brother with Down Syndrome. My family and I and all our friends love him to pieces.
True, he is severely mentally challenged and he can’t take care of himself at all. But don’t get me wrong. He’s our dear little sweetheart and whenever we are with him, we are all laughing and smiling and happy. He could laugh on and on for a few minutes straight for some random things, and he always has this simple joy that radiates through him to everyone else in the room. He just brings us so much joy. We are genuinely thankful for this little angel. We just LOVE him so much.
A while ago, I posted a few photos of him smiling very sweetly onto a subreddit and said something about this little angel and I said “I believe he is happier than the most of us. Hope this makes you smile:)”
To my surprise, the comments were nasty and cruel. Someone called him a “thing” that “should’ve never been born” who now has a “pointless life”, and others accused me of “using him to farm for karma”. Like seriously why would I care so much about this “karma”?! (I’m relatively new to reddit and I am not even sure what this “karma” thing does!)
I was furious and very upset. All I wanted was to spread the joy!!! (and perhaps raise some awareness for kids with special needs as a side-note? To show the world they are lovely little angels who can also live very happy lives!)
I thought at this day and age we would’ve learnt to respect people with special needs and embrace them into our societies. Super disappointed and angry and upset. I ended up deleting the post as I don’t want to read any more of these comments.
TLDR: Posted photos of my lovely little brother (with Down Syndrome) smiling very happily, hoping to spread positivity. Got very disrespectful & discriminating comments. I’m furious. Based on the context, the disorder may be: Expressing | Expressing |
The Patient statement is: Lurker realizing I need some help coping/understanding depressive episode relapse. I guess for some preface I was diagnosed last year but have had it all my life. I'm type 1 but was pretty functional as I typically used what I now realize is my mania in school and etc. and pretty much was excelling despite going through manic and depressive episodes (thinking it was normal/teenage angst etc.) until about my 4th year in college when things went down south fast. Fast forward two years, a couple of hospital visits, and finally getting a full wrap around team, I'm a lot more stable now that I'm on what I feel are the right set of meds for me atm (been on a set of lithium, lorazepram, and buproprion for the past 3 months and it's worked amazingly). It's allowed me to work, write, and just generally focus like I used to without the mood swings and recognize when I'm becoming manic or depressed at high caliber level that I'm used to. I know that the meds aren't a cure all and that relapse happens, but recently have had a string of events (good, bad, and otherwise) have caused my depression to come back in full swing. I recognize it for what it is and why I feel like this, which is a huge step compared to before, but it's just as heavy and still rather difficult to deal with unlike my mania where I know just to tune it down. I don't really know what I'm looking for in this as i have a pretty solid support system, but I guess if anyone else has had relapse experiences post medication I think hearing about others dealt with hearing about it would be helpful. Because I'm really in a spot where Im really not sure how to approach it and could probably use some netflix/movie suggestions as I don't have much energy to do anything else. Thanks for reading and sorry if this is all over the place. Based on the context, the disorder may be: Bipolar | Bipolar |
The Patient statement is: Ghosting Saw this post on /r/relationships about a friend ghosting a close friend and recently reappearing back in their life.
Have personally ghosted everyone last year and only recently trying to resurface. Literally deleted all my social media accounts and whatsapp. Phone became pretty much useless for a long time, only messages I received were notifications from my service provider to pay my bills on time.
I've been trying to resurface and reconnect, but reading the perspective from the other side is making me doubt everything haha. My close friend group has actually moved on without me. They're doing well. New inside jokes, new memes, new experiences. On one hand I feel relief that my selfish actions haven't really caused much damage, but on the other, I feel worthless?
Does anyone have any experience trying to reconnect with their loved ones after disappearing off the face of the earth? Based on the context, the disorder may be: Depression | Depression |
The Patient statement is: I need to help my friend, this is urgent I have A very close friend of mine who i’ve known for well over a year now, ever since she started opening up to me i’ve tried to help her and i’ve tried to make her a happy person and months later i still dont know how to make that happen. She says i made her feel really happy at times but the sadness was always there and no matter how much that hurt me to hear i didnt react to it because i knew she would be hurt. I dont know how to help her more than what i already did, she battles md or mdd ( maladaptive daydreaming ) amongst many other issues that are deep seeded, family doesnt treat her well, constant sadness, she doesnt accept who she is as a person although she is the nicest and most kind hearted girl i’ve ever met. Please help me help her because i dont want to lose the only person that’s keeping me here and the only person i love, she means more to me than myself. I know this isnt descriptive enough but i hope anyone can help out, i’d appreciate it tons.
If not, thank you for reading Based on the context, the disorder may be: Suicide | Suicide |
The Patient statement is: Fucking failure Just attempted to take a test and I utterly fucking failed it. And the worst part is that it's all my fault. I keep procrastinating because I feel so disillusioned and I need a distraction but today was especially shitty. I feel like a complete fucking disappointment to my family, which is one of the only reasons I'm still trying to apply myself in my college classes. I don't know why but I've hit a sort of wall this semester with my depression and self-loathing. It just seems like my peers are able to juggle everything and accomplish things and have interesting lives and I'm here goofing off because I don't want to think about this stupid class. I cried taking this stupid test and I left so much of it empty; I doubt I got anywhere near passing. Just wanted to share, I know there are a few college kids going through the same thing :/ Based on the context, the disorder may be: Depression | Depression |
The Patient statement is: How do you get access to mental health services in Canada? Looking for participants who are living or lived with a mental health condition to share your experience.
Survey link: https://muriel21.typeform.com/to/Vabufl
This will help me help you make a better and improved experience :) Based on the context, the disorder may be: Bipolar | Bipolar |
The Patient statement is: After 8 years, I might end it all I've been suicidal on and off for the past 8 years. Last time I tried to end it all was the 18th December 2015 and i thought was gonna be the last time. I was wrong. After that attempt and two more before I think I've finally had too much of this hideous world. There's no one and nothing left for me here. I guess I'm posting here to see if anyone could talk me out of it. I already know that's not the case. But it's worth a try Based on the context, the disorder may be: Suicide | Suicide |
The Patient statement is: I don't know why I thought it would be a good idea to read this AskReddit thread. https://www.reddit.com/r/AskReddit/comments/7bc8xx/what_would_the_child_version_of_you_be_most/
Read this if you want to spend the rest of the day hating yourself Based on the context, the disorder may be: Depression | Depression |
The Patient statement is: Dear Oregon, Get out of the fast lane. Thank you.
- California. Based on the context, the disorder may be: Expressing | Expressing |
The Patient statement is: No insurance, no meds Long story short, I missed my last appointment with my psychiatrist before my insurance ran out and I now have no backup medication while I look for another way to get a prescription. I've wanted to get off my meds anyways, are there are any general tips to doing this or any resources of how people have tapered off on their own?
I know you should always have professional help but saying so doesn't help my situation so.... :) Based on the context, the disorder may be: Bipolar | Bipolar |
The Patient statement is: We had a real connection, and everything changed so fast and it's killing me I met this guy when i was about to end a long relationship. We had a really good firend in common that had talked about me to him. HE started chatting me up intensly, in a way that made me feel unconfomfortable because of my ongoing situation. After a few meeting that i wouldnt call dates, it happened. It was magical. Everything was easy : sex, talk, silence. We both noticed it and talked about it, without engaging in any conversation about "us". As we were seing each other almost everyday, talking the whole time we were not physically together, I got to meet all of his entourage : friends, boss, boss's wife. Everything was great, but it also made me feel weird, I wasn't ready to be "in a relationship", by this I mean an open to the world one, because we sure had a great one together. As we were cooking diner one night, I asked him : "what are we?". He answered : let's not put labels because we're having a hell of a good time. I just answered that I was happy, and I wasn't seing anyone else. I just wanted to say it, wasnt expecting anything else.
After this he got weird, but we talked as much. The day of my birthday he sent me a basic message. I was having a bad day, and asked when he would cheer me up. He juste said: it's dead for today, and tomorrow is game day. I got hurt.
He wanted to come for lunch everyday of the week, and i said no. The day of my birthday celebration, i just told him I wasn't comfortable with him coming as a lot of my friends in common with my ex would be there. He said it was ok, but disappeared for weeks after. I never got the answer to why he had changed that much. After a fight about a friend in common, we not talking anymore. I miss him and feel we're missing out on something. I tried to reach back but only got one word answers. what should I do? how can I make him go back to what we had? Based on the context, the disorder may be: Expressing | Expressing |
The Patient statement is: My parents treat me like a child (I'm in college). I am a college freshman and my parents hate it when I hang out with friends doing no drugs nor alcohol. They hate it if i go out past 6 and they make a big deal if i come home later than 8 or so. Based on the context, the disorder may be: Expressing | Expressing |
The Patient statement is: Anybody else miss a year as it ends? I always felt bad when a year ends.Today is 31st of December and on tomorrow a new year will begin. Based on the context, the disorder may be: Depression | Depression |
The Patient statement is: How hard is it to get a decent job nowadays? How hard is it nowadays to get a decent job? Especially if you are chronically ill? Or mentally ill? Even with a good education its getting harder to get a good job, or i am wrong? Why should i live when i will end up poor or worse homeless? Because its getting harder to get a decent job, and if you're mentally and chronically ill its even harder. Should i just kill myself if i end up poor or homeless? Or is homelessness or poverty not a reason to kill yourself? And i don't want to end up working in a dead end job with low pay. What should i do to prevent that? Just kill myself? Based on the context, the disorder may be: Suicide | Suicide |
The Patient statement is: YSK: 23andme.com is offering up a FREE DNA Test for those who are willing to contribute to their depression and bipolar research https://www.23andme.com/depression-bipolar/
If you can apply, I highly recommend it.
>"You can participate in this study if:
>You are 18-50 years old and live in the United States.
>You have access to a desktop or laptop computer; smartphones and tablets will not work with this study.
>You have been diagnosed with major depressive disorder or bipolar disorder.
>You have been prescribed medication to treat major depressive disorder or bipolar disorder.
>You are willing to provide a saliva sample for DNA testing.
>You are willing to complete online study sessions over the course of nine months. Each study session takes between 10-30 minutes and may include surveys and a series of cognitive tests online.
>If you have been diagnosed with major depression, or bipolar disorder I, or bipolar disorder II by a medical professional and you meet the other criteria listed above, you may be eligible to participate in this study."
Based on the context, the disorder may be: Bipolar | Bipolar |
The Patient statement is: So tired. I've had depression on and off for years but came off my medication a few months back as it was making me suicidal. These last few months though have been so tough. I was made homeless and a friend took my wee boy and myself in but it was too far from my Mum so I was fortunate enough to be placed in a temporary furnished flat.
I have a guarantor (My ex) loan which I took at the time to consolidate my debt. I could make the payments fine until now. I was forced into taking a tenancy (In Scotland we are offered one option and unless we have a valid reason to decline - eg. Disabled individual taking on a third floor flat - then we need to sign for the keys). Now I'm being charged £10 a day because I can't move as my own flat is barren so uninhabitable. I fell into arrears and I'm trying to get out of them.
My wee boy is now permanently living with his Gran because what began as having coping issues has now turned into completely can't afford to keep him.
I have anxiety which for a while has been under wraps, sort of. But it has reared it's ugly head and I can't go out and feel like everything is falling apart.
I'm tired and not the kind that sleep can fix. I just can't see light at the end of the tunnel. Based on the context, the disorder may be: Depression | Depression |
The Patient statement is: Has anyone tried a smartwatch for their anxiety? Hey all, quick question.
I recently saw an advertisement showing off a new smartwatch. During the commercial it had some sort of 'stress indicator,' on it as well.
I was wondering if anyone as ever used a smartwatch to try and tackle their anxiety at the source? Possibly use it as an indicator of "oh, I need to take a breather," in order to stave off a panic attack, or more stress in general?
It seems like an interesting concept to me so I thought I'd ask.
Thanks for reading! :) Based on the context, the disorder may be: Anxiety | Anxiety |
The Patient statement is: i attempted suicide. heres what happened yestaday,my sister had a friend over and they drank almost a whole bottle of votka up,there was still a 1/4 of votka left and when my sister and her friend left ,i drank the rest up,being drunk i couldnt take this depressive pain anymore that i am living with,so i tied one of my track pants around my neck,and decided to strangle myself,but first i sat down,and did the hyperventalating thing,were you breath fast then suddenly stand up and hold your breath,so i did that,and as i stood up and pulled my pants around my neck as tight as i could,so i couldnt breath,all i remember was falling unconsious on the bed,then suddenly i felt my soul leave my body i felt as tho i lifted half way out my body when suddenly boom,my eyes just opened and i wasnt drunk anymore,its like something just shot my soul back in my body,let me explain the experince of how it felt as i left my body,as i left my body i just heard this strange audible sound,like someone being interviewed,when boom i was back in my body Based on the context, the disorder may be: Depression | Depression |
The Patient statement is: I have no friends and I am so lonely I'm a junior in college with maybe one actual friend who is incredibly busy doing their own thing so I never see them. I have a boyfriend who I spend all of my time with, but the second he leaves to do social things without me I break down because I feel so alone. I always encourage him to go out and hang out with other people but I don't know how to stop getting upset about the fact that I don't have the same opportunity at all. That he is so social makes it even more painful that I have nobody else to talk to at all and that I feel so uncomfortable in most social situations.
I feel so, so alone. I don't know what to do. I don't know how to stop being lonely. I don't know how to stop being sad all the time. I don't know why I'm so unlikeable that nobody I've met so far wants to be around me. I feel like such a bummer all of the time and it's really making me question my self-worth. Based on the context, the disorder may be: Expressing | Expressing |
The Patient statement is: Partner has bipolar- worried that I am bad for her Partner was diagnosed with bipolar at start of year. We have been together for a long time but have been having a lot of problems for the last two years. We both have a lot of baggage not including any of the bipolar stuff. Things are tough financially and I have a stressful job. We recently moved to a new town and my partner knows no one and is completely isolated from family and friends. I have solid career prospects where I am and a good job. My partners family is ok, her dad is quite wealthy and would do a lot more to support her if she was living there etc. but we wouldn't get the same help if we were together. I sometimes think she might be better off without me as there doesn't feel like there is much I can do to improve our situation but if she moved in with family she would get more support and a release of her financial pressure etc. I probably sound like a ass trying to offload my bipolar partner but its not like that. I'm a logical person and genuinely believe it may be better for her health. Based on the context, the disorder may be: Bipolar | Bipolar |
The Patient statement is: Why is everything in my life seemingly so bad? [deleted] Based on the context, the disorder may be: Depression | Depression |
The Patient statement is: I need help moving on and ease the pressure... [deleted] Based on the context, the disorder may be: Expressing | Expressing |
The Patient statement is: Feeling tense on new medication Wellbutrin Started this yesterday and am feeling tense and like my body has a lot of energy it needs to get rid of but I'm still tired. I'm clenching things too and it makes my anxiety a little worse. Getting headaches with it also. Anyone else experience this? Was there anything that helped?
Edit: In the past I've tried Zoloft, Effexor, Paxil, Pristiq, and Lexapro. They all had really bad side effects and the Effexor and Zoloft made me feel numb. So trying something new and hoping it helps. Based on the context, the disorder may be: Depression | Depression |
The Patient statement is: Last few years I had no motivation in gaming, can u guys help me get it back? What are a positive thing with gaming? I played World of Warcraft / League of Legends (online games) for 10+ years and since I quit
school (6 months ago).
I just been siting home every day alone, and worst part is I got no online friends and I'm to anxious to try make friends that I can actually use voice with.
I just feel like the things I do in the games have no purpose. It won't do anything and that really bothering me and make me unmotivated, and no motivation leads to fatigue.
Based on the context, the disorder may be: Depression | Depression |
The Patient statement is: I don't understand the fear of dying alone. It's living alone that is unbearable Based on the context, the disorder may be: Depression | Depression |
The Patient statement is: im lonley this new years im so lonley this new years all my family is out and i have nothing to do alone at home im 24 years old,what kind i do to distract myself? Based on the context, the disorder may be: Depression | Depression |
The Patient statement is: Anxious about being fired I work as a detailer at a body shop. Sometimes the workload is just too much for me, today my workload is to detail 8 cars, most of which take upwards of 2 hours to complete. Every day i come to work I fear of making a mistake or can't keep up and my boss is very harsh, so getting fired is on my mind every day, to the point where even eating is not a priority. If i do get fired the only other job that will hire me right away is a warehouse job that is just as strenuous. And i keep telling my parents im doing ok at my job but i dont want them to know im not. And they wont like me working at the warehouse cause they know how bad the turnover rate is there. Im scared for my life right now. Whats even worse is that my first appointment with my doctor for anxiety is next week and I thought that it would help but its only making it worse because I dont think ill even have a job next week. Im scared for my life right now and i want to break down crying at work right now. I dont know what to do anymore Based on the context, the disorder may be: Anxiety | Anxiety |
The Patient statement is: Can depression cause bad weed trips? I usually try to avoid smoking weed because most of the time I get bad trips from it. (anxiety kicking in particularly) but I never knew why I was having these bad trips. I was thinking it may be my negative mindset and depression.. Do you guys experience something similar as me? Because most people I know never had a bad trip from smoking pot Based on the context, the disorder may be: Depression | Depression |
The Patient statement is: Im gonna live life to the fullest and go out in a blaze on Monday [deleted] Based on the context, the disorder may be: Suicide | Suicide |
The Patient statement is: I gave my best friend away. 7 years ago, I came across a Craigslist ad. "Cockatiels for sale $90". I drove all the way to a sketchy trailer park later in the evening looking for your breeder.
Walked in and you soared to my shoulder and wouldn't move.
"I guess I'll take this one!" I said.
They put him in a box--that unknowingly had spiders in it.. The place wasn't very clean.
Since then things have been a blast. We whistled Indiana Jones theme together. Some starwars themes and even learned how to beat box. Your first recognizable sentence was "I love you". I taught you that and it was very true.
Fast forward to near present I hit my low in life. One of many it seems. Constantly fighting and losing my battle with chronic depression I found myself out another job. I didn't have the energy to give you. The behavior issues from me not giving you was starting to affect my sanity.
So, in a fit of anger and depression, I took you to the humane society. Started to lose my shit when I signed the papers and I was embarrassed. So I left quickly, without even saying goodbye as you called out to me. I made the biggest mistake doing that.
It's been almost 2 months. I've thought about you every day. Had dreams about you. Last night was no different. I dreamed that I came back to the humane society and there you were! I felt as if I could have been a better parent to you this time around, enough so to re-adopt you.
At least that's how I would have liked it to flesh out. As I got the overwhelming urge to go see you, I discovered that you weren't there anymore. No white tiel with your swoopy yellow Crest and Rosie red cheeks. You were gone.
"He was adopted 4 days after he arrived" the clerk told me.
My heart sank as I thanked her and walked away with tears welling up. I miss you Otto-bird. I'm so sorry I failed you, and I hope that you are happy and healthy wherever you may be. Based on the context, the disorder may be: Expressing | Expressing |
The Patient statement is: Suicide Note, either for the present or future me. 1/20/18. [deleted] Based on the context, the disorder may be: Suicide | Suicide |
The Patient statement is: Anxiety This post is going to be a bit personal, as I have never really talked to anyone about these issues before. I have been dealing with anxiety and depression much of my life, but after sustaining a TBI it has manifested into a monster I never could have imagined. While I have sought out medical and professional help, it isn't helping nearly as much as things I've tried myself. I'm doing a little bit better now but here is my main problem. It sounds absolutely irrational but here it is: I used to be extremely organized, but now I'm afraid to move things around or even clean up clutter or move a book I might need. I have this irrational fear that moving that item or changing something about it no matter how messy or impractical it is will set forth a chain of unwanted and horrible events. I've been dealing with a lot lately and it is finally getting a little bit better, however, this anxiety feels like it is throwing me right back to where I was. Furthermore, I'm afraid to change my clothes, put them away, and get super anxious and nervous when I have to change outfits. I'm afraid to wear different things because I'm afraid that too has something to do with changing my life or how things are going. I know it sounds absolutely crazy but I was hoping someone might have some advice? Based on the context, the disorder may be: Anxiety | Anxiety |
The Patient statement is: Morning Anxiety I have been struggling with this for years now, so I thought maybe someone here has a similar issue. Every morning (with the exception of mornings I have to wake up early) I wake up in a panic attack. It’s not necessarily triggered by a specific event or thought, seeing as it happens right as I wake up. Right now a lot of my anxiety is caused by my very recent decision to take a gap semester from college, so I wake up panicked about that, but prior this has been going on for years at this point. I also have a tendency to wake up 2 or 3 hours before my alarm. Does anyone have any tips to prevent this? I would really like to be able to sleep in past sunrise. Based on the context, the disorder may be: Anxiety | Anxiety |
The Patient statement is: A way to kill myself. I'm not considering suicide (yet) but does anyone know an efficient and painless way how? Based on the context, the disorder may be: Depression | Depression |
The Patient statement is: Turns out zoloft withdrawal is real I’ve slept 30 out the past 36 hours. I can’t see well or think straight. I’ve been lightheaded and out of it. I thought I was just hungry or tired. Turns out it’s a symptom of stopping zoloft. However, I have been happy for 4 days straight I haven’t been happy for longer than 4 hours in the past 6 months, so this is wild Based on the context, the disorder may be: Depression | Depression |
The Patient statement is: Just realized that I'm not really living for anything. I don't really feel anything anymore. Based on the context, the disorder may be: Suicide | Suicide |
The Patient statement is: Partner is ridiculously affected by my moods and his inability to "fix" me? (x-post /r/bipolar) [deleted] Based on the context, the disorder may be: Bipolar | Bipolar |
The Patient statement is: VENT: SICK of nonstop tragedies and crisis. Why bother? (TRIGGER WARNING) [deleted] Based on the context, the disorder may be: Anxiety | Anxiety |
The Patient statement is: Need help! I need to graduate this quarter! I am supposed to be graduating this quarter, I have already applied for work authorization and there is no turning back now.
I just cannot seem to be getting any work done, thanks to my anxiety and depression. I am constantly lethargic and can't concentrate at all. I am on meds too.
I am supposed to just finish the course work and my research project and graduate . But the way I am handling things, I am scared that I might just get bad grades. And the thought definitely doesn't help with my anxiety.
Me n my friends have different schedules and can't really work together. I don't know what to do. Based on the context, the disorder may be: Anxiety | Anxiety |
The Patient statement is: I'm starting to hate myself. I've always been pretty good at life. School is a breeze, social life is great, I like myself, I love my wife and I feel good about what I'm doing. This last semester I've been wasting time. Terrible amounts of time. I have hours to do my schoolwork but I don't do it. I waste my time. Then I go home and I only do my work because my wife is watching. I am feeling so lazy for no reason. I have absolutely no motivation to get started on anything and I'm falling behind in all of my classes. I have to do well in school so that I can finish my degree and get a job to support my future family but I can't. I look at all the work I have to do that I haven't done and I hate myself. I'm hiding it from my wife as best as I can but pretty soon everything is going to come crashing down. I can't do this. I can't sleep at night. I can't wake up in the morning and get to class on time, let alone to the gym. I just want to waste my life away.
What happened to all of my limitless motivation that I had when I was a teenager that stopped me from making all of the stupid mistakes that everyone else was making and pull ahead in life? Why am I wasting my time on social media when I used to never care for it because it was a waste of time? I feel like a pathetic shell of my former self. What can I do? Based on the context, the disorder may be: Expressing | Expressing |
The Patient statement is: I've Started A Job And I'm About To Vanish... [deleted] Based on the context, the disorder may be: Depression | Depression |
The Patient statement is: Went out downtown for New Years, and I feel even more alone than in my flat Currently sitting 100m away from the Eiffel Tower. Had no friends to come with, it's crowded with families, couples, groups of friend and I feel so alone.
I'm cold, well dressed but for nobody. Based on the context, the disorder may be: Expressing | Expressing |
The Patient statement is: How do you find motivation? I have Bipolar II. I'm twenty five and I've been diagnosed since I was 15. My hardest thing is finding motivation to do ANYTHING. To put it bluntly, I'm lazy. I nap every day, and I can not find the motivation to clean. I'll pick up here and there, keep trash out of the house, but nothing heavy because, quite frankly, I just don't want to. At first, I knew it was due to my depression. But now I'm medicated (60 mg prozac, 60 mg Latuda) and I've been stable for six months and it's like I'm stuck in this rut of laziness that I can't get out of. And it's not as easy as "just make yourself." It's become my routine now, and I need help changing it. Based on the context, the disorder may be: Bipolar | Bipolar |
The Patient statement is: Having shit to do gives me anxiety. Having nothing to do gives me anxiety. Based on the context, the disorder may be: Anxiety | Anxiety |
The Patient statement is: Getting treatment today for the first time in year... I forced myself into treatment yesterday for an outpatient program. I had prior trauma from inpatient treatment when I was younger so it was difficult to agree to it. But I'm doing it and hoping things will get better. Wish me luck! Based on the context, the disorder may be: Depression | Depression |
The Patient statement is: I have stopped seeing my mom and she now is stalking and harassing me and people I know I am almost 30 years old and have cut off most unndeeded contact with my mom as she is very combative and manipulative. I moved and did not tell my mom because she has the habit of flying in to see me unannounced and then demanding to stay for weeks “for my own good.” When she found out that I moved to my current city (she found out by stalking me via gps), she manipulated my brother and sister ( both in their mid 20’s) into moving into an apartment complex less than 5 miles away from where my boyfriend and I live (they previously lived on the opposite side of the country). She just got a job nearby and crashes at their place during the week when she’s working. She is planning on moving to my city once she sells the house. She calls all of this a coincidence. She found out where my boyfriend works and she knows that I know some of his coworkers. She will randomly show up at his work, question his coworkers about what I’ve been doing, get angry, start ranting to them about how much of a horrible daughter I am for not seeing her, and harasses them until they make her leave. I saw her driving on the same street as me one time and she got behind me in her car and followed me for miles until I ditched her at a light and took a detour. She tries to blackmail me into seeing her with information she has against me (she thinks she can call the cops and have me arrested for a broken apartment lease and not paying student loans on time, for example). My phone does not have the ability to block numbers and she constantly fills my inbox up with spiteful messages.
I don’t know what to do...I’m constantly paranoid and I don’t know what to do about her constant harassment. She always plays the victim card and how she’s my wonderful mother who took care of me and now I’m breaking her heart and making her cry all the time.
Any advice? Any similar situations? I feel bad for my bf too, he didn’t ask for any of this. Based on the context, the disorder may be: Expressing | Expressing |
The Patient statement is: Starting to not care how much pain my parent will feel if I kill my self. Had a really traumatic childhood. Sexually abused by older sister who also happens to be the pride and joy of our family.
Both parents and especially dad were very verbally and physically abusive.
Now I’m older and I’ve learned they didn’t know any better, and I forgive them, but the wounds and pain are still there.
The only thing stopping me from killing my self before was I didn’t want to cause my mom any pain. I used to say once my mom is gone, I will kill myself.
My parents don’t believe me when I told them how my sister used to abuse me. I’m not one to lie or make things up, and who makes up something like that?
Now I’m thinking of jumping off a bridge on the morning of my sister’s b-day.
Maybe then they will understand how painful it is to go through life being the victim of childhood trauma and then on top being rejected by your own immediate family.
My mom had a very rough life. Schizophrenic dad. Epileptic brother. My dad picks on her non stop. She is in her 60’s and takes care of my 90 year old grandmother. My death would destroy her... but I can’t take the pain anymore and she was never there for me before, so why should I hang on for her?
Based on the context, the disorder may be: Suicide | Suicide |
The Patient statement is: guys i am seeing a therapist but.. im on medication,but there are some things my therpasit said i have to work out myself,anyways,1)sometimes i feel so ungounded in my moods its feels like a tidal waves2)its hard to get joy from anything,even computer games that i use to love so much,i jsut play 5 misn and done,3)this disinterest sometimes get so extreme,that i have to just lay in bed doign nothing untill a new idea or inspiration comes 5)i just dont feel content,i know not everyone can feel happy all the time,but i never feel content now a days Based on the context, the disorder may be: Depression | Depression |
The Patient statement is: I dont have an option to live a happy life anymore suicide is what i want and need We've been drinking with my friends this weekend and i have said such a nasty thing that i cant think about meeting friends anymore. I after i said this we had long talk and im so sad that i said that even tho i never meant to sat this but even saying words like that, i cant live with them, this was worst day of my life and it will haunt me forever if i dont do something. Based on the context, the disorder may be: Suicide | Suicide |
The Patient statement is: I’m fucking stuck and embarrassed and evicted My mom gambled away our rent money for the second month in a row, and now we’re getting evicted, so now there’s that on my record at 20-years-old. We’re moving back in with a family member we used to live with when the recession hit in 2006-2012, and that’s when my depression was the worst and I went through a psychosis.
My mom doesn’t have a car or else I’d go live with someone else, but she’s fucking dependent on me now to drive her 15+ miles to and from work now while I have to babysit for my cousin during the day and also work a 30-40+ hour job at night. Today’s my first day off in awhile and I have to pack everything before we get locked out, and I don’t have a day off until Wednesday.
I’m more than 5k in debt with maxed out credit cards because of my mom, so she’s just fucking drained me of everything.
I have a dog too, so I can’t just go anywhere.
I fucking just want to die so I can’t just not have to do this right now. Based on the context, the disorder may be: Suicide | Suicide |
The Patient statement is: Out of the countless job applications I have sent... I have only ever had 2 callbacks.
Both were coffee shops.
I have a Bachelors degree. They said I can make $45,000 starting. It has been 6 years and I am making $26,000.
I have $72,000 in debt.
I can't keep taking the shots as they come... If it isn't one thing it is another. I'm not stupid, I know other people go through the same or similar shit. But why does it feel like no matter what I am the one with another bill, not the $3000 jackpot off a $1 scratcher.
Am I just meant to lose? Am I proof of being unlucky? Based on the context, the disorder may be: Depression | Depression |
The Patient statement is: Do you feel like everyone hates you? Or is that just me? I feel like my friends hate me. And maybe they do. I think I've projected all my shit onto them. I never told any of them I'm depressed Based on the context, the disorder may be: Depression | Depression |
The Patient statement is: Day 2 of removing blackout curtains Feels like day 4.
Productively hypomanic — I anticipated that.
Trying to keep cool & make good choices.
I was keeping it very dark maybe 21 hrs/day — it makes so much sense it's funny looking back at it.
I feel excited & hopeful, just wishing I had someone to share feels with and to find middle ground.
I'm confident this will help. Based on the context, the disorder may be: Bipolar | Bipolar |
The Patient statement is: My friend is dying from cancer. This beautiful woman has a very limited amount of time and I don't know what to do for her. I want to do something nice for her besides just be a good friend. I live very far away and can't fly to her. She has her family around her so at least there is that. I've dealt with many deaths in my family and even close friends but I've never had a time line leading to the end. The hard end. She is being so strong and not making a big fuss over herself and that makes me want to do someting for her even more. If you have had experience with this I would love some advice. Fuck cancer. Based on the context, the disorder may be: Expressing | Expressing |
The Patient statement is: Nope. Nope, nope, nope. Nope. I'm... really unconvinced I'm a good or worthwhile person right now.
A hidden brute, a bully, a fiend hiding in my heart.
Settling itself around my heart an icy fist, the growing knowing I'll die alone.
The ones I love always leave me - even you.
I couldn't love me either, I don't blame you.
I felt our small family's every dream nearly fulfilled, part of an invincible unit forging its way into an ever brighter future.
Now it's all shattered and collapsed at our feet and I can't even begin to puzzle out how to put the pieces back together, I'm just a very lonely man with no home of his own and
so very many responsibilities.
Celibacy or selfish lovers. Undesired and undiscovered.
I just want so desperately for someone to say something kind to me. To pay me a compliment. To find me attractive. To touch me. To show some caring.
To tell me I'm wrong to feel all this self-hatred I'm feeling.
I'm hoping people will continue to invite me to things and reach out. I have this sense like I need to withdraw from anyone I care about - to stop inflicting myself on people.
I hope this trip does me good. I hope our daughter enjoys herself.
I hope her being there with me is a powerful enough deterrent against what I want to do.
I wish someone would take her so I could do it anyway.
I wish I didn't feel that. Based on the context, the disorder may be: Depression | Depression |
The Patient statement is: I am reaching a point of no return A few years ago I was driving home from work and I have been going through a rough time with losing family and no fulfillment in life. As I was driving I took my hi point 9 and put it to my head. I say there driving a few miles and thought to myself. "What reasons do I have to live?" The only thing I thought of was my younger brother. Today I am having those thoughts again and I feel that if I put that gun to my head again. I won't be able to ask myself that same question... All I am thinking about now is finishing work and going home and grabbing my gun... Based on the context, the disorder may be: Suicide | Suicide |
The Patient statement is: I dont understand how people can just go from one SO to another so quickly. I cant even get any more than a "ew" or a "ugh" when i try to talk so somone new. Based on the context, the disorder may be: Depression | Depression |
The Patient statement is: I wish I had someone who cares me and I can talk to Not my parents
I can’t feel any love in this family
Not my friends
I have close friends,but not that kind I can tell my secrets to
Not my teachers
I’m just one of their students
I’m not one of their friends
Based on the context, the disorder may be: Depression | Depression |
The Patient statement is: Depressive episode and exams I have an oral business exam tomorrow. I don't study business, but it's mandatory. It's the 1st semester of my graduate studies.
I don't deal with exam anxiety, and I am okay with receiving whatever grade my teachers decide. I can manage, and I know it won't be the end of the world.
But I feel so bad about my lack of studying properly. I was supposed to spend the entire weekend studying, but then I went out for beers from 4pm - 3am on friday, and then spent all yesterday in bed overeating, because my current low-key depressive episode got bad. And now I haven't prepared enough, and I just can't make myself do it, because I still feel so so bad.
Sometimes I wish I could just use this disorder as an excuse, but I don't. I barely even talk about my disorder. I just really want to explain to people around me, why I am not doing enough. I'm not lazy, I'm just depressed :(
Does anyone struggle with the same feelings toward exams? Not necessarily anxiety surrounding it, or being afraid of bad grades, but feeling like shit for not doing enough? Based on the context, the disorder may be: Bipolar | Bipolar |
The Patient statement is: How do you stop thinking that you are bothering/annoying people? I keep on thinking that, but I've been trying to fight it by sending things I want to send (messages), but now still have a more intense anxiety! Based on the context, the disorder may be: Anxiety | Anxiety |
The Patient statement is: I wanted to shout this out because it has been troubling me for awhile. [deleted] Based on the context, the disorder may be: Depression | Depression |
The Patient statement is: Medication recommendations / warnings? I have GAD and am wondering who else has had success or failures with which medications? Based on the context, the disorder may be: Anxiety | Anxiety |
The Patient statement is: People always say "get help." But what does that mean exactly? [removed] Based on the context, the disorder may be: Suicide | Suicide |
The Patient statement is: So my brother just confirmed the fact I am a burden to my parents, what's the point anymore They told my brother all I do is sit at home at my computer everyday and am just a burden. Can't please anyone, honest to god there is no point to life anymore Based on the context, the disorder may be: Depression | Depression |
The Patient statement is: Lamictal vs Lithium I want to know the difference between those two meds in terms of effectiveness as a mood stabilizer. My docs won't give me lithium, is lamictal an equal or good alternative? Currently taking 75mg of Seroquel. Thanks. Based on the context, the disorder may be: Bipolar | Bipolar |
The Patient statement is: Had to Kick My Brother Out I had to kick my half-brother out of my house today and it was one of the hardest things I've ever had to do. To give some background, my parents died when I was a kid and I've had issues with depression on and off for as long as I can remember. Last year my half-brother's dad died. He's been in a funk since then, but it's hard to tell. He lost his license years ago and hasn't held a steady job since he was younger than I am now (he's almost a decade older).
Given my background, I took the stance of fighting for everything, and have a pretty successful job, and a house, with an amazing girlfriend. All of that doesn't shield anyone from the truths of life though.
A week ago I got a call from my brother that he needed a place to stay. He's been more or less homeless since they cut the power to his dad's house, and he's had a lot of issues in his life. I told him I would if he would follow a number of rules and submit to a drug test. I love him, and am fully willing to help him if he can show that he is willing to make a full effort to becoming a valid member of society again.
Short story is that after 5 days, I can no longer let him stay here as he is ignoring boundaries, being disrespectful, and not owning up to any of the conditions I laid out (that any functional adult could follow without being told). Tonight I had to send him on his way and dropped him off with one of the only friends he has left that will accept him as he's burnt most bridges.
I'm extremely conflicted about it, and it was a very tough decision. I have relegated myself to the reality that I will not sleep tonight. My other siblings already won't accept him, so I am the last to turn him away, but it's just very difficult.
Sorry for the wall of text and relative lack of details. With the personal nature of the story I wanted to keep it obscured where possible. I just needed to get this out there as a form of therapy and to open myself up to the feedback or criticisms of anyone out there who might take the time to read my ramblings. Based on the context, the disorder may be: Depression | Depression |
The Patient statement is: It's Christmas Eve and I've not a moment to share with another person or a thought to concede [deleted] Based on the context, the disorder may be: Depression | Depression |
The Patient statement is: please tell me about your experiences with meds meant to stop attacks/help with attacks hi
I've been having some pretty serious attacks lately due to hypochondria about tinnitus. They're incredibly bad. Probably my worst in years. I cannot breathe or cope my way through them, I'm really struggling. I'd like to ask my Dr about meds to take in the event of an attack. Please tell me about your experiences (good and bad!!) along with what medication is involved.
Thanks in advance.
I'm not currently on ANY meds. Based on the context, the disorder may be: Anxiety | Anxiety |
The Patient statement is: Love Sucks I dated this girl for 3 years and we never had any problems with the exception that she had (and has) severe depression. So she kind of neglected me physically (hugging, cuddling, and obviously everything else but small casual touching was seldom) and I had come to terms with the idea that she may be asexual because everything else was great. We broke up mutually with no bad fallout so we didn’t have to hold eachother back from meeting new people because I was moving 2 1/2 hours away and wouldn’t have much time to visit. Its been almost a year and I went to visit and we hooked up and shared our experiences apart. She’s better now and more (physically) active and she says she loves me. But she wont be with me because the distance apart is “unrealistic”. I don’t need constant affection, I had seriously come to terms with being in a relationship with someone who didn’t want any physical affection. Now she does, and won’t even be in a long distance open relationship with me. Not adamantly but she says what if she meets someone who isn’t cool with that. I realize I sound like an idiot because everything I’ve said makes this girl sound kindof crazy. But she is the most beautiful, funny, talented, thoughtful, and most amazing girl I’ve ever met. Ive gone down to visit her twice now and all I can feel is anxiety and stress and I either want to have her or to completely forget about her and I can’t do either. To top it all off since i’ve moved and she was my best friend I don’t have anyone to talk to about this so I’m just in an echo chamber of feeling awful. I don’t know what to do I just want to not feel anything.
TLDR
I love a girl who says she loves me but won’t be with me because the 2 hours I am from her makes it ‘unrealistic’. And i’ve suggested a long distance open relationship just so I can hold onto her but she’s concerned she’ll meet someone she really likes and they wont be okay with that.
Help an idiot please Based on the context, the disorder may be: Depression | Depression |
The Patient statement is: Going through the after effects of a breakup Mid 20's Male here. My ex broke up with me a few months ago a few days after our one year. She was the most serious and longest relationship I ever had. I had plans/thoughts on asking her to marry me (never bought a ring though, but was looking). We broke up due to our differences. She was more withdrawn and distant, and I am more outgoing and wanting affection and consistent communication. Also, she sometimes suffered from depression and will tell you herself that she is anti-social. Honestly, it was probably for the best that we broke up, but man it still hurts some. I thought I found the one, but looking back, I was unhappy a lot of the time because I couldn't have her around a lot,
but we made time(both live with our parents). I have heard it said that women get over break ups quicker than men, I don't know if it's true or not, but 3 months, and I am still feeling pain. I sent her a letter wishing her and her family well, and offered friendship twice with no reply. No text, no phone call, no facebook post, no nothing. She has the right, but it's just hard. I am sad today. Maybe things would be different if we were friends or at least declare each other "cool" with each other, but nothing. Another girl who wants to date me wants to be with me, but honestly, I don't think my heart has healed despite the fact that she is a really great person. Heartache sucks. I think I will heal and love again, but man...this sucks. Based on the context, the disorder may be: Expressing | Expressing |
The Patient statement is: I don't know if I am depressed or going through tough time... [deleted] Based on the context, the disorder may be: Depression | Depression |
The Patient statement is: Does anyone actually care? I want to post something but I don't think it'll change anything. If anyone does care, let me know. I need to talk to someone. Based on the context, the disorder may be: Suicide | Suicide |
The Patient statement is: I’m drunk, gave my last Christmas present tonight, and i have nothing to look forward to for the rest of my life (my calendar is blank forever). Not waking up seems okay. [deleted] Based on the context, the disorder may be: Suicide | Suicide |
The Patient statement is: I'm a guy and I hate my physical appearance I don't know why men are always told to not care about their physical appearance. I can be having a good day and then I look in the mirror of some store and immediately get self conscious and feel disgusted.
I know I'm average looking at best/worst but I can't help noticing these detalls that make me enraged at myself; my slouched shoulders, forward head posture, non-existant chin, dry skin, unmanagable thin hair.
I care too much about my appearance and immediately feel shitty when I wear clothes that don't fit thag well, etc... I don't do it because I want to feel superior to other people and get noticed/glanced at. I do it because I don't want to look inferior and ugly, that's what makes you really get noticed/glanced at.
Based on the context, the disorder may be: Depression | Depression |
The Patient statement is: worried about meds and sexual function I can't decide what's worse, feeling like I do or taking a anti depressants/anxiety meds (likely zoloft) and losing sexual function entirely. I already have a pretty low libido, and sometimes struggle with orgasm. The thought that I could go completely numb and possibly permanently ruin everything is very confronting.
The internet tells me this might not go away and it's the most common side effect.
Is it really worth it? I don't know, but the whole thing just gives me more anxiety!!! Based on the context, the disorder may be: Anxiety | Anxiety |
The Patient statement is: Today marked 6 weeks since you suddenly decided I wasn't good enough for you. I come on here and write posts and make comments about you nearly everyday, because I feel like I should be over it by now. I've pretty much stopped talking to friends about you, besides like 1-2 people. I don't want to annoy my friends anymore. So I come on here to vent, I come on here to find comfort. I enjoy bonding with others over the same pain.
I'm okay now. I'm still sad, but I also feel okay too. It doesn't feel horrible anymore, but you're still on my mind all the damn time. I still hope that you'll come back, all the damn time.
Truthfully, I don't think that hope is something I'll ever let go of, until I meet someone else. I will never stop caring, until I meet someone else. That's probably the only thing that will allow me to let go within a reasonable amount of time.
And if I don't meet someone else, which I am purposely not allowing myself to do for awhile, I know I will be clinging onto hope for a very, very long time.
It's 2:40am and I know you're probably fast asleep. I hope you have a beautiful day tomorrow, it'll be your last day of being 28. :) Don't think that I've forgotten that your birthday is this week. Goodnight, and I hope you still think of me from time to time. I hope that you'll come back someday soon. Based on the context, the disorder may be: Expressing | Expressing |
The Patient statement is: I wonder how my personality is without mental illnesses [deleted] Based on the context, the disorder may be: Expressing | Expressing |
The Patient statement is: Gas Station When I walked out of the gas station some teenage looking dude with his buddies happened to get to the door the same time as me on the other side. They open the door and we both go through the door and as I leave I hear him tell me "your welcome, kid". I mean I know I'm in my 20s and still look like a kid, but sorry for not saying thank you I guess. I thought he open the door for himself? I just happen to be right there when he does. Its not like he hold the door open
I think I am socially retarded, and nobody likes me Based on the context, the disorder may be: Depression | Depression |
The Patient statement is: Brokeup with gf yesterday and unexpectedly saw her today... [deleted] Based on the context, the disorder may be: Suicide | Suicide |
The Patient statement is: interview!!!! I have an interview tomorrow for a new job I really want. I have social anxiety and I forgot about how much stress they cause!! having two or more people staring at you judging you asking all these questions. fair to say I am shitting myself. my heart rate increases and I can become out of breath easy.
doing plenty of preparation today. not exactly asking for advice but just wanted to see how other people cope and how they find interviews Based on the context, the disorder may be: Anxiety | Anxiety |
The Patient statement is: Need some advice regarding life choices. I'm posting this here out of a desperation to ease the anxiety that I've been feeling over the past few days, in hopes that some of the more experienced members of this sub can help bring my erratic thoughts to a more tranquil state. I joined the Army National guard about two months ago. I've been to two drills so far and have continually failed to pass the OPAT despite my best efforts. I have one more attempt before my ship date is to be changed and I really don't know if I have it in me to pass it. On top of that I keep hearing horror stories from the gold phasers about their time spent in basic training. They try to frame it in a way that sounds reminiscent. Like it was some fun summer camp that they long to go back to. Even though what they're describing sounds like a horrid hell hole littered with suicides and sadistic men who live to torment the recruits into submission. Sometimes I feel like I made the wrong choice, but I guess the freedom to make choices comes with the chains of their consequences. I originally posted this on R/army for their take. They gave a range of different, responces, but the one that caught my eye stated that I could legally quit if I hadn't been through basic yet. My question to you is should I ride it out or cut my losses and put this all behind me. Based on the context, the disorder may be: Anxiety | Anxiety |
The Patient statement is: Feeling sad and helpless for no reason. Please help Ok so lately I've been feeling really really sad and on the verge of the tears for no apparent reason. I just feel like shit, specially at night. Physically I also feel really off - not exactly sick, but all kinds of wrong if that makes sense. I can act happy around my girlfriend/friends and my family but nothing makes me happy. I've felt this way for almost five weeks now and I don't know if I'm depressed or what. Right now I'm feeling particularly crappy and I don't know if I should just tell my parents. I have so many negative thoughts just bouncing around my head I feel like I'm going crazy. I'm also 17 yo if that matters. Based on the context, the disorder may be: Depression | Depression |
The Patient statement is: I have a perspective opportunity but I am wasting it writing this. i'm a fucking moron [deleted] Based on the context, the disorder may be: Suicide | Suicide |
The Patient statement is: It's been over a year... And I still see no purpose in life [deleted] Based on the context, the disorder may be: Depression | Depression |
The Patient statement is: Depression has turned me into something I'm not supposed to be [deleted] Based on the context, the disorder may be: Depression | Depression |
The Patient statement is: Religion and depression Does anybody feel like religion or being in a religious group helps or lessens the pain? Based on the context, the disorder may be: Depression | Depression |
The Patient statement is: What do I do? I just found out my Mother was incarcerated for Reckless Homicide.. I'll just say it was drug related. My world was falling apart enough already and this just caused everything around me to completely shatter. I have never felt lower. I could really use some support. Based on the context, the disorder may be: Depression | Depression |
The Patient statement is: The crushing feeling of loneliness. I guess I’m not alone, you guys are all here. I don’t really know where else to turn while I️ am waiting for my plane to fly out to Cali for my Grandpa’s sudden death. It’s not necessarily his death that made me feel like all this hard work of trying to be sane was for nothing. I just can’t think anymore, the lack of emotional support from girlfriend who’s long distance is also holding me down so I feel as if I can’t talk to her about anything because then things get so personal when all I really need is a hug. This pressing amount of work from school for my last year I need to get done. A retail job that makes me feel like I’m a terrible person for flying out so suddenly to go to a funeral. This crushing loneliness that even with all the friends and helping hands I’ve had and the countless therapy sessions I’ve had I still feel so fucking alone. Do you guys ever feel alone...? What do you do? I never understood the idea of feeling like you’re constantly drowning but still alive until now. My emotions and mental health just feel so tired and worn out. I don’t know what I’m looking for, I don’t know the solution. I’ve developed eating disorders, I had poor sleeping and I just don’t know what to do. I don’t know how to fix it all and make it all better. And what makes it worse is that I don’t talk to anyone about it because it always sounds like I’m making such a big deal but I can’t take it anymore. This weight and constant guilt that I’m always doing something wrong is nagging at me so hard. How do you combat something like that? Based on the context, the disorder may be: Depression | Depression |
The Patient statement is: I've gone from sickeningly happy to so depressed I've rationalized suicide. [deleted] Based on the context, the disorder may be: Suicide | Suicide |
The Patient statement is: Suicide Note: Im a fuck up.
Im so sorry.
Shooting heroin and meth? What is wrong with me?
I just want to die. Honestly. I dont want to live anymore. Im done.
Goodbye. Tomorrow you wont have to deal with me anymore. Based on the context, the disorder may be: Suicide | Suicide |
The Patient statement is: rapid cycling q's wtf is rapid cycling? I've heard it being used before and I've been feeling really bizarre lately and somehow it popped into my head. I've been really manic for about a month, but the past week I've been having like days sometimes even just hours when i feel really suicidal and depressed. And then I go back to full blown mania and I feel great again. But it's been happening more and more frequently.. Dunno if that's what this is, but if someone could explain... mucho appreciative. Thanks :)
Anyone have experience with rapid cycling and can explain in a more personal manner? Based on the context, the disorder may be: Bipolar | Bipolar |
The Patient statement is: Literally have no friends. Today is my birthday. I got one call, from my sister. I have 12 friends on Facebook (mostly family), so Facebook tried to "clean up" false account. I'm pretty pathetic. Not sure what to do. Based on the context, the disorder may be: Depression | Depression |
The Patient statement is: I am desperate, I need someone to talk to. Hey whoever is reading this, I need some help and I don’t know who to turn to. So a few years back I started experiencing issues socializing with people. It has gotten to the point where I have no friends left and can’t start conversations with coworkers or even my bf’s friends. My boyfriend and I like to climb for fun. We have a membership at a climbing gym and we go at least 3 times a week. I love going but sometimes I have uncomfortable episodes. I feel like I’m trapped inside plastic wrap and I want to get on my feet and climb but my body won’t move. It doesn’t matter how many times I tell myself I need to get up my body does not respond. Things only spiral down after that. I start feeling like I have a lump on my throat, pressure on my chest and the feeling of impotence rises and shuts me down. I’ve tried talking to my bf about it but sometimes words won’t come out of my mouth when I try to explain what’s happening. Maybe I was scared of him thinking its stupid? Anyways, I tried explaining to him what’s been happening to me and he said I just need to stop it, that I can get over it if I try. The problem is that I don’t know how.
Has any of you had a similar experience? What should I do? How do I work through this? Based on the context, the disorder may be: Anxiety | Anxiety |
The Patient statement is: Possibly going manic, but I have no idea It’s actually making me kind of anxious. I thought I heard someone say they hate me, but it’d be uncharacteristic of them to say that, especially when I’m right beside them. I’m assuming it was a delusion/hallucination (I have audio hallucinations of my phone vibrating or water running sometimes), which I believe is a symptom of mania? But I feel stable today. I’m on an antidepressant and a mood stabilizer which isn’t at a high enough dose to do a whole lot. I’ve never been truly manic, so it’s a lot harder for me to say I’m about to go manic than if I was going to be hypomanic.
Also having problems talking (wrong tenses and that type of thing) and everything feels like it’s moving faster than me. Not having a good time, I think it could be one of the medications.
I’m making an appointment with my doctor tomorrow, they weren’t open today. Based on the context, the disorder may be: Bipolar | Bipolar |
The Patient statement is: I wish I didn't have a family and friends that cared about me. [deleted] Based on the context, the disorder may be: Depression | Depression |
The Patient statement is: Spiraling down the drain I'm having a "bad day." I don't know why I'm posting. I just want my life to end. I don't like this world at all. Everyone just puts their problems on me, when I don't really care. I'm such a simple guy. I don't start fights, I'm a nice guy. I get over things quickly, but still, I'm a fucking loser. It's not enough to just chill, I have to work hard. What if I don't want to or can't find a shitty fucking "career." I want to skip this life and go on to nothingness. Goodbye judgemental people, goodbye family problems, goodbye north korea, goodbye child labor, fuck it all, the world can't get their shit together, the world is mean. Who would want to live here? If you become rich you just live in a protected bubble. I want out of this. But I don't want to end my life, my survival instinct is too strong. I can't fucking die by my own hands, I just cant. I'm stuck.. I just sat in the bathroom for 4 hours, I don't know what I'm supposed to do on the Earth. I'm tired of being stuck. Im getting worse... .__. If I put in effort and my life doesn't seem to improve in 10 years, I really will kill myself, because I can't just exist like this Based on the context, the disorder may be: Suicide | Suicide |
The Patient statement is: I’m New to this. So um.. I don’t think I have depression, and I haven’t seen a doctor. I am afraid to. See, I cut for the third time tonight after fighting with my boyfriend and am very suicidal. I’m terrified of people finding out or noticing and I’m not sure what to do. I feel like I want to die but I’m not going to attempt. I wouldn’t be able to. I just need someone to talk to , even if it’s a bunch of strangers over Reddit. I don’t think I’ll kill myself but I’m starting to consider it and I’m just overall depressed right now and need someone to talk to about it. Based on the context, the disorder may be: Suicide | Suicide |
The Patient statement is: The only way I’ll ever find peace, is death. Its my only choice. Its the only option I have to find peace. Fuck happiness. Happiness is a myth. It doesn’t exist. There is no point in chasing it because its a fallacy.
I just want peace. I want all my misery and pain to end. I’ve tried everything else, all in vain. The only thing that can save me now is death. Based on the context, the disorder may be: Suicide | Suicide |
The Patient statement is: Feel like life's too hard for me, wanna give up [deleted] Based on the context, the disorder may be: Depression | Depression |
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